#yui has me feeling so sorry for her she's just a sad little girl trying to make it in the world

[waiting-on-a-dream]

𝙼𝙱𝚃𝙸, 𝚎𝚗𝚗𝚎𝚊𝚐𝚛𝚊𝚖 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚕𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚞𝚊𝚐𝚎𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝚖𝚢 𝙼𝚒𝚕𝚐𝚛𝚊𝚖 𝚘𝚌𝚜!

𝙼𝙱𝚃𝙸

Ichiro: INTP (He's curious about the world, despite getting stuck in his own head and losing track of time often. He gets many ideas but forgets them just as easily. He doesn't care much for what people think about him, but goes along with the flow so nobody will be unhappy (he probably doesn't care about the topic either but that's besides the point). He's also really detached from his own emotions, and finds it hard to empathize with other people.)

Akane: ESFP (She's really focused on her surroundings and is often experiencing everything that's happening around her, never missing a single detail unlike Ichiro. She also has a good grasp of her emotions and has a strong moral code, hence why she's often so angry with other people who look away. However, knowing that she's angry doesn't help control her emotions that well. She doesn't like being a bad mood, but she doesn't know how to manage her feelings properly.)

Daisuke: ESTP (Like Akane, he also pays attention to his surroundings well. He's always up and about, flitting from one exciting activity to the next. He also likes to think about things in a logical way and doesn't care about the morality of what he's doing as much (his job, cough). However, he has FE as his third function, so he's not completely terrible at navigating social and emotional situations. In fact, he's quite good at utilizing his emotional manipulation.)

Suzume: INFJ (She has a bad habit of always having her head in the clouds and worrying about the future. She mostly gets by with life through her intuitive gut feeling, which hasn't failed her so far. She also wants everyone to get along and will sacrifice her thoughts and feelings in order to go with the majority, to the point where she might put on a mask for someone if they want her to act a certain way.)

Haku: ISTJ (He tends to relate his past experiences to present circumstances, where his memories are used as a frame of reference to build ideas about how the world is and how it works. Whatever has been established to work well, he'll keep going with that until another solution is required. He's reasonable and rational, but has enough emotional intelligence not to rub most people off the wrong way.)

Yui: ESFJ (Her decisions and opinions are heavily influenced by her interactions with other people, as well as cultural and societal norms. She's friendly, sensitive and empathetic, always willing to help other people whenever she can. She also tends to act and respond in patterned ways that have been proven to work in the past, not willing to step out of her comfort zone most of the time.)

Rin: ISFP (He's sensitive and very aware of his inner emotional state, having a bad habit of being self-centered and aloof often. He only does what seems right to him, and doesn't enjoy being told that he's "wrong". Like most teenagers, he's trying to form his own identity while still gaining approval from his peers (its hard to do both). He also pays a lot of attention to his surroundings, concentrating on living in the moment instead of planning ahead.)

Noa: INFP (She's sensitive and empathetic, unfortunately jaded and anxious from bad experiences in her past. She used to be an idealistic dreamer when she was younger, but she knows now that she was just naïve and unaware of the world. She's also speculative and creative. Her NE allows her to see patterns everywhere, jumping from one thought to another as each item reminds her of something else.)

Kiyoshi: ENFJ (Like Yui, he's friendly and helpful to everyone he meets. He feels a sense of responsibility over people in a humanitarian way, and often sacrifices his own thoughts and feelings to keep up the peace in a group setting. He makes sure to plan ahead in life, but ends up relying on his instincts to guide him more often than not. Its okay, his gut instincts rarely fail him!)

Mayumi: INTJ (She worries a lot about many things, always stuck in that chaotic head of hers. Even though she thinks so much, she finds it very hard to voice her thoughts in a way that others will understand. How frustrating. She might be anxious often, that doesn't necessarily make her an emotional wreck though. She's actually quite level-headed when the situation calls for it, making reasonable and rational judgements every time without fail.)

Haruto: ENTP (He has a speculative and creative intellect, seeing patterns and connections everywhere to make a bigger picture. Whether or not he chooses to share his vision is another thing. He also prefers to think about things objectively and logically, questioning many things he comes across. Like Daisuke, he's also perfectly capable of tapping into his emotional intelligence.)

𝙴𝚗𝚗𝚎𝚊𝚐𝚛𝚊𝚖

Ichiro: 5w6 (sp/sx)

His self-preservation instinct manifests in his tendency of retreating into his head to think, hence why he's so detached from reality. He's hesitant to do something if he isn't sure how it'll go, leading him to observe life from a distance instead of participating in it. His six wing causes him to feel alone and incapable without outside support, and he wants to feel safe with the people that he trusts. But he's primarily a type 5, so despite wanting attention from the people that he likes, he ends up minimizing his needs to avoid having them think he's too needy.

His social instinct comes in second because of his natural curiosity towards the world, wanting to learn more despite being so detached from it. He also finds comfort in knowing the acceptable boundaries of how to act through "authority figures" such as: his mom, Haruto and the other adults in Milgram. Because they're supposed to know more than him, he automatically trusts most authority figures and what they tell him.

Akane: 6w5 (sx/sp)

Her sexual instincts manifest in her tendency to appear bold and fierce in order to protect herself from any threats. Sexual sixes have the mentality of "the best defense is a good offense", and Akane is no exception. Her constant anger isn't a façade per say, but it stems mostly from her fear of getting or being allowed to get hurt. She would also like to have someone to rely on, but that isn't her main priority. Her sexual 5 tendencies manifest in her distrust of people instead, constantly analyzing and testing them to find out if they're any threat to her. Her guard is always up.

She doesn't trust any authority around her (they've all failed her so far), but she can't help the small feeling of hope that they'll help her every time. They're the authorities, so they should care about her and want to help, right? Right? She also doesn't pay much attention to anyone she doesn't like, as they tend to make her angry and that isn't good for anyone. If someone can connect with her and/or hold a conversation with her without pissing her off though, she's surprisingly loyal once she gets attached.

Daisuke: 7w6 (sp/so)

His self-preservation instinct manifests in his characteristics of being practical, opportunistic, and good at networking. He likes the sense of banding together with trusted others in which he knows he'll be looked after. Its funny. He fears being completely reliant on others, yet wants to be able to rely on someone. His six wing further emphasizes his need for support. His morals are questionable, but he still seeks friendly connections and alliances. And to do this he projects a friendly, trustworthy, and supportive persona as good allies are supposed to be.

Daisuke imagines having something better than his bleak reality sometimes, but only sometimes. He's not enough of a dreamer to be so idealistic. He has a flair for being dramatic, and exaggerates good effects when trying to rope in clients, but that's about it. His romantic side likes to sneak out in the presence of a certain someone though. He isn't as aggressive as Akane (sexual 6 wing), but he does tend to feign calmness in the face of "danger". He's good at not showing it, but he's actually quite scared most of the time.

Suzume: 9w8 (so/sx)

Her social instinct manifests in her tendency to work hard to support the people she cares for and prioritize the group’s needs above her own. This is due to the feeling that she doesn't actually belong among the people she cares for, so she overcompensates by being generous and sacrificing whatever is necessary to meet the needs of the group in order for a sense of belonging. She is also very focused on protecting her loved ones but has a hard time expressing vulnerability and emotions. 

Its hard to live in such a harsh and cruel world, but she is able to find a sense of comfort through the satisfaction of physical needs. Enjoyable activities like eating, reading, watching television, and even sleeping get her from one day to the next. As long as she focuses on the present instead of the daunting future, she'll be fine. Her 8 wing allows her to be good at making things happen. When she wants something, she most certainly will work hard to get it! She just needs to actually want something first.

Haku: 5w4 (sp/so)

Like Ichiro, he tends to keep to himself and learn about the world through observing rather than participating. While Ichiro has garnered a love for drawing, he has a passion for music, specifically piano. His 4 wing is where he differs from Ichiro's enneagram type. A type 4's greatest sin is "envy", and Haku tends to compare himself to others in terms of music capability. He actually isn't that talented when it comes to playing the piano, but he makes up for it through hard work. Still, he can't help being jealous of others who seem to get by without having to suffer as much as him. There's no point in whining about it though, so he learns to endure everything with a stoic face.

Sexual fives live for a kind of ideal connection, always searching for someone who they can trust with all their secrets. They can be said to be romantics in that way. Luckily for Haku, he already has his beloved brother who is always by his side. Everyone else in the world pales in comparison to him. The sexual side of Haku's 4 wing manifests in his competitive streak towards his peers. When it comes to the piano, he hates to lose to anyone else. Even though he isn't as naturally talented as everyone else, its what he's best at. Its an important part of him, and he can't let go of it.

Yui: 4w3 (so/sp)

As a social 4, she tends to feel things deeply and finds it hard to regulate her negative emotions. A part of her wants her suffering to be recognized and understood, but she also fears displaying such vulnerability to the potential of being rejected. To compensate for this innate sadness, she projects the exact opposite image. She's flourishing and beautiful and popular, liked by everyone. Her smile will surely outshine her shadow.

She also often feels competitive towards other idols in the industry, especially those that seem to be better than her. She can't stand the thought of being forgotten in someone else's shadow, so she works hard to shine in her own right. Its not always about her though! She likes to see her loved ones flourish as well, and will often work hard in support of the people she cares for. There's a special kind of pride she feels when her loved ones are acknowledged after improving with her help.

Rin: 1w2 (so/sp)

As a social 1, he is highly idealistic and driven by an internal sense of morality. He strictly believes in rules and responsibility, hence why he takes pinky promises so seriously. He can be nitpicky and stubborn, causing him to feel separate from his peers because he struggles to find someone he can totally relate to. Even though he finds most people annoying, he quickly grows attached to anyone who treats him nicely. He's a hard worker with the occasional competitive streak, wanting to stand out and make an impact within whatever group he's joined (his school's science club).

He often feels that he knows the “right” way to do things, and will get frustrated at those who don't follow his views. Its not that he believes in perfection, but there's a certain standard that everyone should live up to. He can't understand people who fuss over trivial things that don't amount to anything in the end. Once someone manages to befriend him, he'll give lots of attention to them, wanting to be their best friend just as they are his. He gets lonely quite often actually, and isn't good at letting go of people.

Noa: 4w5 (so/sx)

Similar to Yui, she's sensitive and has a bleak outlook on life and the world as a whole. Its as if she was born to be sad, and she can't help but feel as if life isn't worth living most of the time. She tries not to burden others with her depressing thoughts and feelings, but it feels good to let the weight off her back once in a while. A part of her fears that her loved ones will start seeing her differently once she shares too much though. These feelings might be born from her tendency to live in her own head, filled with romantic ideals of a better world with better people. She was never one for mundane, ordinary life, how could she be? The books and movies she watches are much more interesting, and they often make her wish she was living in another world instead.

Her self-preservation instinct tries its best to make her not seem like an utter failure. Others will surely be annoyed at her whining, so she should just keep these messy feelings to herself. This inner conflict only causes her turmoil most of the time. Her 5 wing also causes her to have a need for clearly defined boundaries, to have a place of safety she can retreat to to avoid feeling lost in the world. Even though she wants to, its hard to voice her thoughts sometimes. Especially with the potential of rejection.

Kiyoshi: 2w3 (so/sp)

He's obviously a social 2 with him being the helpful and responsible leader type. He wants to help people and preserve the peace of the community, and is ambitious in pursuing any goals he sets for himself. Everyone who knows him admires him for his accomplishments, he's a role model for his community after all. A part of him needs everybody's admiration and respect as a way of earning a sense of belonging in his community. His parents are very active in the community as well, so he's learned that people who go out of their way to help others are always well loved and accepted. He makes sure to live up to everyone's expectations.

He also strives to forge intimate connections with others. It'd be nice to have some close friends, to share secrets with others and to be shared with. But he wants to be approved of and liked so much that he is willing to agree to anything someone says. He doesn't even realize that he says whatever the other wants to hear until hours after the conversation. Because he tries so hard to be good and perfect, he doesn't know how to react to criticism. He also goes out of his way to support others, particularly his loved ones. He wants everyone to get their own chance to shine!

Mayumi: 1w9 (so/sx)

Similar to Rin, she believes that everyone has a certain standard to love up to and responsibilities that they must fulfill. She strives to be the perfect example to others by living according to the rules and portraying correct conduct. She has a strong moral compass and bad habit of judging others in secret (she tries not to). However, she's more peaceful and compromising compared to Rin, as she doesn't want to offend or cause trouble for anyone. She works selflessly for the group without desire to be in the spotlight or be heaped with praise, simply being part of a meaningful group of people means the most to her.

Her self-preservation instinct manifests in her tendency to be plagued by worry in her daily life. She wants to be prepared when things go wrong, and will put in a lot effort into making sure her life is in order. Despite her anxiety and annoyance whenever things don't go smoothly, she still strives to live a calm and peaceful life. This means that she is practical and routine-oriented, trying her best to focus on the present and find ways to make her environment more enjoyable and comfortable.

Haruto: 8w7 (sp/so)

He doesn't have to worry about such things as a prison warden in Milgram, but he actually has a strong need to obtain what he needs for survival. He has a sort of ruthlessness in going after what he wants and finding ways to get around people who might stand in his way. He's efficient and calculating, but not entirely cold-hearted. His 7 wing also helps him with being opportunistic and good at networking, qualities that are always good to have for survival. He believes in strength in numbers, so being friendly and forming alliances with others is important to him. Even more so when he comes across someone who can help him in achieving his goals. Perhaps he struggled a lot before Milgram.

His sexual instinct has him being distrustful of rules and not afraid to go against the grain of convention. He's found himself in a strange place with no memory of anything before, so he's always uneasy despite being in the "highest position of authority" in Milgram. He wants to be in control of himself and his environment, and gaining more information is the only way to do so at the moment. His optimistic 7 wing keeps him in good spirits despite his uneasiness, and he tends to be impulsive because of it, much to the chagrin of some prisoners. Planning, improvising, envisioning – these are the things that occupy his time.

𝙻𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚕𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚞𝚊𝚐𝚎𝚜

Ichiro

Gender preference: None. He'd probably grow feelings for anyone within his age range that treats him nicely.

Giving:

Gift giving - Its a nice way to show his affection without coming off as too clingy. He tends to dedicate and give his drawings to the people close to him. Drawing is his hobby, and he's quite good at it so he thinks his drawings are a good gift for his loved ones. He'll also pick up anything that he thinks his loved ones would like. Flowers, keychains, food, smooth pebbles for paperweights (that he paints first), you name it.

Quality time - When he likes someone, he wants to spend time with them (isn't it like that for everyone?). He'll try his best to pay attention when they're talking or trying to show him something. Compared to the way he usually ignores other people, his preference for someone can be quite obvious over time.

Receiving:

Quality time - As long as he can be doing the same activity as his loved one, he's happy (like a cat). The amount of attention they're willing to give him is how he measures their feelings towards him actually. If they don't want to spend time with him, that must mean that they don't care about him.

Words of affirmation - He has mommy issues, so of course he wants to be called a good boy. But seriously, compliments and kind words will have him curling into a ball of happiness. He doesn't believe in lies, so he thinks that any words of affection towards him is true. He likes being reminded that he's loved.

Akane

Gender preference: None. She's giving pansexual vibes actually.

Giving:

Acts of service - She's used to doing all the chores around the house, so doing the same thing for someone she actually cares about shouldn't be a problem. She isn't very good at cooking, but she'll practice if she wants to impress someone- He first-aid skills are quite good from experience, so she'll insist on patching up the wounds of her loved ones whenever she has the chance. She's not happy about them getting hurt or anything like that! She just likes having the opportunity to show her care for them.

Quality time - She's never had someone genuinely care about her before, but he wishes she had someone to talk to often. She's very picky about who she spends her time with, but when he likes someone, she'll go out of her way to seek them out. Who would've thought? Even a tsundere like her wants love.

Receiving:

Gift giving - Her father is a good-for-nothing, and a high school girl is only able to rake in so much income, so she doesn't have much to herself. Practical items like food, bandages, clothes and stationary are the fastest way to her heart. She'll find a way to repay the giver because she doesn't like feeling indebted to people, but she appreciates the gesture all the same.

Words of affirmation - She is so weak to compliments. Butter her up a little and she'll be a flustered blushing mess. Its nice hearing her loved ones tell her that she's pretty cool, okay? Especially after the things her father and teachers have said to her.

Daisuke

Gender preference: None. Bisexual disaster at his finest.

Giving:

Physical touch - He's a touchy guy, even towards people he just met as long as they don't seem to mind (most of the time). If he likes someone, he'll definitely be draping himself over them a lot like a sloth. If he likes someone, he'll be thinking of kissing them so much its embarrassing. Even he gets embarrassed about it.

Gift giving - A part of him gives gifts in hopes that the receiver will think of him whenever they look at or use the gift, like a little reminder of his affection for them. But for the most part, he has money and he likes spending it on the people he cares for.

Receiving:

Quality time - His parents were often busy, so he was quite lonely in his childhood. Its easy to arrange for meetups with friends now that he's an adult, so that's exactly what he does. He'll do the same for anyone he has feelings for too. He doesn't call it a date, the potential of rejection is too much. He just wants to spend time with the people that he likes, preferably doing something fun.

Physical touch - Is he touch starved? Any skin contact makes him happy actually, even if its a little rough. Maybe he's just a masochist. Cuddling is his favourite, especially with his special someone playing with his hair. Not that he's ever had a special someone cuddle him... But its nice to dream about.

Suzume

Gender preference: None. I'm getting bisexual vibes from her too.

Giving:

Acts of service - Her main method of showing her love is easy to overlook, hence why she feels she isn't good at loving. Doing the chores, remembering important things for her loved ones, positioning things around the house for convenience... Even though it feels like she's being taken for granted sometimes, its her way of showing her love and she isn't stopping anytime soon.

Quality time - When she cares about someone, she gives them her full attention and tries her best to remember the important details about them. She'll only remember the times she spent with them in the end after all, so why not create as many happy memories with her loved ones as possible?

Receiving:

Quality time - She's really happy when her loved ones talk to her or do an activity with her. Watching a movie together is one of her favourite activities to do her loved ones actually. She gets to enjoy the movie with them, and then discuss it with them afterwards.

Words of affirmation - She's the type of person to hear "I love you" a thousand times over and still not get tired of it. Same goes for compliments and reassurances. She just has to hear it with her own ears even if they're lies and she'll be alright.

Haku

Gender preference: None. He isn't interested in dating, but he probably has the capacity to be attracted to people.

Giving:

Acts of service - His way of showing love is quiet. He's already a responsible older brother, so doing chores and offering massages to his parents is normal for him to do. Helping his brother talk to others is a loving act of service as well. His parents tell him he coddles his brother too much, but he can't help it.

Gift giving - He tends to buy snacks, flowers and little trinkets for his loved ones like a cat bringing its spoils to its master. Whatever he thinks they'd like. Learning to play piano songs that they like seems to be a gift rather than an act of service, so I'll put it here. He also leaves the portion of his meals that his brother likes for the other to eat, another example of him spoiling his brother too much.

Receiving:

Quality time - He just likes being around his loved ones. He could be in the same room as them, doing separate things, and he'd still consider it quality time. Of course its more special when they're doing an activity together though. He especially loves the music related activities, it feels more meaningful to him.

Physical touch - His family members are quite touchy actually. His dad pats his head frequently, his mom often squishes his cheeks, and his brother is always clinging to him. Since physical touch is their giving love language, he's likely adapted to receive it. He's quite picky with who touches him though.

Yui

Gender preference: Male. She thinks girls are cute, but isn't interested in dating them?

Giving:

Words of affirmation - She can't help but want to blurt out all the nice things she can think of about her loved ones. When someone mentions them, she automatically goes on a spiel about how amazing they are. She has to stop herself from ranting for too long most of the time. Shell praise compliment her loved ones face-to-face plenty too. And she means every word.

Physical touch - its hard to hide when she's feeling clingy. She loves hugging her loved ones, throwing an arm over their shoulders and tucking her chin onto the crook of their necks. She especially loves playing with their hair, no matter the length.

Receiving:

Quality time - Having her loved ones want to spend time with her is a surefire way to cheer her up during a bad day because she finds their presence comforting. She just needs them to sit with her. It lets her know that they don't find her annoying? Its a silly thought, she tries to shit it down every time it pops up.

