#this is the layout i'm using rn and i love it

[dolene]

˖ . ݁𝜗𝜚. ݁₊ : people teaser / franco colapinto x reader

summary: Imagine having a friend who would spend his time judging and bothering you when he has any other job to do. Annoying, right? Well, this is what happened to a couple of young adults who would do such things to each other in a day-to-day basis, everybody knows that something like this could led to something more. But of course—ever the stubborn couple, who are they to believe? Until days after denying and more teasing, they finally launching their relationship. In a slowest way possible.

warnings: bad concepts, messy layouts, translated spanish, ignore timestamps, veryyyy far from the summary.

yourusername San Francisco, Los Angeles

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yourusername It's da-bomb! 🍔💥

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francolapinto Relax man no one is going to snatch it from you

username It's his third time posting his annoying ahh comments here like someone please take his phone away from him

yourusername He's obsessed with me that's why 💁🏼‍♀️

francolapinto In your dreams

yourusername Wouldn't even dream of it.

username that period ain't playing tho bruv

username Great, now I'm starving...

username how is she eating that with ever so cutesy and demure 😩😩😩😩😩😩😩

alexandrasaintmleux I need to go grab that ASAP! You made me so hungry with this 🙂‍↕️

yourusername You should, it was soooo gewdddd

francolapinto What language is *gewd* exactly

username bro it's clearly unnecessary 😭💀

username At this point they're turning this whole comment section into a bicker space

username the fact the he liked this post faster than kelly liked max's post is immaculate and i bet that this could convince red bull to hire him at some point 🤔

username He left his notification on fr

username Bro can't even be slick even after his experience in teasing them poor reporters

username I need them to be together now

username they can't even handle them bickering in the comment section and now y'all want them to be together???

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francolapinto Muchas cosas pueden pasar en un año.. 😊

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mercedesamgf1 We need to see the selfie

williamsracing 💙

francolapinto Tomando mi lugar de nuevo yourusername

yourusername Fangirl behavior 🙄😒

username Mind yall he didn't even interact, nor liked both teams but with her he did

francolapinto I always have time to reply to my biggest fangirl ever

username Wait what happened

username Solo veo dos cabras

username Queremos ver la selfie, Fran

username quem é esse npc na ultima foto kkkkkkk

username LEWIS ADDED THIS TO HIS STORYYY

username I would be him too

username GOATS 💜💙

username Their fashion difference is soooo😭😭😭😭😭😭

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yourusername Gonna miss this sooo much after it ends!! See you next weeeeeeekkkkkk 🧜🏻‍♀️💜

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iamrebeccad That is literally the prettiest, most ethereal make up I've seen today. Hope you've had a good premiere, darling girl 💜💜

username Rebecca liked & commented in just 5 seconds after she posted this is an insane work

username Kelly on Max's instagram:

raye The prettiest!!

username I love my busy and employed queen<3

username omg relationship crusher inspo

username funny how franco is not here to judge her

username I know Vanessa's bad, but like... I'd support her wrongs and rights 😞

username She slayed the look OMG

username I'm in aweee, girl send more to your stories rn

username Cooked, ate, delivered. 🍽️

francolapinto I miss the time when you're curling your hair using balusters...

username This is the very much time he wrote long english to jump into a flashback

username Okay now we've all got our wildest heatless curl methods, BUT BALUSTERS????

yourusername THAT'S UNNECESSARYYYYYYY

username She's serving face and he's there doing a typically embarrassing flashback

username DID SOMEBODY SAID RELATIONSHIP CRUSHER MAKEUP INSPO😭😭😭😭😭😭

username I got on my knees at Walmart

francolapinto Shibuya, Japan

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francolapinto Un recordatorio para no dejar a tu hija sola en público

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username In all of the sudden they're in Shibuya now

username Wait are they finally official?

yourusername My irresponsible friend just took a pic and left 😒👎

alex_albon I wonder who

username THE WHAT

username Alright the rivalry sort of thing is kinda not making any sense by now

username ¿Verdad? Como, ¿qué clase de rival que te haría una foto con una cámara de 35mm?

username i need them to just kiss already

username Guys they're just friends. Can't a guy and a girl befriend in peace?

username is it me or did Oscar is also invested with this whole drama...

username ¿Es ella su novia?

username peor

username They looked like an old married couple doing a tbt here awww

username Alright no lie the pic is kinda fire tho

username Chat is this a hard launch or what

lilymhe A hard launch to a group chat war

username Alex playing dumb and Lily is the admin of their groupchat are NOT on my bingo card for this month

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MEANWHILE, LILY AND ALEX...

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note from DOLENE: soooooo very sorry that it took me for almost half a year to finish a smau again... my brain's kinda stuck on inspirations these days and hope you all can understand. but either way, i've got something for new years fics and i reaaaaallyy hope that my brain's not blanking out yet in that moment on. and until next time lovelies<3

[adams-angels]

I want to see my man in pain, Adam break down after reader said they want to break up (fluff in the end pls) 😞

I reaaaally enjoyed writing this

I love pain 🥹

💖 Please send me requests! Send me your own headcanons! I will draw! I'm obsessed rn!💖

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Adam POV

It was a normal night. Out talking to some babes. Tellin' them how great I am. Because, well, I AM! HA! I'm the first fucking man! These bitches swarm me. Who am I to deny them. I check my phone a see y/n has text me. "Ugh, what do you want now you needy fuckin'" I can't believe what I'm reading.

"we're done."

My heart sinks. Why is it sinking. I don't care. I'm fucking ADAM!! Adam stands, pushing away the crowd of angels surrounding him and tries calling you. "Come on.. come on, pick up, you dumb bitch." No answer. NO FUCKING ANSWER. His head spins. Panic sets in as. This isn't happening. Not again.

You think you're better than me?! You're nothing! I'm Adam!! I can get ANYONE I FUCKING WANT YOU THINK I NEED YOU?!

I'VE GOT TONS OF BITCHES WAITING FOR ME!

I DONT NEED YOU I NEVER NEEDED YOU!

He tries calling you again. No answer. "FUCK!" He expands his wings and shoots up, smashing through the skylight. He continues to text and call as he makes his away to your apartment. "FUCKING ANSWER ME!" He screams into his phone. By the time he arrives at your apartment he calms himself down, "I can get them back." He thinks to himself as he lands on your balcony. "They didn't mean it. They couldn't of."

As he reaches for the handle of the sliding door his hand shakes. "No, no, no, no." He grips onto his wrist stepping back from the door, being stopped my the railing. He slides down to the floor. "No, no, no...." His voice cracks, fear, sadness, anger. He never let himself get close. At least that's what he told himself. After the second wife also betrayed him he swore he'd never care so he would never hurt. But somewhere along the way, he fell for you. Although he denied himself.

He rushed to remove his mask, feeling like he can't breathe. Once he got it off he threw it aside. Clutching at his chest as tears escaped from his eyes. "No, no, no.." he whimpered. He sat on the floor for an hour. Thinking about you. What he did wrong. If he did something terrible. Why you're ending it. There wasn't even anything to end and yet his world felt like it was crashing around him.

Once he calmed down he leaned forward and sighed. Wiping his cheeks as he stood up and put his mask back on. He reached for the handle, hesitating before opening the sliding door. He sees you in your bed, asleep. He closed the door quietly and just watched you. For about half an hour before he realised how much a creep he's being. He walked into your livingroom. He's been here plenty times before. He memorized the layout.

He walks over to one of your succulents. You loved them. Once he came over and accidentally knocked one on the floor. You were so upset. He didn't see the big deal but he still went out of his way to buy you a new pot for it and a new succulent altogether. Just something to say he was sorry without actually saying sorry. He smiled as he remembered your joy. He sat on the couch and waited.

A couple hours later he heard rustling in your room. He shot up from the couch and heading to your bedroom, freezing at the doorway as he sees you wake. You scream in surprise, falling off your bed. He noticed your phone falling off the nightstand with you. His chest tightens. Your phone. Those horrible texts. "Adam?! What the hell are you doing in my apartment?!" You yell at him, snapping him out of his thoughts.

He stands there, feeling awkward. "You want to leave me?" He asked, trying hard to not break his voice. You tut, he watches at you stand, wanting to help but to afraid to move. "You say that like you cared." You snap, picking your phone up from the floor. "Don't look at that." He took a step towards you, reaching out but you recoiled. "Why? You next me nasty shit? Telling me I'm worthless? That I was lucky to -" he interrupted, "y/n, I'm sorry. I just want to know what I did wrong."

