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[thesaddestlittlebaby]

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[thesaddestlittlebaby]

Why are my thighs so big?!? 😭

I swear they're disproportionate compared to the rest of me.

[thesaddestlittlebaby]

Today's dinner: Soup with rice and a cup of herbal tea, approx 362 calories.

Meal breakdown:

- Soy sauce, 10 cals

- Broth, 50 cals

- 1/2 cup rice, 100 cals

- Cabbage, 5 cals

- Onions, 5 cals

- Tea, 0 cals

- Honey, 192 cals

[thesaddestlittlebaby]

🦋 ~ Here we go! ~ 🦋

Current weight: approx 120 lbs

Goal weight 1: 100 lbs

Goal weight 2: 95 lbs

UGW: 💜 90 lbs 💜

[thesaddestlittlebaby]

Bleh. I hate having bad reactions to new meds

[thesaddestlittlebaby]

Do you ever stop and just go "damn, I am so fucking traumatized?"

[thesaddestlittlebaby]

You know what's really fun?

SH-ing on your face 🙂

[thesaddestlittlebaby]

Hhhhh I hate having to tie tourniquets when I cut. I mean yeah it minimizes the blood flow but also just. Ick. At least it's a decent-ish way to break in a new belt though.

[thesaddestlittlebaby]

I really wanna cut but all my blades are fucked up and dull and frankly this is not fair. This is discrimination. Homophobia. A hate crime. The universe is conspiring against me.

[thesaddestlittlebaby]

Welcome to another episode of everyone's favourite gameshow: "Am I actually recovering or am I just bingeing?"

[thesaddestlittlebaby]

Beating my ED back with a broom like it's a raccoon I discovered digging through my garbage can in the middle of the night. Get out of here you menace.

[thesaddestlittlebaby]

God, I really need a massage. Or maybe a sharp knife.

[thesaddestlittlebaby]

Woooo hooray for PTSD flashbacks /sarc

... I can't stop shaking

[thesaddestlittlebaby]

Honestly I kinda feel like I don't even deserve to say I have an eating disorder because I still eat like a pig (or at least I feel like I do). I mean, I know its far more complex than that for an innumerable multitude of reasons but like, it still sucks ass that my own damn brain is telling me I'm somehow "not sick enough".

[thesaddestlittlebaby]

Whoops~ 🤭

[thesaddestlittlebaby]

Guess whose eating disorder is back?~ * ｡ *･゜ﾟ･*☆

(It's mine)

[thesaddestlittlebaby]

Back on my *bullshit

*desire to kms