#they were cool lesbians and bi girls living their life in a fantasy world and then they fell in love

[outofmymindbebacklater]

i love all the happy gay shows that are coming out (pun intended) recently, but when are we gonna get lesbians? and not as side characters to the gay shows?

I want middle aged women just living their best life and falling in love in some fantasy show about pirates or dragons or sth

[aroaessidhe]

Hello beaujester fans I made a little list of f/f book recs for no reason other than i love beaujes and i love sapphic books

(the last two are bonus vexleth + some of my general fave f/f books by authors of colour)

more info and transcript below the cut;

these are a range of genres & are based on various tropes & things that might appeal to beaujes/ cr fans!

pls don't treat them like beaujes fanfic or anything, they're all great books on their own!!!

check goodreads reviews for trigger warnings if you might need them :)

oh also! if you have a library card, download the libby app! you can borrow ebooks for free!

transcript:

The Never Tilting World by Rin Chupeco 

cool fantasy world split into day & night, with asian characters & author

bodyguard + princess who’s lived in a tower her whole life

they met in a bookstore & one loves silly romance novels

(& there’s a m/f pair too)

a duology, complete

The Mermaid, The Witch & The Sea by Maggie Tokuda-Hall

this is actually f/nb (one MC is genderfluid)

a rich sheltered girl travelling to meet a husband she’s never met gets taken by pirates, and one of them helps her escape

fairytale-like, pirates, mermaids, & magic!

Labyrinth Lost by Zoraida Cordova

a girl who accidentally sent her family to a kind of Latinx fairyland must travel to get them back

best friends to lovers!

a bi love triangle

(start of a trilogy based around 3 bruja sisters)

We Set The Dark On Fire by Tehlor Kay Mejia

two girls (forced to be) married to

the same man in a Latinx dystopian fantasy world fall in love with each other

& become involved in the revolution

friends to rivals to friends to lovers!

a duology, complete

The Falling In Love Montage by Ciara Smyth

grumpy + sunshine girl ya contemporary romance

girl who doesn’t believe in romance or happy endings meets a girl who

loves romcoms & they plan to date

just for the summer

their dynamic reminds me a lot of bj tbh

The Last True Poets of the Sea by Julia Drake

sapphic retelling of Twelfth Night

shipwreck hunting & family mysteries

honestly i’m partly putting this here just bc there’s a chapter called ‘sapphire of the sea’

Under The Lights by Dahlia Adler

lesbian korean-american actress in a new teen tv show falls for her bi coworker

(dual pov w a straight guy who’s kinda a dick but they end up friends in the end)

The Weight of The Stars by K. Ancrum

two girls bonding over their love of space

scrappy teens in a small town

found family

rivals to friends to lovers

The Scorpion Rules by Erin Bow

dystopian future ruled by an AI by keeping children of world leaders as ‘hostages’ in isolated schools

slow burn best friends to lovers And oh my god they were roommates....

(there’s a love triangle w a boy but she ends up with the girl)

Crier’s War by Nina Varela

fantasy world where automae rule over humans

human rebel / sheltered automae princess

lots of yearning, enemies to lovers

a duology, complete

A Memory Called Empire by Arkady Martine

adult sci-fi with an ambassador from a small station travelling to the empire

interesting alien cultures, court intrigue, politics (if u like that side of CR)

slow burn allies to friends to lovers

Honey Girl by Morgan Rogers

new adult contemporary novel where two women get drunk married in vegas

smart girl + creative girl

queer found family

coming of age & dealing with family expectations

[i have not read this one yet!]

BONUS: VEXLETH

Ash & Huntress by Malinda Lo

two seperate books set in a chinese inpisred fantasy world

a cinderella retelling where she ends up with the huntress instead of the mysterious fae man

and two women on a quest to save the world from a fairy queen freezing it

Of Fire And Stars by Audrey Coulthurst

a princess goes to another kingdom to marry a prince, but falls for his horseriding sister instead

one has fire magic, the other loves animals (their hair colours are swapped from vexleth too 😂)

magic, fantasy world, dragons

a duology, complete (with a prequel too)

Breaking Legacies by Zoe Reed

a huntress gets tasked with finding runaway princess but falls for her instead

dragons, wolves, magic & found family

[I have not read this one yet]

These Feathered Flames by Alexandra Overy

awkward redhaired lesbian who can turn into a giant flaming monster bird

& a swordfighting dark haired palace guard

sister relationships & politics

MC has a pet bear that she rides...

[have not read this one, I don’t think it’s out quite yet]

BONUS: some fave f/f books by authors of colour because half of the above are by white authors

Girl, Serpent, Thorn by Melissa Bashardoust (ya persin fairytale fantasy)

The Space Between Worlds by Micaiah Johnson (adult sci-fi)

Girls of Paper and Fire by Natasha Ngan (YA asian high fantasy trilogy)

Each of us a Desert by Mark Oshiro (YA latinx fantasy)

Cinderella Is Dead by Kalynn Bayron

Tell Me How You Really Feel by Aaminah Mae Safi (YA contemporary romance) You Should See Me In A Crown by Leah Johnson (YA contemporary romance)

The Henna Wars by Adiba Jaigirdar (YA contemporary romance)

Not Your Sidekick by C.B. Lee (YA contemporary/superhero/dystopia)

In The Vanisher’s Palace by Aliette de Bodard (adult beauty & the beast retelling w a dragon)

[thoughtfulfangirling]

I keep seeing these posts going around about queer books, but my problem is that nowadays, I struggle to sit down with books and primarily consume them via audibooks. A lot of the recs are ones I haven’t found in audiobook format using my usual routes. For this reason, let me start a post that I hope y’all will add onto that has LGBTQ+ folks in them that I know exist in audiobook format. For reference, I’ve used for my audiobook consumption Audible, Libro, Overdrive, and Scribd, so each of these will have been found by myself in one of those places.

Nemesis Series by April Daniels trans wlw MC | Superhero | coming of age | YA The First book is Dreadnought followed by Sovereign and follows Danny, a trans girl whose body is transformed to the one that matches her vision of herself after a superhero falls and passes his powers on to her. All at once, she has to face the coming out this forces on her and new powers all at once. The books are intense and doesn’t pull its punches on the things Danny goes through, but her journey is beautiful and I love her so much.

