#though—insomniac

[dawndauce]

my brain go brrr I think of him a lot

[luxury-nightmare]

Random thought. Doai would fuck so hard in the gaslight district art style

[sodaneko]

lale life update:

i've been sick as a dog. still am, but today is the first day in a week where the screen doesn't hurt my eyes when looking at it for longer than three minutes. my screen time has an all time low and i don't wanna think about how good that makes me feel

might or might not have broken a rib when i fainted on my way to the bathroom at night (bad)

didn't break anything else (good)

anxiety is at an all time high because of that incident (bad bad)

realized the tools i learned in therapy are actually helping because despite it all i'm still more stable than throughout my entire 20s (good good)

the green lesbians kiss has been carrying me through the entire week. one of those "i'm so glad i didn't kms" moments

Rafayel has surpassed Sylus in affinity levels (96 to 95) and idk how to feel about that. i need to throttle him i think

unblocked Ateez on all platforms now that i'm not ovulating anymore. we'll talk again in two weeks

not on hiatus but also not not on hiatus but secret third thing (playing alone in a corner in an attempt to find my whimsy again)

i fever dreamed another ending of Soft Launch and might rewrite the drafts of the remaining chapters from scratch. idk. toaster bath also sounds really nice

i have a lot more to say but i'll be saving this for another day. thinking about everyone fondly. if you want tell me something about life lately <3

[mintyisinyourwalls]

I love the trope of brothers who hate eachother SO MUCH

This doodle was inspired by Asylum In Nemesis, this incomplete fic by @grape-of-agayte that had an AMAZING interaction between simon and lankmann, ESPECIALLY when Simon reluctantly agrees with Lankmann to stop Clyde or something idk. I also loved how Lankmann convinces Simon through guilt tripping (???) lemme bring an excerpt.

“You’re just going to stand by while all these good people drop like flies? Do you genuinely value your own pride THAT much more than you value the lives of others, Simon? Hoho… That’s quite unlike you…”

OOUUGHHHHHHH THATS AMAZUNG

Anyways sorry for yapping I’m back to regular scheduled posting

I like to imagine they fight over mundane shit

[astral-aromance]

Controversial Silmpost time

I don't blame Elwing for not returning the Silmaril. She was really nothing more than a child. I also can't really blame Dior for the same reason (though he is more complicated, because if he was a mannish child and not half-elven because of Luthien's Choice, he was fully grown at 34). But Thingol and Luthien? Oh yes. Yes, I blame them.

They knew damn well what would happen eventually, Luthien even experienced the Fëanorians at their worst 1st hand, almost getting forced into a marriage all for the sake of the Silmarils. She knew that they'd do ANYTHING, even to their own friend and cousin, because she saw it. They even tried to kill her and Beren. They knew the story of Alqualondë. They knew. But they willingly kept that thing around their family, their *children* even knowing full well that it would likely be the death of them. Heck, Luthien, and Beren aged and died prematurely because of the presence of that thing, and she yet still gave it to her young son with small children while knowing that the Girdle was gone.

Of course, the Fëanorians had no right to do what they did, that goes without saying. But Thingol, Luthien, and Beren really should have known better. Anti-Fëanorian or Anti-Sindar, there is simply no denying that the Elders of the royal line of Doriath played a huge role in the decimation of the kingdom and Sirion later.

They are certainly not blameless in the whole thing. It's more like a 75% vs 25% thing rather than 50/50, but certainly not negligible enough to be glossed over or ignored.

In the end, my question is just... If you know that a fire will eventually kill you if you don't turn off the stove, despite it having been very difficult to light it, why would you deliberately leave it on, even if the fire warned you multiple times that you should turn it off?

[coffeexxcigarettes]

Credit to the artist: Rawmune

[whereisstuart]

I was going to write a whole paragraph explaining how I think that Alex was a medical first responder trainee who’s academy put them on mandatory leave because their anxiety was so bad and thats when the foundation approached them to work there because they had the qualifications (even if they were somewhat inexperienced) and they were in a vulnerable position and that the Lankmann foundation mostly targets young medical school dropouts because no reasonable doctor or medical professional would ever even approach that foundation due to their weird habits and that they could more easily keep said dropouts quiet about their shady practices because they���re young somewhat impressionable college students who need jobs. But then i realized I might be over analyzing.

[maroonmused]

peter making the holographic trainings as a way to enhance miles’ spider skills work through his issues with his geriatric supervillains

[abagofmagictrix]

You can't convince me these two weren't gay for Peter

[evocatiio]

if chibnall was the one writing this season you lot would be talking VERY differently

[drinkinboilingcoffee]

I know I’ve said Mike has accidentally almost eaten Jeremy because of the remnant hunger, but honestly I do also like to think he lingers on the idea of eating him even when he’s completely lucid

[luxury-nightmare]

mom says it’s my turn on the writing

Idea came from @silverstudios

The exhaustion has returned, as it always did this time of year. The snow outside the window signaled that it was time for it to hibernate. But it couldn’t bring itself to go back to the nest. It was too big for just it. It would bring back to many painful memories of it’s last hibernation.

Back when it still had Winfrey.

It didn’t know where else to go to hibernate besides it’s nest, it couldn’t think of anywhere else it felt safe. Besides, well-

No, it would not stay at the human’s house to hibernate. They would turn it into the asylum the second its guard was down. It would not get lured into such an easy trap.

