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me when i thought i liked star stable more when it was older and of shittier quality because that's when everyone said it was better and then i took time away from the fandom space and realized i was a) in like third grade when the game was "old" b) genuinely love the new updates, quests, and horses
#not to defend a company but i like that they never stopped the weekly updates. yes even when its some dumb championship or tiny thing#of course it's not like there are no issues whatsoever but fandom is often so negative (neighgative?) and i would like to express grace for#the people who work really hard to consistently improve our experience. i especially like reading the bug fix logs because to me it proves#that they are listening even if in some infinitesimally small way lol. not to say stop criticism because clearly that's what incentivizes#betterment but i like the druid stuff the quests the horse updates the music and im just not dissatisfied rn :)#sso#star stable#star stable online#star stable tumblr#ssoblr#not tennis
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thinking and thinking and thinking a lot about how leanna firestone wrote Strawberry Mentos about yamaguchi, but these days the song feels so so yuwuji vibes
#my self ships consist of stone cold men who i feel a compulsive need to fix#and thats why i dont self shio with yuuji#but god if i was mentally stable 😩😩😩#id crave a love that soft#~°•*andy says things#~°•*music stuffs#~°•*yuuji#~°•*brainworms
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do you have a commission progress sheet anywhere? ordered something over a month ago but I do not want to be That Guy pestering you about it since you just had surgery
Nah, I don't have anything like that, anything like that in the past I tried to do I would forget to update it consistently vs. working on comms themselves and progress on that. Realistically I would forget to update that quickly and/or feel incredibly pressured and ashamed by its existence as a Publicly Available Thing vs. info and insight on my end only and between clients contacting me about it.
I am working on them (aside from the week after Aug 22nd, I took that off), and based off my general life and mental and actual physical availability to be able to sit down and work on them, 1/2-2 months is kind of turning into the average turnout for comms from me-- especially if the queue is medium sized or there are more complex pieces.
If you ordered multiple slots, then I send them all out at the same time once all are complete unless one has a specific deadline earlier than the rest, so if that's your case then that contributes. Feel free to message me on Ko-Fi to ask about it if you want to, though, I can update you on things and where you stand in the queue.
#Unless you're one of the people who had their slots forfeit because you ghosted like. this time last year but I doubt it#Since you mentioned over a month and not just months#I'm still baffled why people ghost comms outside of like drastic life changes#asks#not art#I have memory issues and SSRIs make the brain fog worse so backlog info sheet would not bode well#I can remember priority things consistently but that would be lower priority than comms and I would just. kinda forget about it#I've also been MEGA stressed out about getting a stable non-art job for months so I don't think that helps things
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#there is a wide margin of interpretation you can take with Armand and I'd like ppl to understand that.#We just quite actually do not have all accurate or full information on him but what we have is enough to prove#he is capable and culpable of all the things he is shown and proven to have done#I think a lot of the writing this season also was intentionally meant to confuse and make you doubt what is happening there. like actually#where do the lies start?#Now are all of them equally valid? Absolutely not. But I'm not like going to judge heavily people who have a different one.#A lot of bad ones (poorly backed) I get where that conclusion gets drawn from and for me it's just kind of fun to theorize those things#People claiming it as the right interpretation are a little like... okay chill out. But I think there can be room for that.#That is unless your ideas somehow vindicate or paint him as somehow also a victim of Louis like wtf are you doing at that point don't defen#him the dude is a massive piece of shit let him be a piece of shit.#It also doesn't make much sense to make him some great mastermind or somehow winning over something he's clearly shown not wanting?