#than native hell ppl somehow...

[nefertitiacai]

Hello,I love your posts and I decided to ask, What do you think about the placements appearance wise, venus in 8th house, venus trine libra ascendant, Pluto square ascendant, sun square ascendant, moon in 1st , and mars in 8th?

Thank you so much!! ❤️

Hi @imhotasfworld 💛

Here's what I personally think about the aforementioned placement appearance wise. o(*￣▽￣*)ブ

Also, I turned it into an Astro observations bundle for the pretty people out there.

Pictures don't belong to me, and are from Pinterest.

🪶 Venus in 8th house

🤍 I know a lot of people with this placement, and they are IT. The way they flirt and the way you get mesmerized by them is like going down the rabbit hole.

🤍 It is liberating because you can be vulnerable, like truly vulnerable with these folks.

🤍 No matter what their appearance might be, they are gonna give butterflies in your stomach. They are deemed to be very attractive.

🤍 They may have contrasting features (or may look good in them if they wanna experiment) (for eg., dark hair with pale skin or light hair with dark skin).

🤍 One more thing which I'd like to point out about this placement appearance-wise is that they have balanced body proportions, no matter what the body type may be the ratio is really attractive and harmonious.

🤍 This may be because Mars traditionally is associated with the 8th house, and Venus is positioned over there causing balance with both energies.

Also honorable mentions-

🩷 Venus in 1st house

🩷 Mars-Venus conjunction

🩷 Mars in 2nd/7th house

🩷 Libra Mars

🩷 Taurus Mars

🩷 Scorpio Venus

🩷 and Aries Venus

🤍 The aforementioned placement isn't considered the "best" character-wise as they are in the opposite energy than what the celestial bodies may be familiar with is what causes them to be attractive. Well, they said it right when they said "opposites attract". They look attractive no matter what, chubby, petite, any way...

🪶 Venus trine Libra ascendant

🩵 If those Pinterest aesthetic-looking ppl were one specific placement, I would say it would be this one.

Like the ones who'll look hot even with a slimy face mask on and click an absolutely flawless picture while in their PJs and somehow make it look aesthetic

🩵 Everything is in harmony, one thing I've noticed about them is that they tend to be really photogenic (bonus if you have Leo placements with this as it makes you seem even bolder, confident, and radiant while clicking photos). 

🩵 Anyways, these are the people who are conventionally attractive. trine literally represents "favor" between placements in the chart, so venus trine Libra ascendant favors the native's appearance with Venusian qualities (i.e symmetrical face, may have high cheekbones?, pouty small full lips, soft skin (can also indicate having sensitive skin)).

🩵 What I have noticed with Libra placements in general as well is that they have a vibe and beauty which reminds me of fragrant flowers for some reason, they may also smell good.

🩵 Also, there's this vibe that I can't put in words but is very prominent with people of Libra placements. They remind me of the beauty of the Apsaras. 

They are the celestial and godly nymphs or fairies in the Hindu and Buddhist mythology who are known to be pleasant, attractive, fascinating, hypnotic and mesmerizing power of the nature, they are the performers of the heavens they dance and sing really well and like to please the gods which really remind me of Libras , Tauruses and also Pisces. They also symbolise material indulgence and illusions caused by being materialistic which seems so venusian and neptunian to me.

🪶 Puto Square Ascendant

🤍 Pluto square ascendant may have quite an intimidating seductive look about them. Like they may have an "angry face" kind of features (straight or arched eyebrows which go really well with their deep eyes) which looks kind of-...kind of??? A HELL LOT OF hot ngl. May have a resting angry face without even them being angry whatsoever.

Sexy people.

🪶 Sun Square Ascendant

🩵 Well, I'm acquainted with people who have this placement and the first thing I notice about them is they are not what they show about themselves.

Having a conversation with them is as if trying to look deep within what's in the water but what you only see is the reflection of yourself and your surroundings, is how I like to describe them.

🩵 They adapt to people and situations just to get the work done. Very agreeable people though, yet so mysterious.

🩵 They look neat and well put together, and they come off to be really confident (but God knows what they may be going through from the inside).

🩵 They are also misunderstood a lot of times and may come off as too rude or too nice unintentionally from time to time.

🪶 Moon in 1st house

🤍 There's a pearly golden/white glow in the skin and the vibe in general. Your appearance may depend on how you feel a lot.

🤍 The type of people who prefer to "feeling pretty" more than "looking pretty" . They sort of give a "good witch" vibe to me. Alluring and nurturing.

🤍 People feel comfortable around these natives as they are very emotionally transparent and authentic.

🤍 No matter how nasty y'all may be XD (although that's rarely the case) you still have an innocent-looking appearance. May have chubby and rosy cheeks.

🤍 Also, known as "resting sad melancholic face."

(I have this placement myself as in I have it conjunct ascendant and not in the 1st house but still the effect is similar and the amount of times people have asked me if I'm feeling okay is concerning y'all, being it conjunct Pluto doesn't help at all. And one thing which may be a coincidence but significant enough to mention is that people who ask me if I'm ok are typically Libras and Sagittariuses! and I have both of them as my sun and moon respectively.

🪶 Mars in 8th house

🩵 Magnetic, alluring, deep, may have a beauty similar to a black swan . They have mesmerizing and tempting aura.

🩵 It's just in their aura and vibration that you may feel when they are with you, making a shift/transformation (8th house) in your and others' energy (Mars) when they're around. Truly a hypnotic type of attraction.

🩵 They are attractive and they might as well know it damn well, due to the impact they have on people.

🩵 They are the people who transform pain into something else by doing something physical (like working out like crazy after break up to release the angst and sadness or playing some kind of sports to distract themselves), they transform when in anger, it motivates them to achieve their goals which I find to be really attractive about them (if done healthily, ofcourse 💚)

not me indirectly flirting with y'all today 🤭❤️

[danmeiconfession]

The amount of hate YQY receives from the general SV fandom is hugely disproportionate to the things he did in canon and one doesn't need to look further than this blog itself. Because ever since this blog appeared, the Yue Qingyuan character tag has been overrun by hate posts.

