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hellswolfie · 4 years

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The Mark of Athena Review

Ok so once again i continue reading “The Heroes of Olympus” and once again i need to vent so Tadaaaaa !!

So before I start, here is a more general Review : I really REALLY liked this book. Favorite of the serie so far. Also, obviously, SPOILERS !!

THINGS I DIDNT LIKE :

- The role of Frank : I can maybe forgive that, because with 7 main characters i understand it’s difficult to give them all an important role in one single book. But I really loved him in “The Son of Neptune” and I really wanted to see more of him, and the most of what we got was him being the Jealous Boyfriend. It was kind of disappointing so I hope it’ll change in the next books.

- Piper : it costs me a lot to put her there because I really really loved her in “The Lost Hero” but I have to admit I didn’t like one single chapter of hers in “The Mark of Athena”. Or at least not completely. In the first book there was the relationship with her dad, her culture, her dealing with the fact she was an Aphrodite children, the begining of a friendship with Annabeth and Leo... But in this book ? It’s only about Jason. Endlessly. And it’s so tiring and eyeroll worthy, especially when we compare her “issues” over JASON with the others’. And even without that, she was really not a great person in this book and not in the interesting way : she was ready to put the whole World in danger just so Jason wouldnt stay in New Rome, kept Charming Up her friends just for convenience (like srsly i know thats not supposed to be a Big Deal but thats still mind control so yikes), and when it came down to it, no matter what she said about how Leo is like her little brother or Annabeth is her BFF, she only gave a crap about Jason Jason Jason...There was barely a scene of her with the other two. And I find it frustrasting that it didn’t even feel like the plot during her chapters were about her, but more about Jason and her being a support for him, even though they were HER chapters !!

- Jasiper : Well I guess that’s not really a surprise lol. I never liked this pairing and this book didn’t change my mind on that at all. Piper keeps clinging to the three months THAT NEVER HAPPENED (and that apparently weren’t faithful to Jason’s character like srsly is she even really in love with HIM or the idea of him she had in her mind ?) instead of the 8 real months they spent together, thinks it’s a miracle when Jason appologizes (he’s a real catch huh ?) and is so so sure he’ll leave her to go to New Rome which first : wow you really have faith in this relationship huh ? But also second : why is this such a Big Deal ?? Even if he did go to New Rome she could still follow him (she made it pretty clear she’d leave all of her friends in Camp Half Blood to be with him), it’s not like he’s a whole new different person when he’s there !! And my baby Reyna was so hurt by that, like Jason was a reall asshole here, even if he was oblivious and didn’t realize her feelings for him she’s still supposed to be his friend and the first thing he asks after 8 months of disappearing is if he can spend alone time with his gf ? And I found it kind of frustrating that in the end, all the others left on their own to do their own things (yk, to save the fucking world ?) while literaly risking their life and Jasiper just...went on a date. Like seriously ? So yeah. Not a fan.

- The whole Frank x Leo “rivalery” : Why make another older character be attracted to 13 years old ?? Can you stop that ??? Leo could also be a real ass sometimes, even tho I still love him and Frank well...I already talked about that. This book had enough pissing contests between guys as it is.

- Percy apparently forgetting all the Hercules stuff he learned in “The Titan Curse”. I know it might not seem like THAT much of a deal but it was a really important thing for his character ? That he learned how Heroes, especially Hercules, were real assholes too and that he had to learn to not be like them ? That Zoe, his friend who sacrificiced herself to save the world, was treated like shit by this guy but now he was still like “omg this is Hercules I SO want to meet this guy he seems great !!” ???. It was just one sentence but I hated it.

- The focus on the Romantic relationships. Look I have nothing against romance and ships. I love romantic love in stories !! But I also love friendships and I really wish this book would have given us more of that instead of spending so much time on romantic relationships. I mean it is pretty well illustrated in the end of the book when they all separate : all the groups are romantic pairings. Percabeth, Jiper, and Frazel with Leo who has kind of a crush on Hazel. And as much as I love Frazel and Percabeth, where are the friendships ?? Percy and Jason’s relationship was supposed to be very important in this book so why didn’t we see more of that ?? What about the friendships that were already established like Percy with Frank and Hazel, Leo with Piper and Jason, Piper and Anabeth,...And all the new friendships that could have had more screen time like Annabeth and Frank or something !! So yeah that was disappointing.

THINGS I LOVED :

- the River God scene. Ok so yes I kind of lied : I enjoyed this chapter of Piper. Well this scene at least. And only kind off, because it is still a Jasiper moment but anyway. In my last review of “the Son of Neptune”, I mentionned how it always annoyed me that the heroes have a habit of always making the Good Moral Decision, without any hesitation, even if the fate of the world is in the balance. I was like “Give me morally conflicted characters damn it” !! And that’s what I got here. Piper having to lie to the God, taking his horn that was so important to him, even tho he was just a very tragic dude, to save Jason and the World, realizing that even if it is bad and she feels like shit after doing it, she still had to do it...YES !!! THANK YOU !! I LOVED THAT !!!

- The LEO X NICO INTERACTIONS !!!!!! After spending 2 books shipping them (they’d fit so well together i will die on this hill) they finally talked !!! Well once, and about the fact that Percabeth just fell into fucking Tartarus but like !!! TALKING !!!! And the first thing Nico tell him is to reassure him <3 (look I know it won’t be canon but the POTIENTIAL!!!)

- Annabeth’s chapters. I can’t imagine anyone who wouldn’t like them like we finally got her point of view people !!! And it was awesome !!! I loved seeing her on a quest, the way she thinks and sees the world, how she uses her intelligence,... Like she’s so brave and smart but also so sentimental even tho she’d never admit it (like getting emo about having lost the white hair because it was a connection with Percy ? My baby is so fucking precious). And obviously we already knew that but to actually be in her head ??? It was so fucking good !! And it really succeeded to make me feel so much for her, like she’s just a kid and her mother literaly sent her to her death and she was so scared but she still kept going (only to end up in Tartarus WHYYYYYY) and I’m so proud of her. I love this character so much !!

- Percabeth : The reunion !!!! FINALLY !!!! That’s my first ever OTP right there and they’re so in love !! They’re such a badass power couple and they love eachother so fucking much !! God i missed them X( I loved every Percabeth scenes, they were so adorable and beautiful. I loved how even tho they are differents and are not always in the same page, they still know eachother so well and the communication was just so cheff’s kiss. And omg their lasts scenes together ?? Chills !! Like when Percy almost begged the (kind of?) gods to let him stay just a few more moments with her because he was so scared of never seeing her again almost brought tears to my eyes and then of course their final scene when they fall together into Tartarus, because all that matter is that they’re together...MY HEART !!!

- Percy’s and Leo’s chapters. I put them together because I don’t have much to say except that I love them so much and that I would literaly lay down my life for this two. Their chapters are always such joy to read, and after one whole book without him, I was really glad to get back with Leo. Probably the funniest chapters too.

- The Crazy Dolphins scene. This scene was fucking hilarious. Pic comedy ^^

- The crumb of friendhips dynamics we got. So much potential I want to see more !! Like Percy x Jason, Annabeth x Frank (so much Hermione x Neville vibes), Leo x Frank, Hazel x Annabeth, Percy x Frank, Annabeth x Leo (Leo who is so scared of and impressed by her as he should lol),...That’s probably one of the reasons I was so bitter about the romantic relationships getting so much more time, like ALL the friendhships that were so interestings like come on !!

- Percy thinking about LUKE !!! hjfgjehgfjhsegf !!! The fact that he still considers Luke as his fighting teacher, still thinks about his training and his advices !!! Even going as far as thinking he totally understood where he came from for doing all this horrible things !!! That was so awesome !! And such a character development !!! And that makes Percy even more of an interesting character !!! Anyway I loved that ^^

- All the mythological aspect like Rick can be such a genius sometimes with how he uses them, managing to stay faithful to them while sill adapting them to a more modern setting and that works so well !! Well its there in every single one of the PJO series book, but I just wanted to put it out there so here.

- Hazel story. Look I didn’t like the whole weird kind off “love triangle” thing with Leo and Frank. But I love Hazel and I LOVED knowing more about her and also knowing more about Leo’s ancestor (who was awesome btw). That was such an interesting story, how she discovered that her only friend back then and first love spent his whole life thinking her disappearence was his fault. And the flackback was so cute too ^^ Also Loved her being so desperate finding her brother because that’s what Nico deserves and that was adorable. I really hope we’ll get to see more of their bond.

- The end. Such an amazing cliffhanger. I could feel the tension in the scene, I could’t stop reading and then the last chapter were everyone was just so in chock but Nico still believed that Percy would come back out of it alive because he admires him so much. It was SO !!! FUCKING !!! GREAT !!! Amazing way to end this book.

And that’s also how I will end this review ^^ Feel free to comment on it (respectfully) in the comments if you want.

#percy jackson #PJO #pjo series #heroes of olympus #hoo #mark of athena #MOA #percabeth

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noahhernandez · 4 years

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2/9/2015 v. 8/11/2020

1:Talk about the first time you watched your favorite movie. My favorite movie is Scream, and it started when I saw the midnight premier of Scream 4 with my dad back when I was in 8th grade, then Scream 1 came on AMC late on night and I just really like it

I still think Scream is one of my favorites, but Halloween has jumped up there just because I am obsessed with all things horror really lol. I started to love Halloween because of the new trilogy.

2:Talk about your first kiss. It’s really not that interesting but really like embarrassing. It was with my first boyfriend and I had just turned 15 and we were at the school just walking around and we went into the band hall and I was like ok im leaving and he was like wait and we kissed and i was like o

the same !

3:Talk about the person you’ve had the most intense romantic feelings for. I never really have had intense feelings for anyone. I d k

One my exes- I mean we were dating for awhile so that’s pretty intense to me.

4:Talk about the thing you regret most so far. I regret… Nothing really I mean, I have done really bad things in my life, but i don’t regret them

I regret failing like 2 semesters of college lmao and almost dropping out. If i didn’t then I would 1- would have been done earlier and 2- would have already completed a year of grad school but IDK also another is wasting lots of money in 2017-2018

5:Talk about the best birthday you’ve had. The best birthday I’ve had was.. Idk This year was was nice I saw Iggy Azalea in concert, then I celebrated my friends’ birthday then mine and it was just everyone got to get together so ya this year my 18th

For my 21st birthday I went to Portland, Oregon and spent the weekend there and it was pretty and my first time there so it was nice despite what I think about PDX now. I don’t even know what I was doing for my 19 and 20th birthday lol.

6:Talk about the worst birthday you’ve had. My 17th birthday because I was stuck 2 hours away from home with a bunch of nerds doing a band competition

That is still probably my worst birthday. I forget to mention that I was gone literally from like 7am to midnight. They werent a bunch of loser nerds, they were my friends, but I still wish I was just at home lol.

7:Talk about your biggest insecurity. I am skinny, but not fit. If I eat anything I get this like stomach and it makes me so sad. and ever since I got a job I work odd hours and I eat a lot of fast food and I’ve gained 10 pounds in 2 years and I guess i’m insecure about my weight

I am still insecure about my weight, and I probably weight like 5 pounds more than I did when I made this post 5 1/2 years ago.