Beauty Queens by Libba Bray  Various MCs | Drama | Humor | YA This is an ensemble cast and includes a wlw couple and a trans girl, all of whom are pretty damn cool. On their flight to their next competition, the plane these beauty queens are on crashes, and those who survive get stranded on a totally-supposedly-deserted island. This is a fun novel that had, to me, a very Hitchhiker’s Guide sort of humor to it. It was a really fun read, and the author narrates herself and is really fun.

Annie on my Mind by Nancy Garden wlw mc | contemporary | coming of age | YA The good kid becomes good friends with a girl she met outside of school, but she begins to realize she has more than just friendly feelings for the girl. Being in the 90s, she finds it’s not so easy to be the good kid and pursue this interest.

Her Royal Highness by Rachel Hawkins bi MC | Contemporary | Romance | Class Romance | YA MC leaves Texas, USA to finish her last year of high school in a prestigious Scottish school where she ends up being roommates with an actual princess with whom she doesn’t start the year out on good terms with.  

Ash by Malinda Lo wlw MC | Fantasy | Coming of Age | YA Cinderella retelling where the fairies aren’t guaranteed to help and the prince just might not be who Cinderella wants after all. A very internal journey, quite enchanting. I really need to go back and revisit this soon.

Juliet Takes a Breath by Gabby Rivera Lesbian MC | Coming of Age | YA Juliet leaves home for the summer to spend in Oregon with a writer who inspired Juliet’s journey into feminism and helped her embrace her lesbianism. She learns along the way though that adults are not infallible, and that this writer has a large blind spot when it comes to Juliet’s culture and the intersection of race and feminism. All this after having come out to her family and dealing with the fallout of that far from home.

Carry On by Rainbow Rowell mlm MC | Fantasy | Romance | YA This story feels like a sort of ‘What if the Harry Potter books were more inclusive and also had some parody in its magical world’ story. But it jumps right to the last book and the good stuff. This felt like fanfiction in the best way (and is appropriate given that it was written after the book Fangirl wherein the MC is writing fanfiction of this universe kinda. It’s complicated but good!)

Kushiel Phedre Series by Jacqueline Carey bi MC | Fantasy | Epic Fantasy | Kink | Political Intrique A woman born with a flaw that set her on the path of being indentured as a child to a man who sees love and sex as another means to gather political intel. Down this road lies intrigue, betrayal, and love.  

Nevernight Chronicles by Jay Kristoff bi MC | Fantasy | Revenge  Worth mentioning is that the author does not ID as any kind of LGBTQIA+ and in my opinion, that especially shows in the last installment of the series. I would suggest trigger warnings for the entire series if you have any as there is sex and violence. In a world with three suns and almost never night, a girl with a kinship for shadows seeks out the skills to kill those who destroyed her family.

Her Body and Other Parties by Maria Carmen Machado Various | Short Stories | Surreal | Contemporary   Don’t know how to summarize well given they are a series of short stories, but they are haunting and telling and beautiful, and even though I rarely do short stories, I absolutely fell in love with these.

The Night’s Watch by Sarah Waters Various | Ensemble Cast | Period Drama English WWII  Unfortunately, I read this in 2017 and it follows the stories of four different characters, two of whom are lesbians. I don’t remember their archs well enough to provide a proper summary. This story tends to be a more internal character study of each of the characters and what it might have been like living at the time they did. It was really good though if you like that sort of thing! 

Tipping the Velvet by Sarah Waters Lesbian MC | Period Drama | Romance | Coming of Age Taking place in the Victorian era, Nan leaves her coastal, oyster fishing home after becoming infatuated with Kitty, performer who sings dressed as a man. She discovers herself in the big city as she works as Kitty’s attendant, but nothing ever stays the same, and when she finds her and Kitty’s desires on how to handle their feelings differ errevocably, Nan is suddenly left adrift.

The above are all focused in one way or another on the LGBTQ+ character in a prominent way where the character’s queerness is made explicit in the text. Below is going to be the audiobooks I’ve read/listened to where I have felt there is strong evidence that a character is portrayed as LGBT+. Some will have been made canon by the author after the fact, others have been widely regarded as portrayed that way, and a couple are just how I interpreted them.

Trouble with Kings by Sherwood Smith Fantasy | Romance | Slow Burn | YA A princess of fortune who has been courted for her wealth all her life, Flian is quite done with dalliance. But that doesn’t mean others are done with her. Caught in the middle of a political intrigue between two... maybe three... possibly four??? rivaling kingdoms, she finds her wealth pursued in less than ethical manners and ends up a player herself on the field of political import. Is it even possible in the chaos of all this to find love along the way? Flian herself repeatedly shows no interest in romance and while able to remark upon attraction, never seems to have any herself until she realizes she has fallen for someone, someone she realizes a bit late she’s had a coming together of the minds for. For this reason, my personal interpretation of this character is demi-sexual. 

The Protector of the Small Series by Tamora Pierce Fantasy | Coming of Age | YA  Keladry of Mindelan wants to become the second lady knight in history. The trainer at the castle doesn’t believe girls are cut out for it, and the boys don’t seem the most ready for a lady knight in training either. But Kel is determined to make her place in the world. Throughout the course of the series, while she engages in some light dalliances, she finds herself disinterested in relationships and has been confirmed by the author since the series was published to be asexual. 

The Deed of Paksenarrion by Elizabeth Moon Fantasy | D&D-esque | Epic Fantasy | Coming of Age  Paksennarrion, a sheep farmer’s daughter, rebels against her father upon hearing of the engagement he made for her and runs away to a local contract militia company to start her career as a warrior. Strength and strategy aren’t the only things she’ll need on this life’s path, but also a faith she didn’t know she was capable of. I don’t know that the author has ever said anything on the matter, but in most circles you will find that Paks is generally regarded as aro/ace and is pretty explicitly stated several times throughout the series that she simply has never had the compulsion. 

A Beautiful Poison by Lydia Kang Period Drama/Mystery (early 1900s) | Coming of Age | Mystery Three people on the cusp of adulthood, with a complicated history of friendship from different stations in life, come together to try to unravel the mystery of strange deaths happening around them while trying to navigate what shapes the rest of their lives will take. Of the two man lady characters, one repeatedly struck me as bisexual, and the other as asexual. This is one where I’m brining my own lens to the story, and I don’t know that the author did this with intent.