And this hate is not a new phenomenon either, ever since the early days of SV fandom, he has been a very despised character. Worst of all: Most of the claims he gets hate for don't align with canon either! YQY's worst crime is to enable LBH's abuse but somehow a good chunk of the gen SV fandom will claim he's an oathbreaker, a cheater, an incel and a controling creep.

Which breaks my heart because in the novel he's loyal to a fault, he respects SQQ's boundaries, and the only times he initiates physical contact is when he checks the others health, which never go beyond checking his spiritual veins. Hell, he even lets go SQQ to leave with LBH, after the latter almost destroyed the world they knew! Just so SQQ can become happy.

Yet he receives such an inappropiate amount of hate, that extends so far, the SV fandom as a whole feels very hostile to YQY.

This isn't something I'm making up either, having talked to many other YQY enjoyers, everyone had the same sentiment of being alienated by the fandom and just tired of the constant hate he receives. And if it'd just stop at hate, then it might be manageable, but there seems to be a constant need to humiliate and make fun of him. The times I've seen either SQQ parade with his new boyfriend and how much superior he is to YQY is too many to count. And more often than not he is relegated to a past/current abuser or whatever antagonist the story needs at the moment, despite characters like QJL and HHPM existing. There also have been several times where I engaged with a SV fan to talk about the novel, just to receive unprompted YQY hate out of nowhere.

Of course I don't mean to say he hasn't dont anything wrong; his biggest crime (we know of) is enabling LBH's abuse (and in extension many other disciples) and you're free to dislike any character.

But to act like other characters acted better than him, especially in treatment towards SJ, is ridiculous. (eg. LBH tortured him, LQG went with a group of ppl to harass him at the brothels, QJL)

And for all the proud claims the SV fandom likes to spout of being """#drama free""", it's blatantly untrue and I wish they'd acknowledge this.

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So, to the blog runner(s): I suggest tagging character hate with "anti [character acronym]", as most people search using the characters written out name's tag to look for fanworks. To specify who you can also add the novels name (written out or not), since some acronyms might repeat. [eg. "anti SV YQY" or "anti Scum Villain YQY"] This might be the best compromise you can do while allowing anti [smth] confessions.

On that note I also suggest tagging "anti [shi.pname]" for anti ship confessions, because I've seen quite a number of those post just having the hated ship tagged directly. The "." is to avoid the posts appearing on the ships native tags on tumblr.

And To the people who'll claim to "simply block the blog / filter the tag": I'm aware such systems exist, but it's not reasonable to need to block a tag or several blogs to just not be overrun by hateposts immediately. Also it's deeply unpleasant to see the wall of hate the first time already, before you had any chances to block or filter. Especially when in this case the hate is overwhelming the tag to a ridiculous degree.

Even then, the chances of meeting any random (unwarned/untagged) YQY hate is staggering high, to the point most of us just distance ourselves from the fandom or straight up leave. So I ask you to behave yourself and make the fandom a slightly better space for us to stay.

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[wc-confessions]

the only evidence-- yes, these kinds of claims need evidence-- of marinin being racist i can find is in one tumblr post that has a screenshot of marinin being upset about getting a lot of aggressive comments for working on the cleopatra MAP. she did a map part- a 5 second animation- and got called a piece of shit by dozens of people, but i guess she's not allowed to be stressed? not to mention she is a person of color. but i doubt you knew that, because that would require you to take a second look at the situation rather than regurgitating rumors. it's just so sickening how badly people in this community seem to want to turn on each other. but i guess it's all worth it if you're making all the people of color feel very safe... by endorsing the harassment of a poc for making an animation you don't like. you're definitely making me feel very safe as a disabled person. i love knowing that characters like me should be relegated to inspo p*rn. love seeing people attack a creator for arbitrary reasons and then say "hehe see! i care so much about disabled people!". i love seeing that my opinion only matters when i'm agreeing with you and otherwise i'm just an idiot stan. i dont even follow marinin's content. it's just so stressful knowing what she's going through and how rabid the warrior cats fandom is. its scary, honestly. making art online seems like my only realistic way of making money and the thought that one tumblr post with shaky evidence could get me harassed for literal years is scary.

ok first off i need you to fucking stop making assumptions abt me bc i know of marinin just forgot all the bullshit they did. i dont knkw u and u sure as hell dont know me so the fact that in both ur shit asks youre comming up with false ideals just to show ur support to someone who has done bad over and over again is telling. secondly stop babying them just bc theyre brazilian its so wekrd u have to keep mentioing tht they are not exempt from being a shithead just bc theyre a poc lol theyre a fucking human which is evident in their actions. and you do not speak for every fucking disabled person bc i assure you disabled ppl were the ones that brought the issue w the tawny pelt map to light. and as a disabled black person fuck you literally the map was in bad taste and she responded in a terrible way its not tht hard to accept.

and if u really did some reasearch youd be aware that she was taking from native cultures, handled the issue tawnypelt map Badly, and she was literally deleting comments explaining how her actions were ableist and only responding to/liking the comments of ppl siding w her but yeah im biased and mean for acknoweding any of this. shes also literally friends w shit ppl and While searching im literally seeing her subject several minors to harassment solely for. adressing her ableist map in a chat and on their accs.and this was fucking not that long ago why arent you pissing yourself over the ppl discussing tht

and idk if you dont think a guilt trippy belittling responses to being held accountable isnt a red flag hm

the fact that you have to utilize this person being brazilian and upset about the process of facing accountability in Both asks as a way to make Me somehow brush off everything else is fucked up. no its not cool they were harassed but if u equate ppl bothered by her actions as harassment or hating poc then. that sounds more like a u issue.

literally. stop making this about a shitty animation stop minimizing the harm shes influencing. this is more than a fucking map ppl dont like this is abt someone who is obviously not fit for a huge following and you are proving that point gn

[tyunni]

