(More thoughts and drafting! Some weird formatting I know but it was all one block in my notes)
Emma is doing just fine. Average. It’s really not so bad.
She’s just been dealing with a lot of change. And with too many things not changing.
Which is… an odd thing to struggle with.
Because she likes hange. Daunting challenges. The unpredictable. Doing new things every day and never being scared of them. And she likes independence.
She had thought so, at least.
After the show, she had been hit in the face with just how… isolated she was. She had only had two friends before the first season, but she had left them behind. Her mother wasn’t doing the best, and she didn’t have any nearby family.
She found herself laying in her bed in the middle of the day most of the time, scrolling through her contacts and old conversations.
Or scrolling through her comments on TikTok.
A few weeks ago, she had tried some stunt involving a motorcycle and an inflatable pool. She probably wouldn’t have messed it up if her hands weren’t trembling.
(She had forgot to check the breaks, and wasn’t sure if they were working.)
(They were.)
The blood dripping down her face and the gash in her lip didn’t sting as much as it did watching the video.
She looked ridiculous, and she probably always did. It was better when she had someone else to do it with. Maybe she was losing her touch.
She didn’t post the video.
She turned back to dancing instead, which did feel less embarassing, despite the constant mocking feedback. Sure, the jokes were “funny”, but she didn’t care about any of it. She didn’t feel the rush, she wasn’t planning every day, and she wasn’t known or loved for anything.
Except for what she lost.
And, the show, to an extent.
-Ugh, she misses the show. She shouldn’t, but as stupid as it sounds, she missed doing crazy things and talking to people. Having a chance of winning. Beating everyone. Being cheered on. It wasn’t always great, but at least it was something. She misses doing something.
And she really misses Bowie. She missed Bowie, but she knows better than anyone that she can’t go back to that. They just- have better things to do now. He probably does.
He’s got Raj- which is great! And she’s happy for him! She’s happy for everyone. For Wayne, however he’s doing, for Julia, despite everything.
And Caleb. For having Priya.
Emma is jealous that Bowie gets to have someone.
Emma is jealous that everyone else gets to have someone.
Emma is jealous that, unlike everyone else, winning the show probably wouldn’t have made her any happier.
She isn’t sure what would.
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man, sure gotta love that feeling whenever you get suddenly reminded of one of your old original characters again (although it’s been only a whole year since you first created them—)
and you sure gotta love that feeling where you HAVE to draw them again otherwise you’ll fail both yourself AND your oc.
anyways that’s what I just did!
Reintroducing Felina Feline! My Welcome Home OC that I love very dearly and who’ll always have a very close place in my heart for being one of the very first OCs I’m actually proud of creating!
I ALSO GAVE HER A WHOLE CLOSET FILLED WITH DIFFERENT OUTFITS FOR DIFFERENT OCCASIONS UNDER THE CUT!!!!! (+ if you’re having a hard time reading her bio it’s under the cut too!! :D)
here’s her bio for those who can’t really read it that well in the image:
“A friendly prankster whose only goals are to make her friends and neighbors smile and laugh. Felina Feline is the Welcome Home's kindhearted jester who aims to entertain everyone however she does get into quite a few trouble from time to time whether that may be; getting into garbage cans to find
"cool" thrown out "treasures", getting fussy over being hungry although Howdy would gladly make food for her off the bat, or accidentally putting hairballs in Wally's hair, Felina is always loved and cherished by the entire neighborhood for being herself? Her bestest buds are Howdy, Sally, and Barnaby!
She loves acting out and doing plays with Sally, helping out with sales in the bodega with Howdy, and making jokes with Barnaby.
She wouldn't trade her friends for anything else in the entire world.”
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