Adam braces himself. For you to yell. For you to scream. For you to tell him you love someone else. "I just... I can't... I don't want to be a place holder for you." His shoulders slump down he hesitantly steps closer to you "What are you talking about?" He carefully slides his hand under yours "I don't want to be someone you just use until you find someone better." His fingers interlace with your as his other hand brushes your hair from you face. His breath catches seeing your red, watery eyes "I just want to be... I don't know, Adam."

His hand cups your face. He looks into your eyes and for the first time in eons he chose to be vulnerable. "Be mine?" He watches you shrug. Rightfully assuming you've misunderstood his request he clarifies "no, I'm asking. Be mine." The way you look at him makes his chest tighten in fear. "What?" He recoiled. "I mean, maybe we could start again? Like.. properly?"

"You mean like.. date? What happened to "I don't date. I'm the first man. I have the first penis ever bla bla!"" He glares at you. Of course you'd remember that. "I don't sound like that." "You do." Adam brow furrows in in frustration. "Whatever, y/n, please. I can't lose you. I don't want to lose you. Please don't leave me." He felt pathetic. He was pathetic. "I'll have to think about it." His chest tightened. His heart beating a million miles a minute. You'd see how pale he would be if he wasn't wearing the mask. "H-how long will that take?" He asked, desperation leaking out of him.

"I don't know, Adam." You shrug. The air was thick. He was struggling to breath and needed to get out of there. "I really care about you, y/n. You have to believe me, babe." He kisses your hand before releasing it. "Just.. uh... Delete those texts. I didn't mean any of it." He heads to the sliding door he entered from, opening it and expanding his wings as he jumps off. He looks behind to see if you watched leave like you've done so maybe times before. But you're not there.

It's been a month. A whole month. It should feel like nothing to him considering how long he's been in existence yet it feels like a years. He sees you about. With your friends. Getting groceries. Whenever his eyes catch on to you he freezes. No matter what he's doing.

He can't keep this up. He didn't want to pressure you. Make you feel like you had to choose him. But fuck he needed you to choose him. He was in his office. But he couldn't focus. He was so tired, not being able to sleep well without you. Even if he didn't sleep the whole night it was always nice knowing you were there no matter what. At least that's what he used to think.

He checked his phone to see nothing from you. It was too much. He was alone. You were never coming back. No one ever comes back. Lilith left him. Eve left him. Now you. "Fuck. FUCK!" He picks up his coffee and punts it at the wall. He can't stay here. He needs to find you. He needs you back.

He swung the door open and there you were. He couldn't believe it. He thought you'd at least text him. Not show up at his office! His feathers were literally ruffled, his office looks like a bombs hit it. "Y/n?" He said softly, it was like time stopped for a minute. He wish it did. Then he could scoop you in his arms and never let you leave. He snapped back into reality changing his expression quickly, not want anyone to see a softer side to him. "Come in." He stands aside letting you in to his office. He hates that you didn't text. He would of cleaned up there were documents everywhere, a smashed mug on the floor and coffee stains on the wall. He hated it was such a mess for you. "Bad day?" You commented he grumbled in response. "There are no bad days in heaven." He mumbled as he slumps down on his office chair.

Resting his chin on the back of his hand as he watches you walk over to his office window, opening it. The musky smell almost dissipating immediately "So... I thought about it." He perks up, sitting straight, watching you like a hawk. "And?"

"and I'm willing to start again. Properly." He immediately bolts from his chair, wrapping his arms around you. "Fuck, thank fucking Christ. Don't do that to me again. Please." His voice breaks, wings surrounded the both of you. "Please, I'm sorry. I'll treat you so much better." "Promise?" "Yes, promise."

～⁠♡✧⁠｡ I really hope you enjoyed! I'm not a writer by any means but I appreciate any support I receive so thank you for reading! ｡✧⁠♡～⁠

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ꨄ︎ Satosugu Headcannons 1 ꨄ︎

A/N: I got brainwrorms for them rn I must release them. I'm also thinking of trying a new layout I'm tired of the old one. Ugh I love them sm sdvfsgvshngvshngvsgvusgvhswugvhwsgvswgv

I may or may not have included some visuals on what I think they would look like

I had the intention of writing this in a more modern AU. I will be putting this into 2 posts. This post will be centered on my personal headcanons of them and the second post will lean into the more Poly. side.

I have seen (MOST) of JJK but I do know what goes on however I have not read the manga so if I miss anything that's been stated in the manga don't tell me I don't wanna be spoiled. (BECAUSE THIS FANDOM KNOWS JACKSHIT ABOUT HIDING SPOILERS)

Reminder these are just my personal hcs for them so don't take it seriously it's not that deep.

CW: Family angst mentions, Yakuza, swearing, non-sexual nudity, I love Suguru so much.

Pt.2

Satoru Gojo

I think he would be a college professor, and he would teach Physics. I could also see him going into Quantum physics and Quantum Theory as like his main thing. (He's the professor everyone wants a piece of)

Regarding his family I don't think he talks to them. In modern world I could see his family be considered high ranking or like famous in a way. (In some kind of business or something) I think the only family member he talks to is Yuta.

I think his family tries to bribe him into talking to him by sending him money or gifts In which he gives to Suguru

Him and Toji have massive beef. He has partial parental rights to Megumi and helped raise him. He met the other students through Megumi from dropping him off/picking him up from places.

Him and Suguru met in highschool and became best friends (Boyfriends in denial).

He's surprisingly not on the verge of getting type 2 diabetes

He's a huge flirt and may come off as a guy who would rather do casual one-night stands, but if he has his eyes on someone, he would definitely be loyal asf to them as possible.

Since he has 3 different degrees in physics he tries to do some cool magic shit with physics to try and impress the huzz Geto.

Suguru Geto

He's a tattoo artist/piercer and runs his own shop. He also has ties to the Yakuza

He still talks to his family and has a good relationship with them. I also hc that Mimiko and Nanako are some kind of relative and he's really close with them. He spoils the fuck out of them as if they were his actual daughters.

I can see him being very into Rock/Emo/Metal/Goth/Punk/J-Rock/etc music. (HE JUST LIKE ME FR)

He collects vinyls and has a record player and a walkman for cassettes.

He's in the process of quitting smoking since Gojo started complaining about the smell.

Has a whole lotta tattoos and piercings and has nipple piercings as well as some more nsfw piercings.

He uses glasses for blue light. When drawing a tattoo, he draws on paper and his iPad, so when he's on the iPad, he has glasses for the light.

Has a collection of books and actively shits on Colle*n H*over. I think he would read anything, but he has a guilty pleasure for romance and dark romance books.

Has 20 different types of tea and has a mini tea bar in the kitchen.

Being Roommates

They moved in together after high school.

Gojo CAN and WILL walk around the apartment butt-ass-naked. He's flashed Geto multiple times because of this. (He also slept in his bed once or twice)

Gojo has also on multiple attempts, tried to bring a feral/wild animal home to have as a pet.

"Can we keep it, please?"

"Satoru, that is a WILD ANIMAL."

Suguru has to do all of the grocery runs because he doesn't trust Gojo to do it.

They do 50/50 housework and split everything.

When they go out with friends, Suguru is the one usually driving Satoru home after being insanely drunk.

They tend to borrow each other's things a lot. If Gojo likes a shirt Suguru is wearing, he is stealing it to wear it. If Suguru runs out of shaving cream, he will use Gojo's.

They also take each other's stuff unintentionally.

Gojo is trying to find his shirt for work, but Suguru accidentally took it, thinking it was his.

When arguments happen, they makeout after to makeup one of them usually leaves the house for a bit to cool off. Or they both go to their designated rooms to cool off then talk later.

Gojo uses a 10 in 1 toothpaste, shampoo, conditioner, body scrub, body wash, deodorant, facial cleanser, lotion, spf, moisturizer. While Geto uses 4 products for his hair, 12 products for his skin, 2 oils for his nails, lotion specifically for his tattoos, ointments for his piercings, and has 3 different ChapSticks.

Suguru has the really expensive shampoo and conditioner and threatens to kick Gojo out when he uses it all without replacing it.

They have matching tattoos of black and white koi fish.

Some Visuals

𝑭𝖔𝖝𝖌𝖑𝖔𝖛𝖊𝖕𝖓𝖌™

[gender-trash]

come to think of it, it's been a hot minute since i posted my fic writing setup, hasn't it?

