#breaking old patterns

[limeskye]

im so proud of him for setting boundaries

[inabigworld]

heal. your mom may never apologize to you because she’s conditioned herself to believe she did right by you.

heal. your father may never apologize to you, because he can only see what he’s done right.

heal. your family members may never apologize to you, because toxicity is what they were raised on.

heal for you. heal for the ones to come after you. right now, focus on healing for you. because you owe it to yourself.

[softedgessculptures]

Lol I promised not to go back. I will never be my old self. I say I love her, I adore her, I care for her as my little daughter and everything is fine. That's how things work. Love is the purest feeling, the primordial of the primordial of all creation.

Maam if I see the opportunity to be kind, I'll be kind.

[tommyexplores]

Are we peer-pressured into not changing?

Whenever I’m engaging in a conversation, an argument, a friendly banter or even a business chat, I’m always expected to be right where I first met whoever I’m speaking to. It doesn’t matter how much I advance or learn, others will always demand that I stay the same. Even when I was quitting the Organization, I was told “But you said…” – a sentence, which seemed to bring my hard work to no…

[frvescent]

[thechy-fychannel]

y'all ever think abt how it was julie having the affair and it is even said multiple times that she was the one who left him, yet wilson was still the one who left their home and moved in with house. like. he couldn't bear to stay in their home alone. he immediately ran to house and stayed on his couch for weeks. suffered through his pranks and his laziness and his manipulation. telling him he wants him gone while sabotaging his attempts to leave. and he only left once he got a girlfriend again.

[nandermoenthusiast]

i gotta say i love the good ole switcharoo they managed to pull with these characters, where guillermo now has that much power over nandor that he can fire him. they really managed to take these two and get them on equal ground, even elevate guillermo in this case. now they just need to bring it all home and have them realise they both have been pining for each other for literal YEARS

[nidbaesenpai]

I made post game strips of the ISAT party using the Siffrin internal monologue 'you' pronouns for everyone which was fun however. I do think everyone has different ways of referring to themselves internally.

Odile and Bonnie use 'I'.

Siffrin, Loop and Isabeau use 'you'.

Mirabelle uses 'we'.

[oacest]

Scholars :( I know better than to trust the Sun but that new article about them having separate after parties after tour dates with one not having access to the other still made me sad 😭 do you have any wisdom to counter it?

yeah lol it's total stirring of the pot, for the very simple reason that liam literally doesn't like after parties. he stopped going to such things back during oasis years, preferring to just go home. whether noel read that wrong back in the aughts -- eh, maybe. but he did the same thing during his solo career too. you can literally look back at quotes from the 90s and see him wistfully picturing a life of blowing people's minds out on stage and then just going home to cuddle the missus, kids, and assorted pets. meanwhile noel is very on the record as being a party animal who will socialize and drink until he falls over. they're different people with different personalities! it's fiiiiiine

[plasmara]

First off your fics are amazing I love it I love them all. And second of all you mentioned Jay’s lightning in your most recent one and I can’t stop thinking about the one line where you talked about how it’s both blue and yellow now. And then I went into a whole deep dive about how it’s changed after he lost his memories and I was wondering if you have any more thoughts on it its so interesting to me

OKAY SO I ACTUALLY LOVE THIS ASK because I’ve been thinking about it forever but never had the energy to put it into words SO THANK U ANON!!!!! i think there's a lot of reasons for the change in colour and i’m sorry in advance coz this got long but i’m gonna use this ask to dump all the ideas and ops i have on this topic

OKAY. soooooo. So we know lightning is a dangerous element. it's alive and unpredictable and relatively unstable. unlike most other elements, like earth water etc etc, which can be shaped, held, and calmed, lightning demands surrender or dominance—there's no middle ground. its always moving it's always ON. and i think it took jay A LOT to get in under control. and that's where the blue comes in. we know what blue symbolises duh— control,, clarify, calmness in general (think the sky etc) and so when he's in full control, it's plain blue. Blue ALSO can symbolise loyalty which has always been a big part of jay,,, he's loyal to a fault to his family and his friends, and consistently chooses them over any greater good. so his element responded to that knowing and stability by staying steady, precise, and pure blue

and to get such an unpredictable element like lightning under control, it takes discipline and emotional stability and if there's one thing he's not right now it's stable lol. so his power is all over the place

