#that sure was a thing to do at 3am

[dismas-n-dismay]

Over and Over - Rio Romeo ur not telling me she didnt think of the first time she met falin and her beauty as she recreated her in that same image of purity and kindness, piece by piece get out of here

[ratcandy]

3 straight hours of drawing and editing through a horrid migraine for a whole THIRTY SECONDS of self-indulgence beyond your wildest dreams. we call this being extremely normal

song is Bernadette by IAMX

[writeouswriter]

*Sighs dreamily* Writing dialogue, my beloved.

*Hisses with intense malice* Writing all the dialogue tags and actions between dialogue, my beloathed.

[belugaobsessed]

if we get an aventurine trailer or animated video i wonder what it's gonna be about since we already got to know almost all of his past in the trailblaze mission hmmmm i'm very curious

[tea-cat-arts]

Disclaimer: this is 3am rambling. Whether or not this rant ends up being a cohesive thought is between me and God. Also, I'll be switching around what pronouns I use for Shi Qingxuan and He Xuan every paragraph

"Shi Qingxuan should've chosen He Xuan! Shi Qingxuan would never chose anyone other than his brother-" man, if choosing He Xuan was one of the options he was given, I honestly do think Shi Qingxuan would've taken it.

Cuz here's the thing: Shi Qingxuan was thoroughly sick of their brothers bs. They wanted to go their own way, they wanted to break out of the house, they wanted to handle their demons on their own, they wanted to choose their own gender expression without getting told to "put that thing away", they disagreed with their brothers actions and what he did to turn them into a god... they wanted to get away from their brother, but they never got the chance to unpack or deal with any of that because both of their lives were constantly being put in danger (so they were kinda distracted).

And I don't even know where to start with how Shi Wudu had been breaking down their self esteem, getting them to second guess all their wants/desires/choices, and pulling the "big brother knows best" card on them for god knows how long. I know it came from a place of love, but it still had to have done something to Shi Qingxuan's brain chemistry

Shi Qingxuan options were never "He Xuan or her Brother," it was "chose to abandon your luck for both your lives, or chose yourself and become a murderer" so ya, of course she's gonna go with the first option because she's not a terrible person. Shi Qingxuan probably would’ve chosen He Xuan (who was her best friend, who'd been going along with her antics for centuries, who remembered which resturant she wanted to go to even after the breakup), but that wasn't a card they put in her hands, and even if it was, its not a real card if she had to kill her brother to get it. At that point, giving up revenge and finding love again wasn't an option He Xuan had even considered yet, and it'd be unreasonable to suggest Shi Qingxuan should've come up with a secret third option off the top of her head given she only knew the full story for like what? A minute before she was forced to make a choice? And even though she tried choosing the option that would hurt the least amount of people, Shi Wudu could not for the life of him respect her choices. Kinda makes me think Shi Qingxuan never really was given any choices to make in the first place 😒

Anyways, I'm choosing to believe at some point, He Xuan realizes this, spends the rest of her life trying to make amends, they get some time being a ghost couple together, and then they eventually find peace and disappear into the afterlife

[loving-jack-kelly]

javid right person wrong time is like. we met and I love you but I need to learn to be my own person before I let that love decide what comes next. we met and I love you and I need you but I can't let myself have you until I know I'm okay enough to handle how much I feel for you. we met and I love you and I know I'll be back someday but it can't be right now because I'm not ready for this.

sprace right person wrong time is like. we met and there has always been something there but I'm not ready to admit it. we met and I will drag myself kicking and screaming and crying away because I can't let myself have this. we met and I love you but not enough to justify what I think staying will do to me. we met and I don't ever want to see you again but I know that when I do I won't be able to stop myself from wanting you.

[aromanticdayout]

so i went on a date today.

[aechlys]

I continue to maintain that 4am is the worst time to be awake, because, as I have said before, I strongly believe that is the time the spirits of entropic time sweep through and flip the page on the calendar to the next day, and if you are awake or about when they do their rounds, the sense of overwhelming existential dread that hits you is horribly suffocating.

Alas, I was being a very good girl and was well asleep when I suddenly woke up and could not go back to sleep. The existential dread crept in, ceaseless, unavoidable. The song that has become the soundtrack to this exact feeling was playing loudly over and over again in my head. It was awful. Finally, I pick up my phone to look at the time- 4:15am. Yes, of course it's 4am. That is when they sweep through. Isn't it?

Even though I was asleep, I guess, for some reason, they decided to look directly at me- for so long, I guess, that it finally woke me up.

I remembered mumbling vaguely out loud something about "if you have this much free time to spend staring at me, why don't you stop that and bring back Sakurai Atsushi instead?" 😂 A bit silly in retrospect (I was half asleep after all), but when they're the spirits of the Calendar and time that degrades, why not ask?

Oddly enough, the horrible, heavily feeling I'd been struggling with for over half an hour while trying to dutifully go back to sleep suddenly lifted. Guess they didn't like a challenge lmao.

4am is a wild time to be alive. When I'm working I often have to get up around this time and it's always awful- the same feeling every time of fear, existential dread, and being watched. 3am? fine. 5am? fine. 4am? The time gods are out, and if you are, too, then heaven help you.

I don't know why I got picked on when I was being a good child and safely asleep in my own bed, but for some reason last night I was. I really wish they would do something more useful instead of all those horrible theatrics- at least reversing the clock for a person or two would actually bring happiness for a change.

[shartfinz]

everytime foundation of decay ends and Gerard yells "get up coward" I go like ah so sorry ma'am! anything for you! and get up

[fragglez]

every time I watch a war related movie and they play the reveille i get spooked i HATE that melody

[sea-buns]

How is it that you can write what is essentially character introspection about emotional manipulation and people automatically read it as you treating the character like a child/a woman "with no agency"? Literally, genuinely, how? Please, I would like to know where the hiccup in my wording was so I can avoid this complete misinterpretation in future posts. I cannot comprehend.

[thornheartfelt]

Mor.din ily, you're so pretty, can I snuggle up against you? It'll help me sleep 🥺

[just-another-wren]

my dreams recently have both ended in an awesome like. music video thing and I'm sad cause I can't figure out how to do them

[reinemichele]

This image but with a breakfast jack from jack in the box

[junkyardromeo]

this is somethin awful to look at

[kenobster]

how does one respond when one's favorite author(s) comments on one's fic, like, how does one construct a comment purely out of drool, tears, and maniacal giggling? asking for a friend. >.>