#sometimes that behavior is more than understandable tbh tho......

[qweenexplosionmurder]

sometimes the little voice in my head tells me "you're acting like bakugo on season 1" and then i immediately chill the fuck down

[weaselbeaselpants]

The 'Quinton v Nebula'clique' drama

[[[ DO NOT BOTHER THE PEOPLE MENTIONED IN THIS POST]]]

I saw on Twitter that Quinton had filmed a response to one of his critics whom he had a more personable interaction with. After going through all the info laid out by non-biased, non Wikitubia sources that aren't gushing abt shit that doesn't matter, as well as I guess what we'll call the "opposing sides" here's what I can surmise:

A yt named FlowersGothic had some kind of parasocial interest in Quinton and really wanted to be his solo editor and more* irl

-> Quinton himself also has/had his own parasocial attachments to people, namely Lindsay Ellis and Sarah Zed, I think. I def remember how the two expressed publicly that they aren't into working with him after (I think???) he trauma dumped and was waaay to emotionally volatile when asking to be their friend, which naturally turned them away and creeped them out. Whether or not he was definitely creeping on either women is unclear but yeah I get why they were uncomfortable.

All parties involved here already know this, but it's not Lindsay and Sarah's responsibility for Quinton's validation or feelings of rejection. they don't have to be friends w him when they feel like he pushed their boundaries. I do feel like, frankly, a lot of these receipts are being presented as worse than they are by the 4chan/KiwiFarmers doing the digging...if Quinton's going to be called a creeper, it better be by the ppl he hurt and not randos who don't even like Sarah or Lindsay abt how they should feel...

-> Flowers took her job as editor waay too personally and also messaged Quinton drunk twice, on Halloween saying she wanted to be more than friends

-> Quinton said no. Like Ellis and Zed, he's not responsible for Flowers' feelings and validation, just her paycheck which he said did pay her fill on

-> Flowers did a 180 and said she now hated him, apparently blamed him for her emotional problems and state and started to compile a list of grievences she's had and spit that back at Quinton.

-> Flowers has been presenting these receipts as absolutes for awhile now

-> Quinton for the first time responds on his second channel to Flowers accusations; presenting his side and also saying Flowers' is using half-truths and sometimes straight up lying

-> Dan Olson and Lady Emily, friends of Lindsay and Sarah respectively have vague tweeted today very obviously abt Quinton. Don't know exactly what Olson said, but Emily def is implying that Quinton = bad

-> people are now wondering if Flowers is somewhat responsible the schism and that the 'Nebula Clique' is siding with her and other people's own biased thoughts against Quinton as fueled by their own less than positive circumstances with him.

It's sad. I haven't watched anything by Flowers. I think I would, actually, but these are some very heavy things she's accusing here and things she's being accused of. I don't actually know any of these people exactly, but none of them seem like liars -if anything I see Quinton as being a little bit waywaywaay too honest sometimes? Not understanding like Contrapoints, I guess, but you know- tmi?

As an outsider, this looks like a matter of a lot of hut feelings and neurodivergents' judging other neurodivergents' behavior based on their own bad experiences.

I hate calling the Nebula crowd a 'clique', tbh. As someone who is always on the outside of other friend groups and so know the feeling of jealousy and exclusivity, I think it's easy to just look as any gang of well-netted creators as a "clique" when they could very well just be protective of each other. Considering the bs Sarah and all the former TGWTG-folks had to deal with I get their apprehension of Quinton.

I also tho really get Quinton as someone dealing w similar issues as him, and I'd be heartbroken to find out he's lying or even just accusing someone else of lying.

Gosh I hope this blows over and gets resolved and doesn't reach the pos drama channels out there.

[witheringwidgetwrites]

Obey me + brat taming please

(also, do you take requests for specific kinks with specific characters? maybe im just blind but i couldn’t find any request rules.)

Yea I do!!! I also dont have any rules, really. i picked my top two for this. I believe most of the brothers could handle brats tho tbh.

CW spanking

Lucifer is probably who you expected to see here. He holds a firm hand against brats, and he enjoys it. He loves the thrill of the "chase" if you will. He likes being able to shape you, mold your behavior. And he secretly enjoys when you break the rules, because sometimes the punishments are that much more fun.

You might not expect it, but Beelzebub handles brats with ease. He's gentle though, typically. Once he understands the game you're playing at, he's excited. He's more in it for the rewards than for the punishments though, but he doesn't mind them. He'll spank you with his brow furrowed, "just 4 more, maybe you'll learn your lesson."

[rahleeyah]

okay bestie, thoughts on tonight's episode, please?? i need your insight because you always have the best.

I love this so much actually, I think it's exactly what was needed at this time, and I'm impressed tbh with both the nuance of her stance and the clarity of it.

Olivia said he was her home. Olivia pointed out she didn't have a claim to him back then as if this was something she had to remind herself of often. Olivia says he's someone else's husband with a profound sort of presentism, as if his marriage is still ongoing even tho Kathy has been gone for a while now. Olivia said, out loud, that it's all possibility with Elliot and that the possibility is paralyzing.

Other people have said this more eloquently than me but what this does is it takes all of our interpreting of Olivia's behavior, all of our reading between the lines, all of our frustrated certainty that EO had something between them in 1.0, and it puts those words in Olivia's mouth. Olivia has confirmed, out loud, that this man was her home. We knew that, but to hear her say it is to take a great big step forward.

Now. I know someone else came in my inbox and asked about "he was my home but he left" and I know the antis are salivating over it, but I love that bc that is the complex, messy place where human emotion lives. He was her home and then he took that away and it's been ten years so of course he isn't still her home now, of course she hurts, of course she is afraid. That doesn't mean she doesn't want him to be. You can hear the longing in her voice, even when she says she's hurt. He was her home. He isn't now bc she had to learn to live without him. He could be, again. She wants him to be.

And that is the place where real love, not the stuff of romance novels and movies but real human love, lives. It lives in human, complicated people who are not perfect in the ways they treat each other every minute of every day, who sometimes say cruel things or make decisions that hurt others. If you love anyone, deeply, for more than a week, at some point one or the other of you is going to be hurt or upset or offended or frustrated; that's human. Love is what brings us to forgive one another our human failings. Love is what teaches us to apologize, and try to be better. Love is what shows how to give grace to one another. We love one another through difficult times, we love one another through our mistakes. We love each other, when we succeed and when we fail. We love each other, even tho we are not perfect, because we are not perfect.

And while Olivia was hurt by Elliot leaving she also understands she had no claim to him. She said that. It hurt her, but no matter what he chose someone would've been hurt and he was someone else's husband. He had to choose his family. Olivia is a grown-up. She has a son. She understands her heart was not the only one involved in this mess, she understands everything doesn't revolve around just her needs. She knows he did what he was always gonna have to do. What she needs now is to see him choose her, to come and stay and make her believe he will never leave again. And I think he will.

