#though now i am afraid the others r jealous

[obsob]

in other news. my frog family has expanded

[sleepyowlwrites]

FTWT CCCLXXII

going for some of my oldest tags here, from @zmwrites and @akindofmagictoo I used to complain that all I ever posted were tag games, but now I rarely post tag games, and I gotta get back into it. I tell people to tag me and then I archive the tag and never get around to it, but this will change! I hope. you all know I suck at follow through.

wash (city story d0)

“You can’t wash your hands before you come home? How many times have I caught you eating with dirty hands, huh?” Copper scrubs at the soot stains around his fingernails will gentle vehemence.

Jet doesn’t like being deprived of his hands unless he’s given them willingly, but Copper is often the exception. “Worse things have gone in my mouth, I’m sure.”

“That’s delightful.” Copper flicks water at his face.

brush (city story d0)

And then Rune says, “Max called me.”

The cool brush of evening isn’t nearly enough to stop the force of burning disdain Jet feels for this person he’s never met. He nods instead of speaking, afraid that he’ll simply explode.

“He wants me to come home, champion his cause, marry him, all the usual stuff.”

All the usual stuff. Bullshit.

tug (summon story d0)

“Alright. I’ll go find Wryn, okay? Dair, don’t let him set the salt crystals. He’ll make some corners stronger than others.” Shae bounced to her feet and ran off before Zan could tug at her braid for that comment.

Dair moved his mouth around again, this time looking like he was attempting a smile and just didn’t quite have the energy for it.

Zan smiled at him instead, trying to defuse the rest of the tension lingering in Dair’s limbs. “Don’t listen to her. I don’t make lopsided arrays.”

“Erin said you did just last night,” Dair said blandly, looking at the array in question. “And she’s intimidating so I have to believe her.”

floor (city story d0)

Yarrow throws an egg at them when they enter the garage.

Actually, they enter, and Jet clearly has blood on the front of his shirt, and Rune’s hair is a mess, and Shadow drops the pack of bread he was holding, and Yarrow spins around to see what’s wrong, and then throws an egg at them in the closest show of genuine anger that Jet has ever seen from him. He dodges, and regrets it, because Yarrow’s face clouds into something he doesn’t want to see. The disappointment feels both unwarranted - because who is Yarrow to start judging Jet for his foolhardy choices after all this time - and completely earned - because Jet has been putting slightly better feet forward for the last month or so.

The egg sits on the floor of the garage, an ugly mess that Jet stares at so he doesn’t have to look at anyone’s face. Beside him, Rune is a statue. It leaves him alone with the explanations, and they’re not even his to give. So fine, he won’t. Here he is, on a Sunday, with no business looking like this. He doesn’t regret the scrap, doesn’t feel guilty for the bruises he gave or received. But there’s a heat in his cheekbones that slips down beneath the collar of his shirt to sit like inflamed tissue beside his ribs.

“I’ll get stuff,” Shadow says after probably not that long. He scurries from the entrance, leaving the stale air behind him.

jealous (youth story d0)

Evie made a slight scoffing noise, the soft kind from the base of her throat that told R she was both amused and done with this conversation. “You’re being an ass.”

“In what way, though?” R pressed, stepping closer before remembering that Evie was unpredictable about when she chose violence. His armor was made of charm and good humor and offered a poor defense against pinching fingers.

“Just generally.”

“Yes,” R agreed instantly. “I am, generally. But what has offended you so recently that I’m not allowed to put my arm around you as we saunter around making others’ jealous of our good looks?”

jump (city story d0)

It’s like Yarrow isn’t even there. Jet half-expects him to jump into the conversation. He doesn’t, just listens with his eyes on the sky.

“But do you then feel unsafe with other people around?”

“No.” Rune puts her hand out and up over her head. Jet accepts it but doesn’t do the holding. “I feel neutral, I guess. I feel like I’m the protector, and I know I can do that, so I just- I don’t know. I don’t feel anything. Or I feel everything. I’m aware. I don’t have to be aware of things around you.”

Yarrow finally does join in, his voice a low hush. “What about the rest of us? Would you feel safe around us?”

joke (youth story supplemental)

It had been snowing for two months and at this point, Nyks had gotten over Evie pointing out that his skin was even paler than the ground. If she did her job as his friend properly, his skin would be “there’s blood pumping under here” colored and the joke would no longer make sense.

“But no, she’s just negligent as well as unfunny,” Nyks groused to Daniel. “Can you pick up the end of my scarf?”

Daniel plucked the fabric from the ground as asked, brushing off the dirty particles before tucking it back where it belonged. “Isn’t this R’s?”

“Yeah. I stole it.”

justify

excuse, dream, sky, break. BONUS: pulse, spirit. @kaiusvnoir @zoya-writes @monstrouswrites @autumnalwalker @oh-no-another-idea OR ANYBODY

[ladynestaarcheron]

Hey!Can you do that BTS thing you did long back for this scene of part 2 of YMHLT?

Amren looks up from the ground, stare like ice, at Mor. "Why would you tell her that she belongs in the Court of Nightmares?"

"Oh, like telling her she should die in the Prison is any better," Mor snaps.

"You don't even talk to her."

"That's what makes you worse. You were friends--" Mor cuts herself off, but it is too late, and Elain gives voice to her sobs.

It doesn't make Cassian feel vindicated to watch Elain cry, but it is right. He had cried last night, too. He can feel his throat constrict now, but he doesn't have any time to waste on that. Azriel beats him to it.

"I don't think any of us are in any position to blame others," he says, cool. "It would be counterproductive anyway."

"Did you do this?" Feyre says softly.

Cassian meets Mor's eyes.

"What, darling?"

"Did you know...you told me this...did you know this would...only hurt her?"

"Of course not," Rhys says immediately. "If I had known I never would have suggested it. The library has helped hundreds of females before Nesta. I thought--"

"Then why couldn't she have just stayed in the library?" Feyre interrupts. "Like all those others? Why did you say she needed to train, too?"

"Don't shift the guilt off yourself, girl," Amren says, before Rhys can reply. "You agreed to it."

"Shut up, Amren."

"No," Feyre says. "She's right." A tear slips down her cheek. "I did agree to it."

"None of us knew this would happen." Rhys hesitates. "And I hate to say it...of course Nesta doesn't deserve any of it, but when you and Elain kept going to her, and she kept shutting you out--"

"Shut up!" Elain cries, strangled and hysterical. "You don't--you didn't--you never even thanked her! She helped with the queens and I was too scared to talk to them and you didn't--why did I let you--why did I--?" 

Elain starts sobbing again, and this time Feyre extends a hand to her, but she leaps up, running out of the room. No one goes after her. Feyre would be the only person who would, of this bunch, but she doesn't move.

It's as though Cassian has been hollowed out entirely. What good would it do to shout at them now? Or pick a fight with Azriel because he's jealous that he's never hurt Nesta? None of it will help her. There's nothing among them that will help her.

It's okay if you don't want to though :)

Sure!

So (and I am kind of afraid to say this), but in early early early versions of this, Nesta gave her whole hysterical speech in front of everyone. Two versions: hysterical and calm. In the hysterical version they were left in the wake of that, and in the calm one they were too, but she would just walk out (it was in the House) and go to the library. Either way, they were left feeling attacked and went on offense as their defense, attacking each other. I decided long ago I would prefer if this was a broken moment between Nesta and Cassian alone, so I went with that. However, I still wanted the dysfunction amongst the IC. So we see that.

It was always going to be M/or and A/mren who speak first. Just because I feel like no one else can think what to say to anyone else. What they said was so similar, in content and connotation, and so I feel like A/mren is like “I’m her friend, I didn’t mean that, where do you get off talking like that?” and M/or is like, “you’re supposed to be her friend, how could you say that?”

I also always saw this as truly destructive to F/eysand, as they do have strain in their relationship over Nesta. F/eyre wouldn’t just entirely place the responsibility on R/hys, but I think she’d feel too guilty to be with R/hys while Nesta is actively suffering, and she would at least want some space to think. (I’m talking about the OG F/eyre here, obviously.)

This sucks real bad for Elain. Nesta was the only one entirely on her side when she shut down. I don’t believe she treated Nesta this way out of malice, I think she was just projecting and dealing with her own issues. To know that you’ve let your own insecurities get in the way of your most important relationship and really hurt someone you love so much…that sucks. So yeah, she’s a wreck. She’s gonna be a wreck for a while. This isn’t a bad breakup; you can’t move on from a sister.

And with Cassian: he’s emotionally intelligent. Even throughout all this, he knows that Nesta is not a naturally forgiving person, she is highly averse to change, and she hates herself too much to accept help. Basically he knows that it’ll take a miracle worker to get Nesta into a much healthier place than she was before (because he met her already severely damaged, I feel like fandom and canon underestimates how dark a place she was in in A/COTAR when F/eyre came back + onwards when she left again/came back; she never dealt with any of her issues, just ignored them) so that she can rebuild relationships. He’s kind of like…oh, she could be in the library forever. There are some females who never leave, and that could be her.

And that's pretty much it!

[myheadsgonenumb]

Hello! I just wanted to tell you how highly I am anticipating Year 5 of The Wolf's Tail. I'm such a huge fan of this story (and all your stories). I've commented before on it, but not nearly enough and will try to comment more regularly (I'm theretherethere on Ao3). I adore wolfstar, but I'm like you--a first generation HP fan who remembers R/S from back in the mid-2000s. I'm glad the fandom is still active, but I can't say I like or enjoy many modern takes on the ship. I prefer as much canon-alignment as possible and your stories are wonderful. Your characterization, your plotting...it really is just exactly what I love.

I've been re-reading from the beginning in preparation for the new year and I forgot how much I cried in Year 1 when Hope passes away. The way you wrote that, with Remus forced to go to the basement, all while his friends are mad at him...it's gutting. For Year 5, I'm looking forward to the prank because I know from your Reddit comments that you have a different take on it than other writers. I'm most looking forward to seeing how self-aware Sirius and Remus end up being about their feelings. It's a general pet peeve of mine in fics when characters are written as unbelievably self-denying and/or dense about their romantic feelings. I think R & S would both be pretty honest with themselves, even though they don't say anything to anyone out loud.

What I'm *really* looking forward to is the moment you have teased since It Wouldn't Be An Adventure in which Sirius kisses Mary behind the sheds in sixth year (and then Lily's cousin later). What leads to that?? And what does he make of it at the time? I love your Jily as well. Sunshiny James is perfectly rendered--I love how much he contrasts with Sirius' intensity. Hard to find good wolfstar/jily fics these days. Anyway, this is so long. I just wanted to tell you that I support you and your writing and that your stories mean something to me. :)

Thank you so much for such a lovely comment ❤ ❤ ❤ I'm literally about to post the first chapter of fifth year right now (just getting all my documents open to make it happen).

I think Sirius ruminates a bit on the kiss with Mary in "A Grim Tale" as well, so there's a bit more info there (but not much)... it's one of those things that I have on my timeline in my planning notes that I have to remember to put in.

Writing Sirius and Remus's feelings for each other is getting a bit ridiculous tbh - they both know how they feel, Sirius even knows how Remus feels but they can't say anything (if they kiss at Hogwarts then canon happens and they all die - they must be kept apart at all costs). Luckily Remus is very self involved and thinks he is unlovable and Sirius is too afraid of making things weird with James.😂 (though we will get some jealous Sirius this year - which will be so much fun)

I'm really glad you're enjoying my story and I hope fifth year lives up to expectation - especially the bits you're looking forward to. Thanks again for such a lovely message!

[marioch]

People of Earth (1.5.2)

Every Single Instance You Do Something, Anything, You Do It With / Cause / Sum: Care

(O) Care

you can break everything down to Care and from every/any angle once you do you found the root/reason of everyone. what is love(m)?caring deeply, why you do anything? you do it cause you care about something and ultimately someone, how do you say nothing? you say you don`t care (d)

thus care is your everything

Cute Cat Theology Lesson: they ''something*'' or they ''something'' more not less *where something can replace with the word Care m) check: M(for more info) d) check: D (for more info)

(Q) Now Since Everyone Doing Anything Cause Of Care How: He/She Does Not Care About You?

Care is ,not only You all you equals to = you + the other in question + the one not mentioned = EVERYONE(O)

(B)Good

care untwisted and simple is the good and it never really collides with other`s care. Ever. after someone downgrading / twisting / after using do not care, it does.

(Y) Why Things Are So Twisted ? / Bad Things To Good People ?

well every single one of the people that made or done something bad they always say internally if not also externally that they Don`t Care about him/her/them etc.. So every time someone says do not care you should replace the word with nothing, so think of the meaning of the those various thoughts and sentences and the validity of saying nothing, some times if asked about something a valid response is nothing. When someone has done something bad nothing is never a valid one.

(M) Love

love is caring alot, deeply. ofc everyone loves themselves but you can love others also , most of the time loving, caring, liking, sex they can be entwined , that unconditional love stuff or true love at times they use it at least are nonsense , but its as simple as it sounds really you can like someone , care deeply about someone and wanting to keep fucking someone since sex is a great way to connect deeper , among other things. there is nothing pure about saying you love someone no matter what even though that`s like anything, i could thing of a lot of things when it comes to no matter what , that if they do to you and you still love him/her etc.. then you are a beeping beep

(N) No Balance

There is no such thing as balance between good and evil everything starts from care whether with awareness of it or without, care untwisted and simple is the good , care twisted is the evil, there is no such thing as balancing them out there is only good and always trailing second is the perversion of it

(D)Evil

twisted care which is the evil, is always ranking, who is better, who is bigger and so on and always trying to undermine the care of other people so it makes itself bigger. Evil as in you do not care. as in nothing, as in hide behind your little finger, as in you lying to yourself / others/ both , as in go amnesiac yet again , as in amorphous mime and morality is absolute no matter how hard you wish it not be so.

