Heart of the House
❧ Pairing: Daryl Dixon x Female Reader
❧ Era: Season 9/10 Interim (The Beginning Is the End Is the Beginning series)
❧ Pronouns: she/her
❧ Warnings: mild swearing
❧ Word Count: 6.5k
❧ Summary: You're gone on a week long run, and Daryl is struggling to keep it together.
❧ A/N: Just sort of a slice of life piece from The Beginning series. This takes place between the last episode of season 9 and the first episode of season 10, so the Whisperers are still at large, and Lydia has taken refuge at the Dixons' house. I really wanted to write something that actually doesn't have a lot of the reader character in it, but is mostly Daryl's perspective and him being a dad and trying to take care of Robin and Lydia on his own, and of course I had to include just how much he misses his wife. I also wanted to put in another conversation between Daryl and Aaron, as I really hate how in the show they kind of forgot about their friendship (I have been told that the conversation reads slightly... gay. Do with that information what you will, but it is not intentional, and Daryl and Aaron do not want to sleep with each other in this universe, for the record). Anyway, enjoy this little snippet from The Beginning series!
It didn’t feel like home, about that much Daryl was certain.
He awoke as usual, around 5AM. Force of habit made him quiet as a mouse as he rose from his side of the bed, though there was really no reason to do so. You weren’t there, and he knew that, but God forbid he ever not pretend you were there. He needed it for his own sanity.
Routine, that was what kept Daryl going. At one point in his life, when he was drifting aimlessly alongside Merle, living like a nomad in whatever part of Georgia allowed him to be there, he didn’t care much about routine. Whatever Merle said was going to happen was going to happen. Nothing else really mattered.
It wasn’t until he met you and the others that he found himself needing constants, promises that the next day wouldn’t be too different from the last. The world around him might’ve ended then, but that was when his world began. That was when he met you, and everything before that didn’t really matter anymore. It ended with everything else. He didn’t know why he had survived, but he found meaning in you. If he had survived to keep you safe, then that was a good enough reason to keep staying alive.
He couldn’t keep you safe, though, when you were gone.
As he rubbed his sleep-heavy eyes, crossing the bedroom to the chest of drawers, he wondered what you were doing right about now. Probably sleeping, or keeping watch as the others slept, or waking up to continue your journey into the city.
This expedition was an annual affair. Every year since he’d finished building the library, you organized a week-long run into Washington, D.C., making a stop at each and every library in the city to add to Alexandria’s growing collection. Citizens would make requests, and whatever they asked for, you’d be sure to find for them.
He never went, as much as he wanted to.
You wouldn’t let him, in fact. This is my thing, you’d say, and then usually go on and on about how you didn’t want everyone in Alexandria to think you were just a housewife, or that you did nothing important for the community. You always cared too much about what other people thought of you, and Daryl knew that, but he didn’t have the heart to tell you not to care. Caring was what you did best.
Afterall, he had his hunting expeditions he’d go on throughout the year, and almost every big run required his involvement, so who was he to tell you that you couldn’t go on your own run? It was hard to be away from you, and it was even harder to imagine anything happening to you, but he had to just hope you’d come back home in one piece, and that he wouldn’t set the house on fire while you were gone.
So far, he’d handled things well every time you left. He kept Robin, Lydia, and Dog alive, though they, too, felt an emptiness in the house when you were gone.
Dog would roam the house for at least a day, sniffing everything and whining by the door. He curled up on your side of the bed during the day, his way of wondering where you were.
Lydia still didn’t show her feelings much, but she did seem a little uneasy. She had already asked Daryl twice if you were going to be all right out there without him, and he’d of course say “yes,” but he would’ve felt better if he was out there, too, watching your back.
And Robin… The poor thing was terrified.
When the incident at the border happened six months ago, Robin began to understand the terrible threat that was the Whisperers. They’d beheaded Aunt Tara, Aunt Bev, Henry… She feared the same fate would meet her mother. She had night terrors a few days after you left, resulting in her screaming herself awake and nearly giving Daryl a heart attack.
She had always had nightmares, and sleepwalked, but it was worse when you were gone, especially now.
