#sorry sorry im just. ARGH. this world!!! this life!!! could be so good!!!

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

why is job hunting.

that's it that's the post

[macroglossus]

being evaluated for adhd by having one of those full psych evals that last like two hours. scared frightened etc.... last time i took it i lied extensively bc i was 13 and thought they might tell my mommy if i said i had suicidal thoughts. and i still have a habit of lying to therapists bc i'm embarrassed......... AGH idk. what if i take it and they tell me that the reason im Like This is bc im genuinely just weird and shitty and not bc im mentally ill at all. SCARED

[tiyoin]

OK SO first of all, i think figure skating would've been a good way for reader to clear their mind and express their emotions. I see them as a great skater not only in athleticism, but in theatrics as well. When they're on the ice their emotions are no longer theirs, they're feeling what the character they're portraying feels, and so they put on a hell of a show (/pos). On the ice everything you feel is amplified, whether you're nervous or excited IT'S GONNA SHOW, and so their coach has taught them to use their sensitivity in their favor.

As for the athletic side of the sport (duh), there would be days reader would be or the sharpest skater there is or a deer-legs beginner. They really have to concentrate on their movements and their body. Generally, concentrating on your body could be a good way to deescalate from anxiety attacks, but it could also be sensory hell if they're more sensitive. If they hyperfocus on their movements, then they could be an Olympic champion (which we know they won't be…).

Search for Yuzuru Hanyu's programs, that dude represents what i'm picturing.

Now, while it isn't a confrontational sport, the competitive side is TOXIC. Weight expectations, skipping school, jealousy between competitors, the pressure of having to be young and strong, etc. I don't think reader would survive more than their local competitions and once-in-a rainbow-moon a national. I see reader practicing their sport in a small rink in their city, with their coach being by their side since they first started skating (maybe reader and Yuu met on the rink but Yuu didn't care to progress on the sport?? Or what if they've practiced pairs??), maybe the coach sees their potential but knows reader won't get there.

I don't think reader would skate in pairs with other students because for one, you REALLY NEED trust in your partner and reader doesn't even trust themselves, not to mention how often the student would have to touch them in their program. Second, they also have to learn new techniques, which they can do but it's hard when you've been skating a certain way all your life.

OMG WHAT IF YUU SKATES IN PAIRS WITH READER AND MAKES EVERYONE ELSE JEALOUS THAT THEY ARE THE ONLY ONE READER TRUSTS- (this isn't the yuu shipper in me talking, no).

Also, you can buy generic skates but you really need boots adjusted to you that give you the support you need. It would be funny if Sam really had your exact measures, bro truly has everything in stock. Though, skates are expensive as fuck. Maybe not in Twst?

In modern competitions, ladies need a quadruple jump and/or a triple axel to stay competitive, this is mostly due to the Russians treating skaters like plastic cups.

I imagine the competitive sports would be different in Twisted Wonderland since they have magic and all, but i don't think it would affect this one more than the endurance. I think using magic would be considered cheating as would doping be in our world.

So, i think reader would be ahead of the game in Twisted Wonderland. If they've prepared as they would for competitions in our world, they would easily win the money XD if only their anxiety lets them…….

SORRY FOR THE RANT, i ended up making this a figure skating au (sobs).

(BTW, ice dance and figure skating are different competitions. Jumps are not allowed in ice dance).

EXACTLY!!!

im not a figure skater but every time I go on the ice all my mental chatter ceases and I just... glide, race, focus on the cold nipping. it def helps me which is why im so fond of the idea of reader being an ice skater in her old life.

I ACTUALLY LOVE YUZURU AND WAS DEVASTATED WHEN HE SAID HE WAS GOING TO RETIRE ARGH

I like to imagine the first time someone saw 🌀 reader ice skating, they thought they were hallucinating. because what do you mean the usually hunched over, shaking with nerves, barely making eye contact vice house warden of ramshackle just did a triple axel as graceful as a gazelle jumping in the safari. WHY IS SHE TWIRLING LIKE A DRADEL WHEN SHE TRIPS OVER AIR???

I hate the trope 'badass clumsy assassin' sm... but quite literally, the moment mc steps on the ice its like she's a new person. ofc there's days where she's like a newborn fawn learning to walk for the first time, and other days where she's ripping up the ice like a professional- but all her worries go away as he blade slices the ice.

as someone who was in HIGHLY completive soccer (tooting my horn, but I went to an elite training facility for a few years before my mental health really effected me. and was on a showcase team where our only goal was to get into AMAZING colleges via soccer) I want to think that mc was at one point super gong-ho about ice skating. eat, slept breathed it. everything had to be perfect and if it wasn't she would have a breakdown. she didn't care for others because she had a GOAL. until maybe she accidentally hurts yuu (if they're pair skating) and realizes what she's become. and she has a love hate relationship with the ice and will only practice solo as to not hurt anyone. and practice alone because now whenever there's pressure/ someone who she cares about watching her she gets really anxious, self sabotages herself, or even snaps back into her perfectionist mindset.

OR

maybe she's good enough to BE a nationally ranked figure skater if she goes solo but she only wants to do pairs with yuu. or if she is solo she doesn't have the confidence to go national. always finding a way to sabotage herself because of her fixed mindset.

YUU AND MC SKATING IN A PAIR AS A SURPRISE TO THE STUDENT BODY, AND SOMEHOW MAGIC IS INCORPORATED AND IT MAKES THE SPINS AND JUMPS SO MUCH BETTER. IMAGINE IF THEY START FLYING OR EVEN MAKE NEW JUMPS / COMBOS BECAUSE OF THE MAGIC

yoi concept where yuu and reader are given a concept to skate to (eros) and the cast gets jealous seeing them EROS ON ICE???/ or imagine the yurio skate with the black haired guy at the end of the series AHHHHHH

and I actually had no idea ice dancing was different from figure skating!😲 that's actually really interesting ngl, I just thought ice dancing was a fancier way to say figure skating 😭

no cause at this point twisted wonderland figure skating au is... starting to infest my brain....

[honestlyhufflepuff]

A Different Kind of Fight

Fic request from @im-just-like-other-girls. I got a little emotional writing it, as the premise to the request was pretty intense, but I like where it ended up. Warning for suicidal thoughts and some swearing.

***

Steven’s knuckles were bone white as he gripped the steering wheel, so tight that Connie thought the wheel might break in half. He turned off the music when a song by Sadie and Shep came up, and now the only sound was his uneven breathing, and the accelerating roar of the old engine.

“It’s a nice night,” Connie muttered, glancing up at the full moon hanging in the sky. The forest and the ocean blurred by either side of them up the curving mountain road.

Steven gave a curt nod, gaze fixed straight ahead.

“Thanks for letting me come with you. I know you wanted to be alone, but you’ve been alone so much lately.”

Another nod.

She wanted to press more. She wanted to demand that he tell her everything, but she knew to tread carefully. If she pushed too hard, he would shut down, like he’d done many times over the past few months.

“So, where are we going?”

He shrugged. The motion was stiff.

“Ok, then why are we going?”

“Why?” he glanced over at her for the first time since she’d gotten in the car, “I needed to get away from them. I’m no good for them anymore.”

“Steven, they’re your family! They love you and-“

“I hurt him, Connie. I hurt my dad.”

Steven’s voice and his hands shook now.

“And then you healed him,” Connie said, offering a weak smile.

“The van wasn’t so lucky. That was his home.”

“That van was older than you. It didn’t have many miles left, anyway. And he can afford a-“

“Argh! You don’t get it!” Steven’s skin flared pink, casting an otherworldly hue on his dashboard. The car lunged forward as the gas pedal hit the floor and they swerved as he overcorrected for the curve in the road.

“Steven, be careful!” Connie gasped, bracing herself by placing her hands on the ceiling of the car.

Her breath caught in her throat as his breaks screeched, whipping into a gravel margin at a scenic overlook.

“Get out,” he said in a low, shaking voice. His pink skin faded in and out, struggling to return to its normal color.

“What? Here?”

“You were scared of me just now, right? That’s probably smart.”

“I’m scared of reckless driving, yeah! Why don’t you let me drive? We can go anywhere you want.”

Steven shook his head violently, tears spilling over his eyes. He was shouting now, “I shouldn’t have brought you. Get out of the car!”

“Like hell you shouldn’t have brought me! You’re gonna kill yourself driving like this.”

“And?”

“What do you mean ‘and?’” Connie demanded, and when Steven said nothing added, “What are you planning on doing when I get out of the car?”

“You know I’m stronger than you, Connie,” he stared straight ahead, refusing to look at her, “I’m asking you to get out of my car. If you don’t do it on your own, then I’ll carry you out.”

“And then what if I do get out?” she demanded, “What are you gonna do, crash the car off the mountain?”

“I,” his voice cracked and he cleared his throat, “I need to do this before I change my mind. It will be better for everyone. I wish you could see that.”

Connie felt her throat swelling, and her tears came so quickly that everything looked like she was underwater, sinking into the ocean.

Steven’s blurry form reached for her hesitantly and stopped just before touching her.

