#thered be nothing of me left

[butchwink]

i hate to do this again but here goes. im an autistic trans woman on disability and i havent had a full time job since covid. i have an eating disorder and mild agoraphobia so i dont eat or go out much. ive been on hormones for like eight years but i still have a cups. im six feet tall and barely weigh anything. going to the food bank takes a lot of spoons and i would much rather be able to afford more groceries or even order something a night or two this month if you could help me out. please help me gain a little weight. reblogs are much appreciated.

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[crimeschild]

the barbie (2023) experience as an afab non binary person is just [reconnecting with your femininity and love for pink bc you couldnt when u were younger bc being too girly will get u made fun of] [feeling guilt bc u dont identify with being a girl but girlhood is so inherently beautiful and magical and no experience is truly like it] [healing the inner child in you by allowing yourself to enjoy dolls and pink and maximalism] [unapologetically letting yourself wear pink and be stereotypically girly in a society where being non binary means you have to be presenting androgynous 24/7] [getting your grown-up heart shattered and then put back together again by your inner child using sparkly glue over and over in the span of two hours] [realizing that no matter what you do you have somewhat experienced girlhood and it shaped you to be the person you are today and you will never get to erase that experience or truly disconnect yourself from it] [appreciating and understanding your mother in a way that you thought wasnt possible without experiecing motherhood]

[quartzitess]

They're still there. They're in there. They're in they're body but yet they're so far gone. the infections like a parasite and yet two was trying to fight it, they were scared and they wanted gaty. Not just to protect her but to feel the person that they felt close and comfortable around, and to take them both to the couch, they could've went for anyone. But they went for GATY. they could've killed her but they didn't. There's something so strangely endearing about that. Truly. Even when they're voice is being used to lure gaty in a sense I feel two geniunely wanted to help, they're so far gone, the little details, not just with how they move but with how they SPEAK. they're practically the host for a parasite and yet. They're still there.

[intotheelliwoods]

I am stuck between two options... I cant decide...

[autisticaradiamegido]

day 99

i have NEARLY finished the skirt for my ren faire fit i just gotta get a few finishing details added and also get the undershirt bleached (bc i got a bunch of makeup on it at last years fair and shit Stained) but THEN i can show yall the final fit!!

[ganondoodle]

so with echoes of wisdom .. i havent watched any of the trailers beyond the very first one and the thumbnails/screenshots and what others have said about it-

but with the world inside the rift being called "Welt des Nichts" aka "world of nothing/void" in german ('still' in english, for some reason) and demises title in french being "avatar of nothing" ... yeah my anxiety is shooting through the roof again

(hopefully you can be a little more forgiving for me being anxious/weird about it bc demise is my blorbo)

i had similar worries with totk, that werent proven true thankfully, but the darn book is making it all worse again with all those weird lore things the game doesnt even so much as hint at AND potential retcons- im in for a really rough time huh, not just stress in real life (more in tags.. its alot) but now about my specific hyperfixation from two things even (AND artblock still..)

weird as it may sound, i dont want demise to get more lore, partly bc i dont believe theyd do anything with him that i would like (given their track record) but much more importantly- the fact that he has this little lore about him is precisely one of the reasons why i fell in love with him, i tend to like characters that are neglected by the narrative, and his story being both so flat and already done meant i can be very creative with what i come up with for him without necessarily contradicting anything in canon (which is ... or was a big point of how i wrote destiny's story and lore, working with canon in a way that reframes it all without straight up ignoring it ... but i suppose i urgently need to let go of that and accept i spend alot of time working things that will go to waste :( ) AND not having to worry that there will be more stuff with him that would massively change not only what im writing but also potentially how i feel about him since the game he was briefly in was the oldest chronologically and ended with his death- i didnt expect them to mess with anything that far back and thought theyd just go forward and leave the timeline behind and wouldnt mess with it again, given how botw seemed to be a sort of 'fresh start' that seemingly regarded the past as the past that needs to rest and that the timeline was finally no longer a discussion if everythings unified through botw and one thing going forward

but i suppose i was very wrong with that .__.

right now the only thing that motivates me still is the left over determination and spite to work on my zelda comic, since i have never gotten this far and really want to get something done for once, but i cant lie that im feeling like i should pause all work on it too to wait and see waht the book and the new game will do .. either to determine if i still have the will to keep working on it after those things are out (my love for tloz has been taking alot of hits lately ..) or if i have to change stuff (mostly bc of my lore problem trying to not ignore it ..)

