#young women can date and make the wrong choice

[iwaasfairy]

some of you know that i don't like tiktok n it has many reasons but i have had a rant brewing in regards to it for a while and it's definitely extremely prevalent on tiktok

it is not your place to judge people's relationships, even the toxic ones

i know we all go like "yeah duhh" but i want you to actually take in what i'm saying. it's not your place. just because they exist in an age where things can be found online, doesn't mean it's your place. people are allowed to have the human experience. people are allowed to fall in love with the wrong people, and people are allowed to have toxic experiences and people are allowed to be stupid and make mistakes, even public ones

definitely if the person in question is a young woman. like genuinely, i think there is nothing more disrespectful and ironically, anti woman than determining for some young woman that she shouldn't be in a relationship with some older dude. it's not up to you. yea maybe she's making a mistake and will regret in in 3 years, and so fucking what? that's life. young women are able to choose, for themselves, even if the choice is stupid.

billy dating that goofy fucking dude and getting so much shit for it bc what? she whose wrong? yea, i'm pretty sure she made a conscious choice, so stop. she'll survive her mistake. trying to keep young women from experiencing life, even the bad parts of life, isn't doing anyone a fucking favor. its just dismissive of the fact that they can make their own choices for fuck sake.

some nineteen year old ending up married to her high school teacher because they wanted to, getting called out because it's weird and creepy? they're living their lives. who are you to criticize random people? even if it is weird. even if it is true. it's not your fucking place.

a thirty year old woman married to a seventy year old guy and they are living their life and existing in a space where people can see it, but now suddenly it has to be called out bc that's toxic and gross. ok, it's also not your fucking relationship. stop butting in where you're not asked. it is so unbelievably disrespectful and honestly, i'm sick of seeing it. everyone needs to keep their nose in their own business

the easy access of drama on tiktok has made everyone believe that everything is drama that you should stick your nose into. it's not. other people's lives and mistakes shouldn't be your entertainment. young women making bad choices for themselves isn't a hill you need to die on. you aren't being an ally. you aren't being a feminist. you aren't being appropriate.

it isn't your place. it isn't your place. i'm sick of it

[yanderemommabean]

Oh, oh, oh! Yandere virus, but it one day coming into school, the girls who normally bully you are acting strange. When you see them in the hallway, you are expected to be laughed at or shoves to the ground. However, you didn't expect to be shoved against the wall as they stare you down with a dangerous and lustful glint in their eye, telling you about all the plans they have in store for you. They force you to wear matching clothes and make sure everyone knows who you belong to and not to even try anything. Maybe you're forced to live in the house. Bonus if the other hold you down as the ring leader eats you out, as the others tell you how cute you are uwu

“Ah ah ah. You aren’t going anywhere” A voice chirps in your ear. You wince, sighing as the three surround you once again as class is dismissed and everyone heads to the dorms for the evening. Honestly, if you were perhaps a bit stronger, a bit less self conscious, you might spit in their faces and make a run for it. Sadly, you aren’t some badass (and admittedly, one dimensional) character and are frozen in place as they wait for the others to leave. 

They don't intervene. They know better. These young women have power, wealth, and beauty in their arsenal, and aren't afraid to use it to get what they want, and to silence anyone who complains. Phoebe, Sadie, and Naomi, all from powerful families who more or less run this college and the town. You don't doubt they paid the administrators and dean to get into this place, while you had to work hard and prove yourself. 

None of that matters at the moment. Currently, Phoebe was twirling her fingers in your hair like you two were close friends or even dating, smiling almost wickedly at you as her eyes, usually hazel, now with an odd pink ring, stare at you like you were some prey about to be eaten and devoured. Usually they just shove you around and make fun of your clothes, but today…Something's off. Very very off. 

“Isn’t she so cute you guys?” She says, sickly sweet, you want to say mocking but no, it's like there’s something more flirtatious with it. “Oh definitely, I just want to sink my teeth in her, you know? Make her whimper” Naomi adds on, hand to her cheek as she stares at you like one would a puppy being precious. Oh god hearing that made you think they were about to hurt you or humiliate you in some way. 

Sadie just sighs, not in your direction, looking over her shoulder to make sure the halls were clear, and once they were truly empty of everyone else, she made sure the grip on your wrists were tighter. “Listen up. We have some new rules set in place, and you, adorably obedient as you are, are going to follow them”. Oh wow. The audacity. Then again you never really put up a fight so, are they really wrong? What other choice did you have anyway? If they wanted to, they could make your family kicked out of town and their jobs nonexistent. It’s best to just grit your teeth as best you can. 

While you tried to listen, Phoebe made sure she got closer, her hand on you as well, but more exploring, sliding up and down your sleeve and trying to dip her fingers into the hem to feel your wrist, dragging them up and down softly as Sadie began to speak again. “You’re ours. Simple as that. No more avoiding the lobby when we’re there, no more trying to get little study dates away from the school library, no more trying to hide from us”. “I'm sorry what-” “Ah ah, she’s not finished cutie” Naomi says with a gentle touch slowly sliding to your waist, her cold fingertips acting like they wanted to slide under your shirt to feel the warmth of your skin, her brown eyes also having that odd pink ring in her iris. “Go on Sadie, she’ll be good and listen. She always is” 

You felt your cheeks grow impossibly hot, words failing you as all three of these girls began to more or less feel you up and tell you that…That you were theirs? Whatever that could mean? Sadie just sighs, more playful this time as she cups your cheek and makes you look at her, the same weird coloration in her eyes. “You’re ours. No more private study dates, no more drabby clothes, no more avoiding food when we’re in the commons or cafeteria, just a lot more rules and a lot more dress code for you. Tsk, I can’t tell if I want you in a skirt, or if I'd stab any bastard who’d look at you when you wear one. Maybe some cute pants? Ugh they’d still lay their eyes on you either way, makes me want to just call mom and have the banks foreclose their houses”. 

“Please Don’t-” “Ah ah, don’t even try it. You’re ours, if we want to punish people for looking at our puppy, we will” Phoebe comments, her fingers moving to hold your hand and give the top of it a gentle kiss. “Speaking of puppy” Naomi mentions, nodding her head towards the others, and before you can blink you’re turned over, face to the wall. You hear Sadie murmur something as she rummages through her bag for a moment, and you feel her hands slide around your throat before something clicks behind your head, and your eyes widen in horror.

“There we go! I made sure it wouldn’t be too tight, the guy who made it for me was such an artist about it, I love it! If he would’ve said no, you know I’d have his business ruined” She mentions casually, getting a few soft giggles in agreement. 

“Here sweetie! Have a look at how cute you are when you show that you belong to us” Naomi says, handing you her phone as a mirror. You feel weak and shaky as your fingers come up to touch the bright pastel pink leather, a metal heart in the center pressing against your throat. You reach around to feel the back and feel a harsh shock to your fingers, making you yelp. 

“Oh, sweetheart, don't try and take it off! It was so expensive but I got a cute one to work as a shock collar. Shower safe but anytime you take one, one or all of us will be with you, so you won't have to worry about taking it off yourself. We’ll talk more about the rules later in our dorm”. You shiver, unable to think of how to talk. What in the fuck could you even say? You just had a designer shock collar put on you by your bullies! Who are now acting like you were their chew toy or pet no less. “O-our dorm?”.

Phoebe nods, gently stroking your hair “Yeah, duh! How else will we keep a better eye on you? Cameras are fine and all but I prefer to make sure you’re warm with one of us sharing a bed with you. Plus, it’s easier to kiss you good morning faster”. “K-Kiss?!” You almost shriek, only for Naomi to softly hush you with a finger to your lips. “Now now, don’t get loud! We don’t need that just yet”. She pouts, hearing her phone going off and checking the time. “Well, we have to split for now, I have a dinner with mom and dad. You two take her to the dorm and tell me how she acts! Don't do anything more pretty please? We said we’d share her”. 

You don't get much out before Naomi heads off, Phoebe and Sadie gripping your arms a bit too firmly to lead you, talking back and forth like you weren’t making a practical death march down to their dorm room. 

Oh God what’s going to happen once that door is shut?

-Mommabean (Hiya! Sorry for lack of smut but I am proud I wrote this much at least lol. If you beans want i can do a part two! Wanted to try and flesh this out before anything too intense ya know? Anyway I hope you like! Lemme know if you do!)

[cowboyjen68]

Hi wanting your advice! I am a baby gay, I am only 21 and am finding it really hard to date women. The girls that I like don’t seem to like me back, it’s a whole different universe. Dating is draining my energy and making my self esteem really bad. What should I do?

Dating as a young woman means you are likely dating other young women ( or similar in age and experience as you). This means you are all struggling with the same things: trying to figure out what you like in a woman AND worrying that you will not find someone you find attractive who also finds you attractive. You are not alone.

If you are using dating apps try a different approach. Volunteer for something that interests you where other lesbians and bi woman might be present. LGBT non profits like Pride groups or PFLAG, animal rescues, or environmental groups. This lets you expand your pool outside of the app which tends to have so many choices people make the mistake of dismissing a lot in favor of the "perfect" (which, by the way, doesn't exist). Everyone on the app is vying for attention with quirky sayings and witty bio's, it is very distracting and exhausting for both parties if they are serious about finding a compatible companion.

Attend lesbian centric events like non profit fundraisers, educational(academic) readings by women, women authors and music events with women talent. Poetry and casual coffee shop discussions, films or classes that appeal to women (think clay, art, etc). If you attend an event and see a woman of interest, speak to her. Ask if she is dating or single and can you take her out. The thrill of the ask and response is sometimes rewarded with a yes. But no does not mean you can't strike up a friendship. And the more people you know the larger your dating pool becomes. Everyone knows a lesbian.

Start a book club or discussion group at your local library. Check the meet up app for lesbian events or groups.

Get to a woman's festival or gathering if that is your thing, Think a few hundred woman of many different backgrounds, ages, ideas and body shapes. You can't go wrong even if you only make friends.

Check FB for Lesbian groups in your area. Many meet up in real person a few times a year.

Look at finding a compatible dating pool as a bonus to all the other activities in your life that you are enjoying. You will feel less drained and more enriched which builds the confidence to just ASK when you see an interesting woman in the wild. "No" is not a reflection on you. Not everyone is looking to date you or anyone else.

If you start to realize that your worth is not in the answer but in the enjoyment you are getting from life and experiences then asking becomes easier.

[restinslices]

I don’t know if I requested this already but how do you think the Lin Kuei bros would react when each of them got their first gf?

It’s 5am but I’m avoiding sleep cause sleep paralysis been kicking my ass recently so here we are. I didn’t know if you were imagining a certain age or how detailed you wanted it so they’re all at different ages

Bi-Han

Bi-Han doesn't have that much experience when it comes to dating even if he's the oldest brother 

Growing up he was taught to mainly focus on his clan since he'd be the next Grandmaster so naturally dating is something that was at the back of his mind 

When he got his first girlfriend he'd probably be older. So he's mature when it comes to handling himself but he's not mature when it comes to romantic relationships 

I think the first week would be the hardest because he's both nonchalant but also worried if that makes sense

Nonchalant because he doesn't physically show any emotion besides disdain but also worry because whenever he hears about new relationships, people are always so giddy. They're glowing. They're jumping up and down and are cuddled next to their partner all the time. 

