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I know damn well you aren't that far into my blogs yet. But once you see all my GunGoo bs. I'm just gonna warn you. It'll be a shocking mess between me and goosimp
fr?!?!?!? let me check them out, i might get in a rabbit hole and end up going to the end of your acc or smth like that...but i'm interested so okay... hmmmm
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[PUT INTO PLACE, TIED DOWN AND ARRANGED, AND IS NEVER THE SAME, AGAIN.]<-listen to my favorite songs. VAMPIRES ARE WONDERFUL ARENT THEY. THE FLESH IS SO MUCH MORE DURABLE. SO MUCH STRETCHIER THAN HUMANS. THE STRESS DOESNT KILL A VAMPIRE THE SAME WAY IT DOES A HUMAN. YOU CAN TAKE THEM APART THREAD BY THREAD AND LEAVE THEM WIDE AWAKE WITHOUT WORRY OF THE BRAINMATTER SPOILING UNDER VINEGARY AGONY.
#cw gore#WEEEE WHIPPING OUT ALL MY BELOVED PIXEL HORROR GAME SOUNDTRACKS FOR THIS ONE#STILL A WIP#SORTA. FORKSFORKSFORKS INSPIRED ME TO START WORKIN AT IT AGAIN. AND NOW IT LIVES. IT LIIIVEESS!!!#MOSLT.Y ATLEAST. I MIGHT MESS W IT MORE LATER. WE SHALL SEE. ANYWAY GABRIEL MONTEZ HUH. WOW POOR GUY#THERES A FASCINATING FEELING THAT COMES WITH BEING ON A OPERATING TABLE.AND BEING IN IMMENSE PAIN#ONE OF MY FONDEST MEMORIES IS LAYING ON A DENTIST CHAIR. SHAKING AND INVOLUNTARILY CRYING AFTER MANY MANY#NEEDLES TO MY THE MOUTH. I METABOLIZE THE NUMBING STUFF QUICKLY APPARENTLY. THEY NEEDED ALOT OF NUMBING SHOTS#BUT I WASNT AFRAID OR DISTRESSED. THE DENTIST WAS VERYVERY NICE AND ALSO UH. PRETTY. BUT THATS BESIDE THE POINT#THE POINT IS. THAT IT WAS FASCINATING TO REALIZE MY PHYSICAL RESPONSE TO PAIN UNDER A CONTROLLED ENVIRONMENT#I DIDNT KNOW HOW EASY IT WAS TO SHAKE AND TO CRY PRYVIOUS TO THAT EXPERIENCE.MY DENTAL ADVENTURES CONTINUE#THEY CONTINUE TO HELP ME UNDERSTAND WHAT ITS LIKE FOR PAIN TO BOIL AWAY THE TIME. TO DISTORT THE PASSING HOURS AND CONSUME EVERY THOUGHT#DO YOU REMEMBER PAIN? THE MOST SEVERE PAIN IN YOUR LIFE? NOW WILL YOU IMAGINE RED LIGHTS? RED LIGHTS AND SHIFTING FIGURES#NOW WILL YOU IMAGINE PAIN UNRELENTING.PAIN WORLD SHATTERING.PAIN IMMORTAL.CAN YOU IMAGINE BEING PULLED APART#THE HUMAN MIND CAN ONLY WITHSTAND SO MUCH PAIN BEFORE IT SHUTS DOWN AND HIDES.IT NEEDS TO PROTECT ITSELF AFTERALL. PAIN CAN ALTER#PAIN SHIFTS THE CHEMISTY OF THE MIND OF THE FLESH OF THE SOUL. FOR HUMANS ATLEAST. BUT YOU ARE NO LONGER HUMAN#YOU CHOSE OTHERWISE DIDNT YOU BOY.BECAUSE YOU WANTED MORE.STATUS.POWER.APPROVAL.SECURITY.SAFET.Y.#OHHH YOU CAN WITHSTAND THE PAIN FOR THAT. FOR ALL THAT. YOU WERENT TOLD THERE WOULD BE PAIN BUT YOU KNOW WHAT YOU WERE PROMISED.#ITS ALL WORTH IT IN THE END. NOW LETS JUST HOPE SOME BLONDE TWERP DOESNT PROVE TO BE STRONGER THAN THE STRONGEST PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE#LETS HOPE NO ONE FUCKS THIS UP. LETS HOPE NO ONE FUCKS THIS UP. I LOST MY TRAIN O THOUGHT#anyway dawww poorr gabeee that shit probably huuurrrrtttss but so much time has passed that your body got tired of screaming and squirming#why havnt you passed out yet? maybe you might as well have at this point. like sleeping with your eyes open and your nerves awake#OH HEY FUNFACT ABT THE ART. I FOUGHT W IT ALOT. TOOK A LONG WHILE FOR ME TO BE REMOTELY HAPPY W THIS.#i was thinking abt pixel horror video games when i made it.just as i do with all great things ofc ofc#i love you pixel horror game i love yooouuuuu.i struggled so much w the colors for so LONNGG UHGHGHGH but im finally happy...im finally fre
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$15CAD / $11USD cat design
In exchange for a donation to this fundraiser, I'll give you full ownership of this design and the unwatermarked art presented here. If you're not interested in this design but you can afford it, please consider donating a few dollars anyway. It's a vetted fundraiser that could save the lives of 8 good people.