(feat. sneak preview of make no plans chapter 9)

my vim setups tend to terrify everyone because i LOVE splits but this is because i feel a deep inner need to see like eight different things simultaneously. most other text editors i've tried make this difficult and annoying to set up, but like... i want to see the outline and my notes file while i write? hello?? also i have a vim plugin that autosaves my session layout so it just automagically pops back up whenever i run vim in the fic repo root directory.

at the very top: tabs. i have all the fic i'm semi-actively working on open simultaneously in the same vim session because why not. to a first approximation, each project gets its own tab (and also a more or less incomprehensible working title).

the split layout: there's only really room for two columns on a laptop screen so that's what i go with for this; for coding on the Big Screen i usually use three. (this frightens my coworkers and makes me look extremely l33t.) for fic, i keep my various notes files, my outline, and anything i'm referencing open in the right column, and the chapter(s) i'm working on (and the author's notes file) in the left column. (when i'm writing code i usually do tests and header files in the right column, source code in the middle column, and config files in the left column, but this isn't a hard and fast rule.) often i'll have more than one split pointed at the same notes file (or chapter file!) so i can look at multiple bits of it simultaneously.

i write all my fic in markdown (and use pandoc to convert it to html for poasting -- i should probably write a makefile or something but rn i just use bash scripts sprinkled about my various fic project folders). my main markdown extensions are preservim/vim-markdown (syntax preview, like italics and stuff) and masukomi/vim-markdown-folding (collapses and expands sections of markdown, which i use heavily in my outline and notes files). i also put the wordcount in the statusline for markdown files, mostly so i know if a chapter is fooming out of control on me.

and the font is victor mono, which has very pretty cursive italics <3

[iknowshocker]

Hooooookay I am reading Hits Different for the first time rn and 😩🤌 I'm literally gnawing at my fists because I'm loving the Parker sibling interactions so much. The twin connections between Jokai and between Luke!Kai and Liv are everything to me. I'm loving your descriptions, from Jokai's conversation at the brink of death, to the layout of their Portland home and Kai's dingy little attic room... Gobbling it all up like a turkey.

I'm dedicating my whole night to reading this. Making a cup of coffee as we speak, bless you for writing my boy Kai so well. Expect more of me screaming in your inbox.

Anyway, onto the ask game: 5, 9, 13, 28!

ahhhh thank you so so much!! <3

if there's one thing i love it's painful family dynamics and i fear we need to look no farther than that tragic af group. i could write a dissertation on the parkers alone. so it was really important to me to explore all of those relationships and give everybody the space to deal with what they went through so that it didn't feel OOC for them to move forward together in the end.

navigating kai's complicated disaster of a mind brings me so much joy, you don't even know. the fact that they cut off his growth in canon disappoints me to this day.

omgggg i can't wait to hear how you like the ending!! <3

ask answers under the cut:

5. What's something you learned while researching this fic? Without spoiling anything, Kai takes the heretics over to France and they go to a town called Lille. my lovely friend @nevereverthem suggested it and helped me figure out to utilize the location. I LOVE using real locations in my work so this was a lot of fun to do!

I'm also always trying to use my knowledge of craft when I can - so any use of magical herbs, holidays, etc. comes from my personal research

9. How did you get into writing fanfiction? I've been a writer my whole life, but the first fic i ever posted was back in 2014 for sasusaku. I had been out of the naruto fandom for a few years but then we were given a weak ass ending and i simply had to fix it lol

I've also written for zutara and dramione, although those works never manage to hold my attention for very long and i end up using them more as exercises in between my own stuff. (but i'm sure you can see i have a type in ship dynamic lmao)

i rewatch tvd s6 every october, and last year the bonkai fixation just came back with a vengeance. I wrote the first draft of my original work last spring and then got swept into writing Hits Different because I wasn't ready to let go of them yet - and now here we are <3

13. Do you have an 'official' creative writing background such as a degree or previous experience publishing? I do! I majored in theatre performance and minored in English and Creative Writing.

I'm currently working on querying my original bonkai work which will (hopefully) be an 8 book fantasy series inspired by bonkai and the parkers.

28. What's the angstiest idea you've ever come up with? Oof, bestie, did you get to chapter 24 yet?

i don't want to spoil anything but i had a lot of fun taking canon events and going: now what if kai and bonnie were in that scene? It was great to prove how easy it would have been to center bonnie/the gemini's in the plots of s7-8 the way they so clearly should have been.

in general a lot of my work both fanon and original deals with grief, childhood trauma and mental health, which is one reason why kai means so much to me as a muse character. i end up working through my own stuff with him (or my kai coded mmc) more than i'd like to admit, lol

thank you so much for stopping by!! <333

[stellas--stuff]

AAC feature ideas!

I'm designing an AAC app and these are all the features we're thinking of including so far, I'd love to have feedback on any ideas here that you hate or love, or if you have any suggestions for additional features.

Features we'd 100% include:

Adjustable grid size

Upload your own icons

Word conjugation/pluralization modifier buttons

Type words to TTS using your phone's built in keyboard

Button borders can be toggled on/off

Change border thickness

Multiple button fill options:

Delete words from text bar

Clear words from text bar

Choose between multiple board layout presets

Create new buttons/folders

Edit+move buttons/folders

Button's pronunciation can be different from button's text

Play audio on button press can be toggled on/off

Dark/light mode

Tons of accessibility options

Option to lock editing/changing settings behind a password

Search for icons in a built in catalog

Help- documentation/tips

Change font size

Change font

Set a font for wordmojis

Features we'd want to include:

Multiple profiles with separate settings for each

Separate voice for each profile

Set sound output device- remembers your choice next time there is an option

Next Word Suggestions

Synonym options for your most recent word, replaces that word when clicked

Change button size, would probably shrink the other icons in the same row to make room

Row spacers, to visually break up different sections of your board and make boards easier to read and tell apart at a glance

Color palate presets

Customizable color palates

Voice models with tons of settings:

* Pitch [deep <--> high]

* Speed [slow <--> fast]

* Resonance [masculine <--> feminine]

* Articulation [slurred<--> enunciated]

* Intensity [whisper <--> shout]

* Intonation [static <--> melodic]

* Breathiness [soft <--> sharp]

* Vocal fry [gravely <--> clear]

Upload your own icons to the catalog so other users can download and use them

Icon search filters- creator, color, category (people, animals, etc.)

Share/download boards from the internet

Use custom images for button/folder backgrounds

Fullscreen mode to show sentence instead of/in addition to speaking it

Eye tracking input method

Undo button

Adjust space between buttons

Adjust margin size

Other features we're considering:

Tone modifiers: yell, whisper, question mark, sarcasm warble, etc...

On hold features- hold on a word to bring up conjugation options? hold on a folder acts as if you pressed a button with the folder's name?

Quick zooming animations when you tap on a folder to help establish a mental map of the layout

Scroll bar to fit more buttons on a single page

Icon collage- create new icons by mixing and matching parts from other icons

Edit multiple buttons or folders at once

Board background colors/images

Built in AAC lessons

Save multiple layouts to go back to if you don't like your changes

Grammar correction options

Feedback is more than welcome!

We still don't have plans to turn this into an actual app, I want to but I can't promise anything rn.

[1q84]

the studio i'm at has been actively crumbling around me for months so the writing has been on the wall for a while but i just got the dreaded mystery meeting with my supervisor added to my calendar for monday 😭 MAN! ramble ->

have to get it out of my system for my own sake. this is my diary!! i've been doing some cursory job searching and mentally preparing for a while now seeing as we've gotten no new projects and they've laid off DOZENS of ppl the past several months (there are legit like 4 of us left idk how i made it this far) but it's really rough out here... animation industry is in shambles rn (in addition to vfx, gaming, entertainment in general) and tons of extremely talented people i know who have been in the biz for years and years are unable to find work anywhere for months now. sucks!! scrolling thru linkedin rn is insane LOL everyone is holding hands and coping so hard

scared to join their ranks bc we're already pretty paycheck to paycheck over here and while i can probably stretch myself for a couple months, it won't be long before the situation gets rly difficult, so i'm trying to scheme up side hustles too just to tide myself over (if anyone has any suggestions in this realm they are welcome...).

lately i've been thinking about taking the dive and trying to switch gears to art, which is my one true lifelong love, certainly moreso than editorial. but that's scary too - i can draw and think i can learn what i need to, but i'm lacking a lot of fundamentals core to being a professional artist and most importantly the experience to slap on a resume/portfolio. that + the general anxiety around AI swooping in and eliminating a lot of artist jobs in an already highly competitive line of work really sucks. but maybe this is a golden opportunity in disguise - i'm lucky enough to already be in the industry i wanna stay in, and am connected w several storyboard and concept artists as well. the animation network bubble is smaller than you'd think. i know plenty of ppl pivot in the industry since a lot of smaller studios offer flexibility like that. i mean shit, before it got canned, the director of the last big project we had was desperately asking me if i knew how to draw/storyboard since they were stretched a bit thin. (i did not have the skills to storyboard sadly but it goes to show the opportunity may present itself again if i learn). and at that point i was just assisting with animatic editing (which was also fun and i learned a lot!!)

at the end of the day i just wanna stay around animation, even if that means staying in editorial. it really charges me up to see a creative project grow and to be surrounded by concept art. it's like watching something slowly come to life, and when it's done well it's really exciting. if i can be around that as often as possible, i won't have much to complain about

the other silver lining is that i've become closer with my coworkers than ever, especially as our numbers dwindled and we all huddled together for support lol. i see them constantly ofc just bc of having a 40 hour work week, but we've also been hanging out on the weekends and after work all the time and even played hooky last week to go to disney and turn our brains off for the day. i'll still hangout with them after all is said and done and we're all ready and gearing up to move on, but i'm really gonna miss having that dynamic with them

okay i'm typing too much but it's nice to get some thoughts down. anyways i'm gonna start working on finally building a website for myself tonight after planning the design and layout of it for a while, i'm lucky my bf knows what he's doing in that regard and can help me 😤

[featherfangart]

Tiny Update - WWL/TDDU + PINS

First off - thank you SO very much to all of you leaving lovely comments in the tags on the last (and any other) part(s) of Til Death Do Us / Wolfwood Lives AU.