I'm especially moved by the end of the convo and the end of the episode. This whole episode has an undercurrent about how Olivia struggles with change, struggles to adjust, is constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop, in all areas of her life. Olivia tells Amanda the possibility is paralyzing bc it is; it would be easier if Kathy was still alive bc then nothing would change and she wouldn't have to take a risk. Things are changing, now.

She wants Elliot. You can see it in her face, hear it in her voice, her yearning affect; she has always wanted Elliot. But if she reaches for him there is a risk she loses him. It would be easier, to stay where she is. It would be safer. But would it bring her joy?

Despite Olivia trying to hold to her life exactly the way it is things are changing, no matter what she does. Amanda's departure reinforces that. And if life is going to change no matter what, wouldn't it be better for her to take charge of it? She will lose Elliot if she doesn't reach for him, they will pull away from each other and drift apart and she will never have their previous level of friendship or a romance. She has to move.

She told Amanda not to postpone joy. I think she will, at some point, take her own advice.

Something is coming fam I believe it

[qtubbo]

tbh in regards to the phil and sunny thing, i think it’s just phil being a british man who is over the age of 30. that’s how they all interact with close friends’ kids and nieces and nephews n stuff. plus, he’s more up north so that kind of banter is wayyy more normal and casual. speaking from experience here, but i’m way more likely to relax around a parent’s friend that makes jokes that are sometimes at my expense than someone who is just super polite. makes them feel too distant.

sunny probs isn’t british and doesn’t feel the same tho. phil isn’t being malicious and i think he just finds sunny chaotic and fun. i think he’s also just quick to treat the new eggs how he treats the other eggs, maybe forgetting that he doesn’t really know them well enough to make jokes and doesn’t think they’ll take them srsly, esp since sunny seems to confident and headstrong.

obv, if phil gets told he crossed a line, he’ll apologise 🤷 however, it’s up to tubbo or sunny to tell him he crossed a line and for them to set boundaries. phil can’t read minds sadly. we just need some good qommunication <3 (but i like conflict too so i hope it maybe isn’t solved too soon pff)

soz for the long wall of text! just wanted to give my thoughts since i’m also from north britain and qphil is one of my povs!

(sorry if I misread anything dyslexia does not like large walls of text)

I’ve been watching phil since 2020, and he was the person to get me into twitch (funfact), generally speaking I mainly watch British streamers even though they are at a bad time for me, I do understand how Phil jokes. That’s why I didn’t take Phil’s comments about Sunny stealing very seriously, I think it’s a fine line to balance sometimes he’ll say things he’s always been comfortable joking about and I do think some people are taking that too far. Phil’s humor is sarcastic, and to outright ignore that is an inappropriate reading of his character.

My issue stems from how it treats Sunny and Tubbo’s parenting in particular with more negative comments, while I think a lot of the comments to Tubbo can be ignored (i.e questioning why he’s able to have an egg, that came off as much more lighthearted). It just not within his previous characterization the level of mocking he’s done towards Tubbo about Sunny, that were I feel its a more of a built up resentment. His attitude to Sunny in particular is more noticeably negative than how he treated any egg when they were new, and more relevant Em. He has mocked Sunny’s choices, how she talks, and has spoken negatively about them without them being there. Phil is mean to Sunny, genuinely, but he is still good with the other eggs.

I do think you’re right about him being more comfortable joking with Sunny due to her personality but at the same time she really wasn’t acting overly confident with him more childish. Also I do assume he’ll apologize if he gets told off for his attitude, but at the same time I doubt that will happen because Tubbo just doesn’t do that stuff. This is something that will hopefully fixed through time, and once he learns to completely separate them from Tallulah, which considering Tallulah’s issue with Sunny right now will take awhile to fix.

Thank you for your thoughts though, It’s nice to know how other people are taking his behavior.

[ardynsflower]

Hello! I hope you're having an amazing day today!

I've been absolutely feral over Bayonetta and there isn't enough content of Bayo x fem!readers... anywhere🥲 So you can imagine how stoked I was when I came across your account!

l've got a request if it's alright (I hope this is the proper way to ask)! May I request a Gomez and Morticia type of dynamic with shorter reader (I'm 5'2") that's just completely in love with her wife Bayonetta. You can choose if it will be a scenario or a head cannon l'm fine with either! I can imagine reader being some kind of artist (maybe a fashion designer that loves to make outfits for Bayo!!!). Do you write smut? If not that's totally fine! If you do tho feel free to add if you’re up for it!

Thank you and no rush if you decide to take up the request and Thank you anyway if you choose not to! I know how busy lives can be and as an artist I can understand the pressure of making something for others :) Have fun! Thanks again!

Awh dear, first, thank you and I hope you’re having an amazing day as well, AND YES FR THERE ISN’T ENOUGH BAYO X FEM!READER EVEN THO SHE GAY AS (the gates of) HELL..Anyways, I’d love to write that, morticia and gomez are one of the best couples fr their dynamic is just so adorable and i can’t get over it. Let’s use bayo’s Google height for this one and the reader your 5’2, but tbh anyone can read this just don’t read the "love for your short wife" part/s lol. (I myself am a 5’7.) Feel more free than ever to send more requests, bayo lovers here. Ps: sorry for that long ass message and I’ll change some things with the fact that she’s a witch from the Umbra. Sorry, tell me if you want it to change.

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-First, let’s talk about some importants things.

-Bayo is 5’8, and you being short as hell for her makes the vibe more clearer, you’re her Gomez and she’s your Morticia, ofc. Also, Bayo showed to be obviously more darker than Jeanne, so I’ll take the liberty to use Gomez and Morticia’s real over all strange but romantic couple type.

-Whenever you both are together in your black, elegant and kind of special house or just in general, the romantic and creepy (as Jeanne describe it sometimes..) couple quotes are a whole thing. You both can’t live a day without giving the other red/black roses and tell them something like, "Amor, I’ll make/get you the most prettiest dark dress just so you can be as dead and pretty as you are to me." (Romantic for you guys hello remember it? You both are kind of trash here.)

-You can’t stop gently kissing her hands or kiss her at all. You can’t let one without the other.

-Going to the point where you’re an artist, well, this is one of the reasons why bayo fell in love. Your (mostly) black and dark red dress or just outfits in general were so pretty, she loved your passion and seeing you being more passionate as well. Now she is kind of premium member one, lol, you always at least make her one dress every two-three weeks. Got more passion for her tho.

-I’m not gonna get too into it, but when it comes to the bed, Bayo’s ofc a top. But sometimes she’ll let you do what you wanna do, but not too much<3 she keeps her role. And by going, romanticism will never stop. Rose’s, wine, cozy and gloomy kind of lighting…It’s just perfect for you. As your couple is perfect.