There’s a fair chance that I am forgetting some audiobooks and haven’t included all I’ve read. I would also say that anything not marked with a YA may have want of some trigger warnings. If someone wants to know, just let me know which warnings you have need of and I’ll try to do my best to remember if that content is included in the book. I of course cannot remember everything and don’t know everyone’s limits, but I can try. But for certain the non young adult stories have content that can be heavy or dark or twisted. 

[kravchikfreak]

you know how bisexuals are attracted to the opposite sex as well as to the same sex, right? it's like being heterosexual and homosexual at the same time, right? so we can just divide sexualities into only hetero/homo and then bisexuals can relate to both of them, right? cause they're both of them at the same time!

or even better, when we want straight characters getting into same-sex relationships we just say they're bi, so now it's legal. thank god bisexuality exists

like, i can remember so few good bi characters just from the top of my head. i'd say it's clementine (the walking dead game), max caulfield (life is strange) and sean diaz (life is strange 2). yeah, playable characters in video games, where players are left with the choice of how to act on their bisexuality. [and zervan from dragon age, i think he's bi too, not playable, but from a video game as well]. and dex parios (stumptown), i haven't read the comics, but in the show she's great

i wanna say korra and asami (from the legend of korra), but i'm not sure since i've read once that they were supposed to be canon since the beginning but consider homophobia those days and all it didn't happen. how cool would it be if they were supposed to be two lesbians, but it was illegal so the creators were decided "okay, let's throw them in some het-relationships for now and then we'll just say they're bi". so i'll put them in the bi list but with a pencil for now

i would say rosa diaz (brooklyn nine-nine), and she really was my bi-icon for a bit. but then they decided it'd be fun to make her have two relationships at once without these people knowing about each other... which is fine in general, but nice acting on the stereotype about bisexuals (not to mention it felt totally out of her character, since she hadn't done that much dating earlier and now two at the same time?) (and i have the feeling that since she came out she's been into women exclusively, which is, again, fine on its own, but when there's this whole "making straight characters bi so they can be gay"-tendency in the media it's annoying)

and i was really happy watching runaways and seeing nico being bi and deanoru being canon (i've shipped them like from the scene in the bathroom). and then i've found out there are comics and i've read it, and in the comics nico isn't into karolina and straight. i'm still in love with deanoru in the show and happy nico is bi there, but do you see what i mean?

or, you know, casey and izzie from atypical. i'm a super big fun of them, yeah, but still, we had like a perfect het-couple (i mean, they were so cute, and great, and supportive and not toxic and all, piece of gold casey and evan) and then boom, casey is bi and in the same-sex relationship, with another bi girl with the similar situation (except for nate being a piece of shit, so not much complains on this side)

and i also want to say mazikeen from lucifer, but see, the similar case as all previous (still ship her with eve, obviously, doesn't mean it's not annoying)

i'll give all credits tho to jack harkness and river song (doctor who), they're amazing

oh, and almost forgot, laila (the bisexual). thank god this show existed, it's so great. like, she and dex parious are just... thank god

not to say we don't really have that many canonical bi-men (i know some exist, but i don't watch shows just because there are might be bisexuals in them, so i don't have anything to say about those men, but i make a guess it's not that good either)

so overall until i get some good canonical bisexuals i'll be making them myself and living in the world of my fantasies where you can be bisexual just because you're and not for some plot reason

and yes, i do this with canonically gay-males too. like william clayton (arrow) and tk strand (9-1-1: the lone star). with both of them there was a moment when i thought "what a nice bisexual we have here" and like 5-10 minutes later they said "i'm gay" and i thought "nice, don't care" cause you know for the whole 5-10 minutes they were bisexuals to me, i've attached, it's not like my thinking is going to change their canonical orientation, right? it's not like me strongly thinking about them as bi's going to do anything other than keep me sane [and i don't know if tj (andi mack) was confirmed as gay or will be at some point, i'm still going to see him as bi too]

so forgive me for attaching to the idea of amaya being bi, which i've had not for 5-10 minutes but for a year now

[kellinquinnaf]

A bi girls story

As a teenybopper I remember fantasizing about boys and coming up with senarios in my head. One day it was randomly a girl in my thoughts.

In summer 2015 I kissed a girl “A” (my bestfriend at the time) idk why part of me just really wanted to and she kissed me back, a boy saw (an ex it’s a small town) and was SHOCKED but we played it off. Later the “A” and I are home alone and I totally kissed her, pushed her up against the wall and everything. She was my first make out too. Throughout the summer we would have sleepovers and make out and it got as far as being shirtless and grinding (and I came wtf??) The whole time we would ask eachother if we’re straight or not and I was so like mind boggled that I was like “im straight, and we’re just friends who kiss” looking back now we were totally girlfriends that summer.

After that summer I was at a sleep over (in the city now) with my straight best friend “B” (100%) and another girl “S” and we were all friends. For some reason we started giving eachother hickeys and my straight bff “B” thought it was hilarious but I was like so into giving “S” hickeys that after I got sooooo nervous. We were all laying in her big bed together and my bff “B” fell asleep and I was so nervous that I kept shaking uncontrollably and she kept asking why. We were cuddling and so close and I can’t remember what I said but I think I told her I wanted to kiss her and we did and it’s was so amazing. Then weeks later we all had another sleep over and I was more confident this time and I kissed her and she kissed me back but out of no where ��S” got up and was all nervous and I was sad that it ended but scared that she was not happy about something. After that she moved schools and I heard from my bff “B” that she felt really awkward about it all. Then she’d start posting about her “gf” (it was supposed to be platonic to the rest of the world) but as she posted pics or vids of them kissing I knew it was real for one of them at least.

In grade 11 a new girl came into the school, she was short and had the best but ever.. I couldn’t help but look. We ended up snapping and FaceTiming a few times and she wanted me to sleep over and she talked about us doing shit. She had a boyfriend at the time and he said he was ok with her experimenting. I was so excited to go over, and she started snapping me her in the bath and then her tits but she started snapping me just her vagina and I was not ready for that. The sleepover never happened :/. Yearssss later I’m in the city at the club and she’s there. I dance with her can call her hot and she says something like it’s been a while. We part ways.

I had a few boyfriends / flings in between then and finally made out with some boys and it was all really amazing too! The next summer I didn’t want to go back to the small town cause I had met this guy “D”! But I went back anyways.

I got a boyfriend in this town in summer 2016 and we told eachother we loved one another a few weeks into dating. During this summer I had a little fling with a girl “J” who at the same time was dating my ex-crush of 3 years who his letter is “V”. We tried kissing in front of both our boys they were just like wtf ok.