If you're interested, message to check its still for sale, show proof of your donation and I'll send the unmarked design your way. I'm also willing to do some extra art for a higher donation, details can be discussed in DMs.
You can really do whatever you want with them, credit for the design and art is preferred but I don't care all that much. Once paid for it's all yours :)
#ram's post#cat adopt#adopt#adopts#adoptables#oc adopt#character adopt#feral adopt#feral adopts#feral furry#feline adopt#warriors#warrior cats#wc#animal adopt#warriors adopt#thats . a lot of adopt tags#ram's art#if anyone knows more i can add please let me know#really hope this goes well. honestly incredibly nervous to post this. but all good things are scary so its worth a shot
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not to be insane but Stephanie Brown is so underrated and i really do hate to say its misogyny but. well. It is.
#stephanie brown#batman#spoiler#this WILL get me shot but. steph is everything fanon tim wishes he was#i think i could write a whole dissertation on how if steph was a guy people would love him#like. obviously Some Men In Comics will not be happy with any female characters that aren't background wives or daughters#but this is so apparent with fandom that its kinda. boggling#know i shouldnt read too deep into it bc duke and cas get done dirty as well#(duke and cas are whole other rants. i love them both dearly and i DO think Cas should be Batmans heir bc she is literally the Ideal Fit#while WFA is great but has also reduced peoples perception of Duke to a reader insert that is still learning the ropes instead of like.#the robin gang leader who has been studying since birth to defeat the riddler. who has powers.#duke and cas are kinda insane and deserve that recognition is all so i dont go into another rant)#the way that people are so happy to have the batboys be complicated people (even when they reduce them down to core traits) but not steph#she's always the fun one#her struggle with being a completely average teenager fighting to be recognized and her struggles with self worth gets put to the side#oh for what? waffle jokes? yeah okay#ppl would be dickriding her so hard if she had an actual dick i KNOW it#ppl would be making tiktok mitski edits of her
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im coming back to say, the ranboo rebrand was fucking cool. now excuse me while i beg my mum to give me access to my bank account so i will be able to buy the r800 jacket when it comes out. boobers rise.
#ゞbillzoned#˗ˏˋ 🖇️﹕𝙫𝙚𝙚 𝙧𝙖𝙢𝙗𝙡𝙚𝙨 *#mcyt#ranboo#ranboolive#ranboo rebrand#THEIR MODEL LOOKS SO COOL WTF#the little boober too:(#my mum will say no#but its worth a shot#two posts in one day#is pretty unusual for me#but oh well
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does the proper pants thing really work ?
I can't speak for everyone bc everyone's depression is different but it at least helps with my symptoms to establish routines and associate an action (changing into day clothes) with a habit (getting out of bed, engaging with the tasks of the day, etc). Wearing pajamas out or day clothes to bed tends to make it all kinda blend for me? It's all about routines and boundaries yunno
#vio.ask#tw depression#tw mental health#mental health with vio#its worth a shot! personally ive found that sectioning off my days into distinct phases is really helpful for my adhd as well as other stuff#so that also extends to meals n stuff#also dressing up for the day and picking my little gay outfit is a little joy i have everyday
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Soap by The Oh Hellos perfect yoohankim song send tweet
#omniscient reader's viewpoint#I think that you’re worth keeping arouuuund I think you’re worth holding on tooooo#ITS GONNA HURT LIKE HELL. but we’re gonna be well. ill give you my best shot…
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Great news everybody i have a new fictional man to be incredibly intense about for the next few weeks to months, prepare for Busted Dude Posting
#jay talkin#me and the hubby finished preacher and i latched onto cassidy like a tick and im biting him to shreds#you know its serious when u add a new guy to the 'hes just like me fr fr' list#the strong personal connection i feel to that vampire. jesus. sometimes a character hits u hard and strong#anyway if u dont wanna see preacher stuff just like tag block the word preacher#there will be spoilers no doubt buts lbr its mainly gonna be gifs of a vampire#shows really good btw. like it aint gonna be for everyone its got some rough stuff#both thematically dark and also some stuffs REALLY not handled well#but like. ok. if u have a tolerance for stuff and are ok w yr shows not being squeaky clean or w/o criticism give it a shot#the character work and emotional beats and story are worth it imo but if u try it and it turns u off#thats also totally understandable and respectful! but yeah i recommend it if yr looking for some compelling tv#it made me WEEP#if u were a supernatural head this is like that if it were better. i say this as someone who watched supernatural ok#i say that w love in my heart just trust me on that one ok
