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brother-genitivi · 2 months

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sorry everyone, I'm very much alive 🏃‍♂️

sorta homeless, staying with a friend. got a house in my name from the 19th onwards so that's chill! chronically ill, too fatigued to do a lot of things but I'm trying 🤟 kind of accepting that I'm joining the disability club.

trying my hand at art again, but very very slowly easing back into it. appreciate those who reached out to me <3

thinking about you all. missed my moots :)

#cheeky life update x #very. very sorry for not being active here #i hope you're all doing well #want to start posting about things I like again :') like wayhaven. mass effect. lotr. etc etc etc etc there's too many to list shhshaha #i am very much okay btw aside from the chronic stuff. like I'm safe with my friend. signed the lease to my house for 2nd year at uni!#just. ill. and fatigued. not hospital sending ill but still trying to recover from january. it's going slowly :(#ed mention -> an*rexia is a bitch to deal with. am trying! like I said recovery is. v slow. but I'm trying 🤟

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toruq · 1 year

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#sso #star stable online #ssoblr #sso linda #linda chanda #linda's purple glasses #sso anne #anne von blyssen #my art #well i must be honest in that i've been spending a lot of time wishing that i would wake up in the hospital #with no responsibilities besides eat sleep and go potty #like #life is so simple in there #and i feel the same kind of tired that i do when im hooked up to morphine in an iv #but real life exists and i have to worry about relationships uni family work living in new country soon #and on top of it all #just more traumatic stuff #that #has recently been hard to process #and i have to process it for anything to get better #and for this stuff to stop happening #at least stop happening from the handful of people who cause it #but for the rest of the world #it is still fucked #its just been feeling like quite the isolating time as of late #i have me my lindas in life #but fuck i need a concorde right now.#concorde is technically self... though #i need my conscience on my side

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i-like-rocks22 · 1 year

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Dear non-UK fic writers; you're all wonderful and I love you, but if you ever want a native Brit to give your Harry Potter or GO fanfic (or hell, any fic with someone from the UK in) a read for Britishisms I am 100% happy to help.

It's just that I recently read a fic where someone said that bangers and mash is a breakfast food and I want to HELP.

#this is absolutely nothing to do with writing quality #you all write a million times better than me #this is literally just an offer to fill you in on the weird shit we say #come one come all let me tell you of banter and cheeky nandos and the dogs bollocks #harry potter #harry potter fanfiction #fanfic #good omens #GO #fyi bangers and mash is sausages and mashed potato and is eaten solely as a dinner meal #unless you're a uni student who's lost control of their life #ao3 #fanfiction #dramione #drarry #ineffable husbands #ineffable idiots #ao3 stuff

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lunar-wandering · 2 months

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head hurty

#was up so fucking late last night stressed out of my mind #cause it turns out all the stress and sacrifices i made for the foundational course i took??#all for fucking nothing #''the waitlist hasn't moved.'' yeah cause y'all brought in way more foundations students #than u actually had the diploma course space for #and like. theres nothing else i can fucking do.#if i try to get into a university i'd have to do something like a foundations course all over again #and have to do a bunch of shit i have no interest/talent in in order to get to the stuff i DO have interest/talent in #which is just fucking stupid. why the fuck is it set up like that.#if i'm trying to get into a uni creative writing course why the FUCK do i need to take SCIENCE #and i can't do online courses that are just writing. cause i can't fucking FOCUS in an online course #and any other course i might be interested in are in schools that are too damn far away and that i cant afford #so basically. i can do fucking nothing.#but once i tell my parents that the waitlist hasn't moved and that im definitely not gonna make it in #they're going to start HOUNDING me. even more than they already constantly do #im gonna have to sit through 3 hours of them yelling at me to ''stop pretending to be an idiot'#and to ''pull my life together''#and that ''everyone has to do stuff they don't like sometimes''#(yeah well my brain doesn't work like that. if i dont like the subject of the course i literally CAN'T LEARN)#(i will just straight up not retain any of the information and just be annoyed and stressed and upset the whole time)#and my parents will tell me im gonna end up living under a bridge for the thousandth time #and then they'll threaten to kick me out of the house/take away my internet for the millionth time #and then this will happen every day until i get into SOMETHING

