#thought post

[lilyginnyblackv2]

Some long, big thoughts on Kazuki, Rei, and being “Fathers.” - SPOILERS!

I really think this episode is when Kazuki and Rei really face the reality that they are Miri’s FATHERS. Like, it finally sunk in.

The lady here uses otou-sama, which is a very formal way to address the two of them, very stuffy. But also very...Japanese. In Japan, it is very commonplace nowadays for little kids to use papa and mama when addressing their parents, but those are still seen as loanwords. They don’t carry the same weight as being referred to, and seen as, FATHERS.

That question and how they would be perceived by others really hit them here. They aren’t just playing house at home anymore, they are out in society and are going to be perceived as this Miri’s fathers. That may also come with the assumption that they are a couple or in a relationship with each other. 

They both look uncomfortable here at that realization, but neither one really denies it either. Of course, this daycare is very unwelcoming and the lady far more judgmental than Anna. So that also likely plays a part in how they feel and react here too. The first daycare they go to  focused more on the business side of things. 

The room is huge, but empty, the walls are colorful, but not bright. Miri is sent off to play with blocks and the lady never directly addresses her or asks for her thoughts on things. Everything about this daycare is unwelcoming and uninviting and unaccepting, so Rei and Kazuki act coldly to this initial realization and the usage of the word FATHER here, seems very fitting.

It’s not a happy, bubbly, childlike, and even fantastical like the word “Papa” is. And the lady interviewing them, was definitely judging them, even before Miri started mentioning some more...suspicious stuff, lol.

Now, when they go to Aozora Daycare, Anna also addresses them using the word father in Japanese, but she goes with otou-san, still formal, but not stuffy and far more common and approachable. It’s still not “Papa” though. She only uses “Papa” when she talks to Miri about Rei and Kazuki. 

(In the Japanese she directly addresses Kazuki first by calling him otou-san and then stating that she was asking Miri, not him, haha). 

We are met with understanding here, though. Not judgement. The walls of Aozora are filled with children’s art projects, a piano that indicates singing and dancing time as a group, and warm smiles and comfy clothes. Everything that indicates a child-first daycare center. 

The whole interview process ends successfully. The daycare views them as suitable parents and Miri got accepted into the school. 

And while Rei looks disinterested during this entire interview. He was paying just as close attention to everything as Kazuki was, and if watch the high-five scene with a good eye, you can see that Rei actually has his hand up and waiting for Miri’s high-five before Kazuki.He understands her and her flow so well.

The rest is going under a Read More due to length.

Next we see them navigating all the prep work. And even though Rei did fall asleep at one point, we see that they both put in as much effort and energy as they can to get everything right for Miri and her first day of daycare. They both read through the handbook, write her names on things, even Rei did some sewing too. They exhaust themselves out. 

They think they make a great first impression on that first day:

But they make a lot of faux pas in the world of Japanese parenthood (specifically in a space that tends to be dominated by motherhood).

Arriving by car = ✘

Wearing suits that aren’t black = ✘

Having Miri wearing clothes that look expensive = ✘

Arriving by car is equated to wealth and money, and even to showing off, as opposed to riding a bike.

Wearing suits that aren’t black is associated with the underbelly side of Japan, men that work in the red light district or with the yakuza. An exception to this would be like, in many places, the entertainment business.

Dressing Miri up in clothes that look expensive plays into the whole “yakuza daughter” vibes, but also makes it so that she stands apart from the other children. It can also make it so that Miri has a difficult time putting the clothes on and off herself, which could take up class time when coming in from play time, getting ready to go home, and etc.

I worked at a juku (cram school) with a daycare. Most of the students I cared for there were native Japanese kids between 2 - 4 years old whose parents were working in America. My boss would often get annoyed when parents would bring their (usually daughters) in wearing fancy shoes that looked pretty, but hurt the child’s feet and were hard for the child to take on and off themself. 

Kids around Miri’s age are also shown to be aware of economic and social class on some level as well. 

LOS ANGELES, Calif. (Ivanhoe Newswire) -- Rich, poor, middle class. Parents often believe it’s their responsibility to shield their children from economic differences and social class.