At least the week was halfway over, and soon you’d be home again, he hoped. He even prayed, despite not believing they would go anywhere. He had to try, in the sanctity of his own mind.
As he opened the top drawer, pulling out a clean pair of underwear to replace the one he’d been sleeping in, Dog nuzzled the door open with his snout, panting excitedly to wrap around the bed and take his place curled up on your side of the bed.
“Hey, buddy,” said Daryl quietly, mindful not to wake his daughter, and the teenage girl he was now beginning to see as his daughter, too.
He crossed to the closet as he adjusted his belt, reaching in to pull out whichever dark colored button-up, quarter length sleeve shirt seemed to please him the most today. As usual, he noticed the stark contrast between his side of the closet and yours—one was dark and monotone, with very few garments and two pairs of shoes (his “nice” ones, and his “work” ones, both of which looked exactly the same to you), while the other took up most of the space in the closet, with a rainbow of dresses, blouses, and skirts, all organized by length and color. The librarian in you needed everything in the house to be categorized in some way, to have a “database,” as you would say, for easy retrieval. That included your clothes.
In the bathroom, he brushed his teeth and fixed his hair, another force of habit, since he only cared what his hair looked like when you were around. After spitting out his toothpaste, he peered back into the bedroom to meet Dog’s big, glassy brown eyes. His nose was pitifully sandwiched between his outstretched legs. The canine let out a big, dramatic huff, then a low whine.
“What?” Daryl asked the dog as he buttoned his shirt. “What’s wrong with you?”
He knew the answer, as it was the same answer to what plagued him, too. Sitting beside the dog, resting his hand upon his back to pet him, he sighed in solidarity. “You miss your mama, don’t you? Yeah, I miss ‘er, too… She’ll be back real soon.”
The dog followed him down the hall, part of their little routine. Next on the agenda was checking in on Robin, then Lydia. Robin’s room was across the second floor landing on the other side of the stairs, so he crossed over, Dog close behind, both moving quietly.
Robin’s door was ajar, as usual, with the only light in her room coming from her nightlight. He could usually see her little sleeping face as she laid curled up, safe and warm in her bed, but he didn’t see anything, not even the familiar shape of her body tucked beneath the blankets.
His eyes widened as he approached. “Robin?” he whispered into the darkness. “You in here?”
Dog quickly jumped on the bed, himself noticing the missing child, who was always in her bed at this time.
“Shit!”
She wasn’t there. He flicked on the light on her bedside table, confirming the child was missing. “Robin!” he yelled out.
Panic ensued then, as every horrible thought about what could’ve happened to his only child flooded every part of his anxious mind.
She was only five years old, six in a few months… Too young to be anywhere on her own, as far as he was concerned. Too young to not be in her bed at this hour. Of course, she could’ve been anywhere else in the house, but he didn’t think of that. His mind went to the worst possible scenario. After all, it wouldn’t be the first time she was snatched from her home by an intruder. It could’ve happened again.
He wasted no time, skipping several steps down the stairs as he ran to pick up his crossbow, completely out of instinct. “Robin!” he cried out again.
Dog sensed his master’s incredible stress, and bounded towards the door leading to the basement, where Lydia lived.
He couldn’t be bothered to focus on the dog, who was now scratching at the door as Daryl quickly tied his boots. It wasn’t until he heard Lydia’s voice call out to him that he stopped, turning to look at the teenager as she held Robin’s hand in her own.
Daryl sighed in deep relief, dropping his bow and wiping the sweat off his brow. He should’ve known she’d be in Lydia’s room, as the two girls seemed to be developing a sisterly rapport, with Robin often hanging around Lydia’s feet.
“Robin,” he huffed. “Why aren’t ya in bed?” He spoke softly, despite the fatherly concern in his voice.
Robin rubbed her tired eyes and shrugged. “You woke us up.”
He scoffed and shook his head. “No, why aren’t ya in your bed?”
“She had a nightmare,” answered Lydia. “She was scared. I told her to see you but she wanted to sleep with me… Sorry.”
Lydia slumped her shoulders, feeling a little guilty, though she’d done nothing wrong. Still, she was used to adults scolding or hurting her for the most minor things. It was hard to get used to the absence of that after so long.