Words of affirmation - Receiving compliments always improves her self-esteem. When she's feeling down, a few compliments is sure to get her mood back to normal in no time. She turns into a flustered mess when showered in kind words too.

Rin

Gender preference: Female

Giving:

Gift giving - He likes to treat his loved ones to snacks and buy little gifts for them. He doesn't receive that much pocket money, but he still insists on buying things for his loved ones because it makes him happy to see them happy with their gifts. He looks forward to special occasions like Mother's day and Valentine's day to be used as excuses to buy gifts for his loved ones.

Quality time - He likes seeing and interacting with the people that he likes! He can actually get antsy and restless when he hasn't been able to interact with his loved one(s) for too long. Like that time his parents went on a week-long trip for their anniversary. He was fidgeting while waiting for them at the airport.

Receiving:

Quality time - He tends to measure how much his loved ones love him based on how much time they spend with him. And he has a bad habit of taking it personally when they're too busy to spend time with him. It isn't that hard to hang out with him though. Most of the time he just wants to share a meal or read together.

Acts of service - He can sometimes forget to take care of himself when he's engrossed in his work, so its really nice when his loved one runs him a hot bath or brings him a snack while he's working. Little acts like that never fail to make his heart melt.

Noa

Gender preference: Male

Giving:

Physical touch - She can't help but want to feel her loved ones with her hands. Ruffling her brothers' hair, holding her mother's hand, hugging her beloved husband. There's something comforting about being able to feel their skin against hers. It grounds her, reminds her that they're here and alive. Is that weird?

Quality time - She isn't very busy, so she has plenty of time to spend on her loved ones. If her loved ones have something to show her, she's sure to give them her full attention! Any time spend sharing love for each other is quality time for her.

Receiving:

Words of affirmation -She tends to feel down sometimes, but little words of support and reassurance always help to pick her back up. Sometimes she just wants to be distracted and will ask them to ramble about something instead. She finds her loved ones' voices soothing, so they serve as good distractions.

Quality time - Since she likes spending time with her loved ones, she feels loved when they want to spend time with her too. She feels rather honored when her loved ones share something special to them with her actually. That means they trust her enough to share something close to them. How wonderful.

Kiyoshi

Gender preference: Female

Giving:

Acts of service - He wants his loved ones to be safe and comfortable at all times, so if there's anything he can do for them, he'll do his best to help them. Especially his beloved parents. He's a reliable assistant for his father while working, and frequently brews relaxing teas for his mother.

Gift giving - He likes to buy fancy and expensive gifts for his loved one on special occasion. Watches, fruit baskets, decorative items they're sure to like. His mother has a fondness for flowers, so he makes sure to buy a bouquet every Mother's day. He just loves seeing the look of joy on his loved ones' faces when they receive something they like. He can't get enough of it.

Receiving:

Physical touch - He's used to being touched a lot as a kid. His parents hugged him often, and his elderly neighbours liked to pinch his cheeks. They still do it even though he's all grown up now. Not that he's complaining! He quite likes the attention.

Acts of service - He's always making sure everyone else is taken care of, so who will take care of him? Sometimes he gets so engrossed on his work that he forgets about his own needs. Just having his loved one check in on him gives him enough motivation to keep going (and remind him to eat something).

Mayumi

Gender preference: Male

Giving:

Acts of service - She's more of a practical person, so she'd rather do something useful for her loved ones rather then profess her care with words. For her, talk is cheap. So she doesn't mind doing extra chores and cooking meals and such.

Gift giving - Another practical way of showing love that Mayumi prefers. She's known to knit sweaters for the children living in the hospital she works at, and her mother is always happy to receive more cooking equipment. Basically, she prefers to get things for the people she cares about that they will use.

Receiving:

Quality time - She's busy with her job as a nurse, so she treasures the precious moments spent with her loved ones. Even time spent doing chores with her mother is treasured by her. But she prefers activities like having a conversation over a shared meal.

Acts of service - She's very tired at the end of every day, so it'd be nice to be taken care of for a while. A simple cup of tea is enough to get her spirits up most of the time. She also tends to misplace her things quite often, so having someone help her to look for it and bring it to her would be really helpful.

Haruto

Gender preference: Both, both are good.

Giving:

Acts of service - He has traces of responsibility in him (likely from his past) and is always helping the people he care about feel comfortable. He's the kind of person that always has to be doing something, and that translates to his love language as well.

Words of affirmation - He tends to casually compliment the people he cares about, usually with a lighthearted tone. It just slips out so easily for him, he hardly has to think about it. The ever meaningful "I love yous" are saved for special occasions though.

Receiving:

Words of affirmation - Compliments and praises make him so happy! They inflate his ego too but we don't talk about that. If someone likes him, they must think he's pretty cool and want to voice it, right? He knows lots of people don't operate like that, but he wants to hear proof of their love from their lips. At least once in a while. That shouldn't be too hard for them if they love him.

Acts of service - Its nice to have things done for him. Even better if his loved ones is proactive about it! He's sure to do the same for them, so its only fair. The little things like being brought a drink and having his hair dried really makes his day!

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Diabolik lovers Angel and Devil Story [ Chapter 05 ]

Chapter 5 : listen to me

The lullaby of the goddess is heard every day in the ears of the devil who captured her. This song, like a mother's lullaby, takes him on painful memories. Memories that he no longer wants to remember. Memories that only reminded him of his painful and sad life. But every day he listens to the beautiful girl's lullaby in a hidden shadow. Maybe he has forgotten the reason for his sadness and wants to walk towards the light of his goddess.

The lullaby of the night goddess can be heard along with the breeze in the Mukami mansion. Moonlight again gives its light to the beautiful goddess and she walks in the mansion like a holy angel and whispers her lullaby.

In the past, no one noticed Yui Komori's lullaby. But now someone is secretly listening to this lullaby. Hiding in the shadows of his room, Ruki watches the blonde girl walk in the yard, caressing the flowers and humming her lullaby with her voice like the angels of heaven.

Yui: The flowers of Mukami mansion are as beautiful as the flowers of Sakamaki mansion. Maybe even more beautiful. I think the reason is that Yuma-kun really grows these flowers and vegetables with love. Love is very beautiful. Even love for a small flower makes that flower feel fresh and more beautiful than ever.

_Yui puts her head closer to the rose and smells the flower with a beautiful smile.

*sniff* *sniff*

Yui: Oh. This flower is even more fragrant. You are a very beautiful flower. I would like to give you my love so that you become more beautiful. Do you like to hear my lullaby? This lullaby is a beautiful and loving memory of my father.

_Yui gently caresses the rose with her tender little hands and begins to sing a lullaby with her heavenly voice.

Yui: Lala lala, lala lala, lala lala, my beautiful moonlight, give me your bright light tonight. to ride the clouds and reach the skies To fly with your silver light and touch the sky and your bright blue heart.

_Ruki is watching Yui from behind the window of his room.

Ruki: (This girl is really strange. She reminds me of my past. And this lullaby... how is it possible that she also knows this lullaby?)

_Yui continues to caress the flower and sing her lullaby until suddenly a thorn sticks into her finger.

Yui: Ah... Oh... It was a thorn. (The thorn of the rose made my finger bleed)

_Yui puts her finger in her mouth and sucks the small drops of blood.

Yui: Fufu.... interesting. Even the most beautiful things can sometimes be dangerous. Sometimes even if we give them all our love, they still continue to hurt us. The world is like this. Cruel and cruel. But if I give up here, who else can give love to others?

_Yui gets up from the roses and walks towards her room.

Yui: No matter what happens, I will not give up. I know kindness still exists in this world. There is goodness in everyone and I can show it to everyone with all my love and being. (I will prove this to Ruki-Kun.)

_Yui continues to move towards her room to end another long night and wake up in the morning with hope again and try to achieve her dreams.

*TIMESKIP *

*ding* *dong*

_Yui walks in the school corridor to go to the library.

Yui: (Today's classes are over. But Ruki-kun still has one more class. I better go to the library to study)

_While immersed in his thoughts, Yui continues walking until he suddenly collides with a person and her bag falls on the ground.

????: Oi what are you doing, are you fool?

Yui: Oh. I am really sorry. I didn't see you, I was going to the library.

_Yui raises her head and looks at the boy and realizes that he is Subaru Sakamaki.

Yui: Subaru-kun? Is this you ?

_Subaru, who is surprised to see Yui, stares at her.

Subaru: Huh? You are ? Do you know where you are? You are so stupid and careless that you walk away from my eyes like this.

Yui: .......

Subaru: I mean....... No, I don't care about you. I just don't have the patience for Ayato's and others' grumblings. That's all.

Yui: I'm sorry. But I can't come back.

Subaru: Haaaaaaaaaaa? What are you talking about? What do you mean you can't come back?

Yui: Well... I... (I shouldn't say anything to him, otherwise Ruki-kun...)

Subaru: Are you with those guys? Is it true ?

Yui: Oh, you know?

Subaru: Of course I know. I watched you myself.

Yui: Huh? Were you watching me?

Subaru: ......! Well, I... Oh DAMN... Yes, I was watching you. Just because your blood is good. There is no other reason.

Yui: Oh. I understood.

Subaru: Fuck off. Tell me, do you feel good with those boys?

Yui: ........! Why are you asking this question?

Subaru: It has nothing to do with you. Just answer my question.

Yui: (Kou, Yuma, and Azusa are really kind. I feel comfortable with them. Just like a family. But about Ruki-kun......... I can't tell him. It's better to keep it a secret. Keep it in my heart) Yes, Subaru-kun. I feel comfortable with them. They are really like a family. And it can be said that they are kind.

_Subaru mutters softly under his breath.

Subaru: It's good that they don't bother you.

Yui: Subaru-kun? What did you say now?

Subaru: Huh? I did not say anything. Get out of my sight now. If my brothers see you, the situation will be bad. hurry up and go.

Yui: Okay, I'll go. Thank you for not telling your brothers.

Subaru: Tch...

_Yui picks up her bag from the floor and quickly runs away from Subaru towards the school library.

*TIMESKIP*

*Tick ​​tock* *tick tock*

Yui: (I think studying is enough for today. I would like to read one of Namika-san's books again before returning home)

*flip* *flip*

Yui: Oh, I love this part. If I ever reach freedom, I will fly with all my hopes and dreams. I ......

??? : I will fly to reach the top. I will build a new world. Where people are happy and love is always seen.

Yui: .....!

??? : Oh, I'm sorry. I didn't want to scare you. I lost my self-control for a moment and read this poem out loud. Because I heard that you are also reading the same poem.

Yui: I apologize. But who are you?

??? : Oh, I am very rude. Sorry for not introducing myself earlier. I am Namichi Riko. Third year student. I think you are a second year student. Right?

Yui: Yes. I am Komori Yui. I am a second year student.

Riko: It's a pleasure to meet you, Komori-san. Can I call you Yui-san?

Yui: Yes, there is no problem.

Riko: Thank you. You can also call me Riko.

Yui: Thank you Riko-san. You were reciting Namika-san's poems with me. Are you interested in Namika-san's books?

Riko: Of course. Namika-San is my favorite poet. I read all her books and even memorized most of her poems.

Yui: Oh really? It is wonderful.

Riko: That's right. Namika-San is a wonderful poet. Her poems give me a sense of life. Whenever I read her books, I feel relaxed. Sometimes I feel like I can see her poems in the real world. She always expresses the feeling of love in the best way.

Yui: It's wonderful that you read all of Namika-san's books. I only read two of her books. But I love her poems. I would like to read more about her.

Riko: I'm glad to see one of Namika-san's fans. Hey Yui-San Would you like me to lend you one of my books? You can borrow Namika-san's books from me and read them.

Yui: Really? Can you lend me Riko-san?

Riko: Of course I can. I will be very happy to lend you my book. I will bring it to you right now. Wait a few moments.

_Riko rushes out of the library and heads towards his class.

*TIMESKIP *

_Riko walks into the library carrying his bag in his right hand and walks towards Yui. He takes out a book from his bag and presents it to Yui.

Riko: Come on, Yui-san. This is one of Namika-San's best books. I suggest you to read this book.

Yui: Wow. Thank you very much, Riko-san. You are very kind to lend me your book.

Riko: Please. I did not do anything special. I'm always happy to do a tiny help to my friends. And even now, I am very happy that one of Namika-san's fans has the opportunity to read more books about her.

Yui: Fufu ..... Thank you again, you are very kind.

*Ding dong* *ding dong*

Yui: Oh, it was the sound of the bell. I have to come back faster.

Riko: Yui-san? I wanted to ask you if you don't mind, would you like to go home together? We can walk down the street and talk more about Namika-san's poems.

Yui: Ummmm..... Thank you. I would really like to walk together, but I... (I can't do that. If Ruki-kun finds out, he might get angry and punish me again. But I can't tell him the truth. What should I say?) Honestly. Riko-san I.....I........

Riko: Yui-san. Is there a problem with you?

Yui: No, no problem. Honestly, today is not the right time. And that someone is waiting for me. Maybe we can walk together another day.

Riko: I understand. I'm sorry for making a stupid request. I am really sorry.

Yui: No, there is no problem.

Riko: But when I see someone who likes Namika-san's poems like me, I get excited. Fufu... I just hope I didn't act stupid. It's really embarrassing.

Yui: It's not like that. I am also very interested in Namika-san's poems and I would be happy to talk more about it. Only today I am in a hurry. Maybe tomorrow we can meet again in the library.

Riko: Yes, this is great. I will wait for you, Komori-san. And I am very happy to meet you. I hope you have a good day .

Yui: Thank you Riko-san. I hope you have a good day too.

_Yui hurriedly picks up her bag and quickly leaves the library. A lot of worrying things happened today. First meeting with Subaru and now a third year boy. All of these issues cause Yui to worry more. She does not know how to hide this issue. If she shares these issues with Ruki, how will he react? These thoughts made Yui refrain from telling Ruki about this.

*TIMESKIP *

The starry night is like a lake full of fish. Stars are fishes that swim in the heart of the sky to travel for a beautiful dream and make people's dreams come true. The night sky is like a dream memory. A memory that the blonde girl remembers and sings her lullaby every day to dream of freedom again.

_Yui goes to the bed and turns off the light in her room.

Yui: Pwah...... (I stayed up late today to read Riko-san's book. He was right. Reading Namika-san's poems makes one feel free.)

_Yui tries to close her eyes and go to a sweet sleep. But the bright moonlight catches her attention. With a short glance, she looks at the window of her room, which is half open. Yui gets up from the bed and goes to the window to better watch the bright moonlight.

Yui: Every day when I look at the sky, I realize how beautiful you are. You are so bright I want to be so close to you that I can watch the sky with you and the stars. Just like my lullaby.

_Yui stares into the moonlight with bright eyes. A tear drops from her eye and she slowly closes her eyes and joins her hands together as a sign of prayer and closes her fingers together.

Yui: My beautiful moon, please accept this prayer from me..... Lala lala lala lala. Lala lala lala beautiful moon. I sing with you with this lullaby. Take me to the sky to touch your blue heart again. lala lala lala.....

Yui continues to sing a lullaby. Without knowing, someone is hiding behind the door of her room. He leans against the wall and listens to the blonde girl's lullaby. There is something in this lullaby that soothes his heart. Ruki doesn't know why but he is captivated by Yui's lullaby. He wants to listen to this lullaby every night. Every night and every night forever.

Yui continues to sing a lullaby regardless of the fact that the devil has surrounded her. Her beautiful voice reaches the sky with the breeze. The stars are always shining and they are twinkling. As if the moon heard her lullaby and accepted her prayer. But alas, the moon cannot reach her. To hug her and take her to the bright sky so that Yui can finally touch the heart of the sky.

Yui: Lala lala, lala lala..........

_Yui opens her eyes and looks at the sky again. She smiles when she sees the twinkling of the stars.

Yui: Fufu ..... Thank you for listening to my wish. I am so lonely. Maybe I can explain my dreams to you. After all, you are not making fun of me. Or you will not punish me for wishing for freedom. Or you won't whip me for an inadvertent mistake. Or you don't even blame me for being a dreamer.

_Tears flowed from Yui's bright eyes while talking to the moon. She tried very hard. She didn't want to cry, but her fate and life made her unable to stop her tears.

Yui: I want him to talk to me more. Please, please, let me say more than I wish. Please allow me to say more about my longing. Please let me cry next to you. Please don't punish me. don't beat me don't make fun of me Please just listen to me. I want to talk to you.

_Yui wipes her tears and stares at the moonlight again. That's beautiful. More beautiful than anything else. With a bitter smile, she closes the window of her room and goes to bed. Yui hugs herself with her thin arms to escape this dark nightmare and slowly falls asleep.

*TIMESKIP *

Ruki heard everything. He heard Yui's wishes. He heard her lullaby and her talk with the moon. This shouldn't have happened, but Ruki is attracted to a heavenly angel. The devil who was imprisoned in the heart of darkness wants to be freed from the dark heart and join his beautiful angel in the sky.

Ruki: This is ridiculous.

_Ruki goes to his bed and sits on the bed.

* Creak *

Ruki: These feelings are ridiculous. I am getting insane.

_Ruki holds his head in his hands and stares at the ground.

Ruki: No. She is not mine. I can't keep Eve for myself forever. She should go back to the real Adam. And I can't be Adam. I should not depend on Eve.

_Ruki gets up from the bed and moves towards the window of his room. The window of Ruki's room is open and the breeze moves Ruki's hair.

Ruki: No. Love is ridiculous. I am not going to depend on anyone. Neither Eve nor anyone else. Because love is not true.

_Ruki looks at his hand and fists it hard.

Ruki: If love is not real, then what are these ridiculous feelings? Why do I want to keep her by my side? Why do I like to listen to her words? Why do I like to hear her lullaby every night?

_The glow of the moonlight catches Ruki's attention. Ruki looks at the sky. The moon is very bright and the stars are twinkling on it. Ruki smiles and turns his head towards the moon.

Ruki: She was right. You are very beautiful. And probably you are not a devil like me and you listen to her words. I don't know why but I feel you are very lucky to hear her lullaby every night.

_Ruki goes back to his bed and sits on the bed.

* Creak *

Ruki: Adam will wake up soon and Eve will return to Eden. This is fate. It cannot be stopped.

_Ruki slowly lays down on his bed and drifts off to a sweet sleep thinking about his angel's lullaby. This lullaby is very familiar to him. Remembering a beautiful and painful life. A reminder of a memory that captured him in a dark heart.

*TIMESKIP *

_Yui walks down the school corridor and heads towards the library.

Yui: (Every moment, every minute and every hour, I feel that our hearts are getting further apart. I would like to know him better. But he won't let me. He never listens to me. He doesn't even want to see me.......)

_Yui enters the library and sees Riko reading Namika-san's poetry book. Riko, noticing Yui's presence, smiles at her.

Riko: Welcome, Komori-san. I was waiting for you.

Yui: Thank you Riko-san.

_Yui goes to Riko and sits next to him and they continue to read the book together.

Yui: (But despite all these things, I know that he is not a devil. I know that there is still light in his heart. I want to know this person better. I want to pull him out from the depths of the dark heart.)

Riko: Yui-san. Did you read the book I gave you? What do you think about it?

Yui: Oh yes. I read the book. Honestly, you were right. Reading this book really gives a feeling of freedom.

_Riko smiles sweetly at Yui.

Riko: I'm glad to hear that, Yui-san.

_Riko and Yui continue reading the book.

monologue

Every time he calls me, another voice echoes in my ears.

A familiar voice calling me to him.

Riko-san is very kind.

But even the moments when I am with him, my mind and heart are with Ruki-kun.

Ruki-kun is not like Riko-san at all.

But why is my heart searching for him?

This feeling of mine every day makes me cry in my loneliness with an unfamiliar feeling.

I want to be with him to know him.

But he turns away from me.

Please, Ruki-kun, listen to my heart.

<– [ Chapter 04 ] [ Chapter 06 ] –>

[dialovers-translations]

Diabolik Lovers LOST EDEN ー Azusa Dark [08]

ー The scene starts in the forest

Kino: ーー So?

Do you need my help? Or not?

Azusa: ...I don’t. ...I’ll fix it myself somehow.

Kino: I see. Gotcha.

Azusa: I’m sorry. I...I have trouble genuinely accepting help from others like this...