(imma try to make my asks shorter lol cuz i feel bad for taking up sm room on your blog dkdjdkjd) oooh that’s fun! i love kids lol i have a job as a teacher assistant and i work with kids that are like 4-6 years old 🥺 oH which is where i got the inspo for that one riki drabble with lil yn kissing lil riki on the cheek and stuff lol. that actually happened in one of the classes 😭 it was so cute skdjsjsj

how did you learn english btw? and ugh i totally understand. english grammar is SUPER confusing. even as a native speaker, sometimes i question my own grammar lol. so i always admire ppl who learn english when it’s not their native language, esp when they’re as fluent as you! <3 srsly

and i’ve heard of georgia. idk much about it tho lol. i only know of it bc when i was in grade 8, for fun (literally FOR FUN 💀 SKSJSK), i memorized all of the countries of the world and where they’re located on a map lol i was a huge nerd ig skjdksjd so yeah i’m familiar with georgia but ik like nothing about it sksjsk and the alphabet is sooo pretty pLS. is it an easy alphabet to learn? like compared to english let’s say lol

naur really? my vocab has impressed you??! whEN?? sksjsdkjs i remember in your work there were words that impressed me lol which is another reason why i find it so hard to believe eng isn’t your first language!!!! naurrr thank you 🥺 your def one of the vv talented writers on here too, i’m serious. also also! the long hc in your drafts (did you say it was a hc? lol i can’t remember already skdjskd im soRRY) idk if you’ve talked about it more before bc i’m literally terrible at keeping up w things but mind me asking what it’s about? 👀😏

HELP PLS DONT WORRY ABT THE SPACE ON MY BLOG😞😞 i have over 1.5k posts alr and its literally just me screaming and crying so we're good dwdw

AND PLEASE THATS SO CUTE :( i love kids too but theyre such a pain in the ass sometimes, especially the very young ones like 2-5 years old cuz during that age they're more... actuve ig :/ HOW DO U EVEN TAKE CARE OF THEM I WOULD'VE GONE MAD HELSPSMNS

and we learn english at school, from grade 1 up until grade 12 but the level is VERY LOW. we use the same A2-3 or smth levels EVERY SINGLE YEAR so it gets very infuriating as someone who's i guess ahead of everyone else because i know all that stuff already 😭😭😭 and yeah english grammar is a bit confusing but it's nothing compared to russian AND ESPECIALLY GEORGIAN GRAMMAR. as a native speaker,,,, yeah georgian grammar is fucking hell. it may look simple but it's far more difficult than english, german, italian, french & all that jazz :/ its a very difficult langauge overall. sometimes even i'm not fluent in it, that's how difficult the grammar is 😭😭

also grade 8 u was insane bcuz WHY?? WOULD U DO THAT 😞😞 i can't even memorize the name of my own country were you okay??? and yeah our culture is actually very unique and just overall based more on the artistic side. we have our own dances, singing, our own food, clothing and a very very long history. we may be small but we have definitely kept our traditions throughout the centuries and i'm very proud of that, so that stuff is also very hard to get used to when it comes to foreigners visiting or even moving here because it's VERY different from other places. as for the alphabet oH GOD NO ITS DEFINITELY VERY HARD TO LEARN, we spend at least 4 years with different types of textbooks that are specifically made to learn how to write the letters with step-by-step tutorials and guides. we also have some letters shortened a bit like ლ,დ so it's even more confusing for people who aren't fluent to read what we write 😭😭 and as the years pass everyone develops their own calligraphy (which is even more unique because of our strange alphabet) yet we can still somehow understand what the other is writing? it's very weird and definitely not an easy language or an alphabet to learn for foreigners.

ALSO YEAH WHAT IM WRITING IS KINDA?? HEADCANONS??? bulletpoints? idfk atp its a mixture of drabble + headcanon + bulletpoint and i had the time of my life writing it but now im too lazy to proofread (which i probably wont do at the end of the day OOPS) and write for the two members that i have left :///// and i'll give sort of a hint (?) it has smth to do with enhypen and highschool 😋😋 the rest is up to your imagination (well until it's released ofc) its smth that i haven't really done before cuz i usually do normal bulletpoints so it's kinda hard for me but Oh well there's a first for everything and i need to step out of my comfort zone sometimes 😈💪

[mythykl]

class 1A in a discord group chat,, part 2 LADIES AND GENTS**

AKA BEAR W ME PART 2  (consider reading part 1,, cool)

Aoyama

smol caps,, and shit lotta puns. i mean i can’t even-

online 24/7,, even texts while in class at times. does this creepy thing of texting on the group and then keeps starin at the person of whose reply he expects ofc he did it w bakugou as well and this dude just screamed of blowin his face,, n stuff

once him and momo continues talkin about dif kinds cheese,, while others were in midst of a gameplay lmao

his texts sound fancy af,, considering how less he types,,, and w no abbreviations

replies in french to piss off ppl,, are we surprised here??

Ojiro

took up denki’s habit of goin’ all ‘bwyhuewdhvf’ in text when he’s angry or frustrated

he’s THE PRO GAMER, had a yt channel w 173k followers as well, before comin’ to UA, when it comes to fortnite and gta,, has a massive minecraft fort and shit just like the one pewds built

especially,, considering the fact that he has nothin’ in his room but a mere PC

the one who gives tips on gamin’ but surprisingly doesn’t really reply a lot on discord

replies w lotta abbreviations and memes

Koji

kyoka was the one to make koji sign in discord

isn’t a really good gamer, but has taken lotta liking in em’ since joinin in the groupchat

replies w gifs,, especially the ones of animals and pokemon lmao,

also,, the one who sent the maximum cat videos and gif in reply to shoto’s-love-for-cats-paras

again, never has been the one to get teased here,

and,, also is the voice of justice if someone else is being teased

Rikido

he never gets sarcasm,, pretty much always serious,, but doesn’t threatens to kill em’ like bakugou does

also,,, gets anxious when someone doesn’t get that he’s joking. ya.

surprisingly,, types super fastttt

no emojis, yet expresses stuff through symbols- i mean uk- :,(( and ;)) anddd 3> etc. 

Mezo Shoji

lotta puns as well,, just lying around

again, types pretty fast

has good gaming reflexes

one of the active participants in the late night textin’ sessions regarding fashion- along w momo, denki, aoyama, Toru and whoever else who would like to give their two ounces. 

