you are a big blog you should support new content creators more often
first of all you assuming i have a big blog is funny, because i don’t. i do support content creators, but this new wave of content creators have zero fucking respect for the tannies and you can quote me on that. making gifs from sasaengs content left and right, making gifs of the boys crying and being vulnerable for some notes. you want me to support that? no thank you <3 there’s a lot and i mean a fucking lot of official content so no as long as they keep making gifs from that type content they aren’t getting my “support”.
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Moving towards recovery from an eating disorder isn't admitting defeat. Signs of recovery are not signs of failure.
You know how school can feel like a choice between shit mental health or shit grades? You try to balance the two, but one always comes out on top. I always prioritized my grades and to be fair that's what we're taught to do, many of us. By our society, parents, the way the system works for those that do/don't, and so on. It feels like the correct decision, the least shameful decision from a window glance.. Recovery feels like that sometimes. As if my eating disorder is a class I'm failing in the name of health.
I'm starting to notice I feel less guilty about my body & all than I did at the start of this but I feel so so ashamed of being "better" or healthier in any way. Like recovering screams "failure!"
This ties to the very things my ED was fueled by to begin with and I know it's the ED trying to hold on to that, to me. The destructive overachieving control seeking overwhelmed with intense emotions person in me. Jeez that's a mouthful 💀
⭐ alright I'll get back to the point of this little journal entry. The part where I talk to myself rather than to the page? You can't fail an eating disorder, an eating disorder makes you fail at living. Our eating disorder had its purpose, sure, but recovery is finding better ways to meet that purpose. Things that are positive to be good at. It won't hurt you to "fail" your eating disorder, that's just it being loud and obnoxious. Screaming, dying, clinging onto you, yeah you get the point. You might feel safer when you listen to that voice, in a multitude of ways even ... but that's the extent of it really. It's not truly safe, and it doesn't add value to the rest of our lives. It DRAINS our life. Our future, energy, health, time, and relationships. These are all examples of things we sacrifice to obey our eating disorder. That sounds like a class you want to drop out of to me.
Being "successful" at an ED is the least profitable thing you could do and getting that "A+" turns out to be dying. So again: Moving towards recovery from an eating disorder isn't admitting defeat. Signs of recovery are not signs of failure. You are restoring yourself and your life. These scary changes are for the better, and worth celebrating 💜
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The leftism leaving peoples’ bodies when I tell them that our hypervigilant internet culture which thrives on making callout posts on and cancelling random people for being “problematic” (ie mistakes they intend to learn from, normal parts of growing up they’ll grow out of, shipping something someone doesn’t like, etc) and never giving people second chances is inherently un-leftist
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not telling anyone what to do but I kinda miss when the understanding abt multiple pronouns used to be that any are fine or different ones apply in different contexts whereas now the default assumption is you need to be constantly switching between them per sentence like that is really inaccessible for a lot of people + difficult in a second language + just genuinely defeats the linguistic object of a pronoun 😭
but I think it came from being a tme she/they who no one ever uses they for which I understand the frustration but i wish we could approach the root causes of that rather than the way I've seen ppl claim not alternating pronouns for someone midsentence is literally misgendering & honestly at the end of the day if you don't want someone to use she pronouns for you, tell them not to use she pronouns! we were all pronouns=/=gender until its "they to show I don't identify with the institution of womanhood, she to show my connection with femininity" but honestly how do you actually like being referred to, worry abt that. if u actually don't like ppl using she to refer to u then tell them that & if the discomfort is bc it shows their perception of u doesn't align w ur gender then like performative language doesnt actually change that anyway so mb if we stopped worrying about this we could actually have way more worthwhile conversations about gender.
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