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lloronahoelife · 4 months

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Chisme updates🎭

Litteraly been depressed after hearing that ig my ex (actually just a situationship but he called me his ex surprisingly) litterly did admit he left me for his fucking toxic butxh ex.. am i still hung up about him. Yes tf i am he gave me the affection i wanted but he showed me his true bitch asss whore side

Nyways theyr talking about babys and names but the girl who he left me for wanted their babys name after me 🤧 when she litterly fucked me up by going to steal him back (WHICK SHE ADMITTED TOO) but he got mad at that fact and was 'like tf no?? Not naming my kid after my ex' and she got mad cause she though i was just a side peice he was like "tf no" and she throws a fit while he was like yk what "insert her toxic ex name" would be cute as a baby name..SHE GOT PISSED and went off acting victum but my sister friend heared all this while being on the phone and then started poping off cause she hates that girl so much like she told her all the lies ghat that girl made up cause BITCH lemme tell you she did so much messy shit for what?? Like you already stole him back from me i dont want him back anymore girl! You two are toxic made for eachother<3

..but tbh she put it on herself cause girl i havent even talked to both of them i fact anyone bro ive been fucking addicted to tumbler and fortnite for the past month since it hPpened like ZERO CONTACT and this bitch still brings my name to her mouth... calling me a homewreaker and shit like girl thats you! not me!

im a fucking dumbass mostlikey on the spectrum and somehow got rizz but to be called homewreaker without doing so..honestly im honored to be mention that way??😭

🎀i love my name🎀

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bylertruther · 2 years

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people who think will byers hates himself for being gay when will byers is one of the very few characters on the show that has refused to change himself to fit anyone else's idea of what he should be despite the fact that people, including his own father, have been harassing, bullying, and abusing him for it literally his entire fucking life are just...... so weird.

will's entire POINT is that he will survive and brave whatever you throw his way against all odds and come out on the other side of it still clutching on to his sense of self and hope that tomorrow will be a better day. the entire point of his character is that he loves what he loves without apology or shame.

he sings "that weird song he loves" in the middle of hell because it reminds him of his brother and offers him comfort in a place where there is none. he creates art because he loves it and doesn't care if it isn't something boys do, then he gifts it to his friends because he loves them and wants them to know it, too. he loves dnd and writes campaigns and dresses up for them because they bring him joy and he just wants to spend time with his friends even if they think they're "too cool" for it now.

he knows that sometimes it's harder than it should be to be gay in a homophobic society and has been harassed for that literally his entire fucking life it's LITERALLY how they introduce him to us not even twenty minutes into this fucking show and YET !!!!!!! he doesn't back away from that. ever.

he gets picked on for his clothes, but he doesn't change them. he gets called names, but he doesn't make any attempt to conform. his best friend, the boy that he's in love with and his very first friend ever, tells him it isn't his fault that he doesn't like girls and shamefully asks him if he really thought they were going to play games together in his basement for the rest of their lives and never get girlfriends, and what does will do?

he says yeah. i guess i did. i really did.

will faces all of that and goes to a new place where he has the golden opportunity of a clean slate, and what does he do? when assigned to do a presentation on his hero... he picks alan turing of all people. and when his brother later on tells him that he loves him no matter what, essentially giving him the It's Okay To Be Gay I Love You So Much And Always Will talk, still there is no denial on will's part here either.

will has NEVER, EVER denied being gay. he has NEVER tried to change that part of himself. he has ALWAYS stood tall and braved another day even when it was scary and hard. he has ALWAYS remained true to himself even though that has only ever made his life that much harder.

he said that sometimes he feels like a mistake for being so different from other people, but that being loved and accepted makes him feel like he isn't one at all and like he's better for being different and that gives him the courage to fight on.

literally what the fuck are you guys on about when you talk about will being self-hating for being gay. where is the canonical evidence for that? and more than that, why are you so keen on throwing away all of his acts of bravery and the sheer fucking strength of character that he's had since the very beginning? it would've been so much easier for him to conform, to be the "man" that everyone has always pushed him to be, but he doesn't ever do that. he stays true to himself no matter what. so, again, where the hell are these self-hating receipts?!