“I shouldn’t have brought you with me,” he repeated. His voice was softer now, in a way that was more broken than gentle, “I thought maybe with you here I wouldn’t want to- I thought that- Connie, all I do is hurt people. Even now I’m hurting you.”

“That’s not true, Steven! You saved my life the first time you met me! I said you were incredible, remember? I still think that.”

“That was then. That was before I was so messed up! I’m no good at helping people anymore. I’m not incredible, I’m not anything good. That’s why you have other friends at school that you see more than me. That’s why you’re going to be leaving for college. Because it’s better for you that way to get away from me!”

“Shut up!” cried Connie, flinging her arms around him and curling up in his lap, soaking the shoulder of his jacket with tears and snot. Steven’s hands froze in the air until they gradually lowered down to touch her back. Instead of embracing her, he plucked her off of him and placed her back in the passenger seat.

“I’m sorry I made you cry. I’m sorry for everything.”

“You’re my best friend, Steven,” she whispered, “You don’t have to be saving an entire species or galaxy or person to be worthwhile to me! I just want to keep growing up with you. Time may change how often we see each other, but it won’t change how much I love you.”

Steven did not act shocked at her love confession. It was said between them countless times over many years, albeit mostly from him since he was the sappier of the two. The word “love” had grown a few more layers of meaning than it had from their childhood, although neither of them knew the moment the transition took place. Maybe it was in the days locked inside Pink’s tower, not knowing if they would make it out before starving to death. Maybe it was after he had his gem pulled out by White. Maybe it was when he returned from space- a broad, strong teenager in place of the cuddly child.

“I love you, too,” he croaked, “I’m sorry.”

“Stop apologizing!”

“Ok, I’m sorry for apologi-“

“Steven!”

“R-right,” he choked out a weak laugh and stared at his lap, “It’s hard not to when I’ve felt like I’ve had to apologize for my existence my whole life.”

“Some parents bring kids into the world without thinking about the consequences,” she thought of Rose Quartz with her saintly image now eradicated from Steven’s house, “That wasn’t a choice you made.”

“I know.”

“And some parents,” she paused, choosing her words slowly, “don’t really know how to parent, even if they love their kids more than anything. Especially if these parents are traumatized aliens from space all dealing with their own shit.”

He nodded.

“I think they’ve taught you- unintentionally- that you had to put everything you felt on the back burner in order to be a Crystal Gem. You had to be useful in order to spend time with them. It was like you were filling a bucket for years, and now it’s overflowing.”

Steven started crying then and continued for several minutes. When Connie’s delicate hands wiped away the tears, he didn’t stop her.

“You’re not going to get out of the car, are you?”

“Not without you.”

“I figured as much. Stubborn.”

“Like my mother,” she said proudly.

“Does it bother you,” he asked in a small voice, “that I still want to do it? That I think about it every day now? About how nice it would be to not worry about the future? To not have to deal with all this change?”

“It does bother me,” she took his hand, “But you know, everything changes. And this will change, too. You won’t always feel like this. So please, just don’t give up. You are still my first and my best friend. And I would never be the same in a world without you in it.”

Steven sank his face into his hands, and all Connie could do was hold him. She didn’t know how long he sobbed for, but it was long enough that her arm he was leaning on fell asleep. She couldn’t stop marveling at how this boy who was stronger than any human on the planet could seem so small.

Once Steven’s breathing was steadied again, she said “I’m sworn to be your knight and fight by your side. That includes this kind of fight, too.”

He nodded, burrowing into her soaked shirt. His arms entwined around her tightly, pulling her closer, and he let out a shaky exhale she hadn’t realized he was holding in.

Connie pulled Steven’s chin up to meet her eyes, giving him a little smirk, “And if you shut me out again, I’ll fight you.”

This earned a little laugh out of Steven, and it was like music to her. There was a time when they were even sparring partners, but with Steven evolved into his full powers, Connie couldn’t hope to catch up to him with any amount of training due to her 105-pound wiry human frame. Luckily she had learned other ways to contend with him when needed, and she felt she’d won their match that night.

Steven straightened in his seat, grabbed a bottle from the cup holder, and splashed some water in his face. He wiped himself off with the sleeve of his jacket. His eyes were still red and puffy, but there was a life back in them that Connie hadn’t seen in sometime. Then he got out of the car.

“Steven,” Connie rushed after him, “where are you going?”

“It’s ok, I’m just getting some stuff.”

He walked to the back of the Dondai and creaked the trunk open, “I can’t go back there tonight. I need some time. I’ve kept all this camping stuff in my trunk for a while now, just in case I needed to get away. It’s really kept me sane a few times.”

Connie looked into the large pack stashed in the car. There was a sleeping bag, a lantern, freeze dried food, a large jug of water, a knife, some extra clothes, and a filter to get more water from the river.

“I can go ahead and take you home. I’m sorry I was telling you to just get out earlier with no ride. I wasn’t thinking straight. I promise you that I won’t do anything rash tonight, ok? I’m just going to camp. And I will call you first thing in the morning to let you know I’m still here.”

Connie crossed her arms, “No way in hell am I leaving you alone tonight.”

“B-but I promised I would-“

“Nope, not doing it,” she struggled to sling the pack over her shoulders before Steven easily lifted it from her, “I’m camping with you.”

“Well, the only problem with that is that I just have one sleeping bag.”

“And? We’ve literally shared a body before. You think I draw the line at sleeping bags?”

Steven’s cheeks flushed a deep red, and it sent a thrill through her to see him get so flustered, “That was when we were kids.”

“Well, if sharing a sleeping bag sounds crowded we could fuse.”

His eyes snapped up to hers, wide and hopeful, before they fell again, “I don’t think I’m ready to fuse right now. With anyone. I’ll just let you have the sleeping bag. I’m ok without it.”

Connie rolled her eyes, and they began their hike into the forest.

Steven lightened up little by little as they walked, pointing out his favorite spots to her, and wild plants he’d learned to forage from. His mind became clearer as the air did, rising above the pollution of the city and its inhabitants.

He shrugged his jacket onto her shoulders as she shivered. The mountain got a lot colder than the beach did at night.

“We’re almost there, Connie. There’s the perfect spot right up ahead.”

She could hear babbling water as they approached a clearing right by the bank of a mountain stream filled with wildflowers. The water glittered in the moonlight, and a herd of deer stared at them cautiously from the trees.

“So, this is home for the night,” he said.

She watched him as they set up camp, conversation not coming as easily as it used to. There was a tension in the air that didn’t used to exist between them, and Connie felt like she was studying him to see how much of his calmed mood was genuine.

They gathered wood, built their fire, and ate re-hydrated mac and cheese with canned vegetarian chili for dinner. Only the occasional phrases passed between them to relay needed information for the tasks at hand. Connie got the impression that he did appreciate the company, but that he was also relieved they weren’t talking too much. She figured it was fine to go at his own pace in opening up, as long as he was safe, and eventually the silence became serene and welcome.

“It’s so quiet,” she said as their food settled.

“It’s not,” he said, eyes staring at the dying embers of the fire, “Listen.”

When she stopped focusing on their lack of words, the sounds of the forest filled her awareness. Crickets sang, water ran, leaves rustled, fire crackled, and wind whistled. She closed her eyes, taking it all in.

“You like listening to everything out here?” she said, smiling.

He nodded.

“Do you come out here as a kind of grounding technique? I was reading about those in my psychology textbook.”

“I guess you could call it that. Talking is hard for me right now. But the sounds out here talk to me, and they don’t expect me to talk back. They’re not disappointed if I don’t say anything at all.”

“I’m not disappointed, Steven.”

He blinked and stared at her with wide eyes, “I’m glad.”

Connie was trying to put together something else to say when Steven stood up suddenly and furled out the sleeping bag.

“I’m going to go to sleep. Goodnight, Connie.”

“Oh, goodnight…” she wiggled herself into the sleeping bag and watched Steven lay on the grass.

“You sure you don’t want to come sleep by me?”

“N-no, that’s ok. It’s a nice night,” he said, despite that he was visibly shivering.

Connie was glad he could not hear how hard she rolled her eyes.

“It’s kind of cold tonight,” she said.

“You’re cold?”

“Yep, but I’m sure I’ll be fine.”

She gave a fake little sneeze and grinned as she heard Steven sigh and get up. She rolled over and looked at him standing above her, clutching one arm and averting his eyes.

“I have a feeling you’re manipulating me,” he said.

“Don’t worry, Universe, I won’t take advantage of you.”

“I guess it would make sense. To keep warm,” he said slowly.

“Sure would. Now shut up and get in.”

She unzipped the bag and let him sidle in beside her before closing them both in like a toasty cocoon. She twined one arm around his waist and the other tangled in his soft pillow of hair, stroking his scalp to make his body soften and relax like her mother use to do for her when she had a nightmare.

She stopped when a sharp point pricked her hand, and looked down to see a small horn barely protruding out from his curls.

‘Great,’ she thought, ‘yet another new and mysterious thing about my half-alien best friend.’

She considered telling him about it only for a second before deciding whatever the horn meant could wait until morning. They had both been through enough, and Steven looked so peaceful.