Bi-Han though? He doesn't do any of that. He's not sure what he should do and since he doesn't know, it makes him worry that maybe he made the wrong choice. Maybe he took the bit of affection you gave him and ran with it and it went outta hand 

After that first week though, he still wants to be with and around you so he starts to relax and realize he just reacts differently to things 

Some things he would struggle with since this is his first relationship. He'd struggle with the idea of being around his partner so often. Does he enjoy your presence? Yeah. But he also wants a lot of alone time 

Idk how long his first relationship would last. He gives me both “we're in this forever” and “forever isn't realistic” vibes. 

I honestly don't think he'd change much, which probably has a lot to do with the fact that he's a grown man. He's past all the intense teenage emotions. 

I don't even think his partner would notice a difference tbh. He trails behind you more but besides that, he still acts like your friend Bi-Han which isn't necessarily a bad thing 

Because it's his first relationship, I don't see him initiating things like physical touch that much. I think his partner would have to either ask or hint at it 

Cutsey things just don't come naturally to him. 

Is he happy about his first relationship? Absolutely. He just doesn't see the big deal with certain things like hand holding or other romantic expectations. Honestly I can see that being the cause of his first relationship ending depending on who it is but if it's someone that's on the same wavelength or understands lack of affection doesn't mean lack of love then I could see it lasting forever. 

Kuai Liang 

Kuai Liang was probably the first to start dating 

Does he have responsibilities? Yes. But that wouldn't stop him from experiencing certain things, even if he had to do it sneakily. 

He was a young teenager when he finally got his first girlfriend. She was apart of a nearby clan and although he was told many times not to focus on women, he couldn't help it. 

It was a simple friendship but it turned into something more. A secret relationship no one could know about

I think Kuai Liang would be happy to finally have a girlfriend. It's something else in his life that gives him happiness besides his family. 

Also this is a teenager so he's geeked as fuck. He tries to appear all calm and cool but it wouldn't really work 

Would always try to sneak away to see her. He wants to spend as much time with her as he can. Half of it is because he's a teenager, half of it is because he genuinely likes her. 

I also think he likes exchanging gifts. It gave them both something to remember the other bye

As a young boy, he wants to tell everyone but because of circumstances, he can’t. Besides that though I just honestly think he’s happy waking up everyday knowing he’ll see her even if it’s only for a few minutes.

She was a break for him. He's always the mediator between Bi-Han and Tomas. He always had to train hard so he could assist Bi-Han when he became grandmaster. When he was with her he was relaxed. 

Enjoys the company that comes with having a partner, even if a lot of the times he's too busy to see her 

He knows he doesn’t know much about relationships, but that’s ok. Life’s a journey and he’s willing to learn and communicate for this girl

Considering it says “first relationship”, that means it doesn't last 

I think the reason would be they eventually get caught. His dad has a tighter leash on him and she's sent to a different area her clan occupies 

He wouldn't take this well but there's really nothing he can do

Takes him awhile to get over even if it was some silly teenage romance according to others. 

Tomas Vrbada

Tomas gets into his first relationship in his late teens to early twenties

I can see him telling Kuai Liang immediately and asking for advice 

I can see it being a friends to lovers kind of thing. She's an earthrealmer in the know about all the realms and stuff and knows Madam Bo. Tomas is easy to like so they become friends then he asks her out on accident 

Tomas, like Kuai Liang, would be happy to have a significant other. He'd like having a girlfriend because this is his person. He became a Lin Kuei because the grandmaster felt shame about his clan murdering Tomas’ family. To Tomas, that's not him actually wanting him. It's guilt 

Having a girlfriend though means she's with him because she loves him. She actually likes him and chose him.

Very proud boyfriend. He’s surprised he has someone to call his and thinks she’s everything 

He's younger so he's not really confident which I think would show. He constantly wants to be around her out of insecurity. He's worried that she'd leave and find someone else 

He thinks he’s not good enough for anything

Can we blame him? He has Bi-Han constantly making him feel shitty. Sure he’s not the only reason Tomas is insecure but he’s not helping

He's also paranoid about anyone else he loves being hurt. People get hurt, he understands that but he cannot say goodbye to someone else prematurely. Especially someone that makes him so happy

Since it's his first relationship, he doesn't know how to properly communicate these feelings 

He genuinely likes this person and wants to be something serious. The problem is all this hovering and worry could cause problems in the relationship and lead to it ending. 

His solution would be trying to change himself 

Letting go is not something he wants to do. This person makes him happy so why should he? He could definitely change and do better. 

And since this is his first relationship, he’s nervous something like this won’t happen again. 

Unfortunately for him you can’t get rid of insecurities easily and you have to love yourself before loving anyone else

You'd expect him to have the longest lasting relationship but he probably wouldn't. The relationship wouldn't end with harsh feelings but he'd still be upset by it and it'd encourage him to work on himself 

I promise you Kuai Liang is my favorite brother. Idk how Bi-Han got around 440 words and him and Tomas got around 380- I also plan on writing angst after I eventually go to sleep so tune in

[most-datable-datable-bracket]

ROUND 3 MATCH 22

Claude propaganda:

"To say Claude has trust issues is an understatement—you have to spend half the game earning his. (Claude isn't even his real name!) Once you have it, though, he's absolutely ride or die for you until the stars go out. He is so full of heart and ambition: He wants both sides of his heritage to get along, he wants to open borders and eliminate xenophobia and promote equality between commonfolk, and deep down, I think he craves a partner to stand with him at that new dawn, or an equal who sees his vision for the future and will fight for it just as hard. Nobody believed in him when he was a kid, but if you put your faith in him, he'll return it tenfold. Some people don't like that he's calculating, or has to leave the player character at the end of the game to go back to his homeland, but both are necessary elements for his goals to change things. He will always come back, and everyone who bets against him and his love for his companions is wrong with a big fat W. #KhalidForMostDatablePrez"

"Claude is a fun little onion of facades. He calls himself the embodiment of distrust, he acts like he's carefree and without worries, an unscrupulous schemer--and so many in universe buy into that hook line and sinker. He's used to others viewing him with suspicion and uses it as armor to obscure his not-so-dark truth: that he cares immensely, that he values minimizing the loss of life, and that above all he has so much hope that people will fundamentally choose to do better given the choice.

His front guards a center that his conflict filled world would be happy to tear apart. As the child of people from two nations in constant conflict--one of which is explicitly isolationist and dehumanizes those outside its church's reach--he hasn't really had a place where he can be without his facade. As a child he thought he could run, but when confronted with the fact that this hatred existed no matter where he ran, he chose to instead try to create a more just and kind world.

His inability to let others in beyond his facade at first may lead to a sense of distance, but isn't it then all the more satisfying when you're allowed in? All he wants is a little trust, a little faith, and--like what he wants to give everyone--a chance to be better.

And like that you got a charming young lad with a fun personality that your grandma would be thrilled to have stay forever."

Hades propaganda:

“Fields of Asphodel is a work in progress (but nearly finished!) text-based IF game where the MC plays the part of Persephone (you can rename your character tho) who get married to Hades at the behest of Zeus (being a giant douchebag per usual) and move to the Underworld. Hades is kind and respectful and cares deeply for his realm. He feels guilty that the MC was forced into this arranged marriage and does whatever he can to make the MC more comfortable. Even if the MC wants to leave, he puts the MC's feelings first. He drinks that respect women (gender neutral) juice everyday. Listen, this marriage is arranged by Olympus King Dick Zeus, so Hades has absolute zero problems if the MC dates someone else from his realm. Choose someone else's route (if you can!) He has the cutest kid, Makaria and of course everyone's favorite puppy Kerberos. Hades is a slow burn, he dodges and swerves the MC's flirting, pretending to be oblivious. He's not oblivious at all to the growing feelings between the two and that's what makes it sooo good.”

[darkmasterofcupcakes]

In hazbin hotel, being Gay has no bearings on going to Hell or Heaven (the "vile and blasphemous" line was because Charlie is Lucifer's daughter) , so I don't think Vaggie would feel too weird about being attracted to women, especially once more openly gay, Trans etc people arrive.

For the first century and some of her life? Sure.

But I think she would be accepting of it in the last 80-90 years of her time in heaven, especially since the Sisterhood of the Exorcists is promoting a very violent mindset and killing sinners in secrets, it leave little room for interactions outside of the group, cue experimentations.

Also, considering how Agatha annoyed Lute for not being "proper" regarding the "out of wedlock baby" and single mom status, I think it would fuel her desire to accept Vaggie's gayness.

I can even see Lute appreciate how it can make Vaggie feel more like a part of the group on the more pragmatic side, or at least use it as an argument for people who are bothering her on it and that she won't just ignore or scare into silence.

I never really thought about that, but you do have a point. I think a lot of people assume Lute is homophobic (and maybe she is) because of her line about Charlie and Vaggie's relationship, and well as one of the comments about Angel in her solo during "You Didn't Know" but you could argue that, like you pointed out, her issue with Charlie and Vaggie dating could be more based on Charlie's status as a demon/Lucifer's daughter than them both being women. And the thing with Angel could just be a commentary on him being so willing to have what is implied to be casual sex in general, regardless of the gender of his partners. Obviously those are still not good views to have, but they are possibly alternatives.

I do think that Vaggie would still struggle a bit for a while, though part of it would be her just kind of making the wrong assumptions regarding why her mother was essentially judged behind her back? At least when she was young. Because she heard occasional whispers (and the one time she asked about her grandmother and why she'd never met her, Lute did explain that Agatha didn't like the fact that Lute wasn't married to Vaggie's father) where people would say pretty insulting things about her mother when Lute herself wasn't there to hear, regarding the fact that she wasn't even in an official relationship with, much less married to, Vaggie's father. And young Vaggie initially made the wrong assumption that the issue was more about the fact that her mother wasn't in relationship with a man, period, rather than the truth, which is that the issue was that Lute was an unwed single mother by choice.

But Vaggie did likely figure it out more as she got older and especially after officially joining the Exorcists....at least in part due to the reasons you pointed out. With how secretive the Exorcists are supposed to be, while it's probably not impossible that some of them have partners outside of the group who just are told cover stories for what they do for work and/or what they're doing when they're gone during Extermination Day, a lot of them likely just have relationships among each other to avoid any of that. And in my AU at least, while Charlie was Vaggie's first serious girlfriend, I will say her first kind of trying out a relationship with anyone was likely with another Exorcists, probably one who joined around the same time she did. She likely did still feel weird about it for a while, and didn't fully realize she was a lesbian until a fair bit later.

Lute likely was more accepting of Vaggie's sexuality than some might expect, partially out of spite regarding how hurt she was at how her own parents, especially her mother, who she had been very close to before Vaggie was born, basically cut her out of their lives for her decision to raise Vaggie on her own. So while she obviously couldn't be as accepting as she wanted to tell herself she would be - she does still find the relationship between Vaggie and Charlie shameful, sadly - she is fully accepting of her daughter being gay. Also helps that I might actually headcanon Lute as not actually being straight, but rather gray-ace or demi - she's pretty much only interested in Adam in regards to sex or romance (though the romance part even she's in denial about).

[pixaho]

White Rascals With Girlfriends

♥ Pairing | White Rascals and girlfriends :> ♥ AU? No |

♥ Warnings | Mentions of violence, drinking, smoking, and NSFW stuff ;)

M.LIST H&L LIST

R☺CKY

♦ FIRST MEET

Rocky met you when he was doing dangerous jobs before forming White Rascals. You had been walking when you noticed a young man fighting a group of black-clothed people. Thinking he was in trouble, you grabbed a near by officer and pointed him to the group. Rocky would later thank you with a coffee and or tea.

♦ DATES

His date choices are usually a restaurant, a picnic, or at home dinner date. He knows how to cook so majority of your dates are at home. He only settles for a restaurant if its a special occasion or a picnic if its a nice day out.