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hella1975 · 8 months

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we may have lost another one to the bisexual hotgirl and straight loserboy agenda but trust i am fighting it comrades 🫡

#IM TRYINGGGGG. the fuck of it all is that we've been going on dates on and off for WEEKS now #and i said to him at the start im not looking for anything serious and there's a chance he might be mugging himself off #bc i am just NOT emotionally available and low and behold we were at the pub the other night and wound up having a pretty #serious talk about how ive really liked getting closer to him and i genuinely enjoy our time together but i just cant see anything #serious coming of it NOT BC OF HIM BC GENUINELY I FEEL LIKE IVE MET MY MATCH WITH THIS BOY #NO ONE IRL CAN BANTER WITH ME LIKE HE CAN AND THAT IS SUCHHH A CRUCIAL BOX TO TICK WITH ME #but i just dont think im mentally or emotionally in the place for a relationship and i dont like him ENOUGH to fight for it #like it's been v illuminating v much that 'you never realise just how mentally ill you are until you try persuing a romantic relationship'#bc DAMN. i feel insane like why cant i just be normal about things and enjoy nice things and people in my life #BUT despite me saying all this to him and TRYING NOT TO BE THE ASSHOLE he has fully admitted that he likes me SO MUCH #that he'd like to keep going on dates and stuff regardless of the end result. like he genuinely just likes my company #and will take it in any capacity he can get he literally SAID that he's whipped for me 😭#and im like HOW DO I WIN HERE. IF I TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THAT IM AN ASSHOLE BUT CUTTING HIM OFF ISNT FAIR EITHER #AND I LIKE OUR LITTLE DATES AND BEING SPOILED AND HAVING SOMEONE BE A LITTLE OBSESSED WITH ME #SORRY IF THAT MAKES ME A BAD GUY. GOD FORBID WOMEN DO ANYTHING #ughhhhhhh. so yeah we're going on another date tonight. shoot me i dont care!!!!#hella goes to uni

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thursdayg1rl · 1 month

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results day tomorrow Idek what to do

#when it was gcses I stayed up all night #but then you don’t have to do anything after you get those #like I’ll probably have to fucking call up different places and stuff #also I actually did well in gcses #honestly kind of numb to it like idk where my life is going and I don’t really care either nothing matters anymore #I waited for this day for so long like literally years of my life have been #well I need to do well in these exams so I can finally finally leave #but it was too long and I just got exhausted and stopped caring about improving my life #now I will probably have to spend another year here I can’t take it anymoreee #to the point where I don’t even want to do anything outside of rotting all day anymore #I remember I used to be so excited about finally leaving and getting to do all the things I used to dream about. sad!#maybe some miracle might happen and I get into uni and maybe regain some will to live #who knows who knows

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sipsteainanxiety · 2 months

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mha nation how yall doin

#in light of recent leaks… ahem. im gna keep my damn mouth shut and take pro hero bkg to his therapy #anyways… heyyyyyy #so. one year later.. yes i am alive. some updates on my life:#fell out of mha fandom and into one or two others #graduated uni and am now in my gap year aiming to start a md program next spring/fall #made a twitch account not too long ago to be silly and play video games. i only got 18 followers LMFAO #if any1 wants the user u can dm me or send me an ask or smth. might drop a link on the blog later down the line. moots im staring at u #recently went over some bkg wips and i miss him so bad #will i finish my bkg wips? someday yes. dragon bkg is my baby and i WILL finish it #but at the moment i am rotting <3 #i see all ur asks and while i will not reply to all (so that i dont clog dash) i appreciate those of u who reached out! i rly do!!#i havent really been in the mood to write recently for some reason #tho i have been writing for um. redacted fandom over the last year #‘but shay whats redacted’#well if u really want to know check out ‘lunarmoves’ on tumblr/ao3 #and dont judge me until u’ve read some of the stuff ive written/art ive rbed #and if u r curious as to how i ended up in that fandom……….. i read a fic on ao3. it was so good it rerouted my entire brain #the rest is history #anywayz sorry for disappearing!#it will happen again /hj #im more active on that other blog at the moment #go to sleep shay it's late o'clock #might answer some asks tn idk #feeling whimsical tn i guess LOL #i wouldve dropped my alt blog sooner but i truly thought it would be a short phase #it was not #1 year later im still there. partially.#it is a very nice fandom c: i didnt want to leave LOL #also i didnt want to mix that blog with this anime one #you;ll know why if u peep at my alt blog. it is two very VERY different fandoms