#will #will byers #byler #HE LITERALLY DID HIS PRESENTATION ON ALAN TURING IN THE FUCKING 80S WHEN HE HAD A CLEAN SLATE!!!!!! HE WAS A NOBODY AT LENORA!!!!!!#AND HE STILL DID IT ON ALAN FUCKING TURING!!! HE SAID THIS IS MY HERO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#HE WAS BULLIED SINCE FUCKING BIRTH FOR BEING GAY AND HE STILL DOES NOT SHY AWAY FROM IT!!!! HE LOVES WHAT HE LOVES!#AND /THAT/ IS WILL BYERS' STRENGTH!!! STOP DENYING ITTTTTTT PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD #JUST BECAUSE A BITCH BE CRYING DON'T MEAN HE HATES HIMSELF BRO SHUT UPPPPPPPP #IT'S NOT SERIOUS BUT IT IS SERIOUS /TO ME/#FBJHFBKJFBKJDB I JUST . GOD. GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!#gatekeeping will byers until ppl learn how 2 act right. srry not srry #he's literally so brave and ppl want to reduce that. WHY!!!!!!!! THAT'S WHAT MAKES HIM SO INTERESTING!!!!#HE WILL NOT FOLD! HE WILL NOT BE ANYONE BUT HIMSELF EVEN WHEN IT'S HARD IT'S LITERALLY SO FASCINATING N BRAVE #WHY ARE SOME PPL SO DESPERATE TO ERASE THT. BITING KICKING THRASHING TEARING THINGS UP W MY TEETH #mine

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earlgodwin · 1 year

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"There are moments where [Juan] manipulates other people in a similar the way they’ve been manipulating him. The scene between Jeremy and myself with the dagger is a last ditch frantic attempt at trying to win [Rodrigo] over." Do you think Juan was genuine in the knife scene? Do you think he would have killed himself? "Yeah I think so. He always does what is true inside him...It wasn’t simply about the eventual confrontation, but all about the richness of this twisted family make-up."

#top 5 scenes that changed the trajectory of my life #it's also the 1st time we see juan vulnerable (2nd time is his final scene where he confesses to ces about how messed up he is all his life #“we were betrayed father!” maybe if ces put his jealousy aside and helped his lil bro by letting him know about ludovico's army #he's so broken and tired. trying so hard to prove he's useful but he has a shitty luck and a jealous megalomaniac big brother #like even from a military stand point ces could've helped juan with the forli mission but noooo he wants juan humilated!#anyway. look at rodrigo being soft to his baby boy!!! he loves him immensely and trying to comfort him :(#david and jeremy not getting their emmy nominations doesn't sit right with me ngl #“i defend this family with my heart and my soul” i was really rooting for juan so bad because he was just a kid and he was Trying #it's why the people who view juan as some sort of villain are hypocritical and need to fuck off the show btw <3 #like he knows he's a fuck-up and the circumstances made him a fuck-up. no one gave him a damn chance. just ganging up on him lol #juan borgia #david oakes #jeremy irons #rodrigo borgia #the borgias #theborgiasedit #perioddramaedit #about juan #juan and rodrigo #by jen

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todayisafridaynight · 4 months

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thinking about vampiric arakawas again just so i can make a 'blood-sucking politician' joke

#snap chats #have i ever posted my vampire arakawa musings. i think i did long ago in a distant land. or at least for halloween vjaERLVKJ #anyway i was having my evening stroll with my dog and thinking about how much i love dark-renaissance age stories and whatever #which is a weird way to lead into vampires since At Least Dracula vampire stories dont start until the victorian - progressive era #though i guess you can do whatever you want with mythical creatures and its not as if vampiric stories cant start during the 1400s either #theyre immortal and Not Real (i hope) so anythings possible theres no need to be super restrictive #i am. literally not getting to the point Point Is it could be funny .....#thats why they cna be really good assassins like just eat your targets tf <- vampires dont eat people #but then of course i have to wonder the implications ... oh ive definitely made this post but im still curious #fuuuck man i wanted to make my joke but i just realized how do i even get to that joke cause i dont think masato would be a vampire #dhampir as i definitely said way back then IF THAT. what were the circumstances wait shut up why are there police next door #bro im too nosy this post is interrupted hang on #not nosy enough to keep watching im bored its probably nothing anyawy. cause i think sawashiro and ikumi woudlve been human #like during the uhhh idk dark ages and maybe arakawa turns sawashiro into a vampire later on but what of masato .....#idk im not gonna think too hard about it. right now just take my blood-sucking politician joke idea we'll figure it out later #stopppp i was wondering about vampires in japanese pop culture but then i rmemebered mandurugo WHICH. are filipino but STILL FOUL #im everywhere im ending the post now bye #wait i have to end this post cause why tf did my bestie send me a tweet being like 'look forward to the future of chao'#since shadow x sonic generations is coming soon LIKE DONT PLAY WITH ME AVBOUT CHAO I DONT PLAY ABOUT THEM FUCKERS #ok im ending the post now for real bye im gonna throw up