[boo-gutzz]

Lots of ranting here lately ik but I've been thinking about limited life Scott so much. There's something about his almost desperation for Jimmy to love him again that gets me

[bonebabbles]

I keep starting and abandoning posts that go into my drafts, as I try to stay tasteful about how fucking revolted this part makes me. Like, I'm legitimately unsure if the very relevant trauma I have is making me see things that aren't here

But first we see that Star Flower is trying to ingratiate herself to the group, just after she reappears from chapter 5. Chapter 5 is about how Clear Sky is still abusive towards his son, and she comes in after stroking his ego, stressing how alone she is, and appealing to how she'll be loyal unlike his child. (She glances over at Thunder, directly implying this.)

Now in Chapter 9, she's babysitting and trying to care for Milkweed's kits (in spite of discomfort from Milkweed), taking a wet sleeping space away from the others, and pulling more than her own weight "without complaint." Putting herself through harsh sitations to prove her worth.

All while trying to appear extra attractive to Thunder, and later Clear Sky. Basically every man in power who can "protect her"

Like, am I going fucking crazy? With how we later find out that Star Flower was "promised as a mate" to One Eye's subordinate Slash, is... is that hypersexualization? One of the extremely stigmatized symptoms of sexual abuse?

She goes to find Clear Sky alone to throw herself at his paws, and he's very quickly attracted to how she promises to perfectly obey him, have no needs of her own, and finally be the perfect servant that he desires

"I don't deserve your trust because I am dirt. I understand you because I also regret something. I'd die for you. I'll never betray you unlike those who have."

This isn't manipulation. She means this. The story is playing their romance sincerely. She's comparing "betraying" Thunder by telling her own father about an assassination ambush to Clear Sky's history of child abuse, physical assault, and murder

She believes she's on the same level as this; a monster who murdered a childhood friend in a fit of entitled rage. She was a victim of One Eye who really believes that the way her father used her means she "understands" this monster, deserves this treatment.

And Clear Sky LIKES that.

He likes that she will have COMPLETE FAITH in him. That she will follow him WITHOUT QUESTION. That she will OBEY his orders. That's fucking verbatim, that's THE TEXT!!!

WHILE HE'S STILL CRYING ABOUT "ive tried to atone every day" FOLLOWING THE LAST TWO BOOKS WHERE THE ONLY SHITTY THING HE DOESN'T DO IS MURDER INNOCENT WOMEN

Am I insane?? Am I wrong??? Am I missing something here???? Why the fuck is the fandom takeaway "haha sexy girl steals his dad." Did I read the same book

[inzombniia]

COUNTLESS.

RAHH FANART 4 @spoiledmilks AU THAT I LUV

[elcucurucho]

the thing about cellbit and roier’s relationship that’s so compelling to me is that they’re both in the process of isolating themselves, roier out of grief and cellbit because of the game he’s playing with the federation. and yet!!! they’ve still gone out of their way to connect with each other and try to provide support! there’s something in there that’s getting it’s claws into my head, like, “I don’t know the details of what’s going on with you right now but I care about you and I want to make sure you’re okay.” something about how they’re both in their own separate downward spirals but they want to help each other regardless of their own baggage!! I feel like I’m going insane!!!

[skunkes]

[randomapplekey]

I was working on Hermitcraft animatic but then saw an animatic of The Amazing Digital Circus, which inspired me to make a Hazbin Hotel animatic.