(R) Relativism

NOPE

(G) Jealousy / Envy

Jealousy = Selective Denial (This post is currently awaiting approval by the moderators of r/philosophy before it can appear in the subreddit.) Jealousy IS the Denial you tell yourself someone is better than you and since you cant really accept it you are hurting from all that denial, which they call jealous . when you say you are jealous but you admit it so you are not in denial you basically saying : i am in denial but i admit it so i am not in denial. the jealousy denial comes from simple questions and answers your own brain gives you in which you are afraid to really go through, simple questions like why him and not me in which the only real answer is they did it like you do it, obscure details that go way deeper than simple because he/she is pretty, a lot of people are pretty but you want that one so maybe just maybe you simply accept the fact that they do it the same way you and there is no one simple answer to whom and why everyone likes who they like and why they do what they do, could be time and place, could be they simply want someone the same way you do only its someone else. (well there is a simple answer actually and its called: ''genital wants''. not pocket to start thinking who is better and who is worst) want is want ,wishing is wishing, jealousy is denial but you couldn`t admit it unless you renamed it which is what you did / Envy is acting aggressively after jealousy-denial rather than hiding it = basically don`t wanna minus your imaginary picture of you ps1 if you disagree please attack with an argument example :no, jealousy is pain when you want someone.. (i am not interested in consumer reviews) ps2 if you don`t like my aesthetics maybe you should donate me an intern or two with a philosophy degree or something from your sciensology departments else tough it up ps3 no degree needed to argue against what i say since most people claim everyone has been jealous they should be qualified to argue it also

(H) HATE

hate is opposite of like, not love, you say like, then when it is time to say like alot, you say love when in reality its adore or some synonym, hate is disliking alot, opposite of adore. people do this to pretend they are positive forces to basically sell what they like or shun what they dislike care alot=love like alot=adore dislike alot=hate not caring=nothing(emptiness)

(F) Will / Want

all it matters is that you have will whether in the form of desires or dreams , passively along those lines or active will which is basically doing something , free will means doing whatever you want which is impossible either by limitations or even more so by definition since even if you had no limitations anywhere defining things means also limiting them in a box , even by saying I you limit yourself to define you so that means free will is an impossibility and its been used to justify that, for example: that since prisoners have no free will thus are non existent even though the only way that happens is by surrendering your will willingly whether its temporary or more long term surrender of will through some kind of sale and that`s still only simply till you decide otherwise , or that you don`t have one cause you are dead THE MODULE OF WILL/WANT/PROOF OF BEING and the free part: Will and Want both are proof of existence but both so originate from Care and are varying reactions to it , simply put the module is Care

(T) Adoration

when you say i love this dress basically that is not love that is like a lot, example: i like this shoes then you go to :i like this shoes a lot ,so its not i love , = its i adore those shoes , not love but it is out of love of yourself

(A) Hypocrisy

Hypocrisy is actually Madness in disguise despite the given definition hypocrisy is not being used when someone lies about his character or image but rather its being used when someone is lying to themselves and by extension to others. everyone is using it unconsciously to justify and legitimize double think , double think is when you tell yourself one thing when it does not suit you then tell yourself another when it does , which is basically madness , hypocrisy is the word they made for , to cover that fact up Hypocrite is an empty word to hide the belief of 2 conflicting ideas that contradict each other, aka madness, also its more of wanting to keep both beliefs at the same time even though you know they do not add up

(X) Superiority

No WE in BEST .the so called winners are in an even bigger denial since they basically saying they will find no one better than their own self ever instead of simply growing up and not ask dumb questions like that, again there is no 1x)We in Best. basically when you think others with your nonsense measuring of things naturally your brain will put a fire on your ass when your measuring do not suit you(when you care),whatever your: you are better than others also applies to you being inferior. someone might feel sorry for you and spare your feelings but our own brains clearly do not thus denial which they call jealousy or envy ( jealousy+ aggression ) so they can admit it and/or so they can attack you with it, 2x) there is no We in BEST Superiority doesn`t really help with the denial of the jelly kind, you say you are not jealous because you have everything and act like you won but the whole jealousy thing comes from exactly as silly questions in your head as who is better and who is worst, you are basically saying you won even though it comes from asking silly questions like that to begin with, the so called winners are in an even bigger denial since they basically saying they will find no one better than their own self ever instead of simply growing up and not ask dumb questions like that , again, 3x)there is no We in Best. Impossible to be superior but not get the denial unless you are completely delusional thus thinking of yourself the absolute one: best of all time and for all time blah blah blewxx so instead of winners 98% of the population of Earth is mental,2% thinks its cultural thing and also there is me .

(S) Inferiority

you tell yourself someone is better than you and since you cant really accept it u hurting from all that denial, that they call jealous when you say you are jealous but you admit it so you are not in denial you basically saying : i am in denial but i admit it so i am not in denial = bleepards aka Switzerlanders aka neutrals with a heart full of neutrality

(J) Positivity

*to All the positivity(positivity not the positively) peeps out there this one is for you, quote: My best friend died when we couldn't remember his blood type. As he died he kept saying "be positive" but it's hard without him.

(U) Meme

meme(y)/s :mimicked (mocking)= no meme, for no jackassy, no stupidy= no dimension /on that note no such thing as haters example: this guy is an asshole, what he did was assholey? you cannot, no dimension. No .

(L) Greed

plus & minus the Sin map: Lust =greed:+++ for penises, vaginas or both?(eww) Gluttony i guess you are coupling greed and sloth but only for food into an extra one for some reason?+-+-+- Greed +++++++++++++++ .. Sloth - - - - - Wrath? nope. you are confusing it with rage which makes you lose your mind and even get swallowed by it Envy: acting aggressively after selective denial rather than hiding it(jealousy)=basically don`t wanna minus your imaginary picture of you Pride is sin(plus), imaginary i/mask =I + = image

(Z) Life

LIFE : LIE with F in between. The End. (more like a commentary to what you been doing else use other word, possibly IA/IO?)

(W) Empathy

Empathy is a simulation, not only one`s positive reaction after said simulation, it is the negative too and it is comprehension even without reacting in anyway also.(simulating people in more shoes than the one you see them wear at the time, shocking i know). there is no empaths , and empathy is simulating people in more shoes than the pair you see them wearing at the time ,there is a reason empathy existed as a word yet empath is a new one, that reason being: isolating anything they deem unwanted kindness into individual oddity aka empaths then burn them at their own leisure by saying empathy is not real

(I) Ego

Ego as in I as in Me as in own self Egoism :I + as in own self plus image / imagery / imaginary ego:I. > sin: +(plus) 3)ti:to 4)sm:at 5)ing(selfishness=egoing)

(E) Epilogue

Every possible situation and instance of someone‘s actions can be summed up and is care, the difference is you have to be caring positively and when i say that i do not mean mannerism or attitude but rather if you go to the root of all reasons, actions and desires there is care but also the bad part where someone said do not care which is :nothing and like i am trying to explain on this paper :every single instance some wrong due to someone’s actions happened they used the word nothing(don’t care) in an invalid way in their thinking/acting

(K) Insecurity

insecurity/ies: basically fear but instead of telling you to be brave, courageous, etc.. they wanna tell you to Run Forest Run, thus safe up, thus telling you that if you scared of sharks don`t swim, if you are scared of Kaijus build: The wall etc.. safety is no solution = bliss or worse

(4)Morality

check(C) this page, nothing relative about it, no matter how hard you wish it not be so.

(C)HONOR

honor: common denominator = not garbage (no hypocrisy ,no 2 heads nor cowardice)

(P) Psychological Problems

having words like jealousy and hypocrisy covering their true meaning is a psychological problem, not knowing what love is, is a psychological problem, what everyone refers to as psychological problems is psychological traumas or even actual damage or both, so basically those people that are being shunned have legitimate reasons and even excuses if they ever need to be excused unlike psychological problems which most normal people as they are considered have and are inexcusable, so basically everyone using the term for conditions that are registered by doctors even, is doing a whitewash regardless

(2) FORNICATION = ForTheWin

what did you think was wrong when you were high-fiving each other or yourselves in the mirror calling it scoring instead of doing it for yourselves and rather than being glad about the intimacy you shared with someone?

(*V) Who Is the Gollum? :

question 1: who does not know love? a)love is caring+ b)love is love c)love is sex d)love is not real question 2: who does jealousy all the time ? a)everyone who even uses the word b)ugly people c)haters / losers d)b+c question 3: who spreads the opposite of love all the time ? a)people who do not care b)mean people c)haters d)b+c 666-666666666: Gollum 66-666: Smeagol 6-66: Deagol 0-6: NOTA before you say anything, if you are exactly on one of the special numbers: you are both, example if you have 66: it is both a Deagol and a Smeagol. a=0 + b=6 + c=66 + d=666 x3Q = _ answer one : love is Caring Deeply answer two : jealousy Is the Denial answer three : opposite of Love is Don`t Care

Dedicated to Don`t Care : please stop saying 'Nothing' and just(BE) (check B and E for more info)

(OMEGA D 2D C BE 4)

signed: Know Mar Who You War/You Know War Who Mar/Mar Who You Know War.. (v1.5.2) 09-02-2022

[parvulous-writings]

Karl Heisenberg // SFW alphabet

Request: So there was no actual request, I just knew this would cheer up my closest friend. 

Dedicated to: @rey-is-not-a-skywalker

Summary: A sfw A-Z for Karl Heisenberg, from Resident Evil Village!

Warnings: Explicit language

Notes: Please, have some Soft!Heisenberg, bor. It’s one of the many, many things you deserve.  To those who have requested oneshots- I am working on them, please be patient! My requests are currently open! My pinned post (found here) contains both a list of characters I write for, and a masterlist!

Not my gif

A - Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?) 

He’s never affectionate publicly. Behind closed doors, though- well maybe he’s not your stereotypical lovey-dovey type, but hey-ho, he shows it in his own little way. A few hugs, but mostly through making you things. Music boxes, little figures and robots that wind up, you name it, he’ll try and make it. 

B - Best Friend (What would they be like as a best friend? Where does the friendship start?)

He’s not a friendly man, typically. He’s cold, and driven only by his motives. It takes a long time for him to warm up to you, but when he eventually does he is always by your side, whenever you should need him. Be it for violence, or for an ear to pour your thoughts into- even though half the time you swear he’s not listening completely. 

C - Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

Heisenberg likes warm cuddles above all others. The kind where he can pull you close and hold you there for a while- he likes feeling you against his chest. It’s comforting to him, after years of no affection and a torturous living experience. 

D - Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking, cleaning, ect?)

Karl is not particularly skilled in any domestic skill. He’s very mediocre at cooking, and he can’t clean to save his life- his factory is littered with dust and other probably very harmful particles. He isn’t very good in a domestic environment at all, really. 

E - Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

Blunter than a broken pencil I’m afraid. He’s never had to hide something from you in the past, so why should this be any different? He would not want to beat around the bush here, he’d annoy himself with pleasantries and euphemisms. 

F - Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? Do they wanna get married?)

He’s perfectly fine staying as partners, without marriage looming over the pair of you. Quite frankly, he doesn’t think it’s worth it.  “A piece of damn paper to show someone your fucking devotion? Bullshit.” 

G - Gentle (How gentle are they both physically and emotionally?)

Unless you’re shaking like a leaf or have specifically asked him to be gentle with or around you, he’s not going to be. He’ll treat you much how he treats most others- with a little bit of affection for zest and flavour every now and then. 

H - Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it, and what are they like?)

While he likes cuddles, he isn’t a huge fan of hugs. He thinks they’re too short to show any real affection, and often get in the way of whatever task the recipient is trying to perform.  

I - I Love You (How fast do they say the “love” word?)

S l o w l y. This man has gone through some stuff, and doesn’t want to get attached to people despite falling for you. Give him a chance. 

J - Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What are they like when jealous?)

Okay so he may be “non-committal” in a loose sense of the term, but this man is one jealous motherfucker. And he gets angry. I’m talking  punching the wall, lashing out and breaking shit kind of angry. It’s mostly because of a nagging fear that not only will he lose you to someone you think is better or less monstrous than he is, but also in part due to a feeling that because of what he was forced to become, he isn’t good enough to keep you for himself. 

K - Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

He kisses you on your hands or neck mostly. Those are his favourite places to kiss you. He occasionally kisses you on the inside of your wrist. If you have any scars as well, he’ll kiss them. 

L - Little Ones (How are they around kids?)

It depends. Sometimes he’s the perfect uncle figure, others he’s a whirlwind of rage. If you’re taking him to see some children for a prolonged amount of time, please check how he’s acting and feeling on the day so there isn’t some sort of horrific accident. 

M - Morning (What are mornings like with them?)

There’s nothing special about them, he’s usually up long before you are. He doesn’t leave anything like a hot beverage behind, unless it’s a special occasion that he’s remembered- like a birthday or anniversary. 

N - Nights (How are nights spent with them?)

He often tells you to go to bed before him, as he’s usually working on something, and would rather not have to worry about you being down in his factory and workshop. 

O - Open (When do they open up about themselves?)

When he’s extremely angry. He gets riled up, then will start to spill facts and secrets while hardly even realising it. 

P - Patience (How easily angered are they?)

He has a very short fuse and a violent temper, to say the least. There’s a reason the man swears so much. Though he will often apologise if he’s scared you after an outburst. 

Q - Quizzes (How much do they remember about you?)

He remembers the basic things at the very least- Your name, your habits on eating and drinking, what you do to amuse yourself. He’s quite observant, actually. 

R - Remember (Favorite memory with you?)

He made you a small music box once. The past part of his day, or his entire week, was seeing your smile as you opened it and listened to it for the first time. It was the widest he’d ever seen you smile, and he loved the feeling it gave him. 

S - Security (How protective are they?)

Very. One particular other Lord- “Lady Super-Sized Bitch,” as Heisenberg has dubbed her- is very interested in your presence, and Heisenberg has made it very much his business to keep you practically under lock and key to keep you safe. And when Ethan Winters comes around? Ooh, boy. You ain’t leaving his sight. 

T - Try (How much effort do they put in?)

