#this post is /hs just in case

[katyspersonal]

Can't wait to find at least one Soulsborne character I personally could genuinely hate tbh. Every time I think I hate them, I end up warming up to them anyways in some hard to explain way? Like I found things to like in Logarius and Aldrich, ffs!

I haven't checked out all Elden Ring characters yet, sure, but I hope this game won't fail me in my search for the most despicable fucker I can finally hate without any ifs or but alsos xD

[insufferablemod]

thinking about the differences and similarities between aradia and dave and their doomed selves.......................... dave walking on a constant tightrope to keep himself and his friends on the alpha timeline, doing everything he can, giving up his personhood, walking over his own corpse time and time again, aware that one wrong move dooms them all meanwhile i know aradia was also aware of this but doesn't seem to care, partially cus of being a dead robot sure but also maybe because their doomed selves function in different ways. dave's act as a warning and safety net for the alpha timeline, they show him what he has to do to keep the alpha timeline safe aradia's are a tool, a weapon, the more of them there are the stronger she is which makes me think its likely that unlike dave, during the trolls session aradia didn't try and stop any doomed timeline offshoots. i don't think shes the type to have Encouraged them, actively dooming timelines, but it was a necessary part of her role. for them to win, they needed an army both aradia and dave also view the end result as the only important factor, the end justifies the means aradia talking to dead dave about how dave needs to be prepared to die a thousand deaths to complete their quest dave not telling jade that shes about to pump him full of lead both use it as an excuse/justification to do what they want in a way, ghost aradia wrecking random shit, but its fine, there's probably a reason for it, and if there's not, one more doomed timeline is just another doomed self to join the final battle dave's thing about being mad that no one else seems mad n how this way he at least gets to try n go for jack, even knowing hell die, he saw it happen so hes allowed to be reckless, hes allowed to let go the freedom and captivity of time you both have no control over anything, forced to follow the whims of The Alpha timeline if you want to survive, but it also absolves you of responsibility, it Had to happen this way we'd all have been doomed if it hadn't.

[oceanwithouthermoon]

me when satousai-

me when satousai in aus where satou is the average nobody main character who gets stuck in a silly situation and saiki is the wacky mysterious powerful being who he gets stuck with and they end up falling in love-

[heroesspirit]

Happy Valentine’s Day

[yardsards]

s1 luz was at least a little bit gay for willow i will not be told otherwise

idk if it was a full on crush but it was at least one of those types of nebulous not-quite-romantic not-quite-platonic "hahaha, unless..." type friendships that a lot of queer teens have, u know the ones

[malaierba]

Thinking about Karamatsu/Nozomi whole looking through some web weavings, and if I ever write something for them (currently in the phase of trying to come up with key events and organise them chronologically so it makes sense, thematically) I think I'd like this to be one of the take aways

In the event of a bad ending (dunno if I'm strong enough for that though 🫠 SHE CAN CHANGE HIM WITHOUT DYING im better than that), I hope that Karamatsu still finds it in himself to stop being so passive about his life. Like,

To stop waiting for the perfect moment or the perfect answer to dawn on him, and instead take life by reins and... Just start being an active participant in his own life. To embrace self-determination and the risk of committing to something that may not pan out but still forces you to take conscious and mindful action every day.

[shih-coulda-had-it]

The more I look at it, the more I see afohiko being AFO on the bed kicking his feet like a teenage girl in a 90s movie in love with this grumpy guy on the baseball team who refuses to befriend anyone but this cheerleader girl named Nana. AFO is trying to mean girl his way to sorahiko's heart.

i've never watched mean girls in my life, so i think i'll have to take you at your word. but congratulations i spent real time wondering if i could write a generic high school AU (either based off my experience, or a slice of life anime's). thoughts that resulted from My Experience of High School:

afo is student body president, and a senior to sorahiko's varsity baseball star junior. afo is in debate club, and he's in theater class but specifically for the plays, not musicals. he is nominally in every volunteer activity available to teenagers. he's a varsity golf player.

