#traumatised merlin

[weaponizedducks]

'but girl she killed people!' so. she deserved to what do you want me to do about it

[that-nerd-who-writes-fanfiction]

Writing Mordred is slowly making me realise I don’t actually hate him.

The more I think about it, the more I realise he’s just a traumatised child who felt trapped and ran out of options when every single person in his life who was supposed to help him failed in some way or others. Most in more than one way if we’re being honest.

The kid literally had no one to turn to when the girl he loved died and was openly hated by the guy he’s thought of as a god since he was a child.

Like let that sink in.

Merlin openly wished him dead, and Mordred literally worshipped the ground he walked on.

(I’m usually a Merlin apologist but bloody hell he fucked up at every opportunity when it came to Mordred)

Morgana was the exact opposite of his morals but wanted magic free, (at the cost of non magic users lives which is also problematic, but that’s a different conversation) so he didn’t stick around with her, but when Camelot no longer felt safe for him, he ran.

Which is definitely a trauma response considering how he grew up with the Druids and then whatever the fuck happened after he left them.

Arthur was the only person who was continuously good for him, saving him as a child and later becoming a brother/father figure, but then he killed Kara and Mordred had to watch another magic user be killed by Camelot except this time it was someone he truly believed was good. He didn’t see her attacking Arthur like she did, just that the king of Camelot was killing another magic user which was bound to bring up trauma that he hasn’t felt safe enough to unpack and heal from.

I have a lot more to say on this, but I’ve got to leave for work in a few minutes so I’ll come back and scream about it another time

Fucking Mordred though, poor kid. He really went through it.

[everwalldigan]

Watching bbc Merlin for the first time and I can already tell Merlin is gonna be my favourite character he’s just so pookie

[adhd-merlin]

Awake

Fill for @merlinmicrofic prompt 'Awake’, Morgana & Gwen, Gen, 100 words

When Morgana opens her eyes, there's darkness.

At her back, a cold wall. Water trickles down her manacled wrists. Something shifts against her thigh, whining pitifully.

Then stone grinds against stone, uncovering a crescent of night sky.

In the feeble moonlight, Morgana meets the gleaming eyes of a skeletal creature.

She screams.

“Morgana!" A familiar voice — a beloved voice. "It's a dream. Only a dream.”

Later, as she observes Gwen's sleeping face in the moonlight, Morgana savours the memory of Gwen saying her name — not “my lady”.

It brings her a peace she could never hope to find in slumber.

[sexy-sapphic-sorcerer]

in the same way that I wasn't born gay, I saw katie mcgrath in merlin when I was 9 and that made me gay - I wasn't born autistic, I saw david tennant in doctor who when I was 10 and that made me autistic

[carry-on-every-neverland-magic]

I never saw Arthur saying

all your magic Merlin and you can't save my life

as a bad thing. It was more Arthur releasing Merlin and also being content knowing he was dying because just seconds later Arthur would give every precious last word and breath and touch he had to Merlin.

Arthur didn't want to go of course, but dying in the arms of someone he loved, he was safe, protected and I believe somehow knew they would see each other again.

[kr-yoongi]

Welcome to my Merlin wip that I can’t stop thinking about but don’t have the time to paint <3

[bisexualbailorgana]

guys im still insane about ash tyler

[potatoknitsmysteriouscoinkidink]

the whole turning gwen into a deer thing is actually really dark when you think about it, like what was the end goal? gwen gets killed and cooked and eaten? that sure is one way to get rid of her

[lonesomedotmp3]