He approached slowly and took Robin’s little hand in his. She blinked sleepily at her father, prompting him to pick her up in his arms, as if just yesterday she was a little seven pound baby.
“Don’t be sorry,” he replied. “Just got worried s’all. You all right?” There was no reason to ask, other than the simple fact that Lydia was family now. You cared about her, Robin cared about her, and he cared about her.
“Mhm,” she said with a nod. “I’m gonna go back to bed.” She reached over to kiss Robin’s cheek. “Goodnight.”
“Goodnight,” he answered for the child.
As he slowly carried Robin back to her room, she must’ve realized what was happening as she woke from her state of half-sleep.
“Daddy?”
He pulled back her covers with one hand and stroked her back with the other. It had soothed her ever since she was a baby. “Yeah?” he whispered back.
“I miss Mama.”
He sighed and laid her down on the soft mattress, always moving her with the care one might show a delicate porcelain doll. After all, to him, she was one of the two most precious things in the world. He wouldn’t dare imagine hurting her.
“Me too,” he said, tucking her back in as he usually did. “But she’ll be back, little bird. She’s just fine. Now you go right back to sleep.” He finished the final touches on his tuck, making sure her blankets were completely swaddling her body, just the way she liked. “There. Snug as a bug in a rug.”
She smiled softly at the familiar quote. He said it every night he tucked her in, without fail. Routine.
“I don’t want another nightmare,” she said sadly. “I don’t ever have good dreams no more.”
He sighed, sitting himself on the edge of her bed as his hand reached over to gently brush back her bangs. “Since the Whisperers?”
She lowered her eyes sheepishly, then nodded as if ashamed of her admission. In truth, Daryl had been having more nightmares since that day, too, but he’d always had bad dreams. His best dreams were ones with you and Robin, but even those could be nightmares.
“Heard people say they might bring the walkers here. Is that true?”
How was he supposed to answer that?
“I don’t know,” he said honestly. In truth, everything was up in the air right now. No one truly knew anything, and the Whisperers had a nuclear bomb in their arsenal that could set off at any minute. It was terror, but at least the community had been training to defend themselves in case of an attack.
“But they could?”
He sighed. “Robin…” He trailed off, unsure of what to say. He couldn’t say yes, even though that was the only option, considering he’d never lie to her. “You don’t need to worry about it. You just let me worry about it.”
She nodded solemnly, her eyelids becoming heavy and sleep threatening to overcome her.
He smiled at her sleepy face, admiring how much she looked like you in this lighting, with that delicate softness. She was a beautiful little girl, gentle and kind. Sometimes he wondered if she’d make it in this world, beyond the walls, but then again, he wondered that when he first met you, too. Now you were leading your own expedition into the city.
He stood and leaned forward to kiss her forehead. “I love you, sweetheart,” he said. “You go and have a good dream.”
“About what?” she asked, blinking her sleepy eyes.
He smiled at her curiosity, so much like yours. “‘Bout the future,” he said. “‘Bout all the great things you’re gonna do, all the stories you’re gonna tell… Ain’t nothin’ Robin Elizabeth Dixon can’t do.”
She smiled softly, emitting a small giggle. “Okay, Daddy… I’ll try.”
“That’s my girl,” he said. “Go back to sleep. I’ll be downstairs, munchkin.”
“Love you.”
“Love you more.”
Dog stayed at the foot of Robin’s bed as Daryl headed back downstairs, making his way to the garage. There wasn’t much else to do at this hour but work on his bike, and try to fix that pesky vacuum leak.
He lifted the garage door, no reason other than to watch the sunrise coming from that direction. It was another part of his routine, waking up early to work on the bike or some other thing that needed work, and to watch the sunrise until the real responsibilities of the day showed themselves.
With the birth of the new day came a slow rise of the neighborhood, which he also enjoyed watching. Those who were on garden maintenance that day stepped out of their homes and congregated at the crops to tend to the first spring harvest. Some went for aimless walks, and others made their way to the dining hall for communal breakfast.
They all waved to Daryl, some of them stopping to chat, though he couldn’t quite get the hang of small talk, not even after all these years.
