#your mental saftey too

[dollopheadedmerlin]

Mneh so I never was very good with my binding habits before surgery. Like, my dysphoria was so bad I wouldn't get out of bed if I wasn't putting a binder on, so I basically wore a binder every single day from dawn to dusk just so that I wasn't miserable and could actually enjoy my time.

And I don't regret it. Not at all. I never slept in my binder. I never double binded. I always wore the right size. But from the moment I woke up, I had to have one on or I was just constantly uncomfortable to an unbearable extreme. So I wore one, every single day, for 12 to 20 hours, for several years.

Sooo now I have flared ribs, and possibly slipping ribs syndrome.

But again. I don't regret it, because if I hadn't worn my binder the way I had, I would have spent a lot of those seven-ish years doing nothing but getting more and more depressed and sleeping. So it was essentially a trade off. Either bind improperly and develop some problems or bind properly but spend those years just sort of waiting for them to be over. That's why I honestly think maybe if people are asking for advice on how to bind unsafely but more effectively, it's probably more useful to list many options of varying levels of safe. If someone has to double bind or they're hate themselves too deeply to live with it, then I'd say it's best to try and find the safest way to get them as flat as possible, even if it isn't right way or the risk free way.

Anywho. That was all prerequisite to why I think I have slipping rib syndrome even though it seems to be fairly uncommon.

I haven't seen anyone about it yet, but my ribs get sore sometimes. Either from sitting weird, moving a lot, breathing hard, etc. They also just hurt when I'm tired sometimes. Aside from that, my lower back hurts often as well, but most pointedly, my ribs occasionally will just give me a random sharp pain.

I always thought it felt like they moved, like a rib would sort of shift into and awkward angle and that made it hurt, but I wasn't sure if my rib was actually moving or if that was just how I was interpreting the pain.

But now that I know about slipping rib syndrome I'm like 95% sure I have it. I got some rib pain at work and in the car today (it sounds worse than it is, many days they don't move at all, but today they just decides I have a party ig) and now that I'm looking for movement I'm like YEAH THAT MOVED.

TLDR; So basically my ribs are doing the electric slide all the time and risk assessment is important ig

[gallusrostromegalus]

hi i see that you have much smart dog experience. i may have accidentally purchased such a dog. she's only 10 weeks, and ive had her 1, and she's already outmatched every puzzle feeder i got or have made. to the point that she is morosely disappointed when her food comes in an actual food bowl. do you know where i can find like. "heres 100 enrichment toys you can make out of free trash so your dog stops eating fucking rocks for enrichment" lists. i only have so many paper towel tubes XD

Herschel now just disassembles puzzle feeders, so I've been focusing on "Toys that, even if he already knows how to operate them, will still take TIME for him to collect the treat from" to give him something to fuss with.

Herschel eats all his meals out of a Kong Wobbler, because he will otherwise eat so fast he will literally inhale and choke on his kibble and I do not need him developing pneumonia from aspiration. Even though it's a "Simple" toy it slows him down and he does have to think a bit to tip it in the most efficient manner possible. Kong's "Flipz", "Gyro" and "Rewards Wally" are also really good "dog needs to think/carefully manipulate the toy for food" toys that act as both mental stimulation and exercise and "give human a break for up to twelve minutes" toys.

I highly reccomend KONG as a brand- they're local to Denver and have an impeccable saftey record and all of the toys I have gotten from them have held up extremely well vs. the ravages of three entirely too smart and strong-jawed dogs at once.

Some more thoughts:

If she's not prone to shredding rubber, the kind of treat toys she has to chew are also good stimulation.

If you don't want to give her That Many treats, my vet said that dogs can have as many green beans as they want. Just make sure that the beans haven't had salt added to them- canned usually does, but frozen green beans usually don't, but always check the label.

You can make nearly any toy last longer, or make a cheap long-puzzle by freezing the treats so they take longer to eat AND provides hydration. Herschel's most favorite treat of all time is literally a wad of sliced green beans in a dixie cup, filled with water and frozen. Just peel off the cup and hand him the chunk of ice and he's good for up to half an hour and more chill afterwards.

You can also freeze lick mats

If your girl is like Charlie and doesn't like greenbeans, you can also try freezing paper cups of: Canned pumpkin, apple slices in water, putting some ice cubes in the bottom of the cup, a gob of peanut butter in the middle and then fill it with water to make a peanutbutter filled ice cube.

If your girl is REALLY like charlie who has figured out how to use labor negotiation and strike tactics for better treats: boiled chicken chunks frozen in some of the water you boiled them in.

Walkies are as much mental stimulation as they are physical exercise. Take her out and let her sniff to her heart's content.

Also Puppies in particular need like, SO MUCH exercise.

Let her participate in activities with you. Herschel and charlie sit in the kitchen and I narrate cooking dinner to them, which seems to interest them, even if I don't have spare veggie ends to give them. I also frequently bring them along in the car if I'm running errands when it's cold enough to do that, so they have something new to look at, and get to participate. I also am more likely to stop at a new park and give myself some exercise and mental stimulation.

Training her to do tasks is GREAT Smart Dog enrichment- esp if she's a herding or heeler, they LOVE being helpful. I taught the dogs they get a small treat if they come in from the yard without me having to go chase them down, which saved me a lot of hassle, and now I'm working on teaching herschel to pick things up off the floor for me if I drop them and alert for chickpeas, which my housemate is allergic to.

A lot of dogs like cat-type toys. Tie a stick or some fleece to some paracord and drag or flycast it around for her to chase/play tug with when she catches it. Toys that bounce unexpectedly were also a huge hit. or just wave the string around the cat and the corgi both like that.

If you live in farm country or know other people with pets, you can grab something with the scent of another animal on it and bring it home for her to smell. Charlie and Herschel spent the better part of three days investigating the wad of horse undercoat I brought home and put in the spare wobbler for them to smell.

[jackiepackiee]

Hear me out. What if one day Chuuya finds out that the reader was also experimented on.

TW:scars, leaked information, trauma

Chuuyax reader

𝒞𝒽𝓊𝓊𝓎𝒶 𝓍 𝐸𝓍𝓅𝑒𝓇𝒾𝓂𝑒𝓃𝓉𝑒𝒹! 𝑅𝑒𝒶𝒹𝑒𝓇

𝒲𝒶𝓇𝓃𝒾𝓃𝑔𝓈 - 𝓁𝒶𝒷 𝒶𝒷𝓊𝓈𝑒

𝒯𝓎𝓅𝑒 - 𝒽𝑒𝒶𝒹𝒸𝒶𝓃𝑜𝓃𝓈 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒹𝒾𝒶𝓁𝑜𝑔𝓊𝑒

Chuuya is DEVASTATED

How come his sweet and gentle lover has been hurt

He would take every ounce of pain from you into himself if given the chance

And his initial reaction, however he found out, will be hard to stomach

He’s in shock

“No… no no that’s not true. You had that good childhood, and you’ve been treated good by everyone. Just like you deserve, right? Right?”

Wide eyes traveled the room mindlessly. His brain was too occupied by thoughts to see anything beyond patches of color and light.

It was obvious what was going on in his head.

First, his experience. What he knows of the pain that still cause shakes and shivers in his body. The absolute mental devastation caused by the storm in his heart and mind from knowing his past.

Secondly, he sees you in the same position. Screaming, blood over your plush skin. Eyes dazed, far away from the world around you. Whatever world you may have been in that allowed you to be treated so poorly. Because if you had gotten hurt, it must’ve been a world Chuuya wasn’t part of.

“Right?”

“I’m sorry…”

“Sorry? No, fuck. Don’t be sorry, don’t you dare say that.”

In a split second he crossed the distance and pulled you into his chest.

“I’ll kill them all.”

Of course he would lie down his life for you, but this information increases that tenfold

You’re not fragile, that much is obvious, but after learning how close you were to death he strives for your life

Whatever it takes

“Chuuya, I do not need a bodyguard. It’s just down the block! And this boy needs a walk anyways!”

The dog barked in agreement, sorta. But Chuuya would not budge. No puppy eyes work on him when it comes to your safety.

“No. You can talk him on the walk, and go to the market. But one of my subordinates is going with you. I have some emails to write.”

“But!”

“No buts, love. It’s for your own good.”

He pet the doggies head while speaking sternly to you. Little did you know, it wasn’t just one subordinate. He had a whole team on your saftey detail at all times outside of work and home.

And if those scientists are still alive?

Not anymore… it will be a MASSACRE that the news will cover for months

“Hey baby, did you see the news this morning?”

You asked, on a whim as you scribbled a shitty signature on some paperwork.

“No, why?”

“Some old facilities blew up. It was crazy. Reports said none of the victims died in the explosion. They all died by these terrible and violent ways. Like torture and stuff… gives me the chills.”