-She is more of a black cat than you, but you both works as well as black and grey kitty’s. (Didn’t wanted to put white cat. It’s Jeanne, lol.)

-concerning about being out of the house, she always have an arm on your hips and romantic behavior with her. As well as you. Sometimes people like Jeanne, Luka and blah blah blah can thought of something like, "It’s looks fucked up but- It’s cute tho." and everything that goes on. They’re understandably kind of scared whenever you guys are too trash for them, lol. More Luka than Jeanne tbh.

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It’s so short and rushed omg I’m sorry BUT MY DAD IS COMING TO SEE ME SO I HAVE TO PREPARE, YK, ANYWAYS BYE BYE HOPE YOU LIKED THAT ILL RE DO IT IF NOT !! Bye ily<3

[eldritch-araneae]

Hmm damn it is so sad and weird to me how ppl just focus on one single moment when they talk about TFE Bee and completely ignore the rest. For the first time we get a multi-faceted Bee in shows and ppl just ignore it.

It's like ppl need a lot of time to get used to the idea that you can't put this Bee just into "uwu innocent boi" or "ohh he's an asshole!" box.

And notice, he shows his flaws couple of times and ppl put him into second box immediately, like such typical behavior uhh. No wonder I was anxious to watch the show bc ppl painted him as WFC Netflix Bee mixed with TFA Bee sdvsgvds

Idk, maybe bc ppl’s word usage is incorrect and the love to paint anything in those broad strokes. Because I’ve seen ppl using some really big words with specific meanings to exaggerate his flaws.

Spoilers of the show under the cut! 

Just because he’s flawed it doesn't make him an asshole. To me being asshole is more prevalent and deeply rooted trait that character usually needs to overcome.

This Bee, however, you show him compassion and he immediately drops this attitude. He notices if he says something wrong and backs away, even tho sure he needs to hone those social skills. He is understanding towards ppl he cares about and even comfort them. And yes he grew into Maltos very fast and he cares about them a lot more than an ancient rock that will save his species.

Sure, he’s can be annoyed with kids sometimes, but he doesn’t resent them or even mad at them. He was confused in EP3 when Thrash thought that Bee was mad at them.

He gets pissed with some types of ppl like this agent and tbh I cannot blame him fjnfjng.

He doesn't care about the Decepticons but he was pretty much born into the war and fought them all his life....and also consider, that maybe cons also hurt him as well and has a right to dislike them? Tbh we def need a lot more context here, but I suspect Megatron did something to him in past. It’s a tiny hunch bc I saw Bee’s reaction in EP8, but it really makes me wonder~

I just wish I could discuss my observation with people, but aside from few groups of ppl no one seem interested. Like I don't see ppl bring up other moments to talk about! Like about the whole cave scene in this very episode?? Or when he bonds with Alex over guy’s heritage? Or when Dot reassured him? Or when Bee tried to dig up Maltos and what came after that? And there is more!

There are so many little things, I love this so much))

Oh well, I guess its the nature of the beast, I do hope maybe someone appreciated my observations out there.

I'm having fun analyzing him tho and trying to guess writer's intentions with him! He’s so expressive! And it looks like writers went into the direction I wanted!

Ofc its too early but I've noticing some hints and excited to see if I guess right or not :D We will see~

[welcometogrouchland]

About your post here: I’ve noticed recently a lot more posts in general on tumblr just being condescending and mean to kids for not knowing things and it annoys me too, don’t these people remember what it’s like to be a young teen and not know basically anything? Even when you’re trying to learn? How is it their fault??? So frustrating

YEAH I feel you. I didn't mention it in the og post but those posts do seem to be geared towards teens and kids more often than not I think (that's just based on personal observation tho, which is obvs biased).

As for why- tbh that's a topic I have a lot of thoughts on? Mostly baseless speculation since I have no real experience studying this kind of thing and again idk if it's even a real phenomenon or if it just feels like one to me.

Tbh one reason may be that during the pandemic, more ppl began staying inside, on screens, which meant more teens started exhibiting Chronically Online Behaviour™ (bc they literally were chronically online), which means more ppl started losing patience and being snide when trying to steer them away from such behavior (bc everyone's patience is worn thin by a pandemic!)

And like. I know we say it most often as a joke on here BUT genuinely the user base of Tumblr aging bc the ppl originally on it as teens haven't left (for good reason lol) is probably a contributing factor.

It's mostly a good thing but like you said- they genuinely might not remember much about their teen years! Or at least they don't sympathize much w/ their teenage self and that's reflected in their interaction w/ young ppl.

Ppl sometimes don't want to have to put in the extra work that comes w/ talking to someone who has considerably less life experience than you. It's understandable but sometimes ppl just get miffed abt it all.

Also like. This is a broad and complex topic so I'm going to limit myself talking abt it too much but- since early online culture and in especially in recent years, people on the internet seem genuinely think that being annoying or ignorant is truly a justification for being bullied and/or harassed.

Like it takes different forms across different groups and platforms but it's very much a part of the tone of a lot of online conversations. And I am NOT saying that well meaning but snide advice posts are the same as bullying- far from it! They're two very different things and the latter is at least well intentioned most of the time.

But I think needlessly aggressive conversations are a much bigger feature of online spaces than irl spaces and thus they slip into posts that don't even mean it/aren't even particularly invested in the topic at hand, all bc ppl perceive the target audience as ignorant or annoying.

Which isn't to say that it's not a two way street- most ppl online are like this! Oftentimes I'm like this, even when I don't mean to be! sometimes teens are ignorant or annoying and sometimes they're downright mean but. being a dick abt advice isn't going to change that. and I'd argue that normalizing being needlessly mean about innocuous topics is just gonna make them worse in the long run? So. Something something 4D chess.

And like, That's really what makes posts like that so frustrating- they want to be informative or educational but they go about it in such a counterproductive and off putting way! The accusatory tone and condescension just makes the reader defensive and unwilling to learn bc they feel attacked...when the posts entire point to be educational.

my og post wasn't phrased particularly nice either, bc I was angry and upset- and that's probably not gonna convince ppl to thoughtfully reevaluate their behavior! If I went into a post with the intention to do that I'd probably word everything differently.

Sometimes a firm hand is needed or expected when it comes to serious topics and I am NOT advocating for ppl to tone police themselves when it comes to things near and dear to them (truly hope that comes across in this post)

but if someone is complaining about how ppl use their personal blogs, navigate websites that don't work like any other current social media, or any other trivial task that doesn't come natural unless you have experience w/ it...it just feels like a waist of energy on everyone's part.

This has all been a very long winded way of saying- I totally get you and agree. it's just not productive to write out a vent-y rant on the same post as your informational guide and the frustration and embarrassment that comes from being condescended to online isn't productive either. Be mad, for sure, just don't try and teach ppl a skill or lesson while you're mad. There's a reason parents shouting at their kids during homework about how simple the problem is doesn't teach them anything.