My boyfriend and I went long distance for a year while I went back to the city for school. During this time I went to a party with a bunch of people from my grade and idk why but I started talking to this girl “H” and straight up asked her (while drunk) if she ever thought about being with girls and she admitted yes and I kissed her. People saw and she got awkward about it. Another friend who saw got awkward around me after too. Another friend knew I’ve kissed other girls and I told her I was thinking about this party girl “H” and she told me that “H” felt weird about it after it happened. I let it go. During this time I also kissed a boy “J” at a party. And more girls at a different party (including my straight best friend “B” while she was drunk. I convinced her to kiss me I just wanted to see how she kissed lol). When prom came boy “J” had a girlfriend and we saw eachother at prom with our dates (“J” knew at the time that I had a boyfriend when I kissed him at the party) he just said hey Sam and looked at me with side eye but flirtation??? I said hey back .. my boyfriend knew that was the guy.

Fast forward a year and I moved in with my boyfriend in the small town. We were completely in love until we moved in together. Things get hard when you graduate high school and move 15 hours away with your boyfriend the day after. I cheated on him with a man “K” a year later and again 6 months after that, with “D” from years after he and I were a thing.

During the second time I was back in the city at the club dancing with the cheat “D” and my bffs sister “K” (guy “D” had a huge crush on girl “K” for the longest time). I’m between them both, my front grinding this girls ass and my ass grinding on this guy. This is the moment I felt true complete bliss and I knew then in that exact moment that I was bisexual. I then admitted it to my bestfriend “B” days later, the first person I told out loud and she said “I’ve known that since girl “S” in grade 10” (at this point we’re on our second year out of high school) Guess I must be obvious.

This guy “D” though he accepted my bisexuality in the moment and made me feel empowered and turned on by it. He was turned on by it. It just felt so good to be with someone so open. Actually I had another boy “C” who felt the same and it felt so good to me for them to enjoy me just being bisexual me. (Funny story this boy “C” dated the girl I had kissed in the sleepovers “S” and so I told him about how we kissed the same girl and he was so horny over it ahhh!)

Bring us to one month ago and (6months after that last cheat with “D”) and I go to another party in the small town now. I’m fucking plastered but I somehow scavenge out the lesbian from the pack of girls who is “M” 😍. We start talking and I guess I’m totally attracted to her. I think I kissed her without her wanting it at first. I kissed her a lot that night. Everyone saw too. We walked home with everyone and I held her hand the whole way. We added eachother on snap.

I told my boyfriend long ago that I’m bisexual and he told me I’m not. I tell him again and he says we could have a three sum. After kissing “M” I got weird cause he considers it cheating and I felt horrible for doing it again. I told him and my boyfriend said “I’m sorry but Im not into that. I know some guys are but I’m not” I told him my fantasy of having us be in a three way relationships with a girl. He could have two girls to fuck and I could have the best of Both worlds. He could get us both pregnant and our kids would be siblings. He was not intrigued by this idea at all.

“M” and I want to hang out but now I feel like I can’t hang out with her cause I know I won’t be able to control myself. She came into my work the other day for a dental appointment. She walks in wearing all black, her blonde hair shimmering in the light contrasting to the black. She has a big leather jacket and a helmet in hand, wearing big black boots. Her colourful tattoos showing on her arms making her look so tough but artistic. We get to chatting as I show her to her exam room. She forgot that I worked there and I commented on the fact that she rides a motorcycle. A Honda 500 (can’t remember the model) - I tell her I’ve always wanted to ride but my parents never let me. I’m leaning on the counter trying to look chill and cool. She said riding a bike is the gayest thing to do (I thought she meant like “gay insult” but she meant “gay homosexual”). I bet the whole office could hear the flirtation and I only hope that they think it’s just banter. She’s getting ready to leave now so I pretend to busy myself with paper work at the front so I can watch her leave. As she’s leaving I walk to the back and turn over my sholder, us making eye contact and waving to eachother. I watch her ride her motorcycle with one hand after saying she just started riding and is getting used to it. She looked like a dream.

I snap her the next day asking how the work day is since I of course work days and she works nights. She replys with something calling me cutie and sending heart eye emojis. We flirt a bit more and she says she wants to hangout soon since she’s leaving for college again. I leave for vacation so I tell her aug 25th and 26th I’m back and can hang out. She said she leaves the 27th but can chill the 26th. I ask her what she wants to do (idk if she knows I have a boyfriend but I have to tell her). She says “I don’t think we’ll be bored😉”

Now I’m day dreaming about her and I have a boyfriend. I don’t know what I should do but I now know that the term “once a cheater always a cheater” is true. I know my desires will win. But can you really blame a Gemini; we are so torn between being two people and leading two different lives that we are greedy and take as much as we can of everything.

I also have a crush on my boss, a smart, intelligent, artistic and wholesome girl dentist, who is also a Gemini and born a decade and two days before me. This life is a struggle.

—

I’ve been thinking lately of talking to a therapist. My life is fucked up. I’m so torn between where I am and where I want to be. I don’t even know where I want to be .. I thought right where I am was it but I’m not so sure. I want to leave this town and go back to the city and go to school but I’m living the life I wanted here. I just don’t want this settled down family life just yet. I’m dental assisting without having gone to school for it so I feel like I can’t be proud of what I do. I’m a dance instructor with someone I can’t even handle anymore because of their greed and want to have my own control over it. I’m torn between wanting to be in a relationship and wanting to be single. Between wanting to be with a boy and with a girl. I miss my family but I moved here to get away from that toxic household (not toxic when not living with the parents). I have not been officially diagnose but I know I have OCD and trichotilomania (a disorder causing you to involuntary pull out your body hair). I only pulled my eyelashes but when I tried to stop I just started picking my skin and now I have the worst acne and scaring. I need help. My house is either spotless or a complete disaster. also I’m in the closet for most of everything and I’m nervous to what my family and coworkers will think/feel. Everyone else idgaf but when you’re so close and personal and you come out it shocks people and then the women don’t want to get to close to you in fear that you’re attracted to them. And the parents would be ok with it but they’d just be shocked.

I’m gunna ask the girl to hang out tonight and we’ll probably make out. Hopefully we fuck.

