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tracfone · 10 months
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Born with a sense of wonder for how the world works forced to earn green pieces of paper
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tianhai03 · 1 year
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did not plan to draw honkai star rail fanart ever and im also pretty sure someone has done this already but. pov youre an unsealed stellaron thats causing problems
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retrogradedreaming · 4 months
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Forgot to post this here, but this is my entry for @/veed_arts 10k DTIYS on IG!
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luck-of-the-drawings · 4 months
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POOR GABRIEL MONTEZ! YOU NEVER SAW THIS COMING DID YOU? ALL YOU WANTED WAS POWER. SECURITY. SAFETY. & THATS EXACTLY WHAT YOU GOT! JUST IN EXCHANGE FOR YOUR BODY. LETS JUST HOPE NO ONE FUCKS THIS UP. LETS JUST HOPE YOU WONT HAVE TO CLEAN UP THE MESS.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#cw gore#jrwi suckening spoilers#jrwi suckening#jrwi gabriel#jrwi gabriel montez#LOOK FAMILIAR?hahahahahDONT WORRY#IM REUPLOADING THIS HERE BC i fixed up the drawing a lil. and also i wanted to add main tags#U WONT SEE ANY DIFFERENCES BETWEEN THISSUN N THE POST ON MY SIDEBLOG.i changed the image there too.HA!!!!!!!#ANYWAY.i rambled plenty about pain and gabe on my sideblog.SO LETS TALK ABT THE ART SHALL WE.ihad i very hard time getting the colors down#would u believe i nearly left this uncolored??FUCKED UP!! it was only a sketchhow did it end up like this. it was only a sketch...#BUT IM RLY GLAD I WENT W COLORING IT.this time i actually used the airbrush n pencil tools BUT i also have a handy dandy brush i made#its just the mspaint air brush tool. fucking LOVE THAT THING. but now its in fire alpaca and it can be slightly transparent.IT LOOKS SOGOOD#perfect for splatters and grime.i love you mspaint i love youuu.im also so happy w the blood here.i think i reached a shift last year#back when i made that genloss fanart something abt the way i draw blood finally CLICKED and im like OH. the inside must always be darker.#like i KNEW that already but it was like my hand itself finally had it click.i wonder what i will learn next?I LIKE THE ORGANS HERE TOO#not as veiny or thready as i usually draw em. but i think thats fine. not as WET as id like em to be but thats also fine.#i got the point across. the point ofc being WOW THIS IS GRUESOME AND PAINFUL AND TERRIBLE#I LOVE HIS EXPRESSION.i love pain and thinking abt pain. you lose yourself to it after enough time passes of just being in an ocean o agony#at one point its just too tiresome to scream or writhe. theres a point when the body accepts it.sometimes.atleast.#OHHH GABRIEL AS A CHARACTER DELIGHTS ME SO MUCH.he is a dog to me.a thing to serve others.I WISH I KNEW MORE#WHAT ELSE DID YOU WANT BOY?? SURE POWER AND SECURITY AND SAFETY ARE NICE.BUT DID YOU HAVE DREAMS? WANTS? PASSIONS?#WHAT WAS THE STORY BEHIND THAT TIGER TATTOO ON YOUR ARM?WHAT DO THE DOGTAGS SAY BOY?I WISH I COULD HAVE TEA W U#OHHH TO SIT DOWN WITH A CHARACTER AND JUST SPEAK TO THEM. AND YET. AND YET IN THE END ITS ALL TRAGEDY AND COMEDY#TRAGEDY AND COMEDY THAT IS SO SO PAINFULLY UNBALANCED. SIGH.#WHATEVER CMERE BOY YOURE BECOMING AN OC OF MINE NOW UR GONNA BE IN SPACE AND UR NAME IS GONNA BE VINEGAR#UR STILL GONNA BE SHIP OF THESEUSED THOUGH. OOOHHH GABRIEEELLL GABRIEL MONTEEEZZZ#HOW MANY PEOPLE WERE BUILT INTO YOU.HOW MANY DID YOU LOVE AND CHERISH.HOW MANY TATTOOS DO U RECOGNIZE ON UR NEW ARMS#WHAT WAS IT LIKE? ON THE NIGHT U WERE SIRED?WERE YOU EXCITED? DID YOU SEE YOUR BOSS' FACE?WHAT WAS THIS PROMOTION LIKE?