But new research shows children as young as five years old are not economically blind. In fact, by the time they reach prekindergarten, kids know the difference.

This group of primary school kids already knows what money can buy.

Combine that with the (thirsty though they were) mothers who probably advised their children to not get on Miri’s bad side because of her dad’s, and her outfits that set her apart, and scenes like this one:

Don’t seem so out-of-place.

When Kazuki and Rei pick Miri up at school, her answer to “How was your first day? Have fun?” being “I dunno yet.’ Set’s off alarm bells - even with Rei.

His brows are furrowed. He knows that something is off and wrong with that statement. They don’t know what they did wrong, and they don’t know how to fix it. Miri gets quieter and sadder and this is the first time they’ve had to actually deal with Miri on a deeper, emotional level. 

That feeling like you are failing a child (whether your own, one of your students, or just a child in your care) is such a devasting feeling. This episode expresses it well by having these scenes all take place on the way home from the daycare, when the sun is setting. 

Thankfully, Kazuki is open to listening to what Miss Anna has to tell him, and she is so supportive. She doesn’t judge them or treat them like they are incompetent or incapable. She just gives them the push in the right direction, with “insider info” in a way, to get them and Miri acclimated correctly. And Rei and Kazuki jump on it. They love that they’ve found this place with a bunch of good quality cheap shit that can help them and make their lives easier.

And after this, Miri goes to school in regular clothes. Kazuki goes to the play area in the regular clothes, and he is just genuine and authentic with the kids. He doesn’t dress Miri up in a way that sets her apart anymore (on a class level, in a way that makes the other kids think she is “saying” “don’t play with me.”). 

Kazuki, especially, isn’t trying to “fake it until he makes it anymore.” He isn’t trying to give the impression that they are rich. And I wouldn’t be surprised if he also felt a bit more pressure to get everything right because he and Rei are two guys raising a kid together - two FATHERS. 

But then he realizes letting Miri and him and Rei just be themselves is enough.

This was very much so a Kazuki issue that ended up negatively impacting Miri. A situation I’m sure every parent (or even teacher, like I’ve been before) has experienced on some level. It’s one of the harsher parts of being a parent and trying to help your child and do what’s right.

And now, he and Rei have one foot further into parenthood, since they know about this new shop and:

Gave Miri her own room.

That is such a big deal. Similar in a way to how people say not to name an animal unless you plan on keeping it as a pet. Not because Miri can be compared to a pet or an animal in any way like that, but because of what it implies on both an emotional attachment level and a “she is now a permanent part of our household” level. 

That's a fully decorated room, filled with toys and plush dolls and games, a bed, books, a rug, even a desk. A desk filled with stationary supplies for her to learn and something which is viewed as a necessity for children to have at home when they are in elementary and junior high school (especially). 

Rei and Kazuki have gone from being Miri’s “Papas” on a sort of imaginary, “playing house” level, with very limited outside and real-world/societal interactions to being her fathers. They have integrated her and themselves as her parents and fathers into society on a large level now. 

By investing in that room, they are investing in Miri, and are openly choosing to be viewed as her fathers - as partners. Even if they don’t necessarily view each other in that way, it doesn’t matter to them in the end, because Miri is what’s most important. 

(Note: I will link to the news article and report that stated that information about children and economic class recognition in the comments).

[like-sands-of-time]

Wilson loves that House only truly loves him and his company. He loves that House tolerates his employees or cuddy or the other hospital staff, finds them amusing at times and annoying at others, but he always comes back to him, wilson. He loves that all he has to do to get House's attention is make him notice something different, even the slightest thing. House is the opposite of every man on the planet, because he notices when Wilson gets a haircut, when he switches soaps or colognes. Wilson likes making a scene to get House's attention, likes seeing how far he goes just to figure out what could possibly be different. He feels important, needed, but also wanted.

