#sorry for deceiving you..💔

[kalofi]

at least he’s honest

[ittosthicknjuicyazz]

can you write about some of the hsr men w/ a lover who really likes collecting figures, wearing cute clothes and obbsessed w/ sanrio and stuff like a super girly s/o (sorry idk how to explain shit)

HSR Characters x s/o who enjoys cute things

a/n: nah you're good I'm bad at explaining too💔 I hope this meets your expectations since I added a bit more than intended.

warnings: might be ooc, rushed (sort of), some of these had more effort than others 💀, no specific gender or pronouns used, lmk if I should add more

Dan Heng

Upon meeting you, he was flashed with your (fav color) clothing. Was even a bit stunned by your cute clothing style.

When you joined the express and got your own room, him and the Astral Express Crew watched as you lugged box after box into your new room.

Days later, They were invited into your room, or better yet your gallery of figurines of anime characters and Sanrio. Not to mention your obvious theme of (color).

He was impressed by your interior design abilities.

And was almost embarrassed to invite you into his room that was also the archive room.

"Sooo, why is your room the archive room? Not judging! Just wondering is all," you asked him. He shrugged, "I'm not sure, It's more comforting in here I suppose." Comforting? This was comforting?

The day the two of you got together, with the help of Cupid and her assistant (March and Caelus LMAO), Dan Heng bought you a Cinnamon key chain and presented it to you after he asked to be your boyfriend, to which you said yes to.

You cheesed so hard afterwards. The keychain now hung on any part of you at all times, whether it was the belt hoop on your pants or hooked onto the backpack you decided to wear that day. It always stayed on you.

Pompom once complained about your crippling addiction to buying cute things. "You're going to flood the Express with all these things you keep buying!" they scolded.

It didn't get any better when Dan Heng walked in. "And you!" Pompom turned to him, pointing an accusing finger at him, "you need to stop encouraging your partners shopping addiction!"

Did the scolding stop the two of you? No it did not.

The following day, you and Dang Heng stood side by side with matching fluffy sweaters with cute accessories and make up that slayed.

"There's no stopping you is there...?" Pompom sighed, defeated.

Aventurine

"Oh? And who's this cutie?" he questioned, grinning at the figure that stood next to Jade. "Oh, this? This is (name), they're new here! Don't they have a killer style?"

Yes, Aventurine agreed. He loved the cute fluffy Kuromi sweater you wore and matching black shorts and shoes, your make up also fitting the color scheme.

The next time he went shopping after that, he spotted a Hottopic and immediately thought of you. He figured he'd be seeing you again and decided to buy you a Kuromi keychain. And Hello Kitty headphones. And Cinnamon wallet.

The two of you only met once and he's already gifted you three things that probably cost more than you'd like to think about. "Thanks, I guess! But why would buy such nice things after meeting me once?" you asked.

He shrugged, "I just saw the hottopic and thought of you, Cutie. You stand out to me, after all."

Truth was, he was intrigued. How could such a cute thing such as yourself be a part of an organization such as this one? How did you find yourself with a position here? Were you the same as him or did you come here all on your own? He had a lot of questions for you, but didn't dare to ask you. Not just yet.

Looks can be deceiving, he learned. You joined him on his mission to Penacony and witnessed first hand the skills you had that probably got you into (I forgor the name). He also learned that you could very well hold your own. How can you make fighting look so...cute?

After his encounter with Sunday, you tried so desperately to find him. You wanted to make sure he wasn't hurt, you were afraid you wouldn't find him in time.

By the time you did find him, it was too late. His form had changed and he was battling the Astral Express Crew.

You only met up again after it was all over. You expressed your concern and told him what happened after you two got separated. He didn't want to admit how it made him feel.

"Also I'm sorry...I sort of lost the Kuromi keychain you bought me while I was trying to find you," you apologized.

To think you cared so much about his safety that you ended up losing your precious keychain.

He chuckled, "That's alright, Cutie. We can always get you new one." He pat your head, slightly ruffling your hair. Gods above, even your hair was soft and cute.

After a year of denying his feelings, buying you gifts, pushing you away and pulling you back in only to push you away once more, an almost never-ending cycle.

After you told him about himself and how he constantly played with your feelings, he was able to snap out of it. In that moment, he truly felt as if he was going to lose you.

Your usual cute outfit replaced by something dull and boring compared to your usual. He knew he fucked up.

And in the heat of the moment, he ended up spilling everything. His fears, his past, his feelings about his so called gift, his feelings about you.

His confession was said so abruptly that you weren't sure how to react. Should you be mad? Happy? Confused even?

"Sugar? You okay? I know that was a lot and I'm sorry..." Aventurine ducked his head, looking down at his shoes shamefully. He felt mega embarrassed for dumping all of that onto you.

"I love you, Aventurine. Please, never think for a second that I'd leave you. Not if I can help it."

Aventurine promised himself to always keep yourself from loosing your bright colors ever again. He never wanted to see you in the state you were in that day again, not if he could help it.

