#tw self image

[to0needy]

i’m so fucked up that i think my therapist finds it annoying when im scheduling appointments with her

[pr0ximamidnight]

it’s my face!

cw pregnancy and self image mention

i’ve been working on the self care front, including actually sticking to a skincare routine and doing makeup for myself again

ever since pregnancy my skin and hair have both changed DRASTICALLY. i used to have pretty oily skin and now it’s fairly dry. my hair, which has always been thin/fine and straight, has thinned some more. the products i used to love don’t really work the same anymore so it’s been a journey of trying to find stuff that works again which is both a pain and a lot of fun (many trips to sephora and ulta 😵‍💫)

[thornzhaverozes]

Scarlet Letter

For me, it's always been about the scars.

Not the blood, or even the pain.

It was the feeling of cleanliness that the act of self-destruction helped me obtain.

The scars are proof that I am something besides the facade,

Of whom I masquerade to be.

My scars act as my own personal scarlet letter,

Proof that I am paying for all of my many obscenities.

As for the abject humiliation,

I won't flinch or bat an eye,

After all, I deserve the snubs and the condemnation,

Don't I?

-M.F.

[buckyhoney]

okay i know this sounds so dramatic but have you ever looked at old pictures of yourself and like gotten upset about how you treated yourself at that time?

like i was trying to find a picture for my mom & was going through my google photos, i saw my high school folder and got really sad bc i remember hating myself so much- and had convinced myself that i was ugly and thought i was overweight (when i literally wasn’t)-

bc i’ve been tryin to heal my relationship with myself, i guess i got really sad/guilty about how i made myself feel at that time when none of that stuff i was telling myself was even remotely true

sorry this was completely unprompted, but i just wish i wasn’t so hard on myself at that time bc i think it would have saved a lot of hurt & seeing those pictures really solidified that ://

[eldritch-spouse]

Grimbly no doubt would also be a mess if you left him, after finding out about the clergy and how he really is

But you know what would mess Grimbly even more up?

If you left him during his metamorphosis

-angst anon

TW: Mentions of self-harm.

[OOOOH that's like fucking him sideways with barbed wire, that will break this monster man so bad.]

He's already in complete despair about his new body, having so much- Well, I don't know how to describe it aside from "dysphoria", but I'm not sure if that's the correct term here... Point being, this is the most fragile you'll ever see Grimbly, and it takes a monumental amount of raw cruelty to look at this bat monster bawling his eyes out, trying to claw his own body off, having a complete mental breakdown-

And just leave him right there.

Broken. Alone. He can't stand it. He can't understand. Is he really that hideous? Why would you just vanish like this? It doesn't even go through his mind that it's because of The Clergy, that it's because of him and the things he's done inside that establishment.

This would result in horrible scenarios, of Grimbly mutilating his own form just so he could be remotely similar to his old self, unable to cope, to move on- Because it doesn't matter how much others try to comfort or validate him, the vampire wanted your validation, your reassurance. Everyone else is but a footnote to him.

Where are you? Where did you go? Why did you leave? He can be better, he can be so much better- That's the only thing going through his mind as he tries to break his own horns, as he pulls at the skin of his arms trying to extend wings that aren't there, when he rakes claws over his eyes and tries to rip his own fangs off. Is it enough? Is he good enough? Please come back please come back please come back- He's better, he's so much better- Please.

Please, it hurts so bad.

[askthelordsinblack]

(hey sorry if this is annoying but are you doing alright or have things just been busy lately?)

(Honestly? No. Yes, I have been a little more busy than usual, but I’ve been struggling with a lot of self worth and personal/mental things lately. And to top it off, a few days ago when I finally started being able to frequently post again, I got SICK. I’m still SICK. So. You’re fine for asking, in fact, I appreciate it. It hasn’t been good.)

[overmyemptycoffin]

i remember being about 11

after watching a privileged white male celebrity do an interview, and hearing the word cellulite for the first time,

as i did with most new words i had to bring it up to my mother

“ i don’t have cellulite mom.” i said, innocently the next day at dinner.

my mother scoffed at me and sneered, “of course you do.”

we never spoke about it again, but my 11 year old world was shattered. i realized that what that celebrity said about my body, what my mother said about my body, was all so true and shameful and damning

i was doomed to hate myself forever.

so now i’m 18, sitting in my dorm, drinking my watered down baja blast, wondering if this feeling of disgust for my thighs will ever go away,

wondering if i’m the problem after all. if what my mother said about me will always be true.