♦ FIRST TIME

Your first time together was magical as Rocky made sure that everything would go to a decent plan. His mistake was honestly not all bad, as he forgot to turn off his phone while you guys were at it and it lowkey drove him insane with the absurd amount of texts from others.

♦ ARGUING

You and Rocky argue from time to time. This is typically about him overworking and spending more time fighting, which usually left him injured beyond your eyes. This can also be about him taking his anger out through other ways, such as using a punching bag and not noticing when you were there.

♦ JEALOUS

Rocky doesn't get really jealous but rather annoyed when he sees someone flirting with you and possibly making you uncomfortable. His whole motto is that the White Rascals don't harass or hurt women so he makes sure that the person who is making you seemingly uncomfortable, doesn't get to see the light of Club Heaven ever again.

♦ HOW YOU SLEEP TOGETHER

♦ HOW YOU KISS

K☺☺

♦ FIRST MEET

Surprise, you meet Koo at Club Heaven. You thought he was a butler until he introduced himself as the subleader of White Rascals. The only actual reason he had introduced himself to you was because you were drunk and asking questions, but you still remembered everything about him.

♦ DATES

Unlike Rocky, Koo isn't that great at hosting dates. This leads to him asking Rocky to then asking Kizzy and then finally just asking you what you wanted to do for date night because well he's not the brightest for dates.

♦ FIRST TIME

Koo is one of the only people to not make an entire mistake but rather a little one. He also doesn't rush around to make sure everything is comfortable and good because he prefers comfortable stuff anyways. His tiny mistake was breaking his hand before you guys did it. He had a cast on for the whole time.

♦ ARGUING

Arguments between you and Koo are rare but he has a calm personality and will search for any points to make things right. If he's wrong, he's quick to admit it. If he isn't, he tends to sit down and explain it. Bonus, if he is wrong, he'll let you paint his finger nails (only white but a pale pink or blue can be painted). (KOO IS BBG YOU CANNOT TELL ME OTHERWISE)

♦ JEALOUS

Silent jealousy type of person. He'll just death stare the person he's jealous of and then remember that he doesn't need to be jealous of them and they should be jealous of him because he has you. He will not let the person know he's jealous.

♦ HOW YOU SLEEP TOGETHER

♦ HOW YOU KISS

KIZZY & KAIT☺

♦ FIRST MEET

You ran into Kizzy whilst at a Library doing research for a paper. She was with Kaito and they seemed to have been getting something for Rocky. You already knew Rocky, you just didn't know the others so you strike up a conversation with them. You guys seem to get along even if Kaito seemed uninterested.

♦ DATES

Kizzy is the one who makes the dates and has the help of Kaito. Although they are very different people, they seem to coordinate everything very well, even with you. If they can't come up with an idea, they usually ask you what you want to do. If you keep your relationship a secret from the other gangs, they'll settle for movie cuddles. This is where you have a movie night and cuddle. <3

♦ FIRST TIME

Kizzy and you actually did it in a hot tub. You were both sober and just flirting, plus giggling. Kaito wasn't there for it but he didn't hear the end of it from Kizzy. She did make a mistake which was knocking the temperature a few degrees higher which made it feel like it was boiling hot. With Kaito, it was after you got home from a long day at work. He was in the bed room reading when you walked in and dropped everything to help you relax. Let's just say a massage went from a massage and turned into you guys fucking.

♦ ARGUING

Arguments between you three happen half the time. This is typically because of them getting hurt or leaving a container in the fridge that is empty. Kizzy is the first to apologize and make things right with Kaito being more stubborn, but Kizzy always makes him apologize somehow.

♦ JEALOUS

If you are even flirting with another person, Kaito is quick to grab you away and bring you where people won't flirt with you. He's the more jealous one out of the two as he doesn't like others touching what's his. Whereas Kizzy doesn't care as much, just as long as you are being safe.

♦ HOW YOU SLEEP TOGETHER

(Couldn't find 3 people sleeping so just imagine it's Kaito, Kizzy, and then you.)

♦ HOW YOU KISS

Kizzy ^ Kaito v

I know a lot of people might be upset by this, but I didn't include the last few White Rascal members because 1. You don't get much on them and even though we get to see Aizawa, Enari, Bito, and Shimura, you don't get enough of their actual personalities for me to write on. 2. As for the others (Heidi, Marco, Lassie, and Cosette) again not much information and I also didn't know how to write them with girlfriends. Maybe at some point I'll end up coming back and editing this or I'll make a part 2 where I finally come back and put Heidi, Marco, Lassie, and Cosette, but as for now I think I'm not going to do that. I don't mean to make people whose favorite characters are those 4 feel like I'm not showing or caring for them, it's just with characters with little screen time where you don't get much about them makes it hard. Thank you for understanding.

♥ Mutuals; @talusional @dillpick (since you like stalking my page haha! <3)

[re-dracula]

I was listening to another podcast at some point a while back where they had an interview with you guys to advertize re: dracula coming out. And you guys said some stuff about Lucy that hit a weird nerve with me as a history buff.

So the VA described her as polyamorous, and it triggered some conversation about how her character gets pretty maligned for it. And that last part is an adaptation issue not present in the original text.

See, victorian era courtship did not come with a presumption of exclusivity the way modern dating does. You were not off the market until you were formally engaged to be married. So the general gist of it for upper and middle class folks (like the Dracula characters most likely are) is that there is this thing called the social season. And during the season there would be all kinds of parties and events where you would meet people. And the general structure was that if you went to a dance, you should dance with a lot of different people. Get a sense of the eligible bachelors/bachelorettes. And if you were a young man, you would be expected to go and visit each of the young women you danced with that night at some point during the week after. If you hit it off, you would then start courting (visiting back and forth attending other events together etc). But, as I said above, it wasn't exclusive. So a man would court a few women, and a woman would be pretty disappointed to only be courted by one man. As the season went on couples would get engaged (anding any other ongoing courtships).

So Lucy's situation, in its original context, goes something like this: Lucy is pretty and charming. A perfect victorian maid. She has many suitors. Three of them decide she's the perfect women for them. They each want to pop the question but they are good gentlemen so they agree to all ask her the same day so she can choose between them on her own terms. She is thrilled because of course she is. Any woman in her position would be! But! Before she can make her choice Dracula comes to steal her away. She gets terribly sick and dies. But then she is not dead after all. She came back all wrong and corrupted. Even such a bright, innocent, young woman as Lucy is not immune! It's tragic what she becomes.

By the time early film adaptations roll around though, courtship was mostly replaced by dating especially in America where it hadn't been so institutionalized. And now there is an assumption of exclusivity. Those poor men being strung along by that harlot Lucy when in the end there can be only one husband. No wonder she fell victim to Dracula's charms! And like, that was the exact opposite of the point in the books. But the culture was too different by that point to read the same way. So Hollywood made Lucy an example instead of a victim.

But yeah. I heard the polyamorous comment, and had a weird mix of "yay poly representation! That rarely happens," and "put that woman back in context, or so help me!" So when I saw you guys had a blog, I had to send a little mini rant. Feel free to disregard.

Thanks for the historical context! It is hard with historical texts to keep from bringing your modern ideas to our interpretations, but as an almost completely queer crew, it was hard to ignore the subtext in:

LUCY: Why can't they let a girl marry three men, or as many as want her, and save all this trouble? But this is heresy, and I must not say it.

That’s what we’re talking about, we’re talking about subtext in a very sexy very queer-coded book. I believe the VA you’re talking about is Beth Eyre? As a professor, she knows this too and is playing with it in her performance. And she does brilliantly.

We’re not changing the text, as we’ve said before, we’re just having fun with what’s already there.

We’ll talk some more about this in our bonus eps, which I’m very excited about.

[gaystan]

Stan Marsh and Kyle Broflovski Relationship Backlash Reveals the Hypocrisy of Political Critique of Celebrities

Why is being seen in public with Kyle Broflovski, of all things, the line in the sand?

When Crimson Dawn embarked upon their long-awaited Daybreak Tour in March 2023, it seemed like Stan Marsh could do no wrong. Their 5th studio album, idk man you name it im tired (2022), was their most successful; fans eagerly awaited the announcement of His Voice, an upcoming single; Marsh had recently come out of the closet and described himself as “Happier than ever.” Fans breathed a collective sigh of relief that the drama of 2018, which saw Marsh publicly “canceled,” was firmly in the past.

But two months later, we fans would be forgiven for feeling like the past four years never happened. Crimson Dawn’s tour of the U.S., wildly successful by any metric, has shared the spotlight with a steady stream of headline-grabbing drama, including social media unfollowings, pap walks, revealing new music, and, above all, a highly controversial new relationship. Marsh’s romance with podcaster Kyle Broflovski, who was recently described by Jia Tolentino as “something of a test case for the digital panopticon and its reaction cycle,” has been dogged by countless rumors of Broflovski’s attention-grabbing antics.

Broflovski is known for his controversy, and the motions of the outrage cycle are, consequently, fairly predictable: receipts documenting Broflovski’s behavior and critiques of Marsh’s “white activism” have spread across social media platforms, impassioned fans have launched a campaign to convince their idol to “engage in genuine self-reflection,” and even group chats I’m tangentially in are filled with disappointed disavowals, Onion headlines, and barf emojis.

It makes sense: Marsh is looked up to by idealistic young women everywhere, many of whom are heartbroken that he would choose to associate with someone heavily tied up in racism, misogyny, and Islamophobia. But this particular outrage cycle misses a few things.

First, Crimson Dawn fans claim their protests are not against Marsh’s dating choices per se, but against who has the privilege of associating with the mighty Stan Marsh brand. Yet the resulting impression is nonetheless that disillusioned fans simply don’t like their idol’s new boyfriend and are therefore appropriating the language of social justice (e.g., encouraging Marsh to commit to “dismantling systems of oppression”) in an attempt to change his mind. But Broflovski is not a public servant; the status of Marsh’s boyfriend is not a public good to be revoked nor a job from which someone can be justly fired for their sheer unpopularity. Conflating the two reveals the extent to which fans view Marsh as a public commodity whose intimate choices ought to be subject to collective vetting. What’s more, though well-intentioned, the positioning of one man’s romantic life as a broad political issue only serves to harm the credibility of progressive causes with a clearly defined political goal.

[downthe-f4ndom-rabbith0le]

My Wonder (Spencer Reid x Reader) - The Confession

My Wonder (Spencer Reid x Reader) - The Confession  Word Count: 3863 Reader insert: she/her pronouns. She is not American unless you are, just has a previous history in American law enforcement. Warnings: mentions of murder, crime scene, guns, near-death experience, slow-burn romance, and some MAJOR FLUFF!  Spoilers: none

All his life, Dr. Spencer Reid has been told he is a genius - gifted, different. When you, a new member of the BAU, arrive, he expects the same weirded-out reaction from you as everyone does. But when you don't, and you instead find him interesting, Spencer finds himself forming an attachment to you. And as the years go on, is it really any wonder that he falls for you?

This is six times you secretly say I love you to Spencer: your love confession to one another.

Full story | Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 | Part 6

He didn't hear your heart-stopping compliment again until it was almost too late.

After the Staunton case, you and Spencer had been... odd. Well, mainly Spencer, as he spoke as little as possible to you during cases, and always offered to go with anyone else but you on certain tasks. He even stopped coming over to yours for movie night each Saturday, claiming each time to be busy or unwell. It was Spencer's only way of ensuring nothing like that night ever happened again.

He convinced himself the moment was fleeting, just a mixture of chemicals in his brain combined with the adrenaline of being with a beautiful women he very much admired that made him read the signs wrong. You were friends, that was all you were, and all he would ever allow you to be.

