#that movie fucked me up

[itscthulhubitch]

ok so originally i was gonna draw anxiety from inside out 2 and..

yeah...

then i was like 'why dose this look fammiliar'

and um

this mother fucker

but yeah

less scary anxiety coming soon (probably)

[harpoonsnotspoons]

Sniffle sob

[noellezoenoodle]

I watched I Saw The TV Glow, and it wrecked me like a truck

// spoilers for aforementioned movie and trigger warning for existential dread and religious themes

It all started in July with my 23rd birthday; even if it was an eventfully slow year, I still felt disconnected and dissociated, as if I was on another kid's birthday, born on the same day. I'm not out as a trans-woman to my family. I can't come out to them; this wasn't new. But I was getting tired of it; the idea of celebrating another year as another person was painful, hurting me mentally, on some days, even physically.

Before I knew it, another month passed by. I felt that time was going faster, that I threw away my youth, that soon I was going to be 27, 30, 60, and that I'd be dead before I could even know. I felt like I was dying, but the only thing I could do was scream for help. I yelled to somebody to save me, anybody from family, my friends, even Adonai; all who answered, but none could help me from decaying; even with my restored faith, I still felt hollow, as if my soul was nowhere to be found.

One day, while I was on my way to work, I made an appointment at a gender clinic. I knew what was affecting me, but I didn't call sooner because I was afraid of losing my family and my blurry future, Afraid of losing the harrowing comfort that normalcy brought to me. But I couldn't live like this anymore; I was willing to lose all that instead of living in a purgatory.

When I watched "I Saw The TV Glow" at the start of September, I not only saw my reflection through a black mirror, I saw my fears, my past, my present, and what-could-be future. I felt like Tara and Isabel seeing their life passing through a TV show, shattering me when the screams of existential dread came at the end; to say that this movie made me bawl my eyes out would be an understatement. I watched it at the right time in my life, and if there were ever a movie I needed to see, it would be this one.

It didn't feel like a wake-up call; by the time I watched it, I'd already made an appointment at the clinic. But it was a congratulatory message, validating my decisions. My first appointment will be in November. I know that HRT won't completely fix my chronic anxiety and make my fears go away. I know I'm going to struggle socially and financially for the rest of my life, but that won't matter because, for maybe the first time in a long time, I'll feel alive.

[captainthomasrobbie]

I am in a lot of Fandoms.

Many of them only now got rewoken with something Happening. I am absolutely in my writing mood, but I will not create any longer new projects.

So, this is sorta OPEN ASK for any ONE SHOTS for any of the fandoms I'm in. Any ship, character, warning, whatever. (I'm not writing OCs or Readers)

Feel free to ask for something through DM, ask, or on this post specifically!

[th3d0nutl0rd]

Sorry to hornypost on main but is it too much to ask for a fic where Lisa fingers the creature like come on guys he has Tboy swag and that should be respected and honoured thank you for coming to my tedtalk

[parkercore-69]

living in a world where even though movies may be my special interest i literally cannot watch them with new friends because i cry at EVERY. SINGLE, MOVIE

[thelastunicornflipouts]

I was today years old when I found out that Diderot from ‘La gabbianella e il gatto’ (Lucky and Zorba) has the same voice actor as Schmendrick in the Italian dub of TLU.

[dystopyx-blog]

Me n my mum bawling our eyes out at Toy Story 3

[joker2019]

ive been keeping that fortune in my pocket for the past 2 days.

[crows-home]

part of my nimona viewing experience. idk why but i got super emotional in the first five minutes.

ID by @peachygos

[ID: A comic juxtaposing screenshots from Nimona 2023 and drawings of a person watching the movie. The first screenshot is Ambrosius's introduction; he grins at the camera as the news anchors introduce him, his name in big print on the screen. The person watching thinks with a bored expression, "Ah. Ok. This guy is gonna be the jackass. Typical golden-boy stuck-up prince that thinks he's better than the underdog. I see where this is going.

The next screenshot is of Ambrosius and Ballister on the platform above the arena, Ambrosius doing his news anchor bit and saying, "Aaand will Ballister be broody on the biggest day of his life?" Ballister laughs at his antics. The person watching now has a small smile, as they think, "Huh! Aw, they're actually nice to each other and are friends! I wasn't expecting that, that's nice-"

The third and final screenshot is a shot from behind of Ballister leaning his head on Ambrosius's shoulder. The caption reads "the knighting ceremony is just moments away." The person watching now has a touched, soft expression, like they're holding back tears. They think "OH." as a partially transparent doodle behind them bends over crying and blubbering, with another doodle showing their heart shot through with an arrow. /end ID]

[inkskinned]

this is just my opinion but i think any good media needs obsession behind it. it needs passion, the kind of passion that's no longer "gentle scented candle" and is now "oh shit the house caught on fire". it needs a creator that's biting the floorboards and gnawing the story off their skin. creators are supposed to be wild animals. they are supposed to want to tell a story with the ferocity of eating a good stone fruit while standing over the sink. the same protective, strange instinct as being 7 and making mud potions in pink teacups: you gotta get weird with it.

good media needs unhinged, googling-at-midnight kind of energy. it needs "what kind of seams are invented on this planet" energy and "im just gonna trust the audience to roll with me about this" energy. it needs one person (at least) screaming into the void with so much drive and energy that it forces the story to be real.

sometimes people are baffled when fanfic has some stunning jaw-dropping tattoo-it-on-you lines. and i'm like - well, i don't go here, but that makes sense to me. of fucking course people who have this amount of passion are going to create something good. they moved from a place of genuine love and enjoyment.

so yeah, duh! saturday cartoons have banger lines. random street art is sometimes the most precious heart-wrenching shit you've ever seen. someone singing on tiktok ends up creating your next favorite song. youtubers are giving us 5 hours of carefully researched content. all of this is the impossible equation to latestage capitalism. like, you can't force something to be good. AI cannot make it good. no amount of focus-group testing or market research. what makes a story worth listening to is that someone cares so much about telling it - through dance, art, music, whatever it takes - that they are just a little unhinged about it.

one time my friend told me he stayed up all night researching how many ways there are to peel an orange. he wrote me a poem that made me cry on public transportation. the love came through it like pith, you know? the words all came apart in my hands. it tasted like breakfast.

[sugaronyourtongu3]

Some tv / movie title screens on my CRT tv

[halestrom]

[dreamstations]

i think using real animatronics really enhanced the experience of the film. not just in the charming yet uncanny way freddy + friends robotically stomped around but also when they finally reveal springtrap at the end of the film. the way he lumbers in, hunched over. immediately recognizable as an animatronic but theres something Wrong. he's moving too fast, too lifelike. that has to be a person in a suit. he found you, mike.

it was really effective idk guys

[thedgeofsleep]

i hope the fnaf movie sequel introduces the puppet and we get a scene of the puppet crawling through the rain to die with the kid like in fnaf 6 bc i would never emotionally recover for the rest of my life

[umblrspectrum]

you'll never guess which movie i finally watched after 2 years of being lazy