That was his cause, you. The cute way you told him about every little thing you heard. The funny actions you do to make show of your words.

All his to watch, and not theirs to ruin.

“No baby, I didn’t hear about that. How interesting.”

I hate to bring it up, but it makes him feel worse about himself

How can you, someone who went through the same as him, still be so kind?

Why isn’t he like you?

He doesn’t see himself as sweet or gentle, he’s a monster and a threat to everyone he loves

And he thinks he lacks the humanity that you “still have” that allowed you to grow so kind

You stalked into the bedroom, tense at the fact that the door was closed. He usually would leave it open?

“Chuu? I saw your shoes at the door, I know you’re home-”

There he was, his ginger hair on full display. Hat in his hands to his chest. Said chest on his knees, curled into a ball of black clothing.

His torso expanded and contracted with each exchange of air.

“…was it work? Meetings with Mori su-”

Words failed. Minuscule things such as meetings at work would cause this. Would cause Chuuya Nakahara to cry.

“You weren’t supposed to be home.”

“…what?”

“You weren’t supposed to be home. I was supposed to be alone, and… and I- I dunno.”

Whines left his mouth when you kissed his cheek.

As if Judas to Jesus, he burned at your affection. Unworthy of something so…human.

“What did I do to deserve you?”

“Living, and loving. That’s what you’ve done.”

This isnt meant to be spicy, but sex is sex 🤷🏻‍♀️

And obviously if you’re going to be doing that, he’ll see your scars

For a couple who both has their fair share of scars, this likely isn’t the way the experiments were revealed

It takes a hell of a lot of trust to show yourself so vulnerable to anyone

But he loves each indent

He sees not the pain, but the growth then on

When you cuddle, he’ll get dazed and start rubbing circles on section of skin

Doesn’t mind them at all, even if they are dark and large

He has the same, and is no hypocrite

Not proofread lol

[fishhawish]

Hi!, this is my first request in here, so im sorry if I make you uncomfortable, and sorry for my bad englinsh is not my native lenguaje.

So i May ask for a kokichi yandere x fem reader headcannons?

Thank you very much, and like i say earlier sorry if I make you uncomfortable, have a good day! :D

Ofc you can! Tysm for being patience I am currently unwell so I will respond slowly. And dw English isn't my first language either so🤍

Desperately

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Obsessive Yandere!Kokichi x fem reader

**WARNINGS READ**: obsessive and unhealthy behaviors, warnings of changing ones self for another, mentions of harming others. mentions of self harm and suicide

!!this is NOT healthy by any means and if one genuinely feels this way please get them help. /SRS Proceed with caution.!!

Fem reader

Yandere kokichi head cannons :3

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Pre-game:

Kokichi who'd study the guys you'd hang out with or show interest in to be just like them

Kokichi who'd change everything about himself for you

Kokichi who'd give you little snacks and gifts anonymously

Kokichi who'd beg for even a small chance to breathe the same air as you

Kokichi who'd take pictures of you to study and figure out what you like

Kokichi who's jealousy is borderline dangerous

Kokichi who'd hurt himself just to get your attention

Kokichi who'd kill himself if you didn't like him or rejected him at all.

★

In-game:

Kokichi who'd tease and pretend to target you during trials to see you get upset and pay attention to him

Kokichi who'd stay strong and not murder anyone just for you

Kokichi who's extra cautious and specifically protects you

Kokichi who would take the blame for a murder you did if you where caught

Kokichi who'd do anything to set you free from that horrid game

Kokichi who'd kill if you where fond of anyone else in the game

Kokichi who'd threaten people to stay away from you for your saftey

Kokichi who'd do anything just to be your type even if it hurts him.

★

Post-game:

Kokichi who's just happy everything wasn't real and that you're safe

Kokichi who's unhealthy habits from pre and in game carried over

Kokichi who's too mentally unstable to date but still tries to get with you

Kokichi who actually kidnapped someone in post game just because they thought of hurting you

Kokichi who is determined to make you only trust him

Kokichi who is dedicated to protecting you from the world

Kokichi who isolated you from everyone you loved.

Kokichi who'd murder for you in real life now.

The end!

Reposts and likes are appreciated

Reqs open slow response I am currently unwell!

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[not-a-good-writer]

Postal 1 Dude × reader | angst/comfort

A/N: Been really into postal for about a month now and I'm so sad to see how little x reader content there is of this guy. While p1 isn't my favorite dude, he's the only one I feel like I'm able to interprete well. Reader's gender, race, etc is left ambiguous. Reader has an established relationship with dude, but it can be read as either platonic or romantic.

CW: mental illness/paranoia, firearms

You slowly opened your eyes and stirred as your brain awoke. You look around the room you were in; a living room, not yours, but familiar. The heavy blinds made it hard to tell what time it was, but there was some light peaking through them. You looked down to see you were laying on an old couch, with a lanky, ginger man wrapped around you like his life depended on it.

The events of the previous night came flooding back to you. You had not heard from Dude in a few days. You knew he could have episodes of extreme paranoia, which could lead to violent outbursts. You were also the only person he really ever talked to, the only person he felt like he could trust, so you were rightfully very concerned.

You decided to go to his house across the street after not being able to sleep due to your worry. Thankfully you knew where he hid his spare key on the porch, and unlocked the door and carefully stepped inside.

You found him in the corner of his bedroom; his knees were brought up to his face, and he held a loaded gun in his arm. He looked incredibly frightened, but upon realizing it was you, he calmed down a little. He let you take the gun from him and you unloaded it and turned the saftey on, setting it in a safe place before sitting beside him.

The moment you joined him on the floor, he practically tackled you and started sobbing. You held him tight, occasionally petting his hair and whispering gentle affirmations to him. After some time, you two moved to the couch. You suggested watching some TV to try to take his mind off things, but he said that you just being here was enough.

So you stayed the whole night just holding him close and, inevitably, you two fell asleep. His face looked so peacful, it seemed like your presence helped drive away any nightmares too. You'd like to stay here until he wakes up too, but your bones ache from sleeping in an uncomfortable position and you really need to stretch.

You carefully untangle yourself from Dude, and have a nice big strength once your free. You figure you might as well make breakfast for the two of you, since you wanted to stay with him longer and Dude's eating habits mostly consisted of fast food. A home cooked breakfast would do both him, and his wallet, some good.

You make you way to the kitchen and open the fridge. Luckily he has bacon and eggs. You get everything together and get to work.

You had just finished cooking the bacon and set some coffee to brew. You were about to start the eggs when you heard a soft "Y/n? Y/n?!" It was laced with drowsiness, but still concerned. You went back into the living room, "I'm here! I'm still here, Dude." Dude was now sitting up, and he let out a relieved sigh when he heard your response.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you like that. I was just making us some breakfast." You sat down next to him.

"Breakfast? You really didn't have to do that."

"I know, but I wanted to."

His face softened and he wrapped his arms around you, "Thank you. Not just for breakfast, for everything. Staying the night, putting up with me..." He hugged you tighter and pressed his face into your shoulder. "Of course, Dude. I care about you, and I'll always be here for you."

You two stayed there for a minute before you pulled back, "Let's go finish up breakfast, ok? I don't know about you, but I'm pretty hungry." Dude smiled and followed you into the kitchen. He helped you prepare the rest of breakfast and you two sat at the table eating and talking. He really seemed to be doing much better, and you were glad for that; but there was still one thing on your mind.

"Hey Dude, how come you didn't answer my calls or texts?" he stilled for a moment, almost looking guilty, "I'm not upset, and you don't have to tell me if you don't want to." You placed your hand on his and squeezed a little. He looked at your joined hands, then to your face, and thought for a moment, before finally speaking:

"Part of it was because I was too out of it to pay attention. The other part was because I didn't want you to see me like that." You listened carefully, keeping your hand on his, "I didn't want to s-scare you. You're the only person that's ever p-put up with me... If I loose you, god, I d-don't know what I'd-"

You gently stopped him by placing a hand on his cheek and turning him to face you, you could see the tears starting to fall from his eyes, "Dude, you're not going to loose me. I'm here for you, forever and always. I wouldn't have stayed with you for this long if I wasn't in it for the long haul." You gently wiped a tear with your thumb, trying to not choke up yourself, "I care about you so, so much. I would never dream of leaving you, especially not because of something you aren't in control of."

You brought him into a hug and couldn't hold back your tears. He followed suit, and you both sat there, holding and wiping away each other's tears.

No matter what happened, you two were gonna get through this. Together.

[blackstarchanx3new]

Creations AU, But I obnoxiously over explain it PT 7

Pages 181-210

Some of these pages were lined by my friend AK

@akdrawsandwrites

They've helped me with this AU's art a lot when I got stuck quite a few times. XD

They're playing Minecraft, while Michael goes on an absolute rant about how much he dislikes the other owner's son "Sammy"

Sammy is apparently:

Smug Having relations with William Afton Has friends

All these things piss Michael off for one reason or another.