8:Talk about the thing you are most proud of. We have band banquets for band, and I only went my sophomore and junior year, and seniors give out awards to underclassmen that are just jokes really, and both years 4 different seniors gave me an award for being the biggest gossip in the entire band and I was proud of that lol

Well since then I have graduated both high school and college. I am proud that I finished college !! A BS in Psych. Proud of myself that I got promoted (in 2017) at my job; i’m proud of myself that I have my own apartment, and blah blah basically just doing regular adult shit.

9:Talk about little things on your body that you like the most. I like my nose because of how perfectly fixed it is. I also really like my freckles/moles/dark marks idk what they are exactly, but they’re on my face and they look great

I still feel the same way about this, maybe add my eyebrows- they’re not like clean and nice they’re just expression markers on my face that i love.

10:Talk about the biggest fight you’ve ever had. I got into a fight with my old friend Angelica and that was almost 4 months ago and we used to be best friends and now we never talk.

When Janett didn’t talk to me all summer of 2019 because I told our other friend Angel something

11:Talk about the best dream you’ve ever had. I cant remember one 12:Talk about the worst dream you’ve ever had. I can’t remember one

13:Talk about the first time you had sex/how you imagine your first time. The closest thing i’ve had to like sex was being locked in a back of an SUV with a stranger drunk as fuck and naked and its embarrassing

Just awkward and nothing to which I expected.

14:Talk about a vacation. When I was 16, the high school band took a trip to Hawaii, and all my friends were in band so it was great. We did a lot of things, we toured Pearl Harbor and even played a few patriotic songs on the USS Miss. and our hotel was on Wakiki beach. I went snorkeling in some beautiful water and shit and idk just walked all around Hawaii having a great time omg we got on stage at the Hard Rock Cafe and sang with German people i miss it

Hm that was fun. But I.. went to NY with my ex and that was pretty cool because I literally love New York, and I went to NOLA two years ago (today actually) and got miserably drunk so that was fun too

15:Talk about the time you were most content in life. Probably just in the middle of junior year when everything and everyone was going with the flow

I feel like 2016 was a very content year because I remember nothing about it.

16:Talk about the best party you’ve ever been to. Idk which one to talk about the one where I had a lot of fun and risked my life or the one where there was a lot of drama stirred up and drank myself to sadness.

I haven’t really been to a party? I have gone out and had good times. Really anytime my friends and I go out I am having a good time

17:Talk about someone you want to be friends with. I am already friends with people I want to be friends with

18:Talk about something that happened in elementary school. I kissed a boy on the back of the head and i told I just fell onto his head

Let me think of another one. Back in like fourth grade my friend was in a wheel chair and his backpack was falling from the back and I was trying to grab it and i was only 3 feet tall i couldnt see over or wasnt paying attention and i crashed him right into the bookshelves at the library.

19:Talk about something that happened in middle school. A girl was mad at me because idk why lol and she pushed me in the hall way and I fucking flew across that hall on the floor and hit the wall she’s pregnant now

When I was in 5th grade (which is considered middle school in my district) I was standing on the play ground and someone threw a stick at my head and it knocked me the fuck out and I was bleeding from my temple.

20:Talk about something that happened in high school. In Jr. Year I was pulling into the parking lot but I was texting and I accidentally put half my car on grass area near the side walk luckily it was 7am and only one person saw me do it lol

One summer going into our senior year we had a party at Michelle’s house. First of all we were very drunk and Coby’s parents were like we are coming over and we cleaned TF UP so fast and sat on the couch and turned on I Know What You Did Last Summer and his parents were like interesting and and left and then we continued to drink anyways- we started playing truth or dare and my friend Angelica was like I dare u to kiss Anthony (someone I had liked prior) and he wouldnt and we started attacking him and calling him homophobic and hitting him with pillows lmao- him and I are still friend-ish

21:Talk about a time you had to turn someone down. I can’t think of something right now.

Literally anyone on grindr.

22:Talk about your worst fear. I’m afraid of having no career and being stuck doing something I hate and living paycheck to paycheck

Yeah, I’m scared of that still but I.. think just like being broke and jobless. RN with the pandemic we aren’t really working and still getting gov’t assistance, so. IDK being a real real adult scares me a lot.

23:Talk about a time someone turned you down. I can’t think of a time :)

One time in like 2016 maybe idk - this dude told me to come over and he lived far like not that far maybe 25 minutes lol far for me anyways I got to his apartment and there was a gate code and i asked him what it was and he didnt answer and it was like 2-3am and nobody was coming in or out and so i was like damn this sucks lmao

24:Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot. Nothing really has meant a lot to me. Everyone tells me the same thing over and over again and its so surface level

I still can’t think of anything but I’m sure the friends I have met since this and my friends Faith, Michelle, Peter, and Alisa have said something supportive that meant a lot to me.

25:Talk about an ex-best friend. Angelica Ramirez. She was my best friend for only 3 years, but together we went through A LOT of shit. We started out senior year just fine, but she lied about a few things and made a lot of us feel like crap in October. I won’t lie, I do miss her. We have too many memories to just forget, too many funny stories and great adventures. She helped me with too much, and sometimes I think about how I cut her out of my life and I mad a bad choice. But only time can heal things and I have moved on and truly found people that won’t make me mad every 30 seconds.

Brianna Pajak, I don’t remember anything about her except she was poor and we stopped being friends because she always wanted to fight and be annoying.

26:Talk about things you do when you’re sick. Lay on bed on my computer and watch TV

I normally just suffer and cry about wishing I was healthy again.

27:Talk about your favorite part of someone else’s body. Their…!!>>>???

I must have nice hands and ur nose must be nice too! so nose and hands. lol

28:Talk about your fetishes. none

yeah I don’t have any lol not that I can think of.

29:Talk about what turns you on. Idk i really like kissing and touching and this is awkward.

30:Talk about what turns you off. bad breath by

that and ugly/rough hands, acne sorry i know it is natural but, shorter than me lol, white people, long hair on guys, and thats about it i think hm i am single yes

31:Talk about what you think death is like. I think its like idk its scary tho

um idk i dont like thinking about death because i literally want to cry when i think about it.

32:Talk about a place you remember from your childhood. I remember being in trees a lot

My step grandma’s a lot because my parents were working and she would watch us. She passed away about a month ago :(

33:Talk about what you do when you are sad. I usually only tell one person and that person is Alisa and I cry sometimes to her and expect her to make things better and she does thank u

I be doing the same thing, I text someone and that person could really be anyone but it happened the other day and I texted Bri and she was very helpful.

34:Talk about the worst physical pain you’ve endured. I have no idea, I’ve never broken pulled strained twisted fractures or anything i have no life

I still haven’t done any of that stuff to my body. I also have burn scars but I did not feel those when it was happening. I would just say i guess my wisdom teeth coming in because I did not get them removed. I have 3 out lol.

35:Talk about things you wish you could stop doing. Pushing potential love interests away

I have had some ‘love interests’ since this post, but it’s been about a year now since and I kind of push away the opportunity of getting close to someone. I also need to stop being a bitch sometimes.

36:Talk about your guilty pleasures. eating

I would say idk eating was a stupid answer.

37:Talk about someone you thought you were in love with. never

I was in love and i didn’t ‘think’ I was in love. I don’t know what you mean by talk about them, they were my partner but we broke up hehe.

38:Talk about songs that remind you of certain people. Fireflies by Owl City reminds me of my 7th grade crush Fancy by Iggy Azalea reminds me of my two friends Michelle and Alisa idk anything else

um Idk. i rly cant think 39:Talk about things you wish you’d known earlier. I wish I would have known that

That it’s okay to tell people you’re struggling lol . That is okay to fail sometimes (school). 40:Talk about the end of something in your life. everything is just about to start

When I ended how to get away with murder I wish I never did I love that show with all my heart.

#personal

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descendantofthesparrow · 5 years

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my version of the d3 timeline

okay so with d3 being out, im going to say something

I thought the timeline would be different.

so here's mine

starts off with good to be bad, obvi

then the choosing of the kids

engagement

vks go get the kids

they pick up the four, but instead of the isle crowd being exited, they’re mad, they want to go to auradon too!!! they shouldn't have to wait around till another vk day (this is back when we all thought isle people would only be chosen annually) so the car speeds out of there, and the now just rejected crowd stands behind the car as it exits

hades.

queen of mean

Audrey grabs the scepter, a plan in mind, but because she is not maleficents blood, she falls into a deep sleep, and in a final bit of magic, makes the scepter and crown disappear from her grasp, and she teleports herself to her bed, making it seem like someone else spelled her

now its the mal ben talk, beast suggests closing the barrier for good, both mal and ben are against it, more ben than mal, but mal soon agrees, bens disappointed, but “understands” then he gets his phone call about the crown and scepter being stolen.

beast suggests uma, mal agrees, Ben = uma protection squad

mal tells evie, the exact same scene happens except with more, “kids who want to go back and see their bothers and sisters, or their parents, we’re just going to take that away from them?!”

mal asks evie “E, since when was any parent good on the isle”

“smee” “that's tight, he never did anything but he certainly never stopped anything” “dr facilier” “he was crap to Freddie, he really only likes Celia” “lefou” “again, never really did anything, but never stopped anything”

evie just sits there, trying to come up with an argument, “what about food, if no one goes in or out, what about the barges?” “the goblins grab that remember, no one actually goes in or out, they just reach across the barrier” evie just looks devastated, while there are a lot of bad parents on the isle, some of them are a lot better than others, like Anastasia, dizzy had said multiple times that she wanted to go back to see her auntie, the one who raised her. then the scene goes on like normal.

then the getting ready for janes party scene.

that's when mal gets a call from ben

“Audreys been spelled, her grandmas been trying to wake her up to no avail.”

mal rushes to head over to the dorms, she gets there, seeing Audrey motionless on her bed.

then either she or FG runs a diagnostics on Audrey, revealing that this was a curse of the scepter.

“the only thing more powerful than the scepter is Hades ember”

mal heads back to Evie's house, telling them all about what was going down, and they needed to go back to the isle for hades ember. mal is about to head inside to get changed when magic strikes her, spelling her into an old hag.

the scene goes on like the movie, but instead of Audrey being there, they think its uma behind all of this.

cut to Audrey, Audrey is awake, and she has the scepter and crown, she releases her sleeping spell at janes party, jane goes underwater, she calls Ben, telling him about Audrey.

ben tries to call mal, but she's on the isle, no cell phone service.

mal and gang head to the isle to grab the ember, Celia tagging along, they go to the arcade to get key, the tv plays the same scene, they still think its uma behind it all, then the same pirate stealing bikes scene.

mal tries to get the ember, but hades catches her doing so, and FYI, hades is NOT mals dad in this version, he asks what she wants, she says she needs it to break a spell, one song later (a hard rock version of do what you gotta do, with no daddy issues shit) hades only agrees to give it to mal IF, his son hadie comes off the isle next. mal “I can't do that” “well then~, I guess no ember for you” procedes to walk away, mal breaks, agreeing to his plan.

mal now has ember, but hades warns her only gods/demigods can use the ember, and she would need either him or another god to use it for her

“ill take my chances” “if it gets wet its game over”

cut to ben and Audrey scene. Audrey curses ben to beast mode. but does not turn FG into stone yet.

the core four + Celia exit the isle, mal goes though her little blue up, but Celia bumps her arm, causing the ember to go flying through the air, right into umas grasp.

in the background, harry and gil are rejoicing.