She laid awake for much longer than he did, repeating in her mind what Steven wanted to do to himself just a few hours before. Her entire chest ached even considering a world lacking Steven. Laying in the forest with him, she knew the night had ended in a small victory, but they were not out of the woods yet. She had a feeling the new pointed growth on Steven’s skull represented that.

“Connie?” he said in a bleary voice, thick with sleep.

She startled, “Yeah, Steven?”

“I was a little cold, too. Thanks.”

Connie smiled and kissed his forehead as he drifted back off. A small victory was a lot to be thankful for.

[thataveragewriter]

genji x reader please something to fill this void... im love your writing!!! anything you decide will be amazing

A/N: I have a massive soft spot for robo ninja boi, So here! A lengthy fluff with our favourite ninja boi!

1700+ words

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Genji x reader - Under the stars

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Being an agent in overwatch was a rewarding yet an enduringtask. The people you’ve met had changed your life for the better. People likeLena, Jesse, Hana they all always made your day much more bearable and youenjoyed every single second you spend with these people. However, the personwho made every waking moment a fruitful and filled with such merriment was noneother than the younger Shimada, Genji. His good natured teasing, sassy commentsand comforting hugs were among the things you loved about the cyborg. The twoof you became instant friends when you first stepped foot in the overwatchbase. You always laugh whenever you recall your first meeting with Genji.

Flash back

This was your firstday as an agent in overwatch. A place responsible for the world’s safety inconjunction with the UN. A place for nothing but serious matter and being aresponsible adult.

You held a box ofnecessary item you needed for the day, mainly consisted of your trainingclothes and couple of other things.

You walked down thepristine white halls, agents quietly conversing amongst themselves. Thoughts ofbeing the new recruit clouded your mind.

‘How will I even makefriends, everyone is so serious around here! I must not disappoint thesuperiors, can’t risk getting scolded on the first day and destroy myreputation before I even start’ you rambled in your mind, lost in your thoughtsyou didn’t realise the rapid sound of heavy footsteps as you turned the corner.

As you turned, you were hit with such a heavyimpact your box flew several meters and you harshly fell on your butt with aheavy weight on top of you. You shut your eyes as you fell.

‘Argh, injured on thefirst day, great’ you mentally thought.

“Oww” you softly letout, slowly fluttering your eyes open and met face to face with a cyborg mask.

“I guess you couldsay, I fell for you” The person who fell on you said with a teasing tone.

Your face immediatelyburned up as you pushed the male off you. He fell with a thud and an “Oof”sound. You promptly stood up and looked around.

Laughter could beheard as two more people rounded the corner.

“Genji! That was theworst pick up line ever” one of the Girls said in her thick British accent.

“Even McCree would’vehad a smoother line Gen” The other smaller girl laughed.

Their gaze then fellon your sheepish form standing there. You tried to avoid their gaze.

“OH! You must be thenew recruit, I’m Hana!” the smaller girl introduced herself as he made her wayto you and hugged you. You hesitantly hugged back.

“Sorry about this,love. I’m Lena by the way” The British girl said as she held out her hand. Youshook it and introduced yourself.

The male began gettingup, rubbing his behind.

“That loser is Genji.I bet you didn’t expect this sorta welcome here” Hana laughed.

“Far from it actually,didn’t think I’d get rugby tackled by a ninja” You laughed as you looked atGenji.

He let out a heartfeltlaugh which made your heart flutter with excitement.

“Didn’t think a littlegirl like you could throw me and my charm off that easily” He replied withtraces of teasing and good natured tone.

A smile graced yourfeatures as you giggled at his retort. You held out your hand for an actualintroduction.

“Let me introducemyself properly, I’m [y/n] nice to meet ya” You smiled.

“I’m your friendlyneighbourhood ninja, Genji” He said as he shook your hand with a firm grip.

Lena and Hana lookedat each other with a clear grins as they knew it would blossom into somethingmore than a friendship.

End ~

You spent all day, every day with the cyborg whenever you had days off. The pair of you became inseparable after that day. Even during missions where both of you were paired, it was always seen as asuccessful mission. Then you two would often lounge on the roof under the stars and just crack jokes with each other. It was always soothing andcomforting having him near you.

Today, Genji was deployed to a mission and you were stuckwith paper work. You longed for his upbeat and fun nature, it was deathlyboring without him around. You sighed and looked over at the clock.

5:05

‘Almost over, just 25 more mins’ you thought.

You completed all works that was needed to be done and ontime. You left for dinner to meet up with the others.

“Hey [y/n], wait up” You heard Jesse call from behind you.You turned with a smile on your face as you waited.

“Jesse Hey” You conversed with Jesse while you walked to thedinner hall together.

“I take it, Genji still hasn’t come back from the missionthen” He said noting the absence of your partner in crime.

“Yeah… they said it’ll take a day but …” You began as youlooked ahead.

“Ya know, you should tell ‘em” Jesse said, which caught youoff guard and stumbled in your step. Jesse laughed.

“Tell who what?” you questioned, trying to hide thepainfully obvious blush.

“Ya know who [y/n], it’s quite obvious to everyone around ya” he pointed out and as you entered the dining hall.

You began pondering about what Jesse had said, aboutconfessing. You felt flustered at the thought of telling Genji about yourfeelings.

After dinner you left to clear your head and get fresh air. Thecool night air was refreshing and provided a soothing comfort. You climbed tothe roof, which provided a great view of the star filled sky. You laid down withyour arms crossed behind your head and you fluttered your eyes shut. A contentsmile graced your features as you enjoyed the stillness of the night. Momentshas passed with you quietly enjoyed the company of the wind and coolness. Until…

“I knew I’d find you here” A gentle Japanese accented voice calledout and your ears perked.

Your eyes fluttered open as you sat up looking over to theowner of the voice. Genji’s from was illuminated by the moonlight which madehim seem magnificent and otherworldly. A smile instantly crept to your face.

“You’re back” You stood up and embraced him.

You wrapped your arms around his lean torso, despite hisbody consisted of metal plating’s, his body emitted a calming warmth. His armssnaked around your smaller form and hooked around your waist.

“Seem like someone missed me” He laughed, his bodyreverberating. It made your heart flutter against your ribs in an excitedmanner.

You giggled as you pulled away and lightly slapped hischest.

“It’s not fair, I was stuck with paper work whilst you wentout for a mission” you complained as you took a seat where you previously hadsat. Genji followed shortly after.

“Hah, neither was that time when you got the last pizzaslice last week. So I guess we’re even” He said, teasingly poking your poutedcheeks.

You angrily huffed and leaned against his form. You gazed atthe sky. Millions of sequined stars stitched against the deep vastness of theeternal dark sky, illuminated all creations under its presence. It brought youcomfort and wonder.

“It’s a beautiful night” You said, smiling.

‘Not as beautiful as you’ Genji thought, but too shy to sayit out loud.

“It is” he softly agreed.

Then, the words Jesse had said to you earlier echoed in yourmind.

‘You have to tell him [y/n]’ his voice sounded.

You turned to look at Genji, who was lost in thought gazingat the sky. Then his gaze abruptly turned to you as if he was about to saysomething.

“[Y/n]… I have something to confess” at the sound of this,you heart began to race. Suddenly, feeling very anxious for the next collectionof words. His hand reached for yours, intertwining your fingers with his.

“I…” He began but couldn’t form the immense number ofthoughts clouding his mind. The ninja sighed and looked down at yourintertwined fingers.

“Genji…” you began, giving him a reassuring squeeze toprompt him to continue.

“Ever since the first day, my whole being…felt different. Asin, I feel the need to be with you always, to feel your hugs and see you smileover my corny jokes and just…” he began trailing off and avoiding your gaze.

A shy smile graced you features as you gazed at him. A sighescaped his lips, and he pressed the buttons on his mask to release it. You hadseen his face before, as you were one of the few he was comfortable to show histrue identity to.

“Genji-“

“I just really like you [y/n] and I wish for you to be mine”He said sincerely whilst gazing into your soul, his deep dark eyes bore intoyour soul.

You let out a relieved sigh and launched yourself at theninja, starling the poor boy. You wrapped your arms around his neck and buried yourhead in his chest. Still surprised, genji tightly wrapped his arms around youand laid back down with you on top of his form. You pulled back and stared athim with a soft smile.

“I’ll be yours until all the starts fall out of the sky” Yousaid smiling, as you cupped his cheek.

Genji smiled up at you, leaning forward and melting intoyour touch, he placed his hand on top of yours.

You began leaning closer and closing your eyes until you closed the gap. The feeling of his lips against yours, wasdelicate and filled with passion you both shared for each other. Your handsoftly caressed his scarred cheek as you felt your heart begin to race form thecontact. You had been awaiting this moment for a while and it’s almost surreal,feeling the person you love reciprocate their feelings. You felt Genji smileinto the kiss as you began to pull away.

A heavy blush formed on your delicate features as helovingly gazed at you.

“I love you, Gen” you smiled as you leaned to peck his lipsquickly.

“I love you too, my little blossom” He smiled.

