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#unless i missed something#it felt like everyone else had pretty rational text effects...like standard conditions in their status boxes....#was this the only status that explicitly mentions being all squishy to GENTLY convince someone#because right now it feels like#eiden in a sequential interview situation. he is alone in a board room with someone he needs to win over. he's prepared his thesis(?)#with edmond first#eiden brings out his master plan and says OK HERE'S MY PITCH. PLEASE GIVE ME JUST A LITTLE BIT OF TRUST ONCE YOU HEAR IT#we're going to do THIS at THAT PLACE at THIS TIME with the goal of THESE RESULTS. My capabilities include: THIS. ThaT. AND PERHAPS THOSE.#PREVIOUS EXPERIENCES indicate that method A and B will do well but in case that fails i have prepared options C D and F#eiden pointing out his massive presentation board with the spreadsheets and red strings#edmond deliberates very seriously before cautiously approving of eiden's plan#when edmond exits and oli takes his place. eiden starts the presentation anew#oli nods thoughtfully and encouragingly throughout... like yes! this sounds like a good plan! i trust you with this :) let's do it :)#then oli leaves and yakumo comes in to take his place#eiden doesn't even need the presentation materials.#he just sits across from him. gently places yakumo's hand on his chest over his heart. then stares soulfully at mr protoserpent#and says (please trust me? 🥺)#yakumo crumbles IMMEDIATELY#and when they emerge from the room into the hall where edmond and oli are waiting#eiden's like GREAT! EVERYONE'S ON BOARD! let's get this started n_n#and edmond's just like.... yakumo why did you come out so fast. eiden's presentation lasted at least 7 minutes#oli just smiles knowingly and thinks lmao eiden heckin got im#journey to a nu world#nu carnival yakumo
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oh fuck yeah my "I'm gonna sit my ass down and force myself to write today" worked and now the second draft of chapter 5 is done (sitting at just under 7.5k)
If the stars align I might be able to get it out on Friday (or Saturday morning) but that's very wishful thinking....
#I booked today off in my calendar as a “ME DAY - do not make plans”#because I always make too many plans on my days off#and I'M SO GLAD I DID THAT#honestly I might try to do that once a week#not just to force myself to write but also just to force myself to have a day where I don't have to wear pants#and talking to people is only optional#it's called self care
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#I have thoughts about the new tour yet I am not sure if I should share (given why I do so in tags)#I am not surprised to see denmark is absent#I am a bit surprised to see no scandinavian country AT ALL#not surprised to see germany and the uk have most dates (that's sadly something I've seen a lot from bands/artists I like)#a little befundled with the route he has scheduled for both germany and the uk dates#glad to see other countries like switzerland france and the netherlands get their debut#not surprised it is in october since that seems to be around the same time for his europe antics last year as well#all this said I am a bit conflicted what to do myself#I'd like to go to gigs on this tour#yet I've already run out of the country four times these past upcoming five months (three times to finland)#since it is quite expensive and maybe not something I will have time for given I hopefully get an internship in august#with that in mind I feel like I should probably go for only a few dates#and yet last time I felt very much like I was missing out and overlooked because I didn't go to “more than two shows”#and here is where I feel like my thoughts are probably not great#i was thinking about maybe going for hamburg as first priority since it is the closest (4 hours in train)#then have frankfurt and munich as second priorities making it a little mini tour#I am not sure if I'd physically and mentally be able to do more than three gigs in a row#yet if I am I sort of want to go to zurich too because I've never been there#two days to decide is not very long#I feel very stressed tbh#and I hope noone will take this in any wrong way#please I really dont want to feel shit again#I know my last concert related take was on the fence#(even though as it turned out the venue did worse than me in that regard)#but this one is really just me thinking about what would be the smartest plan#other possible options would be to go for zurich since it is in a weekend (sunday) and then - depending on whether or not I have work#either go home or follow jere to amsterdam (then maybe paris and brussels)#another option is berlin then hamburg and then to home from there (so two shows)#or london and bristol since its the weekend (maybe manchester as well if it is not far - so up to three shows)#the latter I am a bit concerned about since being trans in the uk is not great atm