“it can't get wet! give it back before it goes out!!”

“why? you won't be able to use it, either way, ~ only a god or demi-god can use it...and oh~ your not one, but...I am~”

mal is stubborn not wanting to team up with uma, evie rationalizes with her, “M shes right, we need a god to use the ember, and we have one right in front of us”

“but shes the one who cast the curse in the first place remember?” “mal shes offering an out right now, if we just go along with it she might back off”

“uggg.....fine”

uma cackles, but says one more thing “if you want my help....open the barrier for harry and gil”

jay growls but opens the barrier anyway, the boys don't even wait before jumping though.

uma cackles, releasing her transformation, mal yelps out a no, the ember was gonna get wet.

uma reappears on the bridge, harry nearly tackles her, but he remains mostly calm, gil is just like a retriever tho.

the scene continues on like in the movie, with some exceptions.

“uma give me the ember, I need that to break a spell”

Carlos: “yeah one cast by you”

confused uma is confused “what spell? I didn't cast any spell”

the core four are now stunned, “what? but you cursed Audrey to sleep with my mother's scepter-’

“hold it right there dragon breath, if I used the scepter...wouldnt I be asleep right now? cuz im not maleficents blood, only your mom or you can touch it remember?”

mals brain fizzles out, shit shes right

“but if you didn't do it” evie inquires, “who did?”

uma grins turning to her boys “this seems like a job for pirates!!!!” mal is just frustrated “uma give the ember to me, i need it”

uma just hums ‘well I might not give it back~ just to see what happens”

“uma it's not the time for games peoples lives are in danger!!!”

“guarantee me that every single villain kid that wants too, can get off the isle”

“I can't do that” “can't do that huh *holds it over the edge* well how bout now!!”

“deal!...deal” *uma fake stumbles, harry still tries to catch her*

the scene continues on like in the movie.

they arrive at the school, going to make their way to audreys dorm, but they find everyone asleep.

the scene continues on like in the movie, but dude doesn't talk. so they have no clue on who the culprit is.

mal and the others head to audreys room, to use the ember to wake her up, only to find she's not there, they do a minor search tiring to find clues on who took Audrey, uma flops on audreys bed, finds her diary...and that how they find out.

“Hey, guys...come look at this”

they gather around uma, who reads the last input Audrey put in her diary.

detailing her plan for becoming the queen of auradon, and taking it by any means necessary.

it clicks for harry and uma, but takes a second for the others to understand.

“guys” harry growls, like its obvious,(which it is) “yer princess is the one who cast the spell!”

“shes not like that!” “yeah Audrey wouldn't do something like this”

“oh really” uma hums, flipping though audreys diary “take a look at all this”

pages and pages of heartbreak and grief, rants about the pressure put on by her grandparents, how she never even got an apology from Ben OR Mal.

how shes a failure for not keeping her hold on ben, and how she wishes he had broken up with her like a normal person.

“it's obvious she snapped and took the crown and scepter”

‘We need to find ben” mal says, snatching the book from uma and tossing it on the bed, gil steals a glance, seeing that Audrey hung out at fairy cottage a lot, and stashes that info for later.

“and find FG too, we need the wand”

they all nod, following mal out and to the museum, evie calling fairy godmother.

as they arrive, they see FG trotting up the steps,

“mal what in heavens-” shes turned to stone, the vks gasp, harry runs towards uma, as always trying to protect her.

“no!”

the rush off, not wanting to get turned into stone.

they stop in front of the school dorms, breathing heavily, Carlos hears dude bark, and (referencing the fact that he can speak dog) asks dude if he knows where ben is, confused harry is confused “what are yeh doin’ pup?”

“I can speak dog” “okay then”

now for the scene Night falls, goes exactly like the movie. but instead of the dance break defeating the knights, its Mal, Uma, and Evie's combined magic that overheat audreys magic and cause it to fail.

Evie tries the ice breaker, to no avail.

mal sends the boys to find ben, she and the girls follow Uma's plan to go back to audreys dorm to find out where she might be, then Gil brings up that he saw that Audrey likes to hang out at fairy cottage.

core four are surprised, uma and harry are not, their boy remembers things at the best of times.

the boy's forest scene is exactly the same.

mal, evie, uma, and Celia just start to head to Evie's house, since they know where Audrey might already be.

then the Doug scene, now there is no one kiss, evie finds Doug, but because of her fast thinking, before uma can suggest true loves kiss, evie remembers that she has anti sleeping spell potions, uma is surprised, evie just goes, “my mom is a witch remember?”

Doug wakes up, uma is impressed, “alright im a little intimidated by you now”

“as you should be~”

witch evie is best evie

the boys encounter beast ben, the scene is not changed

back to the girls, mal thanks uma for suggesting audreys place, uma is defensive, mal feels guilt because ‘what the hell have I done to make uma this defensive around me’

later mal apologizes to uma about the shrimpy incident, uma does not forgive her

“Apology accepted, but you're not forgiven”

“i-i can accept that”

Audrey boards up the house and mal and uma work together, uma does NOT give mal the ember, she still doesn't trust her. not completely.

the boys arrive, uma reunites with her boys. the scene continues on as in the movie

now the dark forest scene. it continues on as in the movie, but when mal reveals she been lying the entire time, Celia takes the ember from uma, tossing it into the pot.

the scene continues on like in the movie

mal tries to beg uma to help, but she's done with mals shit, she doesn't want to be hurt anymore, harry leads her away.

final fight scene.

uma returns, picking up the dropped umber from the ground where mal dropped it. as soon as she picks it up, it ignites, sensing Umas demigod status.

dragon mal in the sky pressing down on Audrey keeping her distracted, uma controls the water in the air and plants and sends it towards audreys, aided by the ember, she surrounds Audrey with water and puts pressure on the scepter, breaking it.

Audrey falls defeated.

the movie continues on like normal.

okay, so this is my version of the timeline. hope yall enjoyed!!!!

#Descendents #descendants #disney descendants #harry hook #harry hook descendants #mal daughter of maleficent #evie daughter of the evil queen #Carlos De Vil #jay descendants #ben descendants #Audrey deserves better #audrey descendants #jane descendants #my timeline #my version

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“ My Reiki and Yoga New Free Soul Brother - Once an abuser manipulative thieve , money driven leach “

Well thats a big tittle to describe one person entirely. So my ( midle ) brother across my kid years and then teenager developing to adult, my brother was an interesting person. For example, in school my brother would pretend he didnt know me , and if i even dared to aproach him he would shame me in front of everyone, even thought they already knew i was his sister, i was bullied a lot in school so at the start i tried a few times reaching out to him , specially because i didnt have any friends and id always be alone. This motherfucker who was already a teenager completly dismissed me , BUT would actually seek me out or talk to me when he needed lunch money because he already “ spent his”, funny enough hed get mine to eat coz he didnt wanna use his, and if i didnt gave him even though i hadnt eaten , he would guilty me badly , and being the kid that i was , my brother was everything to me , even tho he didnt gave a shit about me.

So in consequence i started drawing a distance line between me and him, at home id start to distance myself and ignore him. And he started getting like a really attention whore, hed always annoye me , and force me to hangout, and i didnt he would threaten me or do some shit at the house and blame me for it , because my mother at the tinniest shit at home would beat the crap out of me , so me being the little kid that i was tired of getting beatings for no random reason , id play along. My brother would literally antagonzie me and scare the shit out of me while so. Everytime my family went anywhere , for example the beach, id try to go to the water alone for some peace this motherfucker would sneak behind me and try to drown me as a joke , like every 5 minutes, id yell in panic and my mom wouldnt do shit, eventually id end up actually chocking on water and hit my head on the sand and cry the rest of the time. So yeah FUN ! Did my mom do anything ? ofc no , “ hes just playing around “. I had BD collections that id buy with my lunch money that sometimes id save up, disney movie cassettes and so on. Sometimes id have snacks in my room to eat when studying or something. My brother, being a full grown ass teenager that he was , would steal everything without me even catching a glimpse of it. My brother would “ borrow “ things without asking then hide them because he wanted. I had two final fantasy collectible caracters that i spent my leftover bday money on, and my brother would take it as his own. Yes because whatever birthday money i got wether it be 50 euros or even 20 from my grandma or aunt, my mom would take it “ borrowed” for herself with no justification, shed always say “ Ah lend me i need it / or / I always buy you clothes and everythings, i buy you food , you owe me this , thats the minimum you could do / “ or / she would just take it without me knowing , she would inspect my bday gifts and take it before hand , the problem is that my grandma or aunt would always after if i was gonna save it up and id ask what and they would question what i did with the money and i would ask what money and blah blah , you get where this is going.

OH and if i didnt give my money the money she would beat me up ! wich is funny asf. My brother literally sold all my things behind my back, my original BDS, MY FUCKING POISON IVY STORYLINE BD, my disney cassetes , my collectibles, and my snacks he would steal and eat. If i had saved up money hidden, first he would try to borrow it and guilty me with the “ im such a good brother to you , you cant even lend me money ? i will pay you back, trust me “ ... ofc he never payed me back , but every two weeks he woul do this shit. And if i by any chance didnt gave him , hed just steal, or sell my things, wich regardless of me lending him , he would do it anyway. Fast forward to my early teenage years, i had to start working , i quit school because we entered that internet deth with my moms company, wich my brother also contributed to but let the blame to me ofc, i was already the punch bag of the family what is one more thing. My brothers were always my moms “ babies “ even tho one was already a full grown ass man and the other was already on his way. My brother did nothing at home , didnt take the dog outside, didnt take out the trash, didnt make food, didnt wash the dishes, didnt clean the house, basicly sit on his ass all day playing video games and eating, and selling my shit for money. My brother was unemployed for 3/4 years in between those i studied and worked at the same time , and did all the house chores, even if i had to walk the dog as 2/3 am after work i would have to, even tho my brother was in bed all day. My mom would literally yell at me and make my life a living hell and threaten to hit me if i didnt do it or even dared to complain. I would get home trying to study , trying to recorver at school ,and she would yell non stop until i didn every house chore, wich i would only manage to finish at midnight or later, and then id be too tired and unmotivated to do anything so id just sleep, and id always get late to class thanks to that. When my brothers started working, it was at my dads wearehouse, where i was forced to work too. Id work 8 to 10 hours , sometimes more, because we got payed by publicity stock packs, each pack was worth 1 euro, wich also 1 pack took 1 hour and 15/20 minutes to make. So if i wanted to make the day worth anything i had to rush , no eating breaks or pee breakes. My hands at the end of the day would literally be filled with newspaper and printed paper ink and dirk, and tons of cuts and sores , that would be leeched in paper ink, wich make it hurt even more at the end of the day, and was really hard to take it out. My brother would take breaks every 30 minutes to smoke , be on his phone or even go to bathroom or eat randomly, i wouldnt stop the 8 hours straight, and when i actually had to go to the bathroom or eat something because id get sick, my brother literally stole packs from me, or try to “ negociate my help for X “, the thing about my brother is that hed always try to negociate something , ofc it was always entangled for his own benefit and not both.