Presumably to calm the hell down Michael goes to take a bath while Mike hunts for diamonds.

Mike's death glare as Michael rambles as he slays the monsters so they can sleep is so hilarious to me. Just further proof he's good at video games.

Mike ventures out of Michael's room to use the toilet

And we get more context as to why William isn't comfortable around Mike:

Apparently he takes medication for something.

William's just a TAD condescending and rude about it. You know. Because we've seen how this man acts towards his own son lmfao this isn't a surprise he isn't too delicate with someone with mental health struggles. (Even if he kind of tries to be.)

Mike sits down to piss. Lol. Old habits must die hard.

Huh, Michael's got prosthetic robot legs.

Interesting...

Haha he doesn't answer that question.

Aaaaand his arms are robotic too...

HUH.

And I've been goofy about it but his eyes aren't exactly normal either...

And come to think of it...Michael your face is kinda weiiiird looking...

"Kinda scary just how much a man could be a machine"

Michael...

There something you wanna confess too-

LIKE THE FACT YOU'RE A CYBORG-

All of you are screaming at me aren't you? X'D

Oh so much here:

Five years is significant to both of them.

Michael picks up on the fact that it's significant and isn't too nice about that.

Michael's façade of being a bubbly happy guy has broke a few times but this was the most direct time it broke, outright glaring with anger at Mike's lack of response.

Masked with "HAHA Just kidding!~"

He was obviously NOT kidding.

Michael abruptly stops the conversation to go to bed.

Or so it seems as Mike reflects.

Jeremy's brought up again. So we can presume Jeremy disappeared five years ago.

Michael pipes up again to proclaim a few things.

He knows Mike's up to something and isn't hiding that.

Bonnie brought it up so Michael isn't fully in the dark. Also despite acting childish Michael isn't dumb.

I let ya read this segment uncut with my nonsense cause it shows a LOT:

First tho I'm gonna talk about stuff I like art wise:

Michael's design is just nice to my brain. He's just so damn cute in his body language. In terms of symbolism him pushing his hair out of his face could show he's trying to be open with Mike in this moment.

Anyways: Back to stuff.

We keep getting glimpses of SOMETHING going horribly wrong with an animatronic who appears to be in a similar state to Ennard. Only having a mask on an endoskeleton.

This is interspersed through Michael and Mike's conversation of Mike conceding to let Michael help him.

bringing up Bonnie again as a motivator to keep Michael out of this for his own saftey. Mike stays quiet when asked "You're concerned with how Bonnie feels?" Mike's not a "Talk about your feelings" kinda person as we've seen so far. He keeps things in.

Michael mentions a specific incident he THINKS brought Mike here one we haven't seen yet mentioned and I plan to be explored in the comic "Spring Bonnie's friends" because a lot of details in the main AU are expanded upon in smaller side comics: Some kids disappeared and an owner at another Fredbears nearby. And THIS caused Mike to come here to investigate.

As we know, Jeremy disappeared here and Mike's determined to stop it.

The constant cuts and the bloody machinery behind Michael builds up to what has happened If you know FNAF, you know EXACTLY what was behind Michael in that shot hehe.

Michael got a bit of an injury. Ow.

Impaled.

Damn okay call out to Cody I'm sure he'll help.

To be fair Cody's way more likely to hear him than Bonnie in this instance.

This isn't stated in the comic but since regular FNAF fans would know this:

They're in the previously established dangerous "Toy" department.

Bonnie is in a completely different part of the building. But Cody is a creepy stalker who has eyes everywhere in the building:

Cody can see you no matter WHERE you are so it does make more sense to ask him for help.

OH HELLO MR. NO NAME SECURITY GUARD HOW ARE YOU!?

Guess Cody is heading the call after all...In an indirect way...Lazy bear.

Right as the horrible robot catches up to Mike.

That thing is "The mangle"

It's saying it's dialogue from the AR game because I found it insanely fitting for this scene.

It's a busted up robot that wants to be whole and is looking for SOMETHING to do that. Something it ditched Michael for but ran after Mike for.

Mike comes to terms with the hand he's been dealt.

His true goals becoming a lot clearer:

He was looking for a way to die nobody would question while trying to find everyone.

Oh yeah, Michael's alive still.

Nom nom nom nom-

NOT TODAY BITCH. CODY SENT A BOY.

HERE COMES THE BOY

HELLO BOY

WELCOME

HERE COMES THE BOYYYYYYYY-

MR. ROBOT EYEBALLS IS HERE TO SAVE THE DAY! :D

That thing he had is a tazer lmfao.

I'd assume he's an angel too I mean just look at him. ❤️

Oh my god.

He's the might seduce your dad type, owners son himself:

Sammy Fritz Emily

He'd kiss anyone. You. Your dad-

Alright onto the outfit thing I mentioned earlier:

All the owners have black ties and black undershirts while people outside of the two families that own the place have white undershirts or in Jeremy Fitzgerald's case a blue undershirt.

Literally nobody ever noticed that detail so I point it out because CHARACTER DESIGN IS MY PAAAAASIONNNNNN~

Okay enough fucking around one of my absolute favorite characters Sammy Emily is finally fully introduced! :D

Golden Freddy manipulation aside, he came to our boy's aid against a hulking robot that could kill a normal person.

Sammy's a badass.

He seems nice. I mean he charged an animatronic no hesitation to save our boy's ass, so maaaaybe Michael's view on him is misguided and clouded by his daddy issues.

What the heck WERE Mike and Michael doing here exactly?

Mike just reflects on what the fuck just happened.

[rise-my-angel]

Okay I don't really like what we constitute as Joel's failures. He didn't fail Ellie here in any way. He forced himself up with a knife wound barley healed, hunted men down and fought tooth and crawl to get to her.

Joel didn't fail by not getting to her. When should he have? When he was unconcious the first time she went out? When she put a knife in his hands and told him to fight before running away on horseback when he was barley concious? When he had to take time to learn where she was to get to her?

And by the time he did what NO ONE ELSE could, she had killed David just seconds before as he tried to assault her. That's not failure and there is no theme of Joels failure.

Joel sees his failures as such beacuse of trauma and guilt. You as the audience should not be agreeing with him, you do realize?

Joel was holding injured Sarah in both arms calmly reasoning with a soldier only to have both of them be shot for no reason. How is that Joel failing her?

Joel didn't hear the guy coming up beside him until the door kicked in beacuse behind the walls of a door and building his hearing wasn't as keen on that side. And Ellie chose to intervene instead of waiting for Joel to get the upperhand. How is that Joel failing her?

Ellie didn't tell Joel that Sam was infected and he was literally being held at gunpoint after being shot at by Henry when he went to save her when Sam inevitably attacked her. How is that Joel failing her?

Joel and Ellie being surrounded by people on horseback with guns when he was forced to put his down. And the dog sniffing Ellie but if Joel intervened he'd get shot and likely Ellie too. How is that Joel failing her?

Joel protected Ellie to the degree he didn't even feel himself being stabbed because he was so focused on her saftey.

Joels monologue to Tommy about failing her, both Sarah and Ellie is not what you should take away. Its Joels fear through trauma that he thinks everything is his fault because trauma induced guilt blinds the truth of your own nobility.

Joel didn't fail Ellie here, either. They are a team. She escapes David, and Joel finds her at the same time and saves her from falling into the pit of lonely traumatized despair such an event may have. As a r/sa/csa victim I can tell you that Joel didn't need to physically save her. His quiet and gentle love is exactly the opposite of failure.

Ellie does need Joel. Don't mistaken her being able to escape David and his men for not needing Joel. If Joel wasn't there in that moment? She would have been traumatized for life. But now she remembers that event ending in the arms of a father who actually loves her. That's not failure.

Joel does not have a theme of failure and thinking so is missing the point entierly. The theme is Joel's trauma has warped his sense of self and sees failure where there is none and that by letting Ellie in he understands the truth. Ellie doesn't "not need Joel sometimes". She does because Joel has never failed her. If you asked Ellie if thats what she got out of this situation, that she was okay without Joel's help and that he "failed" to get to her in time?

That little spitfire would tell you to go fuck yourself. This was long but I'm sorry all this mentality does is reduce Joel's trauma to "what a trauma victim thinks of themsleves is truth" and says that Ellie doesn't actually need Joel when the whole point of the fucking show is no.

No they need each other desperately and neither of them have failed the other.

[magnoliamyrrh]

When it comes to prison abolition I wish people would focus on specific crimes or types of crimes instead of this binary approach. There seems to be no space for nuance in western leftist thought these days, you have to go all the way in one go or it isn't worth doing.