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lamentofsorrow · 9 months

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just finished reading a good rindou haitani reader insert fic the way the writer portray rindou there is very good and not very ooc unlike most rindou fics ive read which is very annoying tbh they always write rindou with the fanon version in mind. im really glad that it has no smut in it since the author dislikes it. this is probably the best rindou fic hands down

#yume talks #even tho rindou is rarely shown in tokrev the author of the fic still manage to get his character right #its very hard to find a good tr fic w/ great characterization of the characters esp w/ haitani bros & sanzu #idrk why other writers would characterize the haitani bros as some fuckbois like where did u guys get that?? 💀#plus rin ranked as second best bf in tr chara book #i really think it stems to the reveal of the bonten timeline & when every1 saw that they just went with it #i dont really like that bonten timeline tbh idk why ppl love it so much #also poor sanzu always being portrayed as drug addict & a manwhore its getting boring & so ooc too #i always get a whiplash whenever i go to intl fandom bcs the tr jp community is vastly different than intl #rindou haitani #haitani rindou

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despertara · 8 months

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Irene bro if you see this I want you to know I've been podcasting (talking loudly and emphatically to myself) abt that Grammy Gun post for Hours. I started ranting in the rb tags and then I got so mad I started a spreadsheet on my phone Yes I have the Excel app. No I did not finish my tags

#Pacing around my house ''IN LIEU OF A PERSONALITY TAYLOR HAS A MARKETING STRATEGY AND THAT'S WHY WHITE AMERICANS LOVE HER''#''BC SHE'S A WHITE GIRL NEPOBABY & THEREBY PERFECTLY EMBODIES WESTERN IDEALS: MARTYR COMPLEX + ARYAN PROFIT + QTY>QUALITY + CENTRIST + MID'#''AND IT'S PROBABLY TOO GENEROUS TO CALL HER A CENTRIST WHEN SHE'S NEVER REBUKED THE PPL WHO CLAIM HER AS THEIR ARYAN PRINCESS''#''THE VENN DIAGRAM OF PPL WHO ARE SICK OF HEARING ABT PALESTINE AND PPL WHO CAPE FOR TAYLOR IS ALMOST CERTAINLY A SINGLE PERFECT CIRCLE''#''IN WHAT WORLD IS SHE A TORTURED POET HER WRITING IS ON PAR WITH RUPI KAUR AND— WHO'S EMAILING ME FUCK OFF''#In the shower ''AND ANOTHER THING''#She's the physical manifestation of privileged ppl's desire to be oppressed bc they can't stand when the convo isn't abt them lmfaooooo #''it's hard for skinny white conventionally attractive cishet ppl whose fathers were bankers too!!! Don't erase my truth!!! 😭''#''Taylor is the number one most streamed/whatever artist in the world''#Popularity or notoriety? Bc the US is also well-known for Trump + Texas + public shootings + genocide + wasting money on football stadiums #But again! She's the Western/American Ideal Made Flesh! It's Punk To Have Money And Connections!#And Being White Is The Punkest Of ALL!#Oh my Christ I say this all the time but if university classes have to be offered on her they should be in Marketing and Ethics #She should be a business school case study and that is NOOOT a. Compliment #She couldn't even stick with country bc how truly country of an experience could she have had when her daddy was rich like #She doesn't have the range like idc if you like her just don't act like she's revolutionary when all her movements are calculated + LATERAL #It's not art it's business acumen please she is rewarded by the Grammies bc they respect her for upholding Capitalism I'm so tired #Remember when they gave AOTY to HARRY last year when Beyoncé and Benitito were RIGHT THERE #It's propaganda just like the news plzzzzzzzzzzzz you are all lemmings and she know it which is why she is so good at CONNING YOU #ME N BRO TAG #These are not the comments I wrote on that post you tagged me in btw I got out of the shower to write these FRESH #You know Kacey Musgraves is coming out w a new record too and even tho she got cut out of the CMAs last time she's still proudly country...#I am never drying my hair at this rate #Too busy explaining to you - in complete detail -..........