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DDAM catalogue!!! Reservations are openn :)
#me n zx knowing damn well barely any sgeans use tumblr actively n still postin b like 🤡🤡🤡#issok its worth a shot!!!#genshin impact#honkai impact 3rd#honkai star rail#jjk#mcu#marvel#fgo#fate grand order#good omens#library of ruina#bsd#bungou stray dogs
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unfortunately i dont believe stimuwrite is working for me
#shame u_u ah well it was worth a shot#remember how i literally cant do anything else when watching the beating u unconscious asmr#becos like. idk it literally grabs hold of my attention i think its too stimulating#the soundscape. is doing that to me#i know its like Then just turn it off?????#but then its basically a normal word processor. at which point that is also not working clearly LMAO#its also very likely that this is not and has never been a stimulation issue#there is some sort of other mental blockage going on <-fear#i say its not working. actually im doing the thing of having it open and then doing everything in my power to avoid actually starting#its possible (unlikely) that ... maybe if i actually start. typing dfhgsdfb gvdfg
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not to be a colossal fucking cowabummer about everything but it really does suck that like. my really chill and like. supposedly more realistic type of career goal feels about as unattainable as like a kid saying he wants to be a singer or something
#kazoo noises#like yeah this was supposed to be a job i COULD get. i thought bc like. i was going into the field bc i loved the work and not bc i couldnt#make it into academia (fuck u alt-ac term users yall are snobs) id like maybe be able to cobble it together bc like. im good at doing work.#i can usually make something happen and i got a good attitude. but jesus ive got one year left and every job app comes back negative if the#even bother to respond#like idk man. i knew iwasnt gonna be making money or shit and i knew it was gonna be rough but like. everyone else i meet already has a gig#or at least like gig adjacent. volunteer or field experience or internship and like. i cant get anything to stick. its not like ive done#nothing either? ive worked extensively with small scale exhibition design. i have worked extensively with special collections libraries.#i have literal years worth of research experience from college. i have an entirely customer service based resume thats not academic so i#can handle a patron (and crucially different from my peers: I WANT TO)#i can organize. i can write and design labels. i can communicate. i can handle special collections objects. i can make ANY microfilm reader#work for me even when it doesnt want to#and im not saying my classmates arent qualified. but like. surely this has to amount to something. i have been so stupidly lucky#to have even half the experiences i do. i have variety in my degree that even some of my classmates would kill for i think. i did. so much.#i have had so many advantages and i like to think i use them well and that i am grateful for them. but why cant i make that shit connect???#my resume is good. im reliable. i want to work more than anything. so why cant i get a call back???#legitimately how much longer do i get to keep telling myself i a not the common denominator here#sorry for diary posting but im prepping to walk to the house tour and planning what job apps i can fill out when i get back and literally.#just like. why do i bother. i should have just held my nose and done the online only program in state. i'd probably spend less time rotting#god being 23 fucking sucks. it is going to be better. im literally just barely an adult. this cant be it and it wont be it. but jesus. i go#over having to beg for a rejection letter about ten months ago when i still felt like i had a shot at these experiences
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Play for Today: Clay, Smeddum and Greenden (BBC, 1976)
"What ails you?"
"Ails her? You would greet yourself if you saw your life ruined."
"Well, I'm right sorry you're taking it like that. But, losh, it's a small thing to greet over."
