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Indescribable my fucking CELLS do you understand

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You still don’t feel good? Shit man.

Why don’t you wait til the full moon and snort some lavender off your DBT workbook?

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Yelling. Into any and all voids. Until the end of time.

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8s = a transitional number

Eight of Wands – Spirit / Fire

Keywords: Fast movement, momentum, messages, alignment

Story: After the challenges and delays of the 7 of Wands (defending your ground), the 8 is an unleashing. Everything is in motion now. It’s like your spirit caught a gust of wind—it’s direction, energy, acceleration.

Unique vibe: Spiritual clarity. The soul knows where it’s going, and it’s moving fast. Sometimes, this is a card of divine timing—when everything clicks into place because you’re finally in flow.

Eight of Pentacles – Body / Earth

Keywords: Skill-building, mastery, discipline, dedication

Story: After the 7 of Pentacles (waiting, reevaluating effort), the 8 gets to work. It’s the phase of embodiment—turning repetition into craft. Think apprenticeship, working on your physical reality.

Unique vibe: This is the grind—but a good one. Bodily movement might look like routine, but it’s sacred: carving a path toward physical or financial stability through sustained effort.

Eight of Cups – Emotion / Water

Keywords: Leaving behind, emotional withdrawal, deeper search

Story: After the 7 of Cups (distraction, fantasy), the 8 sees clearly and chooses to walk away. There’s emotional courage in this—realizing that what once satisfied no longer does.

Unique vibe: Movement through grief or disillusionment. It’s the heart realizing it deserves something more aligned. Quiet, powerful evolution.

Eight of Swords – Mind / Air

Keywords: Feeling trapped, mental limitation, self-imposed restriction

Story: After the defensive 7 of Swords, the 8 reveals the consequences—mental prisons built from fear, overthinking, or internalized narratives. The figure can leave…but doesn’t see that yet.

Unique vibe: This is the hard part of intellectual movement—it’s stuck energy. Growth is available, but it requires belief. The mind has to risk cutting through its own bindings.

• Wands: Spiritual momentum and external signs aligning (zoom zoom!)

• Pentacles: Bodily routine and grounded growth (mastery in motion)

• Cups: Emotional bravery and turning inward (the walkaway)

• Swords: Mental stagnation as a crossroads (freedom through perspective shift)

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Tarot: April 30, 2025

Using my cryptid deck from spirit Halloween

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1. Eight of Cups (skeleton pirate under a starry sky)

This card is often about leaving behind something that no longer serves you — emotionally or spiritually — in order to pursue something deeper or more aligned. The image of the pirate steering under the stars feels especially symbolic: you’re navigating through unknown emotional waters, guided by intuition and inner truth. It doesn’t necessarily mean “do more,” but it does suggest a shift or redirection — a letting go, or choosing to disengage from something familiar but unfulfilling.

Message: You don’t need to do more, but you may need to consciously turn away from something that’s quietly draining you.

2. Eight of Pentacles (zombie bride in a graveyard)

This is the card of dedicated effort, practice, and refinement. The zombie bride holding her husband’s head adds a macabre but possibly funny or cathartic twist — it may reflect commitment to your craft or healing even when it feels repetitive, heavy, or darkly absurd.

Message: Keep showing up for your steady routines or creative work — you’re honing something. Today isn’t about extra pressure but about respecting the grind, even when it’s weird or emotional.

3. Ace of Pentacles (mandragora/tree monster blooming)

This card signals potential, especially in the physical or practical realm — new opportunities, ideas, or seeds of something that could grow. It could be a small shift in energy, like feeling more rooted or getting a hint of motivation.

Message: Something new wants to sprout — but only if you’re grounded and ready. This card supports staying open and receptive more than taking bold action.

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In Summary:

You’re not being asked to do more than usual today — but there is an invitation to pivot emotionally, stay steady in your efforts, and nurture a small beginning. Think intentionality over intensity. Maybe it’s a day to subtly realign, recommit, or allow a little seed of hope to take root — without forcing anything.

I pulled some affirmation cards from three different decks.

- today I will persevere and nothing will worry me

- today I am learning and will focus on growing into a better person

- I will not compare myself to others

- I am ambitious and motivated

- today is another chance to get better

- my potential has no limits

- I create my own paths and walk it with joy

And a sigil because ik desperately distracting myself from the rides of my emotions attempting to drown me

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Absolutely indescribable. My mood. And like I could describe it and everyone’s gonna read it in a “haha dramatic” way but I want to fucking end this misery

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Have you tried

[ ] Just being positive

[ ] Journaling

[ ] Telling your thoughts to yourself in the mirror

[ ] Whispering your thoughts to a hummingbird before it flies away

[ ] Yelling your thoughts into a bubble like fucking squidward and floating away in it

[ ] Jumping your worries away on a mini trampoline

[ ] Eating more

[ ] Not having an eating disorder

[ ] Are you sure you haven’t tried just being positive

[ ] Putting your anxieties in your shoes and walking them away

[ ] Banging on a drum to vibrate your insanity away

[ ] Try journaling again I know you never do that ever not once

[ ] Don’t be so mad

[ ] Lighten up

[ ] Go for a mindful walk

[ ] Breathe! Soooooooo soothing

[ ] Name five things you can see four things you can feel three things you can murder two things you can fuck and one thing you can tell off

[ ] Yoga

[ ] Wholistic foods

[ ] Satanic ritual

[ ] Just go outside, it’s nature!