Sero

never really online,, prolly has put the group chat on mute as well

well, once he comes online,, the greeting simply range from ‘dude didn’t know u still alive?’ to ‘did you tape yourself to the ceiling again??’

somehow,, he always has dif yet crack worthy replies to such texts

uses lotta emojis,, but 

doesn’t really play video games but is legit online 24/7,, and is considering to delete the account cuz’ he doesn’t like social media

Tokoyami

replies. so. fuckin’. slowly,,

yet always puts in valid points,, everyone just goes ‘damn’, ‘never realised it’ and wut not-

a good story teller on chats,, surprisingly, has hell lotta haunted tales of his native place,, ya,,,

uses large caps a lot even foe casual texts, to the point that it confuses others,, not an emoji hoe ofc.

pop references at it’s epitome,, he’s out there replyin’ w deep af lyrics

doesn’t understand any meme refrences,, i mean his meme knowledge is just,, blahhh

Toru

was asked by Ashido to fuckin’ make a discord already,, right guys,, this baby was the last one to join in

there was lotta refusal involved,, considering how much likin’ she has taken into this group chat now- aka always online

has the most creative replies and comebacks,, i mean- better comebacks than denki

replies w hell lotta emojis and gifs,, *has a mindblowing gif collection’

down. for. gossips,, hey Ashido u online????

Kyoka

behold the queen of memes, sarcasm and overflowing humour,, bitches.

cracks the most witty jokes,, i mean,, you might pay her as well to simply insult you

replies w memes, not a lot tho,, well you get it

conspiracy talks- starring kirishima and kyoko,, every night at 12pm,, i.e at a time when you’re suppose to be sleepin’,, but you don’t, cuz’ u as well a conspiracy hoe,, seeking for some big pp knowledge which at times ALSO requires the death of a few brain cells as an ultimate sacrifice.

always down for a good gameplay and the post-game talks and rants

smol caps,,, that’s the real deal. n no emojis.

the only one who gets ALL THE POP REFERENCES thrown by tokoyami,,

w the most creative burns lmao

you may as well call her the voice of truth,

Mineta

ashido lowkey regrets askin’ this dude to join the group chat,, i mean we’re already familiar w the incident 

i mean- his explicit descrption of uk wut to iida-

plays episodes,, ya he does. you can’t even deny that.

the one who gets burned the most, are we even surprised??

replies w hollywood pick up line, ugh

always online,, i mean- does this dude even sleep???

had accidentally left the group,, and wasn’t added back for a week. ya. again,, the incident.

bonusss,,, Eraser Head aaHHhhhhhh

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jk. he’s mad,, cuz’ its midnight already and the class isn’t asleep yet

(consider reading part 1 if you haven’t yet,, cool)

bye.

[20percent-attendance]

Rant

Before this period in my emo teen bitch phase where I was obssessed with the canon twilight fandom (eww), I used to actively shame my now ex bestfriend's liking for the very same 'sexual' & 'perverse' universe of vampires. And I sooo want to punch my 11 yr old self who thought it was actually cool and somehow intellectually 'superior' to shame & mock somebody's interest??? Like wtf gurl get a life, maybe??? Yeah it took some time, unlearning & some harsh stuff to like undo all these screwed ideas of 'coolness' & 'flexing' but I've done it and I am really really sorry for my shitty behavior.

Then came the 'I'm in love with canon twilight' phase, aka Meyer's dream bs period where being edgy, stalking, watching someone sleep was how 'introverts' (not gonna use vampires here, bcz to me supernatural beings kinda stood as a symbol for severely social skill deficit introverts) expressed their love. Being manipulated and gaslighted was a romantic normal, I even felt lucky to had experienced it. To love is to sacrifice; I won't disagree with that, but to sacrifice doesn't mean to give up bodily autonomy or the ability to take decisions for myself, or just to take control over my damn life.

My formative years (11, 12, 13) were spent idolizing the utterly wrong kind of romance and that was reflected in almost all of the relationship dynamics I had. Though Twilight is not the only reason behind it, (all irl relationships around me seemed to just reinforce toxic subservience like a nightmarish refrain) it definitely contributed a major part. I did not know how love worked, platonic or romantic. Hell, I didn't even think self love was love also- that it was valid and healthy, not a narcissist's daily breakfast.

A lot changed when I entered the tumblr twilight renaissance. It helped me to cope with all of Meyer's shit and I also realised the immense potential the plot had?? If only meyer's mormon ass didn't fuck it up?? And absolutely not forget lack of representation??poc??and her extremely half assed and fucked up potrayal of native Americans??

In conclusion:

Both HP and Twilight were franchises which targeted teens, a very vulnerable age grp. While, during the recent jkr terf wars, her transphobia and random sexuality assignment were trolled and called out, do not leave out Smeyer in this hell hole. She may not be on twit but let us absolutely not forget her shitty representation of the already marginalized indigenous ppl and ofc wasting Bella and frankly, every fuckin character. Smeyer practically profited off from her exploitative writing regarding Quilete tribe and their customs. The question of diversity and representation, if examined under critical lens will provide ample instances of racism in both fiction and casting. She calls herself a feminist, yet refuses to break away from the archetype of the one dimensional heroine whose life revolves around her abusive bf.

It's 2020 already so just give me the rights of the twilight and I'll write a shit better than the og series because Rosalie is a lesbian.

[amandabe11man]

a VERY LONG post about Hell on Wheels

YEAH i forgot about this post in my drafts... it’s been like a year since i finished the show now and i feel i’ve barfed everything out into this post (that i can think of), so here it goes (you’ll have to shield your eyes after the spoiler warning if you don’t wanna be spoiled btw. i can’t seem to be able to add a read more-link...) :

SO... i finished watching “hell on wheels” at last, pm half a year since i started. it’s funny because i was under the impression that i’d sOMEHOW be able to binge all five seasons within just one month (reason: i wanted to watch it before my free trial on HBO’s website went out). honestly, that wouldn’t have been possible because it was a LOT more emotionally draining than you’d think at first glance... after being gutpunched three times in a row in season 4, any reasonable human would need a little break.

anyway, it feels-- weird. i’ve never been big on following tv-shows so i haven’t been able to relate to that feeling ppl describe once they’ve finished a show they’ve become so attached to, except NOW i can relate. the show’s not groundbreaking, it’s not perfect, but i’ve had a lot of fun. what a ride it’s been...

looking back, i’d say HOW’s biggest weakness is its tendency to forget or ignore certain plot points. i guess that’s not too weird, with such an arsenal of characters, but still, i find that’s what bugged me the most, if anything bugged me at all. for example--