“How are you?”
“What’re you working on?”
“How about this weather?”
“How’re the kids?”
“When’s (Y/N) coming home?”
All questions he somehow found hard to answer, for one reason or another.
He took a break from his work to make the kids breakfast, despite not at all knowing how to cook for them, since that was usually your department. He could cook, but only meat-based dishes, and sometimes waffles—eggs and potatoes were a mystery to him.
“Ah, shit!” he exclaimed, noticing he’d burnt the bread in the toaster. He’d already used a great deal of the house’s daily allotment of electricity on the several other pieces of bread he’d burnt.
“Swear jar,” said Robin, who sat at the bar making the final touches to her latest drawing.
He huffed and dug into his back pocket to reach his stash of old coins that had no use in this world, but Robin took a shine to them anyway. It was one way she learned about the presidents, a concept which fascinated her. Needless to say, the swear jar method did not really work in breaking Daryl’s habit for using naughty words, but it did help Robin develop her coin collection.
He reached across the counter and handed the silver quarter to her. “You’re robbin’ me blind,” he said. “Toast’s burnt again.”
Sitting next to Robin at the bar, Lydia shook her head as she closed her textbook in frustration. “Goddamnit!”
“Swear jar,” Robin and Daryl said, almost simultaneously.
The teenager rolled her eyes in response, then held out her hand to Daryl, waiting for him to give her a coin. He tugged out a copper penny, dropped it in her hand for her to drop it in Robin’s. “What’s up?” he asked, shoveling a few helpings of eggs and potatoes onto each of their plates.
“I hate reading,” she said. “It’s useless anyway… I can’t finish this stupid story.”
As he served them their plates, he leaned over Lydia’s shoulder. “Show me,” he said. “I can read it to ya.”
“No,” she huffed. “I need to do it myself… (Y/N) usually helps me read.”
Another thing that only you could do, another emptiness in this house that couldn’t be filled by anyone else but you. He missed you, more than usual, and even then, he always missed you a lot when you were gone, but this time, he realized that the heart of the house was truly missing. Even Lydia was affected by it. Still, he was trying his best to fill your shoes, and to take care of the girls half as well as you did would be an accomplishment.
“Well, uh…” He cleared his throat and pulled up a seat at the bar. “I can try. She’s probably a better teacher than me, but I’ll try.”
“Can I help too?” asked Robin. “I like reading.”
“That’s because you’re good at it,” replied Lydia. “I suck.”
“You don’t suck,” said Daryl. “You’re still learnin’. Ain’t no shame in that.”
The three of them took each sentence one step at a time, Robin chirping in every once in a while to help Lydia pronounce a big word, and Daryl helped her understand the meanings of the words she read. She finished the story just in time for school, and though usually you walked the kids to the classroom, he walked them both, with Robin’s hand in his and Lydia reluctantly trailing shortly behind.
At noon he helped replace a panel in the wall with a new, more durable sheet of corrugated metal, and in the afternoon he walked Robin home from school, leaving Lydia to her assigned duties at the library, which was your “task” for her while you were gone.
In the evening, after showing Robin how to skin a squirrel (much to her disgust), he retreated back to the garage, as he had nothing else to do. You weren’t here, and around this time of day he’d sit with you, either on the porch swing or the couch or at the dining room table, and just talk. He’d never liked talking much before he met you, but he changed when you came into his life, and though talking still wasn’t his strong suit when it came to other people, when it came to you, he sometimes found himself talking too much, to the point he didn’t know he had that many words in him.
If he sat on the porch swing or the couch or at the dining room table, he was convinced he might tear up a little, missing you too much to sit in your special places without you. It just didn’t seem right. Nothing seemed right when you were away, not even for a week.
So he kept working on that bike, and a few more days passed with more or less the same routine, though all those days suffered from a painful lack of you.
One evening, the night before you were supposed to come home, he worked on the bike as usual, stopping only when his brother-in-law walked by the open garage door, then came in to inspect the bike. He always bonded over that with Daryl, and sometimes you wondered if Aaron came over to spend time with you or to admire Daryl’s bike.