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uygfiug · 2 months

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thought my school was finally going to try & help me next year but it sounds like theyre just trying to get me to act normal without actually helping

#idk it all sounds very familiar #i have to 'prove i can do things i dont want to do' and theyre going to help me 'fix my behaviour bc uni wont tolerate it'#but the behaviour they mean is just me being disabled #its about how i freeze up sometimes i think #and i cannot bring myself to do whatever im supposed to #sometimes i cant even move or speak #thats the behaviour they mean #but i cant just make that go away #ive been trying all my fucking life #also??? i go to school every fucking day?? does that not count as proving i can do things i dont want to do #surely they dont think i want to be there #idk man this is exactly the kinda stuff they said in primary school before they started punishing me for being disabled #like giving me extra work bc i froze or something #or send me away to work alone in a room & not talk to any of my peers bc i didnt manage to talk to the teacher #force me to make eyecontact for a full 10 minutes while giving me a lecture about why eyecontact is so important #or not allow me to go outside for breaks #that kinda stuff #it sounds like they have the same idea?#so im very worried about going back to school in september #they were supposed to attempt to help more this year as well but outside of one thing they didnt really do anything #and now they want to 'be more firm about it' ????#i dont trust that #mine #also !! ive been getting told all my life that whatever the next stage is they wont tolerate my behaviour there #in primary they said id never get past first year in secondary #in secondary they say i wont get through uni this way #seems to me that really its fine #yeah i need help sometimes #but also i could probably go to uni & itll be fine #ill have my diagnosis & ill figure out who i need to talk to & how i can get the help i need

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bueris · 4 months

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okay maybe I should seriously reconsider my path in life and sell my soul to marketing or journalism instead

#okay venting in the tags you are very welcome to ignore or not respond to it i just need to yell somewhere #i always thought id be an art therapist because well i care about people and want to help them and love art #but everyday i wake up feeling like a fraud and an imposter so like. should i really be doing all that when im not entirely #certain i cpuld handle it??? like i know i haven't gotten the meaty bit of the education towards that yet but like #university costs a disgusting amount of money here and if i pick the wronf thing im likely doomed forever thanks to awful government #i know things could get better like they did after thatcher but honestly im not putting any bets on it considering how the current labour #party is so like if i fuck up here im basically dead #also can i actually do art uni. like could i cope with that. im deeply unethused with art at the moment and honestly will i evwr be #idk #it was jusr a thing i always did but education around it is fucking soul sucking #also the emotional weight of hearing and solving people's problems as a therapist. i would consider myself quite empathetic for the most #part i feel other people's pain quite strongly and obviously as a therapist id be feeling that quite a bit so could i actually cope with it?#ik therapists have therapists but still #i mean im doing work experience at an occupational therapy place so ill just be extra inquisitive about it all to make sure im going #the way i wanna #I'll be fine by the end of a levels ill probably understand what i want in life #if not then gap year to work it out #should probably look at unis for english language too then #sigh #ucas website i may as well marry you #ill be okay im getting in my head about stuff im actually pretty good at art even if there are things i can improve on (like patience lol)#yeah maybe the voice telling me i suck doesnt know shit and should shut up #yeah #shut it nasty voice you're wrong actually!!! im doing just fine and you're being overly critical #they should make a brain that's your friend and not mush that hides the amalgamation of every bad thing ever in its crevices #crevices shoyild be filled with kindness and love.#sex jokes about that #why the fuck is yahoo mail syncing i dont use you you washed up search engine #bue waffling #vent post

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dr3amyd0lly · 5 months

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Correction: you are just pussy, womb, and tits.