Blade

You were the complete opposite of this man. His dark colors and brooding personality a stark contrast from your colorful clothing and bright smile.

That's why Kafka thought you two were perfect for each other. You know how the saying goes, opposites attract. Plus she hoped you'd be able to bring him out of his shell.

Upon meeting for the first time, he showed no reaction. Didn't even comment on your super adorbs outfit. Though he did catch a glimpse of the hello kitty keychain that hung on your hip.

You followed his gaze and realized he was looking at the hello kitty key chain. "Do you like Hello Kitty?" you asked that bright smile of yours. Before he could respond, you detach the keychain and held it out for him.

"Here, for you," you gifted. "I don't need that," he responded, rejecting the gift. "Oh c'mon, think of it as a first meeting gift," this was the best excuse you could come up with on the spot. Truth be told, you just wanted to see this cold brooding man with a hello kitty keychain, oh how hilarious that would be.

He grunted but took the keychain anyways.

Mission after mission together and finally Blade was able to open up a bit, especially after the mission at the Xhianzou Lofuo.

On the way back their base, Kafka caught Blade gazing at the Hello Kitty keychain he held so dearly in his palm. She grinned and leaned in close, "they've done much for you during this mission, don't you think they deserve something in return?"

And you did receive something in return. Once the two of you were alone, Blade gifted you a kiss, "thank you," he said, pulling away.

Of course, that wasn't enough for you. So you pulled him back in, neither of you letting go until you were completely out of breath.

Never did he expect such actions from a cute thing like you.

From then on, whenever Blade spots Sanrio, figurines, or the clothing style you liked so much from shopping districts in the planets he visited, he doesn't resist on buying anything he thought you'd like.

"Seriously? More things? How big are your pockets man?" Silver Wolf complained as she spotted Blade walking down the street with multiple bags in hand.

"It's for (name)," he explained. "Right, of course," she answered sarcastically. Who else would it have been for anyways?

[cookierunauprompts]

Sorry if you're busy with something, but can you make a prequel to request prompt #4 where pure vanilla cookie saves shadow milk cookie from inside the soul jam. I'd imagine a rather angst fuelled interaction, considering I'd headcanon Shadow Milk cookie as a rather stubborn individual (Because he doesn't like looking like an idiot), and consequently, he has trouble asking for help, especially with his corruption.

Requested Prompt #7 - 💔

There was darkness, darkness and more darkness. Pure Vanilla didn't think that the other half of his soul jam would be this dark... But then again, it's owner was rather corrupted. Now he just had to- " Hello?" A voice sounded out, that's odd, he doesn't remember bringing anyone with him when he casted the spell... Unless- He turned to face the cookie that had spoken, briefly fearing the worst and that he'd been found by the mental version of Shadow Milk Cookie. That would be bad considering that he'd probably get stuck here if he had been The cookie standing before him had eerie similarities to the beast although, Yet this one looked more... scholarly? Don't get him wrong, he could clearly see the jester motifs, it was just more... subtle? " Who are you?" He asked, why would there be someone who didn't wield the soul jam in here? Unless... " I should be asking you that." The mysterious cookie huffed, crossing his arms. " This is the first solid ground I've been able to stand on in centuries, and you show up here at the same time? Can't be coincidence." Pure Vanilla gazed at the empty section in the Other Cookie's clothes, the shape reminded him far too much of his own soul jam... So then, this had to be... " Are you... Shadow Milk Cookie?" He asked, looking the other up and down. A sigh escaped the other cookie's lips. " The one and only, you still haven't told me who you are or why you're here though. And I'm not too fond of being kept in the dark." Shadow Milk(???) seemed to take a brief look around before shuddering just the slightest bit. " Oh, I'm Pure Vanilla Cookie." He began, briefly wondering whether he could trust this other cookie. But then again, you cannot deceive your very own mind. " I came here to look for a way to defeat... you?" " Oh, the beast." Shadow Milk said, a frown gracing his lips. " Look, I don't know how to beat it, if I did then I wouldn't be here. I'd have my own body back." Pure Vanilla felt a grimace tug at his lips, was there truly no hope to defeating the beast? Shadow Milk seemed to notice Pure Vanilla's despair. " But... I bet you could seal it, somehow..." The two's conversation was cut short by a sudden rumble, the vibrations seemed to send Shadow Milk into a panic. " !!- No, not now!" " The ground is, turning into liquid?" Pure Vanilla said almost stunned by the sudden change. " Listen! You need to get out of here right now! If you're still here when the floor is gone, then you'll be trapped forever!" Shadow Milk warned, to Pure Vanilla's hesitance. " I'll be fine! I've dealt with this for over thousands of years, just GO!"

....

Or, seeking a way to defeat Shadow Milk Cookie, Pure Vanilla cookie enters the dark side of his soul jam. However, he also meets the original Shadow Milk Cookie???

[lqfiles]

the way i would do / did some of the things in this chapter ???