He does try- through making trinkets and gadgets to both help you and show his affection. Sometimes it may not always seem that way though, with his outbursts and his tantrums. 

U - Ugly (What are their bad habits?)

He smokes. You tried to get him to quit once, then stopped when you realised it made him more irritable. 

V - Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

He’s not that concerned. If he’s still kicking... Well that’s all that matters to him. 

W - Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

He’d feel that something’s wrong, something’s not right- a cog missing from a machine, in a sense. And he hates that feeling. 

X - Xtra (Random HC)

This man would die for some ice-cream. You bring him a tub of the stuff- BAM, instant good mood for the next like two days. 

Y - Yuck (Things they don’t like either in general or a partner?)

This man is not fussy, in the slightest. 

Z - Zzz (Sleep habits)

He basically doesn’t, he gets so little it’s a wonder he can actually function normally. 

[leossmoonn]

could i please request a stefan fluff where the reader is like spanish or smth, but she speaks ij english with everyone. and her and stefan are dating. so one day she gets upset over smth so she starts ranting in spanish and stefan can't understand a thing. and he's like "oh- ok-" even though he didn't understand anything. if not thats ok! have a nice day!!

have a nice day too <33

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pairing - stefan salvatore x spanish speaking, fem!reader

type - fluff, angst

note - i put the reader as a spanish speaker and not just spanish, so it could be more inclusive :). and i'm so sorry that this is so bad. i couldn't come up with a better plot like i wanted to, but i hope you enjoy anyways!

warnings / includes - language, kissing, food and alcohol mention, cute couple stuff, you getting upset (duh), kissing, stefan trying to be supportive but also being really confused lol. you all are like in your late 20s for this lol. for those who aren't spanish speakers, i will put translations in little text under each sentence/paragraph

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"Sí. Bueno, lo retomaré más tarde. Gracias," you hung up the phone, setting it down with a smile on your face.

["Yes. Okay, I will pick it up later. Thank you."]

"Hey, who was that?" Stefan come over to you, wrapping his arm around your waist.

"That was Lucas's friend. He was able to get the cake and the cupcakes made early!" You squealed, jumping up and down in his arms.

"Oh, that's awesome! Looks like Caroline won't be bugging you anymore," Stefan chuckled.

"Oh, I know. Man, am I happy to finally get this party planning over with," you sighed, turning around and leaning against the counter.

You smiled as you came face-to-face with your boyfriend. You hung your arms around his neck lazily, twirling the hair on the nape of his neck with your first fingers.

"Tired?" Stefan raised a brow, settings hands on your hips.

"Exhausted. And to think the actual party is tonight," you chuckled. "Well, that's the easiest part, right?" Stefan asked.

"Yeah, watching over twenty-to-twenty five eleven years olds is easy," you rolled your eyes.

"You'll have help. Caroline, me, Bonnie, Ric, Elena, Matt. Even Damon has volunteered to watch them!"

"Or lure them in a back corner and fed on them," you scoffed. "Hey, Damon's a lot of things, but he is not a child-blood-sucker," Stefan defended.

"Awe, you're defending him. How cute," you booped his nose.

"Yeah, yeah, I know. We are goals. Or whatever the kids are saying these days."

You giggled at his words, turning back around as you heard the front door open. You looked to see Caroline, Bonnie, and Elena carrying the twins, a bunch of presents, and at least five boxes of pizza.

"Damn. I wish you guys bought me this many presents!" You exclaimed.

"Oh, shut up. We give you a bottle of champagne and you're already over the moon," Elena snickered.

"Well, what can I say? I'm a simple gal," you grinned.

"Hey, Stef, can you help, please? Put these next to the window sill," Bonnie ordered as she was carrying most of the presents.

"Yeah, of course," Stefan nodded. He ran over to her with his vampire speed, picking up the presents at lightening speed and laying them out in towers.

"Thank you," Bonnie sighed. "Yeah, no problem. Hey, why didn't you just use your magic to carry them in?" Stefan asked.

"I need to save my energy for the kids," Bonnie explained.

"Whoa, Whoa, Whoa. I didn't know we were letting the world know our secret," you frowned.

"We aren't! They're just a bunch of kids. Plus, we can just compel them to forget. Josie and Lizzie really want to show them tricks, too," Caroline bounced the twins in her arms.

You looked to the two girls who were giggling and smiling. You sighed, "Fine. Anyways, guess who was able to get the cake and the cupcakes."

"Oh, my God! You?" Caroline gasped. "Yep. Call me Santa Claus 'cause I just delivered!" You grinned.

Elena, Bonnie, and Stefan cringed at your joke.

"Not your best work, Y/n," Elena shook her head.

"What! Hey, that was pretty good," you frowned. "You'll get 'em next time, babe," Stefan smiled, going over to you and patting you on the back.

"Okay, you guys are just jealous because you're not as funny as me," you scoffed.

"Oh, yeah, we're jealous all right," Bonnie smirked.

You opened your mouth to retort back, but your phone started ringing. You looked at the Caller ID, seeing that it was your brother, Lucas. You gave them all a death glare, picking up your phone and going into the other room.

"Hey, amigo, what's up?" You asked.

"Uh, bad news, chica," Lucas sighed. "Oh?" You raised a brow.

"Yeah, turns out that Darryl can't make the cake or the cupcakes today."

You opened your mouth to speak, but nothing came out. Your eyes were wide as saucers as you thought of what to say.

"Y/n? Please say something," Luca begged.

You turned your head, your face screwing up in guilt and anger as you saw Lizzie and Josie playing with Bonnie and Stefan. You turned back and focused on the conversation you were having with you very trusting brother.

"¿Qué quiere decir Darryl no puede hacer el pastel o cupcakes?"

[What do you mean darryl can't make the cake or cupcakes?"]

"I mean that he can't make them. Do I need to explain to you what those words mean? And why are you speaking in Spanish? Afraid someone will —"

"En realidad, lo soy, Lucas. Dios, eres tan poco confiable. ¡Y ese amigo tuyo! Espera, ¿podría recuperar mi dinero?"

["Actually, I am, Lucas. God, you are so unreliable. And that friend of yours! Wait, am I going to be able to get my money back?"]

"Um… probably not. But it's okay, I'll pay you back!"

"Ah, ¿cuándo? ¿Después de sacar dinero del fondo universitario de su hijo? ¿O se lo van a pedir a mamá y papá esta vez?"

["Oh, when? After you take out money from your child's college fund? Or are you going to ask mom and dad for it this time?"]

"Hey, don't blame me! Blame Darryl. All I did was hook you up with him!"

"Y probablemente sabías que era un gilipollas mentiroso y que robaba dinero. Llámame de vuelta cuando seas capaz de no mentirme, ¿sí?"

["And you probably knew that he was a lying, money-stealing asshole. Call me back when you're able to not lie to me, yeah?"]

"Wait, Y/n, I-"

You hung up the phone, throwing it on the chair next to you. You groaned quietly, the bridge of your nose burning as tears welled up in your eyes.

"¿Cómo puedes ser tan estúpido, Y/n? Confiando en él después de todo lo demás que ha hecho. Estúpido, estúpido, estúpido!"

["How can you be so stupid, Y/n? Trusting him after everything else he's done. Stupid, stupid, stupid!"]

Stefan, who was throwing up Lizzie and Josie in the air, heard your mutters in the other room. He frowned and put the girls down, promising them that he would be back in a second after checking up on you. He walked into the next room slowly, putting his arm around you lightly.

"Hey, what's wrong?"

You jumped at his voice and touch, sniffling and wiping the tears from your face. "Y-Yeah. Just some um, family stuff."

"Want to talk about it?" Stefan asked.

You sighed, turning around to him. His hand intertwined with yours, squeezing it for support.

"It's just… Lucas. He's just so… jodidamente molesto," you sighed. "Él simplemente no piensa en otras personas y las consecuencias. Quiero decir, trata de ayudar, lo que es agradable, pero siempre termina por pagar dinero a la gente, o termina por tener un ojo negro."

[“He is just so… fucking annoying. He just doesn't think about other people and the consequences. I mean, he tries to help, which is nice, but he always either ends up owing people money, or ends up having a black eye.”]

"O-Oh, yeah," Stefan nodded, his brows furrowed as he tried to understand. But you were speaking so fast and with so much anger, he barely picked up a word.

"Y como su hermana mayor, sé que probablemente se supone que voy fácil con él, pero es un hombre crecido. ¡Debe saber estas cosas! Ugh, sabía que debería haber ordenado a ellos como, Target o algo, pero el amigo de su “aparentemente” es capaz de hacer diseños realmente lindos y hacer arte fondant en tiempo récord, así que tomé mis mis oportunidades. ¿Y adivina dónde estoy ahora?"

[“And as his older sister, I know I'm probably supposed to go easy on him, but he's a grown man. He should know these things! Ugh, I knew I should've just ordered them from like, Target or something, but hsi friend "apparently" is able to do really cute designs and make fondant art in record time, so I took my chances. And guess where I am now?”]

"Right, right. Wow, I'm sorry, babe, I —"

"Ciento cincuenta dólares cortos con dos niñas que van a estar tristes cuando no consiguen su pastel de sirena barbie y cupcakes con temática de Minecraft. ¡Argh!"

["One hundred and fifty dollars short with two little girls who are going to be sad when they don't get their Barbie Mermaid cake and Minecraft-themed cupcakes. Argh!"]

You stopped your rant when you noticed Stefan looked at you with a confused expression on his face. You thought for a moment to yourself, beginning to laugh at yourself as you realised you were speaking in Spanish.

"I'm sorry, Stef. I didn't realise you couldn't understand me."

He smiled and shrugged. "No worries. At least you were able to get it all out, right?"

"A little. When I punch Lucas, I'll be able to get it all out," you grinned.

"That's my girl."

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[glattandblade]

Fluff Alphabet with Quackity!

By Author Glatt

warnings: none

alphabet: @magical-warlock

A ctivities - What do they like to do with their s/o? How do they spend their free time with them?  

Games! He loves to play stupid roblox games, or minecraft with you! Its fun, especially when you get competitive, he loves to see you excited about it.

B eauty - What do they admire about their s/o? What do they think is beautiful about them? 

Quackity loves your smile, that and your voice. It just sounds so nice, especially while singing.

Quackity like his hair! He doesnt show it on stream, but without the beanie, he thinks he looks almost better without it, although you joke with him and say its illegal without his beanie.

C omfort - How would they help their s/o when they feel down/have a panic attack etc.? 

Quackity would probably try the distraction method, asking if you want to play games or watch a movie, or if you want him to play you a song

D reams - How do they picture their future with their s/o? 

All he knows is he wants to live with you and spend his days with you, he hasnt really thought about the finer details like kids/marriage and all that crap.

E qual - Are they the dominant one in the relationship, or rather passive? 

He’s rather passive, hes not too dominant outside the bedroom, except when he’s bein a little bitch to his friends n shit-

F ight - Would they be easy to forgive their s/o? How are they fighting?

Quackity would be one to forgive easily, especially if its you, although you guys get into alot of joke arguments.

G ratitude - How grateful are they in general? Are they aware of what their s/o is doing for them?

Yes! He thinks about it alot, and he adores you for it. He’ll give you things in minecraft and small things irl here and there.

H onesty - Do they have secrets they hide from their s/o? Or do they share everything? 

I think the only secret quackity would have is the secret gc with karl and sapnap in it lol

I nspiration - Did their s/o change them somehow, or the other way around? Like trying out new things or helped them overcome personal problems?

Quackity has gotten way more hyper (somehow..) ever since you guys got together, on streams hes even louder and giggly, especially when you end up showing up.

You’ve gotten louder aswell, you’re not afraid to yell around the house if need be, thats for sure.

J ealousy - Do they get jealous easily? How do they deal with it?

I would say so, he’d get kinda defensive, although some of its just joking with his friends, sometimes its serious.

K iss - Are they a good kisser? What was the first kiss like?

Quackity is a good kisser, even when you first met him, you were kinda surprised.

L ove Confession - How would they confess to their s/o? 

Either playing minecraft and annoying the shit out of you or blowing your phone out at like 2 am and being like hey bitch guess what? Ur my boy/girlfriend now ha

M arriage - Do they want to get married? How do they propose? What would the marriage be like? 

It wouldnt matter to him, you’re still his partner, but if you suggested you wanted to, he would propose at night, going to some random park you guys frequent and sitting looking at the stars with you

N icknames - What do they call their s/o? 

Mi amor, hermosa/o, mi vida, sweetheart, he prefers mi amor and hermosa/o the most!

O n Cloud Nine - What are they like when they are in love? Is it obvious for others? How do they express their feelings? 

Its.. pretty fucking obvious, he keeps joke flirting with you infront of others, although not a joke to him, being a fucking simp just in gen

P DA - Are they upfront about their relationship? Do they brag with their s/o in front of others? Or are they rather shy to kiss etc. when others are watching?

He’s shy to kiss if hes streaming or anything, he likes to keep it to just hugging and holding hands, off camera though he’ll take a kiss when he wants, even if others are watching. Hes upfront about the relationship and he likes to brag!

Q uirk - Some random ability they have that’s beneficial in a relationship.

Well, his singing definitely comes in handy, whether it be you had a bad day, cant sleep, etc. it always seems to help.

R omance - How romantic are they? What would they do to make their s/o happy? Cliché or rather creative?

He tries to be romantic, although he fails alot of time time, he mainly just tries to be goofy and play it off, or he’ll actually be romantic and surprise himself, hes rather cliche.

S upport - Are they helping their s/o achieve their goals? Do they believe in them?

Of course! He always believes in you, and he is willing to do anything to help you.

T hrill - Do they need to try out new things to spice out your relationship? Or do they prefer a certain routine?

Quackity is fine with a routine, he wont mind anything to spice up the relationship, but he wont go out of his way to spice it up besides like getting you chocolate filled croissants and coffee for breakfast instead of eggs and sausages.

U nderstanding - How good do they know their partner? Are they empathetic?

It depends, some days he’s got you down to a T, sometimes he misses the mark by alot… but he is very empathetic!

