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sga-owns-my-soul · 8 months

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i cut my hair 😍

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mariemariemaria · 9 months

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Does anybody else feel like mental health awareness has done very little to help them in material reality

#i was gonna say done nothing to help but that seemed too harsh #like there definitely is more knowledge about it now. maybe more people feel comfortable speaking about it which is good #but personally i don't feel that. like idk. workplaces will post about mental health awareness and then do nothing to help employees #the same w universities. my uni cut back the already meager mental health support #and then the government is doing absolutely fuck all as well #like idk im just back in a place i thought id gotten out of long ago and i still don't feel comfortable talking about it with people #maybe that's a me problem or maybe it's cultural or something idk. but in the 10 years ive been depressed (🫠) i don't think it's gotten a #whole lot better. teenagers are still dealing with the same shit i did and they're still not being taken seriously #women's mental health is not even spoken about.....anxiety depression sh eds etc are still ignored or seen as hysterical behaviour in women #or just normal esp with disordered eating. society hasn't changed people still want women to be stick thin and weak #like i know 10 years is a short time and there has been massive improvements in mh awareness if we look back over the past 50+ years #but idk i just think that it hasn't gotten better for a lot of people #i think specifically of belfast and like god. the amount of trauma there is the amount of homelessness the amount of substance abuse #drug abuse in particular that has gotten visibly worse over the past decade or so*#and i connect the dots n see the 2008 recession + a tory gov defunding the nhs + dehumanisation of homeless people & addicts + the troubles #+ ptsd + generational trauma + a negative peace + classism + paramilitary drug dealers + parties linked to those paramilitaries #and its like hmmmm i think we live in a society. and a mental health approach based on individual actions like journaling and meditation #isn't the way to go. or at least is not the be all and end all which is what a lot of mental health awareness raising seems to promote #*visibly worse on the streets. it was always a problem ofc but even a decade ago my parents never imagined it would be as bad as it is now #and it's become so normalised. i do think there's less individualism here than there seems to be elsewhere which can be good and can be bad #but i think we are becoming more and more individualistic. slowly. there's still a sense of community here but i do think it's changing #and callousness towards homeless people is one of the most obvious examples of this.#love when i put a wee asterisk in the tags of a post. like i have A Lot To Say lol

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purpurussy · 1 month

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#tw suicide #idk i feel like i am probably gonna kms after TIT #i would do it sooner but i asked one of my friends to come with me and it would suck if i made him go alone #and it is something to look forward to which is helping me hang on i guess #but ughhhh once uni starts again in september i know everything is gonna fall apart.#i already got an extension on my thesis due to being a useless shell of a person who can't motivate themselves to do anything atm #but i was supposed to get some work done over the summer and have so far done nothing #hence why i want to kms before i have to talk to my fucking supervisors again and admit yet again that i simply cannot do this 😭#and it's not just this. my executive dysfunction has been so bad over the past couple of years and it's only getting worse #to the point where i can't imagine being able to work at all. and if i can't work i can't get out of my parents house #and then what the fuck is the point.#every time i see someone on here talking about bonding with their parents over dnp I'm like damn what's it like #to have parents who actually want to talk to you DSFGJJKL i know they let me live in their house at my big age #but that's only bc id literally be homeless otherwise and they're not like evil. they just don't love me #also went through a deeply embarrassing breakup recently #tl;dr ive been in love with this person for over a decade and i thought they were the dan to my phil or vice versa.#then after 10 years they left me and i'll spare the details but it has me wondering if they ever loved me #i thought it was a “let's live together and get a cat one day” relationship #but now i feel like for them. it was just a “sex and video games” type situation #i am trying soooo hard to at least be creative bc that makes me happy sometimes but it's hard to not be overly critical of myself #and now im getting to a point where i can barely even find any joy in this space any more. for a bunch of reasons #most of which revolve around me being extremely sensitive. and this is like my last bastion of dopamine so that fucking sucks #idk i don't see the point in my life any more. a social worker actually told me recently that i should consider euthanasia so.#it's just completely over for me i fear #this is not even mentioning all the damn migraines. and all the other ways in which my body simply doesn't work properly #sorry for this weird ass vent I'm not in therapy any more bc i couldn't find a therapist willing to treat me+all my diagnoses at this point #and im scared my friends will stop wanting to talk to me if i talk to them about this. several of them already have #the 2 friends i have left anyway. that's a whole other thing. when they said it's hard for autistic ppl to make friends i took that persona #so uh at this point it's vent here or develop a substance abuse problem. and im already halfway to having a substance abuse problem #anyway dan and phil for the love of god please fucking post something tonight. unfortunately you are my only hope