This went on for three months.

And you were miserable.

Emily, JJ and Penelope recognised the change in your demeanour at work first, and when they found out the reason behind it, they slapped Spencer upside the head on their way out of the office one Friday afternoon and took you with them, promising a wonderful night out on the town.

That night, to Spencer's eventual annoyance, you'd met someone. A charming young firefighter named Riley who lived in Washington DC and was just in town to see family.

That night, you hooked up. And the next morning, he asked you on a date. That date led to another, then more. You were on your way to another one tonight when you got a phone call from JJ saying they found the latest unsub's house and were planning a raid on it.

Spencer knew you were on a date when he also got the phone call to come along. Despite his distance (by his own choice, he always had to remind himself), he kept tabs on you, checked in on you via others. And while the girls of the team were awfully mad at him, they always answered him when he asked how you were doing.

'You know, for a genius, you really are quite stupid,' JJ told him when he asked about you.

He quirked his eyebrow, genuinely confused. 'I'm sorry?'

'She's heartbroken,' Penelope added. 'Her best friend just gives her the silent treatment out of nowhere after what sounded like a magical night at the theatre. Who wouldn't be upset by that, Reid?'

'I just,' he paused, rallying his thoughts into words that couldn't quite describe how he felt. 'It's complicated.'

'Love shouldn't be complicated, Reid,' Emily interjected, a soft but sad smile gracing her painted lips.

Spencer swallowed thickly at that. 'W-What do you mean?'

Derek finished making his coffee and took a sip of it before answering. 'We all see it, Reid. You don't have to deny anymore how you feel.'

'I'm not denying anything, Morgan.'

'Maybe not to us,' Derek continued. 'But you are definitely denying it to yourself. All I can say is don't wait until it's too late. She's already slipping away.'

That's when Spencer found out about your dates with Riley, and an ugly, selfish, hurt part of him wanted to scream with anger. Mainly at himself, but the damage was done and he had to get over you.

But when you showed up to the unsub's home, your FBI bullet-proof vest on and mascara slightly smeared under your eyes, he was beyond confused. And concerned.

'You're here,' he stated matter-of-factly.

'You sound surprised,' you answered stiffly, loading your gun without even glancing at him.

'To be honest, yeah. JJ and the rest all said you were out tonight. I figured you-'

'What? That I would ignore the call because I had something personal planned?' You finally looked up at him, and man did your cold stare pierce him like an arrow. 'This is my job, Spence. I knew, same as you and everyone else, that I would have to make some sacrifices to do it. So please, don't think so little of me just because I attempted to have a life outside of it.'

He grew more concerned at your choice of words. 'Attempted?' he asked, but then he looked closely at your smeared mascara, at the redness circling your eyes. Like you'd been crying-

'Don't worry about it,' you muttered, brushing past him to meet up with the team. 'You haven't for about four months now.'

Spencer tried to ignore the sting your words brought with them as he followed you to the rest of the team, forcing himself to put the case in front of you. But he'd done that for the past four months as you had so brightly pointed out, and look where it had landed him.

'Now remember,' Hotch started, bringing the team and some other officers in to brief, 'this unsub may use this place as his base to build his bombs, but don't discredit the idea that he wouldn't blow it up to save himself. Tread carefully but be vigilant, he is in the house somewhere. Now move.'

Spencer followed you into the house through the front door, gun and flashlight at the ready. All that could be heard were the soft but swift patter of footsteps as the FBI and local police ran in. The lights were on, but no unsub.

You were silently directed by Hotch to investigate the back end of the house, to which Spencer and Derek followed. You focussed on maintaining your breathing as you tried not to think about your date, Spencer, your heart thrashing in your ribcage. Only the unsub mattered.

The three of you broke into the last room of the house, the laundry. Upon entry, you spotted him, the unsub, running out the back door into the backyard.

'Hey!' you called out, immediately breaking into a sprint after him. You broke out of the laundry onto a cemented path towards a clothes line, chasing after him towards the fence line. But as you stepped off the path and onto the grass, something gave way beneath your feet, followed by a resounding click that had your freezing with fear.

'(L/n), keep going!' Derek shouted from somewhere behind you.

'Hold up!' you cried, throwing an arm back behind you. 'I think the yard is full of bombs.'

'Well, let's go around the front and get him in the back streets, come on!'

'I can't,' you replied back, slightly breathless from running, but also from the fear constricting now your airways.

'Why?' You didn't have to see him to know it was Spencer, concern dripping from just one word.

'Because I'm standing on one.'

Spencer knew it was physically impossible, but he was sure his stomach just dropped out of him and onto the bomb-littered grass around them. This was bad. Like very very bad.

'Shit,' Derek breathed out before bringing his wrist up to his mouth. 'Hotch, the unsub got away over the back fence, send some men to intercept him two blocks north from here.'

'Got it,' Hotch answered efficiently.

'And send the bomb squad out here. Yard is like a mine field and (L/n) is standing on one.'

After that, it didn't take long for the rest of the team to run outside, making extra careful to stand only on the pavements as they got as close to you as they could. Spencer stood the closest, standing directly in front of you as the bomb squad swept the yard for the rest of them.

'I've got some good news and some bad news,' one member of the bomb squad said as she came up to the team. 'Good news is it's the only bomb in the yard.'

'And I just managed to find it. Super,' you muttered, your tone shaky although the intention was to lighten the mood.

'Bad news is it's a pressure-triggered bomb, meaning that if you move even a fraction it'll go off. Also, by stepping on it, you've set of a timer until it explodes. The only way to disarm it seems to be a code of some kind.'

'How long do we have?' Spencer asked, not bothering to mask his desperation. This couldn't be happening. Of all the people, it had to be you.

'Six hours now,' she said grimly. 'My team and I will do everything we can to dismantle it and shut it off manually, but it's built quite strong so it'll be tough to crack open without setting it off. Your best bet will be to get an answer from your bomber.'

'Uniforms just called in,' Rossi said. 'They're bringing him in now.'

'Good,' Hotch said with a ferocity that would send most people running for the hills. 'He's gonna give us that code one way or another.' He turned to you, determination blazing in his eyes. 'Hang tight, (Y/n). We're gonna get you off that thing.'

'I'll hold you to that,' you joked, and you were grateful to receive a soft smile in return from Hotch and the rest of the team. Except for Spencer, he couldn't find it in himself to smile. He could barely think no thanks to your dangerous position.

'I'll stay with (Y/n),' Spencer said, his voice strained compared to his usual calmness.

'Reid,' Derek started, 'you're our best bet to crack open this guy. If we find something-'

'Then I'll have my phone ready to pick up. I'm not leaving her.'

It surprised you the strength you heard hidden underneath his fear. It was there in his eyes too, blazing like Hotch's, except with more warmth, more determination.

Derek looked to Hotch, and Hotch just nodded. 'Okay fine, but you better pick up on the first ring.'

'Promise.'

'I'll stay to help with the bomb squad,' Emily said while also looking at you.

'No,' you said as Hotch, Derek and JJ left. 'You all should go. In case he somehow remotely sets it off himself.'

'We're not leaving,' Reid said firmly, making eye contact with you. 'Not until you're off that bomb, you hear me?'

You wanted to argue, trying to be selfless and strong. But the truth was you were terrified, and to hear Spencer's strength where you lacked helped you push your pride aside and nod in agreement.

Time had flown by and it was now the last ten minutes. Spencer had received phone call after phone call but nothing had been helpful. They'd tried two potential codes already but they didn't work. The bomb squad quickly realised that they only had three chances to get the code right and so they were down to the last chance.

'You guys should really leave,' you said amidst your chattering teeth. It was now just after midnight and your thin button up and the bulletproof vest were not cutting it anymore. Spencer wished he could give you a blanket, a jacket, his own shirt for God's sake if it would keep you warm slightly.

'That's not going to happen,' he answered without hesitation.

You yawned, eyes threatening to droop close. Your legs had gone numb long ago. You were unsure how you were holding yourself up. It certainly wasn't by adrenaline. Perhaps you were frozen in place.

'I mean it, Spence,' you said, bracing yourself as another shiver threatened to spasm your entire body. 'It's the last ten minutes. You should be clear in case it goes off.'

'I'm not going to do that.'

'Damnit, Spencer. Of all the times to be stubborn, you choose now?'

'I'm not being stubborn,' Spencer argued. Were you purposefully trying to tick him off now? 'I'm trying to save your life!'

'You're right, you're not being stubborn. You're being plain stupid,' you retorted. You weren't sure why you were suddenly so angry, you just didn't like him playing the hero when he didn't have to.

'Yes! I am stupid, I admit that. I'll announce that to the entire neighbourhood right now if you want me to! Because if it weren't for me being an idiot, you wouldn't have had those dates, you wouldn't have had a date tonight, and maybe you wouldn't be stuck standing on a bomb right now!'

You stared incredulously at Spencer. He blamed himself for your situation? For Riley?

Despite the bustling of people around them, everything grew silent as youO stared at one another, Spencer's chest heaving as he sucked in air hard.

'Spence,' you said softly, your anger suddenly dissipating. 'I don't blame you for any of this. I would've ended up on this bomb one way or another. Or even worse, it could've been you standing on it. And as for Riley...' You thought the tears would come up again like before, but your eyes remained dry, and your heart didn't pull harshly.

Not for Riley, anyways.

'Did something happen between you two?' Spencer tentatively asked. His tone bordered on concerned and hopeful, demonstrating his torn mindset to whatever you were about to say.

You nodded. 'I told him I had to go to work, which wasn't unusual, but he just flipped. Said he was sick of me choosing you guys over him and that he was finished.'

He hated himself for feeling the slightest bit happy at the news, but his best friend instincts kicked in, and all he wanted to do was reach out and hold you. 'I'm sorry. You could've said no. We would've understood-'

'Spencer, I will always choose you guys over anyone,' you interjected, and the complete seriousness on your face reflected your sincerity brighter than the full moon above. 'I will always choose you, Spence.'

It was then Spencer saw it: the same feeling he'd had swirling in his stomach for months reflected in your eyes. It scared him, but what scared him more was that it would all be gone soon if he didn't do anything about it.

He would be too late, just like Derek said.

The bomb squad lady and Emily walked up to them both, and Spencer did not like the grim expressions on their faces.

'I'm sorry,' the bomb squad lady said. 'It's the last five minutes. There's nothing else we can do but clear out of the blast zone.'

'What about the code?' Spencer pressed, but Emily shook her head.

'Reid, they've gotten nothing out of him. We've got to go.'

'But we can't just leave her here-'

'Trust me, Spencer, I don't want to either!' Emily cried, tears pricking at her eyes at the thought of you dying. 'But we can't do anything for her here. I've got the remote to input the code if they get another one, but until then, we've got to clear from the blast zone.'

'No.' Spencer shook his head vigourously. He couldn't accept this. He wouldn't accept this.

'Spencer,' you tried gently. 'It's okay. I can do the rest alone. I want you to be safe.'

'Well, too bad, because I'm staying.'

You squeezed your eyes shut as tears rushed down your cheeks. 'Damnit, Spencer. Please, just go. Don't make this harder than it already is.'

Spencer took a daring step towards you, the tops of his shoes dangling just over the edge of the pavement. 'I won't abandon you. Not again.'

You were most likely a blubbering mess, your heart hurting so much at the thought that he would get caught up in your mess. 'God, why don't you just leave-'

'Because I love you, (Y/n)!'