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princessmyriad · 8 months
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Any lovely witchy friends out there have advice for reaching out to a deity?
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knifekris · 1 month
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every day i struggle to make choices
#i should invest into some kind of education but cant make up my mind#mostly because options suck#i cant do trades unless my body sucks less which is sad because id love to be an electrician#cant even think about getting a pilots license cuz im not passing the med cert#i think id rather die than be a med assistant actually#working clinics at all makes me nervous tbh but probably where im headed in the short term#surgical tech would be cool but i cant do a Real program while working full-time#which is what limits most of my choices#i need to find more paid training programs i guess#if i had to pick a miserable but fulfilling job id go into education itself#but the teaching profession has always been in a downward spiral esp as of late#i dont want healthcare because i hate seeing dysfunctional glorified murder machines grinding around and around endlessly#acute care sucks id rather be in an icu for function but then im depressed because our patients are always dying#it was better as a phleb but this hospital doesnt have phleb and like i said im nervous about clinics#but i need to fucking commit to outpatient phlebotomy i think :/#the most fun ive had at a job ever#i wish i had more widely applicable skills but i cant be an emt/para even just for the training#because half of it is unpaid and the other half you pay for#and again#a job NOTORIOUS for being exhausting dangerous and traumatizing#if i was 17 again and wasnt escaping the tar pit of my mother id go for an english degree and i wouldnt even regret it#thinking about school in terms of a job i have to have forever vs for the sake of learning is so different#id like to know everything. i wanna read and write forever. and do research and have real technical skills that help people#im still riding off of the high of getting 5 ccs off of an oncology patient who desperately needed a port#they were able to run like seven tests off of it#i had to use a couple ped tubes#she only had to get poked Once and barely noticed it bc the doc team came in and im so happy i made her admission that muvh easier#labs are so miserable#checking back on the blood and seeing all of the results came through made me more pleased than anything else in the world
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skunkes · 3 months
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I'm v curious abt Talon's mesoamerican origins and evolution in general how does his accent sound when written out? after such a long life what is the strongest vestige of those times he has (aside from physical features and so on). I can't believe some rando bloodsucker colonized my boy
I have no idea what his accent wld sound like as the few videos i cld find of people speaking his original language, are, of course, mainly spanish speakers! And I can sometimes hear the difference in spanish as they switch between the 2 while being interviewed but i struggle to mentally transplant that as to how it'd sound in English ykwim 😭 there's also the fact that its the modern language spoken by them so it has evolved alongside and borrows from spanish anyway, by those who still speak it and speak both Today
Im actually still zeroing in on fleshing out more of that lore, since I can't find too much info on the specific culture i envision for him, it may really just have to be "fantasy culture INSPIRED by the people" instead, so i dont completely botch actual historical info 😮‍💨 either that or go very vague off of the info available
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bucephaly · 1 year
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BTW if you haven't already please take a minute to look up what venomous snakes are local to you and familiarize yourself with them
