#tryingtosurvive

[yesiamxini]

First selfie of the year. After 2 massive panic attacks, an attempt of self harm and an ongoing trembling of body. This is how I look at 30 years old working while going through a mental breakdown every now and then.

[joearf]

2023.01.15: A cold and windy morning on Selleck Street - Stamford, CT #acoldandwindymorning #stamfordct #trudgingalong #doingonesbest #tryingtosurvive #peoplephotography #blackandwhite (at Stamford, Connecticut) https://www.instagram.com/p/CndWSpHOpcz/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[maedcheninscherben]

Ich war 13 als die Welt um mich herum die Farbe verlor, es war ein schleichender Prozess, ich hab es nicht bemerkt. Erst mit 16 war der Druck dann zu groß und ich bin zusammen gebrochen. Seitdem blicke ich täglich auf eine Welt in Grautönen und warte vergeblich auf einen Tropfen Farbe.

Eigenes, 20:36 Uhr

[reneisntreal1997]

A little about  me.

So. I used to be a Jehovah’s Witness. I used to wake up early on Saturday mornings with my family and go to other people’s door to preach to them since I was a baby. I went to meetings 3 times a week, now its 2 times a week. I wasn’t allowed to have friends, date, or marry outside of the religion. 

If someone did something ‘wrong’ they were excommunicated from the religion and we weren’t allowed to speak to them until they came back. I’ve had family go through this and I truly believed that they were bad people...now I try and keep in contact with them as much as I can to try to make up for lost time. 

Around 2013 (4 years after I got baptized, I was 12), I had been questioning my beliefs and life in general. My sexuality changed, and that was absolutely forbidden because the Bible says its wrong. There’s so much contradictory statements about that too. Anyway, so this year in June of 2020 I decided I wasn’t going to be a witness anymore. Having to hide, lie, and cover up a part of myself that is so important to me, and having to repress that part of me was too hard. 

Now that I’m out, I’ve lost friends, family, and people I care about deeply because of this choice. I have some friends and family who are supportive of my decisions, and for them I’m truly grateful. I’m so happy I have this support system, and I want to say thank you. 

To the ones who are questioning your beliefs, as a JW or not, I want to let you know that it is OK to question things, its normal, its human nature, you are not a bad person, and don’t let anyone try to tell you what you feel. I suffered for years I do not want the same thing for you. I knew what I wanted from a young-ish age, I knew I wasn’t going to stay in the religion forever. Letting people(40+ year old men) decide for you how you’re supposed to live, and love, and personal choices is wrong, its harmful, and unethical. You’re responsible for your own actions, your choices are your own. They do not deserve to be judged based on archaic principles or others opinions.

[danielleelizabethhh]

Sometimes I was happier getting high.

[spoonofconsciousness]

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There’s a difference between feeling something and thinking about it😅 ✨ There’s often a disconnect with our emotions particularly after we go through a hard time where we decide that we don’t want to feel bad anymore so we stop feeling altogether🥵 ✨ This numbness can be associated with something we’re avoiding but it doesn’t have to be something negative, it could be the beginning to feeling even more deeply than we’ve ever been able to feel before🥳 ✨ A lot of us are living in our heads - me included - and not so much in our hearts and if we open our hearts to feeling it means we drop our thinking about the past and the future and we really show up here right now✅ ✨ Being here is what deepens our connections with our loved ones and in the end that’s what life is really about😇 ✨ If you’re scared to feel again remember that the depths of your sorrows will reflect the heights of your happiness💚 ✨ #notfeelingwell #emotionalhealth #emotionalintelligence #emotionalabuse #emotionalwellness #emotionallyunavailable #emotionaleating #emotionalwellbeing #emotionalhealing #emotionalquotes #emotionalstorytelling #emotions #numbness #tryingtostaypositive #tryingtobehealthy #tryingtosurvive #tryingtosmile (at London, Unιted Kingdom) https://www.instagram.com/p/CCJr9YlHypr/?igshid=1old0xyg2jf7p

[galleryantiques]

Apologies for not being here on Instagram and other social media since the middle of last week But I have been unwell with a #fibromyalgia flare, extreme chronic back and neck pain and #migraines. �Basically I spent two days in bed, never ate anything at all. I managed to creep out of bed on Saturday and ate half a bowl of soup. I managed. A bit more food yesterday. I still don't feel great, about 50% well. Think I was glad #Etsy is dead and I never got any orders whilst I was/am unwell. Seriously though, if I don't start getting orders soon, I'll have to quit altogether, one Etsy order in 5 weeks is just not good enough. I don't have enough money coming in to continue as orders online are non existent. There have and are too many things that have happened with covid, brexit, inflation, grocery and energy price rises, to name some, that have people not spending their money on things like #antique, #vintage and #collectable items now, but it also feels like Etsy has turned off the lights in my shop mid April and forgot to turn them back on 😕 Even shops/businesses here in Halesworth that have been open for years have closed for good lately. I think 2022 is going to be a bad year for a lot of people for lots of reasons 😒 #etsyseller #etsyshop #eshopsuk #shopsmallbusiness #shopsmall #fibroflare #fibromyalgiaflare #etsyfail #etsydead #etsyisdead #tryingtosurvive #chronicpain (at Halesworth) https://www.instagram.com/p/CdnK_nXIJLu/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[mspattycake]