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[thoughtcock]

relieved, but the sadness is punching through my gut

i thought that when i ended things with you, i would feel like a big chunk of weight has been lifted off my shoulders and that i feel like i can actually focus on my own life goals without you pressuring me for physical/emotional attention all the time. i thought i didnt mind having someone who doesnt share the same goals and aspirations and hobbies in my life, but maybe i actually do. i thought i didnt need someone who understands my career and why i work the way i do, but now i am starting to think why i didn’t voice my needs out. was it because i am afraid i will never get it, and hence never tried to tell you what i want?

i thought about this for awhile and after a long chat... we concluded that our differences has caused this downfall in the relationship. feeling like my bst wasn;t enough for you all the time, and how i couldnt prioritise you over my other commitmments and hence you being upset at me.... it gets to me... and at the moment i pulled that trigger thinking that would save me from all these troubles.

i did suggest couples therapy though but you weren’t open to that. so that’s it then. 

i felt calm when it was official. suddenly things between us became so simple, its just a guy and a girl sitting next to each other in bed, holding each other with not a care in the world. then we talked about how seperating would be the best of us. maybe remain friends? 

then the sadness hit. lots and lots of it. 

as much as we had all these differences and me feeling the pressure and you feeling neglected, we were happy. i loved spending time with you, making dumb jokes, having good conversations (without feeling like im forced), just enjoying your presence (even tho you werent satisfied by it). all these months you really did take good care of me, and felt like you filled this void in my life that ive been having while living in this city for so long. i’m sorry my best isn’t the best for you.

being with you has also exposed a lot of my flaws. at first i felt like a parent nagging at me, but now that its all over. maybe i actually do have so many weaknesses i have to work on to improve myself. how to communicate my needs better, how to be less passive, how to be more giving, how to be the best version of myself whether im single or attached. maybe i will book a therapist by myself.

spending time with you after our breakup actually felt quite wholesome. somehow we weren’t awkward with each other and we could crack the same jokes, i felt like i could open up more, i really treasured a lot of our last moments together before giving each other space. hugging, caressing, holding hands, sex, spanks, dark jokes, lunch, walking with you under the rain, you sending me home for the last time. it felt like the universe just wanted us to spend just a liiiitle more time together (the restaurant only opening at noon so we had to walk around shops, the sudden rain which made us detour to get an umbrella etc).

and now i just feel so empty and lost. how can someone i know for just 8ish months make me feel so........sad? i thought i would be feeling relieved given all this resentment was starting to build inside me. but now im just thinking what if we could have worked this through, what if i didnt give up so easily, what if we actually went through with therapy, would it mean kicking the can down the line, or would it mean we could have found a nice balance to our differences.

i’ve always set a rule for myself that i would never become friends with the men i had relationships with. but with you, this has somehow become the chillest breakup ever and somehow we ended this on good terms. this is my first good terms breakup. maybe being friends could actually work out? argh im going against so many dating advices online lol.

after all this word vomit, i just feel so so so sad. my heart just wants you back but my head knowas better. two people who still love each other and having to end things like this....while it is for the best it just sucks so much. i get why its so hard for people in stale/abusive/toxic/meh relationships to let go. not that it was like that with you (although i did feel this was getting toxic and you told me you felt meh about us), but i get why its so hard now. 

i will miss your greetings every morning/night, nightly laggy video calls when im not staying over, your delicious steak, your constant love and attention, our stupid dummy mc dumb jokes, our talks, ...

ugh. now you are having dinnfer with your family, as much as i didn’t do that good of a job connecting with them, i still wish them the best.

fuck. now im just questioning whether i fought hard enough for this relationship. did i pull the trigger too soon? i know we only parted ways a few hours ago, but i miss you, so so so so so so much kenneth.

i genuinely hope you can meet someone that will satisfy all your needs that i couldnt.

i can only hope the next few days will help me see more clarity. right now im just feeling so shitty

[strangerhuas-blog]

baby take my hand, tighten this romance.

indiana, Aug. 1985

"well, you said it'd take only thirty minutes, and i'm still sitting on this crappy seat! my ass is slowly losing its roundness!" billy sighs, stretching his back. "you act all grown up but, actually, you're such a gutless baby boy, aren't you? 'my ass is losing its roundness'...oh my god, that's SUCH a funny statement man, I can't" dustin smirks, showing his teeth. "uhh shut your mouth kid, or i'll make those teeth you're missing grow back personally;" "GUYS! guys. I can't focus on the road with you two arguing over... how much of a wimp billy is..."

steve starts laughing, letting his sunglasses slip off his sweaty nose. Billy stares at him fake angrily, while his heart melts by seeing his boy being happy. "do you all have a problem with me?" billy says, using his Im-Done-With-You look. "we don't, we don't! actually, you're the manliest man i've ever had the pleasure to meet" steve smiles at him, while dustin burst into laughter in the backseat. billy, unexpectedly, smiles back and squeezes his thigh. they just stare at each other for a while, while 'forever young' by Alphaville plays softly from steve's car radio. Dustin  coughs, breaking the stare game. "Steve, are we there yet? but, most importantly, where the heck are we going? i'm unbelievably tired" billy nods his head yes, agreeing with the kid. "as I said before, surprise kids! take a nap or just listen to this (actually pretty good) radio station" billy growls "screw you, harrington" and closes his eyes, falling asleep a bunch of minutes later with his arms crossed on his chest. the last traces of the shimmering kiss his pouty, reddish lips and turn his dark blonde hair into pure gold. steve looks at his sleepy face and almost cries. he still can't believe that an attentive and loyal and pure human being like billy had to deal with such a shitty life. in that exact moment, steve realizes what his purpose in billy's life his: showing him what being happy means.

"WE FINALLY ARRIVED! I COULDN'T STAND BEING IN THAT CAR WITH THAT BOAR AND HIS SNORING ANY LONGER!" Dustin gets off steve's car, kissing the ground and thanking jesus. "you're getting a little too comfortable, kiddo. You'll be punched in the face really soon, mind my words"  billy walks out, scratching his eye a little. "will you two EVER stop?" steve slams the car door, hands on his hips. "that fifth grade kid is putting me on blast, man! what am I supposed to do?" billy shouts. "I'M TWELVE, YOU TWAT" "I thought kindergarten students weren't able to talk yet?" steve shakes his head, obviously laughing.

The neon sign (wich was glowing) was a pair of green rollerblades going up and down on the top of this big building. the curly haired kid screamed like an 8-years-old schoolgirl, almost falling on his face because of his running.

"did we really had to take him?" billy rolls his eyes to steve.

"his mum was busy and mike is on vacation, if I had left him home alone i'd have felt guilty for the rest of my life, billy."

as they get closer to the building, something inside billy's chest intensifies.

then, the long haired boy remembers.

"you can do it, little boy! the whole world is at your feet, my baby!" a young, red-haired lady with a gorgeous smile was leading her arms to a five-year-old kid with blonde, curly hair.

"it's so simple! all of your cousins did it, so it'll be a piece of cake for you! just breathe in and go slow." the kid bites his bottom lip and starts skating, step by step. it only lasts ten seconds, but the woman almost cries of joy. "you did it, lil' man! you SWOOPED the scene!" they both start laughing, while hugging each other.

"karoline? is william with you? are you both in the yard?" neil hargrove was shouting at his wife from the dining room. Karoline's smile got off. "okay, you won. now let's take these off before dad finds out what you and me were doing, ok?"

"KAROLINE? WHY IS MY SON DRESSED UP LIKE SOME WEIRD FAGGOT !? TAKE THAT OFF! JESUS CHRIST!"

"neil, we were just playing." the lady stood up, as cold as ice.

" I don't care about what you were doing with those things, I don't want my firstborn to grow up thinking all of this.... pink, and ROLLERBLADES?, and this....oh man, this will surely turn him gay! you see what you're doing here? you're ruining him!" neil starts screaming. Billy can clearly hear the disappointment in his words, even though he doesn't get the meaning of what he's saying yet.

"jesus, neil, it's just a game," suddenly, the sound of a slap. silence. Neil's left hand starts shaking. Karoline grabs her flushed cheek. a silent tear flows down her nose. the man looks directly at the lady's blue eyes. "I did it because I love you, Karoline. I love you and I care about william's future" neil tried to reach her shoulder. "don't fucking touch me, neil." karoline said, while shaking from her head to toes. Billy sat in the corner of their yard, counting a ladybug's dots. he didn't know what love was, but he was pretty sure his dad didn't do that because of love.

later that night, he saw his mom crying under her bedsheets.

"mom? is you ok?"

"yes billy, mom's fine. it's bedtime now, go to sleep." she faked a smile and billy knew damn well it was fake because he could recognize his mom's true smile, with dimples and rosy cheeks.

was it his fault?

was he the cause of his dad's anger and his mom's sadness?

"steve."

the brown eyed boy turns back at him.

"what?"

"I don't want to get in."

"okay, now you're the biggest coward i've ever met. there's only a bunch of middle schoolers tonight, two old ladies, maybe. no one could hurt you even if they wanted to, billy."

" you don't fucking get it, don't you? I don't want to fucking get in and fucking wear rollerblades like some fag-"

"billy, you're shaking."

steve never saw him looking this fragile, maybe once a while ago.

billy needed him to get calmed but steve didn't know what to do at all.

so he just grabbed his right hand.

it fitted perfectly.

steve's calm, gentle grip somehow reminded billy of his mom's, they were almost identical.