#i joined a local snake ID group recently#before that i knew roughly how to spot a pit viper and hownto tell a coral from a scarlet snake#but i didnt really know how to identify specific species other than copperheads#and now im very confident in my ability to tell water snakes from cottonmouths etc#and it gives really nice peace of mind#like. ive seen so many people here in the us south that will freak out of Any snake#my mom once was yelling and crying trying to get help over a kingsnake on the sidewalk cuz she didnt know if it could kill the dogs#and people will kill snakes if they dont know [and often will anyway but knowing helps foster appreciation]#and now i can see a snake and say thats a coachwhip. isnt it pretty. and will gently grab the back end to look at it for just a second more#before letting it go hide#idk. i saw a rattlesnake in the woods today#and its the first time seeing one in the wild like that. and yea it was scary tbh#and i got a pic but booked it out once it noticed me and reacted#but i wish i had stopped and watched it longer cuz it was super pretty#and i know it wouldnt have bothered me at all#im just glad that we've seen two big full sized diamondbacks here in the past few months. and i know theyre two individuals#because eastern diamondbacks are declining and its good to know theres a population here#idk. im getting sentimental over snakes i just love them#but my main point is its so easy to indentify snakes at least where im at#and learning to id them comes with learning to respect them
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january-glooms · 3 months
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hi haai! i'm sorry for the random ask, this is kind of a shot in the dark honestly, but do you have any resources for learning sranantongo? it's part of my culture but i've never been able to learn it because of a lack of coverage 😭 have a lovely day regardless mwa mwa <3
that's sadly a rather difficult question to answer. we are in the same boat, i fear. as far as im aware of there's no real app or site where you can learn sranan. and even if there was in my experience, written sranan is a whole lot more formal than spoken sranan. spoken sranan and written sranan are very different.
but!! if you speak dutch, there are classes out there and there are also books available to study. im not sure if theyre actually any good bc i havent had the chance to check them out. they do cost money, so thats a bit unfortunate. there are a few youtube videos out there, but once again mostly applicable if you speak dutch, which idk if you do but yk
ig the best advice for learning sranan is to find a community either irl or online (like the sub reddit r/learnSranantongo or just a facebook group ig) where you are able to immerse yourself in the language. i know that's a rather sucky conclusion but there really isnt all that much out there. not that ive found at least
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bibleofficial · 2 months
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it’s me & my faggoty ass scrunchie against the world
#stream#it’s so fun but it looks so bad but idc#it’s. like a bucket hat#it’s ugly & looks unbecoming on everyone & that’s the point. universality#i got them both from the same brand lucky & yak#i also got the black chord tote & that’s what was my main bag for this trip to spain like i had so much shit in that & she HELD#STRONG#RECOMMEND#it’s got 2 internal pockets then 1 internal zip pocket & it’s all a lined w canvas but the bag structure is the chord so she can hold a good#weight !! i needed a bag like this sooo bad like totes are great love a plain cheap tote but i need A Heavy Duty#i’ve one bookmarked leather tote but it’s unaffordable rn#like i’ve alert my leather purse i got last year that still needs more use#if i didn’t drunkenly get the jacket & the document holder MAYBE ? but no i didn’t lol#i still haven’t worn the coat#honestly if i move to china id be able to wear it bc all id use is alipay & wechat lol#like i just got shit to carry !!!#idk how to style this leather coat more casually bc they didn’t / refused to put the front pocket w/o a zipper or make it a single front#pocket which made no sense anyway like what i’m asking u to Do Less Work#i wouldn’t get from them again#LESSONS LEARNED REGARDLESS#i just didn’t think i’d have had time to get them elsewhere & this guy was recommended#i like the document holder tho i use that for all my important shit#it is ACTIVELY used#like i’m literally going to have it until i die it’s fine & i never need another#but the jacket …. yes still will have just not as much use until it gets damaged from eventual wear#i love love love damage like i was going to wear a white shirt that i stain on purpose to get this tattoo so it could bleed in a fun pattern#onto the shirt but then they were like can u cons back in 1.5hr & i was like yea lol so i went home & showered & didn’t but it didn’t bleed#much at all like it’s going to be such an easy heal#+ if it blows out it’ll be so fuckig funny bc it’s the ….. od price lol#a BLOW OUT IT WAS …
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sorikkung · 4 months
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people interacting w wgoin in my notes... this would be a rly bad time to say all my writing will probably be on hiatus for the indefinite future huh