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mutalune · 3 months

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hey siri how do I stop feeling gutwrenchingly anxious in the guilt way for using the treatment methods available to me to not be in constant misery

#starlight personal #it’s very bizarre to have my life going objectively well - work is good! personal life is good! family is good!#and still be very mentally ill and feel like I’m faking it even though I know damn well I ain’t scream-sobbing every couple of days alone in #my apartment for attention because What Attention??? my cat????? Bug is never moved by my tears she cares only for string and wires #like I know that cannabis has been immensely helpful to getting me to fucking sleep on a regular schedule and that’s integral to -#my functioning and I know that having emergency klonopin in the event of a total breakout is helpful #and I KNOW that my PMDD and depression and anxiety are very treatment resistant and ketamine is the only thing that’s provided any -#meaningful relief and logically I know I’m not abusing any of these #I’m getting a promotion at work I still go out to see friends regularly I have hobbies I have a girlfriend (??? Wild right)#like clearly these things are working because i’m better now than i was for years leading up to now #SO LIKE. DON’T STOP USING THE THINGS THAT HELP. LOGICALLY THIS MEANS THESE ARE GOOD FOR ME #I always roll my eyes when ppl go off their meds b/c they’re feeling better like babes that’s what the meds are meant to do #if you stop taking them you stop feeling better - but it’s REALLY HARD to get past the cultural conditioning #the feeling that ‘but I can white knuckle my way through this I can force myself to live without’ like WHY BITCH #WE DON’T HAVE TO LIVE WITHOUT #AND ALSO. WE’RE STILL GENERALLY MISERABLE BRO. EVEN WITH OUR LIFE IN A BETTER PLACE!!!#DO YOU NOT THINK THIS MEANS THAT WE SHOULD USE WHAT WE KNOW WORKS TO BE LESS MISERABLE #basically it’s really hard to not feel like a loser when the only things that help are ‘fun’ drugs like weed and psychedelics #I feel like I’m being a hedonistic reprobate which 1) is actually kinda cool now that I wrote it out #2) @ myself were not a good enough liar-faker that every medical professional we see wouldn’t pick up on that if that was our motivation #time to remind myself that it’s arrogant to think I could trick many trained professionals without actively trying tbh #that generally helps me get out of my self-pitying ‘ohhhhh I’m awful and lazy and bad and abusing substances’ spiral #to be very mentally ill on main it is weirdly reassuring to be like ‘just as my fanon interpretation of obi wan kinda hates himself but is -#practical enough to take care of himself even when it makes him cringe and want to scratch his face off; I too am aware that self-care is -#radical and punk and In Fact Necessary to beat back the dark and live in the light with hope so yes even though I doubt and -#feel squiggly and guilty about it I’m not going to NOT prioritize my health and well-being b/c self-hatred and self-denial benefits no one’#thank you inner obi wan i love projecting my issues onto you mwah mwah mwah smooches for my favorite boy!!!!!#and smooches for me I’m going to be proud of myself gosh darn it even if I have to fake it at first #see I wouldn’t be able to be nice to myself like this if I hadn’t been doing ketamine treatment for a year IT WORKS BRO KEEP IT UP #SCHEDULE THE DAMN APPOINTMENT AND CLEAN YOUR BONG