V alue - How important is the relationship to them? What is it’s worth in comparison to other things in their life?

Your relationship is worth more than his career! He loves you alot!

W ild Card - A random Fluff Headcanon.

Quackitys love language is touch! He’s always holding your hand, or is touching you somewhere, it comforts him

 X OXO - Are they very affectionate? Do they love to kiss and cuddle?

Very! He loves giving you forehead kisses and being the big spoon! He cherishes cuddles.

Y earning - How will they cope when they’re missing their partner?

Texting them alot!! Snapping silly random pics and sending them, hoping for silly stupid pics back to save, that and facetiming.

Z eal - Are they willing to go to great lengths for the relationship? If so, what kind of?

He has his boundaries, but he’s willing to do a good amount, he’d sacrifice his career.

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[yanyanimagines]

Yandere Alphabet: Naoto Shirogane (Persona 4)

This is super scuffed...I wanted to write something to celebrate my return really quick. Asks are open, am writing for P4 and P5 as well as many other fandoms, don't be afraid to ask!!

Alphabet taken from @dear-yandere

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tw: abuse, obsessive behavior, implied r*pe

Affection: How do they show their love and affection? How intense would it get?

Naoto often shows their love and affection through small gifts, chocolates, notes, etc. They never get too intense…unless your relationship is going poorly.

Blood: How messy are they willing to get when it comes to their darling?

They are more than willing to get messy if it comes down to it, they are generous enough to send a warning first. If said warning is not heeded, they’ll find themselves part of a deadly accident.

Cruelty: How would they treat their darling once abducted? Would they mock them?

Naoto would never mock their darling, they treat their darling with respect and care.

Darling: Aside from abduction, would they do anything against their darling’s will?

Naoto does pretty much everything for you, they feed you, clothe you, bathe you…so you really shouldn’t be surprised when they get a little bit handsy with you, especially after a long day.

Exposed: How much of their heart do they bare to their darling? How vulnerable are they when it comes to their darling?

They bare a surprising amount to their darling, especially when they are cuddling close to you on those special late nights.

Fight: How would they feel if their darling fought back?

They hate it, they go through all this trouble to take care of you and this is how they get treated? They do understand though, they’ll be patient…for now.

Game: Is this a game to them? How much would they enjoy watching their darling try to escape?

This is hardly a game, this is very serious business. Although a small part of them does seem to take some sadistic joy watching you attempt to escape…perhaps they should make a game out of it~

Hell: What would be their darling’s worst experience with them?

The absolute worst experience is one late night, Naoto had been working on a particularly frustrating case, one with no leads in sight. They were drinking, something they don’t often do. It had been fine…up until you sarcastically reminded them of your current predicament. Their patience finally runs out and they absolutely lose their shit. Screaming, hitting, and drunken rambling ensues.

Ideals: What kind of future do they have in mind for/with their darling?

They really, really want a domestic darling, one who stays at home and cooks, cleans, greets them with a kiss after a long day of work…the whole nine yards, they can’t help but fantasize about it as they snuggle up next to their darling.

Jealousy: Do they get jealous? Do they lash out or find a way to cope?

Although they reiterate over and over that they’re not jealous, they most certainly are. Often they can cope by just being around you, but if you’re not there well…hopefully they’re in a good mood that day.

Kisses: How do they act around or with their darling?

They’re very handsy, always trying to be connected with you in some way. Always holding your hand, always cuddling or resting their head on your shoulder.

Love letters: How would they go about courting or approaching their darling?

They love to leave you cryptic love notes, along with little ‘tokens’ of their love. They’re too embarrassed to ever really confess in person.

Mask: Are their true colors drastically different from the way they act around everyone else?

They’re certainly a lot more affectionate and open with their darling when compared to other people, but otherwise not much different.

Naughty: How would they punish their darling?

Isolation, whenever their darling gets ‘naughty’ they get brought down to the basement and forced to spend an indeterminate amount of time in the dark, cold, cramped confines until they deem them ready to come back out.

Oppression: How many rights would they take away from their darling?

They want their darling to be free, they really do. But they have to take away certain rights in order to make sure that their darling is nice and compliant.

Patience: How patient are they with their darling?

They’re patient to a point, if their darling starts misbehaving and they’ve had a bad day, there will be hell to pay.

Quit: If their darling dies, leaves, or successfully escapes, would they ever be able to move on?

If their darling ever leaves or escapes, they could never let them go. They’ll go to the ends of the earth and whatever resources they have at their disposal to find them. If their darling ever died, they’d be absolutely heartbroken, and would never be able to get over their end.

Regret: Would they ever feel guilty about abducting their darling? Would they ever let their darling go?

There are certainly times when they feel guilty about taking their darling away, but they always remind themselves of why they did this in the first place, to protect them from the dangers of the world.

Stigma: What brought about this side of them (childhood, curiosity, etc)?

Simply their protectiveness, in their mind you are too innocent for this world. They need to protect you, they’re the only one who can.

Tears: How do they feel about seeing their darling scream, cry, and/or isolate themselves?

They feel guilty, it hurts to see you distraught like this. They don’t want this, they didn’t want this. But they’ll be patient, they’ll sit and wait for you to calm down so they can comfort you.

Unique: Would they do anything different from the classic yandere?

They’re a lot more reserved and quiet than your average yandere. They hardly ever acknowledge your rivals, believing that they are the only one for you.

Vice: What weakness can their darling exploit in order to escape?

There’s not much exploiting a detective, they can see through your feeble attempts at bargaining and manipulation.

Wit’s end: Would they ever hurt their darling?

Only if their darling is acting up, then they might get met with a slap to the face. In general however, they don’t like seeing their darling in pain.

Xoanon: How much would they revere or worship their darling? To what length would they go to win their darling over?

They love their darling so so much, they would do absolutely anything for them. They really do worship their darling in that regard (as well as in some less than sfw concepts buuuuuut)

Yearn: How long do they pine after their darling before they snap?

It really does vary, all it takes is one incident for them to steal you away from the world, away from anything that could even come close to hurting you. They won’t let you get hurt.

Zenith: Would they ever break their darling?

Not on purpose, they love you for you, if you ever broke they’d be beside themselves with guilt. Some of their punishments however, just might break you…

[missinghan]

falling for the first time ⤖ bang chan

❖ genre : hogwarts au; fluff

❖ word count : 2,1k.

❖ warning : explicit language

❖ summary : your plan of putting all effort into avoiding bang chan as much as possible has been going smoothly for almost seven years until he asks you for a dance at the Yule Ball. or alternatively, your families hate each other but wait...has he always had those golden flecks in his eyes?

❖ author’s note : here’s the song they’re dancing to 🖤

one.

The once cold ballroom has waited for eons it seems, for a real heart to beat a new rhythm into the matter that made it. 

Meanwhile, you too have been waiting (for two-ish hours) in the corner with your cup of root beer abandoned at a table for your dance partner. You’re currently half-clutching your dress and half-panicking because Chan wouldn’t miss an event as extravagant as the Yule Ball. He’s not the type to be sour over little things either just because he didn’t win the Triwizard Tournament. Or perhaps someone else just happened to ask him? 

A blood-curdling shriek bursts your eardrums. 

Jeongin gives you a nudge with his elbow from behind. “Grilled scream-cheese?” he asks with a mouthful of gluten and carbs, a plate of a sandwich with a (literally) screaming slice of cheese slapped in the middle. 

“No, my appetite is ruined,” you say, pushing it away slightly and heaving an audible sigh. 

The Ravenclaw boy makes an alarming noise—something similar to ‘uh-oh’ and swallows the big bite from before as fast as he can. “Where’s Chan?”

You only shrug, “Don’t know. Don’t care.” If only you could do that with the train of thoughts that have been going in and out of your ears for the past a hundred and twenty minutes. 

“Y/N, you look troubled,” he purses his lips, frowning at you. 

“I’m not,” you voice in denial, trying your best not to come off as snappy. No, you will not give up your facade that easily. You won’t leave Chan’s ego nor Jeongin to rest without a fight by saying that you actually want to dance with the heathen!

“Yeah right, let me-“

“Don’t. What if he’s already asked someone else?” You momentarily shudder at how sad you sound. The root beer shouldn’t have hit you this hard. “I mean look at him, he’s Bang Chan. I’m pretty sure those girls from Beauxbatons have been eyeing him up and down since the Tournament.” 

Jeongin lets out a huff of laughter in disbelief. “Are you even hearing yourself right now?”

“One of you guys could have asked me. Or I should have paid Jisung to be my partner yesterday. I just, I don’t know, what am I saying? I’m confused.”

Your friend is officially done with your bullshit so he decides for himself that he will now set down his food to make your first and last Yule Ball arguably unforgettable. “Honestly? I can lie and say I would dance with you if you weren’t so full of pride. But truth is, none of us asked you to dance because we all know how badly Chan wants this opportunity. Wake the fuck up! He’s been planning this since forever. I’ll go look for him, wait here,” he points a finger at you before running off, leaving your heartbeat pause awkwardly like a broken record. 

The ballroom feels significantly colder now. 

“Miss Y/N?”

Ah, perfect timing. What’s another way to phrase ‘being an absolute idiot at a ball’? Oh right, it’s ‘talking to your professor five minutes before the first dance while your friends are socializing left and right’. 

“Yes, Headmistress McGonagall?”

Your professor peers around when she realizes that you’re all alone. “Are you and Mister Bang ready?”

“R-ready?” Suddenly, you feel out of place. 

“Well, of course. It’s only traditional that the three champions start the first dance!”

“Oh.”

two. 

Only the celestial bodies above can know how melancholy you are. But you’re met with a sky without stars tonight. 

With your head on your elbows, lips pressed into a straight line, your gaze falls from the endless canvas of darkness to the hustle and bustle of students leaving the Great Hall to head back to their designated dormitories. A sigh. You definitely don’t need to know what they’re going to do for the after-party. Ryujin used to show you an article on this peculiar machine called ‘a laptop’ that the more you sigh, the faster you age. If Chan keeps doing shit like this to you, you’re gonna be all old and wrinkly by the time he comes here. 

If he is going to show up at all that is. 

The moment you peel your eyes away from the overcrowded main gate, a broad figure is shuffling himself through his drunk Quidditch teammates, sloppy couples, and burnt out professors. He dashes through the empty hallways to reach the spiral staircase, skipping three steps at a time, risking the chances of falling on his face just to get to you. 

Pulling himself to a halt at the last step, Chan sees you all curled up against the balcony railings and feels a pang of guilt wash over his innards like a wave. You’re pulling your legs toward your chest, defeated eyes gazing into the space ahead while your hair falls to your face messily. Like you’ve gone through the depths of the Fourth Dimension, struggling through dark matters and a rite of divinity at the end of the line. All for him. 

You’re beautiful. 

And the amount of affection that’s piling upon his rib cage? Astronomical. 

Your gaze is averted away; even with a slight scowl, sloppy clothes and messed up hair, you still flare radiance. He thinks that if a meteor shower is happening right now, you can still outshine it. “You came,” you mention. 

For once, Chan finds himself at a loss for words. “Y-Yeah,” he manages to swallow. Yeah? What the fuck, Chan? Is that all you’ve got to say? 

“I-I’m sorry, Y/N. Yeji accidentally mistook one of Minho’s potions for her allergy medicine so I gotta take care of that before coming,” he scratches his forearm awkwardly, head hung low with guilt. “I didn’t know it would take that long…”

“Oh.” Wow, jealous stinks. This isn’t pre-school, you’d better snap out of it. “Let’s head back. I wanna check on her before passing out.” 

“She’s fine now, sleeps like death. Chaeryeong is there too, you know, just in case.” Chan feels perplexed as he tries to coax anything but the ‘head back’ option from you. 

You tilt your head. “And...?”

“I’m afraid you owe me something?” A slow smile begins to outstretch upon his facial muscles, deepening the dimples on either side of his cheeks that you adore the most. “A dance, I believe,” he makes a thinking face while striding toward you. 

Coldly, you stand up to dust your dress. “I don’t want to.” You’re not having it, he can tell. But does Bang Chan ever give up? 

“A bet is a bet, Y/N.”

Chan’s hand fishes inside the pocket of his trench coat to take out his wand. His hand delicately gives it a swift flick; once, and twice followed by a low mumble from his lips. Immediately, light pulses from the tip of the wand before shooting upward, disintegrating into a million bits as though a starry night is embracing the both of you. He does the same action again to cast a different spell. Music laces through every fiber of air without effort, like honey being poured into your ears. 

“It’s just one bet,” he pouts with a hand fully extended toward you. 

You should have realized how good Chan looks tonight. A black dress shirt that’s buttoned below appropriate, matching trench coat, silver accessories lining his fingers and ears with naturally tousled hair from running here. He looks so gorgeous that it almost suffocates you, that it almost makes you want to hiss ‘fucking unfair’ out loud. 

Enchanted by his poise and grace, your body reacts without the consent of your mind. You seize up when you unknowingly place your hand on top of his, the touch sending electricity down your spine. A simple response has become all too complicated for your brain to process. 

You grow breathless the moment he grabs you by the waist and pulls you flush against him. “Yeah, a bet so you’ll leave me alone,” you remark sarcastically to ease your nerves. 

“Look, it’s not my fault that the Goblet of Fire chose me to participate in the Tournament,” Chan chuckles lowly, eyes crinkling into crescent moon shapes while he sways you to the soft melody. Dots of light continue to float around weightlessly, reflecting the golden flecks in his eyes. He’s ethereal in the worst way—the way that isn’t healthy for your heart. 

But you soon slap on another scowl when you realize he just reminded you of why you’re even here in the first place. If only you weren’t so salty about Slytherin winning your team over at the final Quidditch match before the holiday occurs. Let’s just say you weren’t exactly in the best mind state after getting your ass kicked in your favorite sport. 

And Chan wasted no time to slip in between the line of comical humor and your ultimate torment. Which results in—if you get to attend the Triwizard Tournament, he will leave you alone for the rest of your life; but if he is the chosen one, he gets a dance with you at the Yule Ball. 

