#so so so girlhood

[luvrxbunny]

not horny!

so i’m gonna rant about my brother

here’s a list of things he’s done. now on top of that, he’s my older brother and when my parents divorced, my mother started working a bunch but my sister was still too young to take care of herself. so my brother and i kinda had to take over except my brother did not step up at all and used the freedom to sneak himself a phone, get social media (against my mothers rules at the time) and i ended up basically being a single mother to my little sister in 4th grade

i’d make sure she showered, i’d make her dinner and lunch box, i’d make sure she got her homework done and check it before bed and i’d make sure she gets dressed in the morning and make her breakfast— my mom knew i was doing all this but also assumed he was helping, he was not

on top of that my mom got stressed about the house being clean and so i took on a lot of those responsibilities as well! i was in a really bad place and i felt like if i wasn’t useful enough then my family wouldn’t love me anymore so i tried to take on any responsibility i could.

by sixth grade i was still taking care of my sister but i also started sweeping and mopping the house, doing all the dishes aside from his, and the laundry

so i kinda blame him for me not getting a childhood and all this happened before “ran away” on my list (it’s chronological)

so then there’s everything that happens afterward. and my mom recently decided to get in touch with him and make my sister and i hang out with him every weekend… just with everything completely forgiven

and it pisses me tf off because i wasted a lot of my childhood because of him meanwhile he got to live his life AND be the problem child. and my mom currently treats him better than she treats me so it feels like i wasted my whole fucking life for her approval when apparently all i needed was to be a royal fuck up to get it!

i’m going to fucking college because it’s what she wants meanwhile he’s a dropout with no intentions to go to college

he brags about all his friends— how some of them have been to jail, are accused sexual and physical abusers and she feels BAD for him???? and then get MAD at me for not wanting to be around him.

so she says she’ll hangout with him one on one if it bothers me so much (she said it so fucking sarcastically tho) but now i’m like… so you’re choosing him over us?? after everything we’ve done to make your add happy. my sister and i clean the house almost everyday trying to keep her happy

my poor sister knows how to pour alcohol so that it doesn’t foam because she does it for my mom just to keep her happy. like it’s all so fucked up

sorry for my LONG ASS rant guys ily all for giving my a little safe space

[observinghenrywinter]

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