The four of you stood dumbfounded as his proclamation echoed through the yard, the house, the street back out the front. Hell, Spencer hoped the whole world heard what he said, because he felt free for the first time in months, weightless, powerful.

And it was all because of you.

'I love you,' he repeated again, softer this time. As the reality of the situation came crashing down on him, tears of his own sprouted in his eyes and ran down his cheeks. He'd finally built up the courage to tell you, and you were minutes away from being blown up.

Through your tears, you find it in yourself to chuckle a little. It's watery and gross-sounding, but Spencer likes it none the less because it's yours, and you haven't lost complete hope. 'Talk about great timing, you big idiot.' And then there it is, that bright smile he saw day one in the office. You wore it with such pride, such strength it pulled at Spencer's heart strings painfully. 'You truly are a wonder, Spencer Reid.'

'One minute,' the bomb squad lady said, her tone frantic now. 'We've got to move! Now!'

'Reid, come on!' Emily cried, backing up with the bomb squad.

'I won't abandon her,' he replied, never taking his eyes off you.

'Reid please!'

Before he could reply, though, his phone buzzed, and he immediately answered the call. 'Please tell me you go it.'

'HOME! The code word is HOME!'

'Punch in HOME!' Reid called out to Emily, keeping Derek on the line as he stared at you. If you were to die, he was gonna make damn sure the last thing you saw wasn't an unfamiliar face.

'Are you sure?'

'We're out of time! Do it!'

'Spence...' you muttered. But you never finished your sentence, as your breath got caught while watching Emily punch in the code into the device. You closed your eyes. Soon you would be in eternal darkness. You would not fear it, but embrace it.

But when nothing happened, you dared to sneak a peek at what was going on. You saw Spencer first, who looked at Emily, who looked at the device in her hands. The deathly silence was finally broken at the sound of a green light on the device switching on. You then heard a hundred tiny clicks somewhere underfoot and felt yourself being pushed up back onto level ground.

Spencer finally looked back to you, eyes blown wide with hope he dared not realise. That same hope fuelled your frozen, tired legs, to take the tiniest of steps forward, and when nothing happened, you took your other foot off the bomb and collapsed forward into Spencer's arms.

His heart pounded faster than the jet that flew them all over the country every week as he cradled you simultaneously gently and tightly. You sobbed into his chest, your arms circling around his back and pulling him as tight as possible.

Oh, how he had missed your touch, your affection, your love, you.

'It's okay, you're okay,' he soothed, patting your hair down with one hand while he cradled you with the other. 'I'm here. We're all here.' He realised suddenly he'd dropped his phone, and so with one hand, he reached down and picked it up, bringing it to his ear. 'She's off.'

He barely heard the cheers of excitement and relief on Derek's end before he was hanging up and helping you to your feet. After that, it was a whirlwind of the bomb squad excavating the bomb, paramedics arriving, and CSU investigating the house.

After giving his statement of events to the local police and finishing speaking to other officials, he found you wrapped in a trauma blanket in the open back of an ambulance.

'How are you feeling?' he said as he approached you.

You broke free of your own world to look at Spencer, and a soft smile managed its way onto your lips. 'Well, I can feel my legs again so that's a start. And you?'

'All the better now that you're not standing on a bomb.'

You chuckled, though a red tinge dusted your cheeks out of embarrassment. 'I must admit, it's true what they say about your life flashing before your eyes the moment before you die.'

'Really? What did you see?' Spencer had read articles about this kind of stuff before, but had never spoken with a person who'd experience it themselves.

You didn't answer straight away, instead standing up to face him fully. Your legs felt like jelly a little but you stood strong. 'I saw you,' you replied easily, as if breathing air. 'Only you.'

Spencer couldn't hold it back, his fear, his relief. It all came bubbling out in an ugly sob as he pulled you into a bone-crushing hug, pressing his face into your hair, using your scent to calm himself. He felt you sobbing too, how your body shook with your own anxieties.

'I missed you,' you said, your words muffled into his chest.

'I know, I'm sorry,' he murmured. 'I missed you, too.' He pulled you back slightly so that he could see your face. He wiped at your tears and forced his best smile just for you. 'But I'm back now. And I'm not going anywhere. That is... if you want me around.'

You heard his silent question, and it made you smile how confident and shy he could be simultaneously.

'Spencer Reid,' you murmured, like what you were about to say next was your biggest secret, 'of course I want you around. I love you.'

He chuckled with relief, tears still pricking at his eyes. But your words sealed your fate, as he used his small amount of confidence to grab the back of your neck gently and pull your lips to his.

You were the sweetest thing he'd ever tasted, and dare he compare you the most addictive drug he could ever hope to get high on. He couldn't get enough of you, and it was such a relief to finally let it out how much he needed you to breathe.

You were equally breathless, simultaneously feeling all consumed by Spencer's love without also having enough of it. Your fingers danced in the soft curls at the nape of his neck, threading yourself into him as much as possible. The truth was, the past four months were torturous.

'I'm not going anywhere.'

As you both finally broke apart, you pressed your foreheads together, nervous giggles of teenagers bubbling up in you both. This was fresh and new, but the love you had for one another had been there all along. No one was going anywhere.

'Finally!'

You and Spencer looked up to see the rest of the team watching from afar, with Emily and JJ smiling giddily, Derek and Rossi trying to suppress laughter, and Hotch having the simplest of grins on his lips.

'Oh, babygirl is going to have a field day when she hears about this,' Derek said, walking up to clap Spencer on the back and give him a hug. 'Well done, man.'

'It's about time,' Rossi said as the rest of the team joined you both. 'I thought I was going to have to take matters into my own hands.'

'Thank God you didn't,' Emily said, both her and JJ giving you a hug. 'As much as this has been traumatic for all of us, I'm so glad it brought you back together.'

'Say that to my poor legs,' you whined, but you hugged them just as tight. Truthfully, you felt the same. And as Reid held you in his arms that night, having refused to let you out of his sight after your brush with death, you couldn't be more grateful for it, too.

[seasurfacefullofclouds1]

Hey Sea

Now that Louis is in a fairly good position professionally I badly want him to date someone it must be nice having a partner and also it would shut those delusional fans for once and for all.. I acknowledge that professionally he has a lot to do yet.

Not wanting to speculate about his sexuality but deep down how much I try to convince myself with that "in fact straight" tweet I somehow feel Louis isn't - I know it is wrong and not good of me to think that. I just want him to be happy keep making music and get some industry help his music deserves awards!! Do you anytime feel the same - thay he gave away too much of his self, love and affection when has was young and maybe it hurt him, now he is too cautious about it, I don't mind him getting back with Eleanor also because she seemed to always be there for him during tough times and she has seen his ups and downs (although I never felt any chemistry in between them ) I just want to Louis to have someone in his life who deserves HIM. Music industry is itself a tough one to navigate having a partner and having a shoulder to rely on can make it much easier. What do you reckon?

Hi,

I think that Louis is able to have a bird’s eye view of his experiences, and make a longterm plan for the future. Every professional accomplishment we see now is that outcome of decisions from back in 2018 or so. Louis has been able to come to these decisions mostly on his own; his team is there to facilitate the plan.

This is why Louis is able to answer eloquently about his choices, unlike others who stumble through talking points made by their manager or label.

Louis’ choices are obviously his, as Matt Vines, his tour team, and many others have corroborated. Louis talks about songwriting himself; there is never a proxy appointed to speak on his behalf, to give interviews in lieu of Louis himself. Louis’ voice has stayed consistent throughout his discography, through many collaborators, because he writes the lyrics himself. Louis still keeps his childhood friends close to him. Louis gave a free festival for 10,000 fans. Louis doesn’t charge for meet & greet or VIP. Louis keeps his tickets affordable even though he can sell them for 10x the price. Louis has championed the same artists through the years, has lifted up women and POC artists, and his support has been consistent. And now he’s touring with friends— the DMAs— whom he’s known for years. All of these are choices.

Louis has never— will never— objectify women in his music. He will never sexualize the people who make up the majority of his fanbase as sexual body parts, or see us as wallets, or write songs about how we are hard candy dripping on him, or how sex with women is better when you “pay for it,” or how his fanbase are mostly girls who want to be treated as pop tarts for a sugar daddy. Louis will always encourage community (“you can’t do it by yourself/ whatever tears you apart/ don’t let it break your heart,” “you won’t be the first or be the last to bleed/ You're not the only one, no/ In a strange way, we're all in this together”) and he will sing about both the darkness (“all the lonely shadow dances from the cradle to the grave”) and the light.

Fans who are unable or unwilling to see this characteristic about Louis— his fierce self-determination and really, a generosity of spirit to do good in the world— but instead concentrate on winning fandom wars (bad takes on his smoking / drinking, stupid theories on why never spending time with another person means they’re still together, conflating swearing and flashing middle fingers with intellectual incoherence) are the myopic ones, the ones who will never catch up with Louis. He’s already years ahead.

As for a romantic partner, I think this is an interesting issue, because it’s the one thing in life that maybe one can’t intellectualize with an executive plan. Through his discography, we can hear that Louis has had turmoil in his romantic life, and that romance has played a pivotal role in the highs and lows of his career, in so many ways. Yes, I do think Louis has regrets, he’s made mistakes, and he feels guilty for some of it. Yes, I do think Louis feels he has revealed too much of his life. I think he doesn’t lack for partners, but he’s wary of anyone connected to the industry. I am also 1000% sure that he will never be back with Eleanor.

[leasstories]

Lea’s advent calendar day 24 - Fate

@writerthreads writing prompt for Christmas (2022), prompt 4 :

[Snowed in together in a bookstore]

Eddie x gn!reader

No trigger warning

WC: ≈ 0.6K words

December 23rd, 1985

Thank god your shift is almost over. It is 6 pm and your shift ends at 6:30 pm. There is only one client in the bookstore. He has long, curly hair, he is dressed in ripped jeans, a leather and a denim jacket and white and blue dirty reeboks. You find the young man pretty attractive and admire him discretely while pretending to put books on a shelf.

The young man is currently looking at the fantasy section of your bookstore, you smile. You consider giving him recommendations as you are a fantasy novels fan, but you decide against it, too shy and flustered to approach him.

After ten good minutes, the attractive young man checks out. He bought Unfinished Tales of Númenor and Middle-earth by J.R.R Tolkien.

“Great choice” you tell him smiling and giving him his change.

“I really loved The Hobbit and The Lord of the Rings, so I thought I’d give it a try.” Eddie says, smiling at you.

Your heart is almost bursting out from your chest when Eddie smiles at you.

“I… I finished it last week and if you loved the other books, you’ll like it.” You tell him softly and a bit shyly.

Eddie takes the book and goes toward the door when he realized that it snowed so much that he is stuck in the bookstore, he turns around, clearing his throat.

“I think we are snowed in…” Eddie tells you, embarrassed.

You join Eddie towards the door to check and you really are snowed in.

“I’m so sorry…” You profusely apologize.

“Hey… hey… it’s not your fault darling.” Eddie tells you reassuringly.

You go sit on one of the stools you use to arrange the higher shelves.

“Make yourself at home” You tell Eddie.

Eddie sits on the ground and look at his book. Eddie can’t take the silence, so he ends up asking.

“Who’s your favorite character in The Lord of The Rings?”

“I really love Galadriel, she’s so powerful, she shows that women can be powerful too. What about you?” you ask.

“I really love Bilbo and Frodo, the two of them are supposed to be Hobbits and they end up becoming heroes. I wish I could be as brave as them.” Eddie tells you earnestly.

“I’m sure you’re braver than you give yourself credit for!” you exclaim.