It’s really not all that bad if you think twice about it. Dancing with Bang Chan, the Slytherin’s Quidditch team captain, the student with perfect academics and conduct for six years straight, and now one of the Triwizard Tournament champions this year. 

Music threads through the atmosphere and lifts away gravity. You can’t count how many times you have stepped on his toes due to nervousness because you’re too much of a coward to look him in the eye. But he’s the only thing you can seem to focus on right now. 

“Besides, don’t you think this is a good opportunity to get rid of the tension between us?” Chan asks honestly, and this causes you to perk up. 

“What?”

Lights are twinkling with every step as Chan spins you around gently, your dress billowing out prettily as your heels click against the cold concrete. After that, he swiftly pulls you back into his arms and you exhale in relief like you were meant to be there all this time. 

“Don’t act dumb, you’re terrible at it. I know the only reason why you’ve been avoiding me since first year was because of our families’ stupid grudge. ”

Your eyes are cast downward, sadness glinting in your round pupils. “Either way, my parents wouldn’t like to see me talking to you. And look at what we’re doing. It’s going to be catastrophic if they find out.”

“Well, they can’t just magically appear now, can they?” Chan leans a little closer to lock his eyes with yours. 

And you break it seconds later because you’re an absolute coward for a Gryffindor. “We’re attending a magic school. Anything is possible.”

“Did they even tell you what the actual problem was in the first place?” he huffs out in faint annoyance. 

You shake your head. “I don’t think they’d even remember.”

“Then would you stop giving me that look as if I just shooed your owl way every time I said ‘hi’ on my way to class? Have you ever thought about my feelings? About us being civil for once? Like friends? Or even more so?”

“I-“ 

“We’re not our parents, Y/N.”

Your heart becomes all erratic at his words. It’s nothing like those fully-fledged, tear-jerking nor cheesyass confessions that you’ve gawked at one too many times, but it makes your heart flutter and stirs up those cliché butterflies inside your stomach. This can’t be compared to the Yule Ball—it’s even better than that. Because it feels as though you and Chan are the only presences that graze the surface of this land. There’s no one to judge, no fingers to point, no gossip spreading like wildfire. 

It’s perfect. Almost. 

“Us...it’s not- it can’t happen. It’s not supposed to happen. It’s not possible, Chan.”

Wordlessly, he stops, moves both of your hands to his shoulders, and wraps his arms around your torso. The sound of your heartbeat against his is so in sync they just drown out the music completely. Time is frozen in place, leaving you to hang on the edge with him, hanging onto this single moment as thin as the red string of fate. You’re waiting for him to do something, say something. 

Just then, Chan cracks a wry smile and pulls you closer by the nape of your neck, resting his forehead comfortably on yours. “We’re attending a magic school. Anything is possible.”

[nagitoandkokichioneshots]

Nagito’s Fluff Alphabet

Mod Ibuki: Yes!!! Two of Mod Ibuki’s favorite things! Fluff and Nagito! Here you are, Nonnie! I hope you enjoy! Fluff alphabet is from @mod-sonia-writes-stuff

A ctivities - What do they like to do with their s/o? How do they spend their free time with them?

-Nagito loves being able to just spend time with or around his SO. I feel like one of his favorite things would be quiet dates while cuddling and just enjoying each others company.

-Nagito would love to do quiet activities with his SO like reading outside or going for walks on sunny days.

B eauty- What do they admire about their s/o? What do they think is beautiful about them?

-....This man you guys.... Nagito would believe every inch of his SO is the most beautiful thing in the universe! Nagito would adore his SO in all of their being.

-If his SO is insecure about something, you’d better believe he’s going to spend the next few hours telling you about how much he adores every bit of you and how your so called “flaws” are really just what make you even more beautiful.

-Although, Nagito is more of one to fall in love with his SO for who they are, rather than what they look like. I think he finds his SO’s kindness to be the most beautiful thing about them.

C omfort- How would they help their S/O when they feel down/have a panic attack?

-Nagito can read his SO like a novel. When he notices them starting to spiral, you’d better believe he’ll be there with his arms open. Nagito has had more than his fair share of panic attacks, so he’s also pretty quick to realize when his SO starts to spiral.

-He starts out by pulling you into his arms and repeating sweet nothings as well as reminders that you are safe.

-After you calm down, he’d ask you if you’d want to talk about it, and he’d hands down be the best listener when it came to needing a listening ear.

-If you don’t want to talk about it, that’s completely fine! Nagito would spend the rest of the day telling you how much he loves you and would probably be watching your comfort shows/movies with you.

D reams- How do they picture their future with their s/o?

-Honestly, Nagito never even would’ve thought he would’ve gotten this far. His luck has blessed him with an angel.

-He’s hesitant about planning ahead too much, because he’s afraid his bad luck will jinx everything.

-But deep down, Nagito would be happy as long as you loved him forever, and he got the chance to love you forever <3

E qual- Are they the dominant one in the relationship, or rather passive?

-Nagito overall is pretty passive, most of the time he lets his SO make decisions because for a while, he didn’t believe he was good enough to be making decisions.

-It took a lot of love and convincing on your part to remind him that you are equals in your relationship and you wanted his input.

-Even after he brings to make suggestions for date ideas and such, he would always seem to want your approval. Give it to him. Give it to him now

F ight- Would they be easy to forgive their s/o? How are they fighting?

-Honestly, fights with Nagito are about as rare as they come.

-I honestly find it hard to believe Nagito would really have true fights with his SO.

-When/if they do fight though, usually it would be about Nagito’s SO trying to help him with his self depreciation.

G rattitude- How grateful are they in general? Are they aware of what their s/o is doing for them?

- Nagito is beyond grateful for his SO! He’ll let you know every second he gets the chance to as well!

-“SO, I truly am lucky to be graced with your beautiful hope every day”

- Nagito is more than aware of what his SO is doing for him and honestly feels guilty at first. He thinks he doesn’t deserve you, but overtime that insecurity fades

H onesty- Do they have secrets they hide from their s/o? Or do they share everything?

-I think Nagito would be a mostly open book with his SO, although it would take a while for him to open up to them.

- Once he’s comfortable, I believe he would tell his SO just about anything

I nspiration- Did their s/o change them somehow, or the other way around? Like trying out new things or helping them over some personal problems?

-I think we all are aware of Nagito’s self depreciation by now.

- It took a long time, but eventually you were able to help him break this hateful way of thinking.

-Anytime he would say he was trash or unworthy, you would step in with complimenting him instead

-“Are you really sure it’s okay for trash like me to touch you?”

-“Nagito, I think you’re beautiful. And yes, I’m completely sure.”

-The first time you did this he was completely taken aback

-Nagito.exe has stopped working

J ealousy- Do they get jealous easily? How do they deal with it?

-Nagito does get jealous easily, but not in the traditional sense.

-For instance, if he sees his SO spending time or talking with someone else, he goes back to self deprecating.

-When he gets like this, he does one of two things

1) distances himself as much as possible in the current area or

2) Tends to hover or even become clingy

-After the first few times, his SO picks up on his behavior and tries to include him in the conversation or holds his hand while drawing patterns on his palm as reassurance.

K iss- Are they a good kisser? What was the first kiss like?

-Nagito is pretty hesitant at first when it comes to kisses.

-He’s so afraid that he doesn’t deserve you and feels as if he’d be dirtying you in some way at first.

-As for the first kiss, I believe that his SO would have to initiate it.

-This would be his first kiss as well, so he wouldn’t think he would be very experienced, but it’s a good thing luck is on his side because his kisses are always gentle and comforting

-The first few kisses you share are very soft, almost as if your lips are barely touching at all.

-After a while though, he realizes how addicted he is to his SO’s kisses and quickly becomes more comfortable

-He’ll never outright ask for a kiss, however you can usually tell when he wants one.

L ove Confession- How would they confess to their s/o?

- I believe after Nagito allows himself to love you, he would tell you right away

- He would wrap his arms around them and whisper to them about how in love he is with them and the hope that they emit

-You can feel just how fast his heart is beating as he confesses and how it speeds up when you tell him that you love him too

M arriage- Do they want to get married? How do they propose? What would the marriage be like?

-Nagito has always wanted to get married, but I do believe he would be scared that his luck would get in the way

-It would take some time and a lot of heart-to-heart conversations, but he would eventually ask you to marry him.

-I believe he would propose to you on a pretty relaxed date while doing something you both enjoy

-When married, Nagito would be a stay at home husband because of his illness while his s/o would be at work or whatever they choose.

-Because of Nagito’s wealth, you don’t necessarily need to work if you don’t want to. However, he would be fully supportive of whatever his SO chooses to do.

N icknames- What do they call their s/o?

-You are 100% without a doubt “My Hope”

-Would also call you “Angel”, “My love”, or “My dear”.

O n Cloud Nine- What are they like when they are in love? How do they express their feelings?

-I believe that Nagito would definitely follow his SO and be kinda clingy

-When this boy is w h i p p e d for his SO he is going to follow them around like a puppy

-He also looks at his SO like they are the most precious thing in the world (because, well, to him they are)

-Nagito would be one to wrap his arms around his SO and whisper in their ear about how much they mean to him

-Please play with his hair when he does this

P DA- Are they upfront about their relationship? Do they brag about their s/o in front of others? Or are they rather shy to kiss etc. when others are watching?

-Oh 100% upfront about his relationship

-When talking to others, he will always find a way to talk about his SO and how wonderful they are with a lovestruck look gracing his features

-When it comes to physical PDA though, it takes a while for Nagito to get comfortable with the idea of it’s something you desire.

-After a while though, is almost always holding your hand or hugging you from behind

Q uirk- Some random ability they have that’s beneficial to the relationship

-Hmm so I believe that his luck combined with his knowledge of romance stories would be very beneficial.

-Nagito swears he knows nothing about relationships but this man is S M O O T H

- Nagito is 100% the guy that would have flowers delivered to your work because they reminded him of you

R omance- How romantic are they? What would they do to make their s/o happy? Cliche or rather creative?

-Like stated above, Nagito is a hopeless romantic who tends to be more on the cliche side.

-He would quite literally do anything to make his SO happy. Want chocolate and snuggles? Done. Can’t sleep and want to watch a movie? He’s there with your favorite blanket and snack.

S upport- Are they helping their s/o achieve their goals? Do they believe in them?

-Nagito would be supportive of his SO i’m just about anything they set themselves to achieve as long as it doesn’t harm them in some way.

-He will always be there to support and love you no matter what you set your mind to <3

T hrill- Do they need to try out new things to spice up your relationship? Or do they prefer a certain routine?

-Leave Nagito’s luck to spice just about anything up. That being said, he prefers to plan things to be pretty simple in the beginning. Sometimes however, his luck can make your plans take quite the unexpected turn

-I believe he would like to have some sort of routine and stay on the calmer side though. Just enjoying being in the presence of his SO is already more than enough for him

U nderstanding- How well do they know their partner?

-Nagito is very good at reading people, his SO is no exception

-Nagito is able to read his SO like a book, and sometimes you’re convinced he knows you better than you know yourself

-He can pick up even the slightest hint of discomfort or unease that you may produce in .5 seconds

V alue- How important is the relationship to them?

-Your relationship means absolutely everything to Nagito. Not a day goes by when he doesn’t think of his SO

-It was his dream to someday be loved, and now that he’s got that, he’s going to hold onto it as best as he can

W ild card- A random fluff headcannon

-Nagito absolutely LOVES playing with his S/O’s hair. Whether he’s simply running his hands through it, or braiding it, he’ll always be content.

-He’s also very good at braiding hair, and if you ask him to braid it, he’ll be there in 10 seconds with a comb and a hair tie.

-He also loves his hair being played with. He’ll fall asleep the quickest with his head on your chest and your fingers running through his fluffy hair.

X OXO- How affectionate are they?

-Nagito is a very affectionate lover. You wouldn’t be able to go a day without knowing how much he loves and appreciates you.

-I personally believe that Nagito’s love language would be physical touch, so he would always want to be close to you any second you have the chance

Y earning- How will they cope when they’re missing their partner?

-Nagito would be very down when missing his SO and I believe he would become even more withdrawn.

-He usually copes by reminiscing about time the two of you have shared and by looking at pictures you two have together

Z eal- Are they willing to go to great lengths for the relationship?

-I believe Nagito would do just about anything for his SO. As stated before, his relationship means just about everything to him so you’d better believe he’d be willing to go to great lengths for his SO.

-You are his ultimate hope after all <3

[thebeebi]

your little games pt. 4

pairing: Jungkook x reader

warnings: smut, fluff in later chapters, non-con, mention of r*pe attempt, implied murder and many more! Read only if you are okay with these topics!

genre: historical AU, 18th century?

word count: 2.7k+ [part 4]

a/n: My classes started today, so I might slow down with posting this series. As always, I tried my best to write a good chapter, so I hope you will like it. Enjooooy ♥ 

taglist: @njrwifey​ @danietoww04​ [If you want to be added, just let me know :)]

You ran away from the man who tried to take an advantage of you. You stabbed him and escaped. Escaped to the arms of the handsome captain who was even worse than the man you just killed.

Part 1 // Part 2 // Part 3

Once you heard him, you froze worrying about what will come next. Your face lost its colour and took hands that were about to touch the bread back and put them into your lap. Jungkook sipped his coffee without taking his eyes off. He paid close attention to the dress you were wearing realising that even though they were beautiful, they did not fit a young woman like you. They were more fitted for younger girls. He felt a bit uncomfortable with the idea that he was holding on to a little girl, not a woman you were. They only thing he liked about the dress was lower cut neckline that showed a bit of your breasts. It was highlighting them and that calmed Jungkook down and showed him that you were no longer a little girl. When he finished eating his breakfast, he returned to the part of the table where he was before you woke up. You did not know what to do, so you started walking around the cabin. When Jungkook walked out of the little room, the idea of running away came back. It was short-lived though, since you found him in front of the cabin, giving commands to the crew. He turned at the sound of the door and smirked when he saw your attempt. When you looked into his eyes, the anger of another failed attempt came back and you shut the door loudly from inside.