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chiistarri · 6 months

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imsoo normal about guys byw

#sprry this is the start of my downfall im actually going to theow up and vomit and die #fronting daily actually sucks!and i have no restraint on my curiiusity and i have to figure shit out and i literally want to die #cause like i found out shit i didnt want to and its entirely my fault too bro i cant even be upset cause i went looking for it ughhh #i should be allowed to die afterschool so i dont have to feel anything else tbh thatd be a pleasure great thing whwatever #this is genuinelky the repeat of my downfall again literally september all over again and its just march jesus fucking fhrist bro need todi #the nervous system is so dumb what is ooottfvgvsh or whagevr i hate that dumbass acronym i hate healrhcare #serenity save me 🙏 save me serenity 🙏 come home #everyone keeps sayng that but qith donald trump #anyway back to me i need to scream and not just to serenity cause i feel bad🤭 no emojis are tood enougu anymore bro im going to kms #killing myself so fucking hard like a vampire driving a stake through his heart sort of shit ykwim like a siren drowning ro sokething poeti #save me sid 🙏 sid save me actually hed laugh at me for hthis lowkey which is soo deserved cause real bro why am i breaking down at midnight #on a dchool day too bro again and again i dont want to go to mf schooll and be obsessed w k. hes fine but i genuinely cant do my work #lowkey would iet be weird to talk to my ex ab my relationship with him cause like yea i miss him ykwim and i need closure but i got a crush #cause like on one hand its like i was the one who brokenup ykwim like even if the circumstances werewei4d whatever its like why would i hav #the right to even bring it up and i alr crushed on a new guy and like ignoring the uguult i do like him ughh broni want to kms #i love love i just dont love lvoe for myself cause ugh bro i hare one guy idc ab his crushes but he made me hear ab them lke idc idek him #sorry u had a bad experience w bi girls like idk what u want me to say ??? surprise me too ??? tff ugh i hate love girls #i need a gf but the thoigjt of liking a girl genuinely deeply scares me to my core cause i like girls but ppl dont like that i do ykwim #all mu friends are fucking gay bro idek why im so worried ab liking girls like who is there to disappoint but myself and my entire family #noo pressure qt all being oldest and queerest like ok yeah its midnight happy new years. i need this blanket tobsuffocste me #sleep wrappedup alr like a borito burito i dek and its not enoughh i need a soul crushing embrafe to sleep #ok im done i got post vent clarity i need to sleep #post #erics tag #delete later #serenity needs this as a ref in the morning #i beed my mom to cry to but j cant tell her any of this id rather be eaten alive by bugsbro and if i just cry to her without a reason #shell fs go througj my phone and fimd out why anyway so wjats the pointtt my god i tqlk too much and vent too much #gota flair forbthe dramatics ivguess mb

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strwbrymlkshake · 2 years

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Why can't I be satisfied with everything? It needs to be perfect to me and I can't accept anything otherwise :(

#mine #oh boy here we go. guy last post was about has been pretty cool and i got flustered around him a few times #but i feel bad bc. i need m o r e he isnt insane enough he isnt making me go absolutely crazy i want to be satisfied but im NOT im sorry #like its quite honestly the most attention acceptance etc ive gotten but its not ENOUGH he doesnt die whenever i send a selfie #im never satisfied WHY i have unrealistic expectations !!!! i hate my brain killing and violence and death etc #i get crushes on guys who want nothing to do with me but then when one actually wants me its not enough? what is wrong with me #thrill of the chase? i cant accept being loved? what is it brain. christ almighty. im not doing anything like deliberately yandere related #anymore im just being generally incomprehensibly mentally ill 🙄 still trying to find a therapist but idk how on earth ill explain that #ill update this post tomorrow with more insanity but for now i am the sleepy tired #// ok its now 3 days later i dont feel like making another post. i think i was just having a mental illness moment as always #because he does make me insane. hashtag girl. im trying to be the smartest and calculated i have ever been with a relationship in my life #like im thinkin about it so hard bro. the future n shit. how would this relationship go. im so scared ill do something wrong its preventing #me from doing things RIGHT. im sad becaude i flipped out today over even imagining him being upset with me a little #so i was really embarrassed and it put me in a weird mood for the rest of the night but he reassured me he doesnt hate me or want me to die #every one aaalways says theyre different. i can only hope this one is telling the truth. i dont know what ill do if he isnt.#well i need to stop whining about fictional scenarios and focus on the good stuff in reality. i get along with him very well and he #is very niceys to me :3 he doesnt think im fucking insane or stupid for overreacting. i feel very comfortable gossiping and talking w him #every long time blog viewer of mine reading this like ah shit here we go again #but thats what im here for. i guess. just have to keep doing this shit until something good finally happens to me romantically hngh #i feel so strange because i have wanted and yearned for a relationship but now that i actually could have one im like WAIT #I DIDNT THINK ID GET THIS FAR 💀💀💀 bruh. and he doesnt even think im stupid hes respectful to me he checks in on me all the time #like perhaps the only person to ever actually almost match my energy in a romantic sense. there was [redacted] i guess but he didnt love me #he listens to me talk about my problems he doesnt think i complain or overreact too much. all the ridiculous cringe shit i do #he doesnt mind it. its nice to be able to be myself. and im really proud of myself for not rushing into a relationship right away

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whimsicalcotton · 11 months

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dude there's straight up drugs in this album