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dykedvonte · 5 months

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Discussing the NCR (Fallouts NV's Military Industrial Complex)

Fallout regularly discusses the idea of the military, its faults, its strengths, and most importantly, the psycho-social aspects of it regarding those who are members. We have seen a direct critique of the military generalized through the Enclave's overt nationalism, the hoarding of resources and indoctrination through the Brotherhood of Steel, and an almost eerily modern critique of the whole military-industrial complex through the NCR in New Vegas. In these series of posts, I will be focusing primarily if not exclusively on the last one.

The NCR we see in the game is strictly the military side of things and the depiction of active occupation during a time of eminent war, conflicting factions, and resource scarcity. It is in this we are missing a major factor that negatively affects the view of the NCR in the game and out: Civilian life along with citizen opinion on the military. While we do get Mojave civilian opinion on the military (often neutral or negative) we do not get those who are New California Republic citizens, not those who actually discuss the military more so not understanding the importance of the occupation and the President's choices.

We do not see how life is regularly lived by the average citizen as we have not seen New California in New Vegas, though, we get words and glimpses that the people are relatively content in the growing country minus the fact many people are not happy with the choice of encroaching on the Mojave. This most similarly reflects it's real-world application that many civilian citizens reject acquisition and war due to the economic effects it has on the country and the general violence/loss associated.

In this, we come to an issue of losing a perspective that is unique to the NCR as a military representative. The Brotherhood is notably a place where its active members are intertwined with its efforts, the young are raised to be scribes, paladins, etc... To where even if one is not fighting for The Brotherhood, they are still intertwined, it's propaganda is the life. The Enclave is even more cut n' dry in that it is mostly made up of government representatives. It is a group even smaller than the former, even more selective and intertwined that their propaganda IS a form of Eugenics. The NCR is unique in that there is a clear distinction between what is the military force, the civilian population, and the choice if one wants to be a part of the former.

There is a distinct difference in the cultures of the factions you are born into and those you must enlist or join (forcibly for some). While this is a long-winded way to get into the actual discussion I want to facilitate throughout these posts I wanted an initial background post to understand the aspects I am and am not exploring and explaining along with a hub post to link everything I intend to discuss in the coming days and weeks, starting with:

Why Do People Join the NCR?

...which will be discussed and linked back here like everything else regarding to this topic.

Links: TBA

#fallout #fallout new vegas #new california republic #these will be longer posts so be warned #prepare to be sick of me #you thought i could yap before #should pin this but Im just gonna link it in the pinned post to be concise and since this isnt just a fallout blog I just am just obsessed #plus I dont want it to be centered focus while im only half way through with the first word doc #the three posts are just the beginning on my disection of the NCR and how the MIC is shown through it cuase #like pls its so much more nuanced with the specific ways each character in the faction interacts #at least the ones you can talk to and have options for like i know so many people do independent route but its so intriguing and you get ho #the military takes advantage of people but also how the individuals try or believe they fight for a good cause cause of all the brain washi #like some perpetuate and others dont but its a system that just gets worse the higher you go like grrrrr #a take cant be nuanced if you refuse to look or discuss the reasonings of another side or generalize their arguement through a personal len #like you need to be objective at points cause while you may feel a way in an analysis the context explains why in canon they feel a way #a retrospective on tumblr??? shocker #was gonna make this one giant mega post but it wouldve been cluttered and i wanna space them out cause its a lot to work on in one sitting #and what if I want to be silly in between???