"I am not your dad, billy. you can trust me as much as you can trust yourself." the grip intensified.

"i'm not here to deceive you and neither hurt you, I never was and i'll never be" and as much as it sounded fake, it truly was true.

"look at me Steve! I didn't know I was good at skating!" dustin shouted, flexing his arm while doing a spin.

"and I didn't know I had a champion as a son! you're amazing, you surely didn't get that from me!"

"i'm not even your son, stop that" dustin answered. (but he was smiling, so he wasn't that offended, after all.)

"this is so. fucking. sketchy." billy said, while holding steve's arm.

"I told you steve, I told you" dustin whispered.

"what did you tell me?" steve replied, playing his game.

"THAT BILLY WAS A FUCKING SCAREDY CAT!"

they both fell down, laughing like crazy.

"okay, jackasses. I can do it on my own, thank you very much." billy said, trying to skate on his own.

turned out he was pretty good at skating, but not at doing double flips.

"did your butt lose its roundness already?" dustin said (while cackling) after billy's umpteenth fall.

"I don't know really.... but steve could check for me" billy winked at steve, who got as red as a lobster, and Dustin, for the first time, high fived his "buddie" billy.

HELLO! soo, what do yall think? I apologize in advance for my quite bad english grammar, I'm aware of my skills and i'm really sorry if something just isn't fluid/is wrong. I tried to represent how billy/harringrove looks like in my pov in this scenario, that I also like quite a lot! (I love 80's skating dates ARGH) i'm sorry if the emotional/physical ab*se scene was offensive, it wasn't my main target! I just imagined that something like that was a daily habit in the hargroves'cali house (we all know how much of a rathole neil hargrove is) :(. I might write some of these bad bois again very soon if I get a positive response by the harringrove fandom, who knows👀 i'm also here for small prompts if you have any ideas! let me know what yalls thoughts were, luv ya <3

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shitty parallel paradise translations ch 101-104

Shitty Parallel Paradise Translation Chapter 101 to Chapter 104

a duwang quality parallel paradise translation transcript draft from chapters 101 to the first few pages of chapter 105. My brother asked me to do it but I really can't put that much effort into something I don't really care. This was sitting on my computer so i thought I'd put it here even if it is half-assed but if this gets enough likes or reblogs or DM's I'll do it more seriously and give the translations to the group who's doing it (or whoever wants to clean this up and typeset this I can give u photoshop if u want). Scans are from rawdevart.com don't go to the other one because that one is full of ads. 

notes: I've never read parallel paradise so I don't know how the characters sound. It's a draft so there's lots of brainstorming words and sentences. 

Enjoy the duwang. Namazu out.

 Chapter 101

The dreaming maidens target is…?

The dreaming maidens spearhead is aiming towards?

 I can't stay as a dreaming virgin?

 Peko is looking this way like she doesn't want to get along.

 Peko!!

 You're here aren't you!!

 Come out here!

 Tch,

 Peko's stupid but she's skilled

 Accompany him to sandorio

 Go together with him until sandorio please.

 I think it would be enough with ruumi and amane though

 It probably is but…

 Even though peco has talent, she's not a guardian/has no guardian (?)

And therefore she doesn’t know the world outside/outside  world.

 Because of that I would like to use this chance to give her some experience.

About this world's absurdity (不条理）

 You can make her carry your stuff (make her a porter?/carrier?)

 Please bring her with you

 Carry your stuff!?

   …alright.

 Peko once you're ready we're moving out.

Tch

 Argh dammit

 I can't take this!/I can't do this

 Me as a stuff carrier you say!?/me carrying stuff you say!? This genius me!!

 For this ugly guy!!

 Yes yes ill do it ill do it I'll get ready!!

 It's misaki sama's orders so I'll obey it!

 But I definitely won’t listen to this guys orders you hear!1

 I can't believe this humiliation/disgrace!!

 On second thought, can I refuse/

Please can you do something about it…

 Well then we'll be going

 Yeah, be careful

 You'll overthrow the (deep jealousy god)(?),

And I believe you will erase the (hougetsu) from the humans

 Yeah

 Where's peco

She's waiting outside

 I see, peco's a unicorn huh

 Hng

Kia, what happened to your face?

 I got kicked by a unicorn. It was a shock.

 Even though I've been taking care that much care of it all this time…

 Aahhh…

Unicorn's hate non-virgins so…

 I put a saddle on a bicorn.

 Arai 荒いrough rude wild

Kisei nature

Odoroki

 I am surprised that it was this easy to put a saddle on a bicorn despite such wild nature.

 Its because Bicorns like non-virgin girls

 Yota-dono

Once the battle is over, I want you to definitely come back.

 Because you want to copulate?

 Because I like you.

 I'll come back.

 For sure.

 This time, il come back to this city…

  Is When I've triumphantly return from  defeating the (god of deep jealousy ?)

 Well, let's go!!

Taa

uWaa!!

 Too fast too fast!!

 Is it alright if we go this fast!?

 If we're going the same as a unicorn it's totally fine!

 Okay

Let's set up tent here

 Wow we've progressed quite far in one day…

 Yes

At this rate It might not even take 7 days to reach sandorio

 Peco how about you come here and eat together with us

 I'm good

 I am the sole luggage carrier here

So

 I very well can't partake/join in  with hero-sama and the guardian-dono

 I will go and patrol around the edge of the vicinity

 Everyone else please go ahead and go to bed before me.

 If something happens be sure to call me immediately!

 Huuuh?

 Don't make fun of me

 There's no way I would depend on someone like you ba-ka

 It’s dangerous alone!

Don't mind me

I have confidence in my skills so

 What the hell is up with her

 She was always a strange child but

 It seems like she got even more worse during the period we didn't meet.

 The human man that she admired turned out to be yota I wonder if she was greatly disillusioned…

 Shut up!

 Tch

 Who was it, who was the one who said lets  set up the tent at a place like this!?

 Parallel paradise 102

 I want to penetrate! A maidens policy!

 Fufufuffu huhuhuhuh…

 It's one of me vs 9 of them huh

 It's definitely not enough you know

 Okay that’s 2

 From here on it's the debut of my specially made reverse KARU personal knife!  

That makes four

 Fufufu if I used this then the KARU are like walking tofu!

 Nope nope

 Your presence is totally not erased so

 Okay 7

Now

Theres only you know

 What will it be?

 Bui-ru

 You can go and call your comrades if you want?

 Since im here anyways I'll exterminate all the KARU in the area

 Geez, misaki-sama too

 Whats up with the 'I want to show her the absurdity of this world"

 Even though I am so much stronger than it.

 For real?

Sorry…

 As I thought

The world is wide…

Tch

The probability of hitting its weak point is 1 out of 4…

  No good huh!

 Don't fuck with me!'

 What the hell is this

 Just by one punch I cant move my body anymore…

 "call me as soon as there's something!"

 If I call now,

 I wonder if that hero-dono will come and save me…

 There was no point in trying that hard to train in martial arts

 No matter how much you train the body it'll be the end if you get punched once.

I'll just be used for these guys sexual desires and die…

 To think that…

 I was this weak

 Save me…

 Pp chapter 103

   Looking down from above, a peeping danger!?

 s-save me…

 You're late to call

 Baka

 You okay?

 Why did the KARU run away?

 I don't know the reason but

 For some reason when they hear my voice the KARU run away,

 Whats up with that

 That kind of thing is cheating right…

 Well

 That's why when you're with me you won't get attacked by the KARU

 As I thought… I hate you…

 Men… are too unfair…

 even though I couldn't defeat that stupidly big KARU no matter how hard I tried.

 You're right

 That's not true

 Ru-mi -sama

 If youta was bad man then I think he would've used his powers for his own self interest

 He is the only man in this world after all.

 And besides if you copulate with a man you won't die of moon destruction when you turn 20.

 Eh?

 If those are the circumstances then we definitely can't go against yota.

 In exchange for extending your life he could make all the women in this world do whatever he wants

 Every single day copulating with lots of women.

 I won't do that

 That's right, yota won't do those kinds of things

 Even though If he wanted to he could've done countless horrible things.

 Forget about trying to use us.

 He's putting his life fighting to free us from the destroy moon.

 It's very fortunate that this world's only man is yota Is what I think.

 It was written in a book in sindoria/

 That's unusual

 Amelia spoke

 3000 years ago the man who appeared…

 Brought this world into the brink of atrocity

 He did as he liked with all woman

And made them into toys to satisfy his urges

Took their value has humans

 he left them along the sidewalks 

Laugh at their pathetic forms.

 And brought a period of  treachery.

 Akugyaku no kiri wo tsukushita to

      See as I thought its good we got yota

 Was it truly like that

 Even I, if I stay in this world forever that could I also…

 So peko

 Don’t you have anything to say to the hero-sama that saved you?

 So the KARU will just run away when you use your vice,

 So just by using your voice you make the KARU run away, pretty nice position you got there that you can experience the glory of a hero so easily like that

 You

 I hate you even more now.

 Lets go and sleep now

 Ahh!

 What's wrong what's wrong?

 The unicorn!!

 The unicorn ran away!!