I do appreciate it, of course...But...

( I can’t help but feel incredibly guilty somewhere deep inside my heart... )

( Because I believe that a weak, powerless Vampire such as myself...is not deserving of any help... )

Kino: ...Azusa?

Azusa: ...It’s nothing. Anyway, I’m in a hurry.

I’ll get going now, okay? I have to look for Ruki...

ー Azusa starts walking away

Kino: ...Haah.

You know. Life must be rough for you, no?

Azusa: Eh...?

Kino: I mean, it seems like you’re reluctant to ask people favors or rely on them for help.

I just think that’s kind of a shame. I’m the type of guy who will use anyone and anything at my disposal.

Azusa: ...

Kino: If you keep being like that, the whole world will walk right over you.

Wouldn’t you grow sick of such a life? You’d only make it harder on yourself. 

Azusa: ...It’s fine. That’s just who I am.

I don’t mind, so...

Kino: Hmm, I see.

But you know, even if you’re okay with it, does he feel the same as well?

Azusa: Are you...talking about Yui-san...?

Kino-san...How come you know about Eve...?

I can understand you’ve heard of us brothers before but how...?

Kino: ...Haah. Are you suspecting me of something? That’s kind of uncomfortable.

All four of you brothers and that girl are pretty famous down here in the Demon World, so it only makes sense for me to know about you, no?

Your girlfriend in particular is pretty much a VIP at this point. She’s even called ‘Eve’.

Azusa: But...What about it? I don’t think my issues and how Eve feels about it are related in any way...?

Kino: No, no, they definitely are!

It could be that she’s having to force herself to adjust to you.

Azusa: Adjust...?

Kino: From what I’ve heard, your family has to be pretty careful with money?

On top of that, she’s stuck with a boyfriend who willingly puts himself in a disadvantaged position.

I can’t help but wonder if she’s truly happy that way?

Even though if she wanted, she could have so much better of a life than she has right now with you...

Azusa: ...That’s...

Kino: For example, she could live a life full of luxury, allowing her to doll up with pretty clothes and accessoiries...

She’d be able to do all those things which girls love to her heart’s content.

Hey, Azusa. How do you think she feels about her current life?

Azusa: ...Ugh...

...I can’t answer that question. I’m not Eve after all...

Kino: Ahaha! I guess that’s true. 

Oh well, whatever. You were going to handle this by yourself, no?

We’ll get going then too. ーー Best of luck!

ー Kino leaves with his Ghouls

Azusa: ...

( Will Eve truly be happy if things stay the same, huh...? )

( I can’t deny that I won’t be able to make you feel like a Princess with our current lifestyle... )

...

( ...Hey, Yui-san. )

( Do you actually also wish to live a luxurious life deep down...? )

ー The scene shifts to the Big Hall at Eden

Yui: ...Phew.

( I think I’ll just wait until Azusa-kun returns after all. )

( If nobody’s waiting for him when he gets back...I’m sure he’ll be sad. )

...Pwaah...

( But...The fatigue is kicking in... )

ー Ruki enters the hall

Ruki: So this is where you’ve been.

Yui: Ah, Ruki-kun...

Ruki: Don’t tell me you’re going to wait here until Azusa returns?

Yui: Y-Yeah.

Ruki: ...

Go back to your room and rest up. You’re tired, aren’t you?

Selection

→ I guess that’s true

Yui: I guess I am...

But I’ll try waiting a little longer. I can’t help but be worried about Azusa-kun after all.

I promise I’ll go back to my room if I get the feeling that he’s really not coming home yet...

→ I’m okay (❦)

Yui: I can handle it.

Azusa-kun is trying his hardest by himself, so I can’t be the only one resting.

Ruki: ...I understand. I’ll leave this up to you.

Drink this and wait here.

*Thud*

Yui: Is this coffee...?

Ruki: Yes. I set some for myself earlier, but I think it’ll help you fight off the drowsiness.

Yui: T-Thank you, Ruki-kun!

Ruki: I’m going back to my room, but come to me as soon as something happens. Okay?

Yui: Yes. Thank you so much, really.

ー Ruki leaves

Yui: ...Nn...

*Rustle*

Yui: ( My head does feel a little more clear... )

( I don’t know how long it’ll take, but I’ll try my best to wait. )

*TIMESKIP*

ー Somebody enters the Castle

*Thud*

???: ...

...You waited for me...

Yui: ( ...Huh? Did I doze off at some point...? )

( Ruki-kun was so kind to give me his coffee too... )

( ...Somebody is stroking my head...? )

( Who could it be...? But it feels nice... )

???: ...I’m sorry, Yui-san.

Yui: ( Uu... )

ー Yui opens her eyes

Yui: Azusa-kun...?

Azusa: Ah...My bad. I woke you up, didn’t I...?

Yui: ( He doesn’t seem to be bleeding, but he looks utterly worn out. )

...Are you injured? Everyting alright...?

( Did he did attacked by the Vibora perhaps, just like Ruki-kun assumed...? )

Azusa: Don’t worry. I’m not hurt...

A lot...of things happened though. But I’m alive and well.

Yui: ーー Azusa-kun!

ー She embraces him

*Rustle*

Azusa: ...What’s wrong? Hugging me out of nowhere...

Yui: I’m sorry...I’m just so happy to see you again...

Azusa: ....I see. But I’m the one who should apologize.

You were all counting on me...but I failed...

Yui: No, it’s fine. I’m just happy that you came back unscathed...

That’s all what matters right now...

Azusa: ...Thank you.

ー She steps back

*Rustle rustle*

Yui: ...We have to patch you up. I’ll run you a bath as well, so wait here.

...Ah, right.

A little late but...Welcome back, Azusa-kun.

Azusa: Yeah...I’m back.

Monologue

‘I wouldn’t want to disrupt everyone’s slumber...’

Out of respect for Azusa-kun’s decision, we decided to wait till tomorrow to let the other’s know about his return,

and headed back to our room to rest for now. 

Seems like Azusa-kun had actually wandered off onto Vibora territory after leaving Eden,

which is where he was ambushed. 

Since he already wasted quite a bit of time on simply getting himself out of this sticky situation,

he gave up on the task entrusted to him and came back,

that is what he told me with a regretful expression on his face.

His right hand holding onto mine,

trembled ever so slightly. He must have been terrified all by himself. 

When I tightly squeeze back, 

Azusa-kun smiles (微笑んで) gently at me. 

HIs scent and touch all feel incredibly comforting (心地よくて). 

Before I had noticed, I had naturally drifted off to sleep. 

ーー TO BE CONTINUED ーー

[tacticaldiary]

Having a relationship w/ Oikawa based on a bet and the gf heard it when the seijoh 4 talked about it making oikawa panicked when he knows his gf heard it.. ahh angst to fluff? Hehe thank youuuu

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This was fun to write. :)

Betting on You

Pairing: Reader x Oikawa Tooru

Genre: Hurt/Comfort, Angst, a lil fluff

He couldn’t lose her, anyone but her. He shouldn’t have accepted the bet. Needless to say, Oikawa Tooru has a lot of regrets right now. Opening up and being vulnerable to his partner was thankfully not one of them, even if it had ended up with them crying in each others arms. 

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Mumbling incoherently, Y/N reaches out next to her in the bed, trying to find the warm body that usually occupied the space next her. Frowning when she feels only the bedsheets, she opens her eyes and squints. There’s no one next to her. 

“Tooru?” she mutters softly, yawning and sitting up. He was always there, clinging to her, holding her close. Strange. She decides to wait for him, wanting his warmth to fall asleep with. The guy was like a living heater, which was useful during cold winter nights like this one. 

Twenty minutes pass and he still doesn’t come back. Furrowing her eyebrows, Y/N sighs and pulls herself to the edge of the bed, slipping on a pair of slippers. She shivers a little when the cold air hits her skin, but continues slowly towards the door to their shared bedroom. Opening it with a quiet creak, she immediately hears voices. A little confused, she quietly keeps walking, stopping at the doorway to the living room. 

She tilts her head in confusion when she sees Tooru laying on the couch, tapping away at his phone. It appears he’s on a voice call on speaker. 

“Almost three months.”

“Honestly, none of us expected you to last this long.”

Her eyes widen as she hears familiar voices. Matsukawa and Hanamaki?

“You’re still keeping him to that?” Iwaizumi? What were they doing this late at night? The clock on the wall tells her it’s 2 in the morning. 

“Obviously. I thought the money was pretty much guaranteed.”

“Can you blame us? He’s never kept someone around for more than a month.”

“Shut up.” Tooru's quiet voice reaches her ears. What money? What was going on?

“You’re not going to win.” comes Iwaizumi’s annoyed voice. “It’s Y/N.”

“Yeah, but before her it was also Mika-Chan and Yui-Chan and Hina-Chan and Aiko-Chan and-”

“Alright, I get it. Iwa-Chan’s the only one who’s on my side.” he pouts, cutting off Hanamaki’s annoying high-pitched imitation of him. 

“We still don’t know why. You’re obviously going to lose the bet. It’s inevitable.” Matsukawa claim confidently

...Bet?

“I’ll win in a few days, if you haven’t noticed. Nothing’s gonna happen in a few days.” Tooru rolls his eyes.

“And then you’ll dump her?”

Y/N suddenly feels cold, and it has nothing to do with the weather. Dump her? Bet? WHat was going on? Her mind was racing. Tooru hadn’t indicated that he was unhappy, or wanted to break up. He was always telling her how much he loved her. Was he lying? She felt a little sick at the thought.

“Yeah, the bet was to keep someone around for more than three months. You’ll be done in a few days. What’re you gonna do then?”

What?

“A bet?” she says aloud, her voice hollow with shock.

Tooru jumps and drops his phone, quickly turning around to see his girlfriend looking at him in horror. 

“Y-Y/N-Chan...” he scrambles to his feet and ends the call, wondering how much she had heard. “I thought you were asleep?” he quickly moves towards her, reaching out to touch her shoulder. He freezes when she backs away, shaking her head in disbelief. 

“A bet, Tooru? A bet?” 

“What-? Wait, Y/N...it’s not what you think-”

“Keep me around? You were dating me for a...bet?” her voice starts shaking a little, as she remembers how mere hours ago, he was holding her, assuring her how much he loved her.

“No! I-”

“Am I a game to you? A bet? Are you fucking kidding me?” She nearly laughs, because of course he would only date her for a bet. Of course. 

He frantically shakes his head, reaching out for her again, but thinking better of it when he glares at him with eyes full of unshed tears. His eyes widened. This wasn't supposed to happen. It wasn’t supposed to go like this. “Y/N-Chan, listen to me, please, let me explain.” he sounds panicked. 

She clenches her jaw. “I should have seen this coming. Of course the Oikawa Tooru wouldn’t go out with someone like me.” She lets out a bitter chuckle at his stunned expression. Before he can interrupt, she pushes on. “Why would you, when you have girls, so much more perfect than me, throwing themselves at your feet all the time?”

“Y/N-” he’s trying desperately to get a word in, wincing when she raises her voice to overpower his. 

“Mika-Chan and Yui-Chan and Hina-Chan.” she imitates, recalling the phone call. Tears she’s tried to keep at bay finally start trickling down and Oikawa’s heart twists painfully, knowing that he was the one who caused it. “Obviously, the only reason you’d consider me was because of a bet, a fucking bet, Tooru.” she cries out angrily. 

“Y/N-Chan, listen to me.” he says seriously, grabbing her shoulder and looking her in the eyes. “I love you. I’ve loved you since the beginning. The bet means nothing to me.”

Her next word feel like a punch to the gut. 

“Bullshit.” she whispers, before repeating herself louder. “Utter bullshit. You never loved me.”

“I did, I do!” he insists. 

“If you did, it wouldn’t have taken a bet for you to ask me out!” she roughly shoves his hands off her. Taking a deep breath, forcing herself to ignore his hurt look. “It’s my fault too, isn’t it? I should’ve known better than to accept dating the Oikawa Tooru, the school heartthrob, notorious for playing around.” her words are laced with venom and self-pity. “There’s always gonna be someone better. Someone prettier, skinner, funnier. I was stupid for thinking you would ever fall for me.” All her insecurities come spilling out, accumulated from months of dating him, enduring the comments whispered under the breath by jealous students, girls openly flirting with her boyfriend. She was stupid to think she would ever be enough.

Pushing past him, wiping her sleeves across her eyes, she storms back into the bedroom, Oikawa at her heels behind her. She grabs her pillow and a blanket, turning back around and moving to the couch in the living room. She does her best to ignore her boyfriend's desperate attempts to gain her attention, begging her to give him a chance to explain. She sets up the items and lays on the couch, pulling the blanket to her chin and turning to face the back of the couch.

She refused to sleep anywhere near him. When he doesn’t stop talking she says coldly:

“Leave me alone. I want nothing to do with you.”

“No.”

She pauses. “No?”

“Not until you hear me out.” He crosses his arms.

“I’ve heard enough.”

“It’s a misunderstanding. If you’d just let me explain-”

“I’ll be out of your hair tomorrow.”

He was dreading that. He really does love her, so fucking much. He doesn't want to lose her.

“Y/N-”

“I’m going to sleep.” She had never spoken to him in that tone before.

She hears a sigh after a few moments of silence, in which he realises that she was going to be stubborn till the end. Y/N hears him walk away and she buries her face in the blanket, silently crying to herself. She freezes when she hears the bedroom door close with a ‘click’ and footsteps approaching her. She turns around a little, to see Oikawa sitting at the foot of the couch with his own blanket and pillow. He doesn’t look at her, focusing on fluffing his pillow and pulling his thicker, warmer quilt over himself. He was equally as stubborn and wasn’t going to leave her alone like this.

She scoffs and settles back down again, still crying. If he notices, he doesn’t comment on it. The two lay in silence for a good thirty minutes. Y/N had stopped crying, but was still awake because how the hell was she supposed to fall asleep after what she had learnt? 

She’s startled when she suddenly hears Oikawa’s soft voice. “I love you, you know? I really do. Ever since I saw you in Chemistry last year. You caught my eye so quickly, and I flirted with you for weeks before you got the hint.” he laughs breathily. “You didn’t want my attention like everyone else, and I was curious. It felt different to be the one trying to get someone else’s attention.” he takes a deep breath, and she realises with a start that she’s never heard him this vulnerable. He probably thinks she’s asleep. 

“I was planning to ask you out before and I told the others and they laughed at me.” he frowns at the memory. “The assholes thought I was kidding, that I wasn’t serious. Iwa-Chan was the only one who took it seriously. I don’t blame them, cause I’d only ever dated for fun before.” He breathes in deeply again, steadying his voice and Y/N’s eyes widen when she realizes he’s holding back tears. 

“So when they bet that I couldn't last more than 3 months with you, I agreed, but only because I was going to ask you out anyway, and I intended on staying as long as I could. As long as you’d let me stay by your side.” He lets out a sad, watery chuckle, and Y/N feels her stomach drop. She never wanted to hear that sound from him again.

“I...shit, I don’t want to lose you. I can’t. You’re the only one for me. I don’t think I’ll ever stop loving you.” A strangled, muffled sob, reaches her ears, and it takes all of her willpower to remain still. 

“I’m serious about you...about us. You’re not a game, you never were. I just wanted to be with you. I want to be able to hold you again.” another muffled cry, as he buries his face in his hands. He’d never willingly let anyone see himself like this, not even Y/N. He was glad she was asleep. 

“I’m sorry. I’m so fucking sorry, princess.” he stays where he is, sitting up leaning back on the couch, calming himself down, letting out soft hiccups every now and then. 

Y/N is wide awake, thinking over his words. They had to be genuine, right? He had no idea she was awake. He had sounded so...real and vulnerable, nothing like the strong façade he usually put up in front of others. Taking her chances, she discreetly moves, eyes widening when she sees the state he’s in. 

One of his hands is over his mouth, muffling his small sobs, Y/N wants to cry as she realises it’s probably so he doesn’t wake her up. His other hand is clenched tightly in his brown hair, his knees drawn to his chest. His face was blotchy and red and wet with tears. She’s never seen him like this. She moves and he doesn’t notice. 

Sitting directly behind him, she gently grabs the hand in his hair, to which he nearly jumps out of his skin. Y/N would usually laugh at the reaction, if not for the way he was looking up at her. She eases his hand out of his hair and holds it, tugging him up to the couch. He hesitates, before climbing up, sitting on the cushion next to her. 

“You-” his voice wavers, and he tries again. “You were awake?”

She nods, glancing at their connected hands, before staring at the ground. She hears his sharply take in a breath. 

“Y/N...love, I meant it. I meant every word, I swear.” 

“We’ll talk tomorrow.” she mumbles, tugging on his hand again, until they're both laying on the couch. She reaches over and grabs Oikawa’s quilt and pulls it on the two of them. She relaxes against him when his arms automatically wind around her waist and he buries his face in her hair, pressing small kisses on her. Each was an unspoken apology. 

She knows he’s crying when she feels the tears hit her skin. 

He knows she’s crying when he can feel her shaky, irregular breaths.

They lay there, eventually falling asleep clutching each other tightly, both of them hurting on the inside. They would have to have a serious talk tomorrow, but both had a blooming hope that they would pull through. 

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⤷ chapter twenty three: seesaw

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Eerie. If there was one word to describe your current situation with Atsumu, that would exactly be the perfect term for it. As you sat across one another in a booth in a restaurant that Osamu apparently found for him (he says it’s the “best place” for the both of you to properly make up, you called it the “Osamu utters another bullshit” place), you find yourself unequipped of words to tell him, something you found odd considering you never had any dull or awkward moment with him. Well, at least not until our feelings got in the way, you thought, letting out a quiet sigh as you poked your food with the fork, completely aware of the stare that the blonde holds on you.

He fidgets in his seat, opening and closing his mouth as he tries to form his words because what else can he say aside from apologies (that he thinks are probably useless given that right after saying sorry, he finds another way to hurt you)? He doesn’t really have any other choice though so he takes a deep breath and begins his sentence, “YN, I’m really so-”

“Don’t even think about finishing that sentence or I might just stab you with this,” you cut him off, waving the fork you were holding in his face, snickering at his wide eyes that was accompanied by a large gulp. You put it down and place your chin on your hand, leaning your head towards it as you stared him down (more like glare, in his perspective), “Just wanna let you know, this will be the last apology I’ll ever get and accept.”

Observing the confusion that became more and more evident in his face, you continue, “Because if you hurt me one more time, then that’s it. I’m really gonna cut off my ties with you because that just proves to me that everything about this,” you gesture towards you and him, “is not meant to be… as friends.”

Not even as soulmates. In a pathetic attempt to make everything seem like it’s fine, you grab the glass that was right by your arm; the harsh flow of cold water down your throat is not even close to beating the suffocation of the truth that dawned upon you. How ironic - everything is just a cycle that keeps on repeating over and over again yet for some reason, the agony remains all the same. It never gets less and if anything, becomes more to the point that it just torments you every single moment of your breath. Always so pathetic, YN, always.

“YN…” he trails off but you hold your hand up, letting him know that you were not yet finished.

“So, make sure that this is the last. You know we both deserve so much more than a friendship that keeps on pulling and pushing us. We weren’t like this before, Atsumu,” you state as a matter of fact, sadly smiling as he bowed his head down, “what happened to us?”

Deep down, you already knew the answer to your question. No matter how much you wanted to deny it, deny her entire existence, you can’t. Because that would mean denying Atsumu and the happiness he desires. Yet at the same time, you just can’t let go of him. 

“Yui happened,” he whispers, “I just… it’s inexcusable, the way I kept on pushing ya aside and hurting ya because of her… but I just… I thought she was her yanno? For as long as I can remember, I’ve always wanted to meet my soulmate and Yui was just so bright and nice and I guess I got this hope in me that maybe she’s her… but she wasn’t and it’s so frustrating.” 

The disappointment and sadness in his face squeezed your heart that thumped against your chest, the longingness that had always resided within you struggling to get out and give him a hug. As he spilled his heart out to you, you couldn’t help the guilt that began spreading in your mind, he wasn’t the coward; you were. 