So it was like this my brother came up to me all excited and say “ oh if you do this to help me , ill split the profit that way we will make more and will be less exausting “ stupid like i was id always give in, specially because if i didnt hed steal anyway.... Hed always change his methods and works, and guilty me if i didnt do it, so id always have to do so. If i didnt hed just change the pack registration list either way, without me even seeing it, and fake my signature, i only found out we had to sign an official paper a few months later when my dad asked, before that my brother would always tell me to note them on my phone then send the numbers by the end of the week, and since he was the bosses son , every one backed up that story ofc. Eventually when i started to get older , i cut ties with my brothers and dad. And my ( midle ) brother was constantly trying to reach out and play nice and shit , also he was still working at the wearhouse . Anyway , fast forward when i got unemployed after the 5 star hotel due to rape attent and shit like that, i was unemplyoyed for 4 moths?! My brother tried to reach out , and even came home before my mother to try and persuade me to enter one of his schemes, i explained to my brother that i didnt have any money and that i wouldnt believe anymore of his stupid schemes and blah blah. He swore he was only trying to make up to me , and the plan was , i would pretend to work at my dads wearehouse, but i would just be there 2 times a week and he would give me a cut of the protfit, coz if he didnt want my dad to hire some random slow guy, so he set up to do a two persons work, and give me 30 % of the monthy rate and all i had to do is show up a few times for my dad to see i was there, and then go home. That motherfucker insisted for 3 days straight promissing it wasnt a scheme and that he was serious this time. OBVIOUSLY THAT DIDNT HAPPEN OBVIOUSLY- with the last 10 euros i had, i bought train tickers to the wearhouse, the first week he actually stick to his word, a few days later the shit started, he actualy forced me to deliver shit and stuff. Wich for me was really difficult because its when i started to develop hernias, and the pain was too overwhealming, and that fucker didnt care and still forced me to, eventually i told him i was out , and found out he still used my name in his shit plan and pretended i was still working there to my dad for two whole months , and then begged me to lie to my dad on the phone, hed literally call me before my dad trying to get me to lie, and promissing the money, and hed ask my mom to pressure my to help him. What could i do??!! what happend after you may ask? did my brother gave me the money? OFC NO ! NO! He gave me 115 euros of the cut , and he made 996 euros to himself. And told me it was only for the days “ i actually worked “ NEVER IN MY LIFE I VERBALLY EVER SAID TO ANYONE , FAMILY OR NOT “ I hope you die, you are shit , you are nothing to me , seriously i hope you die “ and acually meant it and wished it. For the first time in my life i actually wished so hard for my brother to just die. I was done, i was officialy done , i had never been so done with someone. I was officialy done with my family. I blocked my dad on everything, i told my dad to fuck off. I told my older brother to fuck off. I told my middle brother to go die. And the last person was my dying grandma who was a snob ass piece of shit who only gave a shit about me when i was a little girl ( because its only cute when they r kids ), to stop trying to call me and told her to just go and die. She literally sent me a voice message of 5 minutes crying beggin me to see her, and i just told her to go and die, its not because she is dying that is gonna erase the fact that she didnt gave a shit about me after i actually grown. And the fact that i did this apparently scared the shit out my dad and brothes, specially because i did it so naturally. AND TO THIS DAY I DONT REGRET WHAT I SAID AND I STILL DONT GIVE A FUCK ABOUT HER. OH AND PLOT TWIST SHES NOT DEAD NOR WAS SHE DYING, LAST YEAR SHE TRIED TO SCHEME MONEY OUT OF MY MOM, AND BEFORE THAT SHE WOULD ALWAYS TREAT MY MOM LIKE SHIT AN CALL HER NAMES, FUNNY ! Now they try to sneak into my life really AGAIN ... ffs Since the end of last year, apparently my brother turned into reiki and yoga and shit and is now driving a motivational fuck page for people who wanna “ grow spiritually and open the third eye “ and is trying to reconnect with me again, obviously i cut him off before he could even talk to me. So he spent 3 months or so , coming here and trying, and since he didnt get anything since january and february hes trying to manipulate me behind my mother, my mother is venting to my brother about me being closed off to them , and my brother is DIAGNOSING ME AS A PROBLEM, BECAUSE HE IS SO WISE AND ENLIGHTED... WTF??? diagnosing me??? ur not a fucking therapist you asshole ! The other day i heard him tell my mother in the living room , that “ SHE CANT LIVE LIKE THIS ITS VERY TOXIC FOR HER, SHE HAS TO TALK TO YOU AND BE A BETTER SISTER AND DAUGHTER SHE NEEDS TO BLAH BLAH YOU NEED TO KICK HER OUT IF SHE IS LIVING OFF YOU “ WHAT THE FUCK?? im living off my mother?? the woman that forced me to give her more than half of my paycheck, thats doesnt give me privacy or respect and that literally threatned me if i ever tried to leave that she would chase me down???????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OR SEND ME TO A MENTAL HOSPITAL????!!!! ... My older brother is doing the same, keeps trying to get me to go visit his kid, and to meet his kid, keeps trying to get my mother to see pictures of the kid or to call them. They keep trying to guilty me “ oh you cant take it out on the kid, its not the kids fault , he needs to know his aunt, you are his family “ BITCH FAMILY?????? FAMILY??? family doesnt mean shit. Yesterday even sent photos of his kid trought a new number LOL. I actually did went to the kids birthday, first time a few months ago, and guess what , my brother still the NO ONE ASKED- OPINIONATED asshole he was about my whole life, he literally takes one glimpse of me and judges my whole life and starts yelling shit at me ...ofc thats not gonna happend again. People dont change. People. dont. change. PEOPLE DONT CHANGE ! BITCH ?? WHAT? WHO THE FCK?? HOW THE FUCK??? In conclusion my brother is still the same piece of shit he was , and now even more narcisistic, and manipulative, he cant get what he wants from me , so now hes resourting to my mother again. I NEED TO LEAVE THIS HOUSE, I NEED TO LEAVE THIS FAMILY OMFG. Funny enough he does this shit then tries to get me to go to his house to celebrate his birthday because he “ MISSES ME AND THE OLD DAYS” ???? OLD DAYS OF YOU MENTALY ABUSING ME ? NOT TO MENTION THAT YOU ALMOST BROKE MY ARM BECAUSE I WOULDNT LEND YOU MY COMPUTER 3 YEARS AGO????? my mom literally told him we were gonna go there without even asking me if i wanted or even if i was gonna go. LOL, shes trying to emotionally manipulate me with older pictures of me and him , and games we would play together LOL. OMFG PLEASE SOME ONE, I DONT EVEN KNOW I NEED TO DIE OMFG... I CANT TAKE THIS FAMILY ANYMORE.

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divainity-a3 · 4 years

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annnndddd onnnnnn this episode of: r.iverdale is fucking stupid and disrespectful of every character trait reggie has and makes raven wanna pull out their fucking hair: this fugly scene!

( TW: ABUSE, ABUSE MENTION, PARENTAL ABUSE )

you might think: wow maybe raven likes this! it seems accurate to their headcanons about richard’s abuse n how reggie feels about it and they’ve often written threads where reggie does have a black eye because of his father!. maybe. but the way it’s presented and the way reggie’s communicating it? the fact that he IS communicating it period? nah.

1st of all, archie is the LAST PERSON REGGIE WOULD EVER CONFIDE IN ABOUT SHIT LIKE THIS. he even SAYS it in the fucking scene: you had everything i didn’t. why the fUCK would reggie cry to archie when archie is a constant reminder of the loving family he never had and never will have. why would he be openly vulnerable about that shit with the person who made him cynical and hateful of his parents in the first place? and WHY, please god tell me WHY would he take the time to answer the question calmly and not lash out in anyway.

second of all can you PLEASE tell me why ch.arles fucking m.elton, the UGLIEST man i have ever seen, is SMILING ??? WHILE HE SAYS THIS SHIT???? HUH??? im sorry is abuse FUNNY to the riverdale writers? if reggie were to even talk about it period he’d be closed off, upset, and extremely distant. im sorry but i said what i said: charl.es me.lton is the worst actor ive had the DISPLEASURE of seeing on any screen.

let’s go line by line so you can really understand where this is coming from:

“what do you want me to say? that my dad hits me? that he beats the crap out of me over the stupidest things?”

everyone knows im not team richard but richard has extremely valid reasons to be upset w/reggie. not to beat him, but be upset with him. why do i know this? because reggie goes OUT OF HIS WAY to infuriate his parents, not so they can beat him, but so he can have some kind of power in the dynamic. in the household. richard doesn’t escalate to hitting reggie unless he has a pretty good reason, which reggie is usually there to give, is what im trying to say. there is no ‘random outburst’ from richard, it happens and it’s wrong that it happens period.

“that he’s been doing it for as long as i can remember?”

just a horrible piece of written dialogue period but this just isn’t something he’d say. for the most part richard isn’t even around most of the time to do this and yes while it has gone on very long, it has never escalated to this level of visible and long-lasting injury until reggie grew up and “became a man,” a pivotal moment where richard decided he COULD hit reggie harder simply because he was older. which must mean he can take it, right? wrong so the ‘black eye’ shit wasn’t happening for ‘as long as he could remember’ because it wasn’t always this bad. it’s just gotten worse over the years.

“i was always jealous of the relationship you had with your dad.”

he wouldn’t openly admit that, he’s too prideful. why would he ever tell archie that he has something he wants because he runs on the fact that he wants NOTHING that archie has and is therefore superior. this wouldn’t happen. instead he’d call archie out on his privilege for not being able to fathom that his father hit him because his life is so picture perfect. also there’s something to be said about poc families beating their kids and white families babying them but that’s a whole other thing—

“no matter what you wanted to do, he always stood by you. i don’t know what that feels like.”

the core issue with reg and richard is that richard literally just hates reggie. period. richard talks SHIT with his coworkers about his deadbeat son. how much of a pest he is and how much he wishes he could have another son that wasn’t so disappointing and awful. furthermore, it’s not that reggie wants to do things that richard doesn’t like, it’s that he doesn’t want to do ANYTHING with his life and perpetually acts like a teenager as if he’ll be one forever. the IMMATURITY is the issue not what reggie “””wants to do””” because reggie doesn’t WANT to do anything.