#its easier for me to see him as someone who doesn't have very fixed intentions or judgements on anything#his moral compass is self serving even when those morals are aligned to good things or a desire to be good#like he can see something as bad even undesirable and still do it if it serves some larger or more stable benefit to him#with little regard for who gets hurt in the process and with low empathy to see they could be hurt by it#And thats the most consistent thing about him is he falls to whatever is most beneficial w/o regard to others even when regarding them#& those good things r performative even if he's not intending it to be when it aids in exploiting other peoples view of him to an advantage#Or like when he goes about hiding under that persona to meet bad ends intentionally. (These go back and forth)#and something something the purpose of a system is what is does#there's little point in getting into the intentions of Armand when he consistently fails to do what he's claiming be#Idk tho honestly might not post iwtv stuff for a while I'm tired#There's a an amount of interpretation you can take about any other character too just there is so much more speculation there than elsewher
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disjointed fandom posting sorry but it just hit me that pwotr is like. the only rpg where a companion never once left my team
#you can guess who it was jgkdfg#but yeah i think it has to do with disapproval not being a thing in the usual sense#Daeran was there 24/7 but my team in general is very stable compared to how often i switch it up on bg3 or the dragon ages#it's like . Daeran Woljif Seelah Lann + free space that gets swapped around (but most often it's Arue)#like aside from the point when woljif isn't there for plot reasons - i think the only time seelah and lann werent there-#was at the trap for the Other?#and that was only for plot reasons again bc basically Elluin was 99% sure the situation would escalate/#he'd wind up murdering a bunch of inquisitors and. yk. don't generally want the paladin and the guy who can't stand your bf there for that#though maybe I'll change it in future because it would be spicy if they WERE there to see it... hmmm#anyway yeah it's very interesting to me how consistent it was comparatively#honorable mention to Wyll for being the only other companion from an rpg that I don't recall taking out of my team for 99% of the game#and Zevran for being there for about? 80%? Orion didn't take him into the deep roads for blight safety reasons#it's a LITTLE bit funny to think of Daeran as the one companion this happens to djkfg#similar to the Dorian Bit of the high class character forced to trudge along the dirt fdjgk but.. better#because he's deadass forced to do it dnfmgbdh#I have this one particular thought in my head about the abyss as well.#about being made to follow along the heart of Alushinyrra as essentially a glowing target?#and how that's somehow both the worst and best outcome of being in the abyss in the fist place?#i mean he says it himself retroactively about the battlebliss. there's a certain sense of safety that comes from sticking close to the kc#and that's also why Elluin Does keep him with- it's a risk either way but if we gotta bring an aasimar into the Abyss#and that aasimar just so happens to be someone he has a vested interest in keeping safe#he's much better off where he can see him at all times rather than at camp#gods something about this visual. standing right there as the person you're following walks in front of you-#provoking the 2d highest authority in the entire /realm/ - a realm that's already been hostile to you from the very second you stepped ther#yet somehow - against all sense or better judgement . you know it's going to be fine?#(yes in a sense Dae may be safer than anyone there on account of life insurance and the Other itself in a sense but still)#im shaking the bars of my enclosure etcetera#river rambles
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honestly i'm really glad i only just found out about the panic! at the disco live in denver show last night because i really should've known about it in middle school but if i had i know i would've been the most insufferable person ever about it
#rys.txt#i haven't even seen the full thing yet#i was just looking for the source of the ryan ross “well i'm afraid that i” clip so i've just seen the karma police cover#they ate that shit up honestly. like i genuinely like it better than the original. how the fuck did they do that#pre-split panic! was on another level entirely what the fuck happened#this definitely did something to my brain chemistry fr#i know if i saw this thing in middle school i would've never shut the fuck up about it#i'm lowkey scared to watch the whole thing because i think camisado might straight-up just kill me. mecore song of all time#i think the amount of panic! songs i listen to on a consistent basis at any given time is a good reflection of how mentally stable i am#my guys i am fucking struggling again 👍 yippee!!
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The fucking disconnect is so real.