How's the comic doing?

I decided to favor myself enjoying the work on it instead of spitting it all out asap and having it finished for May. No more zine ready in May for Animefest happening, unfortunately. It's too much pressure and I just. I wouldn't like it. The comic would suffer - both in terms of writing and art. Not to mention I don't ever want to pressure one of my best buds and my personal editor @Squeemu.

This way I can still think of the script a bit more, add new little ideas, enjoy preparing the layout and draw each of the faces in my own time. And maybe splash some colours into some other parts as well again. ��� I MISS COLOURING STUFF SO MUCH.

The slower pace will also let me rest from time to time, maybe play a videogame and maybe not go crazy when 7R2 is out and I'll be biting table about it, bc I SHOULD BE DRAWING THE COMIC, bc I only have xy days til the end of April. (Trust me, it did happen, I went to bed counting pages, matching them to days in my head over and over and over.... and then broke down.)

So. That said - we are progressing quite nicely now! Even with the crazy amount of storyboarding work I had in Jan/Feb. I am having fun, I LOVE drawing the part I'm working on rn.

What about the PINS?!

Good question! The data's in the manu atm. However, as China's still celebrating Lunar New Year, the factories are closed. But - the break should end on 20th. So we should get some news soon. :)

[accihoe]

Deputation Gone Awry

Pairing: Avenger Bucky x Avenger fem!reader

Summary: The title is self-explanatory. But Barnes and Y/L/N go on a mission with Wilson and Romanoff. Things go awry. James and Y/N are stuck in a safehouse together amidst a blizzard.

Warnings: mean and condescending Bucky. Jealousy. Angst. Fights. Fluff. Injuries and stitches. Please don't this read if injuries make you uncomfortable.

Genre: angst to fluff

A/n: As always, my loves, please don't steal my work. Tag me and give me credit if you post my work on other platforms or use my ideas. God bless.

xxxx

"Good girl." Y/N grinned as the cat hopped onto her couch and snuggled up against her thigh (literally my cat and I rn. Her name is Goose.). A knock at the door startled the cat, who ran underneath the bed. "Dang it. Coming!" Y/N called as she got up and went to the door.

"Hey, kiddo, remember you're going on a mission with Barnes, Wilson, and Romanoff. You leave tomorrow. Get packing chop-chop." Tony clapped his hands together to enunciate his words. Y/N's stomach warmed, and her heart pounded when she heard his surname. She packed quickly. According to the list Tony had given her at the briefing in the boardroom.

She went to Steve's room and knocked on the door. Muffled voices quietened, and two pairs of footsteps came to the door. When it opened, Y/N bit her lip in excitement before shifting to the side as James pushed past her. "Hey Y/N/N. Can I help you?" Steve leaned again the doorframe.

"Hey Steve. Yeah. Could you please watch Goose? I'm going on a mission tomorrow." She asked. "Isn't that Fury's cat?" Steve was puzzled. "Yeah. That's why you've gotta take extra care of her." Y/N smiled. Steve agreed (after Y/N made him microwave brownies), and soon, all the belongings of the cat (Flerken) and Goose were inside of Steve's room.

The following morning, Y/N was in the Quinjet. Her belongings stowed away as she sat behind the stick in the cockpit. Bucky came in first. "You're early for once.". "Well, I've never been late, Barnes. I'm actually very punctual." Y/N said as she put her magazine down. James scoffed. "What are you doing there anyway? The seats are here." Bucky changed the topic, realizing he had no evidence to deflate her ego with in the previous topic.

"I'm the pilot." She said. "Yeah, right. You can hardly steer a bike." Bucky scoffed. "Bikes and planes are two entirely different things, Barnes." She sing-songed. "This is a jet." Bucky answered with a sly grin. He finally had something to belittle her for. One slip-up. "You know what I meant. Bikes and jets are still very different things." Y/N sighed.

"They're not actually that different if you compare the layouts and the functionalities. I mean, you've got seats in both, a steering stick in both -" Bucky started. "Okay, okay." Y/N moved out of the cockpit and went to the back of the jet. Bucky grinned in victory. Nat and Sam joined shortly afterwards.

"Where's Y/N?" Sam asked. "Dunno." Bucky shrugged. "She's already been here. It's her magazine." Nat said from the cockpit. Y/N emerged from the back. "Sorry. I was just checking our supplies." Y/N smiled as she stepped into view. "There's our captain." Sam grinned. "Pilot." Bucky corrected.

Bucky's scowl returned as Y/N went to the cockpit. He dramatically clipped in his seatbelt and held on for dear life as they flew to their destination. "You know she's a licensed pilot, right?" Natasha asked, not looking up from the magazine Y/N tossed to her.

"By the way she flies, it doesn't seem like it." Bucky hissed. "I'm able to read." Natasha said. "It's very turbulent. I don't know how." Bucky huffed. "We did just flie through a few typhoons." Nat answered calmly as she flipped a page. "Seriously? We're not hurricane hunters. Why's she flying us through typhoons?" Bucky groaned.

"Because she knows what she's doing." Nat finally looked at Bucky. Bucky resolved to silence for the rest of the flight and was less but still dramatic when they landed. The mission went smoothly, and all went according to plan until Y/N's suit belt hooked onto a rusted lever broke off and fell onto the steel floor.

Bucky grabbed Y/N and pinned her down as the opposition fired at them. Y/N's heart hammered in her chest, but she did not allow her silly crush to jeopardize the mission or her status. So she flipped them over and held Barnes down as she got up and fired single shots at the men, bullets laced with instant toxins to make whoever was shot pass out (unrealistic I know but bear with me).

After several moments of fighting, they ran out with their mission partners just in time to miss the start of the ambush. Amidst an ambush and a quickly approaching blizzard, Y/N lost sight of the rest of the team but thankfully bumped into Bucky. They ran off together, and Bucky hijacked a bike from the ambushers.

Y/N's cheeks were hot despite the snow as she held onto Bucky Barnes. They drove as far out of sight as they could. Y/N managed to locate a safehouse established by S.H.I.E.L.D and gave Bucky directions. Once they arrived at the safehouse, Bucky was fuming. "Why the hell would you put us all in danger like that!? And then shoot them all! We could have interrogated them for evidence or answers!" Bucky yelled at Y/N. Y/N sighed deeply. "Here we go..." She muttered underneath her breath.

Y/N had always been kind to Bucky despite his condescending persona towards her. She looked past it, blinded by her love for the man. He particularly liked to belittle her in front of others. She's no fool. She knew what he was doing and why he was doing it. "And now you're silent!?" Bucky went on condescending and patronizing her, but Y/N heard the exertion in his voice. It got meeker and meeker until they reached the safehouse by foot as the bike could not go through the snowpack.

Y/N noticed the limp in Bucky's step, his right leg particularly. She noticed the discomfort in his eyes when he sat down after checking around and locking the door. She grabbed her medical aid and kneeled in front of him by the fireplace. "Goodness, no, I don't need you messing up another thing. I'm fine. Wish I had Natasha here instead." Bucky groaned when he caught on to what she was doing. Y/N ignored the nauseating jealousy. Bucky looked mortified as she forced him to remove his trousers but allowed him to keep the thermal knee-length pants on.

She rolled the left side of the pants up where a dark red patch was. Bucky hissed in discomfort. Y/N gasped quietly at the wound, getting disinfectant and cleaning the wound carefully. She disinfected the needle with a lighter before stitching up his wound and putting cream and a plaster over.