“It feels so frustrating to be so clueless every single time. I guess that’s why I took it out on ya, because I felt somewhat jealous that ya can see the threads and I can’t and for the rest of my life, I’ll be lost, wondering who my true soulmate is. And the fact that yer leaving me soon too… everything’s just so messy inside me, yanno? So I’m sorry for that, YN. I’m not excusing myself from the pain nor am I dismissing yer feelings but I hope ya understand where I’m coming from too,” he quietly speaks, fiddling with his fingers.

“Atsumu… I-”

“I said that but YN, I think I’m done waiting for my soulmate. I… I don’t want to seem selfish but… it has been too long of waiting… I’ve always tried to find them myself even though I don’t have abilities like yours. Thinking about it now, maybe they just don’t want to be found? Because if they did know me, wouldn’t they have told me right at the moment they met me? So, can’t you just cut off my thread please?”

And right at that moment, you felt your heart plummet down to the deepest and darkest abyss of your insides. He’s given up and you still can’t bring yourself to tell him the truth. I don’t want to give you up, please, not yet… You want to beg him; to just give you a little bit more time, a little bit more courage, a little bit more attention in hopes that he’ll see. Please, just look at me, look at me and you’ll find what you’ve been looking for, Tsum. 

But the desperation in his face reels you back to the reality that he doesn’t want you; he wants some other girl, someone who can never be you and you find your heart being engulfed with bitterness so you scoff and stand up, “This bullshit again? You’re making me lose my appetite and I am not about to have this conversation with you, Miya Atsumu. ”

He gapes at you, obviously surprised with the sudden change of mood. It was already going good a while ago but perhaps, it was the calm before the storm, ready to ruin the both of you, “YN! Wait up! Stop! Come back here!” 

He’s able to grab your wrist as soon as you get out of the restaurant, “Hey! Come on, I’m pretty sure the aftermath wouldn’t be that bad! Ya don’t need to be so uptight,” he pants. He never knew you can run that fast. But that’s totally not important at the moment because he can literally see steam coming out of your ears as you took a deep breath and turned around, eyebrows furrowed in anger.

“Uptight?! I’m in no way being uptight right now, Miya Atsumu! What you’re asking is… is dumb… outrageous… or nonsensical… AND dangerous!” you screamed, stuttering out of disbelief as the lad only looked at you with amusement. He chuckled; as much as he didn’t want to, he found your little tantrum cute. Your head whipped once again to his direction upon hearing his laugh, “you’re laughing?! Do you think asking me to cut off your thread is funny? You’re fucking ridiculous! Do you even know the consequences? Do you have no care for your soulmate?”

The grin leaves his face as he watches your eyes start to slowly but surely well up with tears, “Did you invite me just for this? Is this all you think our friendship is for? Jokes? Or the fact that I’m a fucking Moira who can fix your soulmate issues? I’m supposed to be your best friend before anything else, am I not?”

“Wait, no, YN… you know that’s not-”

“Because if you do think that way, you wouldn’t have thought about this in the first place because you’d know how much I despise cutting someone’s thread - have you even tried to think of what your soulmate will think? What would happen if she finds her thread cut off? You think she’d laugh too? She’ll just wake up one day with her thread being black, not even knowing what hap-”

“But she’s not here!” he screams, head down before he looked up, rage swimming in his eyes that even up to now, you still love, “She’s not here. And you’ve never even tried helping me find her so what makes you think you have a say on whether or not I should give up on meeting her? I’ve always asked for your help, didn’t I? But what? Every single fucking time, you reject the idea of me meeting her like it’s a plaque that will kill you.”

That’s because she’s always been here, I’ve always been here, idiot… is what you want to say but the painful truth of his words stopped you from retaliating further.

“She can find a new soulmate too! Y/N… please, I’m 100% serious about wanting to do this,” by now, any joke and teasing were gone from his voice as he begged the girl in front of him. But you were even more stubborn than him so you shook your head and crossed your arms, remaining firm on your stand.

“No. Stop being selfish, Tsum. It’s not always about your ‘needs’ and ‘wants.’ Breaking the bond… is something we mustn’t do, as much as possible. You don’t want to do anything you’ll regret; I won’t let you,” you whispered, clutching sides of your skirt. Atsumu didn’t know what happened to him after that or why he stupidly chose to open his mouth again.

“You’re the one who’s being a selfish bitch, Y/N. Just because ya can’t find your soulmate and yer happiness, doesn’t mean we can’t too. You’re so needy that you can’t let us be happy without ya. I wonder what the gods thought when they gave you that power? Stupid gods, they can’t even do one thing right; giving it to a coward and a selfish bitch who can’t even cut her best friend’s thread for the sake of his happiness…” it was the crestfallen look plastered on your face that made him stop as soon as he saw it. Realization dawned upon him and immediately, he tried reaching out to you with his hand. 

Ah, I give up.

“It’s okay…” you choked, pulling back from him and taking a deep breath, no longer giving any effort to stop the tears that now freely flowed down your cheeks, “I understand. I’m sorry that I care for you then.”

He opens his mouth, ready to say yet another apology but he knows… he knows it was futile now. He watches you as you hastily wipe your cheeks from any tear stain but they kept on coming so you felt yourself get frustrated even more. Stop being so pathetic for once, YN, for god’s sake!

“You know, Atsumu? I always feel like we’re in a seesaw that just never stays balanced. It’s either one of us is on the top while the other’s down and it just… gets so fucking tiring trying to understand you.” You took a deep breath, pursing your lips as you finally felt the courage within you. It’s a little bit late for it to come, isn’t it?

“You want to know why I never told you about my soulmate’ Because I’ve found him a long fucking time ago. But he can’t even be honest to himself that he at least feels something for me. He chooses to be blind with all the possibilities we could have if he just chooses to cross the line, even for just a little bit… right? Cause be fucking honest, Atsumu, it doesn’t even matter if I told you or not. Either way, you’re never gonna love me the same way I’ve always loved you. It’s quite funny, honestly, I’ve never told you because I wanted you to love me, not because I’m your soulmate but because I was YN. But I never expected that it would be the very reason why I can’t have you… because I’m just YN.” You let out what seems like a laugh but the waver in your voice failed to deliver that.

“... So don’t tell me I’m needy and selfish because if I were, I would’ve told you the moment I met you that it was you. But I didn’t want to lose you, so I thought it was okay. I can deal with the pain if it meant I can keep you beside me and not risk anything…” you trail off, “... but I’m just… I’m done pretending I can keep being on this playground with you.”

You took out the red scissors that you’ve loathed so much, nearing it to your threads as he stayed still in disbelief of everything that has been revealed to him seconds ago, “I love you, Tsum..... I only wish for you to be happy so… don’t ever regret this, okay?”

Atsumu looks at you and at that moment, he just knows… that for the rest of his life, he’ll remember the broken smile you gave him as you finally cut the thread that has connected you to him for the past years.

Don’t regret anything, Tsum…

“Because I won’t.”

I won’t even remember a single thing about you.

note. ah… at last we have come to the beginning of the end. two words from me to you: i’m sorry.

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Hurting their best friend/crush w/ Oikawa and Terushima

Request: Oikawa and Terushima the playboy squad y’know, hurting their female best friend and manager with whom they have been in love with for the longest time but are too afraid to make a move. It ends in fluff of course but like maybe their friends are like you messed up man and its a really big fight. thank you. - anonymous 

Playboy squad indeed. I feel like all three of them but mostly Oikawa got their hearts obliterated and that’s why they have adopted that fuckboy persona. These boys just need some real love even though one of them is a rat. Love ya.💖💖💖

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Oikawa Tooru

-It had  been a hard week. 

-Actually a hard year. 

-Oikawa was focused almost solely on volleyball, over doing it many times while you were studying like a maniac.

-Being their manager helped you loosen up.

-Plus it gave you the chance to be with your friend group.

-You had noticed how Oikawa seemed to brush off many of your attempts to hang out, sometimes giving you an excuse to why he couldn’t make while other times ditching you. 

-He hadn’t ditched you many times but it still hurt.

-Knowing that your best friend forgot almost completely of your existence. 

-You had drifted apart the last few months and the only one who noticed apart from you was Iwaizumi. 

-He had seen how he wouldn’t find Oikawa beside you when he came to your lunch table or how you weren’t Oikawa’s first call anymore after a game. 

-It bothered him too. 

-Seeing his two best friends separate like that.

-And Iwa knew you tried to prevent it, he gave you advice on the matter as well.

 -But Oikawa seemed oblivious to the gap that was forming and kept on ignoring you, more and more as time went on. 

-The final straw came when he wouldn’t answer your calls one Saturday evening. 

-It was one of those rare occasions when he had agreed to spend some one on one time with you and you were really excited. 

-You hadn’t seen your best friend for weeks, apart from some small conversations during practice.

-You had been waiting for an hour, the movie you had picked already had started and was now in the second act. 

-If this had happened a few months ago you would have let it slide, made a comment in your group chat and leave it at that but not this time. 

-He had ditched you one too many times and you were sick of it. 

-Making your way to the gym, you were taken aback by the lack of sound coming from inside. 

-You expected to be met with the sound of balls slamming on the opposite wall but nothing, the slamming was replaced by female giggles and a really familiar voice.

-Opening the door slightly you found your best friend being pinned to the court’s floor by one of his fans, her giggles bouncing off the walls as she kissed him. 

-Without a word you left, letting the door slam shut behind you as you walked out of school grounds and straight home. 

-It hurt like hell and you weren’t able to get that image of him pinned to the floor out of your head for the rest of the weekend. 

-He had texted you apologizing for missing your movie night, saying he was practicing late and he got carried away. 

-You answered with a simple okay and didn’t speak to him after that.

-You kept your distance at school, simultaneously avoiding Iwa who knew that Oikawa had done something.

-Volleyball practice was your neutral ground, the only place where you chatted with everyone but still gave him small curt answers. 

-Iwa had had enough of all this so he cornered Oikawa after practice as they were walking home alone, without your normal bubbly presence with them. 

“What the hell did you do to Y/N, Shittykawa?”

“What do you mean? I’m completely innocent.”

“She has been avoiding you like the plague all week and you haven’t even noticed? What the hell happened last Saturday?”

“I didn’t see her...”

“You missed it? Again?”

“It wasn’t my fault! Yui-chan found me at the gym and she kinda jumped on me.”

“You know what’s funny Oikawa? The fact that you claim you love her.”

-That’s why he’s now trying to coax you to open your bedroom door.

- “I’m studying Oikawa leave me alone.”

-His last name leaving your lips hurt, a lot. 

-He had always been Tooru to you or even Shittykawa. 

- “Y/N please, I’m sorry for Saturday I’ll make it up to you!”

-You opened that door then, rage burning in your eyes as you met Oikawa’s pleading face.

 - “Now you care? You have some fucking nerve coming here and giving me some half-assed apology after you ditched me for some chick last Saturday. I don’t need your apologies as much as you don’t need me. So do me the favor and get out of my house.”

-Tooru just stared at you, your words twisting the dagger in his heart. 

-He messed up, he messed up big time. 

- “You saw me with Yui...”

-You were fighting back tears as you looked at him, the sight of your underclassman hovering over him flashing behind your eyelids as you closed your eyes. 

- “Y/N she means nothing I swear, it was nothing, she came at me I-”

- “Why w-would I care what she meant? W-why would I-I care with w-who you make out with?”

- “I care what you think of me!”

-You were full on crying at this point, Tooru shedding his own tears as his fears started clawing their way up his throat. 

-He was losing you.

- “I care what you think of me because I love you. I care what image I create in your pretty mind because I hope that maybe at some point you will look at me in a different light. What I did last Saturday was fucked up and there are no excuses but I’m sorry, I truly am. Please Y/N. I can’t- I can’t lose you. Please....” 

-You wanted to hold onto your anger longer, wanted to truly stay mad at him for more because at the end of the day he deserved it but you couldn’t. 

-You launched yourself into his arms, burying your face in his chest as your sobs became louder. 

-He held you there until your tears ran dry, his arms tight around you as if he was afraid you would slip through his fingers at any moment. 

Terushima Yuuji

-You knew him from middle school. 

-Before the piercings. 

-Before the dyed hair. 

-Before the douchebag attitude. 

-And before the ocean of girls coming and going in his life. 

-It affected your friendship but you managed to survive it. 

-Some girls were just too crazy and possessive, harassing you to leave him alone and that he was theirs.

-Terushima always gave them a glare and a cold “we’re done” before proceeding to hang out with you non stop for a week straight. 

-It was your bro code that no matter what, a relationship would not change who you were to each other. 

-That no one would get in between your friendship. 

-Lucky for you, your love for Yuuji pushed away any potential boyfriends that came waltzing into your life. 

-You are attractive, smart and cute plus you’re funny so many boys tried to go out with you, but you being in love with your best friend prevented you from reciprocating their feelings. 

-Yuuji however changed girlfriends every two days and you were there to witness everything. 

-He came barging in your room every Tuesday and Friday to talk about the new girl that threw herself at him or about the hook up he had during the weekend.

-It hurt you seeing him with others but his short relationships gave you hope that he hadn’t fallen in love yet and that you still had a chance. 

-Then she came. 

-She was a year younger than the two of you and she was the only one that lasted for longer than a week. 

-She knew you two were close and whenever you tagged along with them she was seething with anger. 

-She became territorial to the point that Yuuji should tell her to calm down.

-But he wouldn’t and that let to multiple fights and in the end you two stopped talking to each other. 

-The last straw was during one of his games. 

-You are the manager so you are down at the court with them. 

-Terushima hit the ground really hard after he tried to save the ball and he hurt his shoulder.

 -He was escorted to the bench where you put some ice on his slightly swollen shoulder and wiped away some sweat from his forehead.

-He may have acted like a douche to you but he was still your best friend and you loved him so you couldn’t be cold to him for too long.  

-His girl lost her shit. 

-After the game she started yelling at you and calling you a ‘home-wrecker’ and ‘man-stealer’ along with some really offensive stuff. 

-You were putting her in her place when Yuuji came out and saw the whole scene. 

-She immediately ran to him spewing nonsense and lies about how you came at her for no reason. 

-The face of pure shock and disbelief on your face was enough for Terushima to understand that she was lying. 

-All those other times his ‘girl’ said or acted like a bitch to you came crashing down he was hit by a train of realization. 

-He suddenly was aware of your fight and the possibility of losing you, so he finally acted. 

- “I don’t know what happened but don’t talk about Y/N like that.” 

-She looked so offended for a second before snapping....literally. 

- “You defend her over me? Your girlfriend? She is nothing but a sad little girl who wants to steal you away from me! And you’re encouraging her! She’ll start believing she has a chance with you!!!”

-He just let out a growl and pushed past her wrapping an arm around your waist and bringing you into a hug. 

- “Maybe she does.”

-The both of you left the gym and went to blow off some steam at the water fountains.

-After your exchanged apologies you started to mess around throwing playful jabs.

- “Did you mean it? What you said to her.”

- “You mean about us? If you want it to be true than yeah if you don’t then just ignore it.”

-You leaped into his arms squeezing the life out of him as your voice came out in a muffled jumble of words “I want it to be true.”

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chapter 18: my girlfriend.

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trigger warning: bullying, cursing/vulgar language, and violence (smacking, stepping and spitting). anxiety.

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Your book is dripping wet, the pages turned to a fragile paste and falling apart at the touch. Your hair was wet, buckets of water had been prepared just for you. In your honor, four older girls had decided to go out of their way to prepare a bucket of water to dump all over your head.

“What did we tell you?” Their leader, Yui, kicked you in the stomach. “I thought we were very clear yesterday that you cannot talk to Kuroo-san.”

“And then you walked home with him!” One of the other girls spoke, but at this point their voices meshed together in your head. You tried staring at a paint chip on the ground to try and keep your cool.

I will not cry, I will not cry, I will not cry.

Your face was pulled off the rough pavement to face Yui’s face by your hair. The beautiful girl holds a fistfuls of your hair and you can get a good look at her this way. She really was gorgeous, she had long hair that was dyed a beautiful blond. You could hardly tell her bright blue contacts weren’t real since they fit into her soft features so well. Her makeup was nothing short of flawless, blending perfectly into her skin that made her look effortlessly beautiful. She looked like an idol, an angel in stood front of you, it was a striking contrast to her harsh words she’s given you over the last week.

“And now he posted about you, too! I told you that Kuroo-kun was mine. I should’ve said something weeks ago when I saw him talk to you here.” Yui stomped her foot, “Don’t you dare lie either, I saw him at your shoe locker this morning.”

“I’m not going to lie.” You said, your voice coming out much quieter than you thought. It was cold outside, and your clothes were wet. You didn’t even want to think about your white shirt.

“Good girl.” Yui smiled, “Now let’s talk about arrangements. Since you obviously didn’t listen yesterday. And I’m what they’d call Kuroo-kun’s guardian angel. I’ve always protected him from skanky bitches like you, who aren’t interested in Kuroo-kun for anything beyond what he can do for you. It’s not my first time, and it won’t be my last either. I love Kuroo-kun more than any of you and I’ve been at this a lot longer than you.”

What the hell is wrong with you?

You were cursing at her in your head, every bit of anger poured from your veins and forced you to clench your fist. This girl was pissing you off to no end, nobody was around at this point. Your fear of shyness being easily overwhelmed by the anger of being controlled.

A part of you selfishly wished that Inuoka or Kuroo would enter this scene right now and intervene. But they couldn’t fix this for you. They weren’t always going to be with you. And you weren’t someone who was going to be smacked around by these girls anymore. This girl must’ve been the one that started those rumors about you that forced Kuroo to intervene for you. You didn’t want anyone to have to do that for you.

“Kuroo-san would never like a girl like you.” You said. You would be proud to know your face never wavered as you spoke. Your voice had only a slight shake, the only tell being the shakes of your hand. Every word granted you a half ounce more of confidence.

“Do you want to say that again, dog?” She stepped on your hand with her foot, all her spite being aimed at you.

“What? I told you I wasn’t going to lie.” You kept your face plain. She spit in it and threw you down. You wiped the disgusting vile away with the back of your hand.

“Keep talking! See what happens.” This was a bet you’re willing to take.

“You’re a very pretty girl. But you’re mean, petty, vengeful, controlling and most of all an idiot if you think I can control how Kuroo-san feels. It’s not my fault he likes me. And if you really liked him, you should want him to be happy, but instead you try to block him off from anything that’d do that.” You said it all while she hardly listened, yawning as you spoke. 

“Are you done?” She asked, you groaned in response. God she was so annoying.

She smacked you.

“You’re going to act like you know him after a few weeks? I’ve been in love with him for three years. He always has doted on me before you got here, he tutored me, gave me parts of his lunch, and he even gave me his jacket when I forgot my umbrella. Every third year girl knows that he’s mine. He’s too mature for younger girls like you, especially ones with their head in the clouds and nose in a book. You don’t even interact with anyone! What’s so good about you! Nothing! So don’t you dare try to act like you’re better than me!” She said her own speech, ending it with pushing her foot down on your thigh. Your knee scratching against the pavement.

“Kuroo-san isn’t a thing you can own..” It was taking everything in you not to cry, you’ve always had a hard time when people yell at you. But the part of you that wanted to defy authority was still winning at the moment.

“God! You’re so annoying. Just listen to me and break up with him so he can love me already! I’m tired of waiting!” Yui was yelling, you were starting to hear voices in the windows behind you crowding over. Your eyes drifted down, your shirt was totally see-through. This was so embarrassing.

You put your arms over your chest to protect yourself. You scolded yourself for not bringing out your jacket.

“No.” You said, strong and out-front.

“I think this is the most this girl has ever spoken..” 

“Normally she’s such a crybaby..”

You heard everything anyone was saying around you. But you couldn’t bring yourself to care anymore. None of those people knew you.

“You insolent little bitch–”

“Oh? Big word there, did that make you feel like an adult? You read that one in a book?” You were completely unfiltered at this point. None of it mattered to you. Your clothes were wet, your hair was frazzled, your knees scraped and your face spit on. If there was one thing you could do to protect yourself it was your mouth. You had to.

“Shut up! Be thankful your senpai hasn’t ruined your life. Just let him go! You don’t even like him!” She was really fuming, there may as well be smoke coming out of her ears. “I can tell you’re scared, just agree so we can finish this.”

“That’s not true.” You said, your face blushing as the first sign of emotion this whole time.

“Oh, look, she’s blushing.”

“She’s actually so cute.”