teeeee 🫶 i was going to send this earlier but i got really stressed out by the supergirl episode i had on and i paused it and fell asleep… it happens!!!! anyway happy birthday yayyy i know your day is like. almost over but i hope you enjoy the rest of it and no one bothers you and everyone is really niceys… and i hope your shitty roommates die and that text message guy falls into a sewer and is eaten by rats and i hope all your friends realize how lucky they are to get to be around you etc!! it’s not fair that we’re separated by the ocean if i was there i would have stopped all that shit that’s annoying you!!!!! but i digress!! still so utterly absolutely grateful to get to know you in this limited internet based capacity you are like one of the most beautiful lights in my life for real… in many ways it’s like the atoms we’re consisted of were once right next to each other in a dying star. 🩷 i love watching tv shows with you even though we have never found a way to coordinate an actual joint viewing (blaming that one on the time difference of it all!!!!) and i loveeee it when you watch or read something at my recommendation and you have all the same reactions i had it’s like we have a soul bond fr… gonna take one second to say again that you should watch supergirl…. and i love watching things that you recommended because you always just Get Me in a way not many people seem to…. anyway i love being your friend i love that your birthday is the day after my bbc merlin anniversary i love that we both have birthdays on the 18th i love watching old ass tv shows with you i love you <3 and i’m going to watch cloak and dagger soon i promise i just accidentally got really caught up in books for a couple weeks there i need to balance my media intake better and then i’ll watch it!!! ok bye xoxo love beth

also how crazy is it that pope gif is literally the most i’ve seen of season 3. me when a show was so fucking bad i couldn’t even watch its latest season despite being completely obsessed and in love with it back in the days of season 1….. pate bros kill yourselves and all that

oh beth 🖤🖤🖤 you are so important to me and my life we really seriously are soul bonded... our born on the 18th swag <3 that is so nice to hear whenever I watch a film I love I'm always like I'm not sure who will Understand this like I do EXCEPT... you always get it 🫂 I promise I will watch some supergirl I just need to find it somewhere I don't think it's easily available in the uk so I might have to dl the first season it'll be a whole thing. I mean really it's not that crazy I'm just lazy sorry <33 and I hope u love cloak and dagger fr I might rewatch it soon... heterosexual love is so beautiful... ANYWAY. I love you 🖤🖤 when we watch lost season two it's going to go crazy even if it's bad we'll be in it together we'll get silly with it ok 🫶

[weaponizedducks]

how did we as a society move on from 'you're the only friend i have and i couldn't bear to lose you'. like??? why does no one talk about this. i personally never recovered

[rosaacicularis]

maybe grian came to camelot to escape the watchers, they’re a cult who could’ve seen his magic as him being a godlike being/entity, or he was leaving evo, a highly religious region/city that pulls some horrific shit on the citizens -🎶 anon

but that means i would have to make him traumatised :((( i do want his backstory to feature the watchers though… so maybe… 👀

[dryadalisliv]

I think it would be insanely funny if after Arthur’s death everyone returns back in time to the place they were the day Merlin arrived in Camelot. But like, everyone thinks they are the only ones who has returned. We see it all from Merlin’s pov, who’s traumatised and wondering why the fuck Arthur is so much sweeter to him this time around and keeps saying ‘thank you’. He wonders why Lancelot shows up earlier, why all of a sudden Gwaine is there three years too early, saying he got hurt in a tavern bawl and needs a physician. He wonders why Leon keeps pretending like he didn’t just accidentally see Merlin do magic. Why Gwen keeps giving him these knowing looks. And why Morgana doesn’t seem as afraid as she used to when she was figuring out that she had magic. Everyone is trying their best to change history for the better, thinking they are alone with this duty... and then one day when uther is dead and they are sitting around the round table, merlin steps forward and is like: ‘I need to confess that I have magic, but also that I have returned from the future.’ And everyone just whips around and is like ‘YOU TOO??!’ And then they realise that they’ve all returned and wasted their time thinking they were alone.

[that-nerd-who-writes-fanfiction]

Merlin: *banging a quill on the table out of frustration in a round table meeting*

Arthur: Stop that. How would YOU feel if I banged you on the table?

Gwaine: Did they just-?

Leon, traumatised by the oblivious flirting: Ignore it.

Gwaine: But-

Leon, loosing his mind: IGNORE IT!

[erizia]

Meliodas: I wonder what's wrong with me.

Ban: You're five feet tall and the oldest out of us.

Gowther: You're morally bankrupt.

Merlin: You're seriously traumatised.

King: You're a sexual deviant.

Escanor: You tried to kill me.

Diane: You suck at chess.

Meliodas:

Meliodas: I meant what's causing my headache!

[nic-coughlan]

y'all remember the merlin season finale when it aired on christmas eve 2012 traumatising millions of young adults sobbing into their turkey dinners the next day as they relived arthur dying in merlin's arms?