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It is truly incredible what procrastination can make u do

I have a biology test tomorrow and am currently deep cleaning my room, planning to rearrange all the furniture

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tw: internalized aphobia

It’s that time of the month; when you meet up with certain friends and they talk about relationships or just crushes in general and that dreaded moment comes when they ask “and what about you? anyone special in your life?”

and i wanna be included, i wanna share crushes of my own, i wanna tell them the truth, i wanna look them in the eyes and proudly say i’m aroace and just know that that’s true and something i take pride in. but i can’t. and that fucking sucks

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this though. I'm just trying to save you time on explaining it so we can talk about it sooner.

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Sometimes life really just feels like a movie

Two days ago, i talked to my friend about some issues my parents have in their otherwise seemingly good relationship.

Yesterday my mom sat me and my sisters down and told me she and my dad would live separately while they figured out their relationship.

I just wanna take this opportunity to slow clap the producers of the film that is my life. At least they took the time to introduce the next plot.

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Me reading something relatable: oh yeah i do that

someone commenting on the post: this is a common symptom of adhd/being neurodivergent

me: *gently placing a finger on their lips* shhh. no<3

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The real writer experience is standing in the shower and coming up with the most authentic dialogue with perfect phrasing and raw emotion in your head, then stepping out and drying your hair, putting on some clean pajamas and opening a word document to write down all your perfect ideas only to realize everything has evaporated. 

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Want to learn something new in 2022??

Absolute beginner adult ballet series (fabulous beginning teacher)

40 piano lessons for beginners (some of the best explanations for piano I’ve ever seen)

Excellent basic crochet video series

Basic knitting (probably the best how to knit video out there)

Pre-Free Figure Skate Levels A-D guides and practice activities (each video builds up with exercises to the actual moves!)

How to draw character faces video (very funny, surprisingly instructive?)

Another drawing character faces video

Literally my favorite art pose hack

Tutorial of how to make a whole ass Stardew Valley esque farming game in Gamemaker Studios 2??

Introduction to flying small aircrafts

French/Dutch/Fishtail braiding

Playing the guitar for beginners (well paced and excellent instructor)

Playing the violin for beginners (really good practical tips mixed in)

Color theory in digital art (not of the children’s hospital variety)

Retake classes you hated but now there’s zero stakes:

Calculus 1 (full semester class)

Learn basic statistics (free textbook)

Introduction to college physics (free textbook)

Introduction to accounting (free textbook)

Learn a language:

Ancient Greek

Latin

Spanish

German

Japanese (grammar guide) (for dummies)

French

Russian (pretty good cyrillic guide!)

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Okay but people really need to realize how wrong it actually is to say ‘you’ll find someone eventually’ when that person clearly said they don’t want to find anyone and that they’re already perfectly happy with their life.

If those same people told me they’re in a happy relationship and I responded to that with ‘you’ll break up eventually’ I bet they wouldn’t like that. They’d literally get so confused and be like ‘Okay sure, there is always a possibility but why bring it up so randomly when it's totally irrelevant right now.’ and that is exactly how we feel! What matters is how we feel and what we want now and not what possibly might happen in the future, especially if it’s not even likely to happen. Why is it so hard to simply accept that someone doesn’t want that change in their life and be happy for them just like they’re happy for you when you’re in a relationship?

Imagine if we told them that thinking relationships make them happy is just a phase and that they’ll realize how being single makes them a lot more fulfilled (just like how they tell us that ‘the one’ will make us change our mind). I mean, I’m sure there are people out there who do come to that realization just like there are also people who eventually realize they do want to date which is valid, of course. What is actually wrong is making unnecessary assumptions and invalidating someone’s lifestyle solely because it’s different from yours. It’s not that they are simply stating the change is possible, they actually think it will undoubtedly happen and change your life for the better because they believe their lifestyle is superior to your current one. That’s the real problem.

Instead of forcing your lifestyle on someone, you just simply need to learn that no lifestyle is superior to the other, so even if it does change it doesn’t mean their previous one was any less valid or inferior to yours. That’s literally all people need to realize in order to respect us instead of expecting the change in our lives that doesn't need to happen.

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Bitch I am on the GROUND

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Broke: Kate/Yelena

Woke: Kate and Yelena get a drink and Kate goes "so what is dating like for an assassin" and Yelena says "I've never been interested in people like that" and Kate says "oh you're asexual that's cool I'm bi do you want to join the club for identities no one believes or respects lol" and Yelena who either thought this was something unique to her because of Red Room trauma or never really thought about it (but now Kate a normal person is just talking to her like it's Normal) goes "oh ok cool cool cool" while internally adopting Kate on the spot

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Don’t you hate it when people assume things about you and you can’t say no cause they’ll just think you’re denying it and bother you about it even more. Like no Gabriella, I’m not ashamed I just don’t do that. And no everybody does not do it but I guess you wouldn’t know, you uncultured child

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It’s the fear of them not having time for you and the reality sucker punch of “I don’t want the same and as far as I know I’ll never want it but everyone else will and I’ll be alone and I wish I wanted the same thing as everyone else”. It hurts and I hate it

there's probably something to unpack in the way panic starts to well up from deep, deep in my soul when a good friend enters a romantic relationship. i should probably look into that at some point. hmm

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Yesterday was the last day of school before winter break and my brilliant class decided to have a summer theme. So more than half the class were walking around school in shorts and skirts while it was -7 degrees outside. I love my class

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Photos and final product for Mq. & Mrs.’s amazing lgbtq coloring book for kids.

Model : Alicia Michele