#going so unbelievably insane rn. shdsjhfkdsjfkhdjlafjdhfghjd #pandemonium! i want it funny now!! don't look at me i'm just too dumb!!! why am i so tiny and why am i so mad!!!! SGFDSJDJHGSJ!!!!!!!#def a headphones album and bitches Love a headphones album (its me i'm bitches)#and v tasty percussion. you know it's good percussion when it immediately sends me into a regret spiral about picking trumpet over drums #but also i was stimming so fucking hard bro that's some fullbody percussion my dude. [chef's kiss] Magnifique #tbqh this album hit me right in the high school bone as a whole. maybe man is going straight to the [redacted] playlist #and it even had a song i straight up could not listen to after i heard like 3 lines. and i mean that in a good way #hrrhgk. Thots and Pheelings #nebular.txt

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funky-lil-ghost · 2 years

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wHY must transphobia exist. im going to explode

#see on a logical level i know why #i mean i was RAISED in it so #but still #grrrrr #my classmate who i thought was cool brought up her trans lesbian friend as a fucking PRAYER REQUEST #i have never been more upset to sit through prayer man #and if that wasn’t enough #another classmate brought up demi lavato ‘turning’ non-binary as some kind of awful thing #like bro. i am right here. granted you have no idea that i am non-binary but. i am RIGHT HERE #fuck christian excuses for bigotry fuck using my religion to oppress my queer family fuck this stupid private christian school #sorry for venting in the tags i just need to tell someone. on break in class trying to remind myself that i have a right to be upset #i don’t need to sit quietly because i’m wrong #i just need to stick it out with this shit because bringing it up would only cause more problems #man #why can’t we all just love and accept queer people #why is it so fucking hard #i know it’s possible. my fucking church at home does it. my parents do it.#but SOME PEOPLE #hhhhhhhh im just upset #so so glad to be graduating soon so i can get the fuck out of here

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thelastsirenssong · 1 year

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Jean Kirstein send tweet

#BRO I FORGOT.... HE.#he's so #yk when Eren was like oh you're just doing this shit to get into the interior? fuckass #and Jean was like dude kiss MY ass please you think you can beat the TITANS???!?!?!?!?!? LMFAOOOOO #like dude was right #no one should have questioned Jean #and he STILL took the reins during the battle of trost he was like fuck it guys we go hard or we go hOME #home being of course the heavenly realm the sand place all eldians go to or whatever LMFAOOO BECAUSE THEY WERE FUCKED #and Jean still said nope. WE RIDE MFS!!!!#and for thaf he deserves yk the titangrip 1000 whatever you get the idea #I fucking. LOVE Jean he's my king #Armin being the like new commander shit or whatever when Jean was gearing up over the course of the show to be an excellent leader was #some fucking BULLSHIT like WHY build his relationship with Eren like that just to make him another side character like fucking CONNIE #whatever Isayama eat my ass for that one #Armin should have been the next HANJI. JEAN the next Erwin and MIKASA the next Levi #but y'all not ready for THAT conversation #Jean fucks idgaf #Jean 'oh shit this all actually has purpose and meaning if I want it to and I had to lose my city and my best friend to see it' is so #it's just amazing writing to create a new leader who was INSPIRED fo lead first by Eren and the Mikasa and THEN Armin #and he should have fucked them all and become the survey corps leader WHAT I SAID WHAT I SAID #mmm....c......comm....commander Jean....?#yeah dude #yeah oh I FUCK with that HEAVY #bc Erwin was usually the brains behind the operation and while Jean didn't have that? he had the same drive #to stand for the fallen #idk anyway that's my jean rant #back to the cave HAHA

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bluehwale-main · 1 year

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hellooo ik its me again spamming inbox again 😁 ykw ykw

i miss u like i legit miss u sm that like i feel like my day is incomplete without talking to u it feels like a hollow yk that emptiness u get after finishing a kdrama thats what im feeling as i write this (becoming too much in love behaviour but its fine cuz i love uu nd being a liz simp is better than living alone without love in ur lifee) that without talking to feels like my day is incomplete but ik u are taking time off to collect ur thoughts achieve mental peace (hoping u get it during ur time off ) nd become calm nd ik how badly negative comments affect a person cuz they never get forgotten they just get buried nd come up whenver u get into a bad headspace but its fine we all get into bad headspaces go thru hard times nd i believe in u can get thru it u can nd take as much time as u need i will waiting for u with open arms to embrace u nd let u rest

