need sunday's touch so bad but he is being emo about it
wc: ~1370 // content & warnings!: pining, so close yet so far grr, sunday x gn!reader, pet name("little bird"), kissing n' touching but nothing explicit, slow burn-ish
a/n: i wrote this as a sequel in mind (part 1 here), but you could likely read this as a standalone. however, i make references to part 1 so it would probably flow nicer ٩(◕‿◕。)۶
"SUNDAY," YOU FIRMLY STOOD YOUR GROUND, "WE CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE."
the stars shone in sunday's eyes, shining golden with undying devotion to your sacred temple. between yours and his desperate eyes, millions of unspoken words traversed back and forth.
in his room, your hands gripped both arms of his chair, confronting him face-to-face. today, you will shatter your fears.
his eyes lowered, face tilted away. "i do not know what you are referring to."
your eyebrows furrowed. "don't give me that excuse."
you were both trying to hinder the fierce, unbreaking desire to tip the edges, testing patience.
all the emotions you have clutched in your heart weighed down on you, and it punished you the more you realised your fondness for sunday. when your eyes searched for him - and there he was - in the shadows without fail. when you caught the lift of his lips, cheeks, and eyes as your gazes met. and you do not realise how your smile naturally jumped higher until he abruptly left you alone. to acknowledge how much his presence affected you.
it constricted you slowly, a vice that gradually tightened as days passed. the love you reserved for sunday cast pain and joy - a double-edged sword.
"do you hate me?" you asked, resolute, yet trembling at the thought of his response confirming your anxieties.
sunday's eyes narrowed, questioning the nonsense you were spewing, tracing your hazy expression to figure you out.
"then why do you avoid me so?" you asked, "you have never stood within even arm's length. you have never handed me anything in person. you have never picked me up when i fell over. and... "
always so close but never there, your mouth opened but did not convey these last words. you shut your eyes momentarily. "i don't get it. please, tell me, anything please, just some words to explain this silent distance between us."
sunday's stare softened, wordlessly embracing your vulnerability. however, he was conflicted on whether to comfort you. to indulge in this new light at the end of the tunnel, which you forlornly wrenched with your hands, would be to infringe upon your divinity. his hands that have known endless suffering and sacrifice, could never dare to brush yours unless he craved to provoke the gods.
sunday paused a moment before announcing: "i will be leaving soon coming the charmony festival."
"... what?"
his words parted a greater distance between you two.
your vision clouded. the vice - tightened. relentlessly. twisting deep into your weakness, stripping you bare of your guard. you were hearing crashing waves and everything tipped over all at once. this was it.
"if you're leaving, i respect your decision. but you cannot leave me like this," you replied, biting your lip, "do not leave me to wonder what your touch would've felt like." wetness coated your eyes.
"my hands are unclean. i cannot grant you this." sunday vowed. his fingers opened but withdrew them just as quickly.
"so stupid," you muttered. your chest exploded, "then just taint me. corrupt. with your 'blood and sin'. after all, i am no saint either."
your fingers ghosted over his pristinely gloved hand. hands that, which 'hid blood and sin', had never once sullied a speck of your blessed body, gravely frightened of dulling your radiance with the slightest trespass into your orbit.
"i am not some deity that needs sheltering. i am just another existence, just as you are." you finished.
sunday's eyes widened, thunderstruck. you articulated reason into his stubborn mind: you were no godly being. your brightness made him believe he was not worthy of you; you were on the far horizon that was unreachable to him. yet, you were just another existence, just as he was.
he spoke hesitantly, "of course not. you are one of the strongest people i have had the pleasure of knowing. i know of your gratuitous kindness, strength and bright eyes. you are not anything less," his voice withered, "i did not mean to discredit you."