#not like it makes a practical difference considering i only upload twice a year at best#but im realising how much my writing is shame motivated and its just not sustainable or healthy#it saddens me that these stories i invested So much time and effort into will probably never get finished#i wanna hold out hope that they will but#i dont want anyones expectations to be too high#bc knowing myself they probably wont#i started wgoin thinking that this would be the story i commit to finishing and not just abandon as soon as i get bored#but that was before i had really realised how my brain works#and for a while writing these chapters have felt very forced#gbgb had a much better run till it crashed and i was just unable to pick it back up#tbh that one could potentially still be saved bc of how open ended it is if i get any inspo for it back whatsoever#bc it had no strict plan i was entirely making it up as i go#and im realising thats how i write best. i tried to plan wgoin so id commit to finishing it but im realising that has the opposite effect#if i plan anything too thoroughly writing it becomes like gnawing on lead#cause i got all the dopamine out of the idea already#i write best when i have nothing but a vague idea or a vibe#gbgb crashed bc i ran out of vibes and ideas but if i find any again who knows#there is the possibility where i scrap the plan i had for wgoins entire plot and make the rest up as i go#which i might try purely bc i love the story sm#and i think i enjoyed writing it most back in the first three parts where i Was making it up as i went#which is why im saying indefinite hiatus instead of discontinued#bc there is hope for them. just not. much#so if u stick around maybe follow me on ao3 if u dont wanna see all my posts n just my stories#maybe in 3 years time youll see another wgoin notif or sumn#sorry to the small but dedicated handful of readers who really loved these fics#i wanted to write more for you guys bc ik its hard to find this kinda fic anywhere else; its why i started writing it#but i am but one unmedicated autist w severe adhd. we r working on the unmedicated part tho#ive learned so much abt how my brain functions now n how to make the most of it tho#i told myself id finish any new writing before i post it. so know anything new Will be complete :3#mischiefing time
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be-good-to-bugs · 2 years
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2023 / oh to be such a lesbian that your crush turns into a god and changes the laws of the universe itself in order to change your fate. meduka meguka you truly are like no other.
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daydadahlias · 6 months
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hey jessssssssss can you pretty please say anything about a wip ure writing (ure my most favourite ever i love you mwah ^_^)
hi pookieeeee <3 I CAN say anything about a wip I'm writing (u r my most favorite ever ily2 mwah >3<)
ok so I have a few wips in the works rn (including this shortie one that hopefully I can post fairly soon eek) but what I am most excited about is that I have Officially Started my next Chaptered Fic™ (which is fondly called groupie fic).
I've only just started chapter one (~2k rn) but I'm already in love with it lol and I know it won't be a while until I share it but I'm really excited to !!! :D I love writing chaptered fics and I love having FUN with them. And, bc it's an AU, I've already gotten to plan some stuff and make up some fun things !! like, for instance, Calum is in a ~band~ (not 5sos) that I got to name anddd because the entire fic takes place on a tour, I also got to plan a tour !!! which is. kind of a logistical + geographical nightmare dude bc i had to pick the places, the dates, and the venues within the places blah blah blah but yeah :) I'm really excited about all of it. I even made a tour poster lol <3
but !! yeah !! I'm really excited about my fake little band that Calum is playing in <3 and I'm excited to for him to meet his future fave groupie <3 and I'm really excited to write them falling in love over secret hook-ups at hotels and ~forbidden pasts~ (bc those are my favorite) and I'm excited to get to share it all w/ people when it's written !!!!
thank u for asking :)
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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year
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Listen. Probably my favorite thing about The Terror is that because the story is one planned out season, the arcs and parallel scenes are set up so cleanly and nicely that it echos.