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You know, I've held for a long time the belief that canon!Denise eventually surpasses Sylvia and is just a notch above her in terms of battle prowess despite being younger. But the more I think about it the more I realize Paldea!Denise blows Sylvia out of the WATER with how strong she is to the point it's not even a contest
#mel's musings#forest for the tree#little songbird#first of all. dena started 3 years younger in this au. she got her sprigatito at 15 whilst syl got oshawott at 18#she's got FIVE rivals as opposed to syl's three. one of whom has a reputation for being a battle maniac#(honestly. nemona alone does wonders for dena's growth as a trainer but I'VE STILL GOT MORE)#dena literally has battle studies on her academic record and has studied at two different schools for it#she's fluent in both singles and doubles strategies and beaten elite and champion ranked trainers in both playstyles#plus she's got 4 legendaries AND access to terastallization. syl would get WASHED#to be fair to her though. she certainly would not go down without a fight#she's got 2 legendaries herself plus a mega gardevoir she can communicate telepathically with#and she's significantly more adaptable than dena when her strategies don't go as planned. whereas dena tends to get boxed in her mind a bit#meaning if she manages to catch her off guard it's even possible she could pull a win from her in some circumstances#but after she spent so long wearing herself into the dirt gaining the strength she needed to beat team plasma#and trying her best to live up to everyone's expectations for her as the hero of truth (to say NOTHING of her expectations for herself)?#she's just not the grinding type anymore. she's simply content to live out her life with her beloved pokemon#and if she gets stronger as a side effect of that then cool! but it's not her main focus and she wants to keep it that way#paldea!denise was never forced into getting stronger the way syl was. and she's less beholden to others' expectations in general#and having that agency means her natural inclination to gain knowledge and grow isn't stunted by feeling like it's her only option#so she doesn't have the same reservations about striving for strength as her cousin. but that's not to say she's inherently better for it#point is. both girls had different circumstances behind how they got to where they are and the struggles they faced along the way#but regardless of that they're both content with where they ended up. they're living their best lives and that's what matters#sobs. they're so everything ;_;
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daley @bawnjourno tagged me to make my ultimate 20-song sparks setlist and here it is!!! also tagging @ron-do-i-get-to-sing-my-way @whompthatsucker1981 @dinkydiamond @kitclock @nocribdoll @eddie-rifff and anyone else who wants to do it!!
#thank youuuuuu daley and everyone else don't feel pressured if you don't wanna#ok now on to explaining my choices.#take me for a ride is how the band walk out like this year but they do the whole rest of the song which already kills me instantly#completely optional suggestion to perform check out time 11 am in robes like the single cover. anyway moving on#its important to note that ideally leos carax joins them onstage for when youre a french director#i originally included take me out with the ffs medley but figured it should be kept to sparks songs only.#however id die to see them do take me out on their own. i require it . for the choreography alone. moving on#the order of these wasnt planned but having missionary position go to more than a sex machine and then she got me pregnant is hysterical imo#and finally i really (Really) need them to do wunderbar again. it probably wont happen but oh we can dream. a great show ender i think#im sorry this turned into the top 20 songs where that man hoes it up setlist but what did you expect from me#spars
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I like using Occam's Razor when I theory-craft, because often the simplest answer is the best solution.
But man does it sometimes lead to the most BORING answer known to man.