“Gah! I hate you!” Yui raises her hand again, the only interruption being the heavy metal door to the courtyard being opened. 

“Stop, stop! Yui, what the fuck are you doing!?” Kuroo, the man of the hour, ran into the courtyard and immediately stripping his blazer off. 

“Kuroo-kun! I’m so glad your here, she was being so mean to us! I was just–” It was Yui’s turn to panic. Her voice quivered as she quickly mustered up tears to fake.

“You think I’m going to believe that when she looks like this?” Kuroo quickly wrapped you in his blazer, the large fabric covering you. His warmth flew threw you as he helped you to your feet and held you into his chest protectively. Your cold skin stealing Kuroo’s warmth. You hadn’t really realized how cold you were.

“I heard you had a volleyball meeting today–”

“After school. Even if I did, did you think I wouldn’t come running after I hear about my girlfriend getting bullied?” Kuroo said, his hand wrapping around your head. Your face was hidden, but he could feel you gasp for breath. The emotions you had been trying to hid getting lost in his chest, your stiff fingers gripped the fabric of his sweater vest. Kuroo’s large palm straightened them against his chest, warming them. “God, she’s freezing.”

“Girlfriend?” Yui was really crying now.

“Yes. Y/N is my girlfriend, and if anyone has a problem with this from now on bring that to me.” Kuroo’s deep voice boomed through the courtyard, it was a warning.

“You can’t be serious! It’s only been a few weeks, you’ll just drop her anyways in a few days right?” Yui had never been caught by Kuroo before, whenever a new girl would try to get close to Kuroo he’d never really minded if they lost touch after a few days. But you were someone he sought out, and tried so hard to figure out, he would never let it go that easy.

“Even if it did, you have no right to do any of this. But I’ll be with Y/N as long as she lets me, because I have deep feelings for her. I don’t expect you to understand but neither of us would ever throw the other away so easily as you’re saying. So leave us the fuck alone.” You had never seen him so angry before. But still he was so delicate to you, lowering his head to your ear to whisper a soft: “Are you ok? You did awesome, but this is over now. Let’s get you to the infirmary.”

“I’m sorry.” You said, but it was muffled by his shirt. His chest was so warm and firm, it made you somewhat sad to lose the warmth when he pulled away for only a second.

“Yui, I’m sorry I can’t return your feelings. If I had known you’d feel that way, I would’ve been able to end this sooner. But don’t worry, I won’t be going out of my way for you in the future to avoid any misunderstandings.... I’m going to take her to the infirmary, and I’m telling the nurse everything that happened here.” Kuroo held a strong frame, you winced when you took a step. 

Your knee stung from the blood running down your leg. Kuroo didn’t want you to be here any longer than you needed to be, so he latched his palms under your knee and threw your arm over his shoulder. Bridal style he held you in his arms, girls squealed behind you. Your face practically being glued to his shoulder to hide your embarrassment.

The moment you were back inside you felt warmer. You squeezed him tighter to yourself. You were so afraid, allowing yourself to so easily be weak in front of him.

“W–wait.. Kuroo..” You were letting tears fall. He rolled you in his arms to better hold you there. Your hair smelled like a morning rainfall, you were so cold.

“Not yet. We’re not alone.” He said.

The rest of the time you spent in his arms was silent. And when he got you to the infirmary he was ushered to go back to his class since the bell rang.

“Please, she’s my girlfriend. Can I please stay with her?” You could hear him beg the nurse on the otherside of the curtain from where you were changing out of your wet clothes.

It made you smile, you didn’t know a title like this would make you smile. He never asked you, but he sure got comfortable with it really fast. Maybe it wasn’t real though, you tried to slow your heart beat from beating out of your chest at the thought.

“I’m sorry but school comes first. You can come see her later. She’ll be fine.” The nurse assured him. You peaked your head out from behind the curtain.

“Thank you.” You mouthed it to him and it seemed he understood.

Kuroo didn’t seem pleased, but he still nodded. He bowed to the nurse quickly before exiting. Once on the other side of the door he looked at his hands, his sleeves were still wet from where he held you in his arms. He was chilly from losing his blazer that was now with you. The view he had of the top of your head being forcibly pushed into his chest. His chest still tingled from the imprint of your face.

“Kuroo Tetsuro, you’re awful for thinking like this..” he scolded himself. He just had to pull you out of a situation that he caused, it was because of him that they were bullying you. He needed to apologize properly, but his mind couldn’t help but melt at how close you were to him. How it seemed you invited him to be closer. This 6’3” boy reduced to a crumbled, blushing mess as he squatted next to the infirmary door.

Girlfriend.

Wait.

“She’s my girlfriend....” Kuroo remembered saying that in front of everyone, “Did I... say that out loud?..”

Both his hands were used to smack himself. His face didn’t react from the shock, eyes still wide with two hand prints leftover on his cheeks. He didn’t even ask you to be his girlfriend! What had gotten into him! Even in the heat of the moment, he should have taken at least one second to ask and then ask properly later. No, that would’ve looked suspicious. How rude of him to ignore your feelings like that and announce it in front of everyone without your permission.

I’ve been so good at asking her for everything up until now. What if she’s scared of me again? No, if she wants me to I’ll start at stage 1... Maybe Yamamoto was right, I really am a simp for her..

He thought, a small smile still on his face. He was okay with that. You were so strong out there. He only caught a few moments but watching you talk back all on your own was inspiring. You could defend yourself, any normal person would’ve let it go but Yui was a different breed that Kuroo knew too well. Watching you speak so boldly was a treasure that would live in his mind, the last domino of hearing your voice say “That’s not true.” to protext your feelings for him. But that was all he was able to catch of the conversation since he couldn’t stand there knowing that your hand wasn’t shaking from the cold.

Does she really have feelings for me? Is it true? If I would’ve asked.. would she have.. his thoughts stopped abruptly as he looked to his right at the infirmary where you stayed. What were you thinking right now? Were the thoughts you had as embarrassing as his? An image of you popped in his head, probably not. His chest was so tight and warm and the thought. He can’t think like this in the situation you’re in. He should’ve tried to stay in there longer, but maybe any longer and he would’ve burst.

He looked back at his arms, the ones he held you in. The water has dried now, ang trace that you were in them was gone. He really missed that feeling. If it were up to him right now, you’d never walk again so you could always stay in his arms.

Girlfriend..

He’d have to apologize later for overstepping his boundaries and explain later but... he’d never apologize about how it felt far too natural to say.

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[bbdaydreams]

Courage My Love// Semi Eita

Pairing: Semi Eita x Reader

Summary: You like Semi and come up with a plan to confess to him, unfortunately it takes a turn. You meet again a couple years later by chance.

Chapter Four: Disappear

Warning: suggestive nsfw. Nothing explicit at all. STORY TAKES PLACE AFTER HIGH SCHOOL MEANING THEY ARE NO LONGER MINORS.

Series Masterlist•<previous•next>

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“Does he sing to all your music while you dance to "Purple Rain"? Does he do all these things, like I used to?”

“Eita! Stop! You’re making us depressed with all the sad songs you’ve been writing!” Ranmaru told the lead vocalist.

Semi put his palm over the strings of the acoustic guitar so they’d stop ringing and let his body relax against the cold wall behind him. “Sorry, can’t help it,” he mumbled.

Semi never got his chance to talk to you after graduation. He did notice that you only blocked his number and not his social medias but that was all he needed to know that you didn’t want to talk to him. He didn’t want to send you a direct message, solely because he was scared you’d end up blocking him on whatever platform he used. The last thing he wanted was to be completely out of your life. Even though he isn’t directly in your life, he still wants to support you from the side lines. Funny how things used to be the other way around.

“Guys, we should make him a tinder,” Subaru spoke.

“What? No! I don’t want one! I’m not ready,” Semi huffed.

“Eita, it’s been like three years. You’re twenty one now. I’m sorry but we’re tired of seeing you like this all the time. We can’t relate to what you’re going through but we can empathize with you. We can imagine how much pain you’re in and we want to help you,” Jiro argued.

“I’ve gone on a couple dates already and they were all bad. What’s talking to even more strangers gonna do?”

“Show you that there’s other people out there. I know you’ve seen me in an out of relationships a lot but I don’t regret a single one. They’ve each taught me something. Also I’m gonna be very blunt, you can’t miss what you never had. You’ve got to let go dude,” Ranmaru added.

“But I-“

“No Eita, you didn’t have them. You were only friends. Just give a chance? Please,” Subaru finished.

Semi took a look around the room before nodding his head yes. He could guess that his band mates were probably tired of dealing with him. They’re in college now trying to finish their education to have a back up plan since they still haven’t taken off yet but at the end of the day he knew the band comes first. It always has but the band is only as fun as you make it to be. They could play their instruments all they want but they have to play them in a way that fits the mood of the song and since Semi has been struggling with writing more upbeat catchy tunes, the sad boy crap gets repetitive. The others had to accommodate to him because of how much trouble he was having.

“I’ll download it now.”

-

“Y/n! Smile!” Tendou yelled before snapping a picture of you with his phone.

“Tendou, stop!” You laughed while reaching for his phone. He raised his arms to increase the distance and joined with you in your laughter.

“I’m sorry but you’re just so cute.”

You and him were currently walking back to your place from a date. After graduation, Tendou continued school and you moved into a small house with your band mates to make your living situation easier for all of you. You guys have gone on tours and such but you still haven’t had your big break through.

When you got to your home you invited Tendou inside and since no one else was home you didn’t have to greet them all before going into your room. “Whatcha wanna watch?” You asked him as you sat in your bed while flipping through channels.

“I’m down for anything,” he responded, getting into bed with you and attempting to lay on you. Picking a random show, you set the remote down before relaxing and combing your fingers through his hair which was now quiet long and down, different from how he had it in high school.

You two stayed in that position for a couple minutes while your mind started to wander off. Three years since you and the girls, two for Haruka, graduated and chose not to continue with school because the label seemed promising. Your band is currently working on an album after having multiple demos made and working part time jobs to have a more stable source of income. But also three years you spent with Tendou as your lover. And all of that was going to end soon because he was moving across the world for his career.

Three years is a lot of time to spend with someone romantically, especially when you’ve known them for longer. It’s not something you can just up and forget but unfortunately the both of you will have to move on. Tendou was still laying on you peacefully until he left a wet droplet on his face. Immediately he looked up and saw you with your eyes closed in at attempt to stop your tears. “Hey, hey, it’s okay,” he spoke softly, reaching a hand out to cup your face. You opened your eyes to look at him and gave him a sad smile that he returned. “Even when you cry, you’re beautiful, my paradise.”

Words of comfort was something Tendou never lacked. There was never a single time you’d consider him a bad boyfriend. And you were grateful to have him in your life. “I’m sorry,” you apologized for crying.

“It’s alright,” he laughed before sitting up to kiss you. This was your last day together before he left. Knowing that, you both gradually intensified the kiss that lead to more kisses. Kisses that lead to wandering hands. Wandering hands leading to the action that you both know would be the last time you were intimate together before Tendou left to his home to grab his luggage before heading off to the airport, to take a flight to France.

Once all the aftercare was done you slept in his arms for a good two hours until he woke up from the alarm he set on his phone. He knew better than to leave without saying a word so he woke you up too. “Paradise, wake up. I gotta go.” You unwillingly opened your eyes and rubbed them before focusing on him, his form already up and out of the bed. “I’ll miss you,” he started when he stood at your door, “thank you for giving me a chance.”

You looked at him with glossy eyes as he looked at you with his. Getting up from your bed you managed to make your way towards him to give him a kiss, your guy’s final kiss. Your relationship was now mutually over.

-

“I had so much fun on our date, Semi! You really are a great guy!”

“Thanks, I try,” Semi laughed as he lead the girl he was seeing to his dorm. Semi has been seeing this girl from his government course for about a month now and things seem to be going pretty well so far.

When they got to his dorm, she noticed his guitar and a couple of papers that had scribbles on them. “Oh? You play guitar? And you write music?” She asked innocently.

“Yeah I do.”

“Could you play me a song? Please?”

“Sure. I’ll even sing you one inspired by you,” Semi spoke smoothly. Being in the scene, Semi did pick up a thing or two on how to talk to girls, Subaru called it fan service.

Picking up the acoustic guitar on its stand, he gestured for her to take a seat on his bed while he sat down in a chair across from her. With the pick he retrieved from his pocket he proceeded to pluck each string to make sure it was tuned before playing a couple chords to make sure they sounded good as well. He looked up at her and took note of the smile on her face before looking back down at the guitar and playing a song he had finished writing about her two days ago. When he had finished, he looked up and was greeted with a frown. “What’s wrong?” he asked immediately setting the guitar down and walking towards her to cup her face. “Did you not like the song?”

“Semi, don’t touch me! Who is that song about?” she asked him, standing up so they were more level.

“It’s about you, babe-“

“Don’t call me babe either! Semi, we’re done!”

“What? Why?”

“What do you mean why? There’s clearly someone else! There’s no way that song is about me! My eyes aren’t that color and neither is my hair! I sound nothing like the girl in the song that you claim to love!”

“Let me explain-“

“There’s nothing to explain, Semi! Good night. We’re done,” she finished before walking out and slamming Semi’s door in the process. Burying his face into his pillow, Semi let out a grunt, not realizing his roommate had come in.

“I stopped by the cafeteria after my study group. I brought you a juice,” Subaru offered when he saw the ash blonde face down.

“Not in the mood, dude.”

“Fine. No juice for you.”

-

About two months after you and Tendou split up, your band’s album was released. All four of you were in awe when you first saw your first album in a store.

“It’s like.... our baby,” Haruka stated while looking through the glass.

“I know, right! Our first little baby,” Izumi added.

You and Yui were a couple feet behind them trying to contain your laughter but you had to admit you were just as amazed as them.

“C’mon! Let’s get our own copies!” Yui announced, leading the way inside. The rest of you followed and each picked up a copy ready to purchase it. “Not gonna lie, it makes me feel real fuzzy seeing our name and faces on this.”

“No kidding. We really worked hard for this, didn’t we?” You asked aloud. “Our first of many. Let’s hope Courage My Love can keep up with it.”

Walking towards the counter to pay one after the other the cashier put together that you guys were the ones on the album cover. “Is this you guys?”

“Yep! That’s us,” Izumi smiled. “It’s our first album!”

“Oh my! Congratulations! I recognize this as one of the new ones we got in last nights shipment. I’ll play it throughout the store today to listen,” the cashier told you all.

“Thank you so much, we’d really appreciate that,” you all spoke before heading towards the exit.

Walking through a park on your way to the grocery store, Izumi had a burst of energy she couldn’t help but expel. “We should take a picture!”

“But we have-“ Yui started before she was shushed by the tallest one from the group.

“Shhh- excuse me, sir? Could you take a picture of my friends and I?” she asked sweetly. The older gentleman agreed before asking Izumi how to use her phone. Once she explained to him she told the group what pose they should do. “We should hold them up and just pose with them together!” Complying with her idea, your amateur photographer took a couple pictures before handing the device back to its owner. You all thanked him and looked at the pictures he took before posting it to each of your social medias.

So excited to announce that our album is finally out! You can pick it up anywhere that sells cds or check it out on any music streaming apps. Thank you so much for your support!

-y/n<3

-

“Yo, this music kinda slaps. What band is this?” Ranmaru asked Semi who currently had the aux cord.

“Courage My Love,” Semi responded which resulted in Subaru letting out a loud groan.

“The hell is your problem?” Ranmaru asked the drummer.

“That’s fucking Y/n’s band! No wonder he’s been listening to it on repeat for the past week!”

Ranmaru immediately stepped on the breaks before turning around in his seat to look at Semi. “Eita, I’m only gonna ask once, give me the aux.”

Giving a small glare to the spikey silver haired bassist, Semi spoke, “no.... I don’t wanna.”

“Eita!” Ranmaru roared before leaning his torso to grab the other’s phone.

Jiro sitting in the passengers seat with wide eyes opted to grab the other end of the aux cord and unplug it directly from the source, resulting in everyone else getting quiet at the lack of music. “No more tunes till we get to the venue.”

Even after taking away aux privileges from him, Semi was quick to find a solution and use his headphones instead. He continued listening to your band’s new album, blown away from how much you’ve changed. He regretted everything he did to you but was also inspired by the woman you’ve become.

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a/n: just when I think I’m done with angst I write more and I just say oops to that. Also do you guys like the addition of songs for the chapters? Also sorry for all the jumping around during this chapter

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[knight-queen]

Dark Fate – Kou Mukami (Ecstasy Prologue) + CG

[Maniac Epilogue]  [Ecstasy Pro]  [Ecs 01]  [Ecs 02]  [Ecs 03]  [ Ecs 04 ] [ Ecs 05] [Ecs 06 ]  [Ecs7]  [Ecs 8 ] [Ecs 9]  [Ecs 10]  [Ecstasy Epilogue]

Place: 森 / Forest

Yui: (Certainly they are chasing after us…!)

Kou: M-neko chan, this way!

Yui: Y- yes!

*After a while*

Yui: Haah...hah…!

Kou: M-neko chan...are you okay?

Yui: Yeah...what about you? Doesn’t your injury hurt?

Kou: Not at all. It’s nothing so you can get relieved.

Yui: I am glad…

Kou: But at this rate...no good.

Because of the lunar eclipse, my sensation skills have weakened, so I can’t say where the bullets are coming from.

Shit, who the hell called hunters or whatever in the demon world…!

Yui: (Vampire hunters...they’re obvious enemies to Kou kun, I think.)

(I bet he’s much scared of them. Even when the ancestors (founders) attacked, he was calmer than this.)

Kou: ...Ah, sorry. I have...lose self-control.

Yui: Don’t care about it. More than that, who are called vampire hunters?

Kou: Vampire hunters are the people who follow orders of the Church and they’re demon-killers.

Typically, their main work is to get rid of the demons who’ll peak at the human world.

Yui: (Then, they should rarely come to the demon world…)

(Who summoned them here actually?)

Kou: Even also, those who aim to target the vampires by using bullets made of silver, are also called vampire hunters.

Normally, there shouldn’t be any reason to escape but...damn!

(Lunar eclipse...it feels so different than usual)

Kou: Anyway, for these hunters, we have to 一

Yui: ...Kou kun, just now

Kou: They’re close…

Yui: (What should we do...at this point)

Kou: It can’t be helped, if so then getting despaired is the only choice.

Yui: What are you planning to do?

Kou: I’ll do this..!!

*The forest is burning*

Yui: (Just by snapping the fingers, the forest gets...fire!)

What...the fire gets spreading widely.

Kou: I don’t know whether it will resist them or not but, it should be enough to protect us.

 一 Come’on , let’s go by this chance.

Yui: Yes…!

*After sometimes*

Place: Forest

Yui: Haah haah…

*Gun shoots*

Kou: Ugh…!

Yui: (We’re keep running, but vampire hunters are still after all…!)

Kou: Expectedly, that wasn’t enough to stop them huh…!

Yui: (Now we’ll eventually get caught by the fire...Kou kun will)

Kyaa…!

*Screen shakes*

Kou: M-neko chan!

Yui: Haah...haah...haa...I- I am fine...I got swayed a little...just that…

Kou: Kh….

Yui: (My leg got twisted. But...if I don’t stand up and run then)

I’m sorry Kou kun. I’m okay...so let’s hurry.

Kou: Place your arms at my neck, hold on.

Yui: I- I am fine...kh!

Kou: Just listen and embrace me. I don’t wanna hurt you where I’m aware of it, Please.

Yui: ...got it.

Kou: Hold me tightly okay?

Yui: (I ended up being a bother to him...even though, right now, he’s the one to face hard times)

Place: 洞窟 / Cave

Kou: I’ll lower your hand now, be careful.

Yui: Thank you….what’ll we do hereafter?

If they find us here, we can’t escape anymore.

Kou: Gh….

Yui: What’s wrong...kou kun?

Kou: It’s fine now.

Yui: Fine...what?

*Fades to CG as he shows a knife*

Kou: Hold this.

Yui: ...Knife? Why are you telling me to...hold this...why?

Kou: If I’m going to die like this, then I want to be ended up by your hands.

Yui: …...kh!!

Kou: Please!!

Yui: I can’t...something like.

Kou: Yui, it’s something I’m requesting.

Yui: NO…! You told us to be together forever….!!