"then what is stopping you from me?" you taunted.
your ears drowned out everything but the rapid lifts and falls, and the deep and shallow pacing of his breaths. his fingers twitched in response, attempting his hardest to restrain whatever fragile control he had left.
he did not think you would confront him like this. he believed living in your shadow would make him insignificant enough for you to forget him after his plans. but you both could not ever forget each other. how could he forget you at all? he did not plan for this. how stupid he was.
he listened to your breathing, mimicking as you did to his, pacifying his wavering worries. your comfort and company felt natural, like home. the sun was dimming and the stars began to set in your eyes as they whispered reassurances. the apprehension of tomorrow was blanketed by your steady voice which commanded mountains and soothed fires.
you had stood on his horizon, finally within reach, and he was right there with you. the waves were slowing in his ears - he had returned to your shore.
he swiped the tears varnishing your glistening eyes, but not close enough to touch your skin. he was about to let the scales tip in favour of you. "so you would not mind? you would not mind me?"
your eyes formed their crescent shape and sunday melted into it. "you can be so stupid sometimes."
fervours resonated, heartbeat-to-heartbeat, pulsing for one another's precious touch.
it pained both of you greatly to observe how the other needed, yearned, yet never touched.
magnetised, yet ill-fated to repel; parallel lines that would never meet; the inverse ebb and flow of day and night. the universe tried its hardest to work against them.
to brave beyond the barriers enforced by universal law would be to risk everything faithful in the world.
with one more breath, all fears finally shattered.
your touches finally found each other, joining at the horizon.
initially, awkwardness hung in the air. shuffling and shifting. fluttering fingers and bashful staring. contented smiles and chuckles at the unimaginable situation they had wandered into. like a mirror, reciprocating back and forth, neither knowing what to do. overwhelmed but delighted.
sunday decided to make the first venture. he gently unfastened his gloves, to your surprise, and you learned every scar, bump and discolouration on his bare hands. it was not hideous, nor did it bear any sin. it was only human.
your hand crawled up his palm and he quivered at first before settling into your solace. fingers instinctively intertwining - a key and lock that fit each other. his thumb grazed your knuckles. you drew along the lines of his lips and he released an unsteady breath, nestling into your touch.
the way his palm timidly sketched the outline of your body but did not initiate further. how he shrank as much as possible to house you on his lap. when he looked at you, infatuated, puppy-like, waiting for you to throw him a bone. anything. he was all yours to command.
so you shed your shame and press a kiss on the corner of his lips. you did not move far, lingering in front of his face. it took him by surprise, evident by the pink flush on his face and the fluttering of his wings above his ears. akin to a dog wagging its tail.
he inhaled deeply. an indiscernible look flashed on his face. his brilliant eyes eclipsed, darkening, and his face tipped over. his lips hovered by your ears, on the verge of precariously meeting if you did not back away.
"bad..." he mumbled, "you are a bad little bird."
electric ran up your spine as the words left his deceptively innocent lips. you sat up straight, at attention, the sensation of heat overriding your senses.
"a-ah..." you could only focus on the fire pooling below your stomach, writhing, as a tornado stormed your mind.
he pulled you closer. hands snaking up your shirt at an agonizingly slow rate, teasing you, corruption taking over.
"do not run away now. you will finish this mess that you have made."
and you and sunday crashed, collided, and met each other, all at once.
a/n: yikes this was longer than i hoped for.
there are still many dynamics that i can envision with sunday but this was long enough. hopefully this fic makes someone happy out there ahaha ;'')
thanks for reading!!😘
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Defense Force members and how they act as boyfriends.
Characters: Soshiro Hoshina, Gen Narumi, Hibino Kafka, Reno Ichikawa
Tags: Headcannons, some may be ooc?, fluff, probably crack.
A/N: I've been writing so much Levi stuff (and there's more in the queue ngl) so I wanted to do a quick refresh and write some HCs of these lovely men. I really enjoyed Kaiju no.8 and think it's such a cool show. 10/10 reccomend watching it. (Just don't read the manga unless you want to suffer).
Soshiro Hoshina
A very laid-back kind of partner, has nothing against PDA but is very rare for him to be over affectionate in public.
Loves to hear you talk, his favorite type of date is a coffee date where he can have a warm drink and listen to you speak for hours.
Will gift you books and randomly quiz you about them, if you didn’t like the book, he’ll take a mental note and avoid gifting you anything about that genre for a while.