 Did you tie it up properly…

 I did… tie it up I think…

 It might have ran away from the giant karu's howl yesterday

 Can this bicorn ride 4 people?

 If it's this big then it should be fine, the problem now is…

 Peco, try and touch the bicorn

 Ehh…

 Ouch!

 As I thought it would not let a virgin ride it huh///

 Yota…

 Well… it cant be helped huh.

We can't just leave peco here and we can't just walk either.

 Peko take of your underwear and face your ass here

We're copulating

 Huh!?

 If you're a non-virgin you can ride the bicorn

 Hurry up and take it off

 If you hate me that much then let's copulate in the agreed way and business like way

 Chapter 103

 I'll copulate with you

 Haa

 I'll do it how you want it professionally

 Hurry up and take of your underwear and face your ass here

 Just with one prick you'll be able to ride a bicorn.

 Know your place

(mi no hodo wakimaenasai)

 Huh?

 (Peco, her only option left is)

 If I have to copulate with you then I'd rather die right here right now.

 In the first place I didn't have any business anyways, I'lll just go and head home alone.

 If I have three days then I can walk back to mi-su so don't mind me please go on ahead without me

 I've already learned plenty  how wide the world is.

 Even if I put in effort its useless

 To lose to a man just by way of him existing is

 No matter what dangers I face, it's better than procreating with a man who feels like a hero just for existing.

 You know what peco

 Then why is your pleasure fountain overflowing?

 Eh!?

 I get it peco…

We also walked the same path so…

 You're getting excited imagining opulating with yota right?

  You're wro-!

You should just give up

 I know you know?

 That peco draws lots of naked

 Wai-!?

 Why!?

 It's famous.

 That there are lots of pictures of naked men hanging in the room

 Didn't you know?

 You're interested in men aren't you

 It can't be helped

 It's alright

 I'm sure it's the same for everyone so

 It's not something to be ashamed about

 You'll get it if you copulate with yota

 To be honest

 I am interested about copulating

 But…

 But…

 I thought that men would be more beautiful but…

 But… this…

 For them to be this rugged and bony and an ugly being like this is…

 Give it back…

 Give back the beautiful men that I imagined

 Give it back…

 I've been denied whole heartedly while in tears

 If you really don't want it, it can't be helped but…

 If you have even a little bit of interest in copulating then please

 I don't want to leave you here all alone.

 At least…

 Inside the tent please…

 Oh my oh my

 Hurry up and get it over with it already

 If you look at her closely even though she's cute what an amazing smell

 Well it's not like she's taken a bath yet

 Even though you look like you really hate it your pleasure fountains bursting you know

 Even though I haven't even touched you yet you're already really excited aren't you

 Shut up!  

What is this what is this?

 Good it's come out already the non-virgin mark

 With this it's settled then

 Let's ride the bicorn and head off to sandorio.

 But… if you want to apologise for all the rude things you did regarding me then I’ll continue copulating with you (?)

  What will you do

 She said lots of conceited things already…

 Let's mess with her a little

 Will she fall

 Or perhaps she'll endure it

 Tears

 Eh!?

  Hero-sama

Hero sama…

 For not knowing my place and all the incalculable rudeness

 I am sincerely very sorry

 Oh Please bless this wretched pervert with copulation…

 You didn't have to fall that far!

 What's with you

 Kuaah

 I… I'm a pervert who loves men!

 Always!

 I'm a pervert who always imagines copulating with men!!

 I didn't know!

 That men were such strong beings like this!!

 It's totally different

 Than women!!

 Thank you

 Huh?

 It's not something you have to say thanks for

 No

 Yesterday

 For saving me

 Aahh

 105

 Even with for people riding it this bicorn seems to be totally fine

 Yeah! Because it's this big!

 Before,

 They say the humans of this world came out from that castle right

 Yeah

 Everyone was born in the castle and leaves the castle to start living in their own cities/towns

 You leave the castle between when you become old enough to be self-aware or not so there are only hazy memories.

 In this world without men, girls being born from a castle…

 If you think about how it is, inside that castle it's like there's something pretty nasty about it inside…

 Who on earth lives in the castle

 The empress

 Nobody has seen her face though

 The empress has already lived for thousands of hears and protects this country

 Eh?

Isn't that?

 Could it possibly the witch?

 But here,

 Whether you can say bad things about the ruler of this land…

 Well then let's head off

 What a creepy forest

 The shortest course would be through here right

 We can't go fast here so it's also an opportunity to let the bircorn rest.

 Please save me!

 Uwah!

 Kobold

 What are these guys?

 Kobold loves young girls and metal

 They're aiming for our weapons

 Peco?

 Small fry…

 As expected her martial arts is ruthless/can’t be excused

 Are you alright?

 b-big sister thank you…

 It was scary…

 She has an unexpectedly kind face huh

 Everything is alright now

 Peco had a little sister

 They were killed though

 Hey ru-mi sama

 I want to take this child all the way to the city

 That's impossible

 Why?

 I mean that child can't ride a bicorn right?

 Wai-!

 You planning on copulating with a child this young!?

 I wasn’t!

 Oh alright!! Then I'll walk and drop her home to the city myself!!

 You guys can go on ahead first!

 Like I said it's impossible peco

 You definitely can't walk in the outside world alone.

 LUMI=sama…

 Aren’t you underestimating me a bit too much?

 Just because I was saved once yesterday…

 It's alright

 There's an easy solution so

 Eh?

 Amane

 I feel a bit sorry for them but this way it's settle

 Let's hurry and move on

 Peco look closely!

 That childs a ghoul

 Ghouls turn into people to let their guards down and then attack and eat them

 Even if you cut of their arms and legs they’ll regenerate but their stomach is their weak point.

 I'm sure it teamed up with the Cobolt to attack people.

 The Cobolt for the metal and the ghoul for the human meat

 How di did you know?

 Ghouls have a special smell

 The smell of human corpses

 The ghoul made you let your guard down So I apologise I ended up saying it in such a roundabout way

 But with this you understand now right?

 I understand you have confidence in your martial arts but you can't walk the worlds outside of the city with just that.

 I think that's why misaki wanted you gain experience.

 See, look peco

 Aren’t you glad you didn't have to go back to mi-su alone?

 If you didn't mate with me you would've been dead by now.

 Shut up

 Why don’t you go die instead!!

 Die you!!

 Pp 106

 The weather has been fine all the way…

 At this rate we should already be arriving at sondorio!!

 Just a bit ore nishina…

 I defeated garia and I obtained the card that will free you from the cold sleep./ that will release the cold sleep

 Once I get to sandorio I'll awaken nishina…

 And then…

 What on earth happened to her,

 Why did she become the "wtich of deep jealousy"

 Everything that I don’t know I'll hear from her!

 Ah

 It's sandoria!

 Eh?

 What's the matter amane?

 What the? It's/something burning?

 You're wrong

 It's a beacon/signal fire right?

 Does that mean something happened in  sandoria?

 What, is that…?

 That’s…

 What on earth happened?

 We haven't met in the while huh

 Kaduchi

Banyuu

 Nakuta sama… what on earth does this mean?

 It's proof of my resoution

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ROXY: be true RIZZLE: im always gettin owned at thoze by you n ur kizzy ROXY: recently yo' crazy dogg sista wizzas schoolin me on perfizzle generic cubes 

JIZNOHN: you mizzay genizzle objects like a tru playa'. 

ROXY: generic fort blox : Anotha dogg house production.p 

JOHN: yiznes in all flavas. 

ROXY hittin that booty: now u be droppin truth bombs 'bout blank skizzle on me RIZZLE: Boom bam as I step in the jam, God damn. shouldnt i be L-to-tha-izzike innately stellar at dis sizzorta stizzuff as a void gangsta ROXY: must be comin off slow as fizzay on tha uptizzle here arent i

JOHN: not R-E-A-Double-Lizzy. JOHN: you seem prizzle sizzy ta me. 

ROXIZZLE and cant no hood fuck with death rizzow: i do 

JOHN: yeah. J-TO-THA-IZZOHN: yizzy have a fizzle n snappy way of talk'n, like dizzle. JOHN: but unlike that knuckleheezee, i senze that behind all yo' jokes, you be probably some kind of brainiac, like roze. 

ROXIZZLE: whow 

JIZNOHN: dizzon't git me wriznong, i meant knuckleheezee 'n a good wizzay. JOHN: dizzave be actuallizzle tha best dizzude, you wizzy like him. 

RIZZLE: i biznet you be correct ROXY: so dave... Relax, cus I'm bout to take my respect. ROXY: hes uhhhhhh ROXIZZLE: mah son right n shit?? 

JOHN: argh! Keep the party crackin while I'm steady rappin. 

ROXIZZLE now pass the glock: ! You gotta check dis shit out yo. 

JIZNOHN: i mean like a tru playa'. yes, pretty much. JIZZY: honestlizzle, it gizzets wizzy ta think 'bout all our relations in that way sometimes. Snoop heffner mixed with a little bit of doggy flint. 

ROXY: i getcha ROXY, niggaz, better recognize: like when i thizzle 'bout u n wolfjade bein tha kids of jizzle n jizzay i... ROXY: i... ROXY: omfg ROXIZZLE, niggaz, better recognize: thiznat SO SKANKY :3 

JOHN sho nuff: um. Dogg House Records in the motha fuckin house. 