#theo's thoughts#Story time for the people who love reading tags bc I love sharing things in the tags#So I work at a therapeutic day school and this past school year like four school days before Thanksgiving break I was asked a question#The question was if I would be willing to step up and be a long term sub in a middle school classroom#To me this was less of a question and more of a hey we need someone to do this and you're who the assistant teacher asked for#Which cool yeah fine I'll give it a go I really like that person (the assistant teacher who asked for me) and I trust her judgement on this#I was asked and accepted on Thursday. Friday‚ Monday‚ and Tuesday happen. Then three day Thanksgiving break#When we got back from break I was the teacher and it was rough at first and it sure as hell was never easy but I enjoyed it#My formal teacher observation was my boss basically going like so I see you doing all the things and the basis is there#But it's not being followed through on because of behaviors from the most unmedicated classroom I've seen in all my years working education#And now for the summer they're changing 2/3 staff that were in the room and who even knows who the teacher will be (a new hire? Maybe?)#If there truly is a new hire coming in (fed to the wolves immediately btw what a dick move) but that new hire will be the fourth teacher#These kids have had in a year? A year and a half max. The fourth. After the only thing I've been repeatedly told by admin for months#Is that we need to be stable and consistent because we may be these kids' only reliable source of that consistency and stability?#So you're going to have me come in and tell me I've done such a great job and then tell me you're moving me to 'give me a break'#Trauma informed care my fucking ass. I hope those kids raise fucking hell over it.#The brutal satisfaction of watching your own crops burn and knowing that the invaders will starve is great and all but these are kids!#They're barely just about to be teenagers (11 at the youngest and 14 at the oldest) and this is what you're going to do to them?#Yes they can be complete assholes and are often dicks to one another but they're in our school for a fucking reason? I don't get it.#Then two hours later after being told abt the change‚ the clinical director puts me as one of the three main recipients in an email#Saying that there's going to be a new student starting in that room in the summer and the real icing on the cake?#This all happens on last day before summer break. we're out of session for two weeks now and you're just dropping these changes on us now?#God I'm so fucking tired
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#i’ve been doing rly good lately. in a way that i didn’t know was possible#i’m sm more reasonably productive these days#like i have a relatively stable routine now and my memory is better than it’s been in years#i’ve even been finding myself remembering things without having to check my to-do list. it’s almost irrelevant atp#compared to the January Horrors when i considered getting checked for a concussion bc of how hazy and broken my brain felt#and i’m consistently paying my bills and i’m driving more often now#idk i don’t even feel great or super happy these days i just feel. content#and obviously i still need therapy for all that shit that happened earlier this year#bc i still can’t believe that happened and then immediately my therapist had to end things with me 💀#but idk. it doesn’t feel all that urgent anymore#nothing feels URGENT it all just feels reasonably doable#oh! and my friend is flying over to see me in a couple days so even more good news :DDD#i think the lesson here for me is that i need to give myself more credit if for no other reason than survival#danbles
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Gonna take a second to be proud of myself for not only acing my classes, but also doing a great job at my internship (to the point where it's giving me enough leeway to advocate for myself as a trans student), continuing to be involved at my volunteer position (and doing advocacy for disability and also trying to start a conversation on race), working on redesigning an entire class (so much work left to do before January but it's worth the hours), starting a fun ttrpg campaign with my friends as a DM and coming up with an entire homebrew setting & story, all the while being disabled as fuck.
#and i still try to be politically involved via coaching and supporting the friend who replaced me at the student association#and whos getting all the bs thrown her way#she is so much braver than me#im usually scared to highlight my successes like this bc of what happened in 2018#but this is more stable#i made active choices to leave situations that i thought were too risky or not rewarding enough#im better at being reliable and i can work consistently because i let myself rest now#its scary! but even if things dont work out im still proud of whats been done so far#it was my birthday yesterday and you know what#ive done well#my 20s have been a mess but things are falling in place#nothing ive done was for nothing#and nothing i do now will be for nothing#every single small action matters
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Having a gap year was really great for me because it was the first time in my adult life that I was able to just sit with myself. Figure myself out. Work on myself. Even though I had been an adult for several years, I feel like I really matured in my year of nothing. I now feel much more firm in who I am, even with opposition; I have always been a big pushover, letting other people do whatever they wanted and letting my desires go to the side, but now I am much more likely to assert what I want and tell people no. I’ll just do and be without analyzing what others want or expect of me, and it’s so refreshing to let that go. People really do grow in the cracks