“Hey,” he said, a wide smile on his face. He was always so damn chipper, though the years had worn him down, leaving him a little less tirelessly optimistic than he was several years ago. “Still working on that vacuum leak?”
“Nah,” replied Daryl, wiping the oil from his hands with his black rag as he shook his hair out of his face. “Fixed that a few days ago. Just maintenance.”
Aaron nodded, bending over to, once again, admire Daryl’s craftsmanship. He’d built the bike from scratch seven years ago, back before Negan and the Saviors. Aaron had helped supply him with parts, but it was all Daryl, and that was the moment he really knew he was going to get along with his sister’s boyfriend.
“Well, she looks good,” said Aaron. “You still gotta teach me how to make one.”
“Pfft,” he scoffed. “Yeah, maybe when ya learn to ride a bike without crashing.”
Aaron folded his arms, laughing softly under his breath. “I’ll wear a helmet. Anyway, came by to ask you if you’re game to go hunting tomorrow? I still gotta beat your record.”
Last time, Daryl had caught fifteen squirrels, nine rabbits, and three deer. Daryl hadn’t bothered to count, as he didn’t find much point in doing so, but some of the other men, whose competitiveness Daryl found tiring, had a semi-official competition going on—whoever brought home the biggest overall hunt that day would get extra rations for his household. The reward primarily served as motivation for the hunters to bring home as much food as possible, but Daryl wouldn’t have even participated if it weren’t for Aaron keeping track of his numbers and entering him in the competitions without his knowledge. Daryl had won every time his name was entered, earning the family an extensive amount of meat that only Daryl, Lydia, and Dog could eat, on account of yours and Robin’s vegetarianism.
The whole thing was a silly result of Aaron’s brotherly meddling, to say the least. At least Daryl’s proficiency in hunting motivated the other hunters to catch more game, but it was well known in Alexandria that Daryl Dixon was the best hunter, though his humility and reluctance to admit that fact was both refreshing and slightly irritating.
His humility, however, turned to slightly mischievous teasing when Aaron was around. After all, he was, essentially, the younger brother Daryl never had.
“You ain’t gonna beat that,” he said. “Suburban kid.”
Daryl couldn’t pass up an opportunity to lightheartedly joke about Aaron’s childhood being spent in a cozy suburb of Richmond, Virginia, while Daryl was foraging for mushrooms and berries when he was just a little older than Robin.
“This suburban kid’s gonna catch up to you one of these days,” he replied, swinging his metal arm to nudge Daryl’s shoulder. “I’ve got a new tracking technique I wanna try out, it’ll knock your socks off.”
Daryl huffed and lowered his gaze, more seriously now. “I ain’t goin’ nowhere tomorrow. (Y/N)’s comin’ home, gotta be there for her when she gets here.”
Aaron smiled at Daryl’s devotion to his wife. “Man, you are obsessed with my sister, you know that?”
“She’s my wife.”
“And you’re obsessed with her,” he laughed. “It’s a good thing, just… slightly annoying at times. Every time she leaves you act like half a person.”
“Half a person?”
“Yeah, like you’re… missing something. I guess you are.”
That was an understatement—he was missing everything without you.
“Ain’t the same when she’s gone,” Daryl explained, trying to avoid Aaron’s eye contact as he put his tools away. “Home ain’t home. I mean, I can do things myself, but… it’s different. Robin’s nightmares get worse, and I dunno what to do for ‘er. Lydia needs help with ‘er school stuff, and I ain’t smart enough for that. (Y/N) always knows what to do. She runs this place, I just do what I can for ‘er and the girls, and Dog. Hell, Dog is runnin’ around the house lookin’ for ‘er, more than usual.”
Aaron could’ve sworn that was the most amount of words Daryl had spoken to him at once since they met seven years ago. “Wow, well, uh… House is still standing. Robin and Lydia are alive. You got them to school on time. I’d say you do just fine on your own.”
Daryl raised his head with wide eyes, suddenly realizing that Aaron was, in fact, a single dad. Not just for a week once out of the year, but for as long as he’d had Gracie. “Man,” he said. “I’m sorry.”
Aaron was taken aback. “Why are you sorry?”