nd ykw in a span of 4days sm things happened first i finished all the movies of to all the boys i have loved before but i didnt watvh xo kitty cuz they should made it as a netflix original movie instead of making it as a kdrama + eng series (i rly dont like eng series never watched any 😭😭 cuz i dont feel the connect the way i feel with kdramas ) nd after finishing i was like 😭😭 how do i get such a sweet guy (its an dream which no guy would be able to fulfill ) anw moving on

i tried to talk or more likely comfort a guy he is going thru hard time i can see it on jis fsce no matter how much he tries to mask it it can be seen in his expression nd eyes 😭( i dont like but as a genuine frnd im concerned abt him as i wasnt talking to him for a week ( i get too tired ti socialize in thr evening 😞that i dont text anyone ) so i wrote this a huge block of texting with some advice with some caring words okay nd telling everything will be fine nd all i sent it after 2minutes i was like this is so cringe 😭😭😭😭😭 nd i was like i sound like a girl who has a crush on him ( i dont 😭hes the type of person who has a huge ego nd i dont like egoistic ppl but to me he doesnt shows ego idk why 🥴🥴nd he is kinda dumb )

nd after i deleted i was like think ren thinkkk sm thoughts were going on in my mind like i HAVE NEVER IN MY LIFE COMFROTED A GUY let alone have a guy frnd even tho i had one he confessed to me nd the friendship turned into dust 😭 nd from the start i always had female frinds even tho i have some guy frnds but we arent close to be considered frnds like classmate things ykk nd with the guy i wanted to comfort he considers me his frnd but i dont 😭 i have a very peculiar criteria of considering ppl as frnds 😭 but it is what it is so at last i texted him be well nd take care nd i also said it is overhelming to u atm but it will become better trust me he said see u soon i read nd didnt reply cuz idk.what to say 😭😭 nd ykw i suck at comforting guys cuz with girls its like u can say ily to them nd write a long ass message for them nd yk its a connect 😭 like i want a guy who genuinely is only intrested im friendship not in f2l nd i cant even say a guy i love u randomly if i trying to comfort them they might take it literally nd another trouble 😭😭 well i have never said that i dont plan to 😭 anw take careeee have a good day

#ren u r making me shed Real tears rn #i love u sm like if anyone tries to be the number 1 ren simp I WILL FIGHT THEM #BCS THATS MY SPOT #NO ONE ELSE’S!!!!!!!!#and omg i also watched xo kitty for shits n giggles HELPPP LMAO but i agree with u a 100% bro #no u’re so right bcs no sweet guy exist #like i’ve come to terms w it now :’-)#NO BCS #FRIENDSHIP WITH GUYS ARE SO HARD TO MAINTAIN FOR SOME REASON????? BCS ONE DAY THEY’LL JUST BOOM CONFESS THEIR UNDYING LOVE TO U #ITS SICK #LIKE #I THOUGHT WE’RE HOMIES I THOUGHT WE’RE BUDDIES WHY R U IN LOVE W ME NOW💀#not wanting f2l with guys is so true like…. i just want a FRIEND how hard is it bro 😭😭#okay but u’re good at comforting ppl <3 whoever tht guy is should be HONORED #also #men with big ego <<<<<<<#not it #glad u dodged a bullet kinda 😭😭#I LOVE U AND I LOVE UR STORIES MY SLEEP DISAPPEARED IM SO INVESTED NOW

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todayisafridaynight · 1 year

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uhhh something something 'the only time a yakuza should laugh with his teeth is when he's with family or in trouble' something something arakawa gradually doing so more and more when hanging around jo something something Uh Oh™️