Okay the current system isn't perfect but it's better than letting pedos, rapists and sex traffickers get away with continuing to abuse women and girls. Domestic violence too, there's just so many areas where justice already doesn't exist for victims. Until abolitionists can provide a good answer for those crimes they should admit that their theory doesn't yet work in every scenario.

Let's go back to focusing on drugs, theft and other crimes against corporations, the imprisonment of those suffering from severe mental illnesses and general anti social behaviour. Crimes where imprisonment does unjustly impact people's lives and we do already have noncustodial solutions we can implement.

"there seems to be no space for nuance in western leftits though" youre certainly right abt that and its annoying as all hell. there are prison reformers who hold more nuance on this generally, but many prison abolitionists act like they're almost traitors for not being fully on board

and it bothers me that the keep treating this part of the issue as some sort of annoyance, thing we can think abt afterwards, or minor issue. or on the other side they wanna treat rapists the same way theyd treat some poor person who stole food,,,,,,like no, all of these things are actually incredibly common, and sadism and predatory actions are not same at all as many crimes. as far as im concerned theyre much less explicable than even many cases of murder and i will 100% vouch for the reform of a murderer than a rapist, particularly a pedo. and my conclusion frankly is i dont think these ppl rly care abt the saftey of children, girls, or women much

like, as you said. ill admit any day the system is fucked too. and yes the system is the consequence in america of colonialism and slavery, and in many parts of the world the prison system implemented by imperialists has been a tool of opression. and yes the system puts at a disadvantage and targets certain kinds of people and for certain kinds of offenses it makes no damn sense. like i think were all on board with this part of things??? and clearly countries like the semi-socialist northern euro ones have shown that better, more humaine systems can be implemented. im all on board for reform when it comes to 98% types of offenses, and generally i think prison reformists make very good, grounded points which seem feasible. and they suggest changes which we may actually see in our lifetimes

but then prison abolitions want to take it to such...... levels that it stops making sense. to an extent i get it, like i definitely get wanting to abolish the system and implement something new, the issue is that that "something new" makes little sense when you hear them speak. because they define annny form of incarceration or being restricted in movement as prison essentially, and we must get rid of that. so, frankly, by their own logic i dont even know if they could force rapists and pedophiles into """"recovery programs""" for any period of time - maybe theyd just let them go immediately and theyd have to voluntarly show up our of their own good will 🥺 (im sure thats gonna happen) - because anything else would be taking away their bodily autonomy.. ...really, truly, even though these ppl call themselves leftists this is such a ??? western individualistic opinion to hold?? like putting individual bodily autonomy and "rights" in any damn case, no matter how dangerous, above the wellbeing of society at large strikes me v v much as western individulism taken to an extreme

.. they dont have answers. they just dont. its either deflection, minimizing the issue, acting like youre the crazy one for asking, or some completely unrealistic bullshit abt making these men see the light - as if they dont already understand they should rape or beat women and children - or reintegrating them into the same communities that they traumatized. prison abolitionists wont admit that they have no real damn solution because, like western leftits in general in most cases, they a)dont actually care abt feminism b)dont have a fully understanding of what theyre talking about and are just screaming slogans and saying what sounds good to be right and woke and make themselves feel good and enlightened c)are allergic to actual nuance and discussion or being challenged

it also pisses me off too because ive seen a lot of them pull that woke version of noble savage shit, in which they pretend like the nonwestern world or the world pre-colonialization was this lovely perfect place with no issues no violence and everyone sat in a field and braided flowers in each others hair and talked abt their feelings. or something. when in fact, the concept of punishment for certain things has Definitely existed pre colonialization??? for gods sake even chimps, apes, several other animals have a concept of "actions have consequences" and they punish, either physically or through social exile, members of their species who have crossed a line. Several native american tribes had quite physically harsh and borderline torturous forms of physical punishment for what they deemed to be crimes, or would exile ppl (which in certain cases, like in winter, may as well have been a death sentence for some). In phillipines before colonialization for certain communities the punishment for rape was death. For gods sake islam too,,,, like,,, have these ppl never read qur'an and seen that physical punishment is one of the forms of punishment prescribed for certain offenses which are seen as affecting community negativity? Theres obviously a million other examples out there. I dont know what these people are smoking to think that the concept of "actions have consequences" was invented by the white man or whatever

[gavinsmg24]

Princess! Im responding!! Spirit and mad max! First off that triggered some nostalgia. Not anything clear to fully remember but I know I watched that on the roll out tvs back in elementary I’m pretty sure. Hehe. It’s cute you watched! And mad max fury road! Yesss. I know how much you love! Furiosa! Hehe my cutie 🙈. I’m happy you watched! I’d love to sit and watch with you!

Hehe your so sweet. I’ll come back to it but the wet teeth brushing hands while semi drunk getting ready for bed. Fitting in time for daddy 🥺 you don’t have to go that far but I love it!!

I’m happy for you! First pay check in a bit 🥰. Start getting a lil stash to the side for rainy day funds or splurge on yourself!💘

It’s not pessimistic or dramatic. Your feelings matter! Just bcuz you feel down all the time doesn’t always mean it’s you! I’m so proud. Like even tho you’re thinking of the meh you’re still coming up with positives! Like! Ahhh! That’s good! It’s good to like. Give your mental stability some support crutches! Like instead of only thinking of bads your finding goods too! I’m. Proud! Hmph tk relationship and money stuff.. hmph idk if the money means you need to make it or he’s not making as much or. Grr anyways. Please be safe! But. Happy your mood going towards better🥰 mwah! A kiss for how happy your making meee!

Don’t. You. Dare! Feel guilty! Not responding to me!? You’re so fucking sweet! Day 1 this was just to see if you were alive and well! Now! You come to me when you want hehe. Now! I do love it. So much I hate to say it! But I do think of you before my own desires so! If you ever need a break. Or just to rant and not even read or acknowledge my posts that’s ok! You can rant. I canr respond. And in a week you could read for the week. Or longer! I love when you think of me and talk to me. But also I’ve said. It’s a blessing! Bottom line. I shouldnt even get you.. but I do! And for as long as I make you happy, you want to, and your saftey is secure. I’ll always be here to read and respond and also talk and see your responses. If you want!

Hehe I love you. You knew I wouldnt mind 😘

Babygirl do I love your responses. Yes! But I love you being able to take care of what you need to! So! Only come and respond when you can / want to! Take a week off of responses and see if it helps! Or don’t but just saying! I wont be upset!

Salads at work yummy! And leftover chicken to take! You’re such an adult🙈 you always were it just makes me happy you doing your thing!

Your rants and thoughts will be heard! I listen and love! Mwah! Oh! And yeah it may be bad to drink to cope with recent things but idk. We all need something. Not really. Like we have weed but I’ll drink occasionally too I know you mean in a worse way. Like. Shots until woozie? But also. It’s okay! Just. Do daddy a favor and try to not go too overboard! Maybe that last shot you want you don’t need!? But that’s not me telling u waht to do. Just be wary! I love you! Nothing you’ve said makes me upset or think less of you. I still find you smart sexy amazing and cool! 🙈🥰

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[cyro-starfire]

What hurts to talk about...

Cyro X Minus!Lemon Monster hurt/comfort fic

Once again i will be tagging @monsternightfunkin because their blog gives me insperation to write

⚠️WARNINGS FOR THIS FIC:⚠️ OC X CANON, ABUSE MENTION, NIGHTMARE, TRAUMA, SLIGHT SELF HARM (Hitting head), CRINGE

Colors for characters

Cyro - Pink

Minus - Orange

Please enjoy my horrid writing if you can!

It was late into the night, probably around 11 PM or 12 AM. Minus had been put in charge in taking care of Cy, despite Girlfriend and Pico being reluctant in letting him. The others knew Minus was strong enough to protect Cy if any danger were to come into the house. Cyro was sleeping on their bed while Minus slept on the floor, the alien had insisted that Minus should sleep on their bed but he declined, he was worried that with his weight he'd crush the bed, besides their rug wasn't too bad to sleep on, it was soft and fuzzy like him!

Cyro had been very reluctant on letting Minus sleep on the floor because it just didn't feel all to right but they really couldn't say no to him, so they let him sleep on their rug anyway. Despite it being the floor, Minus was catching some good Z's, having a pretty good dream! Cyro on the other hand...was having the opposite experience...

The poor alien was having terrible nightmares for the past week...and they were all about HER...Cyro's abusive ex girlfriend, Sam. It had been over 3 years since Cyro had broken up with her, but the scars from her abuse still remained within Cyro's mind...the horrible things she would say to them...the horrible things she would do to them...it would give Cyro horrible visions and make them go into a traumatic episode if they ever saw anything that reminded them of Sam...