"you're going to die jaemin, it will be painfully slow so you can have time to think back to all the mistakes and hurtful words you have told y/n in your life" TJIS IS CRAZY BC I SAID SMTH LIKE THIS A FEW DAYS AGO N WHEN I READ THIS I JUMPED A LITTLE !!

n the hot sauce in milkshake is soo 😭😭 I would do that sorry ... I get frustrated easily n become so mean ☹️💔 yesterday my friend was sitting beside me n she was so invested in this anime she was watching N I HAD TO WASH MY HANDS BUT SHE WOULDN'T EVEN LOOK AT ME .. so i gave her REALLY bitter coffee telling her it was sweet n she got out of the chair immediately ... i feel a bit bad BUT HEY ..

N also woahh , they find each other cute .. 🥸🥸 it's 5am i should not be giggling while typing thjs

ALSOOOO it's super cool you're learning new languages omg I SAW ONE OF YOUR ASKS SHSJ i would teach u some words from my native language too but sometimes i go "??" when i speak in it myself so I'd rather not ... I did take up french this year bc I wanted to learn a new language too 🥸 !!!!

this long ass ask omg .. MY BAD !!!! i sent my friend who i usually yap to over 50 messages n i would feel bad for sending more so ... 😞

what can i say… i’m a mind reader i know what the audience thinks 🤫

HSKDHKWJKW I CANT IMAGINE YOU SENDIND DTS OR EVEN GETTING FRUSTRATED in my mind you’re a pure sweet angel who can’t do anything wrong 🥺 chi is always right they probably deserved the dts 🤦🏽‍♀️ THATS LOWKEY EVIL PF YOU THO HSJDHSK i swear if my friend deceived me into eating or drinking smth i wasn’t aware of i’d have tbeen start praying smth happens to them (jokes.. kinda)

they’re getting used to their friendship status (y/n) and warming up to each other (y/n) its saurr cute and OMG YESSS TEACH ME SMTH IN YOUR LANGUAGE IM SURE YOU CAN TEACH ME SMTH BASIC…. or even in french (i actually have that on my bucket list for the summer loll i’m gonna learn french / spanish / arabic HOPEFULLY….)

pls yap all you want chibear 🥺 also I SAW RHIS SEAL VIDEO ON TWT THE OTHER DAY AND LITERALLY IMMEDIATELY THOUGHT OF YOU PLSSS your brand is strong seal anon <33

[guess-my-next-obsession]

Ghost whiskey or Joel (because rip my cowboys 💔)

Is sad smut a thing? Can it be?

I just want him to reunite with his love who hasn't been able to cope. Like a kinda purgatory/ghost that hasn't moved on situation.

Spooktacular Day 4: The Visit

pairing: ghost!joel miller x f!reader

rating: E (brief implication of intended su!c!de, ghost sex that makes like no sense at all, very sad all around i won’t beat around the bush lmao)

authors note: i str8 up cried writing this shit lmao this is my first time writing a ghost!au so 🙈 it’s also prob my last, but i tried my best!! i hope you like it??

Spooktacular Masterlist

The winter had been made even colder—unbearable, really—by the loss of your boyfriend. You had so many questions, so much hurt and confusion and anger inside of you because why? Why would someone take him from you? Why would someone take the man who made everything feel so right, the man who was your shelter through every storm?

It wasn’t fair. He was just right here in front of you this morning, kissing you goodbye. And now…he was gone.

You weren’t sure how to go on without him. Weren’t sure if you even wanted to. He was the only person that ever understood the pain inside of you, the only man who could handle it with gentleness and care. He loved you and you loved him. What greater act of love was there besides sacrifice?

Your shaking hands grabbed the pill bottle of some pain medicine you were given a couple months ago when you broke your arm. You stared at it for a while, considering what you were about to do. What would Joel think of this? What would he think of you? Before you could even think up an answer…the bedroom door opened on its own.

The pill bottle slipped out of your hands and onto the wooden floor, scattering across the room. Your eyes widened in horror, or perhaps it was hope—were your eyes deceiving you?

A hazy figure grew more and more opaque the longer you stared, as though you were giving it the energy it needed to manifest simply by breathing. Fear was soon replaced by disbelief, your chest rising and falling in heaving breaths as it approached you…as he approached you.

“This isn’t real,” you breathed out in a barely audible whisper as the apparition reached to hold your face.

“It’s real,” he promised.

“No, either I’m insane or this is something else pretending to be you,” you argued, heart unwilling, or perhaps unable, to allow you to believe that the universe was giving you a second chance at goodbye. It had to be something evil, a demon perhaps preying on your weakness.

“Italy,” he breathed out and your shocked eyes lifted in a dart to meet his.

On your first date, Joel asked you what the first place you’d want to go if this apocalypse ever ended was—your answer simple: Italy. Ever since then it had become a sort of code, a promise of a future together. Whenever words escaped either of you, that was the one word that always came to mind. And now, you had no doubt that it was truly your late love in front of you.

“I’m so sorry,” he sighed out, looking around at the scene. “I’m so sorry I left you. But don’t do this to Ellie, darlin. She needs you.”