(I told my friend imma make a quick stickman animatic just so I can show them my idea)

[thirdtimed]

its so crazy how 3L is literally not that serious. but It Can Be. if you use your beautiful mind

[poopystain]

Death is coming. Death is coming. Death is coming

WHAT THE FUCK im still getting notifications. im still getting notifications

[ywpd-translations]

Ride 744: The last 800m!!

Pag 1

1: “Retirement..... race”....!!

2: That's right..... for those who are already third years this Inter High.... the club activities....

3: This race at this training camp....

4: So, Danchiku, I won't give up....

5: I'll beat you and become the sixth member!!

Pag 2

1: The sixth member!!

Pag 3

1: Sugimoto-san!!

3: There's 800m left!! He jumped forward in a downhill curve plunged into darkness!!

4: Even though we have the lights on

5: I can barely see anything!!

Isn't this guy scared!?

Pag 4

1: Is this resolution his strength!?

Pag 5

2: Sugimoto-san is attacking on the inside of the right side, with so little space!!

3: Ah

5: Kuaaaaa

6: ….. no

Pag 6

1: Even more on the inside, he's taking the curve running on the curb!!

2: If he slides even 1cm, he'll hit the grass, and if he falls this race is over.... and yet

Pag 7

1: There's 1km left until the finish line, and he's willing to attack so dangerously in such an important moment!!

2: Right now there's a 3m.... no, a 5m distance!!

Pag 8

1: He counterattacked and now he's heading straight for the final curve like that!!

Pag 9

1: Sis this what they mean

2: when they say “bloodcurdling”!?

3: Kuaaaaa

Pag 10

1: He's running and moving forward on the curb again!!

Pag 11

1: Kuaaaa

3: His rear-wheel slipped!!

Pag 12

1: But he's still pushing forward!!

Kuaaaaaaa

Pag 13

1: This guy... he's the real deal!!

2: He opened a 1m gap again!!

3: Incredible..... Sugimoto-san

4: You've gotten so strong you're making me shake!!

5: I'm racing against such a strong opponent?

Really.....

Pag 14

1: Really!?

3: Really!?

Pag 15

1: Alright, nice, I have no complaints about my opponent!!

2: 300m left!!

4: “I'll become the sixth member”?

I'm sorry but....

5: I'll become it!!

Bamboo....

Pag 16

1: Panda Shout X Hop Shot!!

I have no intention of giving up either!!

Pag 17

2: I see it!! Their lights

3: One of the lights went out for a moment so I thought they had fallen, on!!

4: They're going to settle this

I can feel their tension!!

5: Yes!!

6: Who of them will be worthy of becoming a team member for the Inter High!?

Pag 18

1: 200m left!!

Sugimoto is in the lead!! Danchiku is chasing!!

3: Another ten seconds and it'll be settled!!

Pag 20

2: Issa

Can you see it, Issa?

3: I'm sorry for having been so hesitant

4: There's something I finally realised these days

[helloanthy]

Hello friend! I hope one day you get this 🩷 I am sending all my love to you. You are so brave and I'm proud of you! I hope the world treats you kindly. I took a hiatus from tumblr and only just now realized you left, I wouldn't have said anything different than I have now if I'd known before but I will miss you! You are amazing, can't wait to see you again. Thrive, my little bird! You've done great 🩷

i'm trying not to tear up. my heart is embarrassingly soft these days. i knew before that revolution has never come without great hardships. though of course, knowing is different from doing some days, the moments between sleep are only stitched together by lengths of crying. other days, i wander incessantly in an attempt to escape both my self and my dreams but it is by the love of my friends and the kindness of people like you that carries me through. it is so easy to drown in this world, i need to hold on to what little i can kindness doesn't have to hurt, i've only been convinced it does. i'm trying to learn that love can save me, if i let it. lately, i feel like it is all that i really have i wonder if anyone will ever know how much it means to me. i wonder if you'll think me odd if you do. but another thing i am trying to learn: there is nothing shameful in trying to live so from one friendly stranger to another, i send my love to you too. i hope it reaches you ! sincerely, thank you