Now Daryl felt like a fool once again. He’d made so many blunders with Aaron, once even drunkenly asking how sex works between two men, followed by a deep blush blooming on his cheeks. “Damnit, I… It ain’t that hard for me. I’m complaining. (Y/N)’s comin’ home tomorrow, and I’m actin’ like I do this all on my own, all the time.”
Aaron sighed and shook his head with a smile. How could that man be smiling, after everything he’d been through?
“I think you’re just stressed,” he said. “She’ll be home tomorrow, and everything will feel normal again. You do this every year when she leaves, Daryl.”
“Yeah, I know. Just don’t get any easier.”
“It won’t.”
Aaron had more or less convinced Daryl to go on a short hunt not too far outside the walls early that morning, and though it didn’t help take his mind off how worried he was about you, it certainly relieved a little bit of the stress of taking care of the house and its inhabitants.
When he returned home, Lydia was at the dining room table with Robin as they both did their homework together, a surprising turn of events, as Lydia was usually off practicing with her fighting stick.
For a while, Daryl watched in amusement as he prepared dinner, relishing in the sight of the girls getting along.
Dog’s ears perked up when he heard the south gate opening, and there was only one group outside the walls—yours.
The canine darted out the doggy door, leaping across the porch stairs and lunging towards the gate.
“Dog!” bellowed Daryl, dropping an ear of corn he was about to show Robin how to shuck. “Get back here!”
“Daddy!” Robin cried after her father, who bolted out the front door to retrieve his wild animal. The child followed suit, not knowing what else to do.
“Robin!” cried Lydia, and soon she was running after the child, who was running after her father, who was running after the family dog.
You were helping Emily lift a crate of books from the back of the makeshift wagon, which had once been a truck bed, when you heard the echo of the familiar bark, getting closer and closer.
Shielding your eyes from the setting sun with your hand, you squinted to see past the late afternoon glow. “Dog?” you laughed. “That’s my dog!”
You carried the crate to its place on the dolly, ready for safe passage to The Library of Alexandria. “What are you doing, boy?” you asked him. He bounded with every step you took, tongue out as he panted excitedly and stood on his hind legs. When your hands were free, you grabbed his front paws and danced with him for a moment. “Since when do you like me so much, huh? Where’s Daddy?”
You knew wherever Dog was, Daryl wouldn’t be too far behind.
“Dog!” you heard him bellow, though you couldn’t see him.
He came sprinting out from behind the corner of one of the townhouses, one of his mismatched shoelaces untied and his face red with embarrassment at his dog’s disobedience. When he set his sights on Dog, he trailed his eyes up to notice you, and gradually his sprint turned to a jellylike waltz, punctuated by a series of out of breath grunts.
“(Y/N),” he panted. “I, uh… I dunno what got into him.”
You smiled wide and shook your head as you scratched underneath Dog’s ears. “Oh, it’s fine. He didn’t—”
“Robin!” you heard Lydia’s voice in the distance, from the same direction Daryl came. “Stop!”
Your eyes widened with worry, until you saw a very familiar little girl running barefoot towards you, her short, clumsy legs dangerously close to stumbling over the other. Her wide, crystal clear blue eyes soon focused on you. “Mama!” she cried out, with a sweet laugh in her voice. “You’re back!”
She moved much faster now, and Lydia came running behind her, out of breath and also barefoot. Neither of the girls had time to put on shoes in their panic.
“Hi, sweet pea,” you said, leaning down and accepting her hug. You squeezed her so tight that she let out a giggly whimper. “Oh, I missed you.”
“I missed you, too,” she replied.
“(Y/N)...” huffed Lydia breathlessly. “Hi.”
For Lydia, that was a very friendly reception. “Hi,” you replied, straightening up to hold Robin’s shoulders. “Good to see you… Oh!” A lightbulb went off in your head as you remembered the books you’d brought back specifically for everyone in your family. You held up your finger and turned to rummage through the bed of the truck, while Emily, Gabriel, Eugene, and the others helped unload the other crates. “I got you something… Let’s see… Aha! Lots of books.”