The alien whimpered and whined softly, untill those whimpers got louder...and louder, their body was shaking madly, tears formed in their shut eyes, they could feel her disgusting hands on their body despite her not being there...they could hear her terrible voice, mocking them, laughing at them. Reminding them that they were nothing but a pathetic little alien...

"n-no...no...no no no no no...NONONONOO!!!" They screamed in horror and agony as they choked on tears and awoke from their horror filled dream...panting heavily as they looked around the room. They took a moment to let the cool night air fill their burning, aching lungs...their body was covered in sweat, and tears filled their eyes...they held their pillow tightly and sobbed into it. "Wh-Why...why c-can't y-y-you just leave m-me alone...p-please...g-get out of m-my head..." They whimpered, they wanted to forget Sam and the hell she put Cy through whilst in the relationship with her...

Cyro took their hands off of their pillow and started to hit their temples with their hands. "G-Get out...get out...get out, get out, GET OUT GET OUT!!" They screamed in what at first was fear but then it turned into rage...rage for what she had done to them, and rage for her not getting any karma for it, it aggravated Cy, why did they have to suffer while Sam gets off Scott free? It wasn't fair...why was life cruel like this? What did they do to deserve this?

They were interrupted by a big claw gently grabbing their left hand and stopping that hand from landing blows on their own head. They looked quickly at who had did it, but quietly sighed in relief when they saw that it was just Minus. "Why are you hitting your head? Your head didn't do anything bad did it?" The huge lemon monster yawned. "Don't hurt yourself like that, it's bad." He whined at Cy groggily. "O-Oh, s-s-sorry i w-w-woke you M-Minus, th-there was j-just...a-a fly on my h-head that's all!" Cyro tried to lie.

"I love you but please don't fib to me like that." Minus whimpered in typical dog fashion. "Why were you hitting your head, and screaming 'get out' for?" He asked them again...Cyro looked at Minus...they were hesitant to tell him...They didn't wanna worry him about what had been going on for the past week...would he even understand the gravity of the situation...? Sure he was abused like them but...it was a different kind of abuse...right...? "I...i..." Cyro tried to come up with a good excuse but nothing came to them...

They really had no other option did they? The alien sighed gently and finally gave up. "F-Fine, I'll...i-i'll tell y-you what's going on..." They admitted hesitantly. Minus gently put a claw on their bed to let them know that Cy had his full attention for this time..."I-I've...b-b-been having a-alot of nightmares a-about m-my ex girlfriend, S-Sam recently...a-about how she w-would abuse and manipulate m-me...i t-tried to see wh-what i could do t-to make them go away, b-but they s-still haven't stopped and i...i..." They started to tear up again. "I-I just w-want to forget a-about her s-so b-badly Minus...b-but...i-i don't kn-know if i can..." They said sniffling.

It wasn't before long until they finally broke down in front of minus, holding in any and all tears backfired badly for them, they sobbed and grabbed their pillow again, sobbing into it and apologizing to him that he's now seeing this side of them...he must think their pathetic now...however for Minus...seeing Cyro like this reminded him of himself when he was younger, and those monster hunters would torment him day and night...The lemon monster got up and gently picked up Cy, who was still clinging onto their pillow tightly, still saying "I'm sorry" in short chokes of tears.

"Hey...please don't cry, i don't like it when your in pain..." Minus said to Cyro softly, lifting up their chin gently with his claw. "i-i-i-i'm s-s-s-sorry...i-i-i-i'm s-s-so s-sorry..." They hiccuped, they couldn't stop feeling like it was their fault, maybe they did deserve to get abused, maybe they did deserve to be mentally damaged forever...maybe- all of their thoughts were interrupted by Minus giving them a small, soft lick on the cheek. "H-Huh?" Cyro held their cheek confused. "I don't know who hurt you, how and why but i do know your in pain, and you don't deserve to be in pain..." Minus said to Cyro in almost a hushed whisper, holding them closely to his chest.

There was a brief silence between the two, before Minus broke it again "I'm here for you, i will protect you, everything will be okay, i love you..." He whispered to them, their sobs and sniffles slowly grew quiet as their tears eventually stopped, they were still shaking slightly but not as bad as before...they leaned into Minu's chest and took a moment to embrace how warm he was...how fluffy he was...how safe they were with him..."th-thank you..." Cyro purred softly, as they snuggled into him...the two had a moment of comfortable and safe silence with one another...it was nice. Maybe this is what Cy deserved...healing...saftey...love...

And Minus was there to give it to them. Minus slowly curled up with Cy in their arms, making sure they were comfortable, and the two fell asleep together...

[researchercoffee]

hey coffee, if you could have one wish, what would it be?

Just a day to be normal. no powers. no seeing impossible shit. no disconnect. no managing of idle thoughts that could outright destroy everything without me conciously doing so. No seeing my entire, endless life at once while also going through it all. not know about what I am beyond myself. to be able to talk to someone and not feel like I'm going to accidentally break anything.

I wanna talk to my freinds face-to-face, but without knowing what the conversation will be, without feeling like I'm being squished into an impossibly small space just to interact with people.

To know what's around me is real, not a construct, not made by me, not changed by me.

To be able to play catch with my kid in the park, and not have all the stares. to be able to look more like a normal girl (im keeping that dammit) than something out of a body horror exibit. To be able to pat my pets, but not have them be connected to me by the waist. To have a heartbeat that I have to keep pumping myself at all times, so my body actually feels almost alive.

I want to walk to the fucking Starbucks down the street, order a fucking coffee with a side pastry, pay for it, have it delivered, eat and drink like a normal person, and LEAVE.

I want to remember things naturally. Be able to forget.

I want to be able to touch something, and be able to interact with it without treating it like the most fragile thing in the fucking universe. I wanna be able to hug someone, and be able to enjoy it. To not feel fucking everything happening everywhere all at once. To accidentally get a papercut on my finger, and be able to worry about it instead of worrying about the saftey of your coworkers because your fucking blood is made of pure fucking infohazards. To not have to feel the weight of literally all of existance pressing on me, making me see everything, making me experiance it all, but not being able to do jack shit about most of it, because doing so would be so much worse. To be able to fucking EXIST without feeling like I am putting everyone in danger, that no powerful entity will try to find me and end up destroying everything I hold dear.

I want to be able to see someone without instantly seeing every single subatomic particle they're made of, memorizing it, and mentally copying the entire person into memory as a knee jerk reaction, because you're afraid you'll forget them too hard in your concious mind and have them be erased from existence.

To be able to go up to the person I have a fucking crush on, tell them I fucking love them, and actually get to Be with them.

I want to be able to go to my weird fucking job, see my short amazing gremlin bosses, sit at my spot I use in the break room instead of my office, and realize I forgot the paperwork in the office, and have to go back to grab it physically, before coming back. To be able to do some fucking paperwork myself, at my own real pace. To sip my coffee, savor the taste of it, and then get up to wash my cup and make another pot of coffee. I want to be able to drive back home to a house that I own due to the Foundation, chanve into casual clothes, and watch some fucking TV, and not know ANYTHING about it. To be able to actually feel sad and cry when I think the dog is in danger and wont make it. To have to clean up my mess of a face due to how hard I cried. To be able to order a pizza, and eat it, and nothing else. Not the box. not the bag. not soda bottle. I just want to eat a few slices of pizza a bite at a fucking time, and save the rest for leftovers because I'm too full to finish more then half of it.

To be able to actually taste my coffee in the morning.

I just. Want to feel real again. Just for a day. That's all.

[aelithart]

hi! uh I just wanted to say that the link for your discord server isn't working, Idk if it's not working for other people but yeah, haha, sorry if this is annoying! it told me it was expired/ no longer working.

Hi there! Sorry about that! I’m still working on the rules a little! My friends are helping me mod, and we decided we wanted to make sure the folks who joined are 18+ as we’re not confident we can make a 100% Minor Safe Space due to our own mental energies. (The server is SFW though!)

If you’d like an invite to the MHA OC server, please feel free to DM me, or reply to any of my Posts/Asks. :D I only ask you be honest about your age for your own saftey! I wont be able to control the people who join, and I dont wanna expose anyone to anyone who might be a negative influence, <D Im also ALWAYS happy to talk about OCs publicly in a safe space on my blog too! Art trades and collabs wont be exclusive to the server! <: I can control the content on my blog, but I wont be able to always control the content people share in a server, if that makes sense! 