When the lunchtime came and Jimin walked inside with food, you were nicer than in the morning, but still not welcoming. When Jungkook filled his hunger, he quickly stood up looking at your body. “Come here, Y/N.” You were about to take the first bite when he commanded you to come to him. You were still, refusing to move an inch closer. You shook your head and whispered a soft “No.” Jungkook exhaled and closed his eyes with a smile. “I love your spirit, little one but do you think it is clever to not listen to me? We both know that I am the stronger one and you have no chance to fight against me. I will take what I want even if you do not want it. And if you don’t want it to hurt, I suggest you to come to me willingly.” You were staring at him, knowing well that he was right. You stood up biting your lower lip and walked towards the tall dark-haired man. “Don’t be afraid.” He whispered gently once again. “I will not hurt you.” Jungkook covered your trembling lips with his and with the swift move of his tongue, he entered them. One of his hands was behind your back pulling you closer and the other one was stroking your side. You felt helpless in his embrace, you felt like your body was about to give up in his arms. You felt like his kisses had no end. When his hand slid down from your side to the thigh and started moving up from the inner side, you broke the kiss and held your breath. When his hand reached your core, a soft moan felt your lips but it made you freeze. You enjoyed his touch more than you wanted to admit. Knowing that you should not continue, you tried to push him away. “Don’t,” he murmured. “Enjoy it.” He really wanted you to enjoy his touch and wanted to make you feel good. “I can’t,“ you whispered trying to look away. “Yes, you can.” His lips moved from yours down to your neck and then drifted lower to your showing breasts above the neckline. He sucked in between them like there was the sweetest honey he ever tasted. His hand slid up from your thighs to your clothed breast which he started squeezing harshly. His breathing increased and you felt that his touch changed from unwanted to the hottest and most needed. Jungkook hungrily unbuttoned the dress near your bust and kissed the parts he just exposed. Knock. Jungkook tried to ignore the sound coming from the door but when he heard it again, he pulled away from your body and frowned. The second knock got your attention as well and you quickly pulled the dress back up again so you covered your exposed self. You tried to stand up from his knee he sat you on just seconds ago. He knew you were trying to stand up, but he pulled you closer, into his embrace. “What the hell do you want?”

Jimin opened the door at the sudden question he was waiting for and with rosy cheeks stood still in the door frame. “I am sorry, captain but someone came saying that a buyer wants to talk to you. He said that buyer wants to buy everything left and is asking to meet you.” Jungkook tilted his head to the side. “He wants me to go to him?“ He asked in disbelief. “Can’t he come here on Bangtan like the others?“ Jimin rubbed back of his neck trying to explain. “He said that buyer is an old man and he cannot move freely. If you agree, his men will check everything, so the buyer will know the price of everything and then later will take you to the buyer.” Jungkook frowned even more. He asked Jimin to show the person around. “Once he is done, send him here.” Once Jimin walked out of the cabin, Jungkook let go of you and you took that as your cue to walk to the window to button up your dresses. Your back was facing Jungkook who sat behind the huge table and the door opened quickly after they were just closed. You felt shy after what happened but even more embarrassed that someone might find you in the cabin of Captain Jeon Jungkook. You kept on looking into the distance of the ocean so you did not notice that the stranger left already and Jungkook was standing behind you, trying to wrap his arms around you from behind. “I have to leave for a few hours, little one. I will come back soon but I asked Jimin to keep an eye on you. Don’t make it hard on him, though. He is such a softie when it comes to women even though… your experience is… different. I told him that I want you here when I come back so don’t try to run away. I would kill him if you did and I would search the whole town just to find you.” The passion from a few minutes ago was gone and once again you felt that it was right to run away from this man. “I really do not care about that man,” you said coldly. “If I get the chance, I will run away without looking back.” Jungkook’s left eyebrow lifted and he nodded. “In that case, Y/N, I will take you with me.“ You widened your eyes hearing the sentence and turned around. “No, please don’t. I cannot imagine the embarrassment I would feel if they saw me. If you want I will read here, not doing anything. Just don’t take me there.” You begged. Jungkook was surprised. “You know how to read?” he asked and entangled his finger with a strand of your hair. You nodded without saying a word and he sighed. “Okay, you stay here and I will drop by the shop with dresses to find you some suitable ones. I want you to look like a woman. Not like a girl. Stay still so I can check out what is your size.” You stepped further away making some space for him to look at you. Jungkook’s eyes were measuring you before he finally noted. “You are so tiny.” You felt offended and cut him off. “People say that I am too skinny,” you looked away and hugged our body so it would hide you from his hungry eyes. “I can imagine some jealous elderly hags telling you that. They are most likely drowning in their own fat.” He was right. Your aunt always told you so and he definitely described her body type correctly. You smiled at his remark and until you heard loud clap.

Clap. “That is it, little one. I knew I would make you smile!” Jungkook smirked as you swiftly put on your typical cold mask. “With you, I have no reason to smile.” You replied. Jungkook sighed. “Again the bad mood?” He came closer to you and held your chin making you look at him. “Let’s see if the ice-cold expression froze your lips too. I would love to feel a bit of warmth of your lovely lips. I don’t have time for anything else.” You were happy that he was satisfied with a kiss for once. You wrapped your arms around his neck and felt him pulling you closer to his body. You thought that a bit of willingness would ease his worries of you leaving. Jungkook rose his eyebrows surprised at the sudden change of your attitude but you did not want him to think about it, so you pulled his head closer and softly kissed his lips. You took all of your so far learned experience and kissed him with a kiss only lovers would understand. You were honestly surprised by your own action. Jungkook was enjoying the honey taste of your lips and the close warmth of your body. All the worries disappeared with the deep passionate kiss and pulled you closer enjoying every bit of it. He pushed you away to break the kiss and licked his lower lip. “I will stop leaving this cabin if you are going to kiss me like this.” You felt the heat rise to your cheeks and you shyly looked down. Thanks to this kiss you realised Jungkook was not as disgusting as you thought at first. “Looks like I have to stay after all. My pants are too tight right now.”

With the statement, you looked at his pants to see what was the problem. You shouldn’t have because it caused you to blush even more. He smirked when he saw you turn to the side. He smiled internally turning around to find better fitting pants for this occasion. When the pink colour of your face finally disappeared, you turned to Jungkook. You were surprised. At first, he was disgusting but now, you felt like he was a nice man. You looked at his body up and down realising that he has a great taste in clothes. Your eyes lingered longer on the pants that fit him perfectly and were actually accentuating his length. Jungkook was in your eyes really attractive. You were sure he had to push many women away because he was too popular. Jungkook walked towards you and held both sides of your face and kissed you greedily and with a love he slapped your butt. He smiled. “I will come back soon, little one.” With that, he opened the door and left to go to the buyer who was willing to buy everything from the ship. You almost forgot to bite your tongue and shouted at him for being that bold. Once the door closed, you started smiling because you knew it was time to come up with a plan to run away. Everything went south the second you heard a sound of the lock from the outside. The anger within you came out and you pushed all the dishes down from the table. Damn it!

You were determined to flee from the board of Bangtan. You knew if Jungkook would come back, the odds of you actually running away would decrease rapidly. You tried to think of a plan on how to trick Jimin. Should I try to bribe him? But with what? Your dress was the only thing that had any price. You wondered if that would be enough to get him on your side but soon enough threw away the idea remembering the man who defiled your body. You knew that Jimin would be loyal to his captain and started thinking of another plan. There were many plans you considered but none of them was good enough to actually act on. You knew that if you cannot bribe him, then you have to use the strength. You almost laughed at the idea but looked around the cabin to see if there were any things that might help you find the freedom you were desiring.  You opened every cabinet and found only money. You sat down exhausted searching with your eyes every corner. “He has to have some kind of weapon.” You murmured under the nose knowing that time was ticking. Suddenly you noticed a wardrobe you haven’t opened yet but was disappointed that you found nothing. You thew out all of the hanging clothes you found until your eyes landed on the small box. The idea of finding jewellery went through your mind as you picked it up and tried to open it. You did not need any jewellery so you focused more on the box which had J engraved on it. You softly traced it with your finger and then looked inside the box. You almost screamed when you found something you were looking for. A gun.  You did not know much about weapons. You looked at them trying to figure out how they were working but could not. You thought about hitting Jimin’s head but got rid of the idea knowing that is would probably only hurt him and actually anger him. That way your attempt would go back to zero. But what if? You smiled holding the pistol and the eyes look at the door the moment you heard them unlock. “Waaaaaait! I am naked!” You screamed and Jimin behind the door stood still, waiting for your sign to let him. In meanwhile you took all of Jungkook’s clothes you have thrown out and put them back into the wardrobe. You took out only a shirt, huge pants and a belt. You changed into the clothes you prepared and put the clothes you came into the cabin on the bed. You sat behind the table and scribbled down a note for Jungkook once he comes back and threw it on the bed near the dress. You also pulled out one silver coin from his money. It should be enough for him as payment. Then you hid the empty pistol between your legs. “Come in,” you shouted once again and Jimin took it as a cue to come inside. You pulled towards yourself a random book that was sitting on the table and opened it before Jimin could come in. That was you fulfilled your promise to the captain that you would read. When Jimin entered, you closed the book that wasn’t to your liking and tilted the head to the side. Jimin smiled and walked towards the table. “I brought you a cup of tea. It is warm,” He smiled and placed it on the table near. That was your only chance. You pulled up the pistol from between your legs and aimed it at the servant. “Do not move or I will shoot.” Your voice sounded differently than you were used to. You want to sound strong but it came out a mess, but Jimin did not notice it. He was looking at the pistol you were holding. He did not think that a gun in the woman’s hand is funny. It was the opposite actually. He was terrified because he knew a woman like her had no experience and can literally shoot him within a second. “Put the keys on the table and sit down.“ Jimin did as you asked. You kept on aiming at him as you swiftly took the keys from the table backing towards the door Jimin came from. You opened the door. “Go into the wardrobe and close the door behind yourself or I will shoot.” Jimin just nodded and walked towards the wardrobe you searched just a few minutes ago. When you heard the door being closed. You walked outside and closed the front door behind yourself, locking it but leaving the key inside the lock. Finally. Freedom. You placed the borrowed pistol near the door and sighed. Now I just need to get off this ship.

Part 5

a/n: Here we go, Y/N is finally free (almost)! I wonder if  her attempt will be successful this time. :))))))) Also, if you liked it, then please leave a like, it warms my little cold heart. I am just joking.

[gojology]

Job Benefits. (Part 4)

❝...𝑪𝑶𝑴𝑬 𝑶𝑵, 𝑺𝑷𝑰𝑻 𝑰𝑻 𝑶𝑼𝑻.❞

CONSPIRING. - Chapter Four

you can find part three here :

part three : routines

pairing : ceo! gojo x female reader warnings : cursing, no proof reading, no editing wordcount : 2494 a/n :  this is so bad, i... i am so sorry. in my defense i haven’t written in a while, but i hope u guys still like this regardless </3