“I want to be where you are,” you felt a tear fall down your cheek as you looked up at him, trying to reach out to touch him but it felt like a jolt of electricity every time you made contact.

“I know, baby, I know.” He sat down on the bed beside you and laid his hand on you, the jolt’s seemingly only occurring when you made the move. “We’ll be together again…I’ll be sittin’ waitin’ with Sarah.”

“Sarah?” You sobbed out a joyful chuckle, your eyes now streaming with tears. “Sarah’s there?”

He chuckled and nodded, his smile just now causing you to realize how lively he looked. There were no scratches on his face, no signs of the brutal trauma he endured. He looked healthy…happy, even.

“Joel,” you reached out to touch him but he grabbed your hand instead, saving you the shock. “Is this the last time I’ll be seeing you?”

“I don’t know,” his response was genuine. “Takes a lot of energy to do this. But if I can muster it again…you’re the only person I plan on hauntin’. Don’t think Ellie would take too kind to it.”

You chuckled and nodded, wishing selfishly to have him again, not for lust or your own desire to get off, but just to have him that close to you again—to feel him and know he was there. Joel seemingly read your mind, his hand dropping yours so that he could cradle your jaw. He eyed you carefully as he leaned in, stopping just short of your lips.

“I…wanna try somethin’. But I need you to let me do all the work, alright? You’re gonna shock yourself if you try to touch me,” he instructed, your breathing shallow as you awaited his kiss. You nodded in agreement, the anticipation killing you. Joel’s hand was somehow there but not as he cupped your cheek, his energy warming your skin rather than the callouses on his palms that you were used to. “I just wanna make you feel good.”

“I miss you, Joel,” you whimpered, a tear falling down your cheeks as you laid on your back and he slotted himself between your thighs.

“I miss you too, darlin, but I haven’t gone anywhere,” he promised, his lips finally meeting yours. It was a strange feeling—warm and electric and…supernatural. It was addictive and felt so forbidden, but so so good. “I’m always here.”

“Promise?” You whimpered and he pulled back, eyes searching yours for a moment as he wiped your tears away.

“I promise.”

Before long, Joel was seated deep inside of you, defying all the laws of this mortal realm and providing you with a supernatural sort of bliss with every draw of himself in and out.

“Joel, you feel so good,” you threw your arms around him but were shocked with electricity, Joel grabbing your hands and pinning them above your head.

“Promise me you’ll keep living for me,” he husked out as he felt you pulse around him. You nodded adamantly with tears streaming down your face. “Okay, baby…let go for me.”

“I don’t want you to leave yet,” you confessed, Joel slowing down and frowning at you.

“I told you, just because you can’t see me doesn’t mean I’m not here. I’ll always be here. You’re the love of my life.” His sweet promises forced your climax to dawn, tears flowing from your eyes at the bittersweet pleasure. Joel kissed you through it before pulling out and resting beside you. “I’ll always be here to protect you, baby. Always.”

“I love you, Joel.” You watched as his form started to fade, your heart strangling itself in your chest.

“I love you. Please…Italy.” With that one wish, he faded completely, leaving you alone in the bed you used to share. Just before you could start to cry at loneliness, the bedside lamp flickered three times, a chuckle of disbelief leaving your lips.

“I love you?” You asked into the empty room. The lamp flickering twice, confirming your guess. “I love you, Joel.”

Three more flickers and you were comforted enough to get some sleep. Even though your heart and mind were still aching at the loss but the consolation of having him there with you, even if he wasn’t there physically, would be enough for now.

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[luvfy0dor]

I'm gonna squeeze and pull you till you EXPLODE 💥💥💥💥💥 ( your face reveal below btw)

Can confirm that is infact me 💔 sorry for deceiving u guys 💔

[lonelyvomit]

When you said bi bob I thought niko had started kissing the homies again I feel TRICKED

I'M SO SORRY I understand the disappointment I didn't mean to deceive you 😔💔

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

hi arii! how are you?? :33 also yes! i have jjk0 geto and he was truly a gentleman because he came home in 30 pulls (if i remember correctly)!! that’s why i believed he would come home soon……. i thought there was something between me and suguru but he just . straight up deceived me 😔😔😔

lol i’m actually scared to spend because i’m on ios and i’ve never done that so i’m still trying to get him as a f2p but :,)))………… it’s getting harder……….. i’m 107 pulls and still no geto in sight,,, big sigh

-🐟 anon

hi hi my lovely little 🐟 anon!!!! :3 i’m doing okay, hbu?? i hope you’re swimming and laughing and eating all the goodest fish food <3333

I AM SOOOOOOO JEALOUS . cult geto rejected me so hard i wanted to stop playing 💔 BUT I’M GLAD HE CAME TO YOU!!!! as he should!!!!!!!!!! i’m hoping i can get him when he (hopefully) gets a rerun next year :’3 my brother got yuuta pretty easily so i don’t need to get him at least …. thank god for friend supports

BUTTT I’M SO SORRY ABT SUGU HE TRULY IS SO CRUEL . he likes to see us suffer and chase after him <///33 evil little man ………. being afraid of spending on ios is totally understandable and Good i’m still a little ashamed of how much i spent on him :’3 never again!!!! you can do it pretty easily using playasia though…….