[redemptionbaby]

What are your thoughts on Charles’s kinks, sub Charles vs dom Charles? (With a reader, I’m not sure if you have a gender preference for the reader, but if it’s ok, could it be male? If not, your pick!) Your writing never fails to put a smile on my face

I’ll probably make it neutral lmao

Charles’s Kinks

Saftey. He don’t want no injuries. He don’t want no diseases. Sex is good, but it’s not so good that he’ll die for it

I think he’d like a little bit of rope bondage. Maybe not the whole shebang, but some tied wrists can be nice

Massages. They can get him so in the mood so fast. And if he’s offering to give you one? You’d best believe he’s down to clown

69. Charles likes to keep it mutual. Fairness and equality is his kink.

Very very light exhibitionism but only for oral, really. He just thinks that if you were to get caught, it would just be the biggest power play if it was oral.

This isn’t a kink but I think Charles is one of those dudes who can’t fuck while he knows an animal is watching. Running by is one thing, but if he has to keep eye contact with a deer while he’s giving it to you that boner ain’t gonna last

Charles as a Dom

He’s the perfect dom in that he flows like water. He’s as gentle as you need, as rough as you need, and he’s got vibe sensory abilities like nobody’s business

Charles is not a good dom if you like surprises. He’s a little too concerned about your mental well-being to try something new without talking about it, or to try and ease you into an idea.

To Charles, the role of the dom is to care for the sub. His job is to put your brain on another fucking planet, he takes care of you so good

Charles as a Sub

Charles likes being a sub. He likes being attended to, he likes to be able to let go completely.

That said, he has a hard time getting into sub space and he doesn’t quite know what to do with himself in the mean time. It gets him a little nervous

And on the flipside, Charles likes to be on the receiving end of surprises. He knows himself well enough that he knows he’ll speak up for himself at the first sign of trouble. So to have you test his limits and introduce him to new things is nice

[venusmages]

otp tag.

tagged by @solasan​, thank u!!!!!   tagging: @ritualism​ and @editoress​ i think all my other Wayhaven ppl have been @’d already

PENNY AND FELIX EDITION

DISAGREEMENTS.

who is more likely to raise their voice?

i neither! penny if i had to choose, but shes usually p good at keeping cool. and felix doesn’t seem like a shouty person anyways.

who threatens to leave but never actually does?

N/A

who actually keeps their word and leaves?

N/A

who trashes the house?

N/A

do either of them get physical?

N/A

how often do they argue/disagree?

i think their first disagreement is in book 2 when Felix got hurt during Sanja’s rescue. Penny feels super guilty about it and is worried Felix is brushing it off when he has a right to be upset. She’s kinda haunted by that whole situation and the choice she had to make. Other than that, they definitely never really argue. At most in the beginning Penny was just kind of oblivious/flippant because she’s socially awkward lol

who is the first to apologize?

both lmao

SEX.

who is on top? who is on bottom?

Felix is a little top  you cant convince me otherwise

any kinks?

not really

who has the strangest desires?

i think they’re mostly just cute in bed without anythnig crazy going on

who’s dominant in bed?

  FELIX!! in the cute ‘i got this’ kind of way. Penny’s shy so definitely not her.

is head ever in the equation?

duh

if so, who is better at performing it?

felix has the charisma but i think penny has the technique

ever had sex in public?

 they did almost fuck in nate’s library 

who moans the most?

Penny!  Felix thinks its cute

who leaves the most marks?

FELIX LOVES HICKIES. hes sad that they don’t last super long on him, but she tries anyway.

who is the more experienced of the two?

I think they’re pretty even actually

do they ‘fuck’ or ‘make love’?

latter

how long do they usually last?

im sure it varies

rough or soft?

soft!!

is protection used?

YES. penny is ON that shit. Though she wouldn’t be against having kids one day.

does it ever get boring?

nah they’re too cute and in gross cuddly love. Does felix look like he’d EVER get bored of the detective

where is the strangest place they’d have sex?

it didnt  happen but again, nates library. Penny was secretly kinda into it 

FAMILY.

do they plan on having children / do they have children?

 I don’t think either are seriously considering it for a while but Penny is a good 50/50 on it!

if so, how many children do they want/have?

just one, maybe two.

AFFECTION.

who likes to cuddle?

Felix! Penny’s a little more standoffish in general with physical affection, but she does love cuddling Felix. If he wants to cuddle she’s p much always down for it.

who gets naughty in the most inappropriate of places?

Felix. Have you heard what that boy says

who struggles to keep their hands to themself?

Felix! Though only in private. He know’s Penny’s shy and its cute to do it when shes working or something. He likes playfully distracting her.

how long can they cuddle until one becomes uncomfortable?

Probably for a good while, though Penny has a tendency to get antsy. Usually it just means her getting up and him happily following after her though

what is their favourite non-sexual activity?

video games! She showed him Animal Crossing and it was over

where is their favourite place to cuddle?

on the couch!

SLEEPING.

who snores?

Penny...

if both do, who snores the loudest?

Not loudly , but again penny.

do they share a bed or sleep separately?

they share a bed!

if they sleep together, do they cozy up together or lay far apart?

depends!

what do they wear to bed?

Penny wears pj shorts and a cotton shirt, pretty simple. Felix is probs similar

are either of them insomniacs?

Penny DEFINITELY is. Thankfully Felix doesn’t sleep a lot so she’s rarely disturbing him!

can sleeping pills be found by the bedside?

YEP. Especially after book 1, she started having nightmares.

do they wrap their limbs around each other or just lay side by side?

Felix is a koala.

who wakes up with bed hair?

Penny. Felix somehow always looks fucking perfect and she’d be jealous if she didn’t think it was so charming.

who wakes up first?

Penny. Even if Felix is just lazing about, she’s one of those responsible people or something.

who prepares breakfast in bed for the other?

Felix tried. keyword being tried. 

what is their favourite sleeping position?

Penny sleeps on her side and Felix clambers around either with one leg over her or spooning her usually.

do they set an alarm each night?

Penny does!

who has nightmares?

Both :(. Hard to tell with Felix how often for him

can a television be found in their bedroom?

Penny doesn’t have a TV

who has ridiculous dreams?

Felix for sure. Sometimes involving stuff pertaining to the Echo World and Penny is like ??? and he doesn’t know how to explain it.

who sprawls out and takes up most of the bed?

Felix

who makes the bed?

Felix, because he insists. Penny goes back and straightens it out

what time is bed time?

 bed by 1

any routines/rituals before bed?

felix insists on brushing their teeth together bc he thinks its cute (penny does too). its how she first actually got a glimpse of his fangs

who’s the grumpiest when they wake up?

neither! though felix DOES complain.

WORK.

who is the busiest?

penny. felix is  busy keeping himself from dying of boredom

who rakes in the highest income?

n/a

are any of them unemployed?

n/a

who takes the most sick days?

Penny, though very rarely. She usually saves them for days where she wants to work from home because the office got too overwhelming.

what are their jobs?

Vampire Agent vs Police Detective

who sucks up to their boss?

 Felix tries to charm Rebecca. Rebecca just sighs.

who is more likely to turn up late to work?

Felix. Got distracted

who stresses the most?

PENNY. though she usually takes things in stride, she’s a little up tight.

do they enjoy or despise their careers/occupations?

Penny is fine with being a detective and doubly fine with being an agent.

are they financially stable?

yeah!

HOME.

who does the washing?

Penny. We know what Felix’s stance is on laundry considering he hides his socks in Mason’s hamper.

who takes out the trash?

Felix , and he acts like a hero

who does the ironing?

Penny! She wears nice clothes that definitely would require ironing. 

who does the cooking?

Penny is a serviceable cook, though she tends to cook the same things. And sometimes still eats like a (healthier) college student because she doesn’t have the energy. Felix LOVES using it as an excuse to order food.

who is more likely to burn the house down just trying?

Felix.

who is messier?

Felix. More just disorganized

who leaves their dirty clothes on the floor?

Felix. Again, boy clearly hates laundry

who loses the car keys when it comes time to go somewhere?

Neither. Unless Felix yoinked the keys - then they could be anywhere.

who answers the telephone?

FELIX. First ring, always. 

who mows the lawn?

city slickers for life so neither

who does the vacuuming?

both. felix likes doing it and danciing

who does the groceries?

Penny because felix will bring back a bunch of things they didnt need

who takes the longest to shower?

Penny. She uses so much water

who spends the most time in the bathroom?

neither!