Kou: We’re together. I am forever and ever, by your side.

If you are my blue sky then I’m your blue sky too. So, you can say it by looking up.

I am always with you.

Yui: No….!! I absolutely can’t take your life like this…!!

I am alive, because you’re with me. And that’s the way I have chosen to live all the way…!

(With a knife...I can’t do it!)

NO... absolutely NO!

Kou: The end of a vampire's long life is the beginning of celebration, that’s what Ruki kun said.

With this, I can vanish this cursed body. It’s not something to be sad like humans.

Yui: Kou kun, you’re not cursed!

Kou: ……

To be struck by bullets...and get beaten, I can’t die like this where I’m cursed!

Yui: …...gh!

Kou: Atleast, at the moment I’ll die, I want to...pass away by watching my life as my pride.

When I’ll think you love me...I’d like to get dissolved in the sky.

Yui: Kou kun…

Kou: Please.

*Takes the knife*

Yui: (Is it really the end…? Isn’t there any other way?)

(He said, if I kill him then...it will be the most blessed thing for him?)

(If it’s the most important wish for my lover then...I will) (1)

*CG Fades as someone holds Kou*

Kou: ...Kh!

Yui: (There’s a shadow...behind Kou kun!)

Kou: …….Good evening, hunter san.

Yui: (He’s pointing the gun to Kou kun’s head...kh)

Kou: I am sorry if you are in a hurry. I am in the middle of something important. Won’t you wait a little?

???: Put down that knife.

Yui: (This voice...this face)

Kou: Come on...hurry up.

Yui: (Don’t tell me this person’s called vampire hunter…)

No way, why…

???: No, this voice….Yui!?

Yui: Dad...why!!

Kou: ….You just said, Dad!?

Yui: Dad, stop it, don’t do something terrible to Kou kun! Please!

Seiji: ……

Yui: This person is different, he’s not a bad vampire...so please.

Seiji: There’s nothing good or bad about vampires.

Yui: Dad…!!

Seiji: We humans and vampires are incompatible. No way, I can allow any co-existence.

Yui: You’re wrong...it’s not like that! I have always known Kou kun!

Seiji: It’s not a consideration of humans. Whatever...your body appearance or figure is, you’re already a vampire.

Yui: (Father is...pointing gun at me. Is he about to kill two of us together…!)

Kou: ...Hey you. I’m the one who’s your target. Hurry up and settle it.

But, can’t you let go of this girl? I know your thoughts but she's a human.

If you kill her, then you’ll be a human murderer. Since, the same goes for killing a vampire, you don’t have to commit so many sins.

Seiji: I don’t need your instructions, vampire! I am the one to decide what I will do.

一一 This is my daughter.

Kou: Parents are said to be on their children’s side!? How can you call yourself a parent at this point!!

Seiji: ………*angry sigh*

Yui: (Kou kun told me that he doesn't know his parents…)

(I thought that my dad will be by my side until the end, I’ll be by his side till the end...but)

(To dad, I am almost the same as a vampire now...someone who has to be killed…!)

Seiji: It’s useless to talk any further.

Kou: Hhh….

Yui: Dad…!

Seiji: 一一 Farewell, vampires.

Yui: …...kh!

???: Do ya’ think it’s so easy!!

*Stabs Seiji and falls*

Seiji: Gh…!!

Kou: Yuma kun…!!

Yuma: Goddamn! Hurry and go away!!

Azusa: Hurry up and go….!

Yui: Azusa kun…!

Yuma: GOO!!

Kou: Got it...thank you!

Azusa: Don’t try to come back…

Yui: Y- yes!

*They run*

Azusa: I’m glad...they’re safe…

Yuma: We gotta make our gateway too! The gun’s that crap man is holding, snatch all of ‘em!!

Azusa: Yes…!

*On the other side*

Place: Forest

Yui: (Yuma and Azusa have come to help us…!)

(Knowing that they will be facing danger, they still helped us to run...be fast and we have to escape far away!)

Kou: Even though I thought it was the end…

Even though I abandoned Lord Karl Heinz...Yuma, Azusa…

Yui: (They also decided Kou kun to be the most precious...they helped him)

(I’m happy just like I’m for myself)

(We have to cool down and get to a safe place. Also for rewarding the feelings they showed us)

Place: ???

Yui: Where is...this?

Kou: ...I don’t know as well. We ran like crazy, we made a wrong approach for this.

Yui: A big castle…..is there anyone?

Kou: Anyway, let’s see what happens entering there. It doesn’t seem like there’s a place for hiding.

Yui: Yeah...you’re right. If we explain the circumstances, they may let us have shelter.

*They enters*

Kou: There’s no sign of presence...neither are any vampires’.

Yui: (Then, whose castle….?)

Kou: I don’t smell any scent of others, also it doesn’t seem like any dangerous place.

Let’s be here for a while.

Yui: ...Yes.

ーThe Endー

[fifteenskies15]

Why isn't this blog more popular your writing is so good I hope I'm not bothering with my requests during these hard times. Yandere Tokito twins X childhood friend reader The kimetsu academy au ( read their profile it would probably help you ) Where she's been avoiding them since they entered middle school because they were becoming popular Stuff she did to avoid them ,going home in a different route calling them by their family name also while avoiding them she makes a new friend who's a boy.

Well, well! I got another reqs again, ight time to break fingers, forget sleep and write stuff again, I once again would like to warn you that my writings doesn't make any sense, there will be PSA and apology in the end regarding the question and maybe another reason why I can be very, VERY reluctant to accept reqs.

No longer the same

(Yandere! Tokito Brothers x Reader)

You and the Tokito Brothers were pair of lovely childhood friends once, ONCE, You don't think that you and the brothers are friends anymore now that those brothers has become very famous and maybe even forgot that you're exist, forgot everything that you and the brothers has been through as a child, so you draw the line between them and you.

You start to call them by their family name, and when you're going home, you tried your best to go out really fast so that you won't go home with them and even choosing the different route, not the one you and the brothers always go back in those days, everyday, you grow apart from them and maybe even forgot that they're exist...

However, they're not stupid, they noticed how you stray further from them, they even noticed how stiff and cold you are, you never came to their house and wake them up and went to school together, you never ask them to have lunch together anymore, you never ask them how's their day going, you never take them to the diner everytime you both go home after school and you never call them "Mui-chan" or "Yui-tan" anymore.

This sadden both of them? Why? Why would you draw the lines and forgot them? Did they do anything wrong to you? Did they say something wrong to you?

Yuichiro and Muichiro actually had always liked you, as in like-like you, they always do ever since you both are pair of wee tykes, so the fact that you start to avoid them really hurt them so much that they keep themselves up all night and thinking about why you avoid them.

Even though you're no longer talk to them, you're not lonely, you still have your good friend, Tanjiro Kamado, he is a kind and thoughtful boy, you really like how he always wear the hanafuda earrings despite the fact the school didn't allowed him to just because it was once belonged to his father, you like how he keep it on regardless the rule, everyday you spend your time with Tanjiro and his friends and sister, but you enjoy spending time with him the most.

Unfortunately, this somehow trigger something in the brothers, they're sad and angry that you start ignore them and be with other guys instead of them, everyday the awful feelings grow and grow, they start became rather obsessive towards you, you might not feel like it but the brothers started to stalk you and your friends with jealousy and obsession inside their minds.

Many unpleasant scene across their minds, there are a lots of possibilities of them hurting Tanjiro in anyway possible, why?

Because he stole you away from them, he stole the love of their lives, what give him the rights to be with you when they know you more than he did?

The more they see you with Tanjiro, the more toxic they are, they can't really take it anymore, so they decided to make a move.

Tanjiro, first...

Then, you...

It's just a regular day in the academy, Tanjiro was outside by himself and not with you because you have to run some errands with Kocho senpai at the library, the brothers take the liberty of this and approached him with a sinister glare in their empty mint eyes.

"Oh! Good afternoon Yuichiro-san, Muichiro-san! Would you like to join me?"

The sweetness Tanjiro showed them is rather disgusting and unnerving, Yuichiro even start to scrunched up his face in disgust.

Without thinking twice, Yuichiro start to pull Tanjiro's collar, making the other boy flinched in surprise, "Y-Yuichiro-san?! What... what's wrong??"

"Stay away from, (Name)..."

"Huh?! Why would I...? She's/he's my friend! How can I even stay away from her/him?!"

In a flash, Muichiro start to punched Tanjiro square on his face, he land another one as he try to speak "Don't say anything else... This is a warning, Kamado" he said dusting off his hands "You don't want anything happen to your lovely sister and friends, don't you?" As Muichiro mentioned Nezuko and his friends, Tanjiro glared up at them "You wouldn't!"

"We would" they say in unison, Tanjiro gritted his teeth and ready to attack them, but they swiftly dodged it causing him to fell forward, Yuichiro then stepped on Tanjiro's back, "This is your last warning, Kamado, if we see you and (Name) together, there will be hell to pay for your precious sister and friends"

He pull his feet off and scowl at Tanjiro's figure "Let's go, Muichiro"

He nod and went off with his brother, meanwhile Tanjiro just glared over his shoulder at the twins as he clenched his fist "I'm so sorry, (Name)"

You sighed as you make your way home, today Tanjiro doesn't seem feel well that he didn't want to walk with you, another problem is that he seemed to avoid you left and right, you wonder if you did anything wrong to them.

As you keep walking you start to feel pair of eyes are on you, you start to feel really anxious about this, so you picked up the pace, and as you heard a rapid footsteps behind you, you start to run faster with your heart beating wildly, who followed you here and why would they?!

You flinched as your assailant caught you and cover your mouth with an handkerchief to prevent you from screaming, you slowly losing consciousness and the last thing you saw was a familiar gleam of mint green eyes.

...

...

...

You slowly open your eyes...

Where are you now?

...

...

...

You're in bedroom, but not yours yet it looks familiar...

"You have come to, (name)-chan/kun?" A familiar voice said, alarmed, you looked around and to see Muichiro with a sick smile on his face "it's been a while since you're here, right, (Name)-chan/kun?" You were about to ask why would they do this but you can't since your mouth were gagged

"...?!?!"

"Nuh uh, (name) no talking" Yuichiro say, tutting and smirking at you "You have been a very bad girl/boy, haven't you, sweetheart? Avoiding us like a plague here and there?" You avert your eyes so that yours didn't see his eeriely empty mint eyes, you flinched as a hand sneak around your shoulders and to see Muichiro with same eyes and the sick smile on his face.

"We're sad, so sad when you avoid us, do you hate us or something?" You avoid both of their eyes and flinched as Yuichiro yanked the gag off your mouth "out with it, darling..."

You stayed silent for a bit then you meet their eyes "It's because since you both got famous!! You guys would see me as nothing now that everyone start to love you and you forget me like I am nothing afterwards!!"

They flinched and start to looked hurt at your words, Yuichiro gritted his teeth and put his hand around your neck "Is that what you think about us? How low you can be?"

Muichiro pouted sadly and lay his head on your shoulder "That's so mean, (name)-chan/kun, why would you thought we forget you because of fame?"

You feel guilty as Muichiro said that but that doesn't make up for what he and his brother do to you "That doesn't matter!! Just let me go-!!" You sputtered out as Yuichiro squeezed your neck tighter, it's almost hard to breathe "and let you being cozy with Kamado? Not a chance in hell, you don't want anything happen to him don't you? Muichiro and I are capable to hurt him in many ways more than one" you widen your eyes in fear, you knew them long enough to see where this is going.

"No please..." Yuichiro shoot a smirk to you "that's what I like to see, you begging us not to hurt your precious Kamado Tanjiro" he lean closer as he whispered to you "That means you have learnt your lesson, hm?" Yuichiro chuckled and kissed your cheek, making you flinch.

Muichiro giggled and do the same as he nuzzled himself against your neck "(Name)-chan/kun, you won't leave us now right?"

You just froze in fear and sadness.

Yuichiro chuckled again and slowly unbutton your uniform "she/he won't, Muichiro..."

"Because she/he belongs to us"

Well there we have it, I apologize if this doesn't meet your expectations and I owe you a little explanation and apologies

I actually starting to work on one shot and headcanons just for fun, my blog isn't exactly a writing blog like everyone and my friends, and in all honesty I couldn't take reqs really well, I only wrote for fun not for recognition or fame, I don't even like being "famous", I'm just here to have fun and doing art with my friends.

So I'm really sorry for being a hypocrite and gave you a false hope, if you want to request a fic or headcanon you can ask @ink-hashira or @kabura-maru since they're more capable and far more experienced than I am.

I hope you can understand this, once again, I'm so sorry and thank you.

[kaweeella]

Bonding Time, Kids

Chapter 1- Whether You Like It Or Not

Warning- Blood, depictions of pain, swearing, I think that’s it but I don’t know

Words- 1424

Author note- Mineta is not here. He is no where to be found. I don’t feel comfortable writing him. That’s just how things will go.

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“NOT SO STRONG NOW, HUH CLASS A?!” Neito yells triumphantly.

The two classes held another joint training and class 1-b won.

“Alright, Monoma, that’s enough.” Itsuka says, grabbing him by the back of his collar, like one would do to pick up a kitten. “You guys put up a tough fight.”

“You guys did good!” Pony says, stepping next to the 1-b representative.

“We’ll do better next time!” Denki gives a big smile and thumbs up.

“Amazing strategies.” Momo says, “I had no idea what your next move was going to be.” She lets out a small giggle, self doubt obvious in her voice.

“Yeah, but you guys had me on my toes the whole time!” Setsuna yells with a loud laugh and a hard slap on Momo’s back, pushing her some. “How ‘bout we spend time off the training field at some point, huh?” She throws her arm over her shoulder.

“Yeah, I’d love to take notes with you, it’d be great.” Momo slowly relaxes.

“Dude, that was so manly!” Eijiro says pumping his fists.

“You were too, man!” Tetsutetsu replies, with a similar motion.

The two classes talk about their training, some arguing, some cheering, some just having nice conversations as their homeroom teachers watch.

“What do you think of that, Eraserhead?” Sekijiro asks with a nudge.

“You’ve certainly taught them well. They all still have far to go, though. Both classes.”

It’s as if time itself stops. A moment of calm, ruined immediately as an unwelcomed newcomer arrives.

“Sorry to interrupt the happy moment!” A woman with long, wavy, dark purple hair; a purple mask that covers her upper face and eyes; a wine-colored top that tapers down into a skirt that’s open in the front; black elbow-length gloves; white tights; and knee-high boots. She stands atop a high narrow post.

Everyone stops what they’re doing, watching the woman, watching her movements and demeanor. They can all tell she has less-than-the-best intentions, what with the outfit and trespassing.

“Or the sad moment. Who cares. That’s not what I’m here for.” She crosses her arms over her chest, with little beads held between each finger.

The woman stands far from the teachers, with the students in between them. Shota activates his quirk, trying to keep her from harming anyone. She notices and laughs.

“Sorry, Eraser, it’s a little late for that!”

Everyone watches her, waiting for her to make a move, watching her body language and how she stands precariously on the post.

She throws open her arms, dropping the beads. The land around the students, and they explode into large clouds of green fog.

The students start coughing. They don’t know what it does, if it’s flammable, or how it would react to other gases.

Yui grabs a rock off the ground, throwing it towards the strange woman and activating her quirk. Or at least she tried to activate her quirk, but it stays the same size as it goes, hitting the post with an underwhelming thud.

“Nice throw, kid! Try aiming a little higher next time, though.” She mocks.

“Vrrrrr…” Manga lets out a kind of hum, mimicking an electric fan in an attempt to blow away the fog. Nothing happens.

Ochako grabs her arm to make herself weightless and jumps up. Though she falls back onto the ground, stumbling and confused.

“It nullified our quirks!” Momo says through coughs.

“So her quirk is like Eraserhead’s?” Itsuka asks, she tried to use her hands to displace the fog, finding she couldn’t.

“Seems like it.”

Izuku runs through the fog, eyes watering and coughing. He sees Mezo crouching on the ground and breathing heavily. Pony screams out, holding her head in pain. Hanta falls over, holding his arms as though he’d fall apart if he lets go. Hitoshi falls onto his side, twitching and groaning. Shihai starts breathing heavily and holds his sides.

“What’s going on… what’s her plan here? She wasn’t affected by Mr. Aizawa’s quirk, so what is her quirk. Does it have anything to do with the fog, or is it something completely different?” Izuku starts muttering and speculating as if his body wasn’t trying to remove the unknown substance.

“Fucking do something, useless!” Pony yells with a strained voice.

“That language is unbecoming of a hero!” Iida says with just as much struggle.

“Hey, Houshii, you don’t look too hot, are you alright?” Setsuna puts a hand on Pony’s back.

“No…”

Sekijiro cuts open his arm and sends the blood towards the woman, who jumps over it, landing back on the post on the ball of her foot.

“Is that all you got?” She yells back.

Sekijiro takes a step forward, about to run into the fog to get closer, but Shota grabs his not bleeding arm to stop him.

“We can’t just run in head first. That’s clearly what she wants.”

“Well what do you suggest we do?” He pulls away from Shota’s grasp.

“Clear the fog.”

“Easier said than done.”

Shota takes out a communication device. “Villain attack. There seems to be only one. An unknown gas surrounding the students, they seem to be struggling. We need someone to disperse it.”

“Alright, we’ll send people in.”

Putting the device back, Shota uses his capture weapon and starts pulling the kids towards him. The first student he grabs, Mashirao, is unconscious. Sekijiro wants to make a snarky comment, but decides now is not the best time. Instead, he uses the blood from his still bleeding arm and starts to grab out students, too.

Izuku watches as his classmates get yanked out, and decides to help. He runs up to Fumikage, who’s standing still and staring intensely at the ground. “Tokoyami!” Fumikage doesn’t move, he doesn’t look up, he doesn’t even react. “Come on, let’s go.” Izuku tugs on Fumikage’s cloak, but he doesn’t budge, as though he’s rooted to the ground. “What’s the matter?”

“He’s gone.”

“Who?”

“Dark Shadow.”

“The fog probably just messes up our quirks, it might be better if we get out of it.”

“Right.” Fumikage wordlessly turns around, when the fog clears on its own. Roughly half of the students had still been in it before it’s gone.

“Well it has been fun!” The woman adjusts her feet so now the insides of her boots are the only parts she’s standing on, as far as they can be on the very narrow post. She pulls up another bead. Just one this time. “But I really should be going.”

Yui grabs another rock off the ground, hoping that her quirk will work now that the fog is clear. It does not. The rock almost hits her foot, but she lifts her leg to avoid it.

“How is she still up there?” Denki asks from where he’s standing by Shota.

She lets out a loud laugh, bordering on a cackle. “You guys are entertaining. But…” She trails off, something getting her attention. “Oh jeez, who allowed that?” She shakes her head and collects her thoughts. “In any case. See ya!”

She throws the bead between her feet, being engulfed by a blue fog. It quickly disappears, and so does she.

“She’s gone.” Shota says over the device.

Denki sits next to Mashirao. He likes playing with his tail, it’s soft and calming. But looking at him, Denki notices that he is missing his tail. It takes a second to register, and then lets out a yelp in surprise.

“Kaminari, what’s the matter?” Momo runs to his side, follows his gaze, and sees.

“Hey, who’s that?” Shouto asks.

The person he’s referring to is a girl with long black hair, brown eyes with dark circles underneath, a somewhat triangular face shape, some sort of cylinders on both elbows, and kind of naked.

Realizing this, she crouches down and covers herself as much as she can. Most of the guys look away, except for the indifferent, the unconscious, and Denki.

“Hey, what’s your name? I like your… gloves… Hagakure?”

“Yes.” She replies sheepishly.

Yui grabs his arm and wordlessly turns him around.

Touru sits there for a few seconds before “Here.” Neito drops the jacket from his costume onto her. She quickly puts it on, buttoning it closed, and still sitting on the ground.

“Thank you, Monoma.” She looks up at him, with a little surprise. “You… you’re invisible.”

Neito is taken aback at the statement. “And what does that mean, exactly?!”

“It means you’re see through, dumbass.” Togaru replies bluntly.

He looks at his hand, or at least tries to, seeing that he is invisible.