[twinstarlovers]

Hii. So yeah I start my new job tmr as a behavior techhh! It’s kinda weird you don’t need experience, it’s actually very bad but hey… look at me 😭. I decided I don’t think ima do college because no. So yeah idk I explained but ima be going over a child’s house & be a one on one & give them services for those who has autism. Ima be starting off w one kid tho, I can add another case if I want or whatever. So I got a 4 year old girl & she lives 10 minutes away from me thank goodness, so convenient fr. Ima be working from 3-6 M-F. I will earn a lot more than my daycare for sure but because I’m starting off w one kid for 3 hours it’s only a $100 dollar difference but I’m working an hour less than my old daycare job. Anyways my last day wasn’t too hard. I’m not necessarily in my feminine energy rn so it was a little hard to process I was leaving & feeling emotional about it etc. but I am gonna miss the kids fr. I already do but new beginnings! Spiritually I’m not doing so well for my own reasons. I’m aware of it & im you know feeling all the consequences internally & externally a bit as well but letting go of certain things is very very difficult for me. Especially people (as you know lol). I understand I gotta learn the hard way & won’t let go unless I’m on the verge of losing my mind or dying & im not at that point yet & I know I don’t have to be but idk it’s just how I am. I think once I let go of this one thing, ‘paradise’ is on its way & I feel it but you know it’s just really difficult. I find it kinda cool that this new job is like carving out the path of what I want to really get into. I’ve always been in the mental health/psychology type of careers & i can’t imagine what my next job would be or the one after that yk, what doors can open just from this job. Idk it’s interesting to think about. I hate working tho. I rather be rich & help people for free than work for money for helping people. I mean that makes no sense tbh lol. But yeah I tried to a moon on my face but I fucked up & it ended being a half sun lol but I’ve been thinking about you a little but have been tryna ignore it… for my own reasons, has nothing to do w you. I know it’s not the way to go but idk, I think I’m just reallyyyy in my masculine energy & it’s been burning me out fr. But I’ve also been curious about you as much as I’ve been avoiding you at the same time lol it’s weird. But mmmm I’m seeing mom in June (Jhene Aiko) I’m sooo exciteddddd. Anyways I hope you are doing okay. I’ve been speaking to a ghost for years now it’s kinda funny but I know you see everything from my dreams & because sometimes I have urges to look through this page even tho ik what I be posting but it feels comforting? Idk. Anywayssss I’ll talk to you soon, bye bye 💟

[punkclowngod]

Also I never thought about having HPD for myself because I didn’t necessarily “fit” some of the more overt… symptoms? Behaviors? Idk. I also didn’t know very much about it either. But some of the stuff you’ve been reblogging about HPD touches on my behavior a Lot More Than I Realized. Especially in that Harley Q/Joker post thing you mentioned, I did nearly Every Part Of That, sans tattoos but literally only because I didn’t have access to an artist. I also have this insatiable void of needing attention all the time, not validation or approval necessarily, just “keep your eyes on me and Only on me or I will have a meltdown :3”. It’s worse when combined with being BPD because my FP is literally the person for whom most of that attention cravings come from but again, turning back to that insatiable void of attention. I didn’t think I was the type to attention-seek because I also kind of hate being the center of attention and hate being around people and tend to drain real easy, but also I do tend to exaggerate emotions and split when I don’t get what I want out of them. I’m constantly pulling 180s on what I want out of people tho tbh. But I just wanted to say that bc of your posts and reblogs and writing from your point of view, it’s made me consider looking more into HPD for myself. -Cybergoth. (This is an ask of appreciation btw. I’ve been struggling with that side of my behavior for so long and I could not figure out why I would do all these ‘out-of-character’ behaviors and why I couldn’t handle it but your blog has provided much needed insight into things I could never proper understand. I think there needs to be more spotlight on HPD as a disorder rather than just getting sidelined as ‘misogyny diagnosis’)

I’m so glad my posts/reblogs helped you with that!!

It’s always super important to remember that personal experience and comorbidities will affect how you experience a disorder, like for me I do have generalized anxiety disorder which definitely does affect my HPD! A few years ago I didn’t dare wear sunglasses outside because of my anxiety, chokers were a big no no even though I loved wearing them in the house, I wore leggings and hoodies because I just couldn’t stand being looked at while still craving being loved and admired by everyone and wanting all the attention in the world (plus all the other symptoms were still very present). So I do think it’s valid of you to have issues with being the centre of attention but still somehow fit that symptom, things like that are often more complicated than we’d like and a disorder can contradict our personal preferences (which I will say is a complete nightmare)

To me what you’re describing does feel like HPD (tbh anyone that even remotely relates to Harley especially from a perspective like the post I made about it should be looking into HPD lol), and if you have a FP that definitely will affect how symptoms manifest.

HPD isn’t necessarily about validation - it often is but a lot of the time if we don’t get the positive and validating attention we’ll just start doing whatever the fuck we can to be looked at and talked about

I also drain easily but I am an extrovert, I love being in groups and talking and having fun, so for me being the centre of attention and main subject of the conversation is the most important part of going out (HPD + autism perk: if people talk about my special interest it will have the same effect that if they talk about me which makes it easier to guide a conversation without seeming completely selfish). I will behave with new friends exactly how I behave with old friends, I don’t really care at the moment of a conversation happening, so yeah for me the more outgoing symptoms are very present. Still, there are some days I can really relate to what you’re saying, sometimes I’m too tired and don’t have the energy for my theatrics but I still crave the attention while hating being the centre of it because I can’t keep up the act but fuck if everyone doesn’t keep looking at me like I’m a star than I’ll kms.

Pulling 180s on people is very relatable, I’m never sure what I want/what kind of attention I want/how much I want/when I want to go recharge by myself, which makes things complicated and I do think it’s normal especially if you have the good old ‘tism + BPD combo

Overall I do think HPD can show itself in many ways (just like NPD and BPD - sorry I haven’t heard any “sub categories” (?) for ASPD but I’m sure there is, ie: quiet BPD or covert narcissism and stuff) and if you relate to a lot of symptoms especially when someone who has them talks about it and not just when an ableist site refers to it with a misogyny filter, I do encourage you to do more research and seek out more posts coming from others with it (culture blogs are always nice to look through)

Sorry this got long lol I’m always down to talk about HPD especially since barely anyone does (the irony isn’t lost on me) and I hope this made sense and didn’t stray too far from what you’re saying!