Do any of your friends know how badly you want to be bred, or is this all secret?

my friends and i have talked about wanting kids in the future, but they kind of laughed at me when i said i wanted to start young lol. and there's a guy i've been talking with who said that he thought creampies were really hot and i told him i agreed :)

#i don't really have any male friends and all my girl friends have really high grades and want to go to uni and stuff #i think i'm better suited to the housewife life

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belleandsaintsebastian · 5 months

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#arfghgghg i just need to get over this stupid. health anxiety its fucking. ruining my life i literally think i'm going to die from (insert #random symptom) like every day its insane and i hate the way it gets worse when i've just finished like. a big project at uni or my stress #levels over something have dramatically dropped and suddenly my brain is like :) let's invent something for u to worry about....#i fucking!!!!!!!HATE OCD so much. anyways going 2 the doctor this week 2 get smth #checked out. i'm freaking out a bit but!!! i dont even know i feel so stupid all the time aghhhhhh i wish i could just. stop feeling this #constant state of dread and anxiety and a need to constantly be occupied by stuff or i'll just die or something idk ://

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weirdgirlbymommylonglegs · 1 year

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there’s being a teenage girl in your 20s then there’s whatever the fuck the babyface by sorry mom experience is

#i absolutely hate the phrase ‘teenage girl in your 20s’ idea it’s infantilising and will only stunt yr mental + emotional development #because if you keep doing that you’ll be 30 something saying shit like ‘i’m a 21 year old in my 30s’ which just sounds worse lol #and so on #and it’s not exactly a new phenomenon either bc women (mainly) will say they’re 21 with x amount of years extra experience #it’s just. idk. the obsession with perpetual yourh looks worse on people who are already young i guess #anyway back to babyface sorry mom. the album of all time; resonates with the ‘teenage girl in your 20s’ idea #(which for me has always been about being directionless and lost in life and feeling younger because you can see all your other 20-something #friends grow up and get jobs and finish their degrees n shit. and that makes you feel younger; almost teenager like)#(whereas i see a lot of people saying ‘teenage girl in my 20s’ as a way of almost bragging about being immature??#like not knowing how to do things or speak on certain subjects #stuff like ‘when he talks to me about the economy but i’m #literally a teenage girl in my 20s’ LIKE DO YOU NOT HEAR YOURSELF??#and of course i’m not shaming people for not knowing shit i mean look at me. i can’t drive i have no job and i dropped out of uni #but the REFUSAL to learn is astounding. like people think they can get away with being deliberately oblivious because they have #the self-proclaimed mentality of a teenage girl. and how do you think Actual Teenage Girls feel about people assigning their demographic as #being oblivious and vapid and lacking awareness #you know. traits that have historically been assigned to teenage girls that I Can Actively Remember trying to not associate with.#and my female peers were also arguing against as teenagers.#i dunno. in the words of tame impala it feels like we only go backwards)#long tags #kaycore #(fuck it. putting this in the sorry mom tag)#sorry mom band #babyface sorry mom

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straightlightyagami · 9 months

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i’m actually totally dogshit at studying i just kinda Logic my way through exams. plus i have an okayish/pretty good memory so i’ll generally remember the stuff i saw (except memorizing formulas actually takes a bit more effort. which is why something like physics is harder for me whereas recall based humanities classes were easy af bc i could just remember the whole chapter from reading it once. i guess that means im a wordcel or whatever they say)

#iso.txt #most unhinged thing i ever did was studying for the uni entrance exam (or one section of it) by reading the entire textbook the day before #i got 80% lmfao which is fine ig since i had never seen most of the stuff before in my life #(80% on that part of it)#it was a stem subject though #i feel like i should also clarify i did actually prepare for the other sections bc my mom made me go to this prep class thing #but i didnt go to all of them

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running-in-the-dark · 1 year

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I've gotta go to the dentist again tomorrow. I got two fillings done on Thursday but they feel really rough and it's hurting my tongue (plus my brain doesn't stop noticing something like that so I'm constantly aware of it and it's exhausting), so I've got to get that fixed.

this time I have to drive myself, so I can't take any Lorazepam. I'm pretty sure it's gonna be a quick visit anyway, at least this kind of thing has never taken long in the past, so. it should be fine, I know that. but I feel so shitty anyway. it's like the anxiety/fear is there right below the surface but it can't quite come out (probably thanks to the anxiety meds) so I just feel off all day. it sucks (though I much prefer this over the actual anxiety, that completely ruined the days leading up to anything like this).