[cafedanslanuit]

it was only a kiss || tamaki x mirio

band!au & college!au

summary; college student tamaki is convinced by a friend to join her band. while initially the thought of standing in front of strangers terrified him to the core, he was quickly engulfed by the stage’s power to transform himself into someone else. when mirio and nejire found out and insisted to attend their next gig, there was no doubt in tamaki’s mind it was a bad idea. he just didn’t know how bad it could get.

songs featured; when you were young + mr brightside // the killers

notes; this prompt was made by tiktok user @reverserogue. tagging @inloveinc​ because we love tamaki + eyeliner

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The stage is powerful. It had enough strength to make a usually restrained and fearful college student play his favourite instrument without crumbling into the fear and anxiety that was present in his daily life. While it did help that the lights prevented him to see anyone past the first row, Tamaki had to admit maybe Nejire's friend, Yui, had been right about him being a good fit for her band. He had never felt as confident as he did onstage, never felt as good about himself as he had the past few months.

Underground bars were Yui's favourite place to play. Tamaki was against the idea as soon as he listened to her, but after visiting the place a couple of times before they played, he discovered it was actually a good place for him. Most of the attendees were people who didn't know him since they attended another college. He wasn't Amajiki Tamaki, that creepy dude that couldn't form two sentences together, he was just the guitar player to Yui's band, a random guy who mostly hung out with the other band members and would enjoy an occasional free beer sent by their fans.

Soon, they were getting gigs every week. Sometimes they gave them money, sometimes it would be free drinks. It really didn't matter for him. Honestly, he would have done it for free. He never thought it would be so freeing to let himself be someone else, at least for a couple of nights a week. The band success propelled Yui to invite Mirio and Nejire to their next show.

To say Tamaki wasn't so keen on the idea was an understatement. He had gotten used to becoming this new persona on stage, giving his all to the blurry faces that chanted the songs they played. How did his two childhood friends would fit in his new safe world? Before he could finish listing all the valid reasons it would be a bad idea, both Mirio and Nejire were taking note on when and where the band's next gig would be.

Saturday's night came quicker that Tamaki would have wanted and once again they were back at the now known bar, setting their instruments on stage. Iruka, the second guitar and Yui's brother was connecting the wires of the guitars and bass to the amplifiers while Akito, the bass player and Iruka’s boyfriend was tunning his instrument.

"This feels weird," Tamaki winced, helping Yui carry her drums on stage.

"C'mon, they've known you your whole life. It's fair they can also see this amazing and confident dude you become onstage."

"I- I don't know about that," he shrugged.

"It's going to be fine," she assured her. "Go splash some cold water on your face. We'll start in five."

Tamaki obliged and walked to the bathroom. It was badly lit and filled with an unpleasant smell that made him scrunch his nose. Dragging his feet, he approached the sink and splashed water on his face. He looked at his reflection, ignoring the writings in indelible ink written around. He looked paler than usual. Maybe it would be better to tell Yui that he couldn't play tonight. The girl's sad face appeared in his mind and he shook his head, trying to get rid of those thoughts. The knowledge he would be sabotaging her band if the main guitarrist just disappeared out of the blue was the only thing stopping him from running away. Tamaki splashed water one more time against his face and took a deep breath.

The bathroom door opened with a loud bang, making Tamaki turn around in surprise. He visibly relaxed when he recognized Mirio. The door shut down again, dulling the music from the bar. Once Mirio spotted Tamaki, he smiled brightly and walked to him, his legs a little wobbly.

"Tamaki!" Mirio yelled, cheeks bright red. He put a hand on Tamaki's shoulder for support, a giggle escaping from his lips. "I had never seen you wearing a leather jacket before and… is that eyeliner? You look cool, man."

"Yui's brother, Iruka," Tamaki explained with a small shrug. The smell of alcohol in his friend’s breath confirmed his earlier suspicions. "Are you drunk?"

Mirio looked around while pursing his lips as if making sure no one was listening to them.

"... Maybe," he whispered.

"Maybe? Y-you can't even walk a straight, I--"

His words were cut off by Mirio's lips pressing against their own. Tamaki couldn't help but let out a small yelp, his arms shooting up to the sides of his chest. After pulling away for a second, Mirio leaned in once more and kissed his bottom lip as softly as he could. Keeping his blue eyes fixed on his friend’s mouth, he gently brushed his parted lips against his, his eyebrows furrowed in curiosity.

Tamaki felt his legs were going to give out at any moment, the alcohol in the man’s breath in front of him intoxicating him as if he had drunk himself. He was in such a state of shock he didn’t realize he hadn’t kissed him back until he felt the tip of Mirio’s tongue grazing his lower lip. Experimentally, he kissed his friend’s upper lip, trying not to overthink the situation they were in. He felt Mirio smile and take some air, but before he could say anything, the door opened. Mirio pulled away rapidly, setting his hands on the sink next to the one Tamaki has been using. Loud noise from the bar filled the bathroom again, making Tamaki feel as if he was just waking up for dream.

“Hey, we’re waiting for you,” Akito reminded him, tilting his head towards the door. He didn't seem to have noticed anything, or at least pretended he didn't. “C’mon.”

Tamaki nodded, shooting a quick glance to Mirio, who was now looking at his reflection in the mirror, trying to fix his hair. What the hell had just happened? Should he say something? Could he say anything about a situation he couldn't even begin to understand?

Noticing Akito was still impatiently waiting for him at the door, Tamaki decided to follow him to the stage, where Yui had a stern expression on her face, arms crossed in front of her chest.

“The fuck, dude? I thought you had died in there."

Kind of, he thought.

“S-sorry,” Tamaki muttered, picking up his guitar.

“We’re doing ‘When we were young’ to start," she instructed him as she took her place behind the drums.

“The Killers?”

“I told you it was Nostalgia Night today. You read the setlist I emailed you last night, right?” Yui asked, raising her eyebrow.

“Sorry, sorry,” he said, scratching the back of his head. “I’m a little out of it. I- I do remember the setlist, sorry”.

Yui’s expression fell a little. “Are you okay? Is it because Mirio and Nejire are here?”

“Yes,” Tamaki lied. Yui sighed and looked to the people gathered in front of the small stage. Mirio was chatting with Nejire happily, both of them holding drinks and smiling.

“Look, I'm sorry I didn't ask you before inviting them. But they’ve been your friends far longer than they have been mine. I’m sure they’ll be proud of you. Once you conquer this night, nothing can ever stop you again, okay?” she said, a small smile on her face. Taking a deep breath, Tamaki nodded. “Great! Now, help me bring the microphone closer to my drums, I’m singing this one."

A couple of minutes later, after a short introduction of the band, Yui tilted her head to Tamaki, who strummed his guitar, marking the beginning of the song.

You sit there in your heartache

Waiting on some beautiful boy to

To save you from your old ways

Yui’s voice had the perfect combination of roughness and strength that fit the rock songs they usually played. Even if Iruka usually did the singing, for the last month Yui had insisted they all should have a go at it.

Tamaki looked at the audience, his face rising in heat when he realized both his friends were on the first row, their big eyes set on him. He immediately lookd away. Would he feel as afraid as he did if Mirio hadn’t just kissed him not even an hour ago? His eyes darted away, looking at the rest of the band. For several tears, he had done the best he could to hide the feelings that had been tormenting him about his friend , since he knew there was no way they were reciprocated. Had he been far less sneaky as he thought he was? Had Mirio somehow discovered it? The wildest theories his brain came up with still couldn’t help him understand why would Mirio kiss him if he didn’t feel anything for him. Could he really...? Was this real?

He doesn't look a thing like Jesus

But he talks like a gentleman

Like you imagined when you were young

Tamaki looked once again at his friends, the words sang by Yui resonating in his head as he took notice in how bright Mirio’s smile was. He would flat out lie if he said that he never, not even in the solitude of his dorm room, had wondered what it would be to kiss him. He also hated the fact his fantasies hadn’t come close to what he had just experienced. The softness and curiosity of his friend’s movements had him smiling once more, not being able to refrain himself.

The song came to an end with a round of cheers from the crowd. Tamaki smiled softly, thankful he hadn’t messed up even if his mind was somewhere else. They played a couple of more songs, easing Tamaki more and more into the comfortable state he was always at when he performed on stage. Once he played the final chord, he looked back at Yui, waiting for her sign to play the next song but instead, she waved at him, calling him over. He furrowed his eyebrows and obliged, walking to the drums.

“See? This is going great!” she grinned, taking a swig of her water bottle. “You wanna try that song we were rehearsing the other day? The one you sang?”

“Y-you’re sure?” he asked, twisting his mouth. Yui nodded enthusiastically.

“Yeah! It sounds great when you do it. C’mon, take the mic”

Iruka and Akito saw Tamaki placing the mic stand in front of him and looked over at Yui, who raised her thumbs at them. Knowing which song was next, they left their drinks on the floor and placed their hands on their instruments once more. Once everyone was ready, Tamaki began playing the well-known riff, the band quickly following him.

Coming out of my cage

And I've been doing just fine

The feeling of fullness music gave him was something he had never experienced before. If he had known live music had such an empowering effect on him, he would have tried it long ago. He only ever played around with his guitar when he thought no one was looking, so he was really lucky Yui had ended up listening to him playi. They both had been invited to a pool party, but Tamaki had quickly left the crowd and started walking around the house. He found a guitar in one of the rooms and started idly strumming some chords, trying to pass the time until Nejire and Mirio wanted to return to the dorms. Yui had been wandering around the house as well when she heard him, and later made it her life mission to get him to meet Iruka and Akito so he could be a part of her new band.

It started out with a kiss

How did it end up like this?

Tamaki laughed under his breath when the crowd chanted the next line and turned his head at them, wanting to keep this memory forever. His wish was cruelly granted when the very first image that greeted him was Mirio kissing someone else. She had long, black, wavy hair falling down her back and it didn’t look like anyone Tamaki had seen at their college before, but that didn’t stop his friend from pulling her even tighter against his body.

Muscle memory is a funny thing. Even when your mind is no longer there, music triggers a part of your brain that makes your body play your instrument perfectly if you’ve rehearsed long enough. He wished he could look anywhere but at this random girl circling his friend’s neck with her arms as she kissed him. Tamaki could no longer hear the music around him or even know if he was still breathing. There was only one thing in his mind and the image of it was breaking him into a million pieces.

And I just can't look, it's killing me

And taking control

Tamaki looked over at Nejire, who was happily oblivious to her friend’s state as she danced to the music. He turned to the side once more, facing Iruka and Akito. The crowd sang at the top of their lungs and he doubted whether they could listen to his voice anymore. He refused to look at the crowd again, knowing what was happening right in front of him. Fuck, how did things get so complicated? He had been just fine denying his feelings all those years, not paying attention to them, confident there was no way Mirio would look at him in a different way, and not only had he been proved wrong, but in a dramatically short span of time the timid hope that had grown in his heart has been stomped in the most cruel way. If only his feelings had been crushed, then why did his chest hurt so much?

“How did it end up like this?” he sang, letting out an amused, dry laugh. “It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss.”

How he wished he could get his beating heart to understand just that. It had been nothing more than a drunk kiss. And while maybe that meant the kiss with the girl was also just a drunk kiss, it didn’t make him feel any better. In fact, it only managed to tore his crumbled heart a bit more.

The song ended and Tamaki would be lying if he said he remembered which songs they played next. He could vaguely recall Iruka taking the mic stand from him and handing it to Akito. Considering Yui’s big smile after their set was done, he knew he hadn’t messed up but still couldn’t find comfort in it. He couldn’t take his mind off of the image of Mirio kissing that girl, the taste of alcohol on Mirio’s lips as he kissed him in the bathroom and his bright, bright smile as he looked up to him onstage.

The band sat on the bar as they were given free beer as payment for their performance. Nejire sat with them, congratulating them for their set, saying how much she loved it and that she was definitely going to attend their next gig. Mirio was nowhere to be seen but Tamaki didn’t comment on it. He didn’t even want to check if the girl he had seen him with was still around. When Yui asked Nejire where did Mirio go, she excused him saying he had been feeling a bit under the weather and had hailed a cab back to the dorms. Tamaki couldn’t help but snort.

“Told you it was going to be a great night,” Yui smiled, elbowing him playfully. Tamaki nodded and took another swig of his beer.

[dialovers-translations]

Diabolik Lovers DARK FATE ー Carla [MANSERVANT ENDING]

[Vampire] [Manservant] [Brute]

ー The scene starts with a black screen

Yui: ( I can’t take it anymore...! )

Shin: Che...Nii-san...

Carla: ...

Shin: Don’t tell me...This is the time...When you decide to hold back? ...Come on. Grab hold of your sword again.

Yui: Eh...!? 

ー Yui opens her eyes again

Carla: ...Is that what it looks like to you?

Shin: Yeah, it does. I mean, ever since I was just a kid...

I’ve been keeping a close eye on you...

Come on...Here I come!!

*CLING*

Carla: Ugh...!

Shin: I can see through everything! Like whether or not you’re giving it your all!

I guess I’m being underestimated. Am I really that unworthy of an opponent? 

*CLING*

Shin: You’re even ill on top of everything, yet you’re still looking down on me!? 

I can’t forgive you...!!

*CLING*

Shin: Not ever!!

*CLING*

Yui: ( Oh no...At this rate, both of them will...! )

Just stop already!!

Carla: ...!!

Yui: It’s been enough, you two!!

Shin: What do you mean!? Enough, my ass!!

Yui: But at this rate, you’ll boーー

Shin: You’re getting on my nerves. Back off already

*Cling*

*Thud*

Yui: Kyaah!!

Carla: ...!! Yui!

*Cling*

Shin: Woah there...Don’t move, Nii-san. If you don’t want to see her head hit the ground, that is.

Carla: Shin, you bastard...!

Shin: Hahaha. Holding one chick hostage is really all it takes for the King of Founders to be shaken up? 

Nonsense!

*Woosh*

Yui: Kyaah...!!

( M-My arm got...cut off...! )

Carla: !!

Shin: Hahaha...This might be the first time I’ve seen you make that sorta face...

...If possible, I would have liked to see it under different circumstances. 

Carla: Shin...!

Shin: Actually, if you’re gonna make that kind of expression, then I can no longer consider you my Nii-san.

My Nii-san is perfect after all. He’s the absolute ruler...Yet, the guy standing in front of me right now...

...has lost his cool over some puny little girl...fearing that she might be killed.

That doesn’t make any sense! You are no longer the older brother who I respected, yet loathed at the same time...!

*STAB*

Yui: Aah...!!

Shin: Come on, tell me! Tell me that you’re not fazed! That you don’t give a damn about this chick...

Spit it out!!

Carla: ...

Shin: I can tell that you are simply trying to act smug. You are terrified...

Exactly. Because you developed special feelings for this little girl...You are no longer that perfect older brother you once were...

Carla: Shin, what are you being delusional about?

Shin: ...Hah? 

Carla: This perfect older brother you speak of, never existed in the first place. 

Shin: Ugh...!!

Carla: You should know that very well. I killed our Father, the King.

From that point onwards, I was no longer...

Shin: Shut up!!

*Cling*

Shin: ーー You’re just better off dead, so shut up!

*STAB*

Carla: Guah...!? 

Yui: Carla...san...!!

Shin: Fuck off...I can’t believe you call yourself a King, yet you won’t even admit to your own weakness...

*Thud*

Carla: Guh...Ah, uu...!!

Shin: I mean, aren’t I right? For a King such as yourself to become like this...for that stupid pipsqueak over there...

You shouldn’t devote yourself to someone like that!!

*THUD* 

Carla: Uu!!

Yui: Stop...Just please, stop...

Shin: What’s the problem, little pest? Do you want to die first, perhaps? 

Yui: Shin-kun...This is...

Shin: Shut up.

*STAB*

Yui: Aaaah...!!

Carla: ...Cut it out...Shin.

Shin: ...!! How many times do I have to tell you to buzz off!? I don’t have the time...to keep up with this farce of you two!

*Thud*

Shin: What is this bullshit!? Why did this...?

Don’t disappoint me like this!

Us Founders...First Bloods...We’re better than this, aren’t we!? 

Carla: I’m sorry, Shin...However...

Shin: You really think an ‘I’m sorry’ will solve things at this point!? Don’t fuck with me!!

*Thud*

Carla: Guh...

Shin: Ahーahーahー...I don’t think I’ll be able to rest in peace...until I’ve ripped both of you to shreds with my bare hands...

Carla: ...You may do with me as you please, however...

Shin: Nice try! But I won’t listen to you. You’re no longer my Nii-san.

Therefore, I’m no longer taking any orders...or favors from you!

*Thud*

Yui: ( Shin-kun is enraged...Yet at the same time, he looks so very sad... )

( I guess that just shows how absolute Carla-san has always been in his eyes... )

( That’s why he can’t allow for him to open his heart to me, even just the slightest bit... )

Shin: Hey, Nii-san...Let me ask you one more time. You don’t actually care about her, do you?

Carla: Ugh...

Shin: If you say that...I’ll spare your life.

Carla: Shin...

Shin: Come on, give me your answer. This is your final chance...

Carla: ーー her.

Shin: I can’t hear you. 

Carla: I love...that woman.

Yui: ...!!

Carla: ...I kept brooded over it this whole time. Telling myself that as a King...I should not let myself get swayed by such sentiments. 

However...I am simply unable...of suppressing my own feelings. 

As soon as I realized, I could no longer lie to myself. 

Shin: ーー Heeh. 

Carla: Thereforeーー

Shin: Enough. I don’t want to hear it.

*STAB*

Yui: ...!! C-Carla-san...Uu...

*Thud*

On certain CGs, little black roses will appear on the screen. If you click on them, you get an extra line of dialogue.

“Shin...My younger brother...As one of us First Bloods...I am leaving the rest to you...”

“I do not mind what happens to me. However, if a God truly exists in this world, please answer my plea. At the very least...Spare this woman whom I love so much...”

Carla: Yui.

Shin: Oh geez...You want to go together hand-in-hand!?

Ah, this pisses me off! I’m gonna puke! I’ll just finish you both off...

Die!!

*STAB*

Yui: ...Ugh. 

Carla: ...

Yui: ( Why? Why did this happen? How come...? )

( Hey, God...Answer me if you’re there!! )

ー The screen fades to black

Shin: ...

How ridiculous. Love? My ass...

I can’t believe the guy who was more powerful than anyone would give in to such sissy feelings...

Unforgivable. 

*Cling*

*Stab*

Yui: ...

Shin: For this stupid little girl, nontheless...Honestly, who is the one who lost their mind...? 

ーー Hey, my bad but...We don’t actually need you. 

But your heart, remember?

We told you from the very start, didn’t we? Yet Nii-san got the wrong idea...

I’ll take your heart. I need it after all. 

As long as I have this heart, we can flourish once more. 

ーー All I need is this heart...!!

*STAB*

Shin: Eh?

Karlheinz: Truly pitiful. 

Shin: You are...Karlheinz...!? 

*Thud*

Karlheinz: ーー Eve...Carla...While this may not be of any consolation to the two of you. 

This was simply your dark fate... 

It was the result of the combination of three individuals:

one who wholeheartedly accepted their ideals, one who pushed their ideals onto others and finally, one who turned a blind eye to all of it. 

You simply could not live underneath the same sky.  

Yui: ...

Karlheinz: Eve, please rest in peace. 

I am sure that eventually the time will come, where you will be able to conquer this fate.

You simply must be patient until then. Okay?

ーー THE END ーー

[wheres-my-sanity]

We were just children pt.2

Summary: What happens if you meet your childhood best friend after 15 years again? On the other end in a nightmarish fog that only seeks to kill its inhabitants. Old wounds get reopened and scars show. But there always a change of forgiveness. You just have to take it.

Pairing: Felix Richter x Élodie Rakoto

A/N: So the second chapter is here. Like I said this will heavily focus on the angst between Felix and Élodie. In this chapter, there will be NO romance, mainly because I don't want to make Felix a cheater. There will be romance eventually, but I'm not sure when the best time for this would be, but for now please enjoy the second chapter.