It wouldn’t. It,

It needed a place to sleep, and the human was the closest thing it had to a safe place, but it would not.

It would not,

It would….

……..

It did.

Curled up into Alex’s bedroom closet, it padded the nest of extra blankets and pillows it had made from it could fine inside. It curled around in circles, preparing to finally hibernate for the winte-

“What are you doing?” It looked up sleepily at the human, standing in the open closet. “Preparing to hibernate” it said, struggling to keep its eyes open “why?”

Alex raised an eyebrow in confusion “Velidgun hibernate?” They asked. Clyde rolled its eyes “yeah, most of the winter.” Alex looked over to the side, “and you’re staying, here?”

Clyde turned over to the side. “I can’t go back to the nest” it stated simply. “Why?” The human asked. Clyde shivered, it couldn’t tell them about Winfey, couldn’t tell them anything.

At least not yet

“None of your business” it stated, and it could see Alex’s flinch in its mind. They were still kind of scared of it. Good. It wouldn’t need them for much longer.

“Okay” they replied, then turned to shut the door. They paused, and turned back to the veldigun. “Tell me if you need anything”

They shut the door. Clyde rolled its eyes.

It didn’t need anything

It didn’t need anyone

It needed to stop lying to itself

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Alex had been avoiding their closet like the plague, aware of the sleeping demon inside. They had been trying to live life around the velidgun in their house, but Clyde had somehow become some sort of staple in Alex’s life.

So, they did something weird.

Not as stupid as the first time they had left out a sandwich for Clyde, just sort of odd. It had seen how much Clyde had adored Halloween, and they had seen it squirming around in its sleep, so they had dug up an old bat plushie they had as a kid. They opened the closet and placed the plushie into Clyde’s makeshift nest, then turned to leave.

Only for Clyde to grab them and pull them in.

Alex panicked, only the breath a sigh of relief when they realized they were still in their coat and winter gloves. Their bones wouldn’t be fusing with their flesh from this. They looked over at Clyde, the sleeping veldigun’s face still as the sea, arms wrapped around them in a hug. Alex was confused, but went along with it for now.

They could rest for a bit.

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two more left

new connection

faint, but there

drown the soul in void

An experiment

could it drown this mind in madness

w̵͇͙̤̄͆͑h̷͚́͝a̵͓͚̋t̴̬͉̞́́̾ ̶̘̽̒͠à̶̹̰̤r̶̫̂͆͂ẹ̸͎́̓͌͜ ̷̻́̇̕ỳ̵͉͑̽o̸̝̠̤̕͠͠ȕ̵͔͚ ̶̪͇̦̒̃̈d̴͔͓̩͐ǒ̷͚͙͘î̸͎͔́ṉ̶̬͑̀g̵͉͑̇ ̴̙͓̐̀f̴̺̭̄͋͝ǐ̴͖͎͆ṟ̷̛̉͑s̸̬̙̣͗́͝t̶̺̩̙͌̓?̵̘͊͐̋

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Clyde woke with a start. It blinked a few times to chase the sleep away from its eyes.

It’s always had the weirdest hibernation dreams.

Six it was starving, it always was when it woke up from hibernation. It saw something out of the corner of its eye, and it turned to open the closet door.

Sure enough, there was a sandwich there. Peanut butter and jelly, it’s favorite. It yawned and stretched, and went to go take a bite.

Maybe staying with the human for hibernation wasn’t so bad

[daisymintt]

In all the iterations of Spider-Man I’ve seen (Tobey Maguire’s, Andrew Garfield’s, Tom Holland’s, Insomniac) they always call Aunt May their Aunt but why don’t they ever call her mom? She practically raised them you’d think at some point there would be a switch. Maybe I’ll write a fanfic about this…

[zenshigarakilover]

saw people talking about afo having heavy eye bags due to his lack of sleep from the nightmares from his quirks and I like it.

I think he would have them covered up with either a quirk or some make up as to not make himself look weak to his enemies as it'll make his lack of sleep obvious and also for vanity reasons.

having yoichi near him while he sleeps helps as he would hold his wrist similar to how he held his wrist when they were babies as they lay next to each other and it would comfort him (thank you kstbj for this hc), I would say he gets an average of 6 hours when he can sleep at this time. not in a row he wakes up often during the night.

after yoichi died he would hold his severed hand as he slept and pretend the real yoichi was there next to him to help him sleep or else he would only be able to sleep when he felt on the verge of passing out from exhaustion. he still gets far less sleep after yoichi died than before, about 3 hours on average. I do imagine during the time when yoichi left til where he realized a part of yoichi was still around he would get no sleep for days at a time. the nightmares of yoichi falling to pieces combined with the regular nightmares would make him force himself to be awake and then hallucinations ensue from the sleep deprivation....

[ghost-draws-art]

Can you tell that I'm fixating yet? I drew these last night while I heavily medicated on my sleep aid lmao

Bottom doodle is directed at my friends (and even my mother) who have had to listen to me talk about Dreams of an Insomniac on repeat for the past week or so

[daemon-in-my-head]

I'm of the belief that Gortash is incredibly good at pretending to be asleep.

Like, if you'd see it, you're 100% convinced. Maybe even concerned he's not asleep but dead instead.

I don't know. He just strikes me as that kind of person.