#plus I've been extremely tired all day so that doesn't help #I should go to bed but I don't want to #then I'll wake up and it'll be tomorrow and I'll have to go there and it'll be scary and I don't want to :(#it's so weird that going to the dentist used to be one of the things that DIDN'T scare me. or at least not any more than just regular #everyday stuff #but now anything medical that involves anything being DONE (so not just a visit to talk about something) is fucking terrifying #i just don't want to struggle anymore. I want to get up every day/most days and just feel alright and for everything to be neutral #everything feels so difficult and like I can't do it and what's the point anyway. if I can't do this at 31 then it's never gonna get better #right? how could it #ugggh #I'm so fucking scared of being done with uni. if I get a job I don't know how I'll cope. I already can't handle life and I don't do #ANYTHING right now 😭#I just wish my brain would shut up #for a little while at least #personal

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collectate · 3 months

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why do men

#UGHHHHHHH. trying to sort out room allocations for my uni house next year and. hang on i need to set the scene #firstly there's 5 of us. secondly - and crucially - in that 5 there's only one guy. we'll refer to him as housemate M #now this guy is like a little brother to me. i love him. he's great. our sports club thinks we're either cousins or dating. great guy #apart from one tiny issue: he's got mad only child syndrome despite in fact having an older sister #so he doesn't want to share. he doesn't want to compromise. he especially doesn't want to take one for the team and have the small room #that no one wants bc it's small and doesn't have a mirror. this is where the guy thing comes in bc the rest of us are all girls #and we each Need Mirrors. we also just Have More Stuff. and not to be a misandrist but he's a man how much space does he really need #so this is already a problem bc we've taken months to even get to the point where we're actually figuring this out #and now!!!!!! housemate M is being obstreperous!!!!!!! he refuses to take said small room!!! he wants a big one!!!#he's forcing housemate Z to give up the room she originally wanted and making her take the small room!! he's being a dick!!#and i HATE THIS bc i KNOW what's going to happen #I'M going to have to take one for the team and take this miniscule room that won't fit my stuff and will doubtless trigger my claustrophobi #just so HE can be comfortable!!!#this is making me so mad. this is making housemate Z so mad. why are men like this. he's not even 19 yet get a GRIPPPP #BECAUSE ALSO!!!!! housemates M and H did JACK FUCKING SHIT for this house. they contributed ZERO to this whole process #me and Z and J did EVERYTHINGGG. so why are me and Z now being forced to compromise??????#I HATE LIVING WITH OTHER PEOPLE. SHOOT ME IN THE HEAD #uni life #<- if it doesn't KILL ME FIRST #2nd year

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drysauce · 3 months

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truly a blessing that im not home right now or i don't what i'd do to my roommate. fucking audacity

#long story short results from the final test from water constructiona got posted #she got the 9th highest score out of all 150 people #i barely passed having 2 points over the limit and our 3rd friend was short on 3 points so she will have to retake #mind you that last girl was the one who actually put the most work into this out of us three #she actually thoroughly prepared me while i read the presentations twice and my roommate didn't do anything at all #roommate got a cheat sheet minutes before the test from some rando and just copied the answers that were there #and now is boasting how she got one of the top scores without wasting any time #got lucky okay that's life #but then on the general uni group chat one guy asked about when's the 2nd try for the test #and i response to which my roommate on our private group started a whole ass monologue #that how in the worst HE didn't pass this. he was always getting top scores from all the subject. he got a 5.0 from hydrology #well shut the fuck up he's just some guy who's a student like anyone else #it's not set in stone that he'll always have top scores because it's just fucking hard anyway can do worse sometimes even top students #maybe he was tired maybe he didn't have time to study maybe he didn't have any cheat sheets and just tried to rely on his knowledge #anything can happen and he can get any grade just like anyone can #very few things piss me off as much as people saying stuff like her #i got so heated up over this that my head started to hurt #i hate it here #this is what makes me always so damn anxious before any test #because if i fail everyone always starts asking what happened and how ME out of all people didn't pass #so now when dhe started saying this about that guy it just hit to close to home i guess #i need to go on a walk to cool down

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