[ruminate88]

Deeper Layers:

I write and write about my exes. More so Andrew because he was my recent ex and I felt I obsessively idealized him the most. Then I go back and read these post over and over and over…. My brain scans my own words and feelings, then tries to make sense of it all. I use an A.I ChatGPT to break down the post and then it gives me an interpretation which I scan with my brain again and it feels endless but I realized last night there is layers to this “healing journey” because of there is such depth to these emotional scars. ❤️‍🩹

I love metaphors and symbolism in life because it helps me, someone who is a “visual learner” to actually be able to see what I need to. When I fell off a ladder last thanksgiving/christmas, the deep wounds in my legs opened the door of compassion within myself for the wounds in my heart/soul. I realized how much of me needs restoration and resetting.

EVERYWHERE I turn or read, it says in hidden messages, “healing takes time”. “Healing is on going”. It’s a “never ending process”.,… but I also get messages of “forgiveness” and “letting go”. I’ve been going around this mountain and around as I’m traveling up. I often feel stuck in cycles but yet, I’m slowly unraveling each layer or untangling each strand of the web of lies. Either way you want to look at it, I’m STILL finding truth in all the fog of the past.

I know without a doubt, yes my ex Andrew deceived me but I loved him. I may have idealized or fantasized our relationship but I cared about him. I showed up for him even while he’s inflicting pain on me and dumping stress on me. I wasnt perfect and I wasn’t asking him to be perfect either. I just wanted him to be real and honest with me. If you have other girls you like, tell me. Don’t make me believe I’m the only one in your life when clearly you’re entertaining multiple. 💔 (this is part of the letting go that I struggle with cuz it still hurts me even now and it shouldn’t)

I’m not depressed anymore, thank God!! I know what depression or oppression feels like. This is just “sad”. Sad because I’m losing a part of me that was toxic and no longer serves my higher good. Andrew can’t serve my best interest. I’ve worried about that man and prayed for him. I’ve feared him but had hope with him even KNOWING he cheated, a small part of me was hopeful that he did love me even if it was a small portion…. Thinking he only used me because he hated my guts, that just makes me feel awful but can’t deny that possibility!! 😓

Also, remembering how I was helping to raise my bro’s kids at the time when I was actively talking to Andrew and I was sorta in this weird “mothering mode” where I just took care of everyone at that time, even Andrew. He would cry to me that college was hard, that his parents were so strict about his grades, that he was afraid to fail and disappoint them…. So, I would “baby” him and feel sorry for him. I would lie to myself that he trusted me and needed me… I lied to myself that he loved me because I was the one he came to with his problems. I believed it was “love” and so I did everything within my heart of hearts to care about him and I would try so hard to encourage him but I couidnt relate to him on any level because I didn’t even go to school. I dropped out after the 7th grade, then didn’t get my GED till I’m 19. I felt stupid talking to Andrew about “home work” and “schooling”. I was fearful he would think I was stupid….

Yet I’m the one showing up for him, encouraging him, trying to understand when he’s been “gone for 3 days” but suddenly comes back with “hey babe I miss you soooo much I’m soooooo busy have sooooo much homework” 😝😝😝😝 and I would FORGIVE HIM, OFFER TO BREAK UP annnnnnd STAY WITH HIM when he promises me he’s going to change and make more time for me…. Even when he’s snap-chatting me from his frat house. Selfies of himself at parties but yet telling me how much homework he has and how stressed out he is.

I gave him the benefit of the doubt, my online girlfriends kept saying to me, “Why are you with that little kid???” And they made me feel bad constantly. I felt my friends were judging me for being so much older than him and clearly he was immature BUT I was constantly crying to my girlfriends how Andrew kept disappearing and how sad I was but then turn around; Andrew would suddenly come back and be sooooooooo romantic. Tell me how beautiful I am, how he misses me sooo much but still cries he’s too busy. My girlfriends were tired of me being up and down constantly. I wouldn’t change. I know that’s why Bri went behind my back becuase I wouldn’t take advice about Andrew. I would get overly defensive and tell my girlfriends, “I just want you to be happy for me” 😒💔

Looking back, I was NEVER happy. I didn’t tell Andrew half of my secrets becuase I was already traumatized from Cody and scared to lose Andrew. I told Andrew I had been ghosted, that I NEVER wanted to experience that again. Andrew KNEW I didn’t wanna be hurt yet he just couldn’t care. He could only be selfish with me. He found it easy to ignore me when he’s busy but when he’s not, suddenly he’s all over me again begging for my nudes and telling me how good I make him feel…

I have an older Facebook I used to stalk him with back then and I would blog on it and wow… the many post of one minute I’m on cloud 9 with Andrew but then the next, I’m anxiously on the edge ready to end my life… there was never any solid ground when talking to him. I was either crazy high or dying inside….. 😭😭😭 Then at some point I stopped blogging and that’s because the relationship got 10x worse. Andrew’s responses to my text or Snapchat’s got shorter and more robotic up until I found proof he cheated and then we broke up.