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kiwipillled · 1 month

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so ive had a sore throat since last wednesday… and i was wondering what could’ve caused a sore throat because i literally never get sick… but then i remembered that tuesday night i was screaming like this for 3 hours and then it all made sense….

i feel bad for anyone in the section i was in that possibly heard my feral ass in the background of their videos… because i was watching my bsfs videos and all you could hear was me screaming 😭

#this isnt even the worst one out of all the videos i took #i wanna make a compilation like how i did after the dream concert #because this was a LOT worse and i thought that my dream vids were bad #and for that i had barricade 😭#i heard that the pit was lowkey dry at a few ateez stops like make some noise yall wtf?#ATEEZ OF ALL GROUPS IS NOT THE GROUP YOU STAND STILL FOR WITH NO REACTION #i was looking down at the pit too and everyone was just smushed together not moving or nothing #i would be screaming my ass of (and i was)#like if you’re gonna be that close to them and they can see you.. why are you being nonchalant #thats gotta be so awkward for the idols too like no way you’re just 😐 while im giving you 100% energy

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cosmobrain00 · 5 months

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#*visibly trying not to burst into tears* hey guys whats up #surprise surprise another absence bc my life can’t stop getting WORSE evry day it seems haha!#so. now who’s gonna tell me how u deal w the loss of ur fave person n the one person u were 100% certain truly loved u no matter what #who also inspired u to be an artist in the first place n who's been there for u ur ENTIRE life #like idk how to start dealing w it lmao. one min ill be basically okay n then the next ill feel like smthing just tore a chunk out of me #looked outside just a sec ago n thought “oh so she'll never see my progress in art. oh ill never get to make another painting for her”#n yk part of me just wants to pretend like none of it happened honestly #like “hey that was a fucked up dream oh well let me call [x] n tell them I love them”#n I dont fucking KNOW how to deal w this grief n idk whats normal n what isnt #no I havent cried rlly but almost every day I feel like I cant breathe n tht my chest is collapsing in on itself #no I cant talk abt it but i can’t draw like I used to n thinking abt my last art project makes me wanna throw up #< considering it was going to be a present for her tht she'll never get to see. Haha so funny right guys #fuck I need to get so entirely drunk over this now RELAPSING TIME BABY!!#anyways. will try to be normal tm n talk to ppl again instead of isolating as a way to cope n sorry to ppl who have msg'd me Ill be back

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skitskatdacat63 · 2 years

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2005 Spanish Grand Prix - Kimi Räikkönen, Fernando Alonso + Jarno Trulli(my personal post-race highlights)

#theres smth so hilarious to me about the way the camera pans to nando that I absolutely had to gif it #the shadow over his eyes + his smile just rly makes him look like a super villain LMAO #idrk much about trulli but hes been on the podium 2x so far and he always looks like hes having the best day of his life so good for him #kimi taking a huge slug of the champagne is so iconic #otherwise not too much else to be said about this race #EXCEPT why tf is the camera quality so bad i feel like it gets worse every race #also they showed none of the cooldown room so thats rly disappointing #fernando alonso #kimi raikkonen #jarno trulli #f1 #formula 1 #2005 spanish gp #fa14 #(2005: 5/19 races watched)#(i really need to make up a tag for my own posts since theres gonna be a lot for the forseeable future)#*HAHAHA i thought of a good one:#we do a little bit of f1

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fishyartist · 8 months

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Tumblrina 2 me btw. Would ride up and say some shit like “I’m not trans but I believe in their beliefs” or maybe say some shit about leaving to “steal some shoelaces” then kicking Joe Biden in the sack or something

#I’m thinking about their families. Danny’s r easy the fandom is ripe w Fenton opinions #less about mansons or foleys pr grays #like there’s some stuff but there’s a lot more room to explore the space #I also wanna give them uncles and aunts and cousins and extended families but I’ll worry about that if/when relevant.#but the family units they actually live with matter more so that’s where my thoughts lie #anyways! so #mansons give me big ‘’coparenting after a divorce must be rough’’ ‘’…we aren’t divorced’’ energy #like get divorced 10 years ago. they make each other worse and no one enjoys it #ida had a huge life where she was poor but moved around a lot+learned+did alot and I think whichever of sams parents she parented resent it #and rebeled from that by leaning super into the hussle culture capitalism tar pit #then maybe one of tuckers parents is technically a step parent… bio parents had a healthy divorce/breakup to friends coparenting arc #but like written in a way that doesn’t think of either parent as worse or weird shit like that #like ‘’technically’’ as in legally but tucker considers all three equally his parents #idk. I have some worried about writing that well but I’ll look into it on my own later #Valerie’s other parents probably gonna be a ghost. lots of potential for angst and/or a sweet reunion there #probably the latter I love that sappy shit #but bc that parent’s gone Val+her dad became super super close+trusting #they for sure have shared hobbies but I haven’t decided what yet #thinking something related to athletics or photography?#that’s probably closest to fanon based on my understanding of fanon tropes #where like. lying to their dad about hunting ghosts it is a major struggle for Val emotionally.