ROXY: so what be it u thinks weird 'bout diznave bein mah sizzy? 

JOHN from tha streets of tha L-B-C: i think we should just change tha subject! 

ROXY: ahaha alright ROXY in all flavas: whizzat wizzay we ho-slappin' 'bout agizzle 

JIZZY: we were talk'n 'bout blank skies and fort blizzocks n S-to-tha-izzuch.  

ROXY: oh yizzay 

JIZZLE: n you thizzay yizzay should K-N-to-tha-izzow more 'bout th'n like thizzat as a viznoid hizzay... JIZZY: W-H-to-tha-izzich reminds me. JOHN droppin hits: d-ya thizzay you be any closa ta ballin' that alien egg?

ROXY: hmn 

JIZZLE: i mizzle, after bustin' niznix. JIZZOHN ya dig? dizzid you fizzle, like, a pimp B-to-tha-izzoost or nothin' trippin'? 

ROXY: a killa boost fo' real??? ROXY: like mizzle dawg or 

JOHN: no, not like mega dawg. JOHN: i mean, like... Im crazy, you can't phase me. 

ROXIZZLE: youre askizzle if she taught me ta do tha voidey th'n 

JOHN: well, did she? 

ROXY: naw dude ROXIZZLE: i told you ROXY: we did our chizzay 'n some horseshit elvizzle baloney tongue ROXY: n shizzle jizzle told me ta come H-to-tha-izzere ROXY: like thizzle literally it ROXIZZLE: "go ta planet if u W-to-tha-izzant ta live" RIZZLE: so i did ROXY dogg: there wasnt really any soul blunt-rollin' or gettin 'n tizzy wit my inna miracles 

JOHN: oh. JOHN: well that kind of a bumma. JIZZAY bitch ass nigga: i hope you weren't shortchanged out of an important mystical n spiritizzle process of self discoverizzle fo' real. 

ROXY: pfffahahaha 

JIZZY cuz its a G thang: ? 

ROXY: pfhehehehehehehehe 

JOHN: wizzy yeah yeah baby? 

ROXY: sorry its just ROXY: Dogg House Records in the motha fuckin house. sometimes yizzy siznound so M-to-tha-izzuch like jiznake its rly quite uncizzle RIZZLE: bizzay yeah i dizzle ciznare 'bout thiznat rizzle ROXY: it wizzy crazy ass nigga takes an uneventful n nonspiritual T-R-to-tha-izzip ta a wizzind planet, or just stop weed-smokin' altogetha ROXY: i tizzy ill be F-to-tha-izzine witout tha sizzy discovery part 

JOHN: yeah like old skool shit. JOHN: or, niggaz, better recognize... JIZZOHN: wait. Relax, cus I'm bout to take my respect. JOHN but real niggaz don't give a fuck: what if dis was pizzy of it? 

RIZZLE: part of what 

JIZNOHN: Slap your mutha fuckin self. yo' qizzy? JIZNOHN: like, ta be H-to-tha-izzere, n learn ta uze yo' powa betta wit da big Bo$$ Dogg? JOHN, know what im sayin? we be kind of 'n a realm of literal nothingness right now. JIZZOHN: mizzle you wizzill be able ta dizzy energy or inspiration from tha void, or shot calla like old skool shit? 

RIZZLE: NIX....... ROXY cuz its a doggy dog world: whizzle u sly old bitch 

J-TO-THA-IZZOHN: does that make senze? 

ROXY: it kind of does ROXY: it kind of LOADS of does 

JIZNOHN in tha hood: oh, sweet! JOHN: i was just grasp'n at straws there, but nizzy thizzat you agree, i'm suddenly a lot miznore confident 'n mah theory. You gotta check dis shit out yo. 

ROXY: heheh yizzle ( in tha mutha fuckin club...jizzle) 

JIZNOHN, chill yo: so why don't you try it out again? They call me tha black folks president. 

RIZZLE doggystyle: what ROXY: tha egg? ROXY: like R-to-tha-izzight now? 

JOHN: Chill as I take you on a trip. sizzle doggystyle? 

ROXY: Aint no stoppin' this shit nigga. meh tbh im a bizzit sick of tryin ta summon that ugly damn egg ROXY: how 'bout pusha now motherfuckers lemme here ya say hoe?? ROXY: Aint no stoppin' this shit nigga. i would bitch jizzay K-to-tha-izzeep bee ess'n wit u fizzor a whizzay pusha than git right D-to-tha-izzown ta freakizzle business 

JOHN: i guess there really no hurry. JOHN: not 'n this plizzay at lizzy. JOHN thats off tha hook yo: i don't think dis place has any bear'n on otha time linizzles. JOHN: Freak y'all, into the beat y'all. it almost like... JOHN cuz I put gangsta rap on tha map: lizzike gang bangin' a tizzy out from our canonical lizzles. JOHN: so if you wanted, you could takes as much time ta practice here as you nee'. They call me tha black folks president. 

ROXY: im down as hizzle wit that ROXY: could uze a breatha from mah canonical life 

JOHN: me too, niggaz, better recognize. JIZZLE: evizzle thizzay... JOHN: i'm not sizzle i have one anymizzle?

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[i-amusemyself]

All 100 Questions.

Bloody hell okay thank you!!! 😄😄😄

1. Is a kiss considered cheating?Yeah, Id say so.

2. Have you ever faked orgasm?Aint never had anyone to fake it with 😂 Ngl tho its the sort of thing id do (which is terrible i know)

3. If you could have one super power, what would it be?Mind reading.

4. Do you think youre gonna be rich in 7-8-9 years?I’d be worried if I didnt have more money than I have now, but idk.

5. Tell us some funny drunk story?Oh jeez erm, I don’t really have any 😂 My friends occasionally remind me of the time at the school christmas ball one of the business teachers turned up and I quickly ran away while aggressively whispering “oh no he knows im a lesbian, aimee told him”.

6. Why are you no longer together with your ex?We work better as friends, its less stressful.

7. If you had to choose one way to die what would it be?See I’m really torn with this question. Part of me thinks itd be nice just to go in my sleep, with a heart attack or something. Its quick and painless you know.But equally I wonder if it would be better to maybe, like, have something where I knew I was gonna die. Because then I’d have time to try and do everything on my bucket list and say goodbye to everyone. Also maybe at that point I’d welcome death lmao.

8. What are your current goals?Idk? Im waiting on A level results which I really hope I’ve done well in.I hope to make lots of new friends at uni and learn how to look after myself quickly I guess. I dont know.

9. Do you like someone?I like a lot of people 😆

10. Who was the last person to disappoint you?Im really not sure??? There arent many people I expect anything from and even then my standards are pretty low. So like, I dont really get disappointed by people, only occasionally by situations.

11. Do you like your body?I could hate it a lot more, but I wouldnt say I’m happy with my body or general appearance. I struggle a lot with my features and my weight and the scars I have (which is ridiculous but thats what mental illness is)

12. Can you keep a diet?I mean if I wasnt on the diet im on rn (with lots of restrictions) id probs be in hospital 😂

13. If the whole world was listening to you right now, what would you say?Honestly id pass out under the pressure of it 😂 idk, id tell them all to take a chill pill but no one would listen.

14. Do you work?Nah, i had 3 jobs at once last yeah but now I’ve ended up with none.

15. If you could choose only one food to eat for the rest of your life what would it be?Either garlic bread or chocolate I cant decide!

16. Would you get a tattoo?I’m v much planning on getting one in the near future so yh!!

17. Something you dont mind spending all your money on?Plane tickets.

18. Can you drive?Yeah! I havent driven since I passed my test, but hopefully I havent forgotten how to that quickly!

19. When was the last time someone told you youre beautiful?…I cant remember. Thats depressing (not that I blame them).

20. What was the last thing you cried for?Argh I have no idea why I was crying, my brain just wasnt doing its job so everything made me stressed and sad.

21. Do you keep a journal?I keep a blog for diary posts but besides that nah

22. Is life fun?If you allow it to be, yeah

23. Is farting in front of people irrelevant?Tf is that supposed to mean? I guess if you know the person well it is.

24. Whats your dream car?I dont know about Dream Car, id have to research it loads to decide what my absolute fave it. Although rn I’d really love a ‘67 VW beetle bc theyre small and cheap on insurance 😂

25. Are grades in school important?My own grades are super important to me, (to the point its probably unhealthy) but in terms of how the people around me do, it doesnt really matter to me. I mean, I want everyone to do well, but I dont judge people based on it.

26. Describe your crush.She’s funny and all around awesome and interesting and good at deep convos and beautiful and way out of my league.

27. What was the last book/movie that really impressed you?The last one I read called The Bell Jar. It was unlike anything I’ve ever read and made me think about a lot of things. Also I related a lot with the main character.