His love language is physical touch, he definitely has to be touching you in some way all the time. Whether is holding your hand, playing with your hair or even pinching your cheeks.
Loves to bully you and tease you, has many nicknames and pet names for you.
Gen Narumi
Needs your attention ALL THE TIME. Gets really whiny if you don’t pay attention to him.
Loves to nap with you, he’s always down for some cuddles or just lay in bed with you.
Gets quite competitive if you play videogames with him, will let you win if you offer to pepper his face with kisses though.
His love language is gift giving, will spoil you rotten with gifts and trinkets he finds online and thinks you’d like.
Pretends to hate when you offer to do his skincare but is secretly so happy that you’re pampering like that.
Posts your photos in all his social media accounts and makes sure people knows who you are.
Hibino Kafka
A very loving and sweet partner, will always have time for you no matter how tired he is.
Will listen to you ramble as much as you need, if you want advice, he’ll do his best to give you some, if you just want to complain then he’ll happily listen.
Loves to bond with you over food, he’s a pretty good cook and loves to make you new dishes and have stay-at-home dates.
He’s your #1 fan and supporter, is always cheering you on and making sure you feel happy.
Loves to tell you dad jokes.
Reno Ichikawa
The sweetest boyfriend, very perceptive to your likes and needs.
Loves to hold your hand and usually plays with your fingers when holding it.
If you’re also part of the defense force, he’ll train with you as much as you want. Doesn’t go easy on you but is also hyper aware of his movements and tries his best to not hurt you.
Is constantly creating music playlists for you to listen to; They can range from sweet and romantic to weird ass music he likes and wants your opinion of.
Also loves stay-at-home dates where he gets the chance to cook for you.
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Hey its paul anon again (thanks for the name 🫡) sorry ive been bombarding you with questions but I absolutely love this au and i love everyone to bits
So, can you go into more detail about darry and paul . Like, as much info abt them as you can throw at me those two are my boys . Like how did they officially get together , how did Paul go abt moving in and whats that situation like .
Also, when Paul is like kicked out and cut off from the family, does he end up just,, losing everything? I mean like, did his parents even let him get his belongings or did all he have was the clothes on his body and trauma. I would imagine his parents had control over his bank account too so they like shut that down too so he’s out here broke as fuck JHSJSHSJ sorry im just yapping
Anon never apologizes for asking I'm so open to answering them bc I love this au and I adore that so many people like it too. Parry fans are eating good bc the writers love Cursed!Parry just as much. I'll answer your questions ab them before I yap.
To be totally honest, those two did not ever really make it official. Doing that requires two things they lack; emotional openness and no internalized homophobia. They both told themselves for the longest time that it wasn't a relationship... even after they started saying "I love you" in Latin and Fae respectively (Paul knows Latin bc spells, Darry knows Fae for obvious reasons), or when each other realized managed to figure out WHAT the other was saying,, or when they started sharing a bed and waking up intertwined,,, or when they started using far too affectionate pet names,,, or when things became far too intimate for it to be casual. They never actually make it official, one day they just slip into calling each other their boyfriends. The most official it ever got was when they flat out went "Oh yeah, we're dating" to the gang.
The gang was making bets on that, by the way. Pony said weeks, Soda said a month, Steve said two, Two-Bit said a year. Ace got it right down to the date and time, nobody knows how she did it.
They have no anniversary because they have no fucking idea when they really "got together".
Paul never truly moved in either, he kinda just went from crashing there whenever his car wasn't an option, to taking up the couch almost every night, to sleeping in Darry's room, and eventually, it was just an unspoken thing that he was officially a member of the household.
They have to kick him out for the day whenever the social worker comes to check on things, cause Darry can NOT take the risk of some kind of bad outcome to his mere existence.
OK MORE GENERAL PARRY
- Being with Paul reminds Darry that he's only 20 and still allowed to be something other than "the adult" sometimes. That brings a whole KIND of happiness that he can't describe. Dude's tail is fucked up due to physical trauma but that bitch wags so fast with Paul.