He likes that House just sort of looks at him quietly when he's talking, and there's the faintest hint of a smile on his lips, but it's mostly in his eyes. Everything about House can be figured out from his eyes. When he's really mad, or frustrated, or fond, Wilson can read his eyes even when his body or his words contradict himself. He likes that he's the only one who can do that. Wilson knows that House is actually very easily amused, but he doesn't want other people knowing that because it destroys his reputation as cold and heartless. Wilson likes that he's the only one that gets to see all of that, unreserved.

He likes House's abrasiveness, bluntness, and inability to follow a normal social contract. He likes that even though House goes out of his way to make Cuddy feel good about herself in her outfits, and he comments on his fellows' looks sometimes, that Wilson is the one he can't take his eyes off of, either when he's in the same room listening, talking, or when he's walking away and House doesn't know Wilson knows he's staring. He likes how good and desirable that makes him feel after so long of knowing each other, that House still picks him.

He likes that House, for as long as they've been living and working in Plainsboro together, has regularly bought them tickets to shows, ranging from monster trucks to the opera, anything the both of them will enjoy. He likes that House just pays for it, doesn't ever say anything about it being a favor that should be repaid. And in turn Wilson buys their lunches, because he likes that House spends the entire time leaned forward so he can reach his hand across and steal food. It gives him an even closer view of House's beautiful blue eyes. He likes when their legs brush together, or their feet tangle under the table. It's silly and juvenile and it's exactly the sort of thing House knows he likes.

He likes that House cares for him as much as Wilson cares for House. It's not equal, it'll never be split 50/50 because House will need help for the rest of his life with his leg and sometimes his insomnia is so bad he can't help his mood swings, but at the end of the day House is there for Wilson whenever he needs him. House is the only one who sees Wilson for every good and bad thing, and still chooses him. No one else sees that, but Wilson does. He can never explain why they're actually perfect together, someone so cold and aloof with someone so emotive and sympathetic.

[unidentifiedlyingobject]

I feel pretty but also not feminine and I want more of this

[lovelytreehugger]

"Are you afraid of dying?"

No. I just don't like the idea of rotting away. I'm afraid of morgues and decay. Death wouldn't scare me, if I immediately turned into ash.

[edith-hyde]

Me: *gets the urge to write a fanfic for a character I love*

Me: *checks the tag to see what kind of content is there only to discover the fandom is long since dead*

Me: “Ah…. Welp. Bummer.”

[midnight-raven]

Been plotting ideas for an Owl House Swap AU & I had this thought:

What if I switch… King & The Collector?

The Collector, a child from the stars. Many years ago, the Collector had fallen from his home and landed on the Boiling Isles. Many had sought out the young child for his unfathomable powers, until he was taken in by The Good Witch of the Boiling Isles.

King had been known as the ruler of Demons & Titans, until he was stripped of his powers and trapped into an inescapable dimension. For centuries, King sought a way to free himself from his prison, even if it means striking a partnership with a Witch Hunter.

Yeah, I’m making Luz, The Good Witch of the Boiling Isles but still conflicted on who to make her companion/adopted child.

[poetbluebee]

I wish I can fly, like a Tinkerbell in the sky. Ariel's underwater dive, glass slippers wearing hype. let me turn beast into a prince, till the last Petal drop. Just wanna do the things, what Disney once taught.

[xx-spookyb-xx]

I both love and hate rewatching Batman: The Dark Knight Returns. Like, why do I want to give my dad another chance rn? In other news Carrie and Bruce make me feel things and I don’t like it. I just want healthy fatherly affection, is that too much to ask?

(Not to say that Bruce doesn’t also…fail on the fatherly or even healthy side of things, even in main continuity, but he has his moments.)

[ethel-stuff]

I think I’m about to do a art style reset- m a y b e

[lilyginnyblackv2]

Buddy Daddies - Episode 12 -SPOILERS! Family? - Let’s Talk About That Photo Scene!

A lot of people found this moment a bit odd. Kazuki and Rei look at each other (faces seeming a bit frowny) and Rei asks, “Family?” This question does seem a bit odd doesn’t. After all, they’ve been a family for 10 years, Rei even told his father that he wanted to become a true family with Kazuki and Miri, so why this response to a photo?