“If someone were asking me to follow them into Mordor, I wouldn’t.” Eddie answers.

“It’s not about going into Mordor. You’re brave in your own way Eddie. Being yourself is being brave.” You tell him.

“You remember my name?” Eddie asks.

“Of course, I do, I’ve been sharing classes with you my entire childhood. It’s not because I graduated two years ago that I forgot you.” You say shyly.

Eddie tells your name to make sure he didn’t get it wrong.

“That’s me.” You answer.

“You’re really cute” he blurts out.

You start blushing and shyly look at your feet.

“Thank you, you’re not so bad yourself.” You tell him.

“After the snowstorm and all, would you be okay… I mean would it be okay if I took you out on a date?” Eddie says, nervously fidgeting. It is the first time ever you see Eddie nervous.

“It would me more than okay” you answer smiling.

“Okay! Then it settled!” Eddie says. “And let’s use this time we are stuck into the bookstore let’s get to know each other more!” Eddie suggests.

“That would be amazing too” You say smiling bigger than you’ve ever smiled.

[chocolatelandwinner]

Defining Sexual Assault and Harassment

WARNING: Mentions of Sexual Assault and Trauma

Today's blog is going to deal with some really heavy topics. Sexual assault specifically, but I will also be covering the effects of sexual assault and the trauma that follows after.

If you think that might be too much for you or you're just in the wrong head space. Go ahead and skip this blog post, maybe check out a different one.

Alright. You okay? Yeah. Okay. Let's start with defining Sexual Assault and the difference between it and Sexual Harassment.

Sexual Assault:

The term sexual assault refers to sexual contact or behavior that occurs without explicit consent of the victim. Some forms of sexual assault include:

Attempted rape

Fondling or unwanted sexual touching

Forcing a victim to perform sexual acts, such as oral sex or penetrating the perpetrator’s body

Penetration of the victim’s body, also known as rape

We have covered Consent before in the blog but as a reminder.

Consenting to someone touching you in a sexual manner means agreeing to it by choice and having both the freedom and capacity to make that choice.

It is NOT consent if you or someone else was:

Asleep, unconscious, drunk, drugged or 'on' drugs.

Pressured, manipulated, tricked or scared into saying yes.

Too young or vulnerable to have the freedom and capacity to make that choice.

Consent can be withdrawn at any time, including during sex or a sexual act. Just because someone consented to something before doesn’t mean they consented to it happening again.

If someone’s unsure whether the other person is giving their consent for something sexual, they should always check with them. It is all about communication and trust. It's important to trust your partner and to fully agree when crossing your boundaries.

Sexual Harassment can be similar, but there are clear differences.

What is sexual harassment?

Sexual harassment includes unwelcome sexual advances, requests for sexual favors, and other verbal or physical harassment of a sexual nature in the workplace or learning environment, according to the Equal Employment Opportunity Commission (EEOC). Sexual harassment does not always have to be specifically about sexual behavior or directed at a specific person. For example, negative comments about women as a group may be a form of sexual harassment.

Although sexual harassment laws do not usually cover teasing or offhand comments, these behaviors can also be upsetting and have a negative emotional effect.

Sexual harassment is a broad term, including many types of unwelcome verbal and physical sexual attention. Sexual assault refers to sexual contact or behavior, often physical, that occurs without the consent of the victim. Sexual harassment generally violates civil laws—you have a right to work or learn without being harassed—but in many cases is not a criminal act, while sexual assault usually refers to acts that are criminal.

Who are the perpetrators?

The majority of perpetrators are someone known to the victim. Approximately eight out of 10 sexual assaults are committed by someone known to the victim, such as in the case of intimate partner sexual violence or acquaintance rape.

The term “date rape” is sometimes used to refer to acquaintance rape. Perpetrators of acquaintance rape might be a date, but they could also be a classmate, a neighbor, a friend’s significant other, or any number of different roles. It’s important to remember that dating, instances of past intimacy, or other acts like kissing do not give someone consent for increased or continued sexual contact.

In other instances the victim may not know the perpetrator at all. This type of sexual violence is sometimes referred to as stranger rape. Stranger rape can occur in several different ways:

Blitz sexual assault: when a perpetrator quickly and brutally assaults the victim with no prior contact, usually at night in a public place

Contact sexual assault: when a perpetrator contacts the victim and tries to gain their trust by flirting, luring the victim to their car, or otherwise trying to coerce the victim into a situation where the sexual assault will occur

Home invasion sexual assault: when a stranger breaks into the victim's home to commit the assault

Survivors of both stranger rape and acquaintance rape often blame themselves for behaving in a way that encouraged the perpetrator. It’s important to remember that the victim is never to blame for the actions of a perpetrator. It is also important to remember that sexual assault can be carried out by a person of any gender against another person of any gender.

Does sexual assault have to involve force?

It’s a really common myth about sexual assault, rape and other kinds of sexual violence and abuse that they have to involve physical force or leave the person with visible injuries. But that isn’t true.

There are many other ‘tactics’ that someone might use to sexually assault someone. For example:

pressure

manipulation

bullying

intimidation

threats

deception

drugs or alcohol

BUT, none of these have to have happened for it to still be sexual assault.

Many people find themselves unable to speak or move when faced with a scary, shocking or dangerous situation. If that happened, it does not mean the person gave their consent.

And if there’s no consent then it is always sexual assault.

Now just like an injury, Sexual Assault can lead to long term issues for it's victims.

Right after a sexual assault is a very difficult and confusing time.

Sexual assault is a common yet underreported crime. According to a 2018 study, 27% of women and 7% of men reported experiencing sexual assault in their lifetimes.

If you or someone you know has experienced the trauma of sexual assault, the steps that follow — exams, kits, police, prosecutors — can be confusing and difficult. Whether the assault was in the last 48 hours or many years ago, this guide will help you or a loved one understand and navigate the process.

There are also numerous different hotlines you can call and this website that gives more information about the help a person can get.

Calling the National Sexual Assault Hotline gives you access to a range of free services including:

Confidential support from a trained staff member

Support finding a local health facility that is trained to care for survivors of sexual assault and offers services like sexual assault forensic exams

Someone to help you talk through what happened

Local resources that can assist with your next steps toward healing and recovery

Referrals for long term support in your area

Information about the laws in your community

Basic information about medical concerns

There is also this website which lists 5 Sexual Assault help organizations.

Unresolved wounds can impact current health, even if the trauma occurred long ago.

Licensed clinical social worker and trauma specialist at the UCLA Rape Treatment Center Jane Willens has been treating women for decades. Some have been assaulted recently and others a long time ago.

The violation, according to Willens, is typically accompanied by a loss of self-esteem and feelings of powerlessness and worthlessness. “I always emphasize that no matter how many decades have passed since their sexual assault or trauma, it’s never too late to seek mental health treatment,” says Willens. “It’s common to see intense emotions such as guilt, self-blame, and shame. There is often underlying anxiety, anger, and depression. The assault also impacts the ability to trust oneself and others, particularly if the assailant was a known acquaintance.” Willens further describes theimpact of sexual trauma as neurobiological, meaning the trauma can affect the brain and nervous systems. Trauma-related symptoms may include chronic headaches, body aches, fatigue, dizziness and nausea, sexual difficulties, as well as emotional issues.

If you or a loved one has been sexual assaulted, there are no words to truly describe the hurt a person can feel. This blog can not go into all the different aspects of sexual assault and the trauma it can cause, but it is here to inform and educated others.

It is hard living and breathing after something so traumatizing. The very least I can say is that, you aren't ruined after this. Everyone deserves love <3

[mushed-kid]

saw a tiktok and wanted to this myself, so…

my mighty med/lab rats/elite force lgbt+ headcanons

(including all the roles i wanted to add, not just the mains)

Kaz:

- Bisexual, very open and casual about it, (Often refers to himself as gay because it comes naturally and the difference isn’t that important to him)

- Cis guy, but he also doesn’t care that much (as in he would wear a skirt or dress, he just doesn’t)

- Doesn’t come out, he just lets people figure it out (“If you don’t know I’m gay yet, that’s on you”)

- Not afraid of getting into yelling matches or fights with homophobes for himself or his friends

Oliver:

- Trans ftm (come on, you guys also watched Oliver Hatches The Eggs, right? They were trying to send us a message!)

- His mom had refused to believe him at first, but when he didn’t stop claiming he was a boy no matter how many specialists and doctors she brought him to, she just accepted it

- She went full ‘you’re a boy’ mode, and he wasn’t allowed to do anything she considered slightly girly at all, (he was just glad she didn’t hate him, but now he’s very afraid of seeming feminine because he thinks people won’t see him as a guy anymore)

- Sits the Elite Force down to come out, but he works himself up about it and is so filled with nerves that he starts crying (the others panic thinking something is seriously wrong)

- Kaz is the only one that knew from before because they’re best friends

- Bonds with Chase about being trans

- Gay with comphet (because of his mother making him believe that was his only choice)

- Because of that, he hasn’t come out as gay (because he doesn’t know he’s gay yet), and sometimes he comes off as slightly homophobic (also due to the fact that he has very fragile masculinity and thinks guys can’t be feminine)

- The others get mad at him, but he doesn’t mean anything bad, his mom just kinda sucked (and it’s hard to shake some of the things she’s told him)

- Very afraid of homophobic and transphobic people, which is why he takes so long to come out to his friends

Skylar:

- Bisexual with a preference for women or lesbian with comphet

- I like her and Oliver so I hc her as ‘Doesn’t really care because it’s not a thing on Caldera’

- Cis girl

Alan:

- Cishet

- Idk what more to say about him

Gus:

- Gender fluid

- Pan maybe? I imagine him swinging every way because he really doesn’t care about gender

Horace:

- Cishet

- Supportive, but very confused about everything (he always uses the wrong labels when talking about someone)

Jordan:

- Cis

- Aromantic (She thinks it’s gross)

Stephanie:

- Cishet (Though she does kind off have a weird thing for Gus so I’m not so sure)

- Will hang out with gay people just because they’re gay so she can seem like a good person

Tecton & Megahertz:

- They’re gay and dating (I think this ship is kinda funny so… it’s canon)

- They’re both cis

Captain Atomic:

- Cishet

- Slightly homophobic

- Also very misogynistic

Chase:

- Trans ftm (the constant joking about his height and how girly he is in lab rats? A Sign.)

- Came out when he was very young, he always knew

- Raised in a basement so you’d think he didn’t know about transphobia for a very long time, but he did, (Mr.Davenport talked to him about it and he researched it thoroughly)

- Bisexual

- Tries to avoid homophobic and transphobic people, and just ignores them, but it doesn’t always work. Sometimes he’ll just take it because he doesn’t want to fight, and it makes the other worry about him a lot

- Other times, Spike comes out and he goes crazy on them, and people leave him alone for a while after that

Bree:

- Lesbian with comp het (she thought she was straight because that’s all she knew, and then she thought she was bi because she liked girls, but then she realized she didn’t like guys)

- Cis girl

- Will verbally kill a homophobe

Adam:

- Everyone assumes he’s straight, because he never came out as anything else (he just doesn’t really care about coming out at all)

- He mentions something about a guy he likes/dated back in high school and everyone is super shocked

- “I thought you guys knew”, - “We thought you were straight!?” - “I never said that either” - “fair enough”

- Cis guy

- He’s not transphobic, and only makes those jokes about chase because he genuinely forgets chase wasn’t born a boy. (Chase thinks that makes him his biggest supporter even if the jokes sting)

- Will beat up anyone that says or does anything mean to his siblings about it

Leo:

- Straight

- He/They (idk if that counts as non binary?)