#horrible person

[dykeabetic]

gail's ocs :^)

a masterpost of my ocs because im on mobile and my oc page is outdated

cain ornigana

aka cain gilmore

there r so many cains because i use them as an insert LMAO so this will be generic info that fits most of them.

agender (they and sometimes he pronouns)

bi and mlm

mixed cuban/brazilian/white

most cains are in their mid-late 20s/early-mid 30s. there is one version of them (the original, actually) who is 18.

has anxiety, adhd, depression and insomnia, along with type one diabetes because i give them everything i have

very kind and passionate! often very emotional. loves their friends so damn much.

#cain ornigana; #cain gilmore; #runner 5; #courier six

aerial whitton

there are like.... 3 versions of her rn lol!

cis girl (she pronouns)

bi

mixed black/samoan

around the same age as cain..... the original is 17.

autistic

super sweet and full of life! also really loves her friends. literally wants nothing more than for the people she loves to be happy! :^D

#aerial whitton; #lone wanderer

keira lowenfall ornigana

technically not my oc, she actually belongs to amanda, @kid-icarus-uprising-addict, but i stole her so shes mine now. originally amanda's d&d character. she and cain are a package so if cain exists in a world, keira's probably there too

also keira lowenfall gilmore, keira whitton ornigana, etc. she always has a lot of names.

girl, probably (she pronouns)

doesnt know what her orientation is, doesnt care. shes too young and has more fun things to care about

8 - 13 years old depending on the source.

in d&d, she is the run-away child of some nobles, and was adopted by cain and their husband. in my original works, she is cain and aerial's daughter. she is very excitable and hyper, always moving, very sweet but also very blunt!

#keira lowenfall gilmore; #keira ornigana

quinn marton

trans girl (she pronouns)

lesbian

black

18

literally so wise, very kind and gentle and always gives good advice. wants to make the world a better place.

#quinn marton

autumn primrose alvarez

cis woman (she pronouns)

bi

mixed white/peruvian

in her 30s

very kind but takes no shit. a very loving but will throw hands if youre not careful! would kill for her friends and family

#autumn primrose

yivian schmidtz

not cis (they/she pronouns)

queer/gay (doesnt know if shes into dudes or not. she might be!)

white

19

adhd and type 1 diabetes

loves to party and have fun. very nice. good to rant to, very ride-or-die. loves to make friends!

#yivian schmidtz

hira karki

cis woman (she pronouns)

lesbian

nepali-american

20

amputee; has a prosthetic arm

i just made her so im still making her personality! shes yiv's gf though

riley winters

a final fantasy vii fan oc; i have an original story for her too though

trans woman (she pronouns)

lesbian

mixed filipino/white

in her 30s

has adhd and cystic fibrosis

literally the physical embodiment of stereotypical adhd --- very energetic and excited and passionate! a joy to be around and talk to.

#riley winters

ahn "stella" duong

transfem and nonbinary (they pronouns)

lesbian

vietnamese-american

in her 30s

disabled and in a wheel chair

very fun to be around, nice and has a great sense of humor! loves their friends, loves to give hugs

#stella duong

april adams

nonbinary (she/they pronouns)

lesbian

white

15

adhd and probably other undiagnosed things

april is the angriest fifteen year old that you will ever meet. she's like those mean goth girls from like 80s movies. if you gain her trust and love she will kill for you. as of now the only person she loves is my brother's oc june, her girlfriend! can see ghosts, and is easily possessed

#april adams

june rosewood

like i said, june is my brother's oc! but im putting her here just because

trans girl (she pronouns)

lesbian

mixed japanese/white

14

june is very very sweet! kind and gentle, june is a ray of sunshine in contrast to april's constant gloom. her kindness and authenticity can make just about everyone love her -- hence her winning even april's heart! has visions of the world ending, and can see ghosts.

#june rosewood

august "auggie" francis

another oc my brother and i share

cis boy (he pronouns)

gay

deceased; died when 14; a ghost

auggie is a sweet but very anxious and timid boy. gender nonconforming. does not remember anything from when he was alive. can be seen by april and june; really likes them, but is very intimidated by april, who does not like him.

#auggie francis

caelyn valya

caelyn is a d&d character i made but havent used yet! she's a spring eladrin (an elf who was born in the faewild) and a ranger

cis girl (she pronouns)

lesbian

she's the child of sun elves so she has light brown skin. also, since she was born in the faewild, she's covered in green freckles

in her early 20s

adhd

caelyn spent all of her life in the faewild, where her parents were in hiding. because of this she is a bit sheltered and niave now that she's in the material plane! she's VERY sweet, a bit too trusting, and incredibly excited to be somewhere new. (you should ask about her knives)

#caelyn valya

kahayag nakamura

ok tbh..... kahayag is a minecraft oc. im still trying to work out what i want her story to be but i always saw minecraft as some post-apocalyptic world or something so im thinking she's one of the few survivors of the apocalypse

nonbinary woman (she / they pronouns)

lesbian

mixed filipino/japanese

19

i mean..... she survived the apocalypse so like..... shes probably got something

kahayag lives on her own with a dog in the middle of nowhere in a world where humanity is basically extinct. before the apocalypse, she was known for being nice, cool, and funny. now she doesnt talk much, but would still do anything to help her fellow man!

#kahayag nakamura

i have..... many more ocs, some of which are on my oc page (their info might be incorrect though), but these are the ones im gonna want to talk about!

edit 11/28: added hira!

[jorammiireads]

The Tethered Mage

by Melissa Caruso

A very interesting fantasy read! One girl was born with the power that comes from wealth and prestige and another with the power to burn down whole cities, literally. After a mishap, both girls are bound together as Falcon and Falconer, whereby the power to wield fire is tethered to will of the nobility. Action, Power, Political Intrigue, Romance, Magic, a little bit of everything within a jam-packed novel.

Although I did genuinely like both Zaira and Amalia and thought they were well fleshed out characters, I would love for the narrative to have been about the person who is being held and controlled against her will rather than the person who feels terrible for having to do the controlling (but really it’s for the best and there are no other real options and everyone needs to suck it up). 

*spoiler alert- there is commentary about the social structure and the need to take down the wealthy and un-imprison the children soldiers with power, but it is unclear as to how successful this will be, I imagine it will be further addressed in the later books*

Summary from Goodreads:

In the Raverran Empire, magic is scarce and those born with power are strictly controlled -- taken as children and conscripted into the Falcon Army. Zaira has lived her life on the streets to avoid this fate, hiding her mage-mark and thieving to survive. But hers is a rare and dangerous magic, one that threatens the entire empire. Lady Amalia Cornaro was never meant to be a Falconer. Heiress and scholar, she was born into a treacherous world of political machinations. But fate has bound the heir and the mage. War looms on the horizon. A single spark could turn their city into a pyre. The Tethered Mage is the first novel in a spellbinding new fantasy series.