The whole time, Bucky was complaining. Y/N droned out his voice to focus on his wound. When she was doing up the bandage, Bucky was still condescending her, "You tie as crap as you fly. Ha, that rhymes. But seriously. Did you attend the medical course?". That was it. Y/N ripped off that bandage (not the plaster) and gathered her stuff quickly before getting up and storming off. Bucky scoffed, but he did not even convince himself.

Bucky had several attempts at putting the bandage on properly himself, but he gave in when the pain got to him. Shamefully, Bucky made his way upstairs with the bandage. His heart leapt into his throat when he saw Y/N in her thermal clothing and not the suit. Y/N's mission attire was not nearly at voluptuous as Nat's, Bucky never assumed she had such a fine pair of legs. He watched as she scrubbed at his trousers to clean the blood before hanging them in front of the fireplace.

"You may come in, James." Bucky's heart dropped at her voice. She noticed him and called him by his full name. "I uh.. look, I'm sorry. But I need help with the bandage." Bucky croaked. Y/N sighed as she put her hands on her hips. "Why? I assume you attended the medical course?" Y/N tilted her head to the side. "No.. I didn't." Bucky's dropped his head slightly. "Sit down on the bed which, by the way, I'm sleeping in tonight." She said.

After wrapping Bucky's bandage properly and giving him clothes she'd found, Y/N shooed Bucky out of her room. Out of boredom, Bucky went through files of the agents the safehouse had and their personal lives. Bucky lingered on Y/N's. He looked at her rescuing people and animals. He kept his eyes on one where Y/N held a baby. A brief image of her holding a blue-eyed baby and standing beside him flashed before his eyes.

He looked at her in a pretty sundress. Good grief. How did they know and acquire all this about her personal life? Did she know? Was someone stalking her? Bucky's blood boiled with rage at the thought. Bucky closed the file and put it away as he heard Y/N coming downstairs. His skin crawled as he recognized the sweatpants adorning her lovely legs. Steve's.

"Where'd you get Steve's sweatpants?" He asked before he could think. "I didn't know that they were his. I found them in the drawer." She said. "And you didn't check for any women's clothing?" Bucky snarled. She had it.

"I am done with you constantly condescending me, James Barnes! I have only been kind to you from the start, and all you've done is misuse my kindness. I'm fed up with your constant attempts at making me feel less clever or competent because I can assure you that I am at a much higher level that you make me out to be. I'm aware that I might not be some professionally trained assassin or spy or have any remote form of superpowers or supernatural abilities, but I am far more intellectually competent than most! Mark my words. Once we are done with this mission, I will make sure that you never have to spend a moment in my presence again! You can find yourself a woman who meets your delusional capabilities for accommodating you on a mission! I. Am. Done." She went back upstairs.

Though she was stern with what she had to say, she did not yell or raise her voice. She addressed him calmly and maturely. Bucky felt even worse because of that.

Bucky made little effort to stop himself from going back to the file. His heart launched into his throat. He felt like a cartoon character with heart eyes floating after his lover and a visible hammering heart. There stood Y/N in a 1940s themed dress. Hair curled accordingly. Lips painted red. Her dazzling smile captured his heart solidly. A soldier's blazer, almost identical to his, was draped over her shoulders. If he had not seen her date of birth, he would have assumed that she was from that time.

Bucky put away the file after he had looked through it around eight times. He made his way upstairs after ensuring the door was locked and the fire was out. With a slight struggle to be quiet, he was in front of her door. He knocked quietly. "What, Barnes?" He could hear the frustration in her voice. "May I come in?" He asked. "Why?" Was all that she answered. "I want to apologize to you. Face to face." After a few moments of silence, the door creaked open. Y/N closed it once Bucky was in to trap in the heat.

"I don't know where to begin.." Bucky admitted. "Sit down. You need to ease the usage of your leg a little. And before you say anything, we were taught this in the course." Y/N said. "I wasn't going to condescend you. I swear I'll try my best to never do that again." Bucky said truthfully as he sat down.

Y/N assisted him in elevating his leg. "I don't know why it's so... normal today. My wounds are usually much less painful and heal easily." Bucky said. "It's a pretty deep wound, sarge." Y/N said. "Sarge?" Bucky grinned. "Sorry." Was what Y/N said as she sat down on the windowsill. "No, no, I like it. Takes me back to my golden days." Bucky smiled. "You sound as old as you are." Bucky laughed at that.

"Look, Y/N/N. I should probably start from the day we met. I should never have treated you like any less. And let me assure you, I've never for a moment believed that you are any less, even if I've treated you otherwise. I knew from the start that you were sharp. Smart. Kind. Able. Clever, very clever. Undoubtedly beautiful. And what threw me off is when you were kind to everyone else, and I was new, you were kind to me. When everyone hated me, you were still kind to me. I feared the worst. So I tried to convince myself that you are less than what you actually are, to justify the fear of being mortified by such a real doll. A dame. A babe, as you youngsters say." Y/N chuckled at the last bit.

"I am not trying to justify my actions with nice words! I'm being completely honest about what and why. You looked at me like you were proud of me. Like I wasn't such a worthless undes-" "Hey. Don't inflict any more hatred on yourself. HYDRA created enough negative neural pathways. We need to cover them with positive thoughts. So that we can see more of that smile that charmed ladies into paying for a meal." Y/N said. Bucky looked at the floor with tinted cheeks. "You're a.. what do they call it? Nerf? Nurd. Nerd. You're such a nerd." It was Y/N's turn to laugh.

"I didn't want to make this apology about me. I really am so sorry. I sure don't deserve it, but if you can find it in your heart to forgive me, I'd be honored." Bucky said with a small smile. The air in the room was far more pleasant. "I forgive you, Bucky. I forgave you the moment you knocked on that door." Y/N said. "What? Why?" Bucky was puzzled. "Because you made the effort to come upstairs and apologize to me. You could've called me downstairs or buzzed me. But you came upstairs. That alone was an apology in itself." Y/N smiled.

Bucky recognised that smile as the one from the picture with the baby, and the one where she cradled a kitten amidst a rescue, and the one with the sundress, and the one on that 40s themed photograph. He saw her true smile. A sight that he was instantly hooked on. He mimicked her smile. "Could we try again? At being partners in the work field? I really need you on my team. Even though I never wanted to admit it. Maybe friends?" Bucky wanted so much more than friends.

"I'd love nothing more, sarge." Y/N got up and shook his hand. That's where the friendship brewed from.

xxxx

Fin.

Part 2?

Not proofread.

Gif not mine

[katsigian]

Very slowly and painfully revamping my blog 🫠 painfully because the adhd is kicking my whole ass!! It's irritating me just enough that I have to revamp and clean everything up, but not quite interesting enough for me to like, breeze through it in a hyperfixated whirlwind

AAAND my oc website is coming along too, albeit a little slowly 🫠 I got the domain, I have the layout set basically I got the barest of bones set up already. The hardest part has been writing out OC lore and details. I currently have 16 OCs active dude how am I supposed to write out 16 bios in a timely manner 😭 fuckin. Valen and Vesper over here. With 20+ years of lore for me to write in a semi legible and readable manner 👁👄👁

So if you wanted to maybe check out my little page here on Tumblr (not the katsigian.blog or whatever yet bc that's getting revamped too) I think it's coming along saurrr pretty so far. My color palette changed to gold/green/mint/cream and I moved all my specific fandom stuff to a sideblog

So yeah katsigian is now just an OC blog - yes, I'm still technically using cyberpunk as my creative outlet and the base for my worldbuilding/stories, but I'm pretty well fandomless at the moment. I have no one specific fandom rn and it's been peaceful. Like really peaceful. I love not being subjected to fandom drama and just existing in my lane over here with my ocs 🫶

[blackstar5078]

☆ PINNED MASTERPOST ☆

Liveblogs side-blog.

Art side-blog.

Hi, this is my main AND personal blog. I will not hesitate to reblog about the stuff I love or make ramble posts.

Here is a list of the franchises that appear on my blog the most (subject to be updated at any moment):

Sonic the Hedgehog, Cookie Run, Ninjago, Murder Drones, Minecraft, Pokemon.

A lot of animated shows/movies, big fan of those (OKKO, Lego Monkie Kid, Amphibia and Infinity Train are huge beloveds). I love RPG and cozy/sim games, but specially games with a good story and/or lore. I'm not too into anime or live-action content, do not expect that here.

Tags List:

#Black's Ask Box (Whenever I open it, rn it's closed).

#Art blog reblog (My rbs from my art side-blog).

#Black's Gaming Adventures (Sometimes I talk about how is it going for me while I game).

Any franchise that I reblog stuff of, I tag it for organization purposes, in case anyone wants to look up an specific franchise on my blog. I also tag SPOILERS, so be mindful to filter those tags in case you don't want to be spoiled about a franchise I rb constantly.

