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I‘m sorry, but Kit Connor in that Captain America costume >>>>

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petition for Chris Evans to do a "Chris Evans breaks down his tattoos" with GQ.

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I honestly want nothing more than for Chris Evans to finally have the family he always wanted.

I'm looking forward to the day he announces, he's having a kid.

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I want tattoos, but at the same time I don't.

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Sterek is real, fight me.

I'm currently rewatching Teen Wolf and I somehow totally forgot the sexual tension between Stiles and Derek.

The best part is that it didn't develope over time, no it has been there since the very beginning. How could I be so ignorant?

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once you start crying, when you're going through a depression, it's over.

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It's been almost a year since this post and I still feel the same way.

I tried to change and be more open with people, but I didn't achieve any of those things. I get that not everything is about a stupid high school relationship, but I feel so lonely all the time and it would be lovely to just be appreciated by some guy.

I have this huge crush on a guy in my year and I just don't know how to act around him. I guess he's no boyfriend material, but it would be nice to be at least acknowledged. I think that would really boost my confidence. The thing is though, that I'm pretty confident in everything else I do, even while speaking to guys I know a little better and/or don't have a crush on, but talking with this particular guy freaks me out. And I don't know how to get to know him better, because I'm scared of a rejection. Besides that, I don't even know how to start a conversation with him. I think I need serious help.

I kinda feel lost, this is my last year of high school and after that the "real life" starts for me. I just want to have a few experiences before I leave high school, but I don't see that happening any time soon and that sucks.

I guess I'm stuck with my "celebrity crushes" for life.

PS:

I realized after a little more thought, that "Sierra Burgess is a Loser" is not a good movie for representing high school relationships or any relationship at all. So please don't judge me for thinking that was a good movie right after watching it and just wanting something in the direction of a high school relationship lmao.

No one likes me?

So I recently watched “To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before…” and I fell in love woth Noah Centineo (like everyone else on the internet). And today I watched “Sierra Burgess Is A Loser” and all I think as an unkissed high school student is: I want something like this to happen to me too!

Everyone around me is having a boyfriend/girlfriend now and I just feel so lonely. I know I’m still young, but I just feel like no one ever likes me, not like that.

For example Lara Jean from TATBILB is (almost) unkissed too and then she starts that fake relationship with Peter Kavinsky and it turns out to be something real. Sierra Burgess texts and has phone calls with Jamey, she hurts him, him thinking she’s someone else, but in the end they’re a happy couple. I, on the other hand seem to never interest anyone that way. I just want to experience something like that aswell.

I’m a shy person when it comes to my “real life chrushes”, I never tell anyone about my crushes and always pretend that I don’t like them (my crushes) and in the end another girl “gets” them and I’m standing beside them but alone.

Am I doing something wrong? Is it how I look? What I wear? Or just that I pretend to don’t like them? That’s probably it, but I don’t know how to change that bc the situation at my school with all the different “Cliques” is quite difficult.

Is it that bad that I just want something like in “To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before…” or in “Sierra Burgess Is A Loser” to happen to me too?

Can Noah Centineo please come to me and be my boyfriend bc he’s adorable!?

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listen

i would do absolutely anything for Calum

a n y t h i n g

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AVENGERS ENDGAME SPOILERS WITHOUT CONTEXT

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I wasn't sad that Mary died (again). I was actually pretty happy about it because I didn't really like her.

What made me cry wasn't Mary's death, but seeing Sam and Dean mourn. That really hurt.

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shoutout to all the girls & women in their late teens and twenties who have never been kissed, never dated, never had sex, etc. society loves to make us feel isolated and like we’re doing something wrong or we’re failures.

just know that ur time will come and that life’s not all about that stuff anyway. you do you and don’t let anyone define u by ur experiences or lack thereof. ur amazing, ur beautiful & i love u

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eccentric cowboy

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what did I say!?

A few months have passed, but the day has come and yesterday Mr Luke Hemmings walked the New York Fashion Week!!!

THE NEW YORK FASHION WEEK!!!!

I still love him as a musician, but him as a model and a musician is a whole new level.

why is luke hemmings not a model?

I was just randomly on instagram, saw 5sos’ story and was like: “damn, why is luke a fucking musician, he looks like a model!” don’t get me wrong, i love luke as a musician, i love his voice and stuff… but honestly he would make a great model. just look at these photos (you can’t tell me he doesn’t look like a damn model):

credit to whoever owns these photos.

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i want someone to love me like luke hemmings loves sierra deaton.

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so fucking true!!!

Tall Girl Problems

Shoutout to all the tall readers out there who feel personally attacked by every  insert fic that emphasizes how “small” “short” and “little” the reader is. 

(I wouldn’t be that much shorter than Bucky or Steve. I would tower over Clint, Tony, and basically everyone but Thor)

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what i want in 2019:

no more mental health problems.

2018 was hard enough for me, 2019 please be better.

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i‘m 20 years old, nobody has ever expressed interest in me and the people around me who have had relationships are now single for the most part because in high school relationships are often shortlived and surrounded by drama, hollywood is too far removed from real life, being in a healthy relationship when you haven‘t grown into yourself yet, haven‘t built up your self-love and acceptance enough to be comfortable on your own is rare, it‘s a journey, embrace it, there is nothing wrong with you🌼

thank you for your words❤❤❤