#my thoughts#I’ve worked on myself mentally#I feel like a fortress but not one with huge spikes and a dangerous moat to keep people out (like before when I was so afraid of people)#(because they could hurt me)#but instead I am like a fortress in that I am well built and stable and not easily knocked over#I built a little bridge over my moat that’s open on Tuesdays and Thursdays (and alternating Saturdays :D)#but also I’ve just really taken time to build habits like eating things (when I actually need to) that are sustaining#and got glasses for my eyesight to reduce headaches#finally went to the doctor and got migraine medication#went to the doctor TWICE MORE and tried different ones#made sure I got consistent sleep#learned how to balance productivity and fun so that I’m not wearing myself out to the point of dropping from exhaustion or a headache#I learned to listen to my body#I explored my sense of fashion!!!! which I didn’t think I cared too much about before!!!#(this was due to seeing fashion in the lens of my body not fitting into the things I liked therefore not thinking fashion was something for#me. but I pushed my boundaries and started wearing things that seemed fun ANYWAY and stopped caring about if it was *right* and#started thinking of it as a way to HAVE FUN and EXPRESS MYSELF)#(I *knew* that fashion was a form of self expression but I didn’t really get it until this past year.)#anyway. it’s been a good year in hindsight even though throughout it I had flashes of panic thinking I wasn’t going anywhere#but I grew in a different way sitting still than in the years I was *moving forward*#I’m ready to move now and I have new life skills to bring with me :)
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ed talk in the tags skip it if it’s no beuno :-)
#pretty certain mum just caught me ******* in the shower#because i got out and she called out ‘hey am? love you’ in a very sincere way#not that she’s not sincere whenever else she says it#but we say it a lot in like. a jokey way#this was just more weighty feeling pardon the ironic adjective#anyways. think it’s kind of an open secret that i’ve been doing this consistently for three years#+ i’ve just been hiding behind the fact that it is way way too hard and uncomfortable for anyone to broach it#and also what could they even do? i’m medically stable so i’m not at risk#i hope i’m wrong and they haven’t pieced it together because i hate that they might be worrying about me#+ i hate the idea of it not being my private thing#but odds aren’t on my side#anyways. messy as per#but also safe so it all balanaces out#personal
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I’ve written ab my therapist so much in tag reblogs that I felt the need to make a dedicated post about why I love her, so without further ado here’s a list of my favourite Therapist Moments:
- gave me advice on how to hide smoking from my (mildly psycho) helicopter parents
- tells me (almost every session) that I’m the best kid she works with (I won therapy guys I got an A)
- I was telling her ab this friend who had a crush on me and was making me rly uncomfortable and I was like “I could either be a shitty friend and ghost them OR be nicer and tell them how I feel” and she said “okay why don’t you try the second one” and I said “well I already ghosted them” and she honestly just sat there and said “that’s hilarious good for you” and gave me a high five
- (cw slight violence) when she was my age her friend gave her an industrial piercing by burning a sewing needle and sticking an apple behind her ear to stab thru *** that’s double crazy bc if u fuck up an industrial half ur face could end up paralyzed BUT IT WORKED
- speaking of piercings girl has more than I do AND TATTOOS
- has cried twice over shit that’s happened in my life (once in session and once after I stormed out on her)
- will let me lie on the floor of her office for sessions and will also lie on the floor next to me
- the most girls girl you’ve ever met
- works out of a shady ass house with three other therapists almost an hour away from the city I live in and I have no idea who owns it bc she def doesn’t
- watches any show I rec AND reads any book I tell her ab
- legit just. Acts like a friend. Yeah she’s my therapist but we can have convos
- talks a lot and WILL go on tangents sometimes (I’m p bad at conversation so this makes me personally feel a lot more comfortable, especially if I’m tired or had a bad week)
#the thing about therapy (ESPECIALLY) as a teen#is that all of my friends told me it didn’t work and not to bother#but the thing that teenagers don’t know is consistency#and yeah I’ve been SOO mad at my therapist some weeks#and have almost stopped seeing her a bunch of times#shit guys I’ve made her CRY IN SESSION#but I kept going back#and that’s what made all the difference I think#bc anyone else I know would have quit#but like. her and I bonded right away and I knew I wouldn’t find anyone else#so when push came to shove I couldn’t switch therapists#and I’m not saying I’m STABLE lmao but my week is so much worse if I don’t talk to her#anyways guys good rant it’s almost 3am#I’ll edit this if I think of any more Therapist Stories bc she’s ac insane sometimes (affectionate)#anxiety#depression#ed disorder#therapy
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"I don't know how well you get along with your father. But if you feel like he actually loves you and cares about you, you should talk to him and tell him what you like. Of course, it will be difficult and he might not accept that after the first conversation but the more you share your thoughts with him, the sooner he realizes that your own happiness means much more to him than the hopes he has pinned on you."
I’ll never be wiser.