#Jacks showed me a conversation relating to Alter Ego Gonta#and for a while the comment in question had my mind reeling and coming up with tragic ideas to explain it#and then I remembered#“Oh wait. I don't think Alter Ego Gonta is aware what it means to be just an AI/is aware he's not just the original Gonta. He considers--”#“--Himself and the Real Gonta as separate entities. That means ofc he would be alarmed and concerned when this 'doppleganger' knows about--#“--Him murdering Miu.”#Anyway that answer is so much more boring tho#AU where Miu Gonta and Kokichi all saw the Secret of the Outside World Together#And came up with the murder plan#All three of them coming to the conclusion that Gonta would be the least suspected#and Kokichi would be the most suspected since everyone fucking hates him and thinks he's always up to no good#thus leaving Miu to be the victim#The idea of Miu /setting up her own murder/ is such an interesting concept and the /tragedy/ of it all is even better#and I was very much enjoying that rabbit hole before I realized “Wait. Not only are there lots of plot holes to fill with this but this--”#“--assumes AE Gonta identifies with Real Gonta as himself--which he doesn't.”#Anyway yeah the pains of Occam's Razor#Sometimes the simplest answer really is the best option#Sometimes it's the most boring option tho
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considering more and more abt how straight up buying a house is the best option for me and im
#like i dont want to rent bc its just money going up someones ass every month but investing in a house loan would Put the money somewhere#plus when its paid off i can resell and get the money back after all those years in a sense#but gOD im only 23 going on 24 is that not too youngGG UGH#i got the money for a house loan?? i think?? a good foot in the door so to speak#bc god the rent is just so high for fucking everywhere and to think its just not going anywhere long term kills me#my options seem to be rent house for crazy price every month or decent trailer in the sketchiest trailer park known to man#all the decent apt or house rent is in citys like hOURS AWAY UGHH#but finding a decent house to be in for a decade n a half or so and just putting money into that??? sounds best#i never planned on living in this shitty town long term but lets be real years are going by dangerously fast to me now so that long doesnt#seem so long now and i can plan on where i want my Long Term house for my milfsona in life while getting credit/ experience#but god loans??? down payments??? alllll that Important Document shit??? cripplingly terrifying#BUT the payoff like in unit washer and dryer some Actual room advanced privacy just being able to have my own 110% space ooooffff#def going to do a HELL of a lot more research and talk with peers but the discussing ive done so far sounds like i have a fighting chance#plus i was so terrified of moving out and fucking up something important after being backed into a corner at 21 and now look at me💪#doin p alright so far i think#the only problem is the time i have and whether i can find a decent house around here thats affordable
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#I hope the platform grows tho it could rly be a great alternative to tumblr#I have my concerns tho especially with how they plan to keep the site up and running#ill never donate to their asses btw but that seems like the only other option for the platform to continue growing and thriving#but outside of this concern I am hoping with fingers crossed that this one lasts#other SM that have tried to make a splash in the scene still have yet to pick up#I don’t really like the idea of being on a platform where it feels like there are only 10 ppl actively posting if I’m being real…#mastodon…. pillowfort have been here for a minute and I think pillowfort is still in beta??? but I’ve posted to them. it just doesn’t feel#comfortable tbh#well they don’t to me personally#will cohost be the one? we’ll see#rambling#I’m tariah23 on cohost btw#I believe you can make multiple blogs as well??? I think so? I’ll have to look into it but if so#then yay
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wait. forgort I was planning on writing but feel indecisive
#hm i should make an original post tag#no skip option. pick one or die curious about who's winning#calling it triangulation of desire in honor of this one destiel mutual's post that lives rent free in my head#well it's two different posts. about fic ideas of theirs. the wording got mixed up in my mind but the point is basically#guy jealous of seeing other guy with a woman (that he thinks he desires). and slowly realizing it's not the woman he wants#(well the destiel mutual's is more like. guy joining in thinking he wants the woman but only paying attention to the other guy.)#but anyway. you get it. weird not-throuple where the guys are obsessed with each other and act on that through the woman#who may or may not also have a weird relationship towards both#.... ok now i need to add some propaganda for the others#old men qpr is. thee first one i started. and probably the one with the potential for being longest. and most lighthearted.#just two old enemies making peace and living together and hiding from the government (inquisitors)#and maybe bickering about training the chosen one#space smut is. well. what else can i say.#what if the jedi found out about sidious's identity and plan before rots even started#by the power of the one guy who knows all that has a giant obsession with obi-wan and reasons to want sidious dead#is it out of character for him to give up power for the sake of revenge? who knows. i think not.#<- guy who loves giving this guy complex feelings about seeking/having power#anyways. hewwp. pick for me
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30. amity
As Aymeric stared up at the enormous, one-eyed form of Vrtra, satrap of Radz-at-Han and youngest of the First Brood, he found himself momentarily speechless at the very concept. Only a few short years ago, Ishgard’s borders had been closed, and he would have been dead at the bottom of Witchdrop for even considering the possibility of international amity with a nation ruled by a Fury-forsaken dragon.