- Darry on the other hand just generally grounds Paul. He's so used to the way of life that was on the west side that everything going on there is overwhelming sometimes.
- They're very bad with vocal I love you's in English but they will say that shit ALL the time in different languages or through their actions.
- Uh after Paul got jumped and had his letterman jacket stolen, Darry gave him an old denim jacket of his own bc Paul hated having his arms out in the open.
- Pony audibly gags every time they're lovey-dovey. He's not homophobic unless you're Paul and Darry.
- They'd shotgun cigarettes when they were younger (and the only reason they don't anymore is the account of Darry wanting to keep the fact that he smokes every rare occurrence on the down low)
- Darry's purring has healing properties like a cat's purr (all of the brothers' have it actually) so this mf will just drag Paul down to cuddle and purr.
- They are.. so down bad for each other. Darry does anything and Paul swoons, and they've def had an interaction that goes something like this:
Paul, knowing Darry cant lie: "How do you feel about me right now?"
Darry, immediately: "I'd marry you if I could."
Paul & Darry:
As for being kicked out, Paul's parents quite literally just. Booted him, barely a warning. One minute he's arguing back for the first time since their keeping up appearances at the police event, and the next he's being dragged by the arm and shoved out of the house with threats of being killed if he dares to show his face back there. Just like that, all of it's pretty much gone; save for the clothes on his back and whatever he'd been carrying-- which was really only his car keys and his wallet.
He was sleeping in his car for a bit until Two and Pony vaguely got on his ass because Darry's calls were going to voicemail and he was stupid enough to let it slip that he wasn't living at home anymore.
Pony, being Pony, snitched. Can't have shit with that little gremlin around- so after finding his dumbass after having had the equivalent of an aneurism over suddenly being ghosted by Paul, Darry extended the offer for Paul to stay with them. He doesn't mind it being a permanent solution, but Paul is.. less fond for a few reasons; so he tries not to impose much while he looks for work. (He does eventually get something sorted out, so yippie! Helps with the bills what a guy)
FORGOT TO ADD. He sneaks home at one point to try and get some of his shit because he knows where the spare key is, but gets cold feet at the door because he genuinely doesn't know if his dad will keep up with that threat.
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how they hold a baby
sakura, suo, kaji, umemiya
if you were dating them series
sakura haruka | under the armpits, completely away from him
do not let this man hold a baby, because he does NOT know what to do
if he's handed a baby randomly with no warning, he's so panicked. comically looks left and right when nobody else can carry them for him
kinda scared they might poop, because he's got an impression that babies have full diapers all the time
tries his best to comfort them, but his knowledge is completely based off what he sees other people do. his arms get so confused when he attempts to copy different holds from memory
suo hayato | hip hold
actually knows how to hold a baby
no offence, but he'd rather not have a baby touching all over his face. fingers are okay, but he washes his hands afterwards. not a big fan of kissing or being overly cute with children either, unless they're immediate family
he wouldn't mind then touching his earrings either, as long as they don't tug
would hate to have a baby throw up or use their diaper while he's holding them
when his back is turned, the baby somehow starts crying. who knows what kind of face he pulled for them to cry instantly like that?
kaji ren | by the back of their clothes
do not let this man hold a baby part 2
he's not as confused, but he doesn't know what to do either, so he goes with what's easiest
it's a genuine hazard seeing him walk around holding them like a dumbbell or shopping bag. the weight feels like nothing to him
eventually does correct himself with advice
he does it best when he's sat down, not that it's much better. he holds them upright and stares down at them as if he's got nothing better to do
umemiya hajime | in the air
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do not let this man hold a baby part 3
honestly he holds a baby normally, usually cradle hold, it's just that he cannot stop throwing them in the air
he's one of those guys that pretends to nearly drop the baby as they come down, but also has a huge heart attack if anyone else does it
definitely coos or plays peekaboo with them, because it's something he always does and is used to. he loves burping babies as well and finds it really cute
he's comfortable holding any age of child in general
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How would they react if they have S/O who’s a little bit self-conscious about the sounds they make during sex? Like they get a little insecure about their moans, or they are afraid to be loud and covering their mouth, grinding their teeth together or stiffening up to avoid making any sounds.