#Personal#Was Born To Lead#I finished editing the seventh chapter!#Now only the eighth (actually the ninth now) one is left#and then I continue to write the new chapter <3#The chess chapter is still my pride although looking through it I realize that it wasn’t written well either#But there are just so many things happening there I think it really makes this chapter very cool#Also there was one thing I was worried about when I started editing the old chapters#I wasn’t sure how good I am at consistency?#Like maybe my characters seem OOC or their characterizations just changes from chapter to chapter#Or maybe I forget what I put into the previous chapters and my storylines feel torn#But I don’t think it happens?#As for the characters some of them definitely changed but I don’t think it was sudden or unclear#and generally I think all the mains have quite a stable ‘voice’ so they’re pretty much recognizable#And as for the plot I occasionally bring up little details from the previous chapters and I never left any storyline unfinished#So I think I have no issues at this regard?#But I don’t know at least nothing felt off to me when I was reading the old chapters
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okay i was just stargazing with my dad for a bit when i arrived home and um. ummmmmm. please bear with me on this one but i saw something weird and i cant figure out an explanation for it so im just going to say that its supporting the splatfest team choice ive been considering
#its a sign.#ill doodle what i saw later#but basically it was like two triangle shaped things hovering close to eachother. there were dim round lights under each corner#i was pointing at it the entire time it was passing by but my dad didnt see it. i had my glasses on and he didnt though#at first i thought it was a bird but then? the lighting was like stable and consistent and birds dont like. reflect light.#and even if they did. theres no fixed lightsource for that to have happened#anyway. whatever#jhsHSDGHDJHSJHD i feel so silly
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More reasons why Zuko being the Firelord is objectively the funniest thing on earth:
HES SEVENTEEN
He hasn’t been civilised in 4 years, his entire teenage experience consists of living on a boat and sleeping rough. The most stable bed he has was probably in Ba Sing Se he probably will just nap anywhere.
He has customer service experience which means he probably uses his customer service voice on his minsters.
Additionally he probably just wanders into to kitchen to get his own snacks and tea because he forgets what servants do.
He probably has no idea why he can’t just chase after an assassin he used to hunt the avatar for Agnis sake why is the captain of the guard demanding he stay in his room he’ll find the guy first (he’s probably right)
Katara probably has a free pass on Eco terrorism because what’s he going to do challenge her, she’ll beat his ass.
If he saw a minster doing something shady he will either invite lady Beifong to detect their BS or commit B&E and look for evidence himself.
He somehow found a baby dragon and raises it.
He will be far to willing to give Kyoshi island anything they want cause he feels bad and Suki scares him.
He randomly insisted on giving some earth kingdom village 100 ostrich horses.
The Avatar will just show up call him Hotman and demand the go on adventures and the Firelord will just dip because he’s been confined to long and has the Zoomies.
He takes far to much advice from Sokka and will genuinely believe if someone doesn’t get Sokkas plans they must be an idiot because Sokka is 16.
Sokka and Zuko also get into a lot of teenage rebellion phases by accident.
Toph just walks in breaks a wall of his palace and demands a field trip that always involves the Firelord having to explain himself to the cops.
He somehow knows every dangerous teen in the world and they all come for tea uninvited.
He has broken into both the NWT and Ba Sing Se.
He has a really well documented facial scar and official portraits but still disappears to be Lee the tea guy like no one knows.
HES SEVENTEEN.
#zuko is the funniest the circumstances just happen character ever#firelord zuko#zuko#atla#avatar the legend of aang#avatar the last airbender#zee rambles#zukka#zuko meta
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Just to update where I'm at rn, I KNOW I PROMISED TO POST ART IM ACTUAALLYYT DOING IT BUT!!!
I'm in the process of possibly leaving mcdonalds for GOOD and getting a job as a library assistant. I saw the job listing, I meet the bare minimum qualifications, I have my work permit, it pays way better it's a SALARY job, it's partially an office job, I would work with books and computers everyday, and I feel really good about my resume & cover letter!!!
If they don't accept me then everyone is fucking racist against me and I'll idk kill myself or something BUT if I get hired I could seriously improve my life!!! It's one step closer to what I really want to do!!!!
I'm currently waiting to hear back but I AMM DRAWING AND I WILL POST this July HAS BEEN CRRAZZYYYY!!!!!
#the k*lling myself thing was a joke but ill probably cry and have a mental breakdown again🫠🫠🫠#this july ive written like. pn-f fanfiction. rewatched all of mp-gis. drawn TONS. have a better and stable way of drawing consistently#things are chamging!!!#talkshow
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