You let out a strained, but somehow sweet, grunt as you tried to pick up the cardboard box of books by yourself, but Daryl quickly intervened, gently shooing you aside and lifting the heavy box with ease. “Thanks, honey.”
“Ain't nothin'',” he grunted. He looked between the teenage girl and the box of books, wondering how she could read these all on her own. “These all for Lydia?”
“Well, some are for Lydia, some are for you, some are for Robin.” You bent down on one knee to look rummage through the box, and Robin was quick to follow suit.
“Whoa!” she exclaimed, holding up a children’s illustrated encyclopedia of plants and animals. Daryl smiled when he saw her eyes light up and her teeth, of which there were a few missing and a few growing back, fully visible from her wide smile. “Thanks, Mommy… Wait, this is for me, right?”
You laughed with a characteristic snort and brushed back her hair. “Of course it’s for you, baby. And look at this one.” You dug through several books to find the one you were looking for: The Illustrated Encyclopedia of Dog Breeds. “Now you can find out what Dog is.”
“Dog’s a dog,” added Daryl, who was of the belief that Dog was simply a mangy mutt.
“He’s a special dog,” retorted Robin.
“Yes, he is,” you agreed. Standing to your feet, you sighed and dusted off your knees. “I’ve got to help them put these books in the library.”
“Nah,” said Daryl. “I’ll do it. You go home.”
You scoffed. “I can do it.”
“Nah,” he said again, turning to lift more crates from the truck. “Go on.”
You folded your arms and rolled your eyes, sharing a small laugh with Robin, who was also quite amused at Daryl’s insistence. “We’ll both do it. You girls go home, and wash your feet, please.” You pointed to their bare feet, which had become dirtied from running across town.
“Yes, ma’am,” replied Robin, echoing her father’s usual response to your orders.
Night had fallen when you, Daryl, and the others brought the last several boxes of books into the library. You stayed behind when everyone else had left, and that meant Daryl stayed behind, too, since he wasn’t about to go anywhere without you. In fact, he barely moved from your side, making sure you didn’t hurt yourself when you lifted the heavy boxes.
You had made your way to your desk, looking through the handwritten catalogs to check Lydia’s progress. She’d done well, despite not understanding why the library existed in the first place. She followed your instructions as best as she could, and that was all you could hope for.
“Look, Daryl,” you said, holding out the papers for him to look at. “She did so good. I mean, there are some errors with the metadata, but I can go back and fix that. For a handwritten entry, that’s not so bad.”
He took the papers and squinted at them, not quite understanding anything he was looking at. The more he learned about librarian work, the more he thought you were a genius, though it really wasn’t so hard, just a very complex system of cataloging and data entry that could occasionally render a minor headache.
Despite his lack of understanding, he couldn’t help but smile back at you, admiring how excited you got when you talked about your library, the one he built just for you, with his own two hands (well, and lots of tools).
“That’s great, hon,” he said, handing you back the papers to reassemble in your binder. “Ain’t you tired?”
“Yes,” you sighed. “But I had to make sure everything was okay here… How were the girls?”
He chewed the inside of his bottom lip as he leaned against the wall alongside your desk. “Fine,” he said. “Robin’s nightmares got worse. Think it’s ‘cause you were gone. She was worried ‘bout ya. And Lydia, she did good. Kept up on her schoolwork, much as she could without ya pokin’ ‘er about it.”
“And Dog?” you laughed. “He sure was acting weird.”
The corner of his lip quirked in amusement at the sight of Dog greeting you so excitedly. “Yeah, think he might’ve missed you the most.”
You rolled your shoulders playfully, with a slightly mischievous smirk. “Did you miss me?”
Like crazy, he thought, but he wasn’t going to admit that just yet. He had to tease you first, as he always did.
“Pfft. Me? Nah.”
“Ugh!” you scoffed dramatically, though with a very obvious grin on your face. You knew he was joking—his eyes betrayed him. “Daryl.” You pushed your desk chair back and stood up to step towards him. “You really didn’t miss me? At all? Maybe just a little bit?”