the freshmen: en and yoichi. the sophomores: banjo and shinomori. the juniors: nana, sorahiko. the seniors: second and third.

they're known as... that group of students who snag one table, specifically, during lunch period. how'd they meet? ... zero period orchestra, and/or out-of-school history.

the afo vs ofa conflict is reduced purely to afo wanting to baby yoichi while they're in high school together, and yoichi flouting afo's rule by hanging with the 'weird' kids.

running concurrent with the issue of the clingy older brother is the issue of afo attempting to date sorahiko. no one likes that.

nana is also a jock! she's definitely a jock!!! of what sport, i don't know (softball? swimming?). no offense to cheerleaders but nana's not one of them.

[hauntedselves]

tw: csa (mention, nothing graphic)

I've been having constant anxiety for like 3+ months now, and i figured it was either a medication issue, a physical issue, or an alter trying to tell me something. i haven't been able to see a dr to figure out the first two, so i finally decided to check inside (i had talked inside, asking whoever it was to stop, but it didn't have any affect. but this time instead of talking at, i was going to listen to.)

the part - i think a fragment who only held this - warned me it was going to be what i suspected, but also told me i was ready to know. the memory they shared was only a body memory (i never understood that term before but i do now), just tactile sensation, and it confirmed what I've suspected for a while - somewhere along the line, i experienced CSA.

i think that fragment has integrated now. as soon as the memory was over (and it was only a few seconds), i felt a knot dissolve in my stomach (first time i understood that phrase too). the anxiety left (but returned worse in the morning!).

the part warned me that there was more. i guess other parts who hold other aspects of the memory. i don't really want to keep exploring but i think i have to. sadly i only have one more therapy session this year (unless i want to pay full price for it...) but honestly... i think i can try to tackle it on my own.

also the other week my sister's boyfriend's kid (my step niece?) was over and i was triggered and dysregulated, but i didn't recognise it until now. i guess the CSA was when i was around her age (5ish)? which seeing as how i don't remember almost anything from younger than... say, 8ish, makes sense i guess.

i don't really know how to feel but honestly, since i already suspected it and since a Part(s) of me already knew, i don't really feel overwhelmed or triggered about it. just sad, i guess.

[coridallasmultipass]

I'm still internally laughing about that goth Dirk post, so I dug up the pics from the time I did a goth Dirk Strider to an NYCstuck meetup in like 2014/15ish... and this first pic is sending me lmao... it's so cringe and perfect.

My caption on the selfie:

[time-traveling-fetus]

[angel9theye]

Some homestuck "fans" make me laugh a lot, sometimes concerned when I remember there are so many of them.

"DNI if you ship incest" and then they post arasol, solfef, erifef, meowrails, literally any troll x troll ship.

"I take req, but not, you know, obvious problematic ones" is there even just ONE thing about HS that ISN'T 'problematic'? Oh, and they also post incest without knowing it (apparently).

Maybe they're arguably related, you may think, sometimes I think that too, but then I remember THIS PAGE exist and I got confused.

Do "fans" always forget this? Like, yeah, sometimes I forget about it too, but, you know, it cross my mind when I think about it a little.

I don't want to be contoversial though, I'm just sharing my thoughts, because it would be a shame if I discover that only a few fans actually have read the comic they claim to be a fan of.

[synthaphone]

i think green day music exists to be mashed up or remixed or covered by other artists. whenever i’m like ‘damn its been a while, i remember liking this one green day song’ i go to listen to it and it just feels like its missing Something

[deltaruminations]

the problem with me being a Lore Guy first and foremost is that any semi-serious transformative fan work (comics, etc.) i attempt to create has to be fundamentally reimagined to varying degrees in the event that i realize, For Example, Hypothetically, i have misjudged the location and/or layout of a fictional classroom, because i didn't actually sit down and verify all my dumb assumptions against the source text before i started scripting and roughing pencils. what i'm saying is Teacher Gaster Lorepost Finally Coming Soon Maybe

[fuzzyhairedfreak]

Tried to figure out how to sign up for this fic exchange for like 3 hours, @ god why didn’t I inherit any of my family’s good-with-computers genes

[comerosas]

i've been meaning to reread homestuck for a while, i havent read it since i first read it like... 9 years ago (age 15) and itd be cool to experience it a long time later as an adult and as a way to see how much it has influenced my artistic projects.