     Almost immediately after stepping foot into the room, you’re greeted with a minimalist, yet clean looking interior. Large window panes with Tokyo’s beautiful sunlight filtering into the already lively room.     There’s a few co-workers you can see sitting by the vending machines on plush arm-rest chairs, the cushions colored a beautiful tan alongside oak wood arm rests and chair legs. Others are on their phone, texting and furiously tapping and a feeling of anxiety immediately eats you up whole. You were seriously starting to regret coming down here, what was the point other then to make Gojo jealous? You could’ve very well eaten in your office- and what you were doing was childish anyways.      You stood in the entrance way of the room, nervously fidgeting, eyes scanning for Keto Sugaeru amongst the faces that were starting to blend in. You can only vaguely remember how he looks like from the few visits he had made to Gojo’s office, jet black hair, usually tied in a bun, always a kind, yet careless smirk on his face. He was handsome, which would be a definitive beacon amongst the rather disgruntled looking office workers.     “Hey, are you gonna move or what? Blocking the damn way.”     You hear a gruff impatient voice behind you, and you twist around, stumbling with the newfound height of your high heels as you did so. A man’s eyes bored into your own, glaring at you with a mix of hatred and annoyance. You gulp, finding yourself unable to respond, instead averting your gaze to the floor meekly.    “You gonna talk? We don’t have all day, sheesh, they’re hiring anyone into the workforce nowadays huh-”      “I’m sorry- I uh, I’m r-really new here so...” modestly giving the man a kind smile, but he seemed to have no patience for you.     As if a divine being heard his rude comment and immediately swept down with some karma, a firm, large hand is placed onto the man’s shoulder that you hadn’t seen prior. It gripped the flesh tightly, and the mysterious man glared directly down at the now squeaking rude one.      “Did I hear that right?” is all he says, a few co-workers are twisting their heads towards the altercation, now you’re sweating bullets. You grip onto your lunch so tightly you’re afraid it might burst, and those incredibly long fingers of his are inching towards the stout man’s collar.     Eventually, the perplexing man smiles kindly, retracting his hands to his sides, now lifeless and slack. “Please, Nishima, refrain from picking on people. We don’t tolerate this in the office, and don’t be dumb enough to do it in front of someone who has direct connections to the Gojo family. Run along now, I’ll leave you off at a warning. You’re lucky I’m in a good mood.”     The man grumbled a few times, kicking at the floor before heading out, you turn your head to thank the man, looking at him with an admirable gaze, but you realize something-      He has the jet black long hair you were searching for before any of this happened, it’s tied up in a bun, and it looked ridiculously smooth and soft. Something you’d pay to drag your hands through and play with. He has that carefree grin displayed on his handsome features, shamelessly showing off his good looks. Tall, and he definitely had a familiar voice that took you a while to put a finger on it.     This had to be him.      “You frozen girlie? I haven’t seen you around in the lunch room- here go sit there, that seat’s super comfy.” he gestures to one chair, and you snap out of your trance, nodding in response, yet still unable to fully register what just happened to you.      “Sugaeru?” you blurt out, your eyes wide while stumbling like a just born fawn towards the spotless table. How good was your luck today? He came to you.      “Suguru.” he corrects, looking back at you, a teasing curve to his lips. “Holy, you completely butchered my name, I think I know you from somewhere-” for a second, he looks like he’s seriously thinking before he beams. “You’re Gojo’s secretary, Y/N, aren’t you? What brings you down here? Gojo told me that you’re usually reserved in your own little world and you do everything in your office.”      You stammer, still unable to believe your luck, but your shoulders are relaxing and the tension has completely evaporated into thin air. “Uh, yeah I’m Satoru’s secretary. I- Um, I wanted to... Get some water?” that was a horrible lie, even for you.      “Rookie mistake.” Suguru pulls out the aforementioned chair for you before walking to the other side of the table to place his lunch on the tabletop carefully. “Water here is super overpriced. You should bring some from your own house if that’s the case! Colleague to colleague, just don’t tell anyone I said that, or else I’ll get in trouble.” winking at you, he twists the lid to his container presumably holding his food, instantaneously a cloud of steam emerges and a delicious scent wafts through the room.     After a moment of silence between the two of you as you both opened your lunches, you clear your throat, meaning to make conversation. “Thank you for saving me back there.” sheepishly, you smile at him. “It’s really appreciated, I just couldn’t believe how rude a person could be, especially since u-uh... You know, he could’ve, like, just walked around me?” stuttering, you grab your utensils in an effort to look relaxed and comfortable, even though you had no idea how to speak to him.     “Atta girl, no problem.” he responds warmly. You feel safe in his shadow. “Hey, if your Gojo’s friend, you’re my friend. Don’t worry about it. I heard you’re new to the office.” he pauses, looking around the now bustling room before covering the sides of his mouth and whispering towards you. “Secretary position was open for a while because no sane person in Tokyo wants to be Gojo’s secretary.” sitting back down while snickering, he takes a bite out of his lunch.      Giggling, you finally ease up. As opposed to Gojo, Suguru’s more sincere and straight to the point. He’s funny in his own way without being obnoxious.      You scoff. “Yeah, I can see how anyone could go insane from working with the guy. It was the only good secretary position open, though...” you muse aloud.      Suguru crosses his arm over his chest, your eyes carefully surveying his attractive figure as he does so, a thoughtful smile on his face. “Well, imagine being friends with him for more than 15 years. I’m sure I’ve gotten a few screws loose.” he says suggestively, wriggling his eyebrows.      You cover your mouth, trying not to laugh- but it just spills out of your lips, and you forget that you just met the guy, that’s just how friendly he was. “Don’t say that!”      “What? It’s true!”     You didn’t quite know it just that, but a seed was planted that day- you and Geto’s relationship, and it would only blossom from there.  ‧₊˚✩彡.     Gojo’s paranoid.     It seems like there’s a secret that he’s not in on, he realizes that Geto’s visits to his office are growing more and more frequent, yet he spends less time at his office, rather, spends all of his time at yours. Feeling left out was never a positive emotion. In response, Gojo would increase his visiting between the two of you, “accidentally” walking in on the both of you casually chatting, but it’s like he’s a ghost in the room. He’d get a few lukewarm stares and a few polite greetings, but that was that.     He’s not sure if it’s jealousy, or what.      He knows he should be supportive of his best friend potentially getting a girlfriend, and he tries to be- but something about Geto and you together really pissed him off, he just doesn’t know why. Maybe it’s the way the pairing between you two seemed so natural, it would be almost sure that a relationship would occur soon that angered him. Having dating co-workers was almost never a good thing.      Deep down he knows that’s not it.      As the weeks past by, the visiting grew almost unbearable, hearing your laughter- your giggles- from jokes that weren’t from him was infuriating. Listening to the repetitive clicking of your heels down the stairs into the break room was driving him insane, and eventually he can’t even open an email or do anything involved with work. You and Geto were constantly on his mind, and he’s morbidly curious as to when the friendship occurred- or if it was possibly more than that.    His first attempt at getting to the bottom of things was bringing it up between the two of them, him and Geto, just as casual chit-chat, but it didn’t go exactly as planned.      Geto would have a sympathetic, almost mocking grin on his lips, but those eyes of his were telling enough. It was a whole other book of lust and need, for you. Brushing the topic off with a wave of dismissal, he’d chuckle and put a mask of friendliness on, but Gojo’s known Geto enough to see where this was going.      He couldn’t have this, everything was brought to him on a silver platter, so it was only natural for him to feel like he needs you, even if he didn’t. Perhaps you were another trophy to his endless collection to him, he just didn’t know. He’d never felt so strongly of a woman, much less his secretary, something was brewing inside of him.    One thing he doesn’t understand is why Geto. He’s flawless in appearance, restless, impossibly good at sex, why weren’t you stroking his ego? Whatever, this was another topic of conversation, what he needed to do now was win you back.     He calculated in his office the average time in which Geto would visit, music drowning out the muffled talking, and finally he’s ready and absolutely certain that this would be a good time to chat you up. Having everything planned out, an aura of confidence radiated from him.      “Y/N!” you hear a chirp from the door, lifting your head up in excitement, you realize it’s not your beloved Suguru, rather, it’s Gojo. Gluing your eyes back on your computer screen, not even bothering to peel them away, you clear your throat in acknowledgement. “Sir?”      A smug grin flickers across his face for just a second before he pulls out one of the chairs across from your desk, scooching it a bit further away for some extra leg room before promptly sitting down. “Knew you’d remember to call me sir, I knew I hired well when you stepped into the interview room, so sharp.”     You don’t detect a shred of sarcasm in his compliment, and finally you turn your gaze upon his face. This was certainly out of the ordinary for you, as he hadn’t visited as often with Geto in the picture now. Gojo’s not wearing the iconic black shades that concealed his cerulean eyes, now, they’re out for you- his private audience.     His eyes are brimming with energy and mischief, almost like a child’s. They’re transfixing, like diamonds handpicked and placed into his eyes. You’re overwhelmed from your work once again- a direct consequence of Gojo neglecting his own, yet something about this greeting reminded you of one of the first few times he had visited you, when he stole your carrot pen. Thus, causing you to direct your undivided attention towards him, he seemed promising, after all, what was the worst that could happen?     “That’s besides the point, Mr. Satoru. Is there any reason why you came here? I’m actually finishing up a report right now and the deadline is in two days.” taking your coffee mug up from it’s usual spot on the tabletop, you sigh in relief as the warm liquid goes down your throat and set it back down, anticipating his answer.     In usual fashion, Gojo chuckles good-heartedly. “It’s your fourth month anniversary you’ve been working here, or third, or second, fuck like I remember. This is a cause for celebration and you’re worrying about finishing up a report?”    “You’d know better then to come to me with an offer of slacking off if you knew my fourth month anniversary of working here was coming up.” you respond coolly.     His eyes slightly widen, before he lets out a dry chuckle. “Ah, I missed my sassy secretary, say, why don’t we celebrate? We can go out for a staff dinner in celebration. I’ll pay, no need to worry. It’ll be confidential information between the two of us.” tugging at his collar, he quirks an eyebrow, you’re visibly thinking.      “Does this imply you want this dinner to only be between the two of us? Why’s that?” you pry, a tinge of hesitance in your pitch.     Ah, shit. This was going off the tracks.     Gojo taking a hand to his chest defensively, he loudly announced, “It’s important to build a positive connection between the two of us! We’ll be working together for years to come, of course. So skeptical of you, why do you look so down?” the retort was cheeky, and good at that, as it left you speechless.     “I’m not sad, or anything-” you pause, your mind had gone blank. “I- Um... I-” attempting to return to your work instead, you give him a dirty look, but he stares back with such intensity you don’t know how to feel. “I’m doing work, don’t screw up my train of thought, please?”    “You definitely weren’t saying that when I offered to take you out to eat, come on, spit it out.” he tsks. Utterly defeated, you sigh.     “I wanted to invite someone.” you spit out, obviously embarrassed.     Gojo pretends to act shocked, before excitedly inquiring, “And who might that be?”     “G-Geto.” there was no point in lying now.    He oohs, looking down at your shaking hands and back up at your face. “Ooooh, Y/N has a crush on my best bud? Who woulda thought!?”    Your cheeks going warm, you shake your head furiously. “No I don’t! I- Mr. S- Sir! This is so unprofessional of you!” stuttering, you drop your head on the desk, arms pillowing the sides of your head and groaning.     “How cute. Anyways, you accept that dinner date?”     You lift your head back up, sniffling. “It’s not a date!”    Giving you a shit-eating grin again, his eyes twinkle. “Oh, but it is.”    “I- Aghhhhh!” putting your head back down on the desk, this time without your arms, you don’t know how to respond, so instead you make a mockery of yourself.    Laughing, Gojo decides not to tease and you and instead says, “Meet me in Shibuya district, there’s a super nice restaurant, I’ll drive to your house, no need to worry about transportation. 9 PM, see you there!” his voice grew more distant down the hallway, you can still hear the clicking of his shoes and his deep humming.     So you had a date tonight,     Now how would that go?

[life-rewritten]

OMG!! I just found your blog through a WBL fan sharing your post about WBL on Instagram, and I am SOOOOO happy to see that you noticed and appreciate the tutor and fighter couple from Why R U series too. If possible, please write an analysis about this couple, about any specific aspect you deem as most important or just generally, whatever you are okay with. I love reading your analysis and the insights it gives me, and I just finished binge reading all of your writings on my favorite bl (1)

Hi wow mindblown by this comment Thank you so much for letting me know that my stuff is being shared I really appreciate that and I am so grateful that you took time of your day to come speak to me. I adore Fighter and Tutor, like they’re my favourite couple ever. What happened when why r u was airing was I wasn’t yet analysing BLs at that time otherwise I would have been writing essays and essays about them. Because it’s been so long since I went back to watch them I’m going to let you see some of my drafts on how I would have broken their relationship into pieces and analysed. Because they are incredible and I really always feel sad when people see them as just like a se*ual couple when there’s more to them than that.  So I will let you see the first drafts and my ideas on them through this  ask and I hope that's okay for now. Maybe after my other shows I will like go back and rewatch them and start analysing more about them. If I do I’d probably do a youtube video about them because they’re so good. 

Here’s some of the analysis for them that I wrote: 

The theme for these two is  the struggle with internalised homophobia and self-acceptance. They both had this obstacle in themselves as they fell for each other and tried hard to avoid and run away from what they felt.  It’s been a long journey for them being into each other since the first time they met but not really realising what they felt.  Fighter did but he went into extreme panic mode and tried to run away immediately he felt that. So he tried to stay by Tutor’s side through the teasing and bullying because Tutor made him feel great and happy always but then with pressure from his father and the path he was meant to take to keep on being seen as successful, he thought his feelings for Tutor were useless and wrong. Plus he didn’t know if it was reciprocated so that caused even more fear for him which is why he just stayed with teasing and finally kater in thinking Tutor likes Hwa he chose to pull her away from him by taking her attention but also he chose to keep what they have as enemies/haters that way and avoid being near Tutor. This is why they end up hating each other a lot by the beginning of Why R U which is like 3 years later or something after he chose to stay with Hwa. 

Tutor didn’t understand fully why he got angry, jealous and annoyed, he had an inclination from the first year that Fighter liked men and he was actually hopeful about it because deep down he had feelings of wanting to also flirt with Fighter, wanting to stay with Fighter even when annoyed him and bullied him. He liked Fighter’s softness at times and he liked the way he felt even though he didn’t understand why he was so rifled and affected by Fighter’s presence when no one else has been able to do that to him before. But he became upset when Fighter chose to date Hwahwa because it was his automatic issue with IH that of course Fighter doesn’t like him but he likes girls, so he got jealous and sad and proceeded to also dislike Fighter because he had this effect on him whilst still trying to date his best friend who had feelings for Fighter.

They both have had unknowingly pent up feelings for each other, so once Fighter breaks the barrier by their first kiss, they both go into extreme panic and they both could no longer pretend any more with what they have. Which is why the first episodes they both keep struggling to keep their attraction with each other quiet because its been 3 years since they wanted each other that way. Fighter has so much pent up attraction and needs to give into his feelings that each time they have a chance to break that barrier it’s intense and crazy. Both have been longing, pining secretly for each other since the beginning of the show. What happens next is for Fighter he has to choose to finally accept that he cares a lot, a lot , a lot about Tutor, he finally starts to learn more about this person he loves and he starts to want to protect and keep Tutor happy and by his side. When it comes to finally choosing to let go of Hwa and choose to fight for Tutor and start knowing if he feels the same way. It’s a leap of faith he takes when he breaks up with Hwa. He realises he’s the one stopping his wishes from happening with Tutor because he keeps being in denial about what they are because he’s scared it’s only him that’s gay and has feelings for the other.

It’s only after tutor sister tells him that he’s holding back his feelings does he realise that it’s time to talk about their unstable relationship and Fighter at that moment had also come to terms with his break up with Hwa after making out with tutor revealed the truth, that’s why on the rooftop they do a test that ultimately breaks their walls down and choose to give in to their feelings no matter how scared they are about it being reciprocated. When Tutor looks away and loses the game it’s a symbol to Fighter that he’s also been the same as him from the start. Tutor looks away sadly thinking he’s the one who has the feelings but Fighter just loses it and lets him know its equal which is why I love that scene so much because for so long both of them because of IH has been avoiding thinking the other had the same feelings for them when they both from the start have felt love for a long time. And from then they go on a journey to learn about what this means, if it’s real feelings and not just attraction hence their beach vacation which is essentially them asking if they could love each other and be in a real relationship, and if they can take on their obstacles around them. The beach solidifies for them their feelings so they choose each other for life hence the earring and necklace. But it’s fast paced how they feel because it’s just confirmation, now Tutor starts to realise that Fighter is actually different than he thought he was and he falls so fast, he now realises how much he loves Fighter and how much Fighter made him want to fight for his happiness and life. Tutor has not had hope for happiness and ease in his life, because he’s always had to fight to survive on his own. So when Fighter shows up like a prince charming and constantly is connected to saving him time and time again, it’s exactly him realising there’s someone who does represent that hope that he’d be fine. Hence why the final obstacle is Tutor regressing and starting to think because of IH and society that he and Fighter are just a pipe dream.