“and when your dad died, all i could think was ‘what if it had been my old man instead?’”

i’ve said this before and i’ll say it again: reggie wouldnt give a fuck if his dad dropped dead. he’d be GRATEFUL, jesus christ— you really think reggies around here moping like ‘uGh i kNoW my dAd liTerally bEAts tHe sHit ouT Of mE but wHat iF He DiEd i’D bE sO saD i’d RaThEr hAvE hiM aLiVe aNd aBuSiVe tHaN DeAd— NO. reg! has wished! his dad! would just die! since he was old enough to understand what that meant. abuse made him cold and bitter and you can’t! blame him! fuck outta here with that ‘aW bUT i StIlL lOvE hiM hE’S mY dAd— if anyone understands what it means to say that ‘just because you’re related doesn’t mean you love each other’ it is REGGIE MANTLE in this ESSAY I WILL—

#I. ❰ HEADCANONS / METAS. ❱#abuse tw #parental abuse tw /#abuse ment #.... so anyway

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ughthatimagineblog · 6 years

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prove them wrong

steve harrington x reader

IMPORTANT: read the authors note you guys.

requested: IDK if there’s a Steve x reader request out there based off of the Nancy “bullshit” lines from season 2, but I’d LOVE a Steve x reader story where reader starts saying everything about their relationship is bullshit and Steve realizes it’s because she has parents going through a divorce so she thinks their relationship is going to fall apart like her parents

warnings: divorce between parents, yelling, parents fighting, fighting, (mental) images of emotional hurt

word count: 895

a/n: so i have personally been there as a young girl for my parents divorce so I tried to write my perspective on this. it’s such a hard thing to deal with and i am so sorry if your parents have gone/are going through this. but i want every single one of you to remember that you are NOT your parents and your spouse/boyfriend/girlfriend/partner/s.o is NOT them either. you are your own person and you CAN choose to learn from their misfortune instead of learn to mistrust. my dad cheated and lied and now i still have a bit of a hard time trusting my boyfriend, who has repeatedly proved to me is a good man and loyal and honest, who has expressed the want to spend literal eternity with me and who treats me like a queen. he is the light of my life and deserves the entire world. he’s my dream come true, my real life prince and he doesnt deserve that and i’m working everday to fix what broken pieces my dad left. i wouldnt wish that on anyone ever. so please, if you would like to talk about it, i’m here and i’ll help to the best of my abilities. you are all strong and please remember YOU ARE NOT THEM. YOUR RELATIONSHIPS ARE NOT MIRRORS OF THEM. TAKE A GOOD LESSON OUT OF THIS. THIS WILL TEACH YOU TO BE STRONGER I PROMISE. best wishes to all of you lovelies <3

You hold your breath, trying to count to ten. The sounds, the vibrations, the echoes of screams from down the halls. With every yell it shattered your walls and made you realize that this was what everyone was destined for. Damage. Destined for damage. The words played like a mantra in your head.

And no amount of convincing, you thought, would convince you otherwise.

Your parents were in the middle of a divorce. It didn’t exactly help when you were in the middle of a loving relationship. With Steve Harrington. King of Hawkins High. The days grew longer and standing by his side, you felt empty. Like you were now waiting for the two of you to break up like you were bound to like your parents. It’s what it felt like. Your world was breaking to say the least and Steve was about to get the brunt of the storm. You were in his car, driving down main when he took the turn into the neighborhood. Your neighborhood. “No, Steve, I don’t want to go home.” You insisted. And he shrugged. “C’mon, you live right here, I can’t just turn around and drive all the way-” “Steve do not take me home.” You insisted, but he persisted. “Look, Y/N, I don’t see what the big deal is, we went to my house last time.” He said as he pulled into your drive. You huffed out before getting out of the car. “Just forget it. Go home, Steve.” You said, coldly. “What? Y/N. . .” “What? You think this matters? Big news, I don’t care. So just go. It’s bullshit anyways. All of this is bullshit.” You slammed the car door shut but he heard you through his open window. “Just go home. . . The yelling again. The arguing. It gets louder every night now. Once you tried to stop them. You figured begging on your knees for your father to stop screaming that it would help. They ignored you. The next day at school you didn’t show. You couldn’t. You were breaking. You drove out of town and stopped in the diner your parents would take you to when you were younger.

Steve, at school, asked around where you were. Only Sandra was able to answer. “She said she was taking a day off or something.” Steve was dumbfounded and hurt. He called your relationship bullshit and now you’re skipping town? His anger was evident on his face and Sandra saw. “Hey, calm down. She deserves a break.” She warned and Steve’s expression grew puzzled. “Why?” He asked simply. “You don’t know? Jeez, I figured you’d know.” She scoffed and popped gum that was in her mouth. “Well, I don’t so could ya cut the crap an’ tell me?” Steve asked, annoyed and serious. “Fine. Her parents are in the middle of a divorce. People say it’s real bad. Tommy Smith is her neighbor and he says they can hear Mr. and Mrs. Y/L/N yelling at each other every night. Really tearing her apart. She said she needed some time to think.” Sandra told him and his heart sank. It explained everything. Time to think, he thought to himself. A light bulb went off. The diner! You had talked about it non-stop when he first met you. It’s where you went on your first date with him and you told him it was your peaceful place. It was maybe five minutes outside of town so without hesitation he grabbed his jacket and took off, ignoring the teachers calls for him to return to class.

When he arrived you were sitting in one of the seats by the window on the far end of the diner. You were alone, coffee cup laced in your hands and there were tear stains on your face. His heart sank more. “Y/N. . .” He began but you held up your hand. “Steve, save it. We should just end it while we are ahead. I mean what are we together for? We aren’t going to get married, or you don’t want to eventually and we are just destined to break up either way.” You ranted, the anger and sadness boiling within you. “It’s fine if we do. I mean I’m hurt but I’m not going to sit here to waste away like-” “Them.” He finished for you. You looked up at him. How did he know? “I know all about your parents, and we won’t be like them. I promise. I do want to marry you, believe it or not.” Steve mentioned and your heart leapt. “I know it sounds crazy but I love you. We will go through hardships. Mountains, valleys, oceans and desserts and everything in between,” He held your hands across the table. “But i’d risk anything for you and I’ll be here through it all. This is just more of an uphill mountain hike than a downhill one.” He said with a smile and you laughed, allowing tears to fall. You were wrong about no amount of convincing could ever “convince you otherwise”. Because Steve just did. “Now, I know this isn’t all bullshit. And I know I love you. So I just want to know, do you want to prove your parents wrong with me?” He said, soft look in his yes. You nodded, wiping away your tears. “Yes.”

I hope everyone enjoyed <333

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newtandalittlepeter · 4 years

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Imagine meeting Peter at a ball

As I look into the mirror one last time, my eyes set on my dress. It's a ball gown and it's green and very sparkly. It's so sparkly that I can bet that I can blind a bird and it will fly into a window. Father is having the ball. The ball where I dance with men and find my suitor and they will take my hand in marriage. I wanna be my own queen. With no man. I don't need a man to take charge, I wanna meet someone and fall in love with them in my own. Being a princess has the perks but it isn't as fun and simple as it seems like in the books. I have crystal blue eyes and I have brown hair. I like fun. I like to break free and break rules and not give a crap in the world. But now I can't.

"You ready miss" my maid says. "Darcy, I'm 17 I want you so call me by my regular name..i don't wanna do this" I say looking down. "I wanna be my self, I am this princess that breaks rules has fun and doesn't care what anyone says. Why not be the same person I am but as queen. I don't wanna marry a man I don't love" she stares at my with sad eyes. "I know you do. But maybe there isn't anyone tonight. And after say you found no man" she says giving an idea. "Ya I can say that. But then they'll choose for me" I say rolling my eyes. "Yeah" she says. "But right now we need to go" she says grabbing onto my arm and we walk to the top of the stairs case. I stare at the people down below. They all stop and stare at me. I slowly walk down looking down. As I finally reach the bottom i walk over to my parents. "You look georgous honey" my mom says. "Ya green is your color" my dad says smiling. "Ya you would know" I say bluntly. My dad has never really been involved in my life ever. I never ran around the palace screaming 'daddy' when I was an infant while her father was running after her trying to tickle her. No mine was in his room either drinking or working everyday. I wasn't as close to my mom but I was closer to her then my dad. I then walk away into the crowd and quietly out the door. I can feel someone's eyes on me but I don't care to turn around.

As I walk outside I sit on a bench, staring into the pond I always loved. I then hear someone walking near. Closer and closer. I stand up and I see a man, he's dressed in a suit, had brown hair and georgous Brown eyes. He is extremely handsome. "Princess" he says bowing but has a eyebrow raised. "Man" I say as I courtesy. "Why you out here all alone? The party is in there" he asks. "Party?" I scoff. "Ok arranged marriage is a party these days huh?" I cross my arms. "Well not exactly..green?" He says. "What?" I ask confused. "Your dress. Green?" He says. "Have a problem?" I say offended. "No. Green is my color actually. Just no one wears green, especially when it comes to dresses" he says truthfully. "Ya well green apparently brings out my eyes and hair" I say putting my hand on my left hip. "It does" he smirks. I blush a little. "What's your name Mr. Flirt" I say giving a small smile. "Peter. And yours?" He says. "Mine, your at my kingdom looking for my hand and you confess you don't know my name" I say stepping foward confused cocking my head to the side. "Well I don't live around here, I live in a far away land" he says. "Well Peter.. I'll see you inside" I say walking past him. "Name?" He says. "See you Peter" I smirk and walk inside smiling to my self. He's really cute. Like super cute. Maybe he won't be a bad husband. Idk I guess I felt a connection but right now I want food. I walk over to the big table of food and loom around. "Found anyone yet" Darcy comes up behind me. "Maybe no yes. Idk" I say. "Ohhh do tell" she says excited. "His name is Peter. We met outside. He's not from here and just visiting I think. He doesn't know my name so I'm playing around with him. But I felt a connection" I admit smiling. "Aww. Tell him to dance" she says. "Maybe" I sat nodding and then I walk away. The music starts playing. Oh boy. Men and women start dancing. I always smile when I see old couples dance. I want that I'm my future. I start walking into the dance. Walking and twirling around people.

My eyes land on Peter. He's leaning against the wall with crossed arms staring at me smirking. I walk over and he stands up straight. "Princess" he greets. "Peter" I smile. "Need something" he asks. "Yes actually" I start, and hold out my hand. He cocks a brow. "Huh?" "Let's dance" I say. He confusingly takes my hand and we go to the dance floor. "I can't dance" he wispers. I giggle. "I'll teach you" I start showing him the steps. Later on"seee" I say excited and giggling. He is a fast learner. He smiles. I see my parents are staring at us. My mom is smiling big and my dad is staring. No expression. But what does he care. Peter is having fun and so am I. I squel as he lifts me up in the air doing a spin. As the dance is over we stop and stare into eachothers eyes. "Y/N" I say. "Your name?" He asks. I nod. He smiles. "Well Y/N it's been a pleasure getting a dance with you" he smiles and give my cheek a gentle kiss and he walks away. Everyone claps and they all calm down and start talking. I walk over to my parents. "Sweetheart he's cute" my mom says proud. "Ya he is. You looked happy" my dad says. "Ya the only man I looked happy with in years" i say glaring at him. He walks away. Maybe in called for but he arranged all of this. "Anyways, you should ask him to dance again. A slow dance is coming up and that depends on which man you will marry" she says smiling. I smile and walk away. Maybe Peter will be a good suiter as a husband. I find him and walk up to him smiling. "Hey" we both say at the same time and chuckle. "A slow dance is coming up, come on" I say nodding to the dance floor. He smiles and looks down for a second and looks back at me. "The slow dance determines the husband choice" he says like I don't know. I looks down and play with my fingers. "You want me to be your husband?" He says confused but starting to slowly understand. I don't dare to look up. "I'm not a prince y/n. I don't live in a kingdom, I have people where I live that depend on me. And me only. I can't abandon them and leave them to fend for themselves" he says honestly and guilty for not saying anything earlier. "I understand" I say awkward and sad. "Goodbye Peter. I wish you farwell and good luck for your people." I smile and walk away. Eyes stinging. I walk to Darcy with sad eyes and she hugs me. Not saying anything.