I do also want to add that I agree, HPD deserves more recognition and should be talked about more, especially since it is either unknown or seen as a misogynistic diagnosis (I think ppl who see it as misogynistic miss the point that this disorder is often developed BECAUSE of misogyny for anyone socialized as a woman - where it’s a bit like “you want me to be the villain? Fine, I’ll be the villain” but in a not-choice way where your brain just breaks at one point because you can’t take it anymore and your brain needs to reclaim the trauma as something empowering to help you cope with the constant objectification but like this isn’t the point of the post so I won’t write an entire essay about it, it’s just important to remember that symptoms don’t hold morale or consciousness, they’re just symptoms and so calling a cluster of symptoms that a lot of people experience something that’s inherently misogynistic hurts those with the symptoms instead of calling out the misogyny in the world that most likely cause those symptoms in the first place) (… I don’t think I’ve ever said “symptoms” that much in one phrase before lol)

[menalez]

I saw some ppl asked u similar questions and i thought that i can do it too(?). So could you answer please? if you are comfortable and ok to answer such things.

Am i bi or lesbian?

I have never liked real men. Once(i was 12-13yo) i had something like precrush(?) on the teacher in my school but i had lost my interest really fast.

I still think my classmates are disgusting. Then i realized that all men have something in common. It is in their behavior. But idk. I am not comfortable to talk with them. But girls is another deal. I can truly understand them and i don't feel like they think i am not a human (even if they think so they behave differently)

I had several fictional crushes, both men and women. I had realized i only like men if they match some strict criterias(one of them is that their face must be hidden). The things i like in women not so strict. And i really like their appearances. At the same time men's appearances is mostly - meh. Almost all of them are ugly and meh, but most ppl i knew think they are not. I dnk are their standards so low or its only me. (To be clear i think Its ok to have different opinions on something, i do not try to pull ppl into mine, but sometimes i am just curious why)

I have never ever dated someone. And i don't want to. I think i am not good in my mental state for such things. (Anxiety)

Once i thought i had a crush on my classmate (it was reflection, when we talked i didn't think it was crush, i thought it was strong desire to become a really good friends with her and all). I made this conclusion, because I had i dream where i kissed her in the cheek and after awaking felt peace(i had a lot of stress in that tine and this dream was the only good thing about it). But now i think it wasn't the crush, it was just my desire to not be alone(she was my only friend) and anxiety.

I am in my early 20-s and i dont know anything about life.

tbh its hard for me to judge bc it sounds like ur quite inexperienced so all we can go on here is ur thoughts? to me id guess based on this that ur bisexual but it sounds like you have no idea if youre into men, if youre into women, or if youre into neither. i can understand being confused bc when all u have is ur fantasies, its hard to feel confident and sure of your attractions.

i will say tho, i think the crush on your classmate that you described probably was a crush, not just a desire to not be alone. it seems like youre the type of person to overthink & explain away ur feelings, i get it bc i did the same before coming out as well. but i think dreaming of kissing someone and cherishing that deeply and wanting to be close to them etc sounds. more than just friendly

[dav3katz]

Got any yandere Gamzee headcanons? Or just Gamzee in general? He is that first homestuck character I got to know about

Yandere Gamzee Hcs

- Gamzee is a chill yandere, he trusts you and lets you talk to whoever you wanna

- and unlike most hs yanderes has the general understanding that forcing you to not talk to people is controlling and unhealthy as fuck! And you two are meant to be so, why would he act such a way? Those that are meant for eachother, are good for eachother

- sober gamzee is completely different though, and he’s utterly terrifying.

- a non yandere sober gamzee is possessive and overly protective so just imagine how possessive and protective a yandere sober gamzee can be

- doesn’t let you talk to anyone other than himself, he truly believes everyone else is beneath the both of you and he’s even more murderous, killing them for his messiah bullshit, but also to show you how dangerous he can be if you anger him.

- so it’s probably best he is like.. never sober

- unfortunately his darling may be under the belief the soper pies make him crazy, couldn’t be anymore different lol and it’s hard to get him back on them

- but back to non sober gamzee

- doesn’t keep you locked inside, again he’s just a very chill dude, so chill nobody (or even you) would be under the impression his love for you is unhealthy, because he doesn’t act upon it (mostly)

- this is also because he’s not under the impression his obsession of you is unhealthy

- he may come across as self aware of unhealthy yandereish habits but typically he isn’t, he just listened to karkats many rambles about love and how it should be

- but he is just a chill person so he doesn’t rlly . Act upon any possessiveness or protectiveness .

- and hey, he’s not really even the killing type? Like he wouldn’t unless he was sober

- he just has some issues? Like

- he’s obsessive, he’s always with you but he just comes across as a lot more clingy than most matesprites would be

- but if for any reason you don’t wanna be around him he’s chill and seemingly understanding about it

- little do you know he’s like.. stalking you lol

- he knows where you are at all times, but as subtle as he tries to be you probably know you have a stalker, he just hopes you don’t find out it’s him. Especially since you trust him so much

- but pretty self aware his behavior is.. not the best.. if it weren’t for karkats past rambles as well as the horror movies he’s been subject to he wouldn’t have known tbh

- so he just treats this as some .. dirty little secret of his and he knows in the back of his mind it’s wrong so he tries not to indulge too much

- he has considered stalking you more often but he just.. would feel bad .. he already feels bad about what he’s doing because he knows it isn’t right

- but in a world where karkat is also a yandere or just didn’t talk to him sm about this stuff you’re pretty fucked bc gamzee would be delusional as fuck lmao

- which isn’t to say he isn’t already? Cause he assumes you like him, when that may not be the case

- so when you reject him he’ll be confused genuinely so it’s a long conversation but it’s not like . Weird or anything . To you it seems fine . Gamzees just like that . He gets confused sometimes and just thought you liked him, that’s all!

- and he takes the rejection well, doesn’t force you into anything and acts the same

- at first .. then he starts kinda making you uncomfortable

- he constantly flirts with you, making moves on you, buys you things, anything he can in order to make you like him

- but he’s kinda obsessive with it as well, which is kinda when his true colors start to show

- so you may eventually block him

- which makes him real sad and he realizes he may have crossed a line

- so he leaves you alone

- distance makes the heart grow fonder, as they say.

- so it would lead to your kidnapping

- he’s real nice about it tho

- but that’s like the only instance he’d kidnap you, he’s chill otherwise

- it’s just that you’re meant to be together, he knows it. He’ll make you see it too.

[lexpressobean]

You know. I know Naruto is actually a knucklehead, and Kiba isn't like a straight A+ student or whatever, but it's not always that they're idiots compared to Shino. Sometimes Shino is just unintentionally misleading. He's so logical and fluid in his speech that he can understand language from multiple angles. Kiba and especially Naruto are the kind of peeps that honestly coast on familiar bits of behavior and social cues to fill in otherwise vague statements or pauses in communication and that makes their wits not as sharp.

The thing is, Shino never coasts in his conversations. He's 100% present every single interaction he has. Because of this, Shino is the kind of person you have to be fully alert with and present for and tbh Kiba and especially Naruto just don't seem like the types that can manage that comfortably in an otherwise casual setting. They also probably just don't want to.

