Another day, another panic attack.
I honestly don't know what to do, I don't know what I can do. I can't work and my country is speedrunning economic ruin thanks to our lovely president who hates people and common sense in equal measure.
Even if I can get a job, which is almost impossible at this rate, I won't be able to keep it, I know, and that's IF I can get out of the panic state I enter every time I think about working.
I woke up today and the first thing I did was have a panic attack, and it's been like this for days now. I have to open YT and distract myself cause nothing else works except for completely disengage with reality.
I can't even do the essays and reading for uni cause I get paranoid and start doubting myself, and there we go again to the next panick attack or crying session. It's been only a month and i'm already late on assignments cause the only thing I want can to do is sleep.
Hello depression and anxiety, I did not missed you guys.
In november of last year, when our current president won the elections, I knew that everything was going to go to shit pretty quickly. Here we are, 1 kilo of potato is $1400 pesos. WHO CAN AFFORD THAT? We spent at least $400.000 pesos every month only in food cause everything is so expensive, we are in debt just to cover basic necessities.
And I wish I was fcking normal, I wish I could just pick up any job and go to work and make some money, but I can't.
Yeah, anyways, im going to make some tea and idk pray I guess(???) pray that some psychiatrists in this miserable island gives me a fcking appointment and takes my inability to maintain a job seriously instead of dismiss me with a "well, I think you just need therapy, good fcking luck :)"
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So in the scenes below the context is Toshiro looking at Falin or interacting with her, right?
I will always find it absurdly cute that you can tell which of the characters around him feel the friendliest towards him lol AKA: Kabru and Namari.
So very cute how quick Kabru warmed up to Toshiro, and vice versa btw. That's a real smile PLUS a friendly shoulder pat. Which Toshiro is accepting!
And Namari auhhh. She KNEW that Toshiro wanted to propose. She brings it up to Laios, god, my kingdom in exchange of seeing how that conversation played off. I don't think Toshiro's often open like that, and definitely not with just anyone.
Oh Toshiro. You're going to miss so many things when you go back to Wa.
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God I am so fucking tired of the "introverts are quiet and that means they're nice, extroverts are annoying and loud" bullshit. Honestly. This mentality is one of the things that allowed me to spend the better part of two decades believing I was an introvert when I am actually an extrovert with extreme social anxiety.
Introverts generally use energy when interacting with other people.
Extroverts generally gain energy by interacting with other people.
That's it. That's the dichotomy. And it's not even entirely consistent from one person to the next. Extroverts are capable of social exhaustion. Introverts are capable of social excitement. Extroverts are not automatically social butterflies, introverts are not automatically antisocial homebodies. Extroverts may not like making phone calls because it doesn't feel like a "real" social interaction and just leaves them feeling drained, whereas introverts may like phone calls better than in-person interactions because it doesn't feel like a "real" social interaction and doesn't drain their emotional battery.
Introverts are not delicate misanthropes who hate people and never leave their homes. Extroverts are not "emotional sluts" (yes, I've seen this!) who spend all their free time partying or what the fuck ever.
If the thought of going out to interact with other people who you know and enjoy having in your life fills you with dread, guess what? That's not introversion, that's social anxiety. If the thought of not being able to go interact with other people makes you want to break down, guess what? That's not extroversion, that's a symptom of social starvation. Both of these are signs that there is something wrong and you need to talk to a professional, not make quippy posts on the internet about how much extroverts suck because they keep making you go outside or how introverts are so annoying because they never want to spend time with you.
It is not as cut and dry as you have been led to believe, and it never will be.
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i really don't care if this is an unpopular opinion - but i wanted lucie and matthew to end up together so freaking badly :'))
artist: @camisala01-art
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I feel like I see a lot of more introvert-focused posts which makes sense but like. Extrovert relatables. You know when you strike up a conversation with someone and they give you single word responses? When you ask someone their thoughts and they give you a tiny blip? Trying to match people where they're at and they give you nothing? Doing THE MOST to keep up a conversation and they seem to be doing the most to make it die?
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((Something I'm actually curious about more as I sleep on it, but...))