As you wrapped your arms around his neck, he caught a subtle whiff of your perfume, still lingering on your blouse from when you last sprayed it a week ago. He could never figure out how you stayed so clean and fresh as a daisy even after several days of being outside the walls. Maybe you were just perfect. Really, it was just copious amounts of baby wipes.
He cleared his throat, smirk fading as he got lost in your eyes, the ones he’d been missing so badly. “Well, uh… Maybe just a ‘lil bit, yeah.”
You raised an eyebrow and giggled girlishly, the kind of giggle that sent a pleasant tickle down his spine. “Oh? Only a little? Maybe you missed me a little more than that?”
He rolled his eyes and threw back his head, serendipitously allowing you access to his neck, where your lips were drawn to like a magnet. “Crazy woman,” he sighed, closing his eyes to relish in the feeling of your soft kisses along the curve of his jawline. “I missed ya so damn much, you know that.”
“Mhm,” you hummed next to his ear, like a honeybee. “I missed you, too. Missed home…”
Your lips grew tired, so you settled your head in the crook of his neck, blanketed by the warmth and softness of his hair. His arms wrapped tight around your back, and his lips left long kisses against your head. All the while, he swayed you in his arms, back and forth, almost lulling you to sleep.
“Me too,” he said after a while. “I missed home.”
You hummed a giggle against his neck. “What do you mean? You were home.”
“Nah,” he said, preparing himself to say perhaps the cheesiest line he could, but it was the truth—it was how he really felt. If there was one thing about you, it was that you could get him to articulate every feeling he had, even the ones he didn’t know about himself. It was a blessing and a curse, as sometimes he didn’t want to know too much about his feelings, but it made him a better man, he knew that. “You’re my home. Now you’re here, I’m home.”
“Oh, honey,” you said, lifting your head to look at him. “That’s beautiful… You’re my home, too.”
He scoffed, trying to brush off the sappy moment, as he often did. “I burnt so much damn toast,” he laughed, though his eyes looked a little glassy. Just a little. “Scared myself half to death when I woke up to check on Robin and she wasn’t there. Turns out she was in Lydia’s room. I got my bow and everything. I was ready to shoot someone.”
You snorted and shook your head, then pressed a few kisses to his cheek. “You did good, cutie pie. Everything’s just fine.”
“Now that you’re here,” he said. “Nothin’s right when you’re gone.”
“Well, that’s sweet, but… someday I might not be here, Daryl. I might not be able to come back.”
You let out a surprised gasp when he held you tighter, his hand raising to the back of your head to tangle in your hair. “Don’t ya ever say that,” he said. “That ain’t gonna happen. Won’t let it. You ain’t dyin’ ‘fore me. No damn way.”
You laughed at his insistence, how sure of himself he was. “Okay, okay. No dying for me. I’m going to live forever.”
“That’s right,” he agreed. “You and me, we’re gonna live forever. It’s me and you till the end.”
He didn’t speak literally, of course. He knew someday he would die, and that you would, too, no matter how much he tried to prolong it. It wasn’t your bodies or even your souls that would live forever, it was what you left behind that would. That was immortal, so was your love.
“I’m so tired,” you mumbled. “Haven’t had a good night’s sleep in a week… Eugene snores like a chainsaw.” Not that you weren’t used to snoring, but Daryl’s soft, rather cute, snores were nothing compared to Eugene’s.
Daryl huffed and peered out the window across the way, looking out into the central courtyard of Alexandria. The sun had just set, and everyone had more or less retreated to their homes for the evening. Thus, no chance of anyone seeing him carry his exhausted wife to the house.
“Come on,” he grunted, manually tightening your arms around his neck, then tucking his hands underneath your knees to lift you up. “Let’s get you home. Hope Dog’s not on your side of the bed.”
You laughed hazily once you realized that he was carrying you. “Daryl,” you murmured. “You don’t have to carry me… Though I can’t say I don’t like it.”
After setting you down briefly to kick Dog out of your bed, he tugged off most of your clothes and tucked you under the covers, kissing your head and whispering “g’night, angel.”
At last, everything in the world was right again, as right as it could be, anyway. He headed downstairs to lock the house up, checked on the girls, then followed Dog back up the stairs to settle alongside you in bed, wrapping his arms around you, as usual.
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