[SPOILERS for those who might wanna watch it after seeing me go on abt it, idk]:

first off, what REALLY grinds my gears is how ezra dutson’s plotline was handled. it was set up perfectly in the beginning; having him escape from the swede (who promised him that, and i quote: “i’ll find you, ezra! i always do”), the original plan was obviously for ezra and the swede to “reunite” some time in the future so that ezra could tell everyone that the swede killed his parents, thus tying up loose ends and giving some closure to that whole arc. some might say this would’ve been too predictable, but i would rather have that predictable storyline than having it just end unceremoniously like it did, with ezra dying ACCIDENTALLY and off-screen by sidney snow’s hand, simply as a way to further bohannon’s pain and set the stage for ruth’s final arc. this might’ve been fine, if the writers had made it so that ezra actually, y’know, TOLD SOMEONE WHY HE’S AN ORPHAN TO BEGIN WITH. but they didn’t even give the viewer that form of closure, instead just deciding to use him as a plot device for the other characters’ increased angst... bohannon and the others were never even made aware of ezra’s last name, and this is all what bugs the everliving SHIT outta me: the only ones who know, or will EVER know, ezra’s full story is the swede and the viewer, tho after season 4′s end, ezra is never mentioned or acknowledged again-- not by bohannon, and not even by the swede. ezra went from convenient character with a PURPOSE to “nameless” orphan forgotten by history. thanks, writers...

then there’s the whole deal with campbell coming to town to reinforce The Law™, which wasn’t a bad arc, mind you-- campbell and his goons were the most infuriating little shits for a while there-- but the thing is; didn’t campbell LIE to his men about the president giving him the position as governor? i might’ve misunderstood it, but i’m PRETTY sure the president didn’t give him THAT much of an upstanding role, but that campbell just went ahead and took that position anyway? if that was indeed the case, then that’s another plot hole, cause nobody finds out about campbell’s possible trickery to become the governor. nobody rats him out, despite literally no one in “his” town liking him all that much, so they’d have no reason to protect his “secret”. (correct me if i’m wrong on this one though. i might be misremembering things)

then there’s the other pretty infuriating issue of bad guys never getting called out for doing bad shit (unless it’s the swede, who gets all the blame, all the time), for example:

major dick bongbendix(???idk he had a silly name like that) is presented VERY MUCH as a bad guy in the beginning. y’know, just casually beheading natives on all his missions and collecting those heads and taking them to the bar like a fucking nutcase-- those little details. he also seemed to believe in racial biology, so yeah, definitely not a good guy. but by the end, he’s been watered down into some quirky guy who’s ALMOST on friendly terms with the main characters. yeah, uh-- seems everyone (writers included) collectively forgot the whole public display of cut-off heads he had going on...

aaron hatch: started off as a guy too proud for his- or his family’s own good when he shot the police officer, BLAMED IT ON HIS FUCKING SON and then just kinda let bohannon hang the kid even though it was pretty obvious hatch was just shifting the blame away from himself. THEN he reappears with some other mormons and causes a full-on shootout in the town (probably getting some people killed, i don’t remember), TAKES EZRA (also a mormon) HOSTAGE SO THAT BOHANNON WILL COME WITH THEM WILLINGLY and passive aggressively forces bohannon to marry his daughter who bohannon knocked up. somewhere along the line, hatch’s bad side is just thrown to the wind, and bohannon at one point describes him as “a good man”. yeah, ABOUT THAT--

sean and mickey mcginnes: unlike the ones mentioned above, these two started out as seemingly decent dudes, but ended up pm as secondary villains in the end. however, like the ones mentioned above, they hardly face any consequences for whatever crap it was they did in boston, OR the fact that they killed and fucking mutilated/dismembered a man in cold blood (a man who WAS gonna kill them, yes, but HE did it because he thought they had killed his friend, which wasn’t a farfetched idea since mickey DID brag about killing the dude even though he didn’t actually do it). sure, they face their OWN demons as time goes on, they get ostracized, and they start losing faith in each other as well, which ends up with mickey killing sean before the latter can confess(?) his/their crimes. so, while sean was spineless and a creep, at least he thought about finally owning up to what he’d done in the end, whereas mickey lives on to keep doing shady shit, killing people, and getting increasingly more corrupt. he does end up pursuing new goals in the end, but it’s obvious he’s not happy about it anymore. that’s-- really all the comeuppance he ever gets, and the only one who knows about his shady businesses are pm just bohannon, durant and eva (also, personal gripe here-- they seemed to not settle for “just” tarring and feathering the swede and publicly humiliating him, but i’m pretty sure i recall mickey telling bohannon they were thinking about having the swede killed too. keep in mind, this was BEFORE the swede truly lost it and started killing people left and right. apparently, being kind of a douche about taxes is bad enough to warrant being tortured and cast out by the entire community... i’m obviously biased here, but still-- the mcginnes bros’ double standards are amazing to behold)

now that i’ve aired some of that out-- here are some highlights, according to me:

unexpected friendships, like that between eva and durant. i’d say the swede finding that stray dog and fawning all over him qualifies into this category too

durant and campbell fighting in the mud before finally coming to an agreement -- just- durant and his competitors being petty as fuck, honestly. it’s hilarious

bohannon trying to get through to elam by reminiscing about their friendship, especially since bohannon isn’t one to show his feelings often OR get sappy -- in fact, EVERY time bohannon loses his stoic facade is a good moment. when he was gonna bury elam and he just broke down completely for the first time since we were introduced to him... that shit had me in tears as well, but man was it a great scene

jimmy two-squaws

every time the swede opens his mouth (yes, even when he’s spouting some lies and bullshit like that)

ruth’s character development. i admit i didn’t like her at all in the beginning, idk something just felt off about her, but man did she ever grow on me. just-- how everyone kinda relied on her eventually, even though she’s only like in her 20′s or something... she still became a pillar of the community. bless ya, ruth :’ı -- also, her essentially adopting ezra was Pure as heck. I Lov it

the fact that this was the 1800′s and the only backlash the (openly) LGBT characters faced for it was pm just “yeah they’re a bit confused maybe but they’re not hurting anyone”. maybe that’s not very realistic but WHO GIVES A SHIT AMIRITE

mr tao just being a sweet old man

chang’s sunglasses, straight out of Django Unchained

mr toole’s complete heel-turn from racist POS to someone who sticks by his word to turn himself around. that shit was impressive coming from him, tbh

bohannon just calmly running into a buffalo by the train tracks

mei posing as a grown man instead of a boy (which is what she looks and sounds like, oml)

another thing i realized is that bohannon is a classic gary stu. there’s just no getting around that fact after seeing him being revered by most everyone he meets, how he’s somehow the only person able to build the railroad(s) fast and efficiently, and even wooing the literal PRESIDENT and becoming close friends with him-- all this despite his Bold and Brash personality. of course, there’s more to bohannon than these gary stu-symptoms, but i felt someone should bring it up, for the lulz