[batsbolts-andfangs]

I can't help but feel so horribly wrong for being overweight at times. I know this is the body dysmorphia speaking, I have been battling this for at least two years, but it is hard to reaffirm myself when I look in the mirror and I cannot see myself right? I am a pudgy little bat and I have been called such gross, horrible things for something I cannot control. The stretch marks adorning my body as I wish they were covered up by fur, so embarrassed because I feel like I am wrong for being a fat bat. I know I probably am not alone in this but I wish I could affirm myself.

[to0needy]

there’s a constant battle in my head

i dont have the mental energy to go and workout or do some fun activities that i used to love, i just want to hide somewhere and be left alone with my thoughts

but then i feel so guilty for not working out and it makes me hate myself cause i feel so disgusting and i can’t stand looking at myself

[diogenes-blorbos]

Love Bug: A Newman Playlist

So I’ve been obsessively curating this for like a week or so

It is entirely too long and I honestly feel like I can’t justify the hours I’ve put into it without at least trying to explain why the songs are in the order that they are. Essentially, the songs tell my Newman’s story from the moment they crashed down to Earth to their ‘happy ending’.

The last song may or not be a nod to an angsty 3-part post-game fic idea I might write down eventually…

Trigger warnings for:

Part 3, Song 3- Body dysmorphia, gender dysphoria, talk of surgery and mutilation. A lot of self-loathing, basically. Part 7, Song 2- The song makes reference to school shootings

[bradshawsbitch]

today's ootd is giving popsicle gay vibes~

also; the vibes in form of music are tangerine (led zeppelin) and she's a rainbow (rolling stones) - have a nice day babes!! 🏳️‍🌈☀️🌻

[elsweetheart]

Some suggestions on self confidence? Lol I’m desperate

I was working today and I usually work with my mask on (not because I am obligated to wear it, I wear it for safety reasons yk) and a costumer was being nice telling me that the service was great (I am a waitress) and you know I was doing my job, serving him what he ordered for, and they seemed very satisfied because I am usually fast when I work, but then they asked me what types of milkshakes we serve, and the music was too loud and I was trying to tell him but he just couldn’t hear me, so I removed my mask and he told me to put it back on “because really you are not made to be looked at” and I was so shocked 😃😃😃😃😃😃😃 I went to the back of the store and started crying like a little kid WHY DO PPL HAVE TO BE LIKE THIS, THIS IS SO FRUSTRATING my face is none of your concerns!!! I seriously felt like shit all day ugh 😩 I am so angry because now I am having intrusive thoughts about beauty standards and my face and I just can’t stop them even if I know they are just thoughts and they do not reflect reality and that costumer was probably just a poor little frustrated insecure bitch.

(I bought myself a pricey Valentino bag to cheer myself up LMFAOOOOOOOO 💅💅💅💅💅 I think you would love it too ‘cause it’s pink and cute and very feminine 🥹🤍☁️)

babe :((( that’s awful, who in their right mind would say something so awful to a stranger ?? to anyone ????? maybe it was his stupid and sick idea of a joke? men often think negging is a way to get attention when rlly they should just stfu ….

please don’t let this effect you :( i’ve heard men say beyonce is ugly, heard men say angelina jolie is hideous and that shakira ‘needs work’ , and they are considered some of the worlds most beautiful women by popular standards ! it all means nothing . so please don’t question your worth over one stupid comment. you’re beautiful and i know it !

also i’m happy you treat urself !! the bag sounds super cute <3

[emotionallyvoidformymascara]

I feel like I don't exist to you. What do I need to do to be wanted by you? I just want to be desired. I want to feel beautiful and sexy.

[art-imps]

ragdoll

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[eternal---light]

Looked at photos of myself from a year ago AND NOW I WANT TO SCREAM.

Like. Good job taking all those gym selfies. What the fuck. And I thought I was fat.

It blows my mind. I thought I was huge in all these photos. And now I am 8 months pregnant and I wonder if I will ever look the same..

And like. It doesn't even matter!!!!

I have real responsibilities now! Real things to worry about! I don't need to care anymore! It's all made up. It's all in my head. This abstract perfection I was always chasing doesn't mean anything.