#arasawa #snap chats #DO WE GET WHAT I MEAN.#im not arguin semantics rn just listen to me im gripping you by the shoulders reader #it can go either way A.) arakawa gradually seeing jo as a part of his persoanl family opposed to The General Family #B.) you know how in fanfics theres that 'Oh. /Oh./' trope Yeah. i want big man to realize he's a lil doki doki for one of his guys #why the fuck i frame it like these arent in the same vein I CANNOT THINKKKKKK STRAAAIGHT #BUT NOOOO LISTEEENNNN i know bro would be SOOO conflicted. dare i say... he'd be in trouble SEE DO WE SEE WHAT IMEA #ok you can stop looking at me. im delirious. insane. delulu. its cause i cant draw rn its hard and my head hurts #ive been struggling with this idea for. WEEKS. i CANNOT find a way to make a comic out of it and its making me loco and mad #so im just throwing it out into the ether as Free Real Estate if anyone else wants a crack at it. or yk just so i can share it #LIKE THERE'S SOMETHING HERE I KNOW THERE IS I AM BRUSHING IT WITH MY FINGERTIPS BUT I CANNOT GRAB IT #you know it fuckin bad when i actually make a text post about it thats how you know Im At My Limit #driving me insane....... i just need everyone to know im rotating them like SSBB trophies....#anyway. yeah youre right i still havent drawn shit #UUUGGGHHHHH should... or shold i sleep....#let me try to force myself to sketch something and then ill run to my car and sleep there or somethin #idk. anyway bye i love the old people

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chisatowo · 2 years

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The grizzco splatana <33333

#rat rambles #splat posting #Im going to absolutely suck ass with it Im sure but Im still excited #bestie is gonna fucking evaporate cohozuna like holy shit #and it pierces armor too like??? its like the grizzco sloshet but probably easier to pick up #not easy mind you but easier #also rip to the big swig that kit fucking sucks bro #and it honestly looks a lil pathetic in general? I imagine itll have to more so play to poke rather than go full murder #which if thats what theyre going fot then maybe tjats why they pyt wall and vac on it but I still dont thing thatll work out for it well #oh also the wiper buff is so fucking cool I might try picking it up again tbh #my main issue with it had always been its paint and now its paint is just fucking spectacular #also the new big run songggggggg god it bangs so hard #already seeing ppl complaining abt it too as Im sure ppl will always do with new salmon run music til the end of time djdjgskdh #also Im gonna need to check a bunch of song names now that we have them I love the idea of the song credits at the opening of a battle #anyways if anyone would wanna play salmon run with me hmu Im gonna be trying to get back on the grind leading up to this grizzco weekend #and also big run ofc #also for marooners bay or whatever its called welcome back worstie Im sure Ill want you as dead as in 2 <3333 #I just want her back (arc polaris)#but yeah the grizzco splatana isnt wjat I was expecting it to be but Im not complaining #I was expecting a faster splatana but I got the pathetic range right at least fudjdhdkh

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butchlifeguard · 2 months

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primrose's ch3 is GOOD btw

#fucking simeon bro.......#i cant yap too hard without doing spoilers so heres another tag to fill space lalalala #ot1 spoilers #octopath spoilers #ANYWAYYY it starts with primrose coming back to her hometown which is already pretty strong #seeing a guy Fucking dying which is a great way to establish the harm done by the obsidian people and establish their power #.because if they didnt have a great amount of political power simeons entire motivation would fall through #but in the flashbacks he was sooo fucking good the writing (+ eng translation) did a good job of creating a gray area #between 'nice guy who is also courteous because primrose is a noble' and 'creep who might have a slightly overbearing crush on this kid'#bc shes like. 8 right ? and hes old enough to work as a gardener w/o his parents also being in service of the azelharts #so probably 17 at least?#ok um. i just looked up his age on the wiki and i dont know what the fuck is going on there #i didnt spoil myself but why is he 126.#anyway i actually feel like thats worse 💀#and then his breakdown calling himself primroses one true love..#shes so good i love the contrast between everyonee calling her beautiful + whatever the fuck helgenish and simeon were doing #and her showing no romantic interest in anyone. romance repulsed icon tbh #3 people this chapter were like 'lady primrose you have grown so beautiful since we last saw you' and shes like 😐#coming back around to simeons twist villain shit they went OFF reinforcing primroses performer theme #'the crowd gasps' etc etc. DAMN BRO #a lot of her story is theatrical drama coded ime. like with the ending narration saying 'tragic or happy ending'#she does seem like a dark take on a princess archetype which is cool #anyway the actual use of the game is good here too #the dark screen after she gets knocked out with the perfectly timed music??#and the flashbacks and the use of the titles on peoples speech bubbles #because the shift from 'simeon' to 'simeon the puppet master' kind kf made me lose it a little bit #RIGHT BEFORE the flashback where hes just 'gardener' ? yeah thats a banger #overall this is fairly simple good storytelling but it all comes together along w the actual game mechanics to make one of my...#... favorite chapters so far. plus im really excited for her ch4 now.

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