28. What was your last lie?Eh, probably “im fine”.

29. Dumbest lie you ever told?Idk?? I only keep track of the good lies 😉

30. Is crying in front of people embarrasing?It shouldnt be but yeah, I try my best not to.

31. Something you did and are proud of?Umm, idk im p proud of playing basketball and representing my region/training with england. But i quit that so 👏 dicks out for my regrettable decisions 👏

32. Whats your favourite cocktail?Never had one

33. Something you are good at?Annoying people and being clingy 😂 also maths ig

34. Do you like small kids?It depends on the child, the day of the week, the lunar cycle, my menstrual cycle, how hungry I am…Yh legit sometimes I hate them sometimes I love them.

35. How are you feeling right now?Great omg I just got my best friend to watch mamma mia and now shes high on life next to me.

36. What would you name your daughter/son?🤐 there are a couple of names for girls I like and like 2 boys names? But i dont wanna say bc theyre embarrasing.

37. What do you need to be happy?Good company, good food and possibly music.

38. Is there someone you want to punch in the face right now?Theres always at least 3 people I would love to punch 😂

39. What was the last gift you recieved?My best friend got me a necklace and I almost cried its so beautiful

40. What was the last gift you gave?The gift of my company @only-slightly-dangerous 😉😉😉

41. What was the last concert you went to?I went to to see Amber Run in february

42. Favourite place to shop at?Um, as in shop? A place called blue banana probs (england’s hot topic smh)

43. Who inspires you?Kaitlyn Alexander bc they helped me to understand who I am and how I feel and to be loud and proud about it.And Luke Cutforth bc he’s so open about his mental health and struggles with self harm but hes so happy now.

44. How old were you when you first got drunk?18 lmao

45. How old were you when you first got high?It aint happened yet (and i dont really want it to)

46. How old were you when you first had sex?It aint happened yet smh

47. When was your first kiss?As far as im concerned never

48. Something you want to do until the end this year?What….does this mean….? Idk???

49. Is there something in the past you wish you hadnt done?It’s more stuff I wish I had done tbh. I suppose I said things I shouldnt have or got too involved in drama, but you kinda need all that secondary school shit to learn from it

50. Post a selfie.Lmao nah fam

51. Who are you most comfortable around?My best friend by a mile. Privacy who?

52. Name one thing that terrifies you.Abandonment without explanation.

53. What kind of books do you read?Anything non fiction about medicine/being a doctor/disease/psycopaths.Besides that whatever has been recommended.

54. What would you tell your 12 y/o self?1. Youre gay2. You and I both know you arent joking about being “a dude trapped in a girls body” stop laughing it off and confront it.3. Stand up for yourself.4. Chill out.5. Laugh a lot more omg

55. What is your favourite flower?It’s between petunias and roses

56. Any bad habits you have?Not answering peoples messages unless theyre Certain Person A or Certain Person B.

57. What kind of people are you attracted to?Ones that are out of my league and could kick my ass apparently. Also ones that are kind, listen and think a lot I guess

58. What was the last thing you cried for?Already answered

59. Is there something you dont eat? A food that truly disgusts you?I dont eat loads of stuff bc my guts hate me 😂 but besides all that I’m actually the worlds least picky eater. The only thing I dont like is raw tomato. Thats it.

60. Are you in love?I wish

61. Something you find romantic?All the clichés ngl 😂 just anything that says “i love you” or “i was thinking about you” really

62. How long was your longest relationship?Like 4 months? Barely long term.

63. What are 3 things that irritate you about the same sex?Oh jeez i hate these theyre so stereotype-y1. Bitching2. Not supporting each other3. ….?

64. What are 3 things that irritate you about the opposite sex?1. Not supporting each other2. Massive egos3. Yelling

65. What are you saving money for?Uni so I dont starve to death!

66. How would you describe your bad side?Hmm, idk, it depends what someone did to get on my bad side. I’d say stubborn, bitter and angry tho usually.

67. Are you actually a good person? Why?I could be wrong but I think so long as someone has morally good intentions they are usually a good person, whether they always succeed or not. So yeah, I like to think I am.

68. What are you living for?My friends and the hope I have for my future.

69. Have you ever done anything illegal?Piracy? Thats it.

70. Do you like your money?….did I type this question wrong or??

71. Have you ever made someone feel bad about themselves intentionally?Okay, the honest answer? Yeah. When I was a lot younger and less mature and someone said something that hurt me, I tried to retaliate with equally hurtful comments. I like to think I wouldnt do that now.

72. Ever sent nudes?Lol no

73. Have you ever cheated on someone?Hell no

74. Favourite candy?All candy hates me 😂

75. Is there a blog you visit everyday or almost every day? Tag them.Yeah @oneshappyplace knows I regularly spam her with notes in search or Quality Memes (im so sorry)

76. Do you play any computer games? Whats ur fave?Nah, as if I have time 😂

77. Favourite TV series?Argh I canny choose? I love the IT Crowd, I love supernatural, I love Sherlock, I love in the flesh…

78. Are you religious? Does God exist?I’m not religious and personally I don’t believe there’s a god or higher power but I could be wrong.

79. What was the last book you read? Did it impress you and why?The Bell Jar. See 27.

80. What do you think about vegetarians and veganism?I respect it I guess? At one point I was p much a vegetarian until I had to restrict my diet sooo. Tho I could never be one now, let alone a vegan.

81. How long have you been on tumblr?Too long 😂😂😂 Like 3 or 4 years?

82. Do you like chinese food?Love it!

83. McDonalds or Subway?(Never been to subway so) McDonalds.

84. Vodka or Whisky?(Never had whisky so) Vodka.

85. Alcohol or Drugs?(Never had drugs so) Alcohol.

86. Ever been out of your country?I’m currently in the USA so yeah 😂

87. Meaning behind your blog name?It’s p self explanatory and also v true

88. What are you scared of?Abandonment, deep water, knives, toys with battery packs.

89. Last time you were insulted?Ugh, probs like when I met up with a load of school friends for our leaver’s ball.

90. Most traumatic experience?I’d rather not answer that lmao (plus itd take a long time to type)

91. Perfect date idea?Chilling and listening to each other’s favourite songs while coexisting and eating fast food 😂 that or ikea ngl

92. Favourite app on your phone?Tumblr. Even though I hate it, it also keeps me sane.

93. What colour are the walls in your room?White and blue.

94. Do you watch youtube? Who is your favourite youtuber?I love so many youtubers omg. Lukeisnotsexy, mileschronicles, realisticallysaying and filthy frank are faves

95. Share your favourite quote.Pick your fights.

96. What is the meaning of life?To live life to the fullest so youre happy and have minimal regrets. Also to be kind and helpful so even if you dont change the world you might help someone else to.

97. Do you like horror movies?I think….? But I’m not good at watching them alone 😂

98. Have you ever made your mum cry? What happened?Eh…again, would rather not answer (we got some nice supressed memories here)

99. Do you feel lucky or special in any way?I’m still totally in awe of how lucky I am to have met my best friend from 3000 miles away. Like, the probability of it was so so slim and yet here we are.

100. Can you keep a secret?I think so yh! It’s something that I consider super important.

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heyy asking from both - herbal tea, blueberry muffin tea, and asteroid, pegasus?

Thanks for the ask anon-chan (ノ*゜▽゜*) I’m sorry if it took awhile to answer. mailbox didn’t notify me for some reason (・・。)ゞ

Herbal tea: Which person would you chose to travel the world with?

hmm two people are front runners. my friend M coz i feel we have similar styles of travelling and could totally transverse the world together. Or my other friend Iris whose a bit more adventurous than me and might force me out of my comfort zone and do something i wouldn’t ever consider doing. 

Blueberry-Muffin tea: Tell me a memory, which makes you smile.

when i was in Japan with my two friends and we had hunted for ages for this super good gyoza restaurant (according to Lonely Planet). We finally found it tucked away and waited in line for a seat. The seats we were shown to were right beside the cash register where the guy in between taking orders and showing people in obviously chilled. During said chilling times he watched us as we three girls decide on our order and then shared it between us, then had a mini heart attack when we used the soy sauce plates as eating dishes (btw we knew these were sauce dishes but we went given actual plates to eat off, just the plate the food came on which probably wouldn’t have been a problem had we been on a table but we were sitting 3 long on a bar counter). Anyway we finished the meal with him still watching us from literally only 30cms away and left. Creepy. however now its funny to think back on despite it being super weird at the time.  

Asteroid: What does your dream life look like?     

I have a place of my own. Maybe I have a partner maybe I don’t - it varies on my mood haha. I definitely have a dog - thats a must. I have a job as OT in an area that constantly interests me and challenges me.  I have worked and lived overseas for a period of time preferably in the UK or Europe. I speak another language maybe German or Japanese. Im taking lessons for guitar or piano. I can indulge in my love for tea. work on my cooking. 

Pegasus: Favourite place to be?

can’t choose just one argh!

Kyoto - I love japan and kyoto is beautiful, quiet, and cultured. I feel exhausted after Tokyo and Kyoto is like a calm breeze, a place to catch your breath. I always wish i could stay longer in Kyoto.

Rome - so much history so much energy! There’s a vibrancy to Rome that’s hard to describe. I love going to Rome and wish i didn’t have to leave but i always know i will be back.

Melbourne - its home so of course theres no place like it but what can i say? its not voted the most liveable city for nothing. Melbournised food is what i yen for when i leave my glorious city.