What I liked:

-The world-building was pretty cool. It felt very Venetian, and very 17th century, which is actually where it was based off of. The rules of magic too, very cool, but unfortunate and accurate that of course those without magic would seek to control and oppress those with it.

-The romance. I won’t be too spoilery about the main romance, but I do like how they acknowledged the nuance between partnerships for love and for power and I liked how the characters were played off of each other in that sense. I wish there had been more of it..the chemistry. It was like we were told there was chemistry rather than actually seeing or feeling it. PLUS I actually liked that the male character was absolutely smitten with her and his characterization was basically to serve and fit her needs which I feel like we often see this with male protagonist and the female companion, so it was nice to see the reverse.

-Zaira’s potential lesbian/bi/pansexuality??? Very unclear, but her potential interests in men and women were neutral/positive just as they would have been if they had only been men which was really refreshing to read. No one questioned that she might like women more than men, but it was definitely unclear if she only played up interactions with men because she knew she had the power to do so or if she was genuinely interested. 

-Amalia’s relationship with her mother. Talk about complicated. and speaking of, I actually really love her mother and am entirely too fascinated in learning more about her. How did she become who she is and why is she so /pragmatic/ and /heartless/?

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-I’m feeling downright conflicted about the power dynamics which honestly I guess it makes sense and I definitely think this has a lot of great potential for making all kinds of social commentary on class and wealth structures. 

Date read: September 27, 2018

Publisher: Orbit

Publication date: October 24, 2017

[totoroses]

i found this lesbian survey and decided to fill it out!

Femme or butch? is this what do i prefer or which i am? im a femme and i have no preference in dating, i’ve been wildly attracted to both and any in between

Do you have a “type”? If so, describe it. the only nearly completely common denominator though my exes are having brown eyes? i have dated only one person who did not have brown eyes. i always feel safer looking into brown eyes then blue. i woudl say i have often gone after the romantic artsy type with good music taste and some kind of signature style about them, ironically none of which drew me to my current girlfriend who i believe is probably defintiely the love of my life

Plaid button-ups or leather jackets? leather jackets! i will swoon over smartly dressed gals in button downs as well as a chill gal in some plaid unbuttoned flannel but the two together make me think of a lumberjack

Describe your style. i usually go for one of two styles- softly dressed forest wanderer, or slightly sassy soft grunge. both include my doc martens, but one is more natural colours and old fashioned dresses and the other is sassy tshirts and 90sish thrift store finds like denim and dark florals

Describe your aesthetic.pressed flowers between the pages of a book on forest spirits, rose milk tea, silver rainy downpours, curly baby hairs, white peaches, a cat sleeping in a library, custard pastries, a circle of mushrooms in moss, opals and furry moths

Favorite article of clothing? my one forever 21 dress ive had since like junior year that i can wear without a bra and it has like a cool cross back i just looooveee ittt, then also my embroidered minty 1930s style qipao sort of dress

Favorite pair of shoes? my doc martens and green chinese embroidered lace up slippers

Current haircut? currently blonde (ugh) and currently my hair falls just past my breasts, the goal is to grow it to my bellybutton!

Any haircut goals for the future? i really wanna get on the thick fluffy bangs bandwagon but i dont think i have the stamina to put up with growing them out again smh

Describe the best date you’ve been on. there was this one date i went on with one of my high school girlfriends where we went to a bookstore and hung out and then stuck googly eyes all over my city on random monuments and street signs, and we also ate thai food and listened to music and it was still one of the most lovely dates. BUT my girlfriend recently visited me in taiwan and we went in a glass bottom gondola ride up a mountain and drank from coconuts and wandered through old streets and had the most amazing tea food with a spectacular view and it was heaven

Describe the worst date you’ve been on. probably the one where i went on a picnic with my first girlfriend who then broke up with me that same day and even though our entire relationship was so awkward and not what is should have been it still hurt so bad

Single? Taken? taken!

If taken, talk about your girlfriend/wife! where do i begin! my girlfriend is a slightly shorter than me girl named lynn who loved korean variety shows, drinking coca cola, listening to cheesy love songs, and playing tricks on people (especially me). she used to be a major tomboy in middle and high school and date all the girls and get slapped a lot, as well as mess with teachers and play pranks on them and steal things from their lunchboxes. more than half of her birthchart including sun, rising, and venus are scorpio, and she wants to start her own streetstyle online brand but has not yet found a catchy brand name!

If single, what are you looking for in a potential girlfriend/wife? :)

Describe your dream wedding my girlfriend says if we get married we need two, a traditional chinese wedding (she is from china) and a western one with a priest since i am catholic, and i couldnt agree more. my dream wedding includes just very close friends and family, extravagant lights and flowers and a reception party playlist chosen by me, catered by the teahouse we went to in taiwan. i know its so silly and superficial but i want the dreamiest dress that i design, wisteria everywhere, and most of all i just want lynn at the end of the alter looking stunning in whatever it is she decides to wear

Do you want kids? YES me and lynn talk about this a lot because we both love kids and both agree on at least 4, no more than 8. and we will share who carries the kids so not just one of us is having our uteruses worn out

If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live? guilin, china. but its a fantasy. guilin is real and beautiful but chinese laws make it so that even if we settle down there and build a house it cant truly belong to us, and in china you cant have a private business and it jsut sucks because the drema is to live in the quiet countryside with a simple life and beautiful scenery to explore together and with our children

Favorite lesbian movie? i love so many but im gonna go with the handmaiden!

Favorite lesbian novel/story? i havent read nearly enough, but  adore all things by malinda lo and julie anne peters! ash by malinda lo is probably my favourite. i have to still read sarah waters though, i hear she reigns supreme

Favorite lesbian song? don’t pull away by milosh ft jviews (the music video is gay at least, i also love hayley kiyoko)

Favorite lesbian musician? hayley kiyoko probably

What lesbian stereotypes do you fit into, if any? mmmm i dont like softball so that doesnt work...i read a lot of sappho though! and i have short nails? and love buffy? are these stereotypes?