[loptgangandi]

so! literally no one asked, but these last 3 weeks have been a hell of a ride let me TELL YOU 

so happy mun-day now you get to hear all about it!! (with pictures, I’m not a monster)

here’s the cliffnotes version: 

december week 1: simultaneously moved back into a place and took classes then moved out of that place while taking classes and planning a 2-day overland trip from sweden to madrid. took said trip. 

december week 2: attended the unfccc climate conference COP25 in madrid, got kicked out for protesting in solidarity with indigenous ppl & kids, got let back into COP the next day & proceeded to go to more panels and also protests. no i did not see greta thunberg but she was there. I did not see harrison ford either. I did shake al gore’s hand tho.

december week 3: week #1 with my mom’s new twin one-eyed cyclops kitties (yes both of them), spent the week frantically writing 2400 words of nonsense that hopefully resolved themselves into two coherent enough papers to snag me a nice grade then took a 36-hour trip up to london to see my sister perform at her bitchin new job.

elaboration under the cut.

Hell Week (or) Why You Sometimes Should Fly to Climate Conferences

So, after the nonsense with The Roommate From Hell (reddit rant here), I moved out of my room at her place and back into the dorms (where I still had a lease through the end of December). That required a fair bit of effort, but I moved things bit by bit over the course of about a week, and it was manageable. 

But I had to be out of the dorms and have the place clean by the time I left for the climate conference, which in itself was a whole lot of coordination. Wednesday the 4th of December was probably among the worst, most frustrating days I have ever had, and I desperately hope I never have to deal with that level of fuck this fuck you fuck me fuck everything for a very, very long time. Somehow -- by some miraculous act of the gods -- I pulled it out, and managed to get my stuff into my friend’s basement, my plants into another friend’s apartment, my bags packed, my room clean as a whistle, my self moved into my hostel, and to every damn class that week. My interrail tickets came the day I planned to leave -- it was a tight fit -- and I managed to book trains and busses from Uppsala to Madrid with half an hour to spare, and get on the first train (Uppsala to Stockholm) in good time.

The next 48 hours went like this:

Stockholm -> Copenhagen (by train): uneventful, but Copenhagen train station on a Friday night is a little dicey, especially when you’re dragging around a 45 lb suitcase and another 15 lbs on your back

Copenhagen -> Hamburg (by overnight FlixBus): Uneventful, and I was sitting by a window with no one sitting next to me, so I was able to doze a bit on the trip. 

Hamburg -> Basel (by high-speed rail): This one I should have booked. The website said that a reservation was recommended, and I understand why. If I’d had a quiet cabin -- or even just a consistent seat for the whole 7-hour journey -- I’d have been able to get a decent night’s sleep. Instead, I kept having to move to give people their reserved seats, and didn’t get more than an hour of uninterrupted sleep.

Basil -> Olten (train): this one was a mistake

Olten -> Brienz (train): where the fuck am I

Brienz -> Lausanne (train): oh right yes that’s the direction I want to go yes good get on that one

Lausanne -> Geneva (train): oh thank fuck, I 100% know where I am and am back on track. Sunglasses & 30 hours without sleep is a Look.

Geneva: Spend 3 hours with my mom, put a week’s worth of clothes into a considerably smaller suitcase, eat dinner. meet mom’s new kittens, Saga and Luna

Geneva -> Lyon (bus): Get confused about which bus to get on, get told off by the bus driver we were trying to convince to let us on his bus, realized mom had been trying to put me on the wrong bus. Get on the right bus. Go to Lyon with bus driver who speaks no French or English, only Spanish.

Lyon -> Barcelona (night bus): Hell. Just. Absolute Hell Bus. Wanted To Die all night. Assigned to aisle seat just before the very back next to a very, very tall man who was quite polite but had no room for his legs. Behind us were two men, one of whom was loudly chewing gum until he took off his shoes and fell asleep, the other of whom snored like a gd bulldozer. Aisle seat and wailing baby a few rows down meant that my chances of sleeping comfortably were 0. I did manage to doze off a bit, but only because I was so strung out from not sleeping the night before. Eventually made it to Barcelona alive and lent my phone to the very nice lady with the wailing baby (plus like 5 other family members, none of whom had cell service). 

Barcelona -> Madrid (train): Absolutely gorgeous train ride through the Spanish countryside that I really did want to stay awake to enjoy. Managed to do so until we got to an elevation where it was just thick, dense fog and I let myself fall asleep. 

Madrid: I arrived at my hostel groggy, dazed, and in pain from two bad nights in a row. I considered a nap, but also considered that I’d need to wake up early the next morning and would need to fall asleep. Opted to try to set up my COP25 blog instead. Failed due to aforementioned grogginess. Walked to the corner to get some food and tried to pay for it with Swedish kronor, which didn’t work. Apologized, explained to the amused man that it had been a long weekend, paid him in Euros instead. Used the hostel’s dry sauna (!!!!), took a shower, and went to bed. 

COP25 - The Old White Fuckening

So, listen, I’m not going to go into detail about COP. If you want to read about how much of a tonedeaf clusterfuck the negotiations were (as opposed to the really interesting, inspiring stuff happening in the side sessions), BBC has some good articles. 

If you want to listen to some of the press conferences and plenaries, here they are. I especially recommend the ones by the Women’s Earth and Climate Caucus, Fridays for Future, and as many of the Indigenous Peoples’ statements as you can (most of them are in Spanish and/or Portuguese. Because the COP was supposed to be held in Chile, many of the registered Indigenous participants were from Amazonas because it was supposed to not be far to travel). 

