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Day 5!

I was losing weight originally to prove a point, my mom used to be an extreme yo-yo Dieter and gave up when I was 8 once my grandma got type 2 diabetes bc she said it was familial so she would get it anyway. I don't agree, mainly because of the science but also bc I think she was just looking for an excuse to be weak willed and fat.

Nowadays it is for the control, with my physical health failing me and my mental health combusting I like to have something that I am in charge of.

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I literally hate my family's beauty standard!

My dad's side is from rural areas so the standard is to be tall, heavy, and muscular.

Like me and my aunt were at the shop today and she started mocking this skinny girl's legs for being too thin, I was just sat there like ._.

I told my mom I was on a diet and she lectured be that I wouldn't be able to carry healthy kids, I have never wanted kids so...

Lol

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This week's calories (goal 700):

Friday: 721/700

Saturday