- Would start fights with homophobes and then realize he’s fucked and needs help

- Got bullied for being gay even if he isn’t, definitely came home after being picked on and trying to hide his injuries from tasha (who notices and calls the school right away)

- Will still start fights with homophobes, now knowing that he can take them

Marcus:

- He’s an android so technically not cis, but he’s a guy (he fucking hates it/its pronouns because he’s not just a machine)

- Aromantic & Asexual (he’s very indifferent to both relationships and sex)

- Doesn’t really do relationships, but if he did, it would be more like his partner in crime (real crime not pranks)

- If he did get an evil sidekick of sorts, he’d probably be gay

- Will claim to have any gender of sexuality if it’ll help him out of anything, no matter how small

- Will also accuse anyone of being homophobic if it helps him in any way (Douglas hates both of these)

- Outing someone is the one thing that he doesn’t do (Douglas is so proud of that one)

- Will start a fight with anyone at any time, and realizes beating someone up for being homophobic won’t get him in trouble sends him on a mission to find every bully at school

- He claims it’s just because he won’t get in trouble, but Douglas knows that deep down he cares (because he does get in trouble at school, just not at home)

Donald:

- I want to say cishet, but trans ftm is calling my name from afar

- Straight and borderline homophobic (he supports the people he knows and cares about, but in itself he thinks homosexuality is wrong)

- Will use his kids sexualities to look even better in media, with no regards for what they feel about it (They hate it)

- Outs people, but also tells his kids he’s proud of them no matter what and supports them, so they’re not very sure what he really thinks

- He’s just weird about it

- Will pretend he didn’t hear the homophobic or transphobic comment toward his kids if it means avoiding a conflict

Tasha:

- Cishet

- Very supportive of everyone

- Calls out homophobes and tries to inform everyone she knows about how important it is to be an ally

- Starts a group with some other moms to show support (the others think it’s a bit much, but she’s just being nice so they let her)

Douglas:

- Bisexual, but evil about it

- Strictly dated other bad guys/villains that he worked with, so most of his relationships sucked and ended badly (see; Krane and Giselle)

- Trans ftm

- Has a lot of kids, but honestly doesn’t know who any of their dads are

- I want Adam, Bree, and Chase to have the same dad, but I also kinda wanna say Adam has a different one, and that Bree and Chase are twins

- Daniel has another dad again, and Douglas realized he couldn’t raise the kid alone, so he had him adopted to keep him safe

- Will piss off a transphobe and run away from the fight

Perry:

- She/They

- Will rip a homophobe to pieces without breaking a sweat (she also knows a guy, so getting rid of any evidence is easy)

…..

and that’s everyone i could think of!

[ilovewhiteroses]

Workplace Affair Part 5.

Pairing: The Corinthian x Female Librarian of The Dreaming Reader Genre: Humor, fluff, smut Warnings: Smut (sex in a hot tub), voyeurism Rating: 18+ Notes: - Morpheus and the Agents (OCs) make an appearance in this chapter

You and The Corinthian tried to go official with your relationship in front of the others, but you found out it wasn't that easy…

 With a book in your hand you climbed up the ladder and placed it on the top shelf among the others, then repeated this a few more times. You were in a good mood and was still thinking about your last date with Corinthian. You felt so good that you even hummed Peggy Lee's song, That's My Style to yourself. The lyrics were exactly about how you felt about him:

 ”He's got that chemistry that melts me down and ruins me

Yes, that's my style”

 ”And there's that smile, a little love was started

And it's wicked and it's crooked

And I know it's got me hooked”

 You were totally into each other, that's for sure, but it would have been too early to say the L-word. You knew from your previous, human life that it is better not to rush things, you have to give them time.

You put the teddy bear and bouquet of flowers you received from him into your recently received closet. Because Morpheus saw how well you did your job, so like the other employees, you were given a separate room in the palace, which was almost like a hotel room. Besides the closet, there was a window that provided a magnificent view, a desk with a chair, a couch with a reading lamp next to it, and a bathroom with a sink and a mirror. There was no bed, bathtub or toilet, because the Dreaming residents did not have the same needs as humans. This too, just like the throne room, was minimally but tastefully furnished. You could retreat here at any time if you were tired of all the work and wanted a little rest. But you made one thing clear right away: no matter how much you want to, you cannot bring Corinthian up here under any circumstances. Why would you even, having sex in dreams was much more exciting.

You were almost done putting books on the top shelves when you heard the voices of two men politely greeting you. You climbed down the ladder and saw the Agents.

"Hello! How can I help you? Are you looking for something?” you asked them kindly.

"Oh no, that's not what we came for." said Agent 1.

"We want to talk to you, but don't worry, there's nothing wrong!" Agent 2 reassured you when he saw you start to turn pale. It's that "we need to talk" thing again… you really hated that. You gulped and asked:

"What do you want to talk to me about?"

"Well, where do we begin." the two Agents said at the same time.

"The last dream, where we were looking for meaning, was quite interesting" said Agent 2.

"A young girl dreamed of a Funfair and as Agent 2 and I were walking through the crowd, we saw you and Corinthian." said Agent 1. You didn't know what to do. You were angry and shocked at the same time that you were seen.

"What were you doing there anyway?” they both asked you. “We thought he appears in nightmares."

You had no choice but to tell the truth.

"I don't deny it, we were really there. We were on a Valentine's Day date and we had a great time."

"Wait a minute...a date? You and him are dating?" Agent 1 asked in astonishment.

"But you're a dream and he's a nightmare! As far as I know that's against the rules." said Agent 2.

You tried to play out the consequences in your head. The Agents would tell Morpheus about you two and he would send Corinthian to eternal darkness as a punishment, and would keep you under constant surveillance. Or, what's even more possible was that you could make an agreement with the Agents that if they don't say anything, you won't tell Morpheus that they always hitting on women in dreams. You heard that from Merv. You crossed your arms in front of you.

"Yeah, I'll admit it, we broke the rules. And if I say that Corinthian and I have been dating for a while, what do you think about that?" the Agents looked at each other, surprised that you admitted it.

"Seriously, what's wrong with us being together? We didn't hurt anyone! I'm not going to turn into a knife-wielding nightmare and he's not going to turn into a librarian. In fact, since we've been together, we've both been much more efficient at our jobs. But you know what, feel free to tell Morpheus." you said sadly. You felt like you were about to cry.

The Agents were thinking for a few minutes, then Agent 1 said:

"It’s true that it's not right that you went against the rules, but at the same time, the romance between you and him didn't have any negative effects on the Dreaming and you both do your jobs really well."

"Besides, this matter belongs only to the two of you, who are we to interfere?" asked Agent 2 .

"So… you're not going to tell Morpheus?" you asked a little uneasily.

"We decided not to. Our job is to keep Morpheus informed of what's going on in the Dreaming, not who's sleeping with whom. He created us to mind only our own business. Besides, you don't even know how many other relationships there are besides yours, which are hidden from him." said Agent 1.

"Really?" you asked surprised.

"Yes. These were revealed during the census." Agent 2 answered.

So this meant that the Dreaming was not much different from the Waking World. Here too, the inhabitants gossiped with each other and love developed between them.

"Then you give your word that you are not going to tell him about me and Corinthian?" you pointed at them with your index finger.

"We swear on our lives!" they said at the same time and put their hands on their hearts. You had no choice but to trust them. It was expected that your secret affair with the nightmare would be revealed sooner or later and if you thought about it, Morpheus actually already knew about you. When he called you and Corinthian in for a talk, he was very angry with you, rightfully so. Having sex on his throne maybe wasn’t such a good idea…You hoped that if things worked out that way, the Agents would talk to Morpheus on your behalf.

"Okay, I trust you. If you don't mind, I'll have to go and put a few more books on the shelves." you said.

"Okay, we have to go too. If you need anything, just call us!" said Agent 1 and with that the two Agents left.

As you continued your task, you weren't humming like you did earlier. You were thinking about what if one day you went to Morpheus yourself and told him that you and Corinthian were a couple. Would he appreciate your courage and honesty or banish you too to the darkness? He trusted you, so what reason would he have to punish you? Either way, you had to realize you weren't ready to tell him yet, you should get Lucienne’s and Merv’s opinions first.

 After you finished putting the books to their places, you went to your desk. You saw Lucienne reading.

"Do you need my help?" you asked her.

"That’s very kind of you, but I don’t need it now. Feel free to take a walk or drink a coffee, and I'll let you know if I need anything!" replied Lucienne kindly.

"Okay then. I brought something to read, so I'll be around.” you sat down and started reading the book of Hollywood icon Marilyn Monroe. As interesting as the book was, you simply couldn't pay attention to what you were reading. You were trying to imagine how Lucienne would react if you told her about your relationship with Corinthian:

 Reaction A.: She would shrug and say: "if you make each other happy, then I wish you nothing but happiness!!"

Reaction B.: She would slam the table indignantly and ask angrily: "Have you completely lost your mind, woman?"

Reaction C.: She would start sobbing and accuse you of betraying her by dating the nightmare against her request.

 Just like with Morpheus, you realized it was better to wait a little and maybe tell her another time.

Lucienne noticed that you just stared ahead.

“Y/N, is everything okay? Or did you just read something incredible and are now trying to process it?” she asked with a chuckle.

"Don't worry, it's only the latter." you answered and tried to really focus on the book.

 Later, you went out to the kitchen, where the employees could drink and talk. Merv recently installed a brand new coffee machine and you wanted to try it. You made yourself a drink and the taste was heavenly. You were about to go back when suddenly Corinthian appeared at the door.

"Hey! How come you're here and not in the library?" you asked him surprised.

"I heard about the new coffee machine and thought I'd try it, but now that you're here, maybe I should try something else..." he said and kissed you so that you didn't even have time to protest. You broke the kiss.

"Are you crazy? Someone might see us!" you said taking his hands off your hips. He looked around.

"I don't see anyone, so don't worry." he said, making himself a coffee in the meantime. "Have you tried it? How was it?”

"Yes, and it was very good, even in the Waking World I never drank anything so delicious!" you complimented the drink you just had.

"If it was good for you, I think it will be good for me too. Tell me, how was your day?” he asked as he started to drink. You thought about telling him about your conversation with the Agents, but ended up talking about something else instead.

"I put books on the top shelves and then read Marilyn Monroe's book. It was interesting and sad at the same time."

"Yes, Hollywood is cruel. But, let's move on to a much more fun topic." he put the now empty cup on the counter, then picked you up and put you on the counter too. He started caressing your thigh.

"Corinthian, I swear, if anyone comes in and sees us, I'll slap you!" you said, but you got so turned on...

"I love it when you're so feisty!" he said while kissing your neck. "I heard about a real estate agent who always dreams of beautiful houses because of his job. How about we go on a date there tonight?” he asked and kissed you.

"Sounds great, I can't wait!" you said biting your lip. You already imagined the two of you…

Suddenly you heard footsteps coming closer and closer to the kitchen.

"Shit, someone's coming!" you said pushing him away from you. You panicked and quickly jumped off the counter. You didn't have much time to think.

"Quick, hide in here!" you said and opened Merv's janitor closet and pushed the nightmare in, then closed the door. You even locked it with a key so he wouldn't get out of there before time. Morpheus entered the kitchen.

Morpheus? What is he doing here?

“Hi Y/N! How are you? I see Merv replaced the coffee machine.” he said. You've never seen him in such an ordinary situation.

"Thank you Lord Morpheus, I'm fine. Sorry for the question, but, you drink coffee? Just because I've never seen you here before.”