If you want to listen to some of the side events, the webcasts have been recorded here. Click the link, and then click “Join the event.” I again recommend the ones by Indigenous groups (if you can understand them -- we all had translation headphones in the sessions, but I don’t speak Spanish, so I can’t really go back and revisit them). Also, this "feminist attempt at connecting the dots” on “climate crisis, corporate power, and climate finance” and this one session from a Nigerian NGO and the government about One Health and the connection between climate change, disease, and other health risks -- and how badass Nigeria is at tackling them. 

On the subject of tonedeafness, some absolute bullshit went down on Wednesday, December 11th. 

Here is the article on BBC, but it’s a bit incomplete.

Here’s what happened.

COP25 2: The Old White Fuckeninger (Starring Military Police!)

So on Wednesday, December 11th, Greta Thunberg -- environmental wunderkind with truly glorious bitchface -- sat on a panel before a hall full of condescending adults in which she demanded accountability and immediate action from national leaders. 

At the end of her speech, the delegation of Fridays for Future -- Greta’s own youth movement, which has become a global phenomenon -- stormed the stage. Representatives of Fridays for Future admitted that they knew what they were doing was against the rules, and they were ready to face the consequences: having their admission badges taken away (being “debadged”), and not being blacklisted from future UNFCCC events. 

Neither of these things happened. Instead, UNFCCC praised the young activists, and let them keep their badges. 

A few hours later, another activist group in attendance -- not an Indigenous one, a point that was raised by a young Native American man during the Fridays for Future press conference -- staged a sit-in outside the main hall where a large plenary meeting was scheduled. Said meeting was full of gimmicks, including a live call to the International Space Station so an astronaut could talk about the view of climate change from space. 

I was going to attend the plenary. I joined the protest instead. 

Admittedly, the decision was partly made for me by security. After pushing, shoving, and jostling the (mostly adult, heavily Indigenous, mostly PoC, heavily female, heavily Queer) protesters, as well as violently snatching their badges off their lanyards, security started herding them -- as well as anyone in proximity -- out into the open docking area outside the hall. One woman nearby, who hadn’t meant to join the protest and who had just been filming, tried to duck out of the group and got sternly told by a security guard “No. Keep going forward. No turning back.” A similar thing had happened to me -- I hadn’t made up my mind about joining the protest, because I didn’t have all the information -- but security made the decision, and in the end, I’ll always prefer to be with the people facing the police rather than those they’re protecting. 

It was... furious. It was emotional. The leaders of the protest had us form a circle and turn our backs on security and the door. WoC -- many of whom were Indigenous -- led not just standard protest chants, but songs. Renewal songs, fight songs. The common theme was the intersection of environmental justice and femininity, queerness and suffering under colonization, anti-capitalism, anti-exploitation, and a call for colonizers to repay the colonized for all of the loss and damage already caused by climate change (climate reparations). 

Eventually, UNFCCC made a decision. They decided to close the door on us. Security “escorted” us to the docking bay entrance, and the military police took over. Fortunately, none of them started anything. Obviously, none of the protesters did either. We made it back to the venue entrance eventually, but only those with journalist/media badges were allowed back in; the rest of us were not. Even people with Observer badges (like mine) who hadn’t been part of the protest weren’t being allowed in. But some people who were panelists, delegates, etc. came out to stand in solidarity with us. 

Once it became clear that no more joint actions would be taking place, I went home, and waited to see whether the negotiators would be able to talk UNFCCC into letting us back in. 

They did. Can you imagine the headlines? “UNFCCC Kicks Out Protesters, Bars Civil Society Observers From Climate Talks.” 

Talk about going down like a lead balloon.

Which is about what the conference in general did. I was able to go back and get some more stuff out of it... including another big protest, this time led by Fridays for Future and sanctioned. It was so, so good. Many of the people from Wednesdays protest were also there, and while spirits weren’t exactly high, the emotions being expressed were more along the lines of determination and tenacity than fire and fury. Both are valid, and both have their place, and it was nice to have a balance -- especially at the end of the week, when we were all flat-out exhausted. 

The Aftermath

And then I just didn’t stop moving. Saturday and Sunday I spent exploring Madrid and staying out late, Monday I flew back to Geneva from Madrid (because absolutely fuck Spanish busses and also absolutely FUCK FRANCE’s weeks-long general strike that I’m sure was for something very important. I’m sure. Because France never strikes over trivial things). 

Tuesday-Friday was a takehome exam that I swear to god was more labor-intensive than my actual undergrad thesis, and Saturday-Sunday I flew to London to visit my sister at her new job as an actor in Shrek’s Adventure. Mom was supposed to go with me, but she has a slipped disk and sent me up alone. Which was nice -- my sister and I almost never hang out just the two of us. But that’s another thing I’ve been dealing with -- quite a bit of extra Stuff To Do that Mom Can’t Do because Back Hurty and there have been days when she literally could not move. 

But now I am here! I still have work to do, and it’s holidays so there’s Holiday Stuff happening, but I’m hoping to get back to writing here in the next few days. 

And if you’ve read all of this, you’re fucking incredible and I love u and here are some one-eyed black babie kitty gremlins for ur viewing pleasure.

<-Saga | Luna ->

They’ve got little bare patches on their tummies because bbies gotta be spayed

They got this tower two days ago and have learned to share, but the learning curve was steep

Saga doesn’t like cuddles but she likes pats and being in the vicinity of humans

Saga says hello

Pictured: Luna in my arms, Saga in Proximity

Luna stole my Spot!! >:C

If Saga steals something and then tells u to answer a riddle to get it back pls let me know. she does that sometimes. it’s very naughty.

[flyingcatstiel]

The destiel meta writers are becoming worse than bibros. First they went after destielette and now they are going after Jess (thinking an anon in their inbox is her, just like another one of them thought anon was destielette). They are hell bent on driving away all Cas fans and anyone who do not bow to them. I thought no one would be as caustic and acidic as bibros and here metas are behaving worse. Bibros - Bully every while chnating (AKF), destiel metas - Bully while chanting we are positive.