Peter--

I wanna marry this girl. But I can't leave the lost boys. My island. I feel hard for this girl and I turned down the offer to marry her...i wonder...

My thoughts are cut off by me flying out the window following y/n and the other girl. I fly into the first open window and sneak into the room they are in. "He said no. He said he can't leave his people. I don't understand. Why not they come here? We have extra houses and I'm sure that we can use the extra space in the land." That's a good idea actually. But my island...."I know sweetie. Just breath" the girl says. "I'm supposed to pick a husband TODAY Darcy! I don't want another man touching me. Kissing me. Hugging me. Holding my hand. The father to my kids!! What if he's a douce?? What if he's a cheater?? A terrible leader for the island?? A horrible husband?? What if he's a rapist and rapes me?! Or hurts my kids and me?!" Y/N cried. Oh no, no one is touching her. Only me. She is mine. "Darcy!" Someone from the hall way yells. She quickly walks out of the room an closes the door. I step out of hiding. She turns around and jumps. "Ahh!" Well never scare y/n. "Hey" I say simply. "You scared me" she says putting a hand on her heart. "What are you doing in here? How did you even get in??" She questions. "Ok don't freak out" I say carefully. She nods. I can't believe I'm doing this. I jump out the window and she screamed my name and ran to the balcony. Then I then see her eyes widen when I appear in front of her. "You f-fl-fly?" She stutters. "Ya" I say. "Uh-uhm"she is out of words. I mean who wouldnt? Your seeing a human fly. I then gently land next to her. Her face is pale and she's shaking. I stare at her. "What is your name?" She says. "Oh did I forget to introduce myself? I'm Peter. Peter pan" i sat fully introducing myself. "Peter pan" she says scoffing uncomfortable. "Well Peter pan i don't know what kind of things your on this night but if you will excuse me-" I sit her off by kissing her deeply. After a minute I let go. We're both breathing heavy. I slowly wrap my arms tighter around her waist as if it were the end if the world and I slowly lift us both up into the air. "Peter Peter Peter!" She warns scared. I chuckle and I slowly take off. She screams and buries her head into my neck. I chuckle and I bring us to be flying above the water. She looks and sighs. She slowly brings her hand down into the water and her fingers traces into the water as we fly through the air. She closes her eyes enjoying the wind blowing into her face. I stare, I stare and I stare at her face that can make anyone bow down and swear to god how beautiful she is. I kiss her forehead. There is no denying how much I fell for this girl. She is perfect. I only met her a few hours ago and here I am kissing and flying with her. What is wrong with me. But there is one thing I know for sure. "I'll marry you y/n"

Y/N--

Did I just hear that right. I look at him. He nods and kisses me again. I swear my insides jumped and came out of my mouth. And my heart is taking control and this is what I said

"i love you Peter" "now you may kiss the bride" and Peter then dips me into a kiss and everyone claps and cheers.

"My princess" Peter says as we walk onto the dance floor. "Well I'm not a princess now am I Peter?" I smirk. "My apologies my queen" he corrects and I giggle. And we dance and dance.

#peterpanfanfiction #peterpanimagine #peterpanfanfic #peter pan fanfic #robbiekayimagine

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tumblunni · 7 years

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Okay.. fucking... I have never had such a horrible unsatisfying ending experience with a stupid fuck game I unlocked the fuckin secret overpowered White Dragon I fuckin went on errantry every week for three years had 999 attack accuracy and speed and STILL could not beat the fuckin big 4 tournements only got ONE RANK higher than I did before and when i tried using a game shark to see the ending, it just fuckin glitched out on me and there was no ending?? I’m pretty sure it glitched out BEFORE that, too, cos when I beat the third big 4 it wouldnt dissappear from the calendar, it kept coming around every year no matter how many times I beat it so im pretty sure it wasnt anti cheat protection or something, the game just crapped out on me cos id played SO MANY ingame years GAHHHHHHHH and I looked up the ending on youtube and JESUS CHRIST its fuckin shit anyway after the hell of the big 4 you just get YET ANOTHER tournement, an exhibition match against that same white dragon and after that you just get ‘congrats, master rank’ like you just get it in the mail congrats ur rank went up and aroma says ‘plz stay on our ranch forever, buddy’ and the credits roll and there’s no real conclusion and we never fuckin learn about aroma’s dead dad WHY DID YOU EVEN MENTION SHE HAD ONE and GAHHHHHHHHHH mr advance is the worst monster rancher game ive played so far ... but at least I got to see the special crossover match with Colt from MR2 i’m happy she’s become a famous rancher! and it was cute that she uses a white mocchi named Much instead of Most its funny how the game has SO MANY easter egg mentions of Most! apparantly he was just as popular in the japanese fandom too. I guess the white dragon was meant to be this game’s equivelant of him, but its not nearly as charming. anyway now i am FUCKING DONE with this game at last i love all my sweet monsters but i hate this game i wish i could rescue them from it!

#bunni plays MR advance

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khlln · 7 years

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The Innocent.

Growing up I was never too sure on what I felt. 'Hey that's a girl' never really hardened a member for me. Tits and a cleavage were never really a turn on. I guess it was more of a 'Yeah, I'll grow into it I guess...' That one feeling alone, is one of the hardest decisions to pass by, Ill explain later. Growing up with 4 sisters I kinda grew to just loving girls, and appreciating them for who they were. Preschool to grade 4 flew with a breeze. A few little crushes flew threw my life, well, not so much crushes more like obsessions, but anyways. Of course I was only 5-9 so I really had no idea on what I had felt. A few girls I distinctively remember liked me and I liked them back, but I didnt know at the time, and never bothered to take up on these 'missed opportunities'. Time goes by and ages fly up. Maturity starts to build its little foundation, and time starts to really take its toll. Grade 4 hit me, and a little storm had start to erupt. Cause at the time of this period my body had begun to mature. I was growing into a man. And with manhood comes sexual orientation, and sexual drives, however unlike mine, all of the 'men' in the grade had a sexual drive towards woman. this was so evidently displayed in the way they would act and talk to a girl. following suit, I kinda did the same. Knowing from previous knowledge I'd play soccer, or play with the girls and guys. I was just a young innocent kid. Nothing more nothing less. Sweet innocent fun. God how I wish I could turn back time. At quite an early age for a young male, being 9 at my first experience of sexual attraction was very misleading. I had no real trust in my parents or in a close friend to ask about, so I kinda just kept it to myself and went on with life. Times flickers by, the classroom clock rotates about 330 times before year end and sitting in class, something I never knew would affect me, has rippled into the tragic mess I call today me. A little idea, a little image popped into a grade 4's mind. And that screwed him for a long time. An 'obsession' had begun to arise for someone, but for this time it wasnt a girl, it was a guy. Confused I kinda just questioned it being like 'Hey is he just a good friend or like ?' I didnt really know how to finish that sentence, I didnt really even know how to fully write propper sentences yet. I was only just beginning to do reading activities. A young child will play till his heart is content, however a mind of a young child will wander on a thought, maybe too far for mummy to reach. Curiosity killed the cat. Grade 5 comes along, into class I enter and this year swings by pretty well, more focused on school I didn't really realise much of an attraction to anyone. I kind of just let it be really. It never really bothered me, it didnt come to mind. If I hadnt had to think about it, it wouldnt have had bothered me, so fine I was to say the least. Us 'big kids now' moved from the playground to the oval. Soccer fields and park benches were more accessable now, a more open field. This opened a lot more room for seperate groups to form within the grade cohort. Being more femenine myself I chose to hang more towards the females, as my upbringing helped me connect more with them. Dad wasnt too full on in child hood, I lived with mum with him out of the house so a little feMALE i was. A lot of the boys in the grade didnt like this, and chose to ignore me, and become obnoxious. I kinda brushed it off being the little innocent child I am, hey they're having a bad day, its okay. A year with the girls had changed me, I had started to look the other way more often, watching the boys play soccer on the hills of the oval watching them run and get all sweaty. Watching them smile and laugh. Really cheesy crap now but then it was all we knew. I never ever really thought this was a bad thing. I never really considered this to be a bad thing at all, I just thought hey i like these guys a lot as friends. A year goes by, the strut begins, the voice goes femenine, the hair styles, the look, the self obsession started to roll in. This was the era of selfies. Capturing a moment of yourself by your front facing camera let to the great depression, which ill talk more about later on. Grade 6, a boy had sprung into my life, well more towards the end of grade 5. He was there so evidently in my life and it was so horrible to deal with. Cause I would non-stop think about him. Sports day comes in Grade 6, and happy as I can be, a comment thats scarring was made to me. for a boy had pushed me, and called me a name. a name that confused me, for so so long.