YELLOW, on the other hand, is a color that wears two faces. yes, usually, it's the color of joy, brightness, and optimism. but there's a more volatile side to yellow that often gets overlooked. yellow is also a color of warning—think crosswalks, hazard signs, yellow traffic lights. it's not danger itself, but the presence of instability.

and So. so. the yellow that has infiltrated jay's familiar blue doesn't symbolise the first for yellow. it's loud, jagged, overexposed and urgent. And it's not here to light the way like the sun. it's here to warn

i think jay is so out of control and not at all in touch with his emotions that his element is actually trying to warn him. i think it's symbolising how much he's shifted and it's now a warning to himself (and others) of how unpredictable and chaotic his element is now

AND. AND AND AND. Yellow is THE most visible colour from a distance. that's why it's used for hazards and warnings. it's used for things that NEED to be seen. Jay wants needs to be seen. he's spent years in the administration all by himself and not being seen by ANYONE. he's been overlooked and ignored and he's been hiding his element at all costs. And now in particular he wants attention (esp after his humiliation at TOS) he wants people to KNOW him,, and not as jay necessarily but as someone powerful. which is why he chose to keep every part of his identity hidden (the mask, the hat, etc) EXCEPT his lightning. it's incorporated into his weapons. AND EVEN HIS VOICE. Which he does still disguise yes. but it's done so THROUGH his lightning (that's what I think anyway lol) . That's the only part he allows for people to see. and so it's the only part of him still yelling for people to see him

So yes it's a warning but it's also a cry for attention

Now. blue is stable and consistent and yellow is bright and overpowering and it's especially clear AFTER he joins ras and his gang compared to before when he accidentally sparked his lightning up and it was weak,,,

because the foundation behind learning to control his element isn't right (just like how arin learnt spinjiztu thru ras' teachings and now it has the shatterspin particles through it)

And we know that the way ras works in not through harmonising with the universe but with forcefully getting the universe to harmonise with u . and through anger and negative emotions in general. it's chaotic and Jay has no control over it and so his element shows that through colour

and maybe im crazy or reading into it or whatever but.

BUT. In the scene where he uses lightning for the first time in front of nya. the way he twists and turns as he generates,, it looks like it actually hurts him to use it. i think because of the methods he used to learn how to control his element (anger, violence, force) it's actually more painful to use. it’s showing him that his power comes at a cost when it’s learnt with the wrong motivation. he even stays hunched over for a few seconds right before he aims

AND IF U LOOK CAREFULLY (which I have because apparently I have nothing better to do) u can actually see his hand shaking right before he strikes

And yes this could be just from the pure fucking power of his element but if u take his body language into account I really do this it's just painful for him to use now

SO IN CONCLUSH i think the infiltration of yellow in jay's lightning is mainly a warning to jay himself that the foundation for controlling his lightning is wrong and the pain he feels when using it is a reflection of that too

[campbyler]

i wonder who wanted mike down at the lake so bad 😗

[stellewriites]

i’m back again asking what nail design to try next :3 poll so that people can vote anon if they want

[kittycatred]

*strokes your hair gently and starts to sing*

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine

You make me happy when skies are gray

You'll never know, dear, how much I love you

Please don't take my sunshine away

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hic....i—...i—......i dont deserve azny of this if...sniff... i hurt you gudys.....

[lightblueminecraftorchid]

the 14 year old edgelord in me keeps trying to compose deep poetry about coming to after dissociating. calm down babes. we’re all good here.

[fisheito]

yal'rlready comin for me about that next event preview and i'm like *prepares the salmon cannon, anew*

[cloudbatcave]

Is there a word for not really being in a bad mood but being generally dissatisfied with things you can't change and you know are no one's fault? That's me right now.