Well, let’s rewind a bit! Right before this moment we have this:

Miri standing in the middle of Kazuki and Rei and a little in front of them. This is their usual picture setup:

In Episode 9 for her Field Day Gold Medal Win:

In Episode 12 for her Daycare Christmas Party:

In Episode 12 (Bulletin Board) for her Junior High School Graduation:

This is their family photo setup and dynamic for pictures. And as Miri has gotten older, they’ve also placed a bit more distance between themselves and her. This makes sense. They are Miri’s papas, yes, but they are still papas and she is still an awkward pre-teen girl in junior high school. So, there may have been times when she felt she wanted a bit more space between them all. Also, as children age in Japan, skinship - physical affection - tends to lessen as well. So, as she got bigger and they didn’t need to hold her as close anymore, the distance in their photos got bigger.

So, in more recent years it seems like they may have gotten used to standing a bit farther apart from themselves and Miri in family photos. So, Miri’s insistence that they need to scoot together more, and Kazuki just being like, “It’s fine like this.” And then her insistence that it isn’t, then kind of makes the two of them look at each other. They are a bit confused now, because it has gone against what they’ve gotten used to.

Rei also tends to express his thoughts, especially if he is confused or uncertain about something, in more limited ways (single words, parroting, etc.). So, him questioning Miri, himself, and Kazuki here when it comes to what they consistute as “family” in regards to taking photos together just comes out as:

“Family?”

Then Kazuki acts like his usual self and goes all in:

And this is the result of their new family photo set up:

At least, for Miri’s high school years and as long as she is using a selfie stick, lol. But, much like everything else in the show, there is a focus here on change. As Miri enters different stages of her life, their family, it’s dynamic, and even how they do things like take photos and pose - all of that will continue changing, with Kazuki and Rei smiling right there beside her.

Before, Kazuki and Rei were on either sides of her - protecting her. But she is teenager now. She has more independence and won’t need that same level of protection and looking after. So we see her off on her own a bit, while Kazuki and Rei finally connect on a physical touch level that they’ve never done before.

Like, that’s practically a hug (and Miri looks quite pleased about that, lol). It’s almost like another development for Kazuki and Rei too, another level for them to move on to and get used to (obviously, Rei isn’t quite used to it yet, he tends to take a bit more time to adjust). It’s fun to think about how their family photos will grow and change as Miri ages, if she gets any significant others herself, has any kids, etc. There structure and dynamic will just keeping evolving and changing. 

The full version of SHOCK plays during this whole 10 years later sequence, and the lyrics really do match up with this. 

“Let’s live our lives, loving and being loved.”

[creepycrepe]

accountability is so important no matter how much time passes. living in denial of any wrongs encloses you into a time loop. you can convince yourself you’ve moved forward, but your mindset has stayed the same, if a person can’t face their actions, or accept them, how can they ever change?

[lovelytreehugger]

After years of loving Alice in Wonderland, I finally realized why it resonates so deeply within my heart.

I found comfort in make believe.

I spend so much time in another world that I lose track of time and real life passes me by like I really wasn't here. I could live in a thousand diffrent worlds, yet still be found exactly where I was before them. They all ended thousand diffrent ways, yet I'll leave all the same.

I could go away for hours in real life and it'll only be minutes where I'm at. Like time is entirely bended and twisted.

I could listen to music and live thousands of lifetimes, meet thousands diffrent people and still go on like it never happened.

I love Alice in Wonderland because when things would get too hard for me as a child I'd go down that rabbit hole of my own, into my own little world. I love this movie because I never grew out of make believe.

I love it because I'm a maladaptive daydreamer and when no one understood, this movie did.

[zeondraws]

Getting a bit nostalgic

I still remember when this came out, I was on an island while covid was going on. I got super excited watching this. To think rectangular vehicles could be entertaining to watch.

Not sure what specifically makes me wonder about it tonight. Maybe it's just because I am dealing with my negative thoughts so much again. Battling my demons each day

I just look at this and think, this brings me joy. To think that these busses slowly dragged me into getting more invested and interested in them. Atleast I think it helped me greatly to deal with daily life and my art. It gave me some purpose when it comes to my life goals.