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askinfortroublee · 7 years

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Im so bored and geeked holy crap. Do people even still use this? I know i dont but social media is at the point where no matter how many times i refresh theres nothing new because everyones asleep. Why did i take adderall and drink coffee at 9 pm? Idk?? Guess i thought my homework would take longer. Anyways i hope i dont fail my math test tomorrow that would suck i already failed the class once oops. Still wondering who got me sent to standards/what video theyre referring to. Guess ill find out soon enough. Got another hot date with mike tomorrow hope i dont choke on my food like last time. Im not sure if he noticed though. Also i think my shoulders broken cuz me and jackson got into a bit of a tussle but thats okay cuz i punched him in the face. He busted my windshield tho, its ok cuz my dad got me a new one. #gloup. Jeez theres so many thoughts in my head legit i hate adderall for some reason i thought the same sentence over and over on repeat for like 30 minutes before even realizing it was happening. Why is everyone asleep? Why is it exam week? Why does my hd teacher have to take attendance? Should i email the snam lady back about my probation hours probably. Or ill call my dad in the morning. Anyways im thinkin bout switchin up my hair style. I wont be a teen much longer my next birthday is the big 20 so might as well switch my shit up ya know. I hope to god nobody is reading this. Maybe i should get up and do laundry nobody will be down there. But also im so comfy so prolly not also usually wednesdays they cook us bacon im really lookin forward to that. This is so entertaining honestly. I think i have cancer or diabetes though im prolly gonna get a physical when i come home from college. I should prolly work out too my body has gone quite downhill the past year or so. Prolly cuz i was dating pat and had nobody to look good for. Its ok ill get back on the #gains grind. Im so excited to see chris clements omg whata cutie pie i miss his hugs. Also my mom is so mad at me that she uninvited me from her birthday party how hateful is that..??? And its the weekend before finals so its dead in alabama. Fuck it who needs birthday parties not me ill just study and drink beer. Emmas coming to visit me this weekend thats really exciting i hope she enjoys bama. Who wouldnt tho its the tits shes gonna have a seizure in the boomboom room i almost did the first time i went in that shit. Oh gosh what if i lose her.. thatd be bad but shes more responsible than me. Im a total wanderer. we have a date party next week but i cant go cuz im on bad standing so im hoping all my friends decide not to go and then we can do tshirt tuesday. If not i can go do tshirt tuesday with mike though and then we'll have a sleepover. Hes lotsa fun super super hot. My stomach rlly hurts but its too cold to reach for the tums. Someone read this and remind me to go to the tanning bed tomorrow. This is such a long paragraph. I wonder if my friend carly is awake. She has tons of snacks and i bet would give me sleeping medicine. Its 4:15 i have class at 10 and a test at 12 this rlly is so unfortunate. I rlly wish i had a beer. Maybe if i drink a handle ill just passout and wont be tired in the morning. Wow now i just had the sad thought that i only have 2 weeks left in bama. Like what the FUCK. I thought highschool went by fast but this is next level shit. And its so much better. Like yall i am such a better person now and my friend group is so wonderful i am 100% thriving. thank god im not one of those people who goes to college and hates it and transfers to be with their hs friends cuz they never make new ones. Like yall this is the best place ever. I want to live here over the summer but also that would require homework and my brain is very close to just like shutting off. My teacher asked me a question the other day and all i could do was stare at him for a minute and then say "i honestly have no clue what u said or how to answer at this moment" and he just laughed and moved on. Everyone in hs says college professors are gonna be so mean and shit but really they do not give af what u do honestly. Ok my fingers hurt goodnight