EGGCARTONSMP

I do Minecraft roleplay on an smp, I also help admin it.

ECSMP Masterpost (SOON).

To check out my main's lore, the tag is: #ecsmp wither

Credits:

Stardust Cookie Layouts: @/syanji

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[tallsc]

AvM Ep 33 Commentary

Gonna do a little bit of commentary and whatever important points I notice while watching through the episode, all below the cut so AVM EP 33 SPOILERS BELOW.

I actually love getting to see what more blocks do, not just the command block + lucky block cause a lot of these seem to have different effects and that's awesome. The chaos of this episode is absolutely gonna be Red's fault isn't it though, I see you sneaking off there.

Guys. Guys Yellow canonically sleeps. At some point they have managed to sleep. This is a miracle.

Red just flung the command block away to some random place is this gonna be important later? Also the creeper bee keeps showing up so that feels also important probably

Red just broke a universe oh n o and kidnapped the sentient-looking lucky orb thing

Wait they changed the layout of their house??? Why does Red sleep in the same room as Green???? Does Blue not sleep on the floor anymore??????? NOOO BLUE DOESN'T SLEEP ON THE FLOOR NOOOOOO

Also 1 I love how the orb block creature is animated and 2 they look kinda scared from my perspective, which makes sense if so cause they just got dragged to a new universe and there's this stick thing (which looks a lot like the kind of creature that kidnapped them last time) trying to get them again.

Orange is fighting much more defensively than usual, first three moves I see from them is to block an attack on Green, catch Red (justice for Arcade Games) and take out another shield.

Everyone's gotten very good at this though, I love seeing them employ their skills cause they've all gotten a lot stronger as time goes on. Blue with the potion, Yellow with even just the normal command block, ect

Oh no they've all been eaten IS THE BEE OKAY THO WAIT NO THE BEE'S BEEN TAKEN NOOO the bee's kinda okay though

Oh and you've taught the shiny chaos orb who doesn't seem to like you guys at all how to make block staffs that surely can only go well, I love the effect on the lucky block environment though it's so cool.

Red. Red did you learn that from Green. Using a pick to break lines of blocks coming at you so you can get closer to an enemy. Green used that on you Red. That feels very familiar.

Green that doesn't seem the most useful block to GREEN YOU JUST KILLED PEOPLE WITH MUSIC. THAT'S TERRIFYING. CAN YOU JUST SING SOMEONE TO DEATH???? LIKE WOULD THAT WORK UNDER YOUR OWN POWER IF YOU WERE GOOD ENOUGH AT IT??????

Blue the most acrobatic just pogo-ing their way to victory, also the slightly 3d shot of Red's sword in a standstill is interesting.

Please creeper bee don't explode by the end of this you're so sweet you make the ghast happy you make Red happy you make me happy you make everyone happy oh there you go into the hive

Red silly also Red's got two now, hoping they don't get to bring these home cause these seem overpowered if everyone's got them all the time

HA RED AIN'T POSSESSED BY HEROBRINE THIS TIME HEROBRINE'S CONTROLLED BY RED

Idk I'm probably gonna have to watch this fight a couple times I'm just enjoying the show rn, a lot of different fighting styles coming into play, a lot of interesting stuff you can put in the staff, a boat fighting people, tis fun.

How nice they put all the blocks back and surely the shiny chaos orb won't do anything wrong and is definitely not going to kill everyone with their newfound power

Just love the fighting styles used in this, Yellow and Red teaming up, Red helping Orange out, Green thinking with portals and grappling hook adjacent, Blue doing acrobatic flying, Red and Orange are embracing the powers of Herobrine and the Warden respectively, it's all great

Bedrock cages are kinda rude though smh SOMEONE GET THE BEE THE BEE SHALL SAVE US ALLLLLL MAYBE THE CHAOS ORB LIKES THE CHAOS HYBRID BEE

Wait they actually did get the bee I wrote that before Red did anything NOOOO THE BEE NOOOOOOOO THE BEE'S NOBLE SACRIFICE o7 you were my new favorite character gone but not forgotten

Yellow just looked so annoyed while waiting for their bedrock to break

THEY MADE A MEMORIAL TOO THANK YOU o7 bee I must draw fanart of them soon

On one hand f a i r but on the other you never got after Blue or Yellow that much for causing trouble, give Red a break they did save you all at least

Anyway ye there's my thoughts on the initial episode and most things I noticed off the bat, now time to see what other people think

[desidarling123]

SAB Scene Breakdown: Inej's Hallucination

OK, so I had actually been meaning to write and publish some meta on this particular scene (and just tons of SAB S2 meta, in general) in the weeks after the second season of the show came out. But life has been crazy recently, so I truly never found the time.

However, I reblogged a certain gifset a few days/weeks ago, slapped some tags on it, and realized there might indeed be some interest in some more #detailed thoughts.

The analysis that follows is at a pretty minute level of detail (and all of course based on MY views) so... take that with a grain of salt.

Also - fair warning - it's long as hell 😂 but entertaining, I hope!

I find this whole sequence in general super fascinating - it's one of my favorite scenes in the second season, and one that's also arguably subject to the absolute worst takes in fandom (iykyk... and if you don't, well, you're about to find out.)

So, let's get into it:

We start off strong with a very specific choice, made early on: it's not Inej seducing Kaz; rather, it's Kaz who's drawing Inej into this vision.

I get a bit more into the broader implications of that a bit later, but it's definitely important that it's done this way, rather than the other way around.

It's also, very notably, an inverse of this scene from a few episodes earlier:

What's unique about that previous scene is that in that moment, he's deliberately pushing her away (for reasons, mind you, that she's not entirely privy to, but definitely hurt her regardless - even if she pretends not to care about it to his face later on).

This is different. Instead of pushing her away, he is asking her to stay.

The choice of words is specific too: the word 'disappear' most obviously references her status as his spider. But it might also be an apt description of her own personal trappings, of 'disappearing' when in the throes of trauma-induced pressure.

Some atmospheric details I love:

Their IRL confrontation was in his office-cum-bedroom (👀shutup), a tiny, crammed space that matched the tension of that scene. This is the opposite of that - the room has a more open layout, imbuing the whole sequence with a more relaxed vibe. We can even see his cane chilling on the table behind him, just in reaching distance.

The DeKappel painting which they jointly stole in the books (and presumably on the show as well) is behind them.

Fire burning as a symbol for latent passion is not exactly groundbreaking imagery, but don't fix what ain't broke, amirite? :P

Malina, very notably, gets the same fire imagery treatment in their own love scene as well:

Will it show up again in a future season for kanej? Between that and, well, the recurring church imagery, we're in for a tossup, folks

But anyways. Back to the scene at hand.

You'll notice Inej goes back to a formal stance, hands behind her back, like she's preparing for a debrief or for an assignment. It's for a few seconds, if that, but it shows that she's grasping at some semblance of normalcy in this decidedly not-normal vision.

That facade lasts for all of, two seconds, tops, when he does this:

It's sexy! It's intimate! There's knives involved!

Okay, but seriously, for the sake of time I actually will not get into a deeper discussion of the ~implications~ because I'm sure it's been done a zilllion times before and it's also fairly obvious lol

Now, the one thing I *do* want to pivot to here is that by this point, both Inej and the audience understand that there is something very subtly yet fundamentally different about hallucination!Kaz.

But what is it?

Speaking on this scene, Freddy Carter had a quote (that I cannot be arsed to find rn) where he basically said that he deferred to Amita when playing hallucination!Kaz because "she (Amita) knows better (than I do) what it is that Inej likes about Kaz"

And what is it, exactly, that she likes about him? The next few gifs tell all, using actions rather than words.

This is her reaction to him pulling her knives from her. And what I find so interesting is that she is so (rightfully) startled....

But that is absolutely NOT the expression on his face at all.

In fact, he's remarkably self-assured.

And THAT, I think, is the crux of 'what it is she likes about him', as Frreddy said.

She likes his decisiveness, the single-minded precision with which he operates.

She's seen him apply it to every last scheme, every seemingly-hopeless situation... to damn near everything in the world, really, but her.

But here, in the depths of her hallucination, he does.

There are none of his usual hangups, none of their typically frustrating back-and-forths.

No. Here, he doesn't hesitate. He wants her, and he makes it known.

Striking, sexy stuff, to say least.

Let's go on:

Nothing to add here except that I'm obsessed with the way their heads turn at the same time here.

It's funny, because for all their personal hang-ups when it comes to physical intimacy, these two are SURPRISINGLY physically attuned to each other.