But Vrtra had ruled Thavnair fairly and well for centuries, had personally given the scales that had shielded his men from tempering in Garlemald and elsewhere – the large swath of exposed flesh on his side was reminder enough of that. And then for him to invite the leader of a city known for its skills in the slaughter of Vrtra’s kind while thus weakened – it went against every single tenet by which he had been raised and lived most of his adult life.
However, he had become accustomed to rapid change, oft heralded by the two women who sat at the nearby table, chatting quietly. Recovering his wits, Aymeric bent in a bow. “Thank you for the invitation, satrap Vrtra. It is a pleasure to meet you.”
A deep, rumbling voice issued forth from the wyrm, but in the common tongue rather than the dragonspeak his elder brothers had favored, “You are welcome on Thavnair’s shores, Lord Speaker. Sit, and take your ease.”
“If we have to start standing on ceremony, I’m going to go eat in my room. Leave the damned politics in Ishgard,” Estinien grumbled, off to his left.
Aymeric tipped his head at the former preminent dragonslayer of Etheirys as he took the seat next to him, smiling faintly. “You say that, but the longer you stay here, the longer I’m tempted to make you an official ambassador between Ishgard and Radz-at-Han. You are rather uniquely suited for it, after all.”
Grey eyes narrowed and pinned him with a glare. “Don’t. I haven’t your talent for speeches, nor your taste for rubbing elbows with important people.”
#I had much grander plans for this one but writing on the weekends is HARD for me#which is why saturday prompts were usually done on the monday mornings of make up days but#not an option this time#so have a little snippet of something I intend to write more on later#aymeric+vrtra is such a weighty thing to think about and I wanna do it properly sometime#thavnair is a shining fucking example of how man and dragon can not only coexist but thrive#it also happens to be where half his wife's family is from#bleh I wanted to end on a better note BUT#I did it I wrote things for all 30 days!!!#ffxivwrite#ffxivwrite 2023
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tonight is my last night sleeping in my bed. possibly for the rest of my life. and my last time in my room possibly for the rest of my life. and i want to just get a good night’s sleep to be ready for a long day tomorrow but it’s really not working out like that.
#my family is still up in the air maybe selling this house within the next month#in which case i will never be in this room ever again. otherwise i will be back for the holidays so there’s still a month of this bedroom#if we sell the house in the spring instead (only rational option there’s no way we can empty it in time)#especially since i will not be in this house whatsoever until after that sell date. my mom all by herself can’t empty it all#anyway i’m struggling a bit. saying goodbye to my home of 14 years????#i’ve been through a lot in this place and most of it is bad memories but like. every good memory i have is from here too….#and everyone i know irl is staying local i’m the only one who’s leaving. one irl friend is going to the same school as me but we had a fight#within the past month and i don’t think we’re ever going to recover because she just kind of never treated me like a person#so i’m starting from scratch and it’s really.. like fuck i want to get out of here but i’m also not at all ready to actually leave#i’m just going to miss all the stupid little things so much. even my online memories are tied to this place#like the woods down the street where my deer friends live and the ditch i fell into back in the day and all the places i’ve gotten lost#and they’ll be right here waiting for me and i’m SO excited for college i am but why does it have to feel so sudden????#i dont know how anyone does it.. and all my friends are going to colleges in their hometown so i don’t even have anyone to compare with#i found out today that if we keep the house through the winter my mom is planning on using my room as a guest room and office. and of course#that makes sense and everything but now i have the most crushing guilt for not cleaning it up well enough. i thought it would be okay and#i’d just have to deal with it when i come back and i didn’t know she wanted to use it and she’s going to box up all of my things without me#and i feel guilty that i didn’t do that and i feel scared and upset because it’s my things and my room i don’t want it to change#i’m just really anxious and sad and scared and i don’t know what to do. school is going to be good but none of this feels real or normal#and i just feel sick and scared and i don’t know what to