[girldriveroscar]

CRACKS KNUCKLES heres some parasocial nonsense. pls dont take too serious im just being silly.

insp by @inchidentally the 814 essay GOAT… Hi.

Okyeah analyzing this video and recent posts.

So Like. oscar piastri being the normalTm guy whos still w his hs sweetheart, wears graphic tees and beat up af1s and still vacations w the guys he grew up w, who was actually kinda socialized (as well as any other well-off posh kid who’s parents could afford the luxury of fucking them off to boarding school i digress).. but like, he played pranks w the Lads and got congratulatory slaps on the back, his first crushes wer probs navigated in small talk during class and walking together in the halls? generally just a guy who balanced his social life and Career to Some relatively healthy degree so it’s not like Completely foreign to him how to talk to girls and make friends. and so he gets that building an intimate relationship w someone is mostly just hanging out, experiencing new food tgthr, new movies, walking around a new city, he just gives such a NORMAL GUY answer of a perfect date, and i think part of being socialized the way he was gave him the understanding that grandiose gestures of love kinda just come off as disingenuous. oscar jus reads as a guy whos never resorted to showboating bc his introduction to romance was just like anyone else, awkward shuffling and bonding on the weekends over pizza and homework. and even as a formula 1 RACE WINNER GUY W MONEY hiiiiii, he still has such a cute simple recipe for a perf date bc hes been through it. he knows how to court someone bc it worked and its been working!!!

then on the flip u have THE peacock tm, shirt unbuttoned so low might as well forgo it atp, lando norris whos perfect date idea is hi, (wtf.) YACHT. and sex (exhibitionist freak. sorry who said that…) like boyyyy oh my god shakes him by the shoulders u are so not normal. lando norris, who’s always ben a little comfier than his peers growing up. always out of place bc his dads pockets were Open and Ready to ensure he never had to worry about pinching pennies in a spar for some chips after class Yeah and he doesnt even know it bc thats NEVER been his life? yeaaa and add in a dash of Always being on the race track, never rly socializing w. girls or boys who weren’t in direct competition w him, turning 19 and immediately being sized up to his older hyper-masculine charming And sexy teammate. (getting carried away mb)

lando himself explaining that having to grow up so fast and be a good boy (His words.) prevented him from finding his footing in social settings and only now being able to experience these things at 23/24?!

i digress now also factor in his (alleged…) favorite movie is a silly romcom?! (also maybe just peacocking tho bc “girls love a guy w a soft side” and lando wld know bc he watched one movie about it…. like srsly u want me to believe the hangover and stepbrothers belong in the same category as Romcom u dont rmbr the name of okk weirdo)

so yea of course a boy who’s never passed notes to his crush in class, never asked anyone to a dance, never pulled pranks w his schoolmates, Understands intimacy thru cheesy romcoms an weekends emptying his dads wallet on flights to wtv racing event. LIKE OF COURSE he thinks romance is wtv he can mimic from A. how his dad showed him love (…$$..) and B. what the movies r saying ! (thats socially repressed twin.) AND THE GAG OF IT ALL!!!! is he thinks he is so suave so playboy, “i have sex and let me announce about it publicly in case u doubted it” when the reality of it is like? dude u are thirst-liking instagram models while oscar is Getting it every night ur such a loser omfg.

just Like. Ugh the juxtaposition of oscar whos so secure in himself in his dad shorts and ANKLE socks and lando who just grew out of his awkwardness in his early 20s and now Needs to slut himself out to make up for lost time.

(AND. the double gag is landos still so obviously not secure abt the fact he Doesnt Really Know what hes doing that every one can see it ouhmygodd lando x chernobyl levels of imposter syndrome u are so complicated and angsty U TEENAGE GIRL. holds a can of diet coke to his lips. there there girl. there there.)