MISCELLANEOUS.

is money a problem?

nah theyre secret agents

how many cars do they own?

just penny’s little clunker

what’s their song?

waterfalls coming out your mouth // violet hour (especially this one) // sugar

do they live in the city or in the country?

small town

do they own their home or do they rent?

penny’s renting but wouldn’t be against owning a little flat somewhere

do they enjoy their surroundings?

wayhaven is home and comfortable for penny! she was actually falling out of love for it before she got promoted, now she feels protective over it and the supernaturals shes now aware live there.

what do they do when they’re away from each other?

felix goes insane waiting until they can meet up again. penny is often thinking abt him but is eager to get work done so she can do it even sooner

where did they first meet?

abandoned warehouse in book one - though the first meeting SHE remembers is him kissing her on the hand... romance...

who spends the most money when out shopping?

i feel they both are pretty similar! Theyre Fashionable, though Pennys really good at budgeting.

who’s more likely to flash their assets?

listen it doesnt happen in canon but if you do the combat training route with felix he fucking puts your hands up his shirt

any mental issues?

penny has anxiety and has been diagnosed as autistic since she was, like, 12. felix clearly has some shit he’s not letting himself fully mourn but OKAY BUDDY

who finds it amusing when the other trips over? 

penny laughs when felix trips just because he’s like a beautiful ragdoll and always ‘saves’ himself in really funny ways. felix is such a prince charming i think he’d see her tripping more as an excuse to be dashing and handsome at her and save her from face planting than laugh. 

who’s terrified of bugs?

penny definitely isn’t. could see felix losing his shit over a spider.

who kills the spiders around the house?

PENNY. doesn’t kill them though.

do they have any fears for their future?

Penny’s worried that loved ones might get put into danger due to ... everything. Verda found out about vampires and wasn’t hyped, so she’s worried about their friendship and his saftey most of all. She’s also worried about making ‘tough’ choices like the one at the end of book 2. It’s not a pleasant dilemma.

their favourite place?

Penny’s apartment!

who’s more likely to surprise the other with a fancy dinner?

felix FOR SURE

who pays the bills?

both, but penny set it all up on autopay bc felix would forget.

who’s the tallest?

Felix! He’s like what, 5′7-5′9? penny’s 5′3.

who’s more likely to just randomly hop into the shower with the other?

Both! Penny’s shy when doing it but she loves felix’s reaction because he’s always super excited.

who wanders around in their underwear?

neither

who sings the loudest when singing along to the radio?

felix. duh

what do they tease each other about?

everything! penny teases felix over how energetic and goofy and ~suave~ he is. He teases penny over being bashful - but she actually teases him more! He teases her over ROMANTIC stuff.

who is more likely to cringe at the other’s fashion sense at times?

Penny. The waistcoat, Felix. Why. No

who crushed first?

FELIX DIDDDDDDD. Penny got flustered but is very :/ at relationships bc she struggles socially and the only serious relationship she had prior was fucking BOBBY. So she straight up doesn’t trust that felix is being genuine at first. Also she’s a lil bit oblivious.

any alcohol or substance related problems?

nope!

who is more likely to stumble home, drunk, at 3am?

neither

who swears the most?

probably felix, though I don’t think he swears a lot either?

[1a-imagines]

Get Jinxed:

@otaku-explosion Request: Please can you make a scenario of Midoriya and Iida with a fem s/o's quirk is called jinxed which causes bad things to happen to anyone and everyone (including herself) to experience unfortunate...and strange...happenings. She still can't really control her quirk, but she was accepted into class 1B so let’s hope the UA's roof isn't ripped off by a storm like her last schools.

Type: scenarios

Characters: Iida, Midoriya.

Iida:

"H-how-"

"I don't know! I was just walking past and sneezed!" You tried to explain to him as he stared at the the water fountain that was currently on fire.

You had actually done the impossible. You had set fire to water. "This is physically impossible! This defys every law of nature." Iida muttered in utter disbelief. He wanted to put out the fire! He simply couldn't let the schools fountain burn to the ground but what should he do?! Should he throw more water over it? Would that even work!? It was seemingly not affect by water at all, so all he could do was watch in horror as the fire grew on the waters surface.

You seemed strangely calm, but he assumed you were use to it. It was your quirk after all. You were probably use to this happening. He already had heard from you what happened at your last school. You walked into school one morning and the roof blew up. You knew it was fault because as soon as you leaned back against the wall of the school it blew up on contact.

If Iida was honest he feared for UA. He couldn't allow you to blow up the roof! But at the same time he feared for you too! He didn't want you getting expelled because you were unable to control your quirk. Not to mention how most of the bad luck seemed to aim at you.

As he was panicking the fire went out by itself. You coughed nervously into your hand. "Usually the things that happen have a time limit, mostly they stop when I walk away. I suppose you could say the chaos likes to follow me where ever I go."

Iida sighed and placed his hands onto his hips. "You have to learn to control your quirk somehow. The last thing this school needs is more problems." You had to agree. With all that's happened with class 1A. You felt almost thankful you were in 1B. At least you weren't put through such scary situations like the USJ attack.

"I'm sorry Iida. I want to! I just don't know how to control it! Where would I even start!?" You sighed in defeat and plopped down onto the edge of the fountain. Iida sat next to you, sympathy filling his eyes. "Well, we can figure it out! It's not like it would be impossible. We just have to try our best!"

You smiled up at him, feeling thankful you had him. Your friendship had been unlikely, so being in a relationship with him was even more bizarre. Class 1A's, class president, who respected the rules more than anyone else with the girl who litrally had bad luck following her wherever she went. You remembered how you two met. It had been within the first week of school.

You were walking down the halls and as fate would have it a rolling baseball came out of nowhere, you stepped on it and fell face first into the floor. But it didn't stop there. You fell in front of the support classes door and it suddenly fell off it's hinges, and fell right towards you. You gasped and held out your hands to shield yourself, but when you felt no impact you opened your eyes to see Iida above you he had grabbed onto the door before it hit you. When he knew you were ok he asked what happened. He had seen it all and it was mouth dropping. A ball came out of no where? No one was around! And the door fell off it's hinges without anything happening to it? It was like someone had set out to sabotage you.

You had to explain your quirk to him and since then he always made sure he was around to help clear up the chaos and keep you out of danger. Though it was hard to keep up with, since most of the things that happened had no explaination and denied the laws of physics. Things he thought previous impossible he had now witnessed himself. You caused him a lot of panic, especially when you coughed and three windows of the school smashed in.

He wanted to help you. Your quirk was actually very impressive. If you got control over it you could be unstoppable! How can people beat you if they're cursed with bad luck?!

"We? You're going to help me?" You asked unsurely. You figured if you were going to willingly use your quirk he would want to be far away. After all, it didn't just affect you but people around you. You tried not to laugh when you remembered walking past Monoma and his pants fell down. You felt bad but it was hilarious. You apologised but he didn't accept it since you were giggling away. You two were good friends though, but he still hasn't let the incident go.

"Of course! You're my girlfriend! I will help you through this and support you no matter what! It's my duty as your boyfriend!" He stated proudly. You grinned up at him and you jumped up off the fountain. "Ok! Let's do this!"

You went to take a step forward but before you could you ended up being swooped up into Iidas arms with a yelp.

"(Y/n)!!" Iida yelled and pulled you to saftey. You turned back to see you both had narrowly missed being hit with a heavy metal ball. A girl ran over and bowed in apology.

"I'm so sorry! I was practising my quirk! I don't know what happened!? It just went out of control!"

You sighed and assured her it was ok before waving her off. Iida put you down. "I know exactly what happened." You muttered and the girl ran away. "This is getting worse everyday! But how do you control bad luck?" You groaned. Iida hummed and thought it over. He wasn't sure himself, it wasn't like you were trying to control something physical, your quirk seemed to be more mental. "Maybe we should focus on what activated your quirk. Maybe bad luck happens what you feel something? Like when you become overwhelmed with a feeling. Have you ever actually tried causing bad luck willingly."

"No... well, sometimes. But it's not like I can just point at someone at bad luck happens to them. I don't know how it works!" You huffed. Feeling hopeless. It was stressful to think about. What if you could never get control over your quirk. You grumbled and turned around. About to start walking away but you ended up tripping over your own feet and fell onto your face. "(Y/n)!" Iida crouched down next to you in worry.

You lifted your head from your ground and met his eyes, you were completely done with today. Your quirk was acting up more than usual and you were fed up. You told him you were fine but his eyes widened, he stood up quickly. "Your nose is bleeding! That's not fine!" He helped you up and reached into his pocket to pull out a handkerchief. He held it up to your nose as you stared down at the ground in embarrassment. "Maybe I'm just destined to be this way forever."

"That's not a good mind set to have! There will be a way to control it! We just have to work hard. We can do some research on similar quirks as well as some training. You'll see, you have control over it in no time!"

You smiled at his enthusiasm. He was so ready to help you and do whatever he had to, to make you happy. "Funny how the girl with bad luck ended up with such an amazing guy. Maybe you're solution to my quirk. Maybe you're my quirks weakness." You crossed your arms with a playful smirk gracing your pink lips.

He froze up, his cheeks going red. He felt like his breath got caught in his throat for a moment. "(Y/n)! It's innapropriate to flirt in public!" He whispered frantically, looking around to make sure no one heard.