#listen. i safely traveled the 1st leg of my vacation journey and now im gonna rant abt the terror a sec bc god#i just want to line up all the parallel scenes bc theyre so good in my brain. i love it so much. even my dumbass can see what theyre doing#i dont have a good media analysis brain. i was in and English class full of other stem kids in college who got shouted at for mineing books#like we were looking for data and not going for the meaning lol. but ive watched thr show so many times. so many times and yet reading the#scripts is even better bc it makes it even more clear what theyre doing in each scene. i love it#im just gonna list scenes i remember that echo back. obv the more than god loves them via james as a parallel and an arc for francis. silna#y do u want to die. James god wants u to live. hicky bitching abt the dog thrn the crew bitching abt the dog. james assuring john abt his#being given command. francis reassuring james abt being given command. irving god sees u here more than anywhere. goodsir is god here? any#god? goodsir talking abt the radience when ppl die. goodsir hearing the angles as he dies. theres more but those r at the top of my head#i just wanna line them all up and stare at them. god. do i try to learn video editing for that? with what fucking time? but then i could#force my observations on other ppl in a way thats satisfying lol. maybe. id also want all the lines that echo constantly in my head edited#together. also. reading thr scripts they r obviously writing the apathy of god into the story. the sundog is a portentous celestial eye lol#im gonna have to write out my thoughts on god in the terror. whether or not i make a video. but the thumbnail would b Crozier staring at#the sundogs. i just have zero video editing skills and also zero time when im working lol. ugh but this idea is like a maligned tumor in#my head. and i must satisfy its demands. also just watch the terror. i beg of u. its so so good. also if u dont live in a city hellscape or#the god forsaken desert. go run around in the grass. it feels so so nice. i had to run around the house a few times when i got home lol#unrelated#the terror
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elegyofthemoon · 1 year
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see if ff13 were more popular we couldve had an official translation
but noooooo i have to go crawling around desperately so i can get my hands on hope estheim chapters with fear of translations being spewed bad 🙄
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pinkseas · 1 year
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girl who thinks about xiaolumi too much literally while in the middle of writing abt them and then starts crying a little bit
#LISTENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN. listennnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.#aly.genshin#okay im jsut. gonna like say so many words#idk i had this Very Skewed Perception for a Very Long Time#that there was a certain kind of love and closeness only achievable through pain.#that you'd have to yank someones ribcage open and carve yourself out a place in their heart to really belong there#that was my first real lasting impression of true love. that for such intense trust and care to exist there had to be equal pain#for a while i thought All love was like that. and then the more i grew up the more i learned just how wrong i was#but even when i got to a point where id learned SO much and was doing SO much better#i genuinely didnt think that vulnerability could exist without pain#and i dont think that was something i thought about everyone. i think i believed that for Other People it wouldnt necessarily have to hurt#but for me? if i wanted to really actually be open and honest with someone? if i wanted to trust them wholly?#they'd have to tear me open and sew a piece of themselves right there in my chest and never let the wound close#that was what closeness meant. that was what trust meant.#and id rather never achieve true trust that led to that closeness than let someone do that to me again.#and then i met ash and craig and i started to believe maybe it didnt have to hurt. maybe you COULD be wholly vulnerable without things like#manipulation and pain and abuse and whatnot#but i still hadnt reached that point. still HAVENT reached that point.#and even though i found myself believing it was maybe possible. the belief wasnt wholly there?#i had no examples i couldnt think of anything or anyone who really truly loved each other and had such a deep intimate level of trust-#-without having to hurt each other to cause it#and then !!!!!!!!!!! those two. and all those fucking questlines and all the little details ingame#two people who've been left behind in one way or another and struggle to open themselves up to or really trust anyone else#SO used to working on their own SO used to being alone no one left to rely on no one left to let in. the entire world kept at arms length#but with each other !!!!!!!!! there's so much CARE#she falls and he catches her and thats it! shes saved. shes fine.#but he still holds on. he supports her as she catches her breath and really recovers.#keeps a hold on her hand and her waist and does the little squeeze thing before letting go. silent reassurance. silent faith.#and in the chasm there's just. she cares so MUCH about him she gets so worried !!!!!!#HELP I HIT A TAG LIMIT I TYPED SO MUCH MORE AND ITS JUST. GONE. reblogging this to continue hold on
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