They go back to face the world only for Fighters father to bring back all the fear, internalised homophobia and obstacles they had. Fighter panics and thinks he was right; the reason why he never told Tutor his feelings was because he was afraid the other would break his heart (was not gay, did not have feelings for him, would make fun of him etc) so when Tutor breaks up with him he loses his mind after trying hard to let go. When he sees that actually Tutor is taunting him and is still flirting with a guy, not him, he proceeds drunk and upset to try and get back moments from the beach scene/ past make out scenes to keep that spark alive but realises Tutor is not okay this time and he’s the one forcing it. He also acted out because with them the truth comes out each time they’re physical with other romantically. It’s a kiss that caused them to finally tell each other how they felt. That’s always been the way they break their walls down.

It’s what causes him to break down and finally reveal the truth he’s loved Tutor since he met him, he’s just been afraid of all that’s happening even if it’s happening he still wants to be with Tutor. Tutor however breaks his heart even more so he backs off. Tutor on the other hand is broken and mentally exhausted back to depression, back to having to fake being strong and deal with the futility of hope and joy in his life as he’s always been used to. He gets seen by Fighter and doesn’t have it on him to fight him away, so decides to stay in an idealistic fantasy, tells him to hold him and breaks his walls down again. Tutor is always having to fake being strong because it’s how he survives so whenever Fighter enters his world his vulnerability scares him, that’s why his sister gives him the image of a cactus. He’s tough and sharp or pretends to be with his demeanour but actually he’s just a boy who wants to be happy and be safe and survive. So when Fighter shows up at his weakest moments, as he struggles to deal with his mental exhaustion and heart break, he gives in  because again Fighter represents to him that hope. He starts to waver and want to stay in that lie for a long time with Fighter. Hence when he wakes up and Fighter is gone he thinks its all over and he finally breaks down completely.

Only when Fighter goes he breaks down in anguish truly thinking he lost him. Fighter finally comes out to his dad and fights his views, And we end up back at the beach, a place which represented authenticity and truth for them, it’s their truest realest self, but it also was their escapism. So Fighter coming there and letting Tutor know there’s no more obstacles in their way makes them both finally equally start a stable relationship with no more fear or care about anything. These twos relationship is full of tension and they both feel the chemistry, like magnets their bodies are drawn together, every scene they’re in, it’s their love language physical touch not bl fan service. They just naturally want to be in contact with each other and also their pent up feelings leads to them constantly wanting to sleep together because of hormones and well because they enjoy their se*ual life, nothing bad about that it’s realistic for couples to be that horny, that needy and that touchy.

It’s people who don’t get the context of internalised homophobia and what being in the closet is like for people with this anxiety and self hate caused by how they think society views them and treats them if out, those are the people who think there was no plot. Every dialogue these two had, their flashbacks and their acting (eyes, facial gestures, touches) showed why Fighter liked teasing Tor, why he dated Hwa but never paid her attention, why we had the beach scenes, why the break up escalated, why Tutor gave in when ill, why the non/dubious consent scene happened, why they get back together and why they told each other I love you forever immediately after they got together. Every single part adds up. It really is insane to me how people don’t see their real story to this day or see them as such a great storyline for BL. I would never get it.

[lots-o-stuff]

Karasuno Team with S/O HC (GN)

This actually took me forever but I’m so happy with how it turned out, also i figured out i cannot for the life of me write for quiet/nervous/shy characters very well so sorry for how Asahi, Kiyoko, Yamaguchi and Yachi turned out...

also sorry Kageyama’s was so short

Daichi:

daddy i mean Daichi is hot, you are hot, therefore you are both a very hot couple

Honestly you being with Daichi means you’ve replaced Suga as team mom hinata has called you mom on multiple occasions

Y’all act like a married couple it actually annoys the team how much you love each other

This man is protective, P R O T E C T I V E, and jealous like Tanaka and Nishinoya better not hit on you because Dadchi will destroy them

Although he doesn't mean to he def shows you off, it's just he loves you so much he can't keep his hands off you 

Sugawara:

y’all are chaotic as FUCK

I mean everyone knows suga is the chaotic one out of the 3rd years but when the two of you are together? be prepared 

because you two can be as bad if not worse than Tanaka and Nishinoya which raises Asahi’s blood pressure 

you both are also very thicked skinned, so you tease each other relentlessly and brutally honestly Daichi would be so confused, think y’all are fighting 

Doesn’t really care about pda or showing you off but is NOT afraid to show people who you belongs too ;)

Asahi:

Nervous baby boi, definitely didn't make the first move

constantly worried he’s gonna mess up, please assure him he’s doing fine, again he's a nervous baby boi

Daichi and Suga find it hilarious how confident you are compared to Asahi and constantly tease him for it, like during practice, class, breaks, after school, anytime they can.

N E ways, this man absolutely adores you, Noya calls him a simp and he just doesn't know what it means and when they (tanaka and noya) explain it to him, he's just like, ok? and?

He doesn't show you off thinking you won't like it but if you give him the ok hell subtly show you off, just small touches, etc

Nishinoya:

U L T I M A T E   S I M P

this boi will literally take a bullet for you, no joke

he loves you soo freaking much it's unbelievable, and everyone knows it, Suga is proud of him, Kiyoko is just glad that the attention is off of her

You are probably the only person who is able to calm Noya right down, and the team LOVES you because of it, calms down noya? is pretty? and smart? done the team loves you

If you don’t think this man is showing you off then you have a different Nishinoya, everyone under the sun knows about your relationship, he’ll be gassing you up in front of everyone man.

Tanaka:

U L T I M A T E   S I M P   PT.2

has definitely ask you to step on him unironically he’ll die if you do

was actually so nervous to talk to you at first that when you walked into the gym to give him something the team thought he was sick because it was so ooc

he is honestly a baby behind closed doors, he wants your attention and will throw a fit if you don't give it, and like he gets very jealous very quickly

he is showing you off, no questions asked.

Kageyama:

now at first people think you two barely know each other cold stares am i right?

I mean kags isn’t a huge talker so seeing you two together they assume you are acquaintances  

but in reality you two know each other better than anyone else

you two are each other’s safe haven i wish

doesn’t show you off except when hinata is around

Hinata:

THIS BOI HAS ENERGY, E N E R G Y, DO YOU? WHO KNOWS BUT IF YOU DONT YOU ARE GONNA HAVE TO START BREWING YOUR COFFEE WITH REDBULL

ok that was overdramatic but still this little ball of sunshine has so much energy its ridiculous

you too are so cute, everytime the team sees you together its like watching two young kids seeing each other for the first time in a week, does that make sense? probably not

he seriously loves you though and would literally walk halfway across the world for you

he will show you off to everyone, EVERYONE, the team, his class, his family, random strangers, everyone

Tsukishima: 

Get ready to be teased, at all times, breakfast lunch and dinner, 24/7

but tease him back, seriously this boy has NO clue how to show his affection so he does what he knows best being salty

anyway no one realises you guys are dating for ages because you act the same and just insult each other for fun

THIS BOY, I swear to god, THIS BOY, is a jealous, clingy ass, he wont show it in public but ooooo when you get home? ;)

He won’t show you off, at all, not even to prove to ’The king’ that he is better, because “he has pride”

Yamaguchi:

HE IS BABY! NO QUESTIONS

honestly think he DID make the first move but it was so awkward and rushed you probably missed half of what he said but once it clicked that he was confessing to you, omg your blush made him feel so proud

When he introduces you to the team Tanaka and Noya lose it that he is with someone as cute as you

He is so scared that you are gonna leave him that you need to reassure him please reassure him

The only person this boy will show you off to his Tsukki, and its just because he wants his best friend and Partner to get along Tsukki is secretly proud

Yachi

OMG BEST GIRL

she was just too adorable for you too resist!

you whole relationship is you too braving the world together knowing that you are safe with each other

You probably get a huge talking to by the team when they meet you for the first time and Yachi introduces you as her partner

She is too afraid to show you off, but is happy to talk about you to Kiyoko

Kiyoko

She made the first move, you don’t get a choice

She is so stoic and quiet at times that you honestly just don’t know if she cares about you

but she does, she loves you so much it's ridiculous and she makes sure you know of it when you guys are alone and in private

When you met the team most were happy for the two of you but Tanaka and Nishinoya legit started crying, just be glad Kiyoko mentioned this would probably happen beforehand

she doesn’t show you off, she doesn’t need to, you both love and trust eachother and thats all that matters

I’m seriously so proud of this, anyways please request! I do x readers, headcanons, bad fan art, fics, ships, sfw and nsfw (within reason).

[cyber-viper]

hi! i saw your matchups were open /I'm a sucker for em/ and I was wondering if I could get a romantic twisted wonderland matchup :>

my birthday is January 27th ｡>﹏<｡★ !!

hobbies/interests. anime/manga,thrifting,writing/reading,true crime,music,fashion/makeup, I've been meaning to pick up photography again, piano,video games,singing and dancing!

habits. putting things on my head (like random bows or hair clips I find), tapping my fingers when I'm getting too much anxiety, pacing back and fourth/talking to fast, saying uncanny/creepy things- doing things aggressively when I am hyper (like imagine those tiktoks were they r like "YOU LOOK GOOD" yeah that's me), hiding behind people in public.

in general I am a pretty cheerful and friendly person. I am a huge introvert in-public, I get anxiety ( I start stuttering,sweating and breathing fast) it's worse when I have to speak to people, So I usually tap my fingers to calm down. I'm pretty socially awkward, I can't really start a conversation with just anyone and I just sit there and stare or figure out something kshbdie. Though when you really get to know me, I am really talkative and goofy. I love cracking jokes and having a good laugh, overall a good time. I can be a very big clutz, I either hit my head on stuff or trip over something (mostly the air). around my friends, I am the therapist/mom/fun friend! usually people come and ask me for advice or vent. I like cracking flirty jokes with my friends, and I sound like a pervert sometimes >_< . I also am kind of boy-crazy? like I see a cute boy and I start freaking out- I'm just gushing about them, same thing with females- I am just a big simp though,I GET VERY EMBARASSED easily and flustered. I would say my bad traits are that I am blunt. I can be really truthful and hurtful in what I say (depending on who I talk to). I get angry too easily sometimes, I don't lash out or anything, I just shut down and kick around things (if it's at someone- I glare at them), this also makes me kind of mean, like i start insulting . not vocal whatsoever in how i feel, my emotions r like not going in the open. I say uncanny things sometime, like randomly- I don't know why? I just say weird things to get a reaction out of someone ( I randomly asked my sister what it's like to get knocked out by a stalker. yeah.) eerr i can't take a joke, depending on how it sounds. If it's like, "your dumb y'know?" with a certain tone, then I start getting mad and talking back. I'm pretty dense at somethings- it's hard for me to catch on irl.

redflags. they are controlling/tell me what to wear/what to do, is too jealous (like they get easily jelly), talks about there friends in a badway (shows me ur twofaced.) , expects constant communication, not willing to view from another persons perspective

greenflags. honesty, understanding, they ask my opinion on things, respects boundaries (abigone), supporting, they have a general good status among others, not afraid to be themselves.

my own redflags. I ghost people for a few days and come back like nothing happen (sometimes), expect others to do what I think is best on certain things, insensitive to others when I am blunt.

my green flags. I am a good listener/understanding, patient, respect boundaries, communication, not easily jealous, try to put myself in others shoes.

my favorite school subject is english and I am an Introvert.

hope this was enough!! take ur time <33

@marii-e I match you with Vil Schoenheit!

I think Vil would love to feed your interest in fashion and makeup by allowing you to part take in trying products and brands he likes or has to try out. Eventually once his trusts build up he may even be happy to let you do his makeup every now and then.

He’d also let you practice your photography by taking photos of or with him.

Once he learns how much you like putting little clips and accessories in your hair he would definitely be on the look out for any pieces he feels are beautiful and elegant enough to gift to you to wear

I feel like he would be very good at reading your body language and learning your nervous ticks. He may need some time to learn what to do in those situations but he will be quick to learn for your sake

He’s very amused when you get very hyper and start shouting compliments at him. Though sometimes it can get out of hand if Rook is around as well and you both feed off the others chaotic energy in complimenting and such

When times come where you both are in conversation with others, especially strangers, he mostly takes the lead in the conversation for his own interest and to help ease your panic over the situation

He is very enchanted in your change of character once you feel comfortable. you go from quiet and nervous to a bit chaotic and even flirtatious. The first time this side of you truly came out he was a bit taken aback however he didn’t dislike it at all and happened to really enjoy your banter like this

He certainly wasn’t pleased to know how flustered and such you get when other pretty people are involved. However once an occasion happened where he noticed he affected you the most all his distaste for this trait nearly left him. Not only was it proof that he was still number one to you, it also was an example of how truly beautiful he was and that was something that convinced him that it wasn’t a thing to be jealous over

a struggle, especially early on in the relationship I feel, is communication and specifically making sure joking or teasing statements are perceived as such and not taken seriously or hurt your feelings.   It’s something that will have to be worked on but it will end up fine

Vil has a certain image he upholds for himself and while he may have a nice time dressing you up or doing your makeup or skincare, he still appreciates you for who you are. Once he figures out his mind and figures out that the message of you having the confidence and self worth to be authentic to yourself isn’t something he’d ever want to change about you.

I think Vil is someone who especially would need a relationship where both parties can live their lives independently as well and doesn’t rely on constant spamming of contact. So having a partner who holds those same values or is understanding of that is key.

A/N: I hope you like this matchup! please let me know if you are dissatisfied or need clarification for anything I said :)