#play for today#clay smeddum and greenden#single play#classic tv#bbc#1976#lewis grassic gibbon#bill craig#moira armstrong#victor carin#anne kristen#gerda stevenson#fulton mackay#bill fraser#joan fitzpatrick#eileen mccallum#maev alexander#fiona knowles#brian cox#claire nielson#isobel gardner#a trilogy of connected plays based on the short stories of celebrated Scots writer Gibbon; this got a repeat on bbc4 a few months back and#im using a brief visit home to catch up on stuff I'd recorded off the tv. i think this is on iplayer for the rest of the year and it's well#worth looking out (tho I'd recommend subtitles; the heavy accents and scots dialogue can be difficult to parse). an atypical example of a#PfT‚ but an excellent example of the series' occasional forays into more regional work. Clay‚ the first (and perhaps best) of the three#short plays concerns a man's obsession with the land he works‚ to the detriment of his family and his health. shot with an almost folk#horror sensibility‚ it's a subtle beast; quite unlike the second‚ a broad comic piece about a tough matriarch and her various children. the#third has a more overt sense of the supernatural again‚ or at least a kind of psychological horror (very much subtextual) in its study of a#sensitive urban woman driven slowly out of her wits by dual isolations of a new home in the country and a cruelly distant husband#all three plays benefit from centering strong female characters‚ all three rewarded by excellent casting. as i said‚ watch if you can
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I need a doctor who has the patience, experience, humor, and directness to listen to whatever new treatment ideas I've concocted, and then either say "Alex, that's a stupid fucking idea, let me explain why," or "The risks are acceptable in my professional opinion. Let's go over pros and cons and then you can think about it and decide what to do."
I just think it would be fun. For me. And I wish I could find a doctor who would also find that fun. I already came up with one fun Treatment for an Illness and have been successfully using it to treat The Illness for almost a YEAR, and all the side effects are awesome so like...I am certainly full of hubris at this point.
#i dont wanna say what i take or what im treating bc its like...well...zero doctors recommended it lol. and two doctors said “that might work#but uhhhhh i dont think im the right doctor for that.“ wait. three doctors said that. but i asked the third doctor ”pwease. youre the third#doctor to tell me to go to a different doctor. i need help.“ (i was fucking desperate. i was missing so many days of work that i basically#lost an entire paycheck's worth of money in two months and like. i had also SPENT that much on the doctors who inevitably ran out of their#own ideas and then recommended i go elsewwhwre to try my idea WHICH IS FAIR but also all 3 doctors did agree it was worth a shot so like....#i kinda needed ONE of them to actually. try it. it just took 6 months for the first one to run out of ideas and then another two or three#months to get in to see my genderal physician and then see a doctor he recommended who then recommended i go elsewhere and thats the doctor#who i was like “youre the third doctor to say that...i dont know who else to try.” goodness im glad she helped. my medicine is like $15 a#month (it was $10 when i had insurance) and i am in love with every single “side effect” and!!!! yea it has given me a large sum of hubris.#anyways.) i wanna do that again but with my other Significantly Disabling Illness. like why not lol. im already on 3 medicines that are#recommended to *not* take together (none of which are the medicine i chose to take aldjskds) so like.............seems like we#are at a “just try shit out and see what happens” stage. doctors should send me resumes and ill pick the one that looks most fun and then#we will do fun science together on my nerves system :) itll be fine lol. am i serious or kidding? i have no idea.#sorenhoots
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fun sunday afternoon plans my dbt workbook arrived + I have a lecture on adhd + seasonal affective disorder to watch that I signed up for a while ago. maybe either of those will tell me how to survive this winter without killing myself 👍
#its the same dbt book ive used before but i only had a pdf before.. its much easier to navigate/use a physical copy#some of the techniques did help me to reduce bad coping mechanisms significantly last yr. so worth giving it another shot#i dont rly respond well to therapy unless its self administered bc i cant talk to ppl abt my problems + dont trust what they say anyway#its just easier independently in a written format. theyre my issues i got myself into this shit so i can get myself out of it. or not#wish i could at least exercise today but i think it is a chest infection im coming down with. so im not sure i physically can#its painful enough breathing as is. making some lemon honey ginger tea tho so hopefully thatll help#man. the fucking Misery. i hope i make it through this one. sooner rather than later preferably 👍#.vent#.diaries#i have a book on bpd as well. i dont think i have bpd myself but some of the interpersonal issues ppl w bpd have are similar to those-#i experience so just curious whether itll have any useful advice for managing emotional instability/insecurity in relationships
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In other news have I mentioned lately that Mad Max: Fury Road is my all time favorite film
#HMSHDHNSNSB#its so well shot and tightly written and elegantly acted#ALSO IM STILL NOT NORMAL ABOUT NUX WINCING BEFORE HE FLIPS THE WAR RIG OR THE SEED LADY DYING OR ANGHARAD#its about learning to TRUST and HOPE and that sometimes you have to leave before you can fix whats broken#but that doesn't mean it isn't worth fixing#mad max fury road
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Here is my resource site! I still have a lot to work on when it comes to it, but it does exist so i guess you guys get to see it. This is the third version of the site that I have made, and it is likely going to have many different versions later on
#I don't know how well that link will work but its worth a shot#if it doesnt work just let me know and I will fix the issue!#kris rambles#coding stuff#just remember that its going to be better eventually and will have the pages actually working#it'll just take a while
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