It had been a week since Élodie had arrived in the entity’s realm. During this time the others had tried to explain the situation as best as possible. After her arrival at the campfire, she had seen David and another woman casually walk to the campfire. The woman, her name was Jane, had been apparently on the Wreck yard too, but was already dead when Élodie arrived. All these people had their unique backstory, like the Japanese biker woman, who apparently was a street race queen, or the Italian guy who was a gambler before he was dragged here. Élodie quickly made friends with Laurie, a woman who seemed to be able to kick all their asses, except maybe David’s, the point was she was a tough girl. She also told her some more things about Michael, how he was her older brother, and how she just wished he would stop. 2 days after her first “trial” she was thrown in another with David, Yui, and Steve, a boy who seemed so confident that it was almost amusing. It ended with Élodie’s tongue brutally ripped out and her body completely broken. But she awoke again she could feel all her injuries healed. The next trials went the same, all ending with Élodie being either sacrificed on a meat hook or getting killed by the killer himself. The killers she encountered were a nurse who chocked her, an actual cowboy with a speargun, and the small format of Michael called Ghostface. On her 5th trial then she finally managed to escape through the exit gates, against the Huntress, a woman who, according to David, only was rivalled in hight by the Oni and a killer called Trapper, who Élodie hadn’t met yet.

During all this time everyone was nice to her and gave her words of courage. All except for one: Felix. Her old best friend. He avoided her whenever he could and when he couldn’t he didn’t speak. The first few days Élodie didn’t mind. She was too busy figuring everything out. After asking Laurie about Felix, she revealed that Felix was still mourning the loss of his wife and unborn child. Apparently, he was as introverted as when they were children. The only persons he really talked to were Steve and Cheryl, who he both pitied, and Kate, who he respected the hell out of. After her first week, Élodie was immediately thrown into another trail, this time with Laurie, Feng and Ace. It ended emotionally with Laurie sacrificing herself so that Élodie could find the hatch. After she arrived at the campfire, only to see Felix turning his back once more to her she just couldn’t live with that anymore. He stormed after Felix, catching him somewhat inside the woods surrounding the campfire.

“Why do you always avoid me Fe?” Élodie asked, with tears in her eyes “Do you hate me that much?” Felix turned around and looked at her, sadness in his eyes. “I could never hate you Élo. But seeing you here, it hurts. It hurts so damn much. It reminds me of them.” Felix didn’t need to explain to her who “them” were. She felt it too. The desire to see them again, but knowing that it would never happen. She told herself that if she believed hard enough, she would find them, but now she might as well give up. The only thing she could do is to make peace with herself and she would do this right here, right now. “I know how it feels Fe. Do you think I didn’t feel the same? The wish to see them again, to hold them again.” “But we won’t.” “No” Élodie answered “But we can honor them in living our lives. They didn’t want us to mourn about them.” “You’re right Élo, but how are we supposed to live if everything is against us?” Felix asked. “You know when we were children there were only us two. We against the whole world and we still would win. And now it isn’t so different. We may have nothing here, except ourselves, but isn’t that enough?” “I’m sorry.” “Nothing to be sorry about Fe,” Élodie said and pulled Felix into a tight hug. “Pariahs forever.” After Élodie and Felix had returned to the campfire and Élodie let herself fall on her usual resting place. “There you are.” Élodie almost jumped when Laurie sat next to her. “You didn’t have to do this for me. Are you ok?” Élodie asked worriedly. “Well as good as you can be after being sacrificed on a meat hook.” “This is no joke!” “Believe me, after being killed so often, you stop to care about it at some point. But tell me, what about you Felix?” “How do you even know?” Laurie laughed. “Well, seems like stalking is in the family. But you haven’t answered my question. What did you talk about?” “We made peace with each other.” Laurie’s face took a thoughtful expression. “You’re thinking about him again, aren’t you?” “Yes.” Laurie answered “The whole time I knew him he tried to kill me. He never even spoke to me. I wonder if he ever thinks about me as his little sister, or just as another victim.” “Maybe,” Élodie responded, “he just has forgotten what family means.” “Maybe.” Laurie breathed. “Anyway, how do you even know Felix? You don’t seem to have a lot in common.” Élodie laughed, “We were friends when we were little.” “That’s adorable,” Laurie laughed “Anyways, I think I might want to sleep a little. Dying is exhausting.” With that, Laurie stood up and walked to the shelters the survivors had built, but before she entered, she turned around one last time. “Friends are important Élodie, try to keep them as long as possible.” “Not just friends,” Élodie thought “best friends.”

While this all was happening a man, who sits in a chair, a glass of vodka in his hands observed. “What an interesting turn.” He mumbled to himself. “You’re both are closer than ever before.”

[skiyoosmi]

if fate permits

⤷ chapter eighteen: letting go

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“So, are we actually gonna address the elephant in the room?” Iwaizumi asks, breaking the silence that has been present the moment you’ve arrived in the small ramen place he had suggested to go to. Apparently, Oikawa Tooru recommended this place to him, all while sulking about how he used to love this restaurant until his most recent ex-lover broke up with him here. You felt pity for the lad, of course, since Hajime said that the girl broke up due to the chocolate-haired boy’s “too much” love and passion for his sport. But your companion right now assured you and said to not worry... because “Tooru can move on as fast as he falls in love.”

Going back to the present, Hajime felt like he already had his hundredth bite of the meal he ordered and you two have yet to have a decent conversation about the miseries of your own love stories. Still, the food was great, and he thinks you think so too, judging by the way your eyes seemed to light up a little bit right after you had your first bite. Gotta thank that Trashykawa for doing something good this time, he thought before smiling to himself, proud.

“You know, if it weren’t for Atsumu, I wouldn’t have had the opportunity to widen my fortes when it comes to writing and I wouldn’t have met new people, including you. But ever since everything spiraled into this mess, I’ve been wondering if it was ever worth it,” you replied, speaking so fast and so sad that the spiky haired lad couldn’t reply, “because if I never accepted and pushed him to the auditions, he wouldn’t have met Yui, he wouldn’t have fallen in love with her at first sight… he wouldn’t have had to argue with me for saying that she was not his soulmate… and now I also got you into this mess because it’s like Yui’s actually entertaining his feelings!”

Under any normal circumstance where you’re both joking around, Hajime would’ve simply laughed at you; would’ve told you that you were just being silly and an overthinker. It’s what usually happens to your conversations while you sat in the middle of the empty theater room, making props for your dearest actors and actresses, after all. But the last bits of your words were like a pill that was so hard to swallow because…

“YN…” he trailed off, a pathetic attempt of a laugh trying to escape throat that seemed to have tightened up, “… have I told you that she knows I’m her soulmate? That she can see it?”

He failed though, for he could only croak it out with a voice so fragile he was sure as hell you could hear the tragedy in his words. If you were being honest, it actually feels like your own heart found its way down to your stomach.

You halted, hands stopping from slicing the small steak that was on your plate. What did he just say, you thought, his words echoing in your brain but failing to be registered. Perhaps, it was because you almost did not believe it… only one of a pair is supposed to see the thread, how…?

Almost as if he can read your mind, Hajime continued to speak, “she’s the one who can originally see the thread. If it weren’t for me being a Moira too, I would be like Atsumu: a clueless fool…” he stopped speaking, gulping so hard it felt like something’s stuck in his throat… “but you know what sucks more than being like a fool? It’s the fact that even if she already knows, she can’t bring herself to love me. I’m the one who’s on the other side of her thread, you know? Just goes to show that not all soulmates are meant to be together.”

“B-but… how could she do that?” you gasped, tears starting to well up from the pain your heart is feeling. It’s like someone ripped it out of your chest and began stomping on it.

“People who are 'in love' tend to forget… others, along with themselves, except for the one they love, YN. I think you’d know that too.”

And then he sadly smiled.

The night was good as dead while you strutted beside Hajime as he walked you home. This walk was, by far, the most tensed walk you’ve ever had with someone who was not your twin brother. You’d rather bicker with your companion rather than spend the whole time, gaping at him, looking for a chance to just… if you were being honest, you have no idea what you wanted to do… comfort him or something?

“I knew we shouldn’t have addressed that freaking elephant in the room,” you grumbled under your breath, head shooting up when you heard him stifle his laugh. Great, YN, you’re doing good, you pat yourself mentally on your shoulders. Your little happy moment was cut short, however, upon your apartment coming into view.

What a timing, as always.

You fear the fact that once you go in and he starts his journey back to the train station, every sad feeling he was trying to suppress will come rushing to him; just like what happens to you every time you–

“Hey. Don’t worry about me, I’m fine. I’ve been living with these feelings for so long already. Besides, I’m a man, remember?” He raised his hand and placed it on your head, patting it as he moved his face closer to yours. Your eyes widened and you felt your face flush at the proximity, a squeak escaping your mouth. He snickered as soon as he leaned back, “Aahh… if you keep looking like that, I’ll feel even more convinced that I should really do it.”

You furrowed your eyebrows together, unable to decipher what he was trying to say.

“I’m sorry, YN. But I think I’m letting go of Yui now.”

⤷ notes. ta-daaaaa...? or oops? idk but i hope you enjoy this chapter cause... ITS ALL ABOUT TO GO DOWN SOON!

[jokertrap-ran]

[Stand My Heroes] 挽夏のミステリーブライド (Late summer Mystery Bride) Event Story: Part　① Translations

*Sutamai Master-list *MC name is retained default Izumi Rei *Scenario Writer: @eno_bara (榎戸乃ばら)

Part 1 / Part 2 / Part 3 / Part 4 / Special Stages

--Back when I was alive… I thought that I’d lose everything, once the spark of life snuffed out.

Affections. Loneliness. Happiness, sadness…--All of it.

Asagiri: But I was mistaken. Everything still resides within me, as vivid as ever.

Asagiri: Affections, loneliness, happiness, sadness…--Therefore,

Asagiri: I wish to stay by you.

Asagiri: I cannot stand being alone any longer.

Rei: A-Asagiri-san…?

Asagiri: If I’m unable to stay by you, then I’d much rather I--…

─────────────────────��───⋅…⋆⋅☆

--Mid-August.

⋆⋅☆ Investigation Planning Division ☆⋅⋆

Asagiri: …Huh? A trip together with the Kujo Family?

Rei: Yup. This year’s Obon Holidays spans an entire week so,

Rei: After returning to our Family Home, paying our respects and maybe doing a big clean-up of the rooms or something,

Rei: We’d still have quite some time left to spare before our Holidays come to an end, so they extended an invitation to us while we were on the topic.

We had just finished and successfully closed a case today. It was a pretty nasty one that netted us to carry out a Joint Investigation with MPD’s Investigation Division One.

We toasted with bitter coffee, to our satisfactory triumph over successfully curtailing and prosecuting the suspect during our investigations. A toast, and chatter, about the upcoming Obon Holidays.

Imaoji: Well, it’s basically a trip where all parties involved and related to STAND can gather and bond together as friends.

Rei: That’s right. Shion-kun’s coming too, apparently. And Seki-san has given his official stamp of approval about it as well.

Asagiri: I see.

Yui: Izumi, if anyone looks like they’re trying to pull some funky business, don’t hesitate to use the Special Crime-prevention Spray.

Rei: Ahaha…Yes, I do have that packed.

Asagiri: It’s the Obon Holidays, so it’s going to be packed everywhere. Where is the intended destination?

Rei: It’s…

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⋆⋅☆ Inside the Car ☆⋅⋆

Kirishima: La-la-la, an old castle♪ Kujo♪ Old castle-san and Kujo-san♪ Hm-hm-hm-hmmm~♪

Hinata & Kaname: …………

Kirishima: I’m going on a Trip to an Old Castle with family today♪ Kujo-san who plays in the Old Castle♪ How cool of ya’~ Kujo-san♪

Kujo & Miyase: …………

Kirishima: Kujo and an Old Castle, I’m so hyped up♪ I’m in such a good mood~♪

Shindo: ……

Kirishima: Come on Rei, you continue!

Rei: EHHH!?

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⋆⋅☆ Inside the Car ☆⋅⋆

Rei: Hold up! I’ve been totally out of it till you called me out-

Kirishima: You just have to go along the flow with this kinda’ thing. Just try singing about how you feel to come on a trip to an Old Castle with the Kujo Family!

Rei: Try singing…?

Kaname: (That’s asking for the impossible…)

All the attention in the car centred on me, sitting on one of the Passenger Seats. A long-awaited Trip. Kirishima, who’s in a Godly-jolly Mood.

Rei: (…Right. I can’t let the mood die like this!)

Rei: A-An Old Castle♪…Kids♪ Elephant-san and Kujo-san…♪

Kirishima: Kids…

Kaname: Elephant…

Rei: Argh~ I’m so sorry! Kirishima-san added Rhymes to his tune, so I thought that I’d do the same too.

Shindo: Did you forget to pack a Travel Bag for your senses too?

Rei: Your jibes are as sharp as ever!

Kujo: --Pft.

Miyase: Heh. Seems like you grew a tail in Izumi-san’s song, Kujo-san.

Kujo: …No, I’m not making fun of it at all. It’s a brilliant improvised song.

Rei: It’s okay. I’d actually feel much better about this embarrassment of one if you laughed.

Kujo: I apologise…Pft-

Kirishima: Haha. Ain’t it great!? You’ve come up with a song that made even that Kujo-san laugh!

Kirishima: Rei, you’ve really got a good musical sense in ya!

Rei: I still can’t beat yours though!

Kirishima: Well, my version of the “Kujo-san and the Old Castle Song” came out pretty well too!

Shindo: Is the word twist in your dictionary?

Miyase: It’s a brilliant Song Name.

Kujo-san and—The “Old Castle”-san. The subject of Kirishima’s Original Song, was none other then the destination we were headed to with him behind the wheel.

Our destination was an “Old Castle Converted Hotel” that one of Kujo’s acquaintances owned. The Old Historic Castle had been renovated to become accommodatable and we were all invited to stay in it before it opened its doors to accept guests. Call it a Trial Run, of sorts.

Hinata: Mmngh…

Kaname: Oh, you’re awake.

Hinata: Mm…Have we already reached our lodgings?

Kirishima: The GPS says that we’ve got another 3 Minutes left.

Miyase: --Oh, isn’t that the Castle’s Rooftop we’re seeing over there?

Looking out of the Car’s Windshield, I could see green-tiled roofs that were pointing sky-ward.

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⋆⋅☆ Old Castle: Corridor ☆⋅⋆

Rei: Whoa…This is amazing. It’s really a Castle!

Hinata: The air in here’s really cool.

Kujo: I heard that Air-Conditioning was also installed during the renovations.

Miyase: Ohh, so that’s why it feels as cool as a cooler in here!

Hinata: It’s easier to sleep with so I think it’s a boon.

Kaname: Aren’t there any staff in here?

Kujo: Apparently, one of the pre-requisites of this place was to “Have no outsiders”.

Kujo: But I’ve got consent to use this facility however we wish during our stay here.

Kaname: Hmm. So we’re the only ones within this castle right now.

Rei: It’s a little exciting, when you think about it.

Kirishima: …………

Miyase: …Kirishima-san? What’s wrong?

Kirishima: Huh?

Miyase: You must be tired from driving. I apologise for leaving the wheel to you.

Kirishima: No, I’m not the least bit tired at all. Plus, I love driving!

Miyase: Then I suppose it’s fine.

Kirishima: You bet’cha! Well, we’ve definitely gotta explore this place first. Let’s see what this Castle has to offer!

Hinata: I’ll look for a good napping spot.

Kujo: Don’t you all want to know more about this Castle before you wander off exploring?

Kirishima: I wanna know!

Miyase: I shall prepare tea then. I hear that there’s a kitchen in here accessible to the Tenants.

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⋆⋅☆ Old Castle: Study ☆⋅⋆

Kujo explained that the Lounge open to the VIP Guests had actually been the former Land-lord’s Study.

Hinata: The number of books in here is astounding. The collections in here have been beautifully preserved.

Miyase: I’m amazed by this and the Vintage Tea Sets that’s been carefully maintained.

Kujo: I hear that a Young Noble lived here in the past, alone.

Kujo: And that a caretaker was appointed to take care of the Castle after his death, according to his Will.

Rei: Alone?

Kirishima: In such a huge Castle?

Kujo: Yes. His parents died early-on in his life and it seems like he, himself, died young, having taken his own life.

Kaname: What…?

Silence descended upon us at the revelation.

Kirishima: …Did he die in this room?

Kujo: How’d you guess that?

Rei: Uwa…

Kirishima: No, I just…had a feeling.

I suddenly became acutely aware of this place, now that I knew that “Someone had died here”. That there was someone else here, present, as we casually sipped at our tea.

Rei: (I’ve been to sites where lives were lost during my Investigation. But this…this is a little different.)

Kirishima: Please continue; tell us more.

Kujo: Apparently, the only thing he had written in his Suicide Note was “I’m bored”.

Hinata & Kaname: ……

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⋆⋅☆ Old Castle: Study ☆⋅⋆

The young man that lived here had put on a honey-sweet facade and was popular within the society’s circles.

Every night, without fail, he’d bring woman upon woman into this Castle of his. He never grew tired of it, despite having perpetually filled entire wings of them. However, despite the copious number of women he had invited in, it seemed like not one of them had managed to move his heart.

Kujo: For it he already had someone he had been enraptured with.

Shindo: But he had to let go of her— Was she the Wife of another?

Kujo: Indeed.

Kujo: He was never satisfied, no matter how much he repeated this cycle of mutual agreement between both parties. For he longed for someone he could never obtain.

Kujo: Thus, conceding to death alone, in the end.

Hinata: The person that held his interests might be the girl reflected in this Photo Album here.

Rei: Huh?

Shion had retrieved a thick and large tome from the bookshelf sometime during the explanation.   He showed it to us as he returned back to his seat on the sofa.

Hinata: It’s all photos of the same girl.

Miyase: Wow, she’s pretty dazzling.

Rei: (She’s really gorgeous…She has her back straight and her entire being exudes coolness in every picture.)

Kujo: She bears some resemblance to you.

Rei: What?

Kaname: Maybe. Rather than how she looks, I suppose it’s the aura she has around her?

Kirishima: Oh…Now that you mention it.

Kirishima: Like how she’s so at ease despite having a photo taken, as if she doesn’t give a shit at all. Or maybe the part where her expressions change every second?

Hinata: It’s only natural-looking because they were all taken in secret.

Kirishima: Huh? How’d ya’ know that?

Hinata: There isn’t a single picture in here where she’s looking straight at the camera. And the flash function wasn’t activated even when the photos were taken at night.

Shindo: I see. All so that the person being snapped photos of doesn’t notice.

Kirishima: Ain’t that just like…Tokusatsu?

Hinata: The Sentai Hero?

Kaname: You meant Voyeurism, don’t you?

Kirishima: That’s the one!

Shindo: It’s a little ironic that someone wealthy enough to own a Castle like this has to lower themselves down to the likes of a stalker who stockpiles photos of his target.

Kirishima: Oh, speaking of Stalkers. –Miyase.

Miyase: Yes?

Kirishima: The Toaster that you had written off as broken; I managed to make it work by giving it a little smack this morning.

Miyase: Ahh, thank you so much for fixing it. I see, so all that Toaster needed was a simple smack from you.

Kujo: I’ll purchase a new Toaster.

Shindo: What are you talking about…?

Kirishima’s unique train of thought softened the tense atmosphere in the room. But right at that moment—

Rei: Eek!

Kirishima: Rei!?

The Teacup that had previously been seated atop the table fell with a clang and shattered into smithereens

There goes my top, brilliantly stained by the tea that had spilt forth.

Miyase: Are you alright!? Did you get scalded!?

Rei: I’m fine. The tea had already cooled anyway.

Rei: Rather than that, what just happened just now?

Hinata: The Teacup moved on its own accord…?

Kujo & Shindo: --

???: (…Ah-ah~ How boring.)

???: (I’m about to go crazy from boredom.)

???: (Who would’ve known that boredom would follow me even in death.)

???: (I wouldn’t have chosen to die in such a boring place like this if I knew that I wouldn’t be able to leave this place after I died.)

???: (Hm…? I can hear an approaching vehicle. Is it that stuffy and uptight constriction lot again?)

Kirishima: YEAH! IT’S THE OLD CASTLE!! WE’VE FINALLY ARRIVED!!

???: (Seems like it’s a different group…but well, I suppose anyone will do.)

???: (Anyone; save me from this never-ending boredom--)

───⋅𝕿𝖎𝖑𝖑 𝖓𝖊𝖝𝖙 𝖙𝖎𝖒𝖊…⋆⋅☆