Oh, nonnie, there’s a lot to unpack here but first things first - Not all destiel meta writers. Writing destiel meta and discussing it with your friends on your blog is a lovely fandom activity and doesn’t make a fan into a bully. The actions are important. I think we all know that you mean a certain group of people who are destiel meta writers and fandom bullies. You can recognize them by their attacks on other fan accounts here and on twitter, you can recognize them by the vitriol and rude language they use in their posts when talking about other parts of destiel fandom. I guess destiel fandom has been dealing with bibros’ attacks for so long that some of their tactics have rubbed off and now this group, this fandom positivity police, is using the same tactics. I gotta say that this was not the usual state of destiel fandom tho. I think it was hiatus after 12x23 when some people in destiel fandom really decided to go after Cas fans. This is also time when pan fandom antis were getting more and more active and you can see the same tactics used by our own positivity police - aggressive language, the need to correct different opinions by going to ppl blogs, attacks on content creators they don’t like (the recent fanartist thing), labeling parts of fandom so it’s easier to vilify and attack them (remember when they were looking for dark Cas stan blogs? before deciding to call us “rabid”). The absolute inability to see different, critical opinions without jumping on them. All this combined with the classic anti behavior of elevating themselves above the rest of fans. The only difference is that in other fandoms antis claim to ship the most pure ship, while in destiel fandom they claim to be “proper” fans because they support the show and Team Free Will, unlike those yucky one character stans. Which, lol, is exactly what bibros used to say to Cas fans. So, this brand of aggressiveness is nothing new to Cas fans. And yes, it is driving folks away. I think we all have noticed that spn/destiel fandom on tumblr is shrinking. There are other reasons to leave fandom than just positivity police, but they certainly can give that final push to Cas fans to walk away. I’ve already lost several mutuals, Cas fans, who left tumblr after dealing with them. 

The attack they waged on @destielette1 was absolutely despicable. They were itching for a fight so much that they pretended not to know how anon messages work or that copy/paste exists. Like I said, if you don’t want to see someone’s opinion, scroll by, block, ignore. But if you decide to attack people, then that’s on you, then you are a bully and an anti. The new low these bullies have sunk to is their attacks on ESL fans for grammar mistakes. Like, this is so, so low, I’ve no words. And here’s a kicker. From what I see on my dash, a lot of Cas fans share at least one of these markers - not US american, not white, not native English speaker, and/or live outside of the first world countries. We are already outsiders in some sense in this very us-american fandom. So, when you have these US/UK native English white fans attacking Cas fans for liking Cas and expressing it in sometimes incorrect English, this is beyond pale. And it also shows that they are unable to win any discussion without reverting to personal attacks. And yes, they do it all in the name of positivity and defending the “virtue” of white male SPN writers, which is double ironic. I get such a “I’m not like other girls” please senpai notice me vibe from their posts. As if being “morally superior” and silencing different opinions in fandom spaces somehow will guarantee their desired outcome on SPN.

about that other thing under the cut

So, I had to poke around to see what is happening with Jess, and yeah, they are having a field day with shredding an anon they attribute to her. But that’s where the similarities end. Jess was never a Cas girl. Until that post where she tried to defend her pro destiel clickbitey article by calling destiel shippers delusional, she was one of them. Jess has been here for a really long time and she has done her part in ridiculing Cas fans or other folks with critical opinions about SPN. She was a positivity police herself. I don’t condone any attacks on fans for their opinions, by this is more like piranhas attacking one of their own. Which, again, is a classic anti behavior - you must attack those who disobey the party line in order to keep the others in check. 

Unfortunately this is the fandom state we are living in now. When big, popular blogs engage in aggressive, demeaning language and direct attacks on fans, they encourage their followers to do the same. Unless they curb their own behavior and learn to respect diversity of opinions, nothing will change. And to my fellow Cas fans, take care dears. Block them, ignore them, delete their messages. Get out if you need to. Don’t feed the trolls who are getting desperate to be fandom relevant before the show ends. 

And to the trolls who snoop around my blog - I ship destiel, my ship is not less valid if it is not canon. I agree that there’s plenty of destiel (and other pairings’) subtext on the show; some of it intentional, some accidental. The subtext is there to string the fans along. I’ve no problem with destiel meta in general. I may disagree with most of it nowadays, but then I just scroll by and ignore it. I don’t got to other people blogs looking for a fight. But I do have problem with folks who attack other fans, be they bibros or positivity police. So, that is my position in all of this. 

[leaveharmony]

Anyway fuck K***y O***a

I don’t care what he ~overcame~ it still amounts to “cool backstory, still a piece of shit”

Remember when he conveniently forgot about all the bullying & bad booking in dubya said Shinsuke ‘hasn’t done anything compelling’ here bc of course racism & adversity aren’t real unless they’re effecting him personally (and of course he managed somehow to ~rise above~ them through hard work bc he genuinely believes that’s all you have to do to overcome ‘racism’?)

Remember when he fatshamed Ishii & allowed a show to go ahead w/ a sex offender booked bc he couldn’t be arsed to actually vet the performers and left it to someone else even though he was responsible for it?  Remember when he spent a whole day arguing that he’d done nothing wrong until he finally offered up a petulant halfassed ‘apology’ that amounted to ‘sorry people were upset (even though I didn’t do anything to cause it)

Remember when less than 24 hours after he was handed the title he called all the native talent lazy & complacent and said they didn’t ‘want’ success in their own promotion as much as 3 white guys from canada did (and then he disappeared w/ the title for another month lol because why would the champion be around to work the road to shows like all the lazy domestic talent)

If you’re meant to be the face of a company & spend all your time shitting on said company and all the talent that built it TO THE POINT that you suggest they should be thanking you for their paychecks you’re a bad champion, period.  Fucking period. 

& he can go to hell.

Lots of ppl manage to face bullying and come back from it w/o turning into racist entitled pieces of thinskinned garbage who’re so hyper-defensive WRT criticism they’ll even defend themselves over handing jobs to sex offenders 🖕

I’m long past the point of giving passes to white boys who act like assholes bc they have a tragic backstory & I’m not looking forward to chapter 876524643454 of White Men Get Everything (Even/Especially When Their Conduct Should Remove Them From Even Being Considered For It) tomorrow