do. waking up at 8am and leaving at 9am and moving in at 2pm and that will be it#my mom and sister are staying for a couple days and that will be good i hope. i dont know i feel so conflicted about everything#and i’m tired and sick and angry and overwhelmed and i just want to take a week off and come back alive again#and i guess that’s what i’m about to do.. after i move in there’s eight days before college starts and all i’ll be doing is moving in#(and welcome week activities. and a lot of sleeping. but hopefully i’m gonna get a rollator through a loan program and that will help a lot)#anyway here’s what’s going on. i’m going to maybe try to sleep i guess. but if anyone has advice or encouragement about moving to college..#now is the time i really need it. it’s just so strange and conflicted and everyone i know has been telling me i just need to get out of here#and myself included i really want to get out of here. but how can i start anew when everyone i’ve loved is shattered. and what have you#think i have to listen to that song for long enough to remember how badly i want to leave….#i’m just really not feeling well. i’m angry that i never got to have the childhood i deserved#because now i’m leaving and that means it’s officially over…. i’m just really not feeling well. i think i’m running out of tags….#i hope you all are well. i’ll be around in the morning maybe.. i’m not sure. hope everyone has a good night
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it's wild because over the years i've gone from shipping nive with some degree or other of fluff/happy endings (or at least hopeful ones; or if it does end badly, it's due to external factors) to just unabashedly wanting them to make each other Worse
#lorien legacies#nive#LL nive#LL number nine#LL number five#five's shifting blame for his behavior onto other people/factors versus nine's gleefully seeking out targets to hurt#in situations where the power dynamic is in his favor; or he plans for it to be#and escalating every single time they make any move to set boundaries or push back; or otherwise not take it lying down#because he KNOWS there will not be consequences for his actions; other than a finger wag from someone who does#have the power to do something; because he's the group's ~lovable impulsive jerk~ and everyone will tell victims to ~get used to it~ 🙃#and he keeps doing this and acting like he has that same power in the situation past the point where he doesn't#and is shit at actually evaluating that point; and then goes surprisedpikachu.png when there are ACTUALLY consequences#and then immediately starts trying to gloss it over and act like everything's fine when he KNOWS he fcked up past what was worth it#and then he does it again later!!! his entire relationship to a victim past the point where he can't establish /control/ to hurt them#is a) punishing them for it relentlessly; b) trying to turn other people against them/get said people on his side about targeting them#and c) is constantly CONSTANTLY pushing and pushing and pushing to trap them again where he can hurt them and get away with it#all while their only options are to be punished for standing up for themselves; or finally snapping and lashing out#and getting punished for THAT#they both have yikes beliefs re: potential abuse rhetoric that they need to address to grow past and get better#but i am significantly less sympathetic to nine's bc he fully gets away with it by the narrative's standards#and then DOESN'T address it even when he has years of breathing room; support; and Basic Fckin Maslowe Needs to do so#whereas five's circumstances from the end of UaO onward are... holy shit Not That at All; and extremely do not give him that chance#and EVEN THEN he's still grown beyond the initial steps of unraveling that logic; and continues to improve#whereas nine just gets worse and worse and becomes a MAGA ass piece of shit who has an entire persecuted; genocided race to do this to#anyway. need to write fic about them#lorien legacies tag#LL crit tag#shipping#abuse cw#dyn: lost boys
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Goddamb man I am fucking TIRED
Was so clenched up driving on the highway (fucking merge lanes/multiple routes converging) that my shoulders are KILLING me 😭 I need $200, 6 advil, a massage ASAP sgdgdgdg
