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My love is past due

Once in a while I have this dream where I wake up right when it starts feeling nice. When I open my eyes, I feel disappointed by myself, my life and my circumstances. How can I achieve anything but fall in love? I’d never hate sexuality, but I despise the world I’m forced to live in, where I can express myself as much as I want to, but never be anything beyond an entertainer. I have to face the…

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I admittingly do this for myself

As I was rotting in bed watching House M.D., I realized it had been over three months since I was last active in my blog. I don’t mean to get passive aggressive, but I’ve been feeling very unmotivated since I stumbled upon a blog with just under 10 posts, published months apart and with questionable content quality, with maybe hundreds of times my visitors and likes. It’s impossible not to…

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Why I started blogging

Very excited that I was invited to publish my blog's story on April Pad's website!

This is a great opportunity for my blog to start growing and generate a steady traffic of visitors.

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Am I running out of luck?

Several months have passed since I last controlled everything in my life. It only seems right to let myself become inert and let luck run the business for a while. I feel like panicking: the structure of my achievements is crumbling and is about to collapse. I know letting go is for the best and in the end I’m going to turn this all out in my favour. Because that’s what I always do,…

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How to destroy your attraction to straight guy

I confessed my attraction to my straight friend, although I knew he’d never feel the same way and it would completely destroy our friendship. Frankly, the excitement of it had long wore off and I was feeling emotionally exhausted. I knew a confession like this would only push him away, but I had to move on. We had met just over a year ago. I saw an opportunity in him to finally make friends with…

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Fear factor

Depression seems like an addiction. I don’t even think if an event would affect me. The moment it happens, my stability breaks and I allow myself to get sad over it. “It’s healthy to feel this way every now and then” I tell myself, hoping to focus on something else by the end of the week. But time passes, I spiral downwards and as I come to my senses, it’s been months since I last went out of the…

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The Atchison Weekly Globe, Kansas, April 18, 1912

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Rejection v. Betrayal

Let me try something new, instead of analysis: I try to treat my issues as court cases. This is a new type of analysis I'm exploring on my blog, so I hope to get better at it. Also I'm doing better at posting regularly...

This post was part of a failed series I wanted to do where I analysed emotions and situations in a courtroom. I decided not to continue with it, since I literally have no idea what goes on behind the doors of a courtroom. Still, I‘m leaving this post public, since it’s good content. It wasn’t too long ago that I experimented going back to the dating scene. Living in the twenty-first century of…

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