Ever been assumed to be nothing more than a gal pal? ugh yes

If a woman wanted to woo you, what would a surefire way to accomplish that? write me a love letter or make me a mixtape about your feleings something cheesy

Be positive! What do you like most about being a lesbian? girls!!!!

Are you more of a cat person or a dog person? cat but i also love pups!

Turn ons? a musical wonderful voice i could listen to and listen to, easy and stimulating conversations, passion for something that lights up their eyes

Turn offs? rudeness in any shape or form, indecisiveness or feigning indecisiveness because you think i want to make the decisions, despicable movie and music taste, smell

Do you usually ask other women out or do you wait for them to ask you? mmmm in the past it has been pretty even. i have learned though that with women it really is a waiting game more than with guys so with my current girlfriend the tension was killing me so much i had to straight up ask her if something was going on and when she said yes she did like me too i was so relieved because she admitted to having not dated anyone since high school (5 years ago for her) and not asking anyone out while at college so if i had kept waiting for her who knows if we would have gotten together!

What is your dream career? i want to be a stay at home mom and author and perhaps an art teacher or preschool teacher on the side if the books dont pa the bills!

Talk about your interests or hobbies! writing and reading and drawing and singing and hiking and listening to music and watching korean dramas and making lists and studying languages

What is the most attractive quality a woman can have? passion, not necessarily in the sexual wya, but passion for something in general. like if she is an actress you see her on the stage and see how into it she is, and offstage she talks about it in a way that shows she is capable of truly loving something so much and seeing wonder in life. or a girl who seems quiet but then when she starts to show you the music she likes she closes her eyes and knows every lyric and has this expression of true passion and love for the music, i am captivated by women who are captivated by the purest elements of life from music to dance to nature

Do you love easily or does it take time for you to warm up to someone? for women, i fall in infatuation quite easily. i was always more cautious with men of course and now i avoid them altogether. but love is something i’ve been becoming more conservative of somehow. i think because i was so hurt by someone before and gave and gave without receiving and im scared of that happening again. i have to be receiving love to give it, thats something i finally can control my impulses over and protect myself from.

Ever fallen for your best-friend? HA

Ever fallen for a straight girl? HAHA

The L-Word: yes or no? (love it or hate it?) heck to the no i couldnt make it past two episodes 

Favorite comfort food? macaroni and cheese

Coffee or tea? tea

Vegetarian? Vegan? None of the above? none but i have tried vegetarian before

Do you have any pets? a chinchilla and a cat!

Early-riser or night-owl? night owl 

What is your sign? gemini sun, sag moon, sag rising

What is your Myers-Briggs type? INFP

Who was your first lesbian crush? my first serious lesbian crush was on a girl at my middle school who dressed to the nines every day in vintage dresses and sweaters and she flirted with practically everyone just joking around and always had a boyfriend but was just charming in every way. my whoel day would eb ruined if i couldn’t just see her or say hello once, and i thought i was just obsessed until i was like ‘wait what if she kissed me’ and BAM i knew it was a real life crush

At what age did you know you were a lesbian? im not really sure. i identified as bi/pan from freshman year to junior year i think, but then was realizing i definitely had a preference and didn’t want to be with guys in a relationship at all to be honest but even up until last summer i was really questioning if i was asexual, so its been a journey but i think i finally fully realized i am a happy happy lesbian after meeting lynn

At what age did you come out (if you have)? i was 14 when i first told my parents i was bi, 18 when i said im a lesbian 

Are you crushing on anyone at the moment (celebrity or otherwise)? just my girly friend

Talk about how your day went i worked this morning 7-11 after only sleeping 4 hours since i got hooked on ‘tipping the velvet’ the bbc miniseries, said goodbye to a friend, had school and did a presentation on how to make rosemilk bubble tea, i ate at a moomin cafe with my coworker, and now am working on homework and doing this survey and putting off my night cleaning duties eheh

Talk about your dreams/aspirations for the future  i just want to have a family and to have my books published, thats all i really need. a loving wife, my sister still by my side as my partner in crime, so many children, so many stories finally told that people are reading. i really want to build a lovely house for my family like my grandparents did once upon a time, with secret rooms and unique hiding places, a house they can pass down as they grow up and it can have our lineage. i want to live by the mountains and trees and water, i want to be able to speak mandarin, cantonese, korean, japanese, icelandic, italian, arabic, and polish fluently

[motel--california]

What if you want to ask all of the questions?

Then I guess I’ll have to answer all of them

1- Tell me about your favorite person.I don’t really have one single favorite person, so I’ll just do one of my best friends. She’s so much fun to hang out with and I love talking to her. She always is the one to start conversations which is good since I’m always too lazy to be the one to hit other people up. I met her at a summer camp on Lookout Mountain (a mountain partially in NW Georgia) and we’ve kept talking since then. She loves to make jokes and is so funny and she absolutely loves playing tennis and anything tennis related

2- What was the last book you’ve read and finished?I’m currently reading Half a King, which is a fantasy book by a really good author that I love, Joe Abercrombie, but the last book I finished is A Dance of Chaos by David Dalglish. It’s the last book in the Shadowdance series and it’s SO GOOD. It’s also fantasy and not only is the plot really good but 2 characters are revealed be bi and get in a relationship, and that makes any book better. (There’s also a trans girl in a previous book in the series)

3- What is the weirdest scar you have and how did you get it? I don’t have any particularly weird scars, but I do have one that I got because I thought to myself “if I scratch this skin really hard, I wonder if it’ll scar”. It did scar and it hasn’t faded at all even though I’ve had it for roughly a year. It wasn’t even itchy or anything, I just wanted to know if it would scar, which was kinda dumb. It’s this dark line on the bottom of my left leg near my ankle.

4- Recommended Netflix shows?Definitely Breaking Bad and Jane the Virgin. I’ve recently started Bates Motel and it’s also incredibly good and so is The Walking Dead.

5- If you could trade lives with one person for an entire day who would it be and why?Probably some billionaire’s kid who doesn’t have to work and just has fun all day long but isn’t so young that they have to go to school. Tbh id love to experience that lifestyle even if it’s just for a day

6- Do you believe in miracles?Not really. I’m not religious so I don’t believe there’s a spiritual force that can create things like miracles

7- Snorkeling, sky diving, bunjee jumping, or zip lining? I’d prefer snorkeling and zip lining. I’ve gone snorkeling before on a family vacation to Panama City Beach and saw a group of manta rays while doing it which was v cool, but I haven’t done the others. Zip lining sounds like tons of fun, but something where you’re just falling straight down is too scary for me

8- How do you take your coffee?I don’t drink coffee. I actually really don’t like it even though I feel I should since you’re supposed to like it once you get older but I just don’t. Sometimes I’ll see coffee in a vending machine or somebody will bring some for an event and I’ll think “well maybe this time I’ll like it” and I don’t no matter how much cream or sugar I put in. I’ve tried coffee tons of times since that age when everybody else starts liking it and it’s always bad to me, unless it’s that coffee ice cream from Bruster’s which is really good.