"I can't help it, you make me so happy I just want to make you happy too. I can't keep all the love i feel to myself. I'll explode!" You were about to make this poor man faint. His whole face was burning up. "(Y-y/n)!" he sighed. Though he appreciated the love, he preferred to keep it for when the two of you were alone. You smiled down at the floor shyly. For some reason you couldn't help but acknowledge all the times he's saved you from your own quirk. How he was always there to stop your misfortune. Back at your old school things use to be much worse. You were always in the nurses office or getting yelled at for something but at UA, ever since you met Iida, things have been so much better. Bad things seemed to happen a lot less often and even when they did guess who was there to save the day? Of course it was your precious boyfriend. You were so thankful for him you couldn't even put it into words.

"At least I know I have one good luck charm in my life."

Midoriya:

"Have you seen (y/n)?"

"You're looking for her again? You really need to relax." Kirishima replied. Midoriya slumped over a little at the response. He couldn't help it. Your quirk always caused bad things to happen to you. He's lost count of the amount of times he's had to save you from danger, and the last thing he wanted was for you to get hurt. You were a constant worry for him. You had told him several times that he didn't have to worry so much but he couldn't stop. You had even suggested that maybe you shouldn't be friends, when you first met, you already knew he was a bit of a nervous wreck so being around you would only cause him to faint from worry. Yet he refused to walk away from you. So much so you ended up going from friends, to best friends and then from best friends to lovers. Despite the worry he always felt for you, he found your quirk so interesting and he never let it get in the way of you two. Even when you caused him a bit of bad luck too. Like when you went to hug him and tripped, you fell over onto him and he fell back against the pavement. Luckily there was no serious harm, just some bruises. Though he did ended cracking his phone screen. You felt so bad you paid him money to get it fixed, despite all his protests.

"I-i can't help it. I care about her." He replied, walking out of the classroom to go to check class 1b. He looked around to see you walking down the hallway with kendo. Smiling at some joke you made but when you closed your eyes and began laughing someone sprinted out from around the corner and ran right into you. They hit you with their full force and You flew against the window in the hallway, it even cracked slightly from the impact. Luckily it didn't break.

"(Y/n)!" You boyfriend screamed out as he ran over to you. Kendo was crouched by your body that was now on the floor. Shaking your shoulder and asking if you were ok but it was obvious by the lack of response you must've been knocked out. The boy who ran into you was now apologising over and over again until kendo got him to stop. It was more than likely just your quirk acting up again. The boy said he wasn't even sure why he was running so fast. He looked really confused and worried. Guilt was consuming him.

You were unconscious, so it's not like you could even accept his apology anyway. Your head was bleeding pretty badly too. Midoriya brushed the hair from your face to look at the wound. You had cracked your head open. He didnt waste anymore time and bent down to pick you up bridal style. "I'll take her to recovery girl. You should tell your teacher that she'll miss class." He told kendo who nodded in agreement and he ran off down the hall. Seeing the blood drip down your forehead made him panic. He couldn't stand to see you like this. He knew you'd be ok after seeing recovery girl but seeing you bleeding and unconscious in his arms broke his heart.

He had actually been looking for you today because he had been doing a lot of research and learning ways for you to be able to control your quirk. He was pretty sure one of the methods he found would be of help to you. When he got there he placed you on the bed and recovery girl took care of you. Kissing your head and wrapping it up in a bandage. The whole time he stayed by your side, looking at your beautiful face as it scrunched up in pain. It made his heart drop even more. You quirk really was amazing. He could already see all the ways it could be useful in so many different situations. It was strong; the only thing he didn't like about it was that it hurt you, but that could change with some quirk control training.

Even though you always got hurt, you were so dedicated to leaning to control it and training with it. Anytime it caused bad luck for someone else you always tried to stop it or save them before the bad luck could ensue. You had gotten better at telling when you quirk was acting up, so you usually saved them in time.

He admired that about you, even if some people figured it would be better suited for a villain to have a bad luck quirk you were still so passionate about becoming a hero, and you were even proud of your quirk. You knew one day you would be able to use it to save so many people and that's why you were do determined to learn how to control it.

You woke up a few hours later. Your head was pounding. You groaned in pain and looked around, it hurt to even move your eyes around the room. You tried to sit up but everything went dizzy and your vision started to black out, so you lay back down. "Careful dear. You'll need to say laying down for awhile longer. That was a nasty head injury." Recovery girl warned you. You couldn't even remember what happened. You just remember the sound of your boyfriend screaming for you before you were knocked out.

"Wheres-"

"I made him go back to class. Though he put up quite the fight, he shouldn't miss his lessons too. Even if I doubt he's able to concentrate."

You sighed and closed your eyes. You were in here so often Midoriya would sometimes miss some of his classes. Not often, only when something really serious had happened. Like when you fell down three flights of stairs, broke your arm and got a concusion.

"Stupid quirk.." You muttered angrily. Not only is it causing you to miss important lessons but it was worrying all the people you cared about. It was affecting them too, so much so they would miss lessons just to make sure you're ok. It was nice to know they cared but you were starting to think you caused too much trouble for everyone. You felt awful. You were standing in the way of them becoming hero's.

"Don't beat yourself up about it. It's not your fault. If you really want this to stop I suggest working harder to control your quirk. But dont give up." It was like she was reading your thoughts. You knew she was right. You wouldn't give up anyway, you were just feeling down right now. Most students here already thought your quirk was a villainous one anyway. They think you don't belong here. They never said it outright but you could tell by the way people would be more cautious around you or try to avoid you all together. The only ones that didn't act that way were your boyfriend, Kendo and Shinsou. Everyone else seemed to be wary of you. Not that you could blame them. Whenever people were around you bad luck would fall upon them. Even the school itself had even fallen mercy to your quirk more than once.

You lay there for awhile as recovery girl made sure you we're drinking plenty of water to help with the blood loss and dizziness you felt. It must ve been hours later when the door was opened and your boyfriend walked in. It must've been the end of the school day already. Yet again you had missed a full day of hero training.

Recovery girl had left awhile ago to let you rest but you couldn't. Your mind was too busy thinking about what to do. Give up? Or work harder? At this point you weren't sure if you could ever use your quirk for good. Laying here in this bed with nothing but your thoughts hadn't been good for you. All day your brain had been giving you a hard time. Telling you that you would never be a hero or that you'd never be able to control your quirk. That you should just give up because hero's are suppost to bring good luck with them, not bad luck.

You hadn't even noticed Midoriya was there, you were so consumed in your thoughts as you stared out the window at the setting sun. He walked over to the bed, noticing your tear stained cheeks as he got closer. His eyes widened and he let out a dainty gasp. You had been crying? He figured it might've just been from pain but your expression showed to him that you were conflicted about something.

"(Y/n)" he muttered softly to catch your attention. You slowly turned to him with pain filled eyes. It broke his heart to see you like this. You looked so sad, your eyes were missing that bright spark. You did smile when you saw him but it was slightly forced and half hearted. "Hey. Sorry for worrying you. I heard you carried me all the way here." You reached over to take his hand. "You're my hero."

"That so typical of you?"

"Huh?" You questioned in shock when he tightened his grip on your hand. "You're always trying to make other people smile, even when you're sad." He looked into your eyes. "What's wrong?"

You looked down at your other hand that was resting in your lap. He already guessed what you were thinking. He wanted you to admit it and confirm his suspicions. "I just... feel bad that I cause so much trouble. It doesn't just affect me, bad things happen to anything and everyone that's around me. I know people don't like me because of it. They like to keep their distance. How am I suppose to use a quirk that brings bad luck for good? I don't think I'll ever be a hero at this rate."

"Don't say that!" His outburst suprised you. You looked up at him, his eyes were glistening with a mixture of sadness and determination. "You're choosing to use it for good! It doesn't matter what your quirk is! You want to use it for good and that's what makes you a hero! It's not about your quirk, it's about the choices you make. Don't give up Because-" He squeezed your hand as he took in a deep breath. "If you give up then the world will miss out on a great hero."

You felt tears welling up in your eyes at his words, it brought a real smile to your lips for the first time all day. You couldn't ask to have anyone better in your life. You reached forward and opened your arms. Signalling you wanted a hug. He didn't waste a second and sat down, pulling you into his arms. One of his hands began to pat down your hair softly as you rubbed your face into his shoulder.

"I love you. You're everything to me." You whispered into his jacket. Holding him as tight as you could, which wasn't very right considering how weak you felt. "I love you too." He replied happily, feeling his heart soar at your words.

You pulled back and looked into his eyes,cupping his cheeks in your hands. "You know, I'm cursed with bad luck, and yet somehow I ended up being the luckiest girl in the world." You leaned forward and pressed your forehead to his. "Because I have you by my side."

A/N: Not my best work since I was struggling to think up a good scenario for it. I really liked writing it though, so hopefully it's not too bad T_T