Not once can I look back and say it was a good, healthy or loving relationship sadly… I can only realize how I misinterpreted Andrew’s behavior towards me and romanticized all the sexting as love. 😔💔 I still don’t hate him or even hate myself…. Just, it’s sad that I believed in love with him when it was just sex. It just makes me feel bad and stupid. I know forgiving myself is just as much a process as forgiving him. Yeah, I’m upset he mislead me but he can’t take it all back. The way he posted the next girl all over his social, that was a slap on my face but doesn’t mean he treated her better than me. Also, the way he tried to FaceTime me after I moved on, like…. What did that mean? Was it truly just to continue to manipulate me or did he miss me? Hah 😝😝😝 (I’m for sure he probably only missed the attention I gave him.) I doubt he EVER cared about me for the real me. Plus there wasn’t too much deep stuff we even talked about) I guess I just wanted Andrew to potentially be the one cuz so much chemistry and vibes between us. His Facebook seemed normal and I actually believed he was a good boy who respected his parents and grand parents 😂😂😂😂😂 (I was just wearing rose colored glasses and was blind to the truth)

[harryandmeghansussex]

EPISODE 1.

Nice disclaimer that all interviews were complete August 2022 aka pre his Granny's passing.

"Members of the Royal Family declined to comment on the content within this series”

Opening with H march 2020 is a powerful choice too, before going to Meghan in Canada with H in London.

"I just really want to get to the other side of all of this" 💔

This feels more about the media than personal about the family, which many of us had presumed honestly.

The tiny glimpses of the children in general with no real focus on them is a sweet touch.

Lolololololol at H&M being shown the clip of Meghan being asked William or Harry. "Honey, I'm sorry. of course I'd choose you."

"I think this love story is only just getting started"

The ~why did you want to make this documentary?~ I think is such an important question and one I'm glad got asked early on.

That shot of H with Archie, the pure contentment in Harry's eyes. Oh those children have been a big part of his healing.

Harry talking about consent in regards to the child is an interesting one, especially as a child who grew up very visible and clearly choice were made for him that he historically hasn't agreed with.

I'm going to have to go through just to see all the photos again.

Meghan making the point people have written books about her that she doesn't know, doesn't it make more sense to hear from them.

Lindsay! Talking about their summer of freedom, when she then met Harry.

"And then came H. Talk about a plot twist."

They met on Instagram! Via a friend's video

She didn't know who Prince Haz was, so asked if she could see his feed. Which we got to see a glimpse of. She didn't googled him, she scrolled his feed. That's how you see someone, not what people say about them on Google.

Nice to see so many of Meghan's friends, for the girl the media has loved to claim doesn't have any.

The re-enacted text messages is a good touch.

H being late on their first day lolololololol and his face at her talking. She has his full attention always.

Having dinner the following night, and Meghan was late! Harry laughing at how flustered she was.

"you can be as late as you want, I'm not moving. I want to see you again." Oh H 😍

Meghan talking about that one photo, her smile.

Meghan mocking the fact Harry had a list of what he was looking for lolololololol. And Harry is NOT sharing the list, nice try.

Ah I knew Nacho would be in it, talking about Harry telling them he'd met a girl, maybe the one.

"she wanted to be in the moment. She wanted to get to know him for him, not who the public thought he was." Lindsay summing it up well.

Harry talking about Royal men, and the temptation to marry someone than fits the mold, rather than the person they are destined to be with. WOW.

Making decisions with your head or your heart, before mentioned his Mother and her making decisions with her heart. "And I am my Mother's son."

Clips of baby Harry and his first public appearance, with Harry talking about there not being a classroom with his Grandmother in front telling them what it's like to be Royal.

Him talking about blocking about memories of his Mum is sad, but always remembering her laugh.

"What am I? Who am I? What am I part of?"

James Holt speaking, with Archewell and Palace spokesman labelled under him.

I'm glad they're chosen to put experts in - makes it less reality show and more documentary which I think it needed to be.

Oh they included the Panorama interview. "I think we all know now she was deceived into giving that interview but she spoke the truth about her experience".

Harry talking about the similarities between Meghan and his Mum. "The same compassion, and empathy and confidence. She has this warm about her."

Oh the clip of Archie and Granny Diana's photo.

"I didn't want history to repeat itself..."

The clip from Earl Spencer's speech after Diana's death, that the media have blood on their hands is a powerful choice to include to. Reemphasises Harry's fears all along.

Nicky - one of H's childhood friends included. Talking about walking behind Diana's coffin was the moment people began to think they knew Harry more than they did.

Them including Harry fighting the paps back in the day 🙈

Prince Seiso! Talking about Harry being willing to learn, not being there to tell. An immediate connection to just not each other but the community. He is his mother.

Harry saying that they are brothers.