There were so many factors at play around this time period two years ago. I felt lost, not knowing what to do. Quite frankly I still feel a bit lost but I gained a goal. Something to look forward to. Because I already achieved one of my long term goals, I have a job at a place I always wanted to be. Now I need another goal so that I can look forward to something and enjoy the moment more.

I feel scared as I usual do, to be honest I either worry about? Being unable to achieve the goal duo to my mental state maybe? But it's mostly because I worry alot of being replaced. It's something common thrown around current workplace environments in general. I worry about being replaceable in everything. It's duo to my childhood.

I just want to have some purpose in life. Daydreaming about silly things, wanting to show child me that I can do the things she always wanted to do. Things she worried about not being able to achieve. I daydream about silly stories about imaginary characters because it makes my day feel better. And I want to put something out in the world for people to enjoy. So that their days could feel nicer, since becoming an adult made me understand alot of the struggles people have. And I just wanna be here to put a smile on people's faces. It's just hard when my own mental health struggles at times. But through the pain I try to put my emotions on a canvas. And this helped me alot recently. Art feels like my therapy.

Sometimes I notice I am really passionate about the things I find interesting, where I talk looooong texts such as this one explaining my thoughts.

I just really find busses interesting, they helped me go through the toughest times and put a smile on me when I needed one. I can't imagine how I'd go on about my daily life without wondering what to draw next with them. My art felt like it had no real goal before this.

I made this today

First time I have these planetary labs pictured in one image as a summary. I get the feeling I am getting closer to what child me wanted to do.

(context this image is part of my bus story "Offworld" I'm trying to develop and turn into smth animated)

I just hope that busworld will be fun, I am a bit afraid to showcase my stuff to people but there is only one way to go.

Because I often feel drained whenever I go through youtube or other social media platforms because I know I won't find the type of bus content I want. If I want change I gotta do it. And I have to smth on youtube soon, Instagram's algorithm makes it so hard to reach a new audience. How do I want to showcase my work to people if Instagram feeds them the same stuff over and over again and makes people fed up with the app?

I gotta do etsy at some point aswell. I still have to look through the legal aspects but I think there should be some way.

(the amount of Volkswagen beetles sold as prints is chaotic, it's always this vehicle, school bus, routemaster or some random old bus)

I'm about to drop asleep, I had so many more thoughts about busses. Just feels weird at times thinking "Wait am I drawing this rectangular vehicle as a cat right now?.... *continues drawing*"

Also I really wish I could visit a bus manufacturer and just look at concept vehicles and art, please just once-

[chandesam]

Y'all are actually getting notes on your posts? 💀

[midnight-raven]

More ideas for my IronDad & SpiderSon/Star Wars Rebels Prompt!

Post AU

As inspired by @rebelquilts512 I do plan to include more Marvel Characters into the story and I love the idea of Nebula being a former cadet to the Black Order.

Maybe an episode/chapter where Tony and Nebula are left stranded on a broken ship that is floating aimlessly through space with limited air and supplies while the team searches for them?

When Peter joins the Iron Squadron (still deciding on a new name for the Ghost Crew) he actually gets his own room on the ship (yup, still thinking of that name too) Tony and Pepper actually share a room in this AU.

Peter had a small spider-like robot called K-RN that helps with picking locks on doors, or to hack into special places.

Some time later on in the story, the Iron Squadron respond to a distress call and end up meeting two people from Tony’s past: Steve and Bucky. Two former soldiers that had betrayed the Jedis during the great purge.

(Inspired by Dune) Peter's first vision was about a girl who would fight with him in the fight against the Black Order… So you can guess his surprise when he finally meets the girl; MJ, who is a bounty hunter sent to hunt him down.

[poetbluebee]

A bird of a beautiful sky, take me away where you fly. I wanted to skip the reality, cause it always make me cry. I never was good in life, I try hard but fail every time. I'm not larking, I'm just saying, I don't want anybody to rely.