#we live at the end of the street

[rainey-staerie-daize]

Mom getting lazy? Telling me to lock the door behind her? When she often just leaves it unlocked without saying anything? And sometimes hanging open??

No. You get ONE lock. The one I can easily lock. The gate can fuck off.

Though it's all locked up now because Skye came home and locked it up.

[kaisollisto]

"Beatrice," Ava calls softly, Beatrice has trapped her in a hold, one she's felt thousands of times before. Ava can feel her underlying desperation (this time it seems to say, please, please fight back). Ava steels herself (one last time). Bea's arms are thick, corded with muscle from years of use and Ava doesn't want to linger on the truth of it. (A soldier weathered over the course of many years). The cruelty doesn't spare her, it sits with her forcing her to relive the same day over and over.

"Beatrice, I know the end." Ava tries again, It shakes Beatrice and it's gut wrenching. Ava can feel the uncertainty brewing, her grapple is no longer precise just frantic. "I have to go," Ava swallows the bitterness in her chest, (failure, failure, failure, it tells her).

"You can't," She's shaking and Ava has never seen her fight harder than now to choke back sobs. "You can't." Beatrice is grabbing her hard and Ava pivots, leading them chest to chest.

She can feel the crown of thorns bite into her hand but nothing ever hurts more than looking into Bea's eyes. They're so stupidly brown and soft and so full of hope and Ava wants to throw up. (She curses every stupid higher being above for making Beatrice watch Ava die over and over. She just hopes she's the only one who remembers.)

"It all ends the same. Please, just one last time let me have this with you." Ava forces herself to look at her, Beatrice, to take it all in one last time. She's done this a thousand times, maybe a million, but it still hurts all the same. The sight of her never grows old, (Ava doesn't want to ever get used to seeing her), she's breathtaking. It softens the goodbye in her heart.  

She can't say it but she knows Beatrice can feel it. The defeat permeating from her. It's suspended between the two and Ava is never going to see her again.

She blinks through the tears, Ava is never going to see her again. She can feel Bea's heart racing through her wrist and she's never going to see her again.

And she can't kiss her, she can't kiss her because she's never going to see her again and she couldn't stop if she did. But Ava has never been the strongest between them, she ends up on her toes gently holding her face between her hands. She can feel Bea's breath reverberate through her hands and she kisses her forehead.

A sister warrior officiated goodbye, (Shannon's last moments leak through her and Ava has never felt like herself these past thousand lives).

"I love you," She lets it slip, (the part of her that exists outside being a warrior nun,) and Ava hasn't quite learned how to stop running. She closes her eyes, unwilling to see the devastation across Beatrice's face and she falls for the last time.

-

Something's changed. Ava can feel pain a heavy thing in her chest. And it hurts, it hurts that it wasn't enough that she left the earth a heartbroken mess. She's tired and Ava doesn't want to hurt anymore.

Something crosses her vision and someone grabs her -

"I know the end, you idiot." Beatrice shakes her in disbelief, "we go back to the alps." She kisses her before Ava can say anything swallowing her bloody mouth. It's raw and needy and it makes her feel alive. She can't feel anything below her chest (but this blooms a feeling she had forgotten about, hope).

Beatrice knocks her head into Ava's, panting harshly against her face, their foreheads pressed tightly like Beatrice is sure Ava's going to disappear again.   

Ava hands weakly snake around Beatrice's and she smiles through bloody teeth and swollen lips. Her throat feels hoarse but she couldn’t be happier. 

[cadrenebula]

Would anyone mind sharing cute things with me tonight? It's been a rough evening. Doesn't matter if it's cute screenshots or pets or plushies. Just something cute.

[realpontchartrain]

Oh my god it’s my mom’s birthday lmao. Another year in witness protection hiding from me!

[urplepurplegurgleturgle]

I have this idea in my head where there’s like a small town where me and the gang live in with some of our other friends and like it’s kinda like fish city but it’s not a city it’s just a little town or maybe it is a city and we all live in the same neighborhood idk but I really do wanna world build and like I just rlly wanna design a neighborhood where we live in grrr 💔💔💔

[mariemariemaria]

Does anybody else feel like mental health awareness has done very little to help them in material reality

[quietwingsinthesky]

doctor who human!au with multiple doctors but they’re all named by their numbers because they’re all trans and picked them out theirselves.

[there-will-be-a-way]

Also, I called the support workers of the living group my bestie lives in last week to get an appointment for an interview and they said they would call me back on Monday to give me a date. I didn't hear back from them so I called them this morning to 1) ask them for the date for the interview and 2) show them my interest because you have to do that when searching for living groups. You have to call again and again and again, otherwise you'll never get to live there because their waiting lists are so long that they often "forget" people (aka ignore them on purpose if they don't show enough interest). The person on the phone was unkind - or at least I felt this way. She sounded annoyed and told me that they don't have a date yet and that they don't have a free room anyway. I felt let down and upset. She said that they have my contacts and that I'll hear back from them but tbh, I doubt that. And the way she treated me makes me not want to live there anyway. I'd rather stay here and live in a container or smth but have support workers who feel like a family. Idk

[svampira]

friendship ending vacations real cause we didnt even fight i just came home and realised i do naut like this bitch

[bredforloyalty]

i dream that one day the wild pigs will come up and onto the street again. and i see them👁️

[snailking-99]

Laying in your dog bed quietly playing with your vibrator, when they walk in. They turn the toy off and look at you expectantly. You stare intensely at one another for a moment before they nod in the direction of the wand. You turn the toy on cautiously and are rewarded with a *click*

"Good boy~" has you suddenly so desperate to put on a good show and you begin to let out those whines and moans you've been holding in, your hips become more eager.

They lean over you and begin nipping at your ear, switching between cooing "good boy" into your ear and breathing heavily against your neck, teeth teasing your flesh. Your hair is pulled back as your volume rises.

"Good boy. Come for me." You cum with a loud pathetic whine of a moan. And then realize the window is open.

[cerbreus]

[snekdood]

if you dont vote for biden you're a dumbass who only cares about their image. swallow your shit pride and vote you utter fucking dipshit.

[smute]

theres a 1312 graffito on the sidewalk outside our house which is based obviously but honestly so hilarious im about to poast my full address just so you guys can understand how ridiculous it is to see something like that here

[magistralucis]

@absolut--kurant!

[homeless202]

"there's no way you don't know this already, right?" <- this right here is the main reason for EY's frustration with HJ. we've seen it already multiple times but never summarized this well.

altho they both have similar background with having to fight to survive and also stealing, EY still cannot believe/comprehend how HJ isn't as jaded as him. how can this guy still see the good in people and hope for a better future when he's seen the ugly parts of life? <- which is why EY would often starts arguments with HJ earlier in the story.

EY is obv talking from experience - he knows things most people don't know and couldn't understand. he thought HJ would be able to relate and validate (or at least sympathize with) his feelings and experiences but he doesn't. instead HJ continuously says things that hurt EY without realizing or meaning to.