Like... this, for example:

"I have two coins in my pocket that equal thirty cents (30¢) together. And one of them isn't a nickel."

... This isn't Shino trying to trick you, this is Shino trying to help/stating a fact, but also making you mentally double take and question your intelligence and I think it's both hilarious but also just kinda sad because he can't see why it's misleading. It just makes sense.

Meanwhile, Kiba probably gets it after a couple of moments of confusion and gets on Shino's case because his "helpful wording" simply isn't the... intuitive? Socially acceptable??? Way of wording a potentially helpful sentence. It's just not how most people would actually go about it.

And Naruto's brain breaks because how the fuck else do you make 30¢ with only 2 COINS!? Naruto is smart enough to know that between a penny (1¢), nickel (5¢), dime (10¢), and quarter (25¢), a quarter and a nickel together would make 30¢. What Naruto doesn't get right away is that just because one coin isn't a nickel doesn't mean that there isn't a nickel at all. But someone used to or dependent on common speech patterns to stay on autopilot can't smoothly process the situation/statement w/o engaging common sense. And unfortunately it's not always so common. Also, most people just don't want to actively think when they're relaxing, and that includes relaxing with friends.

Shino's so big brain, he just decides on a non malevolent whim to make the Quarter the focus of the sentence in relation to the Nickel instead of just simply focusing on the Nickel ("One coin is a nickel") and letting Kiba and Naruto infer the second coin MUST be a Quarter.

He's not trying to be complicated, he's just subconsciously making choices that others don't even get to make because they are just not engaging as much as he is. But this also causes his speech to be deemed as difficult to understand. It's not missing anything and he's not purposefully being difficult or equivocal. He just doesn't actively choose to have a typical speech pattern. He just passively speaks with a greater amount of patterns to pull from, all correct, and so he doesn't feel the need to actively adjust because logically, he shouldn't have to. And he's right! Logically.

Like, I kinda get why it's a bit frustrating, but at the end of the day Shino is just a little different and Kiba but especially Naruto could at least try to get on his level, tho Shino himself would never actually tell them to. Because even though he can be mean, he's naturally a nice dude, maybe too nice when I really think about it. But at the same time, Shino is just being himself, and being asked to "dumb it down some" or "stop speaking in riddles" is probably just as annoying for him, if not more so. Firstly because it's not necessary, secondly it's not his fault other people are too comfortable with a "normal" (read limited) way of things, and thirdly, but most importantly, it's always him that's asked to change and even straight up considered a problem!! Unjustly! And that's really messed up and rude and upsetting. Shino is smarter than most of his cohorts, but his pattern of speech isn't him being a pompous asshole as a result of that. And Shino probably knows that's what people think too, and it feels bad because Shino knows he's smart but then again it's not like he's that smart and he may or may not go down a self-deprecating train of thought because damn it...!!

That's what Kiba but especially Naruto fail to understand. Maybe Kiba gets it sooner than not as his teammate and also 'cause he's actually not a total dumb ass, but Naruto is irritatingly stubborn in his own way, I wanna chuck him out a window sometimes he's so simple. And its horrible because Kiba and Naruto DO like Shino. Kiba thinks Shino is fucking cool and Naruto has this weird hot/cold admiration for him but all things considered, Shino is awesome.

It just sucks that they actually do consider all the things. A judgement based on baseless criteria, opinions skewed by socially accepted ideas. And I think Shino deserves at least one friend that doesn't fucking pull that shit. It's probably Lee. But Shino+Lee hangouts when !?

Anyway thanks to coming to another one of my Shino Aburame Ted Talks lmao

[amberdablade]

🖤🤍~c!Tommyinnit Yan!Alphabet~🤍🖤

This one was fun to write tbh. Also I was trying to go more for a platonic yandere.... but it turned out to be more like a regular yandere. I kind of changed it up tho so you can imagine it either way, just don't kill me lol. 

(HEY TUMBLR? GUESS WHAT? THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I’VE PUBLISHED MY STORY ON HERE BEFORE MY QUOTEV ACCOUNT!!! YAYAYAY)

Requested by: My friend who is a Tommyinnit Simp

TW: Obsessive behavior, stalking, blood, starvation, abuse, overprotection, manipulation.

Affection: How does the yandere show their love and affection? 

Tommy's not really big on affection. But if you want cuddles, then boy oh boy watch out.

Blood: How messy are they willing to get when it comes to their darling?

Well, Tommy isn't the bloodiest yandere out there and frankly he doesn't want to be. But he can lose his temper sometimes which can lead him to get pretty violent. 

Cruelty: Would they ever hurt their darling?

It really depends on what kind of mood he is in. I don't really think that he would hurt you on purpose; but sometimes he can lose his temper, which means he might starve you or hit you every now and then. 

Darling Dearest: Aside from abduction, would they ever do anything against their darling's will?

He might make you stay inside longer then you would want and make you follow him around everywhere.

Exposed: How much of their true self would they bare to their darling weather it be good or bad?

To be honest, he already shows his true self around you all the time.

Fight: How would they feel if their darling fought back? How would they react?

Tommy would feel hurt if you tried to fight back. He would feel like he's not doing enough to please you or protect you, and he would probably act violently during the situation. But if he hurt you in any way he would immediately apologize for his actions later.

Game: Is this a game to them? How much would they enjoy watching their darling escape?

To Tommy, he feels like this is a game of "protect you at all costs." When you escape, it makes him frustrated because he tried so hard to keep you there and he feels like you don't understand how hard it is to basically make a house a prison without hurting you.

Hell: What would be their darling's worst experience with them?

That one time where you escaped him. He caught you and pinned you to a tree and started yelling swear words and threats in you face as you tried to apologize or tell him to stop. Thankfully he soon realized how much he was hurting you and immediately apologized and hugged you, but even after he apologized you still were mentally scarred by his actions.

Ideas: What kind of future do they have in mind for/with their darling?

He plans on you and him living together in Snowchester right next door to Ranboo and Tubbo so you could visit them daily.  Basically he wants to be far away from the rest of the SMP since he thinks its too dangerous for you, especially after he got his discs back.

Jealousy: Do they get jealous if someone besides themself interacts with their darling? If so, how do they react?

Tommy is an extremely clingy yandere, so if he catches you interacting with anyone other than Tubbo or Ranboo, he'll drag you away instantly and give you a good talk about how it's safe to talk to only him and the rest of the Bench Trio since he doesn't trust anyone else.

Kisses: How do they act around their darling?

Like a clingy, funny, adorable, crazy, annoying, child teenage boy that hangs around with his friends too much.

Love Letters: What ways did the yandere use to impress their darling before their abduction?

Chasing Dream for the discs. He thought you would be proud of him for being so brave.

Mask: Are their colors drastically different from the way they act around everyone else?