"I very rarely come here. I don't usually eat or drink much, but now I was curious about the new coffee machine." he answered. You couldn't explain why, but for some reason he seemed he was in high spirits. You thought that as long as he was like this, you should tell him about Corinthian, but it wasn't possible, because your lover was hiding in the closet and that way he would have heard that you were talking to the Lord of Dreams without him. No, another time.

Finally, Morpheus' coffee was ready, and then he said:

"I'm going back to run errands."

"Alright, have a nice day!" you answered in embarrasment. You waited a little, then when you were sure he was really gone, you opened the closet and let Corinthian out.

"I'm so sorry! I couldn't think of a better idea. Did you hit yourself?” you asked worriedly.

"No, thank God. Anyway, there's a lot of space here in the closet, next time you can hide with me and while the others are drinking coffee, we could..." he said and imitated penetration with his fingers. You buried your face in your palm and laughed.

"Oh Corinthian, never change!"

 After coffee break, you talked to Merv a bit. The pumpkin head lit a cigarette and offered you one too, but you didn't take the opportunity.

"Listen Merv, can I ask you something? What is your honest opinion of Corinthian?” you got straight to the point. Merv narrowed his eyes.

"Honestly? He is too full of himself. I could say that he is bad, but of course he is, because he was created as a nightmare. And then, even though I never asked, he kept telling me about his adventures in the Waking World, which got boring as hell after a while, because it was always the same: sex and killing, sex and killing. Although I have to admit, he has a pretty damn good dressing style.” he nodded his head and pointed at you with his fingers holding a cigarette. "But why did you ask? You have the hots for him or what?”

You blushed at the question.

"Um, well, it's true that he's a good looking guy, but let's say I got together with him, what would your reaction be?" you asked him, grabbing the ends of your hair.

"You know what? I wouldn't care about it. Do what is good for you. I say, as long as me and others don't get in trouble, everyone should mind their own business. I'm going now, Matthew left a mess and I have to clean it up. Talk to you later!"

 Night has come in the Waking World, and with it the dreaming humans. In this dream, you and Corinthian found yourself in a wealthy neighbourhood of a big city. You held hands and looked for a house where there was no one. Soon, you found a stylish, two-story luxury home. You didn't need a key, you just opened it and got in. First you got to the living room, then the dining room, and finally the kitchen. He walked forward and saw that there was a hot tub outside next to the pool. He turned to you and excitedly asked:

"Have you ever done it in a hot tub?"

"Only in the bathtub, when I was human. I've heard that it's not healthy to have sex in hot tubs and pools because you can catch something."

"That's true, but you're a dream who is immune to every disease and can't be harmed.”

He was right, and that's why you enjoyed being a dream. If you wanted to, you could easily jump off the top of the tallest building in the dream world and be fine. He looked into the fridge.

"Would you like something to drink?"

"No, thanks."

"Alright then. Come on, let's get undressed and get into the hot tub!” he said and took off his clothes, you did the same. The water was already bubbling when you got in. You sat down on the seats and enjoyed the pleasantly warm water and the bubbles.

You felt guilty for not telling him about the Agents earlier. You tried to steer the conversation in that direction.

"Did you try to tell the others that we were together?"

"It crossed my mind several times that I should try, but by the time I got there, I realized that I wasn't ready yet." he said.

"Same. Although…I met the Agents and they said they saw us at the Funfair.” Corinthian frowned.

"What did those fuckers tell you? I hope they didn’t say anything to Morpheus, otherwise they will regret it!" he said softly but menacingly.

"They said that what is between us belongs only to us and they promised not to tell him."

"They really better not!" he finished what he had to say, then tried to talk about something else. He looked at you with a mischievous grin.

"The water is good, isn't it?"

"Um, yes. So far I've only been in a hot tub once." you replied as you felt the bubbles between your fingers.

"Really? And how about this?” he grabbed you by your hips and pulled you into his lap. You kissed each other and you straightened up. As you sat on Corinthian, you stroked his lips with your thumb, then your hand slid down to his chest. He started caressing your breast with one hand.

"I see you're thinking about something. Tell me what's on your mind?” he asked you in a deep, raspy voice with a seductive smile on his face.

You looked at him with eyes full of desire, you licked your lips and asked what you had wanted for a long time.

"Could you please take off your sunglasses tonight?"

He was surprised at your request. The smile disappeared from his face and he looked away in confusion, then back at you. He gulped.

"Are you sure about this?"

"Yes." you told him in a husky voice. Corinthian saw that you really wanted it, so he reached for his sunglasses with his free hand and took them off, placing them next to the hot tub. You finally got to see him like you've never seen him before. The tiny teeth were just like his own in his mouth and the sight was not at all bizarre to you. After all, in the Dreaming, the unusual was the usual.

"What are you thinking of now?" he looked at you and caressed your arm.

"It's good that you trust me so much that you dare to take off the glasses and show your true self." you caressed his face.

"No one has ever seen my real eyes in an intimate situation. You are the first." As soon as he said that, you could hear your heart pounding in your ears. It meant a lot to you. It was almost like a confession of love.

You felt the warmth of the water on your skin and you were so turned on that you slid your other hand down to his cock and as soon as you grabbed it, you felt that it was already hard. You started stroking him, he moaned.

"Oh yes, that’s good." he said in a low, deep voice. You leaned down to his neck and started kissing and biting him softly, he moaned and sighed. You teased him with your hand for a while, then he reached over and stopped you. You got scared.

"Is something wrong?" you asked worriedly. you thought you were causing him pain with the underwater hand job.

"It's okay baby!" he replied with a sexy smile. "You did it so good that I'm afraid I'm going to have an orgasm too soon and I want to cum inside you. Let me do it for you now.” You let go of his cock and his hand slipped between your legs and he started caressing you. He caressed your clit and your folds with his middle finger, your erotic moans were music to his ears. Then he stuck it inside you with his ring finger and circled them, pulling them in and out. You couldn't sit still, you started to move your hips so that he could get deeper in to you.

He leaned forward and started kissing and licking your breasts and nipples. You sighed lustily.

"I love the sounds you make, you know that?"

"Yes!" you said hotly as you enjoyed his fingers moving inside you.

"Tell me what you want me to do?" he asked then looked at you.

"I want you to put your cock inside me, I want you to fuck me!" you said panting. You kissed passionately and he pulled his fingers out of you. You rose a little and then he put his cock inside you. He moved you up and down by your hips, you held onto his shoulders and enjoyed him being in control. You closed your eyes and tilted your head back to enjoy the feeling, he looked at you intensely with his teeth eyes and enjoyed the sight of your naked body and your breasts moving up and down. As you rode him, you felt so light in the water, you felt like you were floating.

"God, oh yes!" Don’t stop!" you said as you moaned and moved your hips more and more wildly. Corinthian felt your pussy clenching around him and he too tilted his head back.

 What you didn't know was that the Agents were hiding a few meters away in the bushes and were watching you.

"Oh my goodness, that’s so fucking hot!" Agent 1 said.

"Geez, what a pervert you are!" Agent 2 said holding his head. "It is not appropriate to watch them in such a situation!"

He was the more trustworthy of the two Agents, his partner had always been more unscrupulous.

"Oh come on! Why do you have to be such a whiny bitch? Until now we only read about sex, now we finally see it! "

"Does that really mean we are not going to tell Morpheus about them?"

"Are you crazy? Why would we? Y/N and Corinthian are clearly having a good time, and we're having fun too. Well, me, at least. This is a win-win situation.” said Agent 1, never taking his eyes off you two.

"Yes, but only tonight. If Morpheus finds out that we've been watching something naughty instead of looking for sense and meaning, we're going to be in trouble." Agent 2 tried to convince his partner.

"Alright, fuck it, let's go. Wait! They got out and now continue it on the sunbed. Let's wait till they finish and then we'll leave."

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[jerzwriter]

I have trouble understanding how you are bi yet you stubbornly insist Ethan and Tobias aren't bi. I saw you say you played as an f!mc so you didn't know it was an option, but why not change it once you did know. I can't understand your choice.

Babydoll... here's the beauty of it all... YOU DO NOT HAVE TO - AND I DON'T HAVE TO UNDERSTAND YOURS. YET WE CAN & SHOULD RESPECT ONE ANOTHER. Unfortunately, that seems to be a one-way street, and you are the one driving in the wrong direction; you should consider making a U-turn.

I've always tried to be polite and respectful when replying to these asks - even as I get screenshots of people in the fandom - people from the queer community of which I'm a part - saying fucked up shit about me because they seem to think tolerance and acceptance only apply when you agree with them. I know immaturity has a lot to do with it, but I'm over it. So I'm answering this, but I'm done being polite.

Here's what you got right. I played as an F!MC for a long time before I was ever involved in this crazy ass fandom (I may refer to that time as the good ol' days going forward). My HC was already created, and I was happy with it. So let me understand. I needed to change it to satisfy... you? Will you change your HC for me? If so, please, stop hiding behind anon like a little coward. Let me know who you are, and I'll submit my requests for what I'd like you to change in your HC. OK? I'm sure you'll rush to do it, right? Yeah, I didn't think so.

As a bisexual woman, who has been in relationships with bisexual and straight men, and bi and lesbian women within my life, I find there are different personality types within each group. Truth be told, when it comes to men, I prefer dating those who are bi, but I had a different vision for MY FUCKING INTERPRETATION OF THESE FICTIONAL CHARACTERS.

Why is this so upsetting to you? Do you know how unsettling that is? As a queer person living in the real fucking world, are you REALLY telling me this is what keeps you up at night? Because if so, you must have a charmed fucking existence that neither I nor any other queer person I know has had the luxury of living.

And another thing - I DON'T HAVE TO HAND IN MY QUEER CARD because I have a straight Tobias in my HC. I know what I do for our community in real life - what I've done for our community since most people here were still sperm. STOP IT! Go do something PRODUCTIVE to help... our community's rights are going backward worldwide, and this is the shit motherfuckers are triggered over. Really? Do you do anything outside of performative bullshit on Tumblr? Because I'm going to give you a clue if you don't have one - this helps no one!!!! I volunteer with young adults who were thrown out by their families for being queer - and not one is impacted by Tobias Fucking Carrick or Ethan Fucking Ramsey NOT being bi in my fucking headcanon. I'm cracking up as I type this because it is SO ridiculous. Like you should be ashamed of yourself! DO SOMETHING PRODUCTIVE!

Someone asked me why I haven't addressed my MCs bisexuality more. Why? Because of fuckers in OUR COMMUNITY who behave like immature assholes. Who sit perched, waiting for the one thing they don't agree with and attack. Because of assholes who say, "Bi isn't queer enough," or "Your character isn't bi because she's in a relationship with a man." Because of assholes who are offensive as fuck on the daily, yet poor babies are offended by everything. Bruh, at least the straight people here who don't want to read about my MC's bisexuality simply skip those fics and move on with their day - I'm not getting screenshots of them saying fucked up shit about me because they don't like my HC. Do you know how unhinged this is?

This is the very last anon I will ever answer about this topic. I'm happy to discuss it if you want to send me a DM - but this is the end here.

I'm also done with self-censoring what I choose to write FOR MY CHARACTERS. Is my MC not queer enough for the queer crowd? I don't give a fuck. Is she too queer for the straight crowd? I don't give a fuck. I sat pride out in the fandom last year precisely to avoid this shit. This year I said, no, I'm joining in - I HAVE EVERY RIGHT TO - and sadly, this is the result. But you know what? I'm not letting it stop me from doing what I want to do.

Babydoll... if this is triggering you this much - get help.