#untreated cptsd

[chronicsymptomsyndrome]

“Treat others how you want to be treated” is a cute sentiment but such awful real life advice that has gotten me into endless predicaments. Neurotypicals do not want to be treated how I want to be treated.

Turns out that among all eight billion of us, there are a few different sets of values and preferences and neurotypes. Turns out not everyone wants to be treated the same ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[2outta3aintbad]

“You can’t self diagnose thats disrespectful to people actually suffering from that” okay but have you considered dying a slow miserable death

[clownprince]

Mfw I have my heart set on addressing Joker's aspd in this fic but the entire field of psychology is so horrifically ableist against cluster b personality disorders there are next to no resources on what aspd recovery looks like because the general consensus is that it isn't possible

[sunkern-plus]

also i'm sick of people treating emotional eating as something that makes you pathetic

it's LITERALLY consensus that it's caused by poor emotional regulation (which is caused by trauma or disability most of the time) and issues related to trauma and it's often genetic (purely anecdotal but i literally come from an entire line of emotional eaters)

and also from the autistic and adhd community i feel like the only autistic/adhd comorbid person who COMPULSIVELY and EMOTIONALLY eats and everyone on tumblr seems to like. not do that. even though compulsive and emotional eating is more often associated with more severe presentations of adhd/more common in afaik low-middle and middle support autism presentations and autism that's frequently comorbid with intellectual disability so i guess you people don't wanna be like Those Autistics, which, somehow includes me!

[truckstoptigers]

just started crying bc i read "the hypervigilance that often accompanies ptsd can cause you to wake up repeatedly throughout the night" bc oh my fucking god everything really can be directly traced back to my trauma, huh? like everything. almost everything that makes me what i am actually.

[wankstain-mcgee]

I'm trying to plan for the future and it's making me feel more alien than ever

[oleaspur]

lads. i miss therapy

[lilmelvin]

[ lonely ] sender finds receiver alone in a dark room

Angst Hours // Still Accepting @deborahmorgna

She doesn't really know what happened. It had been a really good day! Deb was always a blast to be around. Ice cream, shopping, bracelets. Melvin had just been chilling in the kitchen talking! And, her stupid water glass had slipped through her fingers. Crashing and shattering into the ground.

Maybe it's the noise. The shatter. She isn't in Deb's apartment. For a moment, she's right back somewhere older, somewhere darker, and somewhere where that shatter is going to hurt. And isn't that why they ran? Just the three, well, three of them and a teddy bear. Kids only leave the safety of their bedroom if the unknown is safer than their pastel walls.

So, she runs. Even if she doesn't really remember making the choice to do so. Or really how she got here. Where is here anyway? How long has it been? Poor Deb probably got worried. Melvin wiped away tears with the edge of her cape and tried to look around the dark. Some sort of supply closet, maybe? Going from the slightly tinged chemical smell and the silhouette of the broom she could make out. She should reach out for Bobby; have him help her get back. Melvin never gets the chance before the door opens with Deb.

"I'm really sorry."

[pogasm]

everyone in palestine is disabled btw. if not by physical disability then by debilitating trauma that WILL develop into ptsd (bc lbr they’re not even in the POST traumatic event stage. they’re suffering complex trauma that WILL Cause ptsd or Cptsd). this is a disabled rights issue. if they werent disabled before they are now! theres also so many palestinians with pre existing disabilities who have to go without treatment, meds, mobility aids, support… there are autistic palestinians as well! and palestinians with down syndrome! and palestinians with bipolar, schizophrenia, etc who probably haven’t had access to meds in MONTHS. imagine having untreated schizophrenia and being in an active war zone

there are palestinians who were disabled before the genocide, there are palestinians who became disabled during, and more are to come if something is not done and thats just the physical conditions. this is a human issue, a feminist issue, a disabled issue. everyone should be mad

ceasefire now

[chronicsymptomsyndrome]

Me @ myself for like two hours every morning:

Get up get up get up get up get up get up get up get up let’s go get up get up get up get up get up get up get up get up get up get up get up get up get up get up get up get up get up get up get up get up get up things to do bitch get up get up get up get up get up get up get up get up come onnnn get up get up get up get up get up get up get up get up please please please please please

[2outta3aintbad]

[nature-played-a-trick-on-me]

Filled in a whole list of questions with my mentor to prepare for the appointment and it's The Worst

[invisibleoctopus]

typed this all out just now. hopefully my next appointment with the psychiatrist i remember this exists and read it or something

[jediexile]

sometimes i wonder why i have such bad hypervigilance problems and then i remember that a considerable part of my childhood involved my parents telling me either to hide myself away or lock all the doors or don't be in the line of sight because i might get targeted or shot

[thepro-lifemovement]

Link.

As the euthanasia program in Canada comes under increasing international scrutiny, Canadians living with disabilities are speaking out to show how they have been pressured into assisted suicide or euthanasia. And the hashtag they’re using is starting to go viral.

A woman identifying herself as Dr. T kicked off the “I Am The Face Of MAID” campaign with a tweet arguing that the government would rather kill her than treat her illness. “I am the face of #MAID (assisted-death) in Canada. As a single, 50 yr old female with a genetic condition and a disability pension I will only cost the ‘system,'” she wrote. “I would be approved for untreatable pain if I applied – except my pain IS treatable – the gov just wont cover it.”

She then encouraged others to follow her lead, and the hashtag quickly took off.

“I am the face of #MAID (assisted-death) in Canada,” a woman named Ariane wrote. “As a 42 year old woman with a rare complication of lupus + iatrogenic injuries I will only cost the ‘system.’ I want to live but can’t get the care I need + have been approved for MAID.”

“I am the face of #MAID (assisted-death) in Canada,” another woman named Natalie wrote. “As a 41 yr old woman with fibromyalgia & chronic widespread pain, I will only cost the ‘system.’ I receive nerve block to keep me moving. I would be approved for death if I applied.”

“I am the face of #MAID (assisted-death) in Canada,” still another woman said. “As a 30 y.o. with physical disabilities and ADHD, I will only cost the ‘system.’ I would be approved for MAiD if I applied – doctors are ignoring me to death. Fleeing to live.”

“I’m a 23 year old with ADHD, BPD, CPTSD, POTS, very intense IBS, widespread chronic pain, asthma, and more. Come March if I applied I would be approved due to their expansion with mental health,” another woman tweeted. “I am the face of MAID, but I don’t want to be.”

The campaign worked. Dr. T later followed up that not only did #MAID become a trending topic on Twitter, but her picture was the #1 photo associated with the term.

Many people with disabilities have come forward to speak out about their treatment, which has included being referred for MAID even though they are seeking medical care. Still others have been approved for MAID simply because they are living in poverty, or have disabilities. Disturbingly, the Canadian government is still planning on expanding the MAID program to include those whose only diagnosis is mental illness.

[daevite]

still disabled + far too broke lol

a'ight so wheelchair thing def still not gonna happen anytime soon (funny that me having to walk to campus nearly led to me getting a foot injury and my cane doesn't help lol) bc i am just entirely too broke and don't get enough to compensate for that so i give up again. i had to use those funds to pay for food and some other stuff since i haven't gotten a paycheck in like 3 weeks after my car broke down and took forever to get fixed. but i'm overdrafted again, have some expenses coming up, and i don't think i'll get my first paycheck with this new job until next week so i would really appreciate some help getting me out of the negatives and to hold me over until then.

i'm a mentally and physically disabled (autism, ADHD, cPTSD, POTS, gHSD/hEDS, congenital muscle disorder, mostly undx'd and untreated, etc.) college student still financially reliant on my abusers (who can't give me money rn) and who's been struggling immensely due to job stuff and expenses that keep coming up and a ton of my clothes just got ruined and i need to get meds refilled and generally i just need help with covering some basic stuff until the paychecks from this job start coming in.

this isn't an emergency so i would prefer it if those who potentially contribute would refrain from doing so if they're also financially struggling! thank you.

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