Not at all. He's basically the same around everyone else, maybe a little more clingy around you though.

Naughty Naughty: How would they punish their darling?

Tommy's not really big on punishment, but if it means you'll listen to him and stop fighting him then the worst punishment he could possibly give you is isolate you for a few days and maybe hit you a few times. 

Oppression: How many rights would they take away from their darling?

Probably just the freedom to go outside and socialize with others. 

Patience: How patient are they with their darling?

Not very patient if you ask me. Tommy is extremely easy to anger and annoy, and he absolutely hates waiting on you to love him back.

Quit: If their darling dies, leaves, or successfully escapes, will they ever be able to move on?

No. Tommy would be really sad to see you die, and would probably blame your death on himself (especially if you were killed by Dream). If you ran away he would probably cry for a couple of weeks and if he ever saw you again he would burst into tears.

Regret: Would they ever feel guilty about abducting their darling? Would they ever let them go? 

Tommy wouldn't feel guilty about abducting you since he is entirely convinced that he's protecting you. About you leaving... you'll have to leave him a thousand times before he ever even thinks about letting you go. <3

Stigma: What brought this side to them (childhood, curiosity, etc)?

He just wanted another best friend besides Tubbo and Ranboo.

Tears: How do they feel about seeing their darling scream, cry, and/or isolate themselves?

Tommy hates it. Period. If you scream, he'll apologize a thousand times over and give you anything you want in that day (except for freedom of course). If you cry, he'll probably cry with you and hug you till you feel better. If you isolated yourself, he would beg you to come back to him and cry until you did.

Unique: Would they ever do anything different from the classic yandere?

He's probably more clingy than the average yandere.

Vice: What weaknesses could their darling exploit in order to escape?

Cry and he'll do anything to make you happy, including leaving you alone long enough for you to escape.

Witnesses: If someone where to recognize their darling (as missing, distressed, sad, etc), how would they react?

Its basically the same as you interacting with someone: He would drag you away and give you a good chat about it.

Xoanon: How much would they revere or worship their darling?

Pretty much all the time. He would try not to admit it though.

Yearn: How long do they pine after their darling before they snap?

A couple of years and if you don't share the same feelings as he does by then, then he'll pretty much let all've his anger on you in one day.

Zenith: Would they ever mentally break their darling?

He might because of how much he hangs around Dream, but it wouldn't be intentional~

Hope you enjoyed that one! My friend (the one who requested this) wouldn't shut up about it when i was writing it LOL. They were like 'Are you finished? When are you going to publish it? Can I read the rough draft?" It was all pretty funny (especially since they say they aren't a Tommyinnit simp)

Word Count: 1,237

[redxblueihateloveyou]

Omg thank you so much for your posts about rinharu!! :"")) I was one of those people who were like "why are rinharu fighting again?? Did kyoani purposely seperate them /again/ just for the sake of drama ?? (And so that they have more oppurtunities to showcase other ships??)" I was really irked at first cuz i thought the first part of TFS is finally going to be a movie about rinharu being a powercouple, but! After reading your posts i realised that haru never really moved on from rin leaving, even in S3 the reason why hiyori's words affected him was because he thought he caused rin to leave (and by extension ikuya, but lbr haru wasn't as frustrated with ikuya nearly as much as he was with rin right) so i'm just here to say.. thank you so much for opening my eyes!!! Now i'm really looking forward to the second part!!

Awww no problem <3 tbh I've always said that free is one of those that has so many nuances left bts that it's sometimes confusing for those who aren't as invested I think. Like there's so many important things that are left out and are in additional materials, that some has no idea what's going on at times. Like back in the days when some interpreted s2 in the opposite way bc of that one thing. My point is that not everyone is even watches stuff like recaps for example (where there are in fact new easter eggs and so many important things like Rin's dad death aftermath etc), and even less read novels and checked side stories and dramas.

For example, in books this Haru's issue about him thinking he's cursed and hurts everyone with his swimming is a huge thing, when Asahi "lost his ability to swim" after seeing Haru's free. But in SD it wasn't adressed at all tbh.

And what Haru feels for Rin is such tornado of emotions, that surprised even me with all the descriptions, bc like it's real bad. Like that part I posted from the chapter when Rin leaves is at least understandable, since he leaves. But the way he reacts to him in general even when he just appears in his sight is always described as if someone tortures him for real lol. And he's always like "pls someone save me, I don't know how to deal with this, bc I've never felt such emotions before".

So basically, like yeah, he's as it is has this thing, when he thinks of himself as some bad omen, so he's very sensitive about it, but since everything Rin-related feels x100000000 for him, its just... well, it hurt for a very long time and sadly was just overlooked by a certain someone, so here we are.

I think we all at first believed that bc Rin's so shocked and in disbelief that Haru could even think that it was his fault in some way:

that maybe they talked about it bts or smth like after the relay. But it seems like Rin either forgot or most likely I think he maybe thought that Haru understood without words? I'm just real sad still that Haru didn't get to hear this speech:

I mean, they made it look by the end of s1 that it was about relay, which partially yeah, but for Rin it was really about Haru. You see what he said.. he said that that 1x02 race with Haru alone.. what made him want to swim again. This whole speech was not only about the fact that Haru wasn't at fault that he quit swimming in the first place, but about the fact that Haru is his lucky charm, that makes everything better. AND WE DIDN'T EVEN GET TO HEAR THAT. So like for Haru it's to this day like "after I messed him up, Rin was saved with the power of friendship and a relay". But he was saved by Haru really. Bc according to s3 info, it was basically just about Haru being on the relay team. I don't try to demean their friendships or anything, but its just what it is.

And as I've said before in one post it's just fascinating that to this day Rin for example thinks that s1 shananigans were just about him and just his problem:

Haru thought it was about them and their problem:

So like my point here is I also up to the end of s2 thought that maybe Rei or Rin told that to him, bc we seemed to move on to another problems, until in Kizuna we were shown that he still dreams about that scene of Rin leaving. s3 Hiyori just exposed the wound really.

But also once again see what he said there, it's not just about that one time he keeps reliving, aka his first come back, its really just about each time Rin was leaving. Like the very first one already was bad, the second was the worst, bc he thought he hurt him and thought that bc of him he quit swimming, others are just painful bc by then it was already another kind of feeling. I mean, I do think that this first Rin's return to Australia thing needs to be cleared up since it's obviously still haunting him. But again it's just part of this. Haru after the Australian trip and "I've always admired you" and "without you I have nothing to aim for" and after TYM goodbye when Rin told him that he doesn't need a surprise party and that just swimming with Haru before leaving is the greastest surprise for him, he knows already about the way Rin feels about swimming with him... I think the reason why everyone is freaking out here is that bc the way it's executed it's just really about him constantly missing him and "why am I always have to longingly watch you leave, while you seem fine." If he was in a free race, but wasn't on a relay team, he'd get the same reaction. Its just all seasons combined that brought us here. We already in 3x01 without Hiyori knew that he wasn't handling Rin being far away again good. So tbh it's logical even without any explanation really. I mean, Rin does indeed leave and come back as he pleases and does what he wants without holding back or sometimes thinking about consequences. There's no lie here.