Goes to show, really, how much both of their problems are in their heads (obviously) -- and how, when they're actually ready to heal, relying on their intuition may be a better approach than getting too cerebral about it.

Again, Kaz does not break eye contact with her here, and it's such a contrast to what he might have instead done if this were happening in real life - in fact, does happen, in real life, though I'd argue that isn't exactly his fault.

I love that we get a moment where Inej looks down and sees his hand hovering near her waist, just so that it's made explicitly clear what he's asking for and what the ~implications~ are.

And then, she says yes! Enthusiastically, I might add.

Not but seriously the sheer want, the little touch of eagerness on her face kills me here. She's never had this experience before - has only ever known men violating her in the most horrible way possible - and yet this tiny little thing, of Kaz asking her for consent, means so much.

Oh my God Kaz is so sexy here sorry no words anyway carrying on.

Now even after she said yes you can see this sudden little beat of hesitation on her face, like she's maybe not sure what's going to happen or if Kaz is going to do what she asked. For her it's a moment of incredible vulnerability, even though Kaz is the one sort of making the advances on her - because this one time, she actually gets to say yes.

I think that shot of his arm going around her waist is so gorgeous and so sensual - but as we pan up we can see that maybe all isn't well.

Now, Amita also really does a fantastic job at portraying the turbulence of Inej's emotions -- she goes from clearly wanting it and saying 'yes', to visibly panicking once he acts on it. We see her shift around in his grip and even swallow nervously, blink-blink-blinking herself back into the moment.

Her response is reminiscent of this passage from the books:

But what might have happened if he'd spoken that night? If he had willingly offered her some part of his heart? What if he had come to her, laid his gloves aside, drawn her to him, kissed her mouth? Would she have pulled him closer, kissed him back? Could she have been herself in such a moment, or would she have broken apart and vanished, a doll in his arms, a girl who could never quite be whole?

You can see the very beginning of that sort of panic start to set in, here. This is completely uncharted territory for Inej - her own desire, the shame and baggage that comes with it, is all getting uncovered for the first time in what is arguably the 'safest' way possible - within the confines of her own mind - and yet, she's still panicking.

More on that in a bit. Let's keep going.

Anyways well Freddy's got a huge hand sorry anyway 

I love the way she closes her eyes here. And you can see again it's not without effort - like there's still conflict within her, you can see all of those different emotions warring within her - but she is trying to let herself have this moment. She's trying to take comfort in this touch that she so desperately wants and yet hasn't had any sort of good connotations with in recent history. 

She also opens her eyes just as he starts to lean in and I think that was a great, deliberate choice on Amita and Freddy's part.

It's that precise moment, really, when it becomes super super clear to her what's about to happen.

No notes, I just really love this forehead lean, it's that little bit of tenderness and intimacy that she's been subconsciously craving.

 Again, it's fascinating to me that we can see all of Inej's nervous tics coming into play here, but for hallucination!Kaz there's absolutely no hesitation at any point whatsoever.

It looks like, for all intents and purposes, he is going to kiss her.

And then at the very very last second you see him move back, ever-so-slightly --

and then she moves all the way back and delivers her line:

Ouch. Like a punch to the gut. True, but still ouch.

Now one could probably ask, in hypotheticals: why didn't he actually kiss her at this moment? And the answer to that simply is: this is her hallucination, you know? Even though she's not conscious of it (she's dying lol), she's the one with all the power, here.

And truthfully, whether she knows it or not, nothing is going to happen in her hallucination if she doesn't want it to.

But wait, you might say. Doesn't she want to kiss Kaz?

Like that original excerpt from the book indicates, it's complicated. Everything pertaining to desire generally will be, for her.

Not that her subconscious doesn't put up a good ol' fight. Hallucination!Kaz, you have to remember, isn't so much Kaz as he is a very precise amalgamation of her own memories and desires.

And boy, does he make a good argument:

The word want, again, spoken so directly here - it's that sort of straightforward speech that neither party is actually really capable of (at this point) in their arcs, not when it comes to each other.

Again, Kaz is behaving perfectly in the prescribed character of his hallucination persona - direct, confident, not rattled in the slightest.

It's interesting also that he doesn't say: this is real. He isn't able to lie to her in her own fantasy, but he does instead tell her exactly what she wants to hear, which is arguably even more dangerous.

And what I feel so terrible about is you can see this tiny little spark this little bit of hope on her face that she has.

She wants to believe this so so badly. She wants it, damn it!

So this time, she actually moves closer, crosses that distance between them. 

You can't see it super well in this gif, but you can see a little tiny muscle twitch in her jaw, a nervous swallow as she's bracing for him to kiss her the second time. And once again, Kaz isn't hesitating, there isn't any note of that discordant thing that they have in real life from his end.

Now another thing that drives me crazy is people claiming that they did kiss in the scene like bro. Bro. Freddy and Amita did not shoot this scene at no less three separate angles for you to tell us that they kissed!! They didn't kiss, they make it incredibly obvious that they did not kiss, and if you're the one person on planet Earth whose definition of a kiss is front lips brushing for .0000000002 seconds then I'm sorry, you belong to a different category, okay?

And again, that was on purpose! It totally would have defeated the purpose of this particular sequence if they had (and would've given detractors of this scene a real leg to stand on - again, more on that at the very end.)

But as it stands, they don't kiss, and that's also kind of critically why this isn't just a sexy scene to watch back.

AND THEN (I'm out of allowed images HAHA) she pulls away. And she says the words that end it all - This isn't real. This is the poison.

The premise of the hallucination is completely shattered, and she looks so heartbroken, but she's finally able to articulate what she's really known this whole time, and that is that nothing she's seeing is real. It is a lie being fed to her by her poison-addled brain as her body slowly succumbs and dies (dark).

But you know, she does get out of it through sheer willpower, and we love her for that - but oh man but what cost?

This particular sequence is definitely a catalyst for her changed behavior going forward. I do actually wish it had been a little better handled in the show (as in, better supported by dialogue in scenes before and after this one) but regardless - this scene is a Big Tipping Point and starts what is essentially a pseudo-regression arc for Inej (paraphrasing Amita directly, bc that's truly the most apt description of Inej's behavior for the rest of the season.)

It's really bad timing, unfortunately, because it happens just as Kaz is starting to open up like never before. He's starting to see the world in a completely different light while she's doing the exact opposite -- she is shutting down her own dreams and desires when it comes to him, because she's come to the conclusion that it's simply not going to happen.

And you know what, she's not entirely wrong for that assumption, but I do have beef with some of the particulars of how it was executed in the show. But that's a discussion for another day.

Now, onto a brief rant that I alluded to at the very start of this post - my single biggest grievance with fandom is that someone on the internet decided that this scene somehow ‘erased’ Inej’s trauma, when in fact that exact trauma is what underpins the whole damn thing.

The fact that this scene more or less parallels the passage from the books beat for beat, shows, in my opinion, that book fans who make these claims of 'erasure' must have deliberately chosen to ignore this passage from the books, or never even read it in the first place.

Because frankly? Once you take that passage into consideration, the intent of this sequence couldn't have been more obvious!

Just to underscore my point, I want to ask anyone who's reading this to please compare and contrast Inej’s hallucination with Matthias’ dream. If the intent, as many so often like to claim, was simply to make this moment in Inej’s mind a sexy, titillating scene, well then, it would have been shot a lot more closely to the way Matthias’ dream was shot: there's no lack of kissing and even implied penetration (!) which is crazy, because of course, Matthias and Nina have gotten nowhere near that in real life.

There's a sexual aspect to her dream, for sure, but it's not a stereotypically-passionate 'sex dream' so much as it is a thinly-veiled reading into her own desires and the inner turmoil that comes with it.

There's also a very subtle undercurrent here that I picked up on and explore in my ongoing fic , which is that Kaz, in these fantasies, is really always the one taking the lead, so to speak. Inej is not pulling him close or asking to kiss him - and we see that even when she consents to the act, she looks like she's bracing herself for it, rather than excited that it'll happen.

That is fueled no doubt by 1) her realizing it isn't real but also 2) the fact that she is still very much in the middle of her own trauma (having been freed like what? mere days ago? if that?)

Any concept of her own independent desire is still saddled with IMMENSE baggage - and this sequence showcases it perfectly.

I think after the fact, she's consciously aware of 1) but not yet aware of 2) which is beating around in her subconscious and is probably gonna cause her WAYY more problems going forward lol

TLDR; Inej doesn't know it just yet, but she's got loads of her own issues to work through, and until she does, she's going to be stuck in this weird purgatory of being a voyeur to/of her own desires.

