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Is this too much to ask for? 🥺

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Manifesting friendship and love both in one person. Pure Goals. ❤️🥺

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It's really hard to find my Mr. Darcy in this world full of Mr. Wickham's.! :/

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I need someone to hold me like this legit. 🥺

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Mood

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Just finished watching Bizim Hikaye today (19.05.2021)... and OhhMyyGod......my heart is so full. 🥺❤️ I feel so much better now..... These are some tough times really.... This show gave me hope. Comfort show 101! Highly recommended. Stay strong y'all, we got this! ❤️

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"MY TERMS"

-Patrick Jane.

~The Mentalist

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One of my favourites series. The Mentalist.

Binged watched the last season today. Worth every second of it.

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A superpower, a true Queen.

Well deserved. ❤️✨

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Moving on:

I finally got this weird feeling; a feeling of not caring anymore.

Even if I wanted to...it just didn't exist anymore.

Maybe I have become numb.

It's been two years, and here I am looking back at the days that I thought I couldn't survive.

Days where every breath that I took felt like something heavy was crushing my heart, along with my soul.

Everytime I looked at myself, I questioned who I had become and what I was becoming.

It was painful, hell it was so painful. Looking at myself became painful.

With everytime of me looking back, there's a hard pill to swallow...

You were not there anymore and idk what I expected from you maybe it was too much, or maybe it wasn't maybe you did care, maybe you didn't or ...maybe I was just stupid and naive,

What matters now is that I'm here, despite it all. Two years ago I thought I couldn't live with this loss;

But then again... it's been two damn years...and me, my dear, I've unlearned, relearned and I am surviving, gratefully w/o you:)

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Simple, yet an enigma

That's who you are,

Sunlight mixed with darkness as deep as the depths of the ocean,

That's what makes you so beautiful

The abyss of your darkness

Embodied in your persona

Wanting to be heard, not judged; just heard

in everything that you do.

Love you LR ❤️

Do watch chemical hearts it's a beautiful film. :')

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Me to 2020.

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I dream about you with my eyes open.

~SS

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Change is the only constant.

“Allow yourself to love. Allow yourself to suffer. Allow yourself to change. And allow yourself to move on.”

— Juansen Dizon

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I don’t know how & when I reached this stage. Atm I’m in the last year of my high school. It’s hard to acccept the fact that our childhood is changing into adulthood so fast, it feels like I didn’t get enough time to live it thoroughly, maybe I feel this way because I don’t remember most of it…I guess, that’s what makes it so simple & yet beautiful. I suppose that this is a drastic change that everyone goes through in ones lifetime… But again I keep reminding myself that Change is the only constant. Show me the right path, Dear God. Time’s running out, seriously!