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sort of echoed this on my sb, but – seeing how watcher "fans" used steven as a scapegoat and as a target of their hate wasn't the first time i saw an asian content creator get fucked over moreso than their peers. BUT it was the first time in the content creating space that i clearly pieced together in my brain,
oh. a lot of people, if they feel entitled and righteous enough to attack someone they don't know online, will choose to attack the person who looks like me; sounds like me; has the same morals as me; was raised like me; reacts to things like me; carries himself like me; speaks to others like me; approaches things like me; etc etc...
and in any other random scenario where these people would've needed someone to feel angry at and i happened to be in the crossfires, they would've done the same to me. for the same exact reasons. they didn't try to see him as a person then and they won't try to see me past what they see on the surface now. and that's sort of the big bummer i've been wading through since the "bye youtube" vid
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ed seems like one of those popular/outgoing extroverts who talks to a shy introvert once and then whenever said shy introvert enters the room he's like "HEY it's [name]!!! what is UP man!!" and like saying the introvert's name over and over and hyping them up so that everyone around him knows that this shy person is cool and he likes them
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On the topic of complicated whatever, it fascinates be that Hien is apparently only slightly better than Laios at reading Toshiro. I mean, theres the comic where she says she FEELS like they were pretty close, but the actual memory?
But look at what she's saying. She's comforting him (headpat) and probably trying to reframe whatever happened as something he shouldn't let him affect him so much, but really she's disregarding his feelings, isn't she? Look at his body language. Grasping at his chest, folding onto himself... He wasn't in a place to hear something like that and she missed it.
Reminds me of someone else who FELT they were close to Toshiro:
Hien may be too pragmatic to pick up on things like vibes, and strong enough that things slide like water off a duck's back. Doesn't mean she doesn't care though, she pretty explicitly expresses that she dislikes the distance between them as adults.
All this to say, I see two ways in which they can fix their friendship. Toshiro could learn from what happened with Laios and try to be more assertive when he communicates (learning about boundaries will fix him. maybe), or, they will have an argument that will probably be cathartic but also likely even more hurtful than the fight with Laios.
I mean, this isn't just three years of history, this is based on assumptions that they both made about each other's character that have gone unchecked for years. (And perhaps a side of likely power dynamics in the household).
If it hurts to know your friend from three years ago didn't feel respected by you, now imagine learning that your childhood friend who you low-key thought would ask you to marry him decided it was best not to open up to you, even though you as far as you know have always wanted to be there for him. And HAVE been there for him to the best of your ability, it's just, you're not the type to sacrifice your authenticity for it right? (wow reminds me a bit of someone)
A fight with that kind of baggage... I can see it being worse than what happened with Laios. Perhaps not physical, but emotionally? Worse. Hien isn't good at pulling her punches after all, and Toshiro lets things build up.
Would they be able to come back from it though? Hmm I think they would. If nothing else out of a sense of duty to the household.
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I HAVE BEEN CONVINCED OF THE LOGINCE AGENDA
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willow!! How are you? ✨️ i hope you're having a lovely friday!
I had a Thought and i just HAD to share it – imagine older bakugou (stronger, more settled and mature) taking in a UA intern just like best jeanist did for him 🥺 he'd be so steady and reliable, kinda like aizawa! Pushing the student to do better while always being ready to step in! 🥺🥺 i wonder how he'd agree to do it though 🤔
Oh and he can also bring the student over for dinner where the kid meets us and is promptly baffled by how domestic mr. dynamight is at home LMAOO 😭😭
omg.....this is sooooo cute 🥺🥺🥺 i love it so much !!! he'd be a bit of a grouch aizawa hehe and !! he wouldn't take any shit !! any slacking !!! any chatting up on the job !!! he'd be a bit of a hardass but 🥺 i think he'd eventually get pretty attached to the kid 🥺 would be proud to see the hero they could grow up to become 🥺 oh oh oh this idea is so CUTE tysm for sharing your Thought !!!! 🩷😌✨️
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A little funfact
I headcanon PK as an introvert (I mean. Duh. Being a recluse is like one of the few things we know about him) and Flower as extrovert/ambivert with severe anxiety
🤝 socially awkward brothers in arms
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there's so many mutuals/ppl in the fandom i would love to befriend but unfortunately i am a vampire and need a written invitation to interact with somebody first
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