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sherlock-is-ace · 14 hours

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#idk if it's because i've given autism a very in depth look now or if i just always been like this and never really thought about it #but i'm finding it harder and harder to match my feelings to what i guess i'm supposed to feel?#like when something sad happens and i have no reaction to it #it's not that i'm not sad or that i'm glad it's happening but i just have no feelings?#which in turn bring put feelings of guilt because i'm not sad or worried enough...#it's such a weird experience and i'm of course not saying that autistic people have no feelings #that's so not what i'm saying #but it is a trait of autism to have difficulty pinpointing what you feel and also difficulty expressing it in ways other people usually doit #so perhaps it is because i've learned about that that I'm accepting that maybe i just don't feel things ''the normal way''#but i'm having a weird one tonight because my mom had to leave because of an emergency with my grandma #and it's 1am right now #and i am worried. of course i am. I don't want my grandma to suffer (although i have accepted she's not gonna live much longer)#but i still don't want her to die obviously #and most importantly I don't want my mom to have to go through that... to see her mother die? that's horrible #i'm obviously sad and worried #yet i'm sitting here drinking coffee and laughing at funny videos like nothing's happening #and i feel fine... like as if my mom was just sleeping at home like every night and not at a hospital visiting her dying mother...#and i know that years back i would have gone ''what the fuck is wrong with me?!'' and perhaps maybe forced myself to feel worse #or to cry or whatever because I can't be chill when something bad is happening...#and maybe i'll feel that way when my mom is back because I can't be calm and happy is she's sad #that would be rubbing it in her face #so maybe i'll feel more guilty then?#idk it's a weird feeling that i wanted to put into words #mostly for when it happens again i'll have a record of it somewhere #idk #angel talks #personal

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always-a-joyful-note · 9 months

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Things about Episode 12 that took my by surprise, spoilers to follow

They're all alive and well

For now

Even Wang Juan

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

#fandom spamdom #okay i actually believed FOR ALL THIS TIME THAT THE END ENDED WITH CHENG XIAOSHI'S DEATH WITH LU GUANG CLAPPING HIS HANDS #BUT ITS SOMEHOW BETTER AND WORSE #IM GONNA -#shaking crying biting the ways lamenting the fact that so much pain is to come im -#i have so many things to say ill just make a post dumping my thoughts later but ARGHHHHH #LOOK AT LEAST THEYRE ALL HAPPY AND ALL HAVE PICTURE RELATED POWERS (i think that was what was implied with qiao ling)#AND AT LEAST WANG JUAN IS OKAY #but that image??? THAT IMAGE OF TIANXI BEING TRAPPED BY THE FILM OF TIME? GUYS THAT HURT #link click #link click spoilers #also im so sorry for shouting and being incoherent i just wasnt expecting that but also kind of was #note's notes #the lesson i learned here is dont look at link click spoilers because you will both get spoiled and also not #anyway AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

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valewritessss · 1 month

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Something about me is that I’m always dehydrated.

I always have been. I went to the ER in first grade because I didn’t drink water all day during summer camp.

I feel thirsty but for some reason I can just ignore it and I forget I’m thirsty.

I get constipated because I never drink water. I have so much water retention because I never drink water. My skin is suffering because I never drink water. I’m low on energy because I never drink water. My hair falls a lot because I never drink water.

Part of the reason I forget to drink it is because two years or so ago, I hated that I would get bloated after taking a sip of anything (I also hated the way I looked I thought I was fat but this was why) so I decided to just not drink water until I got home from school. I also started skipping meals which made things worse but this is about water right now. Obviously, this made the matter worse because I was already dehydrated to begin with so I started to get even more bloated, more tired, I felt like shit all the time, and my anxiety levels skyrocketed. Then I went to the doctor and told her about it in hopes that she would give me some magical solution. She just told me to drink water and I was like oh…

Long story short, drink water. I started drinking a lot more water and my skin sighed in relief, my hair is try thriving, and I get less bloated now. I overall feel more confident and energized, I would definitely recommend.