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#lawyers .@law @law .@laws .@harvard_law @ap @reuters @bbc _whys @france24 @snowden @haaretzcom dont get nuts over it, its not so complicated: because. it. is. intel. it.is .all about. which. trick. works. th istime. get furious about it not nuts about it itis lay er1 causing authorities with control accomplice rapedmoleste d damamged themselves whatthey can host layer2 cockroaches immunsied todowhat wish hope pretend youre their underhuman candowhattheywant with civillians usually willalways try sth . coordinated more orless or invited orhosted only as proxies dont get nuts about it get mad about it isuggest: a sero tolerance dont touch it. offthewalls. off the health. itdoesntmatter what youwant whatyoupret end what youtry donttouchit. if youre support coordinate with support your ideas are: /// what doyou do about 19years of microscopy while they shuffled sexual asssault then someone germancures your nuts to a smeary fatty or sth becaus e they s u s p e c t something this. itisntjust shuff led sexual assault itisntjust deedtyped allalong iit is dee dtyped after daytimecharging it repeatedly risking allmy rights and anything to because thecausing authorities quell th e charging and thefix the fix is letmore and shuffle mor e sexual assault and try togive it an alibi nomatter how coun terfactuall this. what is against this. //// lawye rs ofmine ******** had one single trick worked unthinkable what wouldhappen next: disassemble this trick ie: becaus e we declare him nuts we dont compensate what we overtape allalong because he aeh molests little furry sexcat s and sex hedgehogs, we must not compensate what we damage rape and smear . this ********** had one trick worked unthinkable ////// #lawyers law .@laws .@harvard_law @ap @reuters @bbc_whys @france24 @snowden @haaretzcom what is the state ofmind of the charged government: when they just have to find a trick that puts you inyourplac e a trick that you give up atrick that resets your brain a trick that shows they dominate y ou and you must obey like youhave no choice this is the stateofmind this itis idontcare whatthey fake idont car e howthey goodcop badcop idontcare how they play sorry theyrenot this. is their stateofmind what do you do abo ut it it explains a long long lattice of messes and dirty t ricks furthermore ////// #sexland #sex #land @all @world @globe @booking .@law .@laws .@harvard_law @ap @reuters @ bbc_whys @france24 @snowden @haaretzcom youjustdont getit the german goverment rapes thecivil population that is no t immunised against intel coma s wheres the news they p orn the c r a p out of em they sell em as sexslave on int elcoma if they can they preplan their careerrs and setemup who exploits who first and benefits how they controlem lik e forehead braincooked fools like children like fools they hol d as underhuman exploitable underhumans that is the basi s of it all when a civillian daytime charged the basis ofthe ir security system: they did any harm they remotely had th en used proxies then played good cop bad cop hunting them eb cause we forced em to and this is the basis ofthe case guilty liable causing criminal governments that dowhatthe y want withthe civil population charged daytime for staying damamges and coverup and hightheft using their security system as prison gig trick is th at clear now itis not a single case itisnot the german ho okerofthe land itis one of 60million abused civillians that charged the crap out of em for w hatthey did here with the civil population for70years /// /// btw2 get allthe clowns offmy privacy superprivacy i n t i m a c y the scums meld their perverts onthe case a nd see if later daytiem anything is confirmation tothat then its confirmed orsth jail asstoyer dicktoyermolester itis di sgusting cockroaches that reinterpret on deeply intimate things after raping and pedo sexual assaulting nomatter how oft en idaytime chbarge it i am furious about it th e cockroaches braindamamge forehead and suffocate the c r a po outof me and damamge erase me ihate em its legit to and iam furious about it ida ytime chargedit atleastfive times locally and fivetimes eu they shuffle sexual assault repeat humiliate and seee how pervert you are coifirmation i hate them idontlive by hate minors wemust rescue but the scums get offfffthe case andif wehave tohunt the scums for the authorities t he authroties gotojailwithem they host em coverem anyway ho st em whenthey cant tax it a trickfailed then itnensified pe do tricks thisishowit works its criminal government authrotieis criminal authorities shuffling proxies guil ty liable accomplice control usually maybe unbriefed fools th at get shit into their head to mess wit an excuse ser o tolerance with sexual abuse sexual assault the authorities do their job and hunt thweir cockroaches an d if we must theygotojailwith the scums they sat and l et rapes poisosn rapes galore arbitrary whattttheywant whowa nts cinema grocerystore chameber arbitrary rapoes rape inschool and cinema arbtirary rtape ******** rape allth time manytiems deedtyped w e force them to hunth eir cockroach german cockroaches thatthey are withthe authroi ties or they gotojail both withthe scums when wemust hu ntem an this we must do ***************** //// lawyers that is 90billion euro s fortune of earned tbhings with what icould ninety billion before like 67billion do you wonder what scums would do when they think its vulnerable o r get access with a trick beit separating it away from that guy they dowaht they want with and act like its mysteriously created not from what thatguy co uld and did it is ninety billion a share of which weal th generated you donot make it vulnerable to anyone a mat ter of granted or not granted if a trick works or sth i tis daytime court demanded ina mess where they quell immunisat ion and quzelled the case intothe daytimebubble inthe firstplace they shuffle tricks li ke bum med s or braindamamged fool careers and its just your own fault that you mysteriously didnt pick a dayfool career while allrealdeal wouldnt matter this shit you get off me and you get rational abou t what kinds of scums will a l w a y s try sth about the fortune if it seems arbitrary separated away fromthat guy and thatguys performance systemic trickery to be g r a n t e d maybe when he doestn rememeber or is incapacitat ed and allthese shits if he as dayfoolsomehow something they trashcan killtrick and harm and hookertrick and degrad e as if the fortune wouldnt be real and asif i daytime demanded my ufo or sth seriously. harden the fortune from b ullshit systemic ornot bust separation tricks of fortune and thatguy performance of thatguy separatedaway and be rat ional about what scums will a l w a y s try sth that is ************* 90bi llion from this very head of what icould and the yeffort br aindamage and heartkill and bum meds and gurtslock andpathogens and tobe granted or not separ ation of fortune and performance asif im a fool they put in a frozen tube and keepthemoney trick at best thefffff ff f f f f f f f ff f f f f f involve serious insurances and reinsurers ifnecessary inclu de atomic hardening serobullshits agaisnt fraudsystems and cri minal govts and thanks forall *************** ///// wha t mom theme is the theme ididnt know moms or sth and ididntmi nd itis agerman shitball about underdevelopment usually or perversions or sth asif you sense mom s or sth because thats w hat you surely want thatkindof german ness //// lawye rs because imminent danger and war is so severely bad enough i say no capital punishments whenever possible:! a l w a y s no capital punishment no dea thpentalty scums go tojail cant be fun in there important is they understand they dodged capital punishment for real I am Christian KISS BabyA WACS – Raw Independent Sophistication #THINKTANK + #INTEL #HE LLHOLE #BLOG https://www.BabyAWACS.com/ [email protected] PHONE / FAX +493212 611 34 64 Helpful? Pay. Support. Donnat e. paypal.me/ChristianKiss //// xraybeam trick heartaime d //// 1634 repair? or leechery /// pathogen murderer gases 1518 batih above abovesdjancent or cirucitboard. squeez etheockroach shifted from xraytrick before //// xray mur derbeam beta highpowered orand transmutation 1500 1511 above aboveadjkacent knows I am Christian KISS BabyAWACS – Raw Independent Sophistication #THINKTANK + #INTEL #HELLHOLE #BLO G https://www.BabyAWACS.com/ [email protected] PHONE / F AX +493212 611 34 64 Helpful? Pay. Support. Donnate. paypa l.me/ChristianKiss /// after which damage and degradation would #you! have said: “mmaaa yn adunno.. allthe beer and stuff and their fhaaantastic cars drivingby .. but youknow.. iki nda miss my genitals…” for them it makes sense //// intelligence genomes more from the mother usually has also s ome implications of why it is as it is shewas morelike lisa simpson and dodged studying inthe 70s because parent got ill and died then got hepatitis nex t year then met my dad with his heavymotor bike another lif e spoiled (haha) /// the glorious german careers with tho se stamps visualise it /// it wouldbe epic justice if ger mans would try to pillgage the case but oneof their earlier damage tricks fucks em instead letalone any invention after which staying harms it doe snt work both ways, einstein can be cooked to a fool but a fool cannot be einstein as extreme example //// this howth ey are mustve been obviosu other cases too ofreailtime botch things #failed #virginity #test #2001 .@law @harvard_law @ap @reuters @bbc_whys @france24 @ haaretzcom @snowden .@fisa @judge .@judge @judges because th e germans damage their civillians fairly arbitrarily and cover these with standard stigm as thisis how it really is allalong ***** lets find the c over alibis like retard stamps itis a stigma dyslectic m e!! (nickname schnellschreiber 3rd/felt abit artificial bllah) but dyslectic- it is ? a stig ma ***** virginity ?! meh. unless its a stigma one shi tball bites the other but that doesnt keepem from rig ht. then. getting away with something damnthe factuality bas is I am Christian KISS BabyAWACS – Raw Independent Soph istication #THINKTANK + #INTEL #HELLHOLE #BLOG https://www.Bab yAWACS.com/ [email protected] PHONE / FAX +493212 611 34 64 Helpful? Pay. Support. Donnate. paypal.me/ChristianKiss / // demand a hook on abstracthumour abstract analysis fr omfools they dont getit toooousually /// backlegv to genital implant is hiughly heartkill relelvant makesur e theresno damamge added so gutslock gutsusdudue rmeotecontrol led the technology is masseldorn badenser whale landesve rfassungsschutz //// squeeze lympahtic aimer 2310+-2 it s like eastern sexdrug orso //// xraybeam heartaimedd le ftchestaimed radar or beta transmutation allthetime as 20 pm 2020 2040 2245 allthetime //// store onlineban king 2100+-7 woa backleg heartkillrelelvant 2107 acesser squ eeze after this mail: “whatis hkkaz,hkcaz,hkccs abbreviat ions inthe local bank account wahtis fortune amount total” //// which fortune sums over which timeframes make sure its notarstamped courtusable and when daytimedemanded daytime court demanded iget damaged chav harmed all the t ime find xraybeamtrick 2040 20pm-2020pm //// authorites gotojail when wemust hunt pathogen murderer above for em letaloneif theauthroites grant em access or cause thekilltrick ///theyarenot competent they shuffle scums that try sth. pathogen murderer above 1500 stuffhimthemix galore. allofit o nsite . who was onthe case 12,000persons andthefinest an other good indication for intel #sex #sexual #potence #balls #trick @ap @reuters @bbc_whys @france24 .@world @world @all be cause itis intel itis which trick works. batshitnuts? criminal? terrorist? pedo? fool? alljust adream nowhy was sth beca use itis intel which trick works has a l w a y s beentheg ame isuspect people know but thats not the case youmay count the shuffled harms priming (itis a chip bring all banan as: academic: wtf?!??why everyone throwing banaanas atme) framing (as the transvestite that he is, yousee he has long hair: you: theffffff?!?!???) woodbride (he sits alone inhis chamber and designs bride dresse s for his great wedding day ahead. which may eventually occur s o m e d a y/ he hopes it inc reases his sexual potence if he adds allkinds of balls on it blah) smashwords.com/books/ view/552210 /// howmany harms like guts and genitals and ass and facebone were from 2004 it was bad and experiment k illit but itwasnot these 5years intnsified killtricks with shuffled any harm leecheries morbusmake backlegheartdiea se poisons xrays mengeles pathogens lympahtic aimed trick s gutssubdue dozens of headimacts nanofineduts obscure tr icks like lifetime leech and fibrin leech andsuch and inter oxid austausch arsenide suffocate trisk itis constant try anything that it dies whichtrick thistime with plausible de niability I am Christian KISS BabyAWACS – Raw Independent S ophistication #THINKTANK + #INTEL #HELLHOLE #BLOG https://www .BabyAWACS.com/ [email protected] PHONE / FAX +493212 61 1 34 64 Helpful? 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Donnate. paypal.me/ChristianKis s /// because itis intel itis which trick works. batshit nuts? criminal? terrorist? pedo? fool? alljust adream nowhy was sth because itis intel which trick works has a l w a y s beenthegame isuspect people know but thats not the case youmay count the shuffled harms priming (itis a chip bring all bananas: academic: wtf?!??why everyone throwing ban aanas atme) framing (as the transvestite that he is, yousee he has long hair: you: thefffff f?!?!???) woodbride (he sits alone inhis chamber and designs bride dresses for his great wedding day ahead. which may eventually occur s o m e d a y/ he hopes it increases his sexual potence if he adds allkinds of balls on it blah) smashwor ds.com/books/view/552210 /// howmany harms like guts and g enitals and ass and facebone were from 2004 it was bad and experiment killit but itwasnot these 5years intnsified kil ltricks with shuffled any harm leecheries morbusmake back legheartdiease poisons xrays mengeles pathogens lympahtic a imed tricks gutssubdue dozens of headimacts nanofineduts obscure tricks like lifetime leech and fibrin leech andsuch and interoxid austausch arsenide suffocate trisk itis constant try anything that it dies whichtrick thistime with p lausible deniability I am Christian KISS BabyAWACS – Raw Independent Sophistication #THINKTANK + #INTEL #HELLHOLE #BLOG https://www.BabyAWACS.com/ [email protected] PHONE / FA X +493212 611 34 64 Helpful? 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Well what a way to start off my first blog , talking about suicide huh? I was gonna talk about how my morning went with my son because it was a rough one. He was super moody. But instead decided this. I came across a story this morning , or more a less an example. I’m gonna paste it , then after the story I’m gonna write some more. *BEGINNING* Want to kill yourself? Imagine this. You come home from school one day. You’ve had yet another horrible day. You’re just ready to give up. So you go to your room, close the door, and take out that suicide note you’ve written and rewritten over and over and over You take out those razor blades, and cut for the very last time. You grab that bottle of pills and take them all. Laying down, holding the letter to your chest, you close your eyes for the very last time. A few hours later, your little brother or sister knocks on your door to come tell you dinners ready. You don’t answer, so he walks in. All he sees is you laying on your bed, so he thinks you’re asleep. He tells your mom this. Your mom goes to your room to wake you up. She notices something is odd. She grabs the paper in your hand and reads it. Sobbing, she tries to wake you up. She’s screaming your name. Your brother, so confused, runs to go tell Dad that “Mommy is crying and sissy won’t wake up.” Your dad runs to your room. He looks at your mom, crying, holding the letter to her chest, sitting next to your lifeless body. It hits him, what’s going on, and he screams. He screams and throws something at the wall. And then, falling to his knees, he starts to cry. Your mom crawls over to him, and they sit there, holding each other, crying. The next day at school, there’s an announcement. The principal tells everyone about your suicide. It takes a few seconds for it to sink in, and once it does, everyone goes silent. Everyone blames themselves. Your teachers think they were too hard on you. Those mean popular girls, they think of all the things they’ve said to you. That boy that used to tease you and call you names, he can’t help but hate himself for never telling you how beautiful you really are. Your ex boyfriend, the one that you told everything to, that broke up with you.. He can’t handle it. He breaks down and starts crying, and runs out of the school. Your friends? They’re sobbing too, wondering how they could never see that anything was wrong, wishing they could have helped you before it was too late. And your best friend? She’s in shock. She can’t believe it. She knew what you were going through, but she never thought it would get that bad… Bad enough for you to end it. She can’t cry, she can’t feel anything. She stands up, walks out of the classroom, and just sinks to the floor. Shaking, screaming, but no tears coming out. It’s a few days later, at your funeral. The whole town came. Everyone knew you, that girl with the bright smile and bubbly personality. The one that was always there for them, the shoulder to cry on. Lots of people talk about all the good memories they had with you, there were a lot. Everyone’s crying, your little brother still doesn’t know you killed yourself, he’s too young. Your parents just said you died. It hurts him, a lot. You were his big sister, you were supposed to always be there for him. Your best friend, she stays strong through the entire service, but as soon as they start lowering your casket into the ground, she just loses it. She cries and cries and doesn’t stop for days. It’s two years later. Your teachers all quit their job. Those mean girls have eating disorders now. That boy that used to tease you cuts himself. Your ex boyfriend doesn’t know how to love anymore and just sleeps around with girls. Your friends all go into depression. Your best friend? She tried to kill herself. She didn’t succeed like you did, but she tried…your brother? He finally found out the truth about your death. He self harms, he cries at night, he does exactly what you did for years leading up to your suicide. Your parents? Their marriage fell apart. Your dad became a workaholic to distract himself from your death. Your mom got diagnosed with depression and just lays in bed all day. People care. You may not think so, but they do. Your choices don’t just effect you. They effect everyone. Don’t end your life, you have so much to live for. Things can’t get better if you give up. Stay strong 💕 *END* I’m gonna guess by this point you have tears in your eyes or are fully crying. For me I cried. How many of you have struggled with suicide attempts or at least thoughts ? I know most likely a lot of people. Thoughts more or so less than actually acting upon it. For me i would say suicide thoughts started around she 13. Something always had me down. I was bullied by this one particular kid , who by the way as an adult ended up alogozing to me and said he only did that because he thought I was better than him. Regardless I didn’t know that at the time but he just always gave me shit. Then there was a kid who would give me shit on the bus. It was so bad I ened up losing it on the bus one time because regardless of how many times he got in trouble he wouldn’t stop. My bus driver just let me go off on him because she could tell I was tired. Tired of always dealing with his non needed crap. I was always getting in trouble at hime for something. Me and dad would fight or me and my mom would discuss something or id do something wrong and she would ssy she wouldnt tell my dad but then would. There was times when my dad thought i was acting up he would go throught my room and take everything out or habe trash bags of stuff he was throwing away. There were times I would self harm as in I’d hit myself , that was the start. Then I read this book called cuts. So I thought maybe if I do that I’ll feel better. I remeber the first time I did it was nervous. But it was just scrstches honestly. Id use a safety pin. Then as stuff got more stressful at home I began using razor blades. Still not very deep just superficial, but I would do so many . Over time it just got worse , I would cut for whatever reason , regardless if I was happy or sad , at school or at home. I never really talked to anyone about any of this except one friend at school but I think eventually my parents were starting to catch on. My mom broke into my diary one day found out I was cutting and took me to see a counselor and they sent me to a psych hospital. It was just a pattern from there out. Group home , psych hospital. I was always doing something wrong. My attitude was wrong, my actions, the cutting. I lived in a group home my first suicide attempt. I stole a whole bottle of pills out of my teachers desk which I didn’t know what it was I just wanted to take it all! Snuck it into the group home then went into the bathroom and with just water in my hands slowly took the whole entire bottle. It didn’t take long before someone noticed I was looking funny I was getting really dizzy. They kept asking me what I did and I wouldn’t budge. They took me to the hospital and I finally told them what I did. They had to do a blood test to find out what I took and I had to drink this nasty charcoal stuff and spent the night in icu. Its so crazy to because i remeber being so scared to go to sleep that night that I wouldn't wake up. It goes to show that deep down i didnt want to die. Just wanted a temporary fix to my pain. But anyway What it was was doctor prescribed Tylenol. I almost shut my liver down. My attempt was not successful obviously nor did it do me any good. I got sent to a bootcamp place the next day left the hospital in handcuffs and shackles. I wanted to scream. I just tried to kill myself and I get sent to a freaking boot camp?! All that crap went on until I was almost 18. 5 years of back forth to different places all for my cutting and behavior. My past is something I will never forget but I’m glad to be alive because granted I went through things, hard things I feel , im close with God , me and my parents have a good relationship now, I also have a wonderful little boy and husband . All my hard times Have helped me get to where i am today .suicide def was not the answer but seemed like it was. You can over come anything , having the right positive surroundings and people in your life. For me my husband and me met when I was 12 and 13. We always tried to stay in contact while I was away but I wanted to see him so I tried to push through it all. It was a struggle there’s no denying that. But from my experience If my child is harming themselves , sending them away is the last thing I will do. Get them help yes. But I can’t put them thro what I went thro. I feel like I’m rambling now & this is the short version og my story lol. But there is a always a bright side at th3 end of the tunnel. Open up talk to someone , it can help.

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