[kiatheinsomniac]

helloooo! (im pretty new to tumblr so sorry if im sending this in the wrong place or if im doing smth wrong 😭🙏). anyway ive wanted to start writing for a while now and ive always rlly loved seeing how writers interact with their readers. based on what ive seen so far, tumblr seemed like the best place to start bc of the way it works compared to wattpad and ao3 :>

basically rn im pretty clueless as to how im supposed to approach this. ive tried looking up a few things that talk about how to manage your blog and how to be consistent with posts, but nothing rlly talks about how to start. i love your works so i was wondering if you maybe had a few tips or if u could just share how you got started in the first place :D

hey anon! don't worry, it's all cool and I love getting to talk to people from my ask b (somehow it always feels easier to reply to than a private message imo lol).

I'll hit you with my main pointers in no particular order:

-aesthetics. having a particular style of post makes your works stand out and makes your post format memorable to readers. if they're just scrolling through tags, seeing different posts of a distinct style that they like is a good way to get them to go from the tag to your blog and explore more of what you have to offer. idk about anyone else but I'm usually terrible at looking at the usernames of writers when I'm reading from tags. some examples of these distinct formats would be like how I've been using coloured banners that match my blog theme at the time, a particular colour palette perhaps, the layout of how I summarise my posts before the actual fic begins (amino has some great symbols and blog decor to copy and paste). I'll always use @edensrose as another example of having a signature post format because her pinks and aesthetics are so distinct to her blog and style. I'm pretty sure she's got lots of reblogs about how to make and find and get inspo for different blog aesthetics too!

-tags. for a blog that's starting out on a new platform, tags are so important! use all sorts on your posts that people might be searching up in any variety, all versions of that character's name maybe, popular abbreviations of the source media's name, stuff like that. it's like casting a net further out the more tags you add. this is a great way for people to initially find you and spread your posts through reblogs etc.

-be interactive. reblog from other writers! leave messages and praise in the tags! this is another great way to get people's attention so they can find your blog and it's an easy way to get mutuals too! having mutuals to talk about your interests and writing with makes the tumblr experience so much more enjoyable and it's a wonderful way of making friends. tumblr isn't as algorithm-y as other platforms like tiktok or instagram so supporting each other is important! collaborative events with writers is great fun too! basically just put yourself on people's radar!

-consistency. you can be consistent without having to write all the time. I will never stop expressing how important reblogs are for creators and communities on here. so that your followers don't think you've fallen off the face of the earth, reblog other sorts of posts in the meantime! art, memes, other people's writing, you name it. and using your queue is a great way to be consistent without having to be online all the time! you can select to add a post to your queue (where tumblr will post it depending on how many posts you want to be published from your queue each day) or you can schedule it for a specific time.

-just really put yourself out there. sending people asks can be a little intimidating but I promise you a little "hey, I really love your work and particularly liked X post! it was great!" can make someone's day, it'll never be a bother, everyone likes a bit of appreciation. You've come to me for help with anon which I don't mind but I'd have loved to be able to promote your blog a little with my reply or even been a bit nosy on your blog myself lol. I can promise you I am not some popular mean girl who's gonna sneer at you when I am literally typing this out after having just posted smut while in a catboy t-shirt 💀

[123gocat]

okay so ,,. my thoughts on A Minecraft Movie bc silly

made this part of the post all colorful bc yea

(spoiler warning sorta) (well yes) (very angry catto ahead.. be warned!!!) (well sort of, i tried to stay calm ish.)

(also eyestrain warning bc lots of wordz,,.,)

i typically wont rant about this type of stuff because personally i don't care that much. but seeing the reviews on A Minecraft Movie is actually sad, especially coming from someone who watched it in theaters and actually enjoyed it.

., keep in mind i wrote this after i watched a very angering review video from one of those "film critics"" who only say bad stuff about everything. so i apologize if my tone is very... y'knoww. (literally can't think of the word rn ;p) however i edited in some stuff after to kinda make it sound less rude but idkkk. i don't think it is but it might be so apologies in advance if you disagree with me.

you are allowed to have your opinion, and i'm allowed to have mine.

please take this with a teeny tiny grain of sand.

with that in mind onto the really long probably pointless rant

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to get straight to the point, i absolutely LOVED the movie. here's why:

i liked the awkward sorta wacky humor, it gives off napoleon dynamite vibes, early 2009 movies type deal. (duh, it's by the same director.)

the cheesy lines, it feels like it adds a sort of wholesomeness to it??

the plot, unlike a lot of movies i've seen recently, the plot is stable, well built up, and understandable.

the character development, sure it occasionally seemed like it was off track in the beginning, but TONS of movies do that and i don't see anybody complaining about that. plus, it makes sense later in the movie.

the acting and the actors, (need i say more?) okay i will. i love how steve literally just says random things when it happens. my deadass can't stop laughing at "FLINT AND STEEL‼️‼️" "CHICKEN JOCKEY🤭🤭" and all the other silly lines they have.,,.- it's not supposed to be serious. why so serious. it's silly. it's fun. live a little.

the soundtrack, it's a good mix between the original minecraft soundtrack and some other songs fitting the moment, don't necessarily know how to explain it but the pigstep scene was really cool to me.

, heck, the art style? it grew on me in the first couple weeks of the trailer release. i feel like that's just people's opinion that it's bad because they're not USED to it. ofc, they want it to be the standard 3d minecraft animation style, like, literally every other minecraft animation EVER?? i like the originality.

and the REFERENCES? oh god the references i loved them so much. technoblade, cooked chicken farm from 11 years ago, everything. just look closer and you'll notice a LOT.

people tend to complain about the plot of it, but yeah, that's why it's called "A" minecraft movie. it's not SUPPOSED to be following a specific plot. I believe the main elements are from minecraft legends, though, but it takes different elements from different games, such as the boots of swiftness from minecraft dungeons and the references to the early concepts of the game. also, just the layout. if you didn't watch it in theaters, then i'll have you know ALEX was referenced at the end!!! i always stay for the ending snippets after the credits. also unrelated sort of related, the text color in the credits was lowkey a vibe. like it kinda hurt my eyes but in a good way kinda vibe.

what i'm saying is, i feel like people are giving it a bad review either cuz they're being biased and crabby, or because literally everyone else on the internet is doing so. let people have fun. go outside. you're not a movie critic, you're a basement dweller. a very nit picky one at that. but what do i know maybe my recommendations are just screwed up with negative stuff. i try to block it out as much as possible, not interact and feed into it and such. but it's what's trending, so i'll just live with that. and wait for something i don't care about to come along, for people to complain about instead. (i'm calling it lollll) (i literally hate the internet sometimezzs ughhh)

or maybe, you just don't like it cuz it's not ur thing. maybe you don't like it because you were expecting something different. maybe you don't like it for other reasons.

that's fine too.

, don't be biased based on the first trailer and impressions. be open minded. have fun. (psst! you fell for the ragebait!! you're giving them more money!!!!)

also, the fact that i see stuff like "why does everybody think it's so great i didn't like it" is absolutely mind boggling. look around!! EVERYBODY is talking about how bad it is. EVERYBODY is agreeing with the majority, because that's simply how people are. you are NOT in the minority for disliking the movie, pal. join the crowd.

(again, maybe i'm just on a bad side of the internet, and there's another side that's talking about how good it is. trust me i'm looking!!! ;w; )

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goodness, apologies for my tone! i'm usually not this,, how do i put it,,,. defensive? i usually don't swear haha qwq

gosh. again, please take this with a grain of salt it's late at night and i'm in a ,,. mood so to say. ;/

( ((i suggest reading the tags but you don't have to)))

((okay okay i'm gonna post it now my opinion to the interwebz oh golly oh gee i haven't done this in a bit okay stawp stalling okay. okay i'll post it now. okay,. i'll do it. h.hhh,.,. OKAY)))

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

btw ella how has your experience with neocities been? is it hard to work with? and can you keep adding pages forever? i've been thinking of making one but i'm tech illiterate and scared lol

o i rly love it its complete freedom to me ^^ u can add pretty much as many pages as u want, i think there's a limit eventually but it'd b hard to reach, i have 40-ish pages rn and it sstill says i've only used 144kb out of 1g. i feel like html is way easier than it seems !! i learned it when i was so little like 9 or 10 and by the time i was 13 everyone i knew was an html/css whiz cus of myspace n whatnot. html is just learning how to copy/paste the right thing into the right spot lol. html is just googling stuff.. So dont b scared just dive in its the only way to learn :]

o i was searching for this site sadgirl something or other that has html lessons and i found this! https://sadgrl.online/projects/layout-builder/ it's a layout builder that makes it easy to start a site without knowing much at all ^-^ how dope!! everyone make a site pls...we could have a neocities network...with animated links and everything ooo i can see it in mymind shining so bright +++