9- All expense paid vacation to…?Normally I’d say something like somewhere in the Rocky Mountains since I’ve never been and would love to see it (Well I went to Colorado for a huge family reunion that happens every 5 years but that was when I was like 4 so it doesn’t really count although it took place in a cabin in the mountains), but if it’s all expenses paid, might as well go for the most expensive vacation I can think of. So probably some kind of private island resort in the Caribbean or something like that

10- Favorite homemade food?Probably pot stickers. Idk if people know what they are but they’re fried dumplings

11- What is something you’ve always wanted to try but have been too scared to?I guess opening up to people. Like there are so many things I want to tell my friends but I just don’t even though I know they’re there for me and all that. I mean I know there’s absolutely no reason at all why I shouldn’t, but still I’m kinda scared to I guess

12- What accomplishments are you most proud of?Idk? I always score in like the top 1% on standardized tests like the ACT but I don’t really have a ton of things I did I’m super proud of.

13- If you were going to go to the movies alone, what type of movie would you want to see?I prefer action movies, or anything with Maisie Williams in it because she is absolutely amazing.

14- Dream job?Don’t know for sure, but I’d say an audiologist. It’s what I think I’ll probably be once I graduate college, since I’ve always leaned towards the medical field and audiologists are supposed to have one of the least stressful jobs

15- What is your favorite physical attribute about yourself?Idk my dimples I guess? I have them on both sides and get complimented on them a lot

16- Favorite vacation spot?The Blue Ridge Mountains, since as a little kid my parents would take me there a lot and also it’s so pretty there. The air is so clean, the views are amazing, and you can see way more stars than in the suburbs and even the Milky Way and it’s beautiful

17- Where is your favorite place to go to on a weekday afternoon when you have no plans?The movie theater, where there’s also this very good Mediterranean cafe that I love getting dinner at before a movie

18- What are you waiting for at this very moment? It’s 1:30 am and I’m waiting to feel sleepy cause I accidentally took a nap from 7 till 11 and now I can’t sleep

19- Five favorite songs!This isn’t in any particular order, but my top 5 are:1- We Sink by Of Monsters and Men2- The Boxer by Jerry Douglas3- This is way more than one song, but Mumford & Son’s entire discography, especially Tompkins Square Park, Dust Bowl Dance, Only Love, Thistle & Weeds, Lovers’ Eyes, Broken Crown, Roll Away Your Stone, Timshel, After the Storm, Wilder Mind, and Hot Gates4- 93 Million Miles by Jason Mraz5- Hopeless Opus by Imagine Dragons

20- You have thirty seconds to tell the world anything you want. What do you say?I’d get some company to pay me millions of dollars to give an advertisement. I mean if each Super Bowl ad is about $5 mil, then imagine how much money i could make by giving an ad to the entire world. Yeah it seems kinda selfish to do that instead of something like “I love all my friends so much uwu” but still. All that money.

21- Favorite Disney movie?The Lion King, since I love the songs and the story so much. I even went and saw the musical when I visited New York since the movie was so good

22- What is your favorite board game or card game?Extreme spoons (i feel like most people don’t know what it is, but it’s just like regular spoons except the objects are hidden around the room and you have to get up and find them or they’re really far away and you have to run to them) or Uno

23- What did you love most about the place you grew up? I don’t really have something for this one, not that my hometown’s a terrible place, but I guess I liked the river there? My dad would rent a canoe there sometimes when I was in like 2nd or 3rd grade and we’d go canoeing

24- Where do you want to be in 5 years?I’d have won the lottery, bought some expensive house and moved

25- What is your most bizarre talent?This isn’t that weird, but I can bend my thumb backward and touch my arm with it but only on my right hand for some reason. Idk I can’t really do anything especially weird

26- Do you collect anything?No

27- If you could change one thing about your past, what would it be?I’d go back and fix all those embarrassing things I said/did

28- Have you ever been arrested or in trouble with the law?No

29- You could have any superpower in the world, what would it be and why?I’d give myself the ability to change my physical qualities, which would be really amazing, since that’s basically invisibility, shape shifting, and a bunch of others all rolled into one.

30- Ever been in love?Romantically, no. I’ve dated in the past of course, but it’s never gotten to that point

31- If you could achieve anything what would be your number one goal?Invent something that allowed you to travel way past the speed of light without using any fuel, since I feel that would solve a lot of problems. It’d be easier to discover Earth-like planets and people could just move to them and move again if that planet ever became too dirty or whatever, then you wouldn’t have to worry about pollution or overcrowding, and you could easily mine water and rare minerals and stuff from asteroids and then everyone could have water

32- When was the last time you left your comfort zone?I can’t really think of anything for this one, since it’s not like I do wild and crazy things every day, but I spose the last time I asked a girl out (she said yes but it just never happened)

33- Think of the five people you are closest to. Are they good people who influence you life in a positive way?Definitely and I love them all so much

34- If you found $100 on the ground, what would you spend it on? I’d go and buy myself some new clothes

35- Favorite quoteI don’t have one, mostly because I’ve never really thought about which quote is my favorite.

36- Do you have a good relationship with your parents?I’d say so, yeah

37- List five good things that happened todayRight now it’s 7:30 am so not much has happened at all (earlier in this post I said it was 1:30 but I fell asleep while writing this) but yesterday 1- I saw @saveme-exe which I do all the time but he still always makes my day better 2- saw the most goals lesbian promposal on Snapchat 3- saw a picture of Maisie Williams on ig which I always do since I follow some fan accounts but she’s just so beautiful and amazing 4- got a burrito from Moe’s and 5- got complimented

38- Do you think we should make things happen or let fate guide our lives?I believe that fate is partially what you make it, because if everybody thought you would turn out a certain way but then you make it so that you don’t, then it wasn’t really ever your fate anyways, just what people thought it was. So I’d say that I think we should make things happen