Unless you start using your safe word, Kid is going to take it as his Life's Calling to help you let your voice out while you're having sex.
He'll get gags that force your mouth open, pin your hands down and use anything available to him to have you so blissed out you don't even give a shit anymore. The noises he'll rail out of you will be so raw and uncouth that the sweet little mewling sounds you make at the start will be a comfort to you.
Killer would be doing all he could to help you get over it, but as someone who hates his own laugh, he wouldn't be nearly so pushy as Kid. If you wanted to get passed it, if you wanted to sing for him, he'd do everything he could - even having Kid come in and really push you.
Heat would spend hours pulling you apart slowly until you were so hazy and lost in the pleasure of it all that you wouldn't even hardly remember moaning like a whore for him. He'd assure you how beautiful it sounded, how much he loves it, and you, and that you'll never sound bad to him. He won't force you to sing pretty for him, but he'll drown you in pleasure again so you don't even have to fret about it.
Wire... I see him just putting his fingers and spit in your mouth. He'll mess you up in ways so much more vulgar and messy than any "strange" sounds you could make. You're a choking mess, covered in his spit and cum, why should you care how you sound? If you don't want to moan, he can make you cry instead. Maybe you sound even prettier that way?
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Whenever a female character is widely hated, put the blame on misogyny. However, a good chunk of fans of specific works (with certain exceptions) are teen girls and women. Is it a case of internalized misogyny, then?
Somewhat, yes, but it's also a matter of attraction.
A great deal of fandom is shipping, and people tend to be more drawn to ships that they are attracted to. No, it's not the be-all end-all, yes, you can love characters and ships that you don't find attractive and dislike ones that you do, but it adds a MASSIVE boost. You are more likely to consider ships when you find one or more of the characters attractive. You are less likely if you do not.
I'll use myself as an example.
I don't give a shit about m/m pairings unless they have strong canonical chemistry that appeals to me (or it's a REALLY well written fic) because I'm a lesbian. It is harder to make them appeal to me because I don't get the attraction boost. I will read Adamsapple fics (with a note that I am picky about characterization) because I find the dynamic compelling. I don't mind Huskerdust, but have never once sought it out. Alastor is the major ship-launcher in this fandom, but I have not and will not read any fics that dedicate a significant amount of time toward Alastor shipping (or read Alastor-centric fics in general) because I can't comprehend how people find him hot and I find what we saw of him in canon deeply boring, so there is absolutely no appeal. M/F is honestly largely the same. Constrastingly, although I obviously gravitate toward things I already ship, I will give almost any f/f ship a shot if the fic seems well written. (With another note that I am picky about characterization.) Why? Because there is additional appeal there to make me willing to give the author the time to convince me.
(This is without even getting into smut, and I don't think I need to explain the importance of attraction there. All of the M/M or M/F smut that I've written was as a gift to a friend or because the narrative demanded it. And guess what? The f/f I've written (on a burner account that ya'll will never see) was way better.)
The majority of fandom is women. The majority of women are attracted to men. So guess what? Attractive male characters and m/m pairings get most of the attention. And guess what else? Female characters often get in the way of m/m ships, which provokes hate. Especially around younger fans who might not be experienced enough with narratives to be able to get a female love interest out of the way without demonizing them.
If you want me to say that female characters just aren't as well-written as men, it's not going to happen. There are PLENTY of male characters who are flat as cardboard yet get tons of adoring fans and fandom doing the work to flesh them out to hell and back. Just look at Hux in the Star Wars fandom. There are plenty of extremely well-written female characters who are ignored in favor of the most prominent bland hot man. And yeah, it's because they're hot. And maybe it's a bit of misogyny too, but... from what I've seen, a lot of attention comes from attraction, and when it comes to female characters, much of the hate comes from ship wars that people don't want to admit are ship wars. Plain and simple.
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