He has a Lesotho name, which means "warrior." A warrior in spirit and in character.

Harry talking about what Lesotho gave him, it's very much his other home and it was critical to share with Meghan.

The happiness in the Botswana photos is just so so clear.

Abigail Spencer's pure laugh when she was talking about Meghan sharing he was in love with Prince Harry.

"it's not about who you trust, it's about who they trust" - I'd never thought of it like that but it makes total sense.

Their last Halloween of fun, knowing the news would break the next day. Eugenie & Jack! Such fun and then....

Boom. All the headlines.

Wow they've managed to pack a lot in to just one episode.

[cubur]

💌

You said you'd delete all your accounts and you didn't. You’re a little liar, you have deceived me so cruelly. Face the hole in my broken heart!) 💔

Hmmmm why do I feel like i know this anon from somewhere x)))

Well, I didn't actually say anything like that, this was one of my stupid jokes again. Also I said this only on tumblr, i mean if it was real i would post from all my accounts at once ……Ehh I'm sorry to hear that your heart was broken but sorry i don't accept that "liar" word from an unknown person (i just let the boss cat say that for now) because you must have a valid reason for saying that, and a joke is not a valid reason booo So yeah, I won't face anything 😎

[tyunni]

may not born in may is the biggest fraud scam (⁠ò⁠_⁠ó⁠ˇ⁠)

... Im sorry guys its true. My name is truly not the month i was born in I'VE DECEIVED YOU ALL. FORGIVE ME 😭😭😭💔💔💔

[chloeworships]

The Russian….

Someone’s ex and their current love interest are trying to expose them. Why? Because this man was not honest from the start.

Now, he may have had his reasons why he didn’t reveal the the truth as to why he was hiding these children, but what was revealed to me was that he should have told the truth about the situation he was in. It would have panned out better for him.

This man has two children that are not his and he doesn’t know 😞

This man or his ex could be Russian.

Sorry fellas but I have to be 💯 truthful. So many issues could be resolved if people were honest. When you deceive others you yourself become the deceived. This man has no idea these two children are not his.

Ladies, you may have tried to reach this man to ask for clarity and to voice your suspicions but he ignored your calls and left you to assume the worst. That’s where he went wrong.

Although I don’t see this being necessarily vengeful, your current love interest wants to show she has proof of you with this ex in the past, even though you’re no longer together. God revealed to her that those kids you’ve been mining on the side and hiding from her, are not yours.

The lying and sneaking around was all for nothing and it may impact your pockets 💰your career (reputation) and cause you embarrassment…Severely…. Not to mention the children 😔

This man ignored the woman who was the one being true to him for the woman who was lying. I saw him ignoring her calls but answering the calls of the deceiver 📲

What’s even more insane about this is, the one who did the deceiving will take part in this exposé. 🤦🏾‍♀️

Ladies if you are the current lover, you could have left another broken relationship only to find out your new love interest was keeping secrets from you and it broke your heart 💔 For that, I am sorry girl. You deserve better because YOU were loyal the entire time.

Please don’t blame yourself because you did the right thing by asking for clarification. You were somewhat of a good luck charm for this person to alert this man to this deception. The LORD sent you to reveal this to him but he ignored you for what he thought was better 👩🏻‍🦰

Withholding the truth is just as bad as telling a lie.

Now you know so be ready. The audacity of some people eh?

PS. I know for someone in this situation, their ex-wife is Russian. She tried to speak to me in Russian when I tried to confront her about the cold hard facts. I was willing to have an honest conversation with her in contrast to my love interest in the dream.

PPS. I want to be clear, that no one in the dream was actually together… it was more like a situationship rather than a committed relationship. I specifically said “love interest” instead of boyfriend or girlfriend for this reason.

Songs I heard 🎵

SN. Pls note some folks could be actors in this dream and this could be for more than one person.

Someone here loves their cannabis. I smelled it while writing this.

I also saw the Russian woman with a lollipop 🍭

My “proof” was a photo she and I took in front of his house 🏡👀

Btw he cannot stand this ex-wife. He tolerates her for the sake of the children who aren’t even his. The Russian woman looked a tad bit frail and looked as though she suffers from low self-esteem. I felt bad for her in a way 😭 Maybe it’s because I confronted her.

Scriptures to consider:

Lastly, a good wife always brings her husband favour, not trouble 🍀 She herself has a good reputation in her community.

Whatever you do,

KEEP YOUR 🆒

Remember this message is to give you the heads up of this upcoming deception. Not to ridicule you.

I forgot to mention I made Ms. Russian FaceTime my love interest while I listened in the background to prove he was indeed ignoring my calls. If this hasn’t happened yet, be honest with your new love interest. Even if she becomes upset, at least she can’t call you a liar 🤥 The other woman is your ex.

I have another message that’s sensitive like this to share 🔜

⚠️UPDATE:

If this isn’t love related, are the Russians hiding children somewhere?