[ ] Wash your face, your emotions will follow

[ ] Smile more, it tricks your brain into thinking you aren’t experiencing literal death

[ ] Eat three almonds

[ ] Text a friend, unless you feel annoying, then just implode

[ ] Have you tried simply choosing joy?

[ ] Schedule your breakdowns for after work hours

[ ] Remember: suffering is a mindset!

[ ] Replace every intrusive thought with a gratitude mantra

[ ] Drink more water until you emotionally drown

[ ] Drinking herbal tea made from your own tears

[ ] Rubbing essential oils directly on your soul

[ ] Building a fort out of self-help books and hiding in it forever

[ ] Meditating while screaming internally

[ ] Taking a sound bath in someone else’s bad vibes

[ ] Forgiving your depression for hurting you

[ ] Journaling in invisible ink so no one can accuse you of not trying

[ ] Manifesting stability with the power of a single $4 crystal

[ ] Smudging your trauma with sage grown on a gentrified farm

[ ] Wearing a hat that says “I’m fine” until it becomes true

[ ] Yell your fears into a jar and microwave it

[ ] Tape googly eyes on your trauma to make it approachable

[ ] Give your depression a LinkedIn profile and block it

[ ] Throw your inner child a birthday party she never asked for

[ ] Create a vision board but make it entirely black

[ ] Make amends with your anxiety by sending it a fruit basket

[ ] Redecorate your dissociation room

[ ] Let the intrusive thoughts DJ your life for one day

[ ] Write love letters to your rage and mail them to no one

[ ] Practice radical acceptance by screaming “IT’S FINE” in a yoga pose

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Have you tried

[ ] Just being positive

[ ] Journaling

[ ] Telling your thoughts to yourself in the mirror

[ ] Whispering your thoughts to a hummingbird before it flies away

[ ] Yelling your thoughts into a bubble like fucking squidward and floating away in it

[ ] Jumping your worries away on a mini trampoline

[ ] Eating more

[ ] Not having an eating disorder

[ ] Are you sure you haven’t tried just being positive

[ ] Putting your anxieties in your shoes and walking them away

[ ] Banging on a drum to vibrate your insanity away

[ ] Try journaling again I know you never do that ever not once

[ ] Don’t be so mad

[ ] Lighten up

[ ] Go for a mindful walk

[ ] Breathe! Soooooooo soothing

[ ] Name five things you can see four things you can feel three things you can murder two things you can fuck and one thing you can tell off

[ ] Yoga

[ ] Wholistic foods

[ ] Satanic ritual

[ ] Just go outside, it’s nature!

[ ] Wash your face, your emotions will follow

[ ] Smile more, it tricks your brain into thinking you aren’t experiencing literal death

[ ] Eat three almonds

[ ] Text a friend, unless you feel annoying, then just implode

[ ] Have you tried simply choosing joy?

[ ] Schedule your breakdowns for after work hours

[ ] Remember: suffering is a mindset!

[ ] Replace every intrusive thought with a gratitude mantra

[ ] Drink more water until you emotionally drown

[ ] Drinking herbal tea made from your own tears

[ ] Rubbing essential oils directly on your soul

[ ] Building a fort out of self-help books and hiding in it forever

[ ] Meditating while screaming internally

[ ] Taking a sound bath in someone else’s bad vibes

[ ] Forgiving your depression for hurting you

[ ] Journaling in invisible ink so no one can accuse you of not trying

[ ] Manifesting stability with the power of a single $4 crystal

[ ] Smudging your trauma with sage grown on a gentrified farm

[ ] Wearing a hat that says “I’m fine” until it becomes true

[ ] Yell your fears into a jar and microwave it

[ ] Tape googly eyes on your trauma to make it approachable

[ ] Give your depression a LinkedIn profile and block it

[ ] Throw your inner child a birthday party she never asked for

[ ] Create a vision board but make it entirely black

[ ] Make amends with your anxiety by sending it a fruit basket

[ ] Redecorate your dissociation room

[ ] Let the intrusive thoughts DJ your life for one day

[ ] Write love letters to your rage and mail them to no one

[ ] Practice radical acceptance by screaming “IT’S FINE” in a yoga pose

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You don’t have to pay attention to every ranch hand at the fuckup farm