I still forget to drink water a lot since it kind of became a habit to ignore my thirst but I’m working on it and it’s helped a lot

#idk #random post #tw mentions of eating disorder #yes I had one but I’m scared of people telling me I didn’t because I don’t ‘look’ like people with eds so idek if it is one #ts is confusing ppl are always invalidating others for not experiencing things the same way #anyways #I thought this would be a funny(?) rant but it lowkey turned into a vent #oops #dehydration #rant #snippet of my life #I just need to share the benefits of water bc although everyone knows you need it to survive ppl don’t realize just how important it is #I almost shit myself in first grade because I thought I was gonna die #it wasn’t that serious but going to the emergency room sounded so scary #and it is but like I don’t want ppl to think I was on my death bed #drink water #I forgot to mention that it calmed my severe headaches #I would get headaches every day from not eating or drinking I started doing worse in school bc of it #once again drinking water saves the day #ofc this isn’t the solution for everyone but drinking water is very good for you #and it’s not that I dislike water in fact I love it I only ever drink water #I don’t like sodas #hydration #stay hydrated #pjo #kotlc #those are just the fandoms again don’t freak out at me pls

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cerealmonster15 · 3 months

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i dont think i ever felt more annoyed at commercials than when those mean girls walmart ads were playing a few months ago or whenever that was

#i think it's mostly bc i thought mean girls was like. an okay movie. a fine movie? i think i liked it #but like. i saw it once. i have no nostalgia for it bc i saw it way later/not when it originally came out #and god the way people are so into it. i mean that is great like i dont wanna be a hater for people enjoying things #but me personally. i do not understand why it's a cult classic or whatever klsjfkdlsfj i hear people quote it all the time and im like. 🧍#so having those quotes i already dont care about re contextualized to try to sell me walmart. god. the worst experience jkfsdjfklJFDKLSJF #tbh maybe it woudlve been worse if i liked the movie but i saw comments saying those commercials were funny so WHATEVER #i feel like it's also the same w/like. vocaloid kfsjdflksjgh like i dont dislike it!! i enjoy some songs #but i never had a vocaloid phase when i was younger. i feel so very neutral about miku #ppl on the internet feel so strongly positive and again thats great and i objectively get it #ive been shown vocaloid songs and some are really catchy #but it is one of those instances where im like man. a level of hype i dont fully understand LOL #miku vocaloid stuff is at least endearing tho. i get.... tired... w/mean girls quotes......... ksljfsljfl #It's Always The Same Ones and i just dont think theyre very funny FKJLDSJFDKLSJF maybe i am a hater damn #jk i do think i liked the movie? god i dont remember i watched it like. i dont even know when. college at the earliest i think #but whatever thats just a case of people having different interests just cuz i didnt care about a thing doesnt man its bad other ppl like i #also tho i think bc the mean girls overquoted bits remind me of like. rae dunn ceramics LOL jkfskfjsekht #or like idk live laugh love stuff. yknow like. dont talk to me until ive had my coffee has same energy as on wednesdays we wear pink. to me #it's facebook wine mom humor.... bc it is people roughly my age that were/are really into it and they are now mom age i guess lwpfhewhfp #god i need to go to bed im tired and it's making me a cranky complainer about stuff that doesnt matter!!!!#went 2 my dash in a dif tab and immediately saw a miku post is she gonna get me for not having strong feelings about her #im sorry miku i just . i dont get it JKFLJDSKLFJKSLD #ur music is fun i just dont proportionately understand. i feel like im missing context w/this one girl maybe thats my bad idk #or maybe it's just i found u too late idk. i will jam to the bops tho #that endless/everlasting/whatever nights thing w/like the 4 alt storyline songs is soooo fun i love those #dont ask me the names of the ppl in them tho i dont fuckin know besides like. 3 of them. one is miku LOL #and those yellow twin kids. len and ren. or rin? len and rin? i dont remember and i dont care enough to look it up sorry small children #theres that blue haired guy that was in the one prsk route i played but i forgot his name again #i dont know if hes in those songs i was talkin about tho i only remember what he looks like in his youthful wonderland alt loll #i talk in the tags bc i get scared it feels safe in my burrow here underground #also im calling mean girls mid and saying i dont have miku hype so i feel like that does warrant going into hiding

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lov3islikeastar · 3 months

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#I thought I could do this #that I could do college and start doing more #experiencing and living more #I have done so much and so little this year #when I look back despite despite despite #I'm proud of myself #like I really did THAT #I got through everything (:#unscathed of course <3 #despite the difficulties that will continue to stay with me #I'm most proud of getting through the day #cause when it doesn't seem like I can somehow I pull though #especially managing/regulating my anxiety!#I stopped taking my medication #of course in a safe and practical way #the side effects are less worse than when I tried to go off last time!!#gonna be dealing with a soon to be problem with school for failing lmao #but I have faith that it'll work out #it has to

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justsaysomethingjayj · 4 months

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Sorry, but if these writers can't write the tragedy of Claudia without adding in horrific SA to her story than these are not very good writers.