It's like since the beginning for Rin it was like "I found the gorgeous guy I adore and I want to swim with, I'll transfer schools just to nag him into swimming with me, it's not like he's gonna care if I leave after that." (he literally in the book didn't think it was a big deal)

For Haru it was like "I lived just fine, but this guy stormed into my life, made me want things I didn't think I'd ever want, got me addicted to him and then dropped me like a hot potato".

Rin's just very passionate about life and things he wants, like Haru for example, but he's really also very unobservant and very clueless at times.

But like just bc he doesn't know about Haru's existential crisis and all the pain he's truly in when he's leaving, doesn't change the fact that he at times didn't even treat him as a simple friend (because they can't be just friends I KNOW), but still things like "you could've called" "well sorry, I guess I'm just not good at it" are probably hurtful, considering the fact that you are good at it with everyone else tho, Rin sweetie. Like thanks for avoiding us the most and holding back and visiting us the last each time, we feel real special. Haru is like the opposite, he doesn't call anyone for example, but he can call Rin in the middle of the night if needed, he always does for Rin smth that's completely out of his comfort zone.

It's like some say "Rin didn't know he wanted him to call" or "he didn't know Haru felt guilty". He did know he wanted him to call and he didn't know Haru felt guilty and stopped swimming competitively when he stopped swimming, but then Rei told him and Natsuya in 3x03 reminded him about this too. Its just the fact that he doesn't want to add 1+1 and thinks "well, there's no way I can affect Haru like that right?", "he can't be that upset about Rin Matsuoka, right?". While facts are he IS literally the only one who affects Haru in such huge way. It's like everyone else can just pass him by and it's nothing, but he walks by and it's a whole "asdfghgfdsa why my body is on fire, its just Rin who's just standing there".

And I'm also buffled by this thing that some people really say stuff like "where did this come from, they were perfectly fine" etc, as if they ever had normal "friendship" relationship. I'm like when did they ever behave themselves okay? In 3x03 Rin is dying to call Haru, but can't do it, while he's constantly texting everyone including Nagisa. First thing he says in the airport when he comes back is "I'm home, Haru" to air, but then goes to hang out with Makoto and Sousuke, desperately looking for an excuse to see the one whom he from the beginning, as it was shown wanted to see the most, but in his opinion can’t without a reason. It's only when Makoto tells him that Haru was upset about Albert he quickly rans off out of there bc "hooray, I have an excuse to see my bae”. Like we know from the airport scene that he wanted to see Haru the most. If they're so as people say were doing great, than how do you exlain all of their s2 and s3 behavior for real? It's like as if in TYM Haru didn't lose his shit from some gossip about persimmons. I mean, they never settled anything really. And Haru is constantly scared of Rin leaving again since forever.

So it's complicated, but yes, we're super excited for p2, bc asdfghjhgfds.

[mmilkbreadd]

Request: Congrats 300 love!! for your event can I have L for Atsumu and A for Suna? Thank you so much and congrats again!!!

Note: as I previously said, this is an Atsumu Miya stan account, so every request involving him is more than welcome! We also love Suna, so he’s welcome as well :))

Masterlist.

Miya Atsumu + L (Love)

Words: 0.4k

Oh, Atsumu, he’s a hopeless romantic.

That’s just canon.

Or at least my version of Atsumu is.

You are so loved by him.

He felt it since your date number three basically lmao.

But he knew it was too early to tell you, so he just kept it for himself.

For seven months!

Woah! That’s a new record.

Because we all know, Atsumu can’t keep secrets.

Or at least these types of secrets.

The ones which are very very important.

So he almost told you the ‘phrase’ three times before he actually said it.

Once was one you hugged him when he won a very important game.

Just seeing your beautiful smile, made him lose his mind.

And he almost said it… but he settled with wrapping his arms around you.

While Osamu looked at him shaking his head.

Of course, his brother knew, and he was insisting that he told you.

But “it’s too early yet” was Atsumu's response every time.

So before any of you could notice, seven months passed.

Atsumu was close to falling off the deep end.

And you were too tbh.

You kinda loved him too.

… a lot.

You loved him a lot.

But just like him, you never knew when was the right time.

Deep down you wished he told you first, and then reciprocate his feelings.

So that became the little game you two had.

Both of you had those perfect moments, but none had the guts to do it.

Also, your pride was too big to lose the ‘game’ against each other.

Basically, you two would stare intensely at one and the other, in a comfortable silence for a few seconds.

The perfect moment.

But then, one of you would open their mouth to say something unrelated to the ‘L’ word. 

Until one day everything changed.

It was just a week after your seven-month anniversary.

Osamu, who was annoyed by his brother’s behavior, found a way to make him do it.

He dared Atsumu to tell you he loved you that day.

Or else he would make him sleep outside for a month.

So the dumber Miya started running in your direction.

And when he found you, he took you by the arm and shouted right to your face:

“I LOVE YOU”

You were startled for a second, not understanding what was going on.

“Took you long enough... I love you too silly.”

Seven months and one week took Atsumu to tell you he loved you.

And it was all Osamu’s doing.

Suna Rintaro + A (Adore)

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(this one's a little short, but I found this so cute and I didn’t want to ruin it)

I guess Suna wasn’t very vocal about his feelings towards you.

He loved you, and you knew it, but not always he told you that.

But in his mind, oh boy, he was always thinking highly of you.

He literally adored every single thing about you.

Even the ‘ugly’ parts of you, he didn’t believe you have them tho.

You were perfect in his eyes.

But what he really adored were three things:

One: how you play with his hair when you are cuddling.

Every time you two would watch a movie he would put his head in your legs.

And only five minutes later, your hand would wander around his hair.

Curling his locks with your finger, while not really paying attention to him actually.

Two: how your eyes closed and opened when you lied.

When Suna would start talking about volleyball, you just would flicker your eyes several times.

Pretending you understood what he was saying.

Rintaro knew that you were lying tho, because of your ‘little blinking’.

But he also pretended he didn't know, so he could enjoy that thing he adored about you.

Three: how you care about him.

Of course, as his partner, you cared about him more than a lot of people.

But the fact that you would do certain things made him feel so special.

Like you would call him every day when he finished practicing.

Or when sometimes you are at the store and buy a snack you remembered he liked.

Those little things made him feel that he was being taken care of.

He also took care of you too, sure, but when you did it, made his heart feel full of joy and love.

Even if Rintaro wasn’t very transparent with his feelings, he truly loves you.

And nothing would change how he adores you.