#i wasnt even planning on being on the highway lmao i was just driving around for fun and i ended up at a spot like ah shit the only options#are keep going straight and end up on the highway or turn around and i dont wanna turn around... mmm highway it is#and it wasnt bad! i went to a new area and then pulled off and got lost (ofc) but ive been doing this thing where i purposely#get lost driving somewhere new and then have to find my way home without my phone and ive been doing pretty well!#im trying to familiarize myself with routes/directions and visualizing a map like okay im in (south area) and home is northeast im going#west so i need to turn around somewhere and ill be in the right direction at least and that should get me on the right track#it's actually really fun sgdggd i have gotten MORE LOST by taking the wrong exit and ending up downtown or something but i found my way#just fine! :D#marquilla#anyway i had a car up my ass on the freeway and i had to merge going 60mph and god is that terrifying
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Highkey gonna cry I looked up this uni I have to go to on Insta and literally it looks like the worst fit for me
#might actually just take another gap year even if it makes me feel like a failure#do a metal working course in the village become a blacksmith#weld shit together for a living#i got rejected from my first choice and i never bothered looking at my backup option#bc i was so so so sure id get into my first choice#...#anyway#im probably gonna drop out in a week and then just take another gap year lol#its fine everythings fine#hey coach wymack ytf dont you come barrelling into my gym threatening me and giving me a safe space to study#lets be real even if he was fucking real i dont have the talent for it#its feeling a bit like i never tried hard enough so now my life is falling down around me and i have nothing to show for it hours#like#if i had only tried harder for gcses then alevels would have been easier and if id studied at all during alevels maybe id have got into a#good university and maybe if id got into a good university i wouldnt have to go to this one where ill feel like a sore thumb#god is that even the way that phrase is used#and maybe id be happier if only id worked harder to make my life better for myself like#learned something this year and uts that apathy will literally ruin your life#doesnt matter how much i write down my ten year plan if i dont care enough to keep it up in the present its all balls anyway
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simply thinking abt the sopranos finale and how tony’s world goes dark because it’s heavily implied he’s dead yes but his soul is gone too. he has no life left to live, no soul, because the guilt-stricken and sensitive guy of season 1 has been wrung out of him and he’s given in.
#out.#i do genuinely believe that tony began therapy with genuine intentions etc#and there’s so many times where he tries to distance himself from The Life etc but he chooses the easier option of staying in it#i plan to go at length abt how pussy and chrissy are his only authentic connections and we know how that ended#i think a lot abt how tony was physically sick from the idea of pussy being a rat (which he knew abt. he did.) vs#how dead his eyes are when he kills chris#how elated he is etc etc#i love my terrible man……!#anyways i’m on the train thinking abt Him (as always)#may perhaps actually write her when i get back home after dinner and hw but we’ll see!#king midas in reverse.
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drives me crazy when casual employers act like they’re beholden to treat their employees badly even when they ✨don’t want to✨ esp when it’s an under-the-table type situation
like “ooh i can’t deny them work even though i’m the one cancelling on them, so i’ll bend over backwards to make sure they still do the same number of hours” …..or you could. idk. pay them their promised hours and give them the day off anyway on public holidays or if you cancel last-minute
#anyways 🤪#like if they as a person would rather do the work then that’s fine that’s very different#but give them the option?????????????#of like… income security!!?????#it’s like how car insurance can be multiple levels y’know#bomb insurance where they won’t cover damage to your vehicle but they’ll pay for other people’s cars if you crash into them#vs comprehensive where (if eligible) they’ll cover all* costs#like. okay. they’re a casual employee and there’s no contract#but also there’s no oversight and no set minimum wage and thus no guarantee of the +25% casual loading#which is kinda the only income protection for casual employees is that they get paid a bit more#like. dude. you say you care about this person. maybe fucking pay them reliably if it’s your fault#or if they would get public holiday pay in a permanent role maybe like. idk. give it to them?#anyways#rant#you don’t even give them sick leave this is the least you can do!!!! you can fully plan for it and it’s no extra cost to you it’s literally#what you budgeted for!!!!!!
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