#there's a superficial quality to the writing on this show that is beyond frustrating #it's so unnecessary #this was not a thoughtful way to add a parallel between her and Lestat #both have complicated relationships with their fathers #were abused #trapped by them #with “mothers” who cared as best they could but were mostly powerless to help and just as trapped by their own circumstances #a cycle of abuse Lestat continued with his own child #both he and Cluadia do what they could to escape from it #maybe try that #as their shared experience and trauma #the writers need to add sex into every element of the story when it wasn't central in the og version of it is f*cked up #nothing about these choices and changes are as deep or as clever as people are giving it credit for #it's just bad writing #cheap and gratuitous #for no reason #and getting Lestat's version of the story ain't gonna save it #the extent of the abuse being inflicted upon Claudia is gross and it looks like it's only going to get worse #iwtv

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seilon · 4 months

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i know im not alone on this but i also know this statement is like waving a stick at a hornets nest. my overall memories and nostalgia related to hetalia are generally not bad and i think it may have saved a depression-riddled middle school aged me from being lured towards way darker and more mentally damaging content or online groups

#im dead serious like before that i was getting into creepypasta which. look im not one to say horror would make my little developing brain #disintegrate or anything BUT as an online community and a subculture of sorts i think it was far more of a slippery slope into #toxicity and extremism and most of all romanticizing/normalizing things like self harm and unhealthy eating habits and so on #despite what a lot of people say on this site it’s really not an evil and fascism-endorsing show or anything #it just has occasional jokes or concepts that are a bit distasteful– though from what I can tell alot of the ones people point out are #improvised bullshit lines made up by english dub cast members #anyway I won’t get into that whole rant but point is i am so so serious it could’ve been so much worse #the worst thing that came of being into hetalia as a kid was being more prone to finding stereotype humor funny #which im still like. I feel like was much more distasteful in 2012-13 youtube content. like WAY more distasteful #and rampant in general. so even in a show that’s built on stereotypes like hetalia it’s TAMER than the stereotype humor of the time in #a ton of mainstream media. big youtubers were still doing casual blackface back then man. 99% of hetalia’s stereotype humor is like.#canadians are quiet and nice. japanese politeness is to an extreme. germans are efficient. americans are loud and like burger #sorry I said I wasn’t gonna go into this rant so. I digress. I was just thinking about this cause I realized seeing hetalia fanart #generally makes me feel a good- or at least not bad- kind of nostalgia. which seems adverse to the show’s reputation especially on this sit #food for thought or whatever #kibumblabs #oh yeah I know why I started thinking about this- a drawing of seychelles came up on my dash and i can’t help but feel warm seeing her pop #up because she was the first real full cosplay I ever did for a big con. (with help) i hand-made the dress and everything. :*)

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lover-of-mine · 11 months

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My mom just reminded me of the way a "friend" of mine from highschool kept telling me to change my graduation dress just to show up with a dress that looked like a cheaper version of mine. I say cheaper because it hers was unfinished and I was wearing a Calvin Klein dress and that dress had been a gift from one of my dad's friends and legit that dress was great (for 2013 fashion) and the price tag had me on the floor and then she had the nerve to say I didn't tell her what I was gonna wear as if we didn't coordinate the dresses between 37 girls to make sure that wasn't gonna happens and she just, changed her dress in the last minute.

#i had 3 dresses #one was just a regular black dress #then i had ceremony dress that was this one that was the best dress because i had to walk one of our teachers #it was a whole thing #and then i had the other one made #her dress looked like a mix of the dress i did wear and the first dress i said i was gonna make #because the lady that made my 3rd dress was making A LOT of the dresses for the graduation #and she was friend of my dad's and she was like ''honey imma be real with you im making 4 of those''#so i switched it up and didn't tell anyone kslskaoskpakss #but even my dad was appalled when he saw her #i wasn't mad #i looked too good that day to care #but the way she was actively trying to get me to change my dress to show up with a worse version of it is funny now #anyway #thoughts thoughts thoughts

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