👀

I saw two red head children in a pink stroller. They were no older than two years old. Come to think of it, aren’t two red head children apart of the missing hostages abducted in Israel? 🇮🇱 Aren’t Ukrainian children missing also? Why would they be in RUSSIA???? Or are the Russians involved in this kidnapping somehow? Lawd have mercy!!!

I need answers.

And people are going to sit here and condemn Israel while Hamas parades around falsely dubbed as some Resistance. I promise you, calamity and chaos is coming for anyone supporting this injustice.

💔🔥😡

All hell is going to break loose if these children are harmed.

[richiebigjoe]

Donkey to the Turtle

Donkey: I am smarter and richer than you are.

Turtle: Yes I know that too, Infact I am the most Useless idiot in the world.

Donkey: I am faster and stronger than you are.

Turtle: Yes that's true, I am very slow and weak and my friends call me the Useless one.

Moments later...

Donkey falls into a pit and is badly injured. Needs help.

Turtle says, I am sorry about your situation but I am too weak, too poor, too STUPID, too slow and too USELESS to help you. 💔😢

Moral: Be careful who you mock, insult, and troll. Some never forget your exact words in 20 years and never forgive.

The Turtle knows a lot but acts like a fool don't be deceived. The turtle NEVER forgets.

Focus on the REAL ISSUES. 😊

I hope this helps.

Respectfully.

🖤

[naramdil]

What I thought was him going to reflect and work on himself after I confronted his ways and broke up with him ended up being him moving on in 2 days. I'm inconsolable. I feel like my heart has been ripped out. As soon as he found her he blocked me on everything so I can't contact him. I feel so betrayed and he was doing this behind my back for the entire duration of what I thought was a committed relationship. Talking, looking and pursuing other girls 💔😞

oh :( I’m so sorry that happened to you. sending you a big warm hug. block him back and if you keep thinking of things you want to say to him find a place to write them down and rid them from your head. and remember that he deceived you and any goodness you saw in him came wholly from you. it will hurt for a little bit but I hope that you find peace. sending you love and please take care 💘

[lokisprettygirl]

Please tell me you have something fluffy coming to bandage my shattered heart! 🥺😭💔. I get his insecurities but he could have said “hey Katlyn said something about Bruce and I’m getting worried that you only want to be with me because the situation is similar with your moms.” He told his baby to talk to him like an adult and she felt that that bitch Katlyn stole someone else from her.

She seems to have shut off completely and is back to being numb 😭. Why can’t she have just one day to be completely happy?! Back to telling her to talk to him like an adult, he didn’t talk to her like an adult either. He talked to her like they do and then is saddened by the distance he created. What else was going to happen with that? He didn’t want to hurt her but said the very words that would shatter her and ignored her to hang out with Katlyn… if he thought that that girl was suddenly going to be honest about things… idk I get attached to characters emotionally and when something like this happens I wanna shake sense into them.

I agree with that one person who said that Y/N is choosing to take care of herself. She really is she doesn’t want her heart to be shattered anymore and she didn’t just go and hurt herself! She legit chose life and herself this time! I can’t help but be giddy about that! That is a huge sign of progress in a positive way for her. It shows what she is willing to do to be happy and do it herself!

I do want Loki to fix this and work on his insecurities. Truly I do but when he said any body guard can do that my heart shattered fir her. He basically confirmed to her that she was a whore and when she clapped it back to him when she let him go i was shocked, heartbroken, and proud of her for standing up for herself all at once. I’m truly upset that he ignored her for Katlyn though, I truly can’t get over it at all. It probably feels like to her what happened with Peter all over again and honestly is that plan of his to ruin Katlyn worth it? There are other ways to ruin her like with the recording of Peter confessing that he knows she roofied Y/N and set up for her to get raped. All the recordings they now have of her just being awful to Y/N with the help of Bucky and Steve.

The hair cut and treadmill thing were golden too, meaning she can’t work as a model when looking hideous like that. Destroy her rep and career. Ya know, the things that matter most to that shallow piece of garbage. I’m just furious about how he so readily believed Katlyn over his baby…. I get it’s insecurities but believing human garbage over a completely abused Y/N? The fact that Katlyn was in his room too! That had to truly shatter Y/N. Idk if he can fix this, that would honestly be pretty close to irreparable for me.

Sorry for the long rant I need some fluffy Loki in my life now! Your writing is truly wonderful!

You see my dear, the one thing my loki knows how to do is ..repair things 😅

That's how a secure person would raise that concern, him though? He's anything but secure when it comes to relationships, I don't think he recognises his own value and is always putting himself down internally. Like I said, that accusation coming from anyone other than Katlyn would have done the same damage but maybe she wouldn't be as hurt as she is.

Her being in his room was just worst timing and he ruined his own relationship instead of ruining Katlyn. You seee Karma comes for good people first because bad people are good at deceiving him.

Trust me he doesn't think of her any different, his break down was solely his doing, he doesn't think he was someone she'd pick just for him, he always fears that there's a reason why someone would want to be with him and as soon as something hinted towards it he fell deep down that hole.

Thank you my dear, things will get better for her I promise. 🥺💚