Anyone else notice how we are putting so much effort into our social media business but the #instagram #algorithm isn’t showing our work? Just me? Ok. Doubt it. It’s hurting my biz on both ends. So PLEASE take the time to LIKE, SAVE, SHARE to help my biz and businesses like me stay afloat. It’s the FREE way to support your fav small biz. TIA. • • • #instagramalgorithmsucks #instagramalgorithm #helpingothers #tryingtosurvive #smallbusiness #smallbusinesshelp #thestruggleisreal #sharingiscaring (at Dallas, Texas) https://www.instagram.com/p/CWWA3uwFPFD/?utm_medium=tumblr

[a-girl-called-ana]

I actually love my dad, he doesn’t know about my Ed and now he’s putting me on a shake diet so I can only have a protein shake for meals, I won’t drink breakfast or lunch but 🤷🏻‍♀️

[goldcreekstation]

PHONES ARE OPEN TODAY! It’s not too late to order yours! 509.658.2583 SPECIAL ANNOUNCEMENT: Gold Creek Station is making SIDES for your Thanksgiving Dinner! Invite us to the table: we’ll do the work and your guests will be thrilled! 1) Homemade Green Bean Casserole $12 2) Homemade Sweet Potatoes w/marshmallow topping $12 3) Homemade Mashed Potatoes w/turkey Gravy $12 4) Amie’s Favorite Salad (spring mix, romaine, strawberries, mozzarella, red onions and balsamic vinaigrette) $12 5) Amie’s Sausage Stuffing $12 6) Gold Creek Dinner Salad (yes there’s goldfish!) $12 Each are hearty four-person servings, and the hot dishes come ready-to-reheat. Preorders NOW for pick-up on Wednesday 11.25.20. Call 509.658.2583 All orders must be in by Tuesday! Don’t miss this! Gold Creek Station It’s just better here. #YourPlaceInTheMountains #SupportSmallBusiness #ShopLocal #TryingToSurvive GLUTEN FREE OPTION: both of the salads, the sweet potatoes and the mashed potatoes are GF. (The turkey gravy is not GF.) (at Gold Creek Station) https://www.instagram.com/p/CH8SqQFpo3j/?igshid=g5rybb5u1d98

[ashewoods]

Made a pie. It didn’t turn out the best, and it was a bit overflow-ee. But it tasted great. And that’s all you can really ask for, ya know?

I tried my best, and it was good enough~

[pup--scout]

Its orientation day for this girl, I hope today goes well. I have been very absent, recently Lowes decided it was bad for business to keep me as I mentioned I had gotten a second job and I was waiting to get trained. Apparently that company (which doesnt pay enough to keep people going and pay their bills much less get food) believes they need to get rid of associates who have multiple jobs. That's wrong when corrupt corporate capitalist amerikkka cant even pay people a living wage or hours to make money. So I have been off for 2 plus weeks and waiting for today. I'm excited! #transisbeautiful #transgenderwoman #transwoman #transgender #thisiswhattranslookslike #transpride #fuckjkrowling #ravenclaw #ravenclawpride #excited #newchapter #fucklowes #dontshopatlowes #hrt #transgirlslikeus #transgirlsofinstagram #transgamer #transgamergirl #imback #tryingtosurvive #loveyourself #newjob #letsdothis #lowessucks https://www.instagram.com/p/CEt5gu9l-Qz1PwNQog-GlQwcW2_q8ntdY7RdhM0/?igshid=1mxb5630hia41

[jerryhughes]

Life In India is no joke....our entire neighborhood was sealed at House of Hope today because of a few positive Covid cases. Our kids took to yoga thanks to Coach Allen! We need your support more then ever! Not the best of times. #houseofhope #HF #wewillsurvive #hope #beyondhiv #masks #yoga #life #nagpur #india #tryingtosurvive www.HFhope.org (at Nagpur) https://www.instagram.com/p/CCloSHYAQr_/?igshid=1mpsp850zj0mo

[bearosapien]

I haven't been active on here in...many many years. So I figured it was time again.

My name is Bear. I'm an Apogender Polysexual and I'm just...me. I'm a small business owner on Etsy, specializing in all things...chaotic.

LGBTQ, BLM, Occult, Witchy, Nerdy, Anime, literally everything.

Stickers, decals, magnets, jewelry, and soon to be shirts and home made wood burned projects. :D

https://www.etsy.com/shop/ChaoticCaboodle

I needed a new place to post all the pretty LGBTQ stuff we've been making and I figured...where's a better place?

#etsy

[rebelletesjr]

I passed by #mcdonalds ... Riders from @angkasph @joyridephilippines and @lalamoveph flocked outside while waiting for any #customer to order #takeoutfood ... And then you'd here these #cruelpranksters fake orders sending these people to #dangerouslocations , #fakeaddresses #fakeindetities or #gettheirkicks in cancelling the order just to feel better .. #rememberthispicture before you pull out a #cruelstunt ... In this #pandemic #therearenocompetitors .. everyone is just doing some #honestliving #tryingtosurvive #day39 #enhancedcommunityquarantine #quarantinedays A #gisellescablechannel and #gisellestagram moment at @mcdo_ph https://www.instagram.com/p/B_W5Ai9gKBw/?igshid=1lxmew62oq5qo

[thecoolnw]

Face masks use to be fashion, now they’re a Necessity. SHOULD WE DROP THESE ???? #quarantineandchill #thecoolnw #tryingtosurvive #shoplocal (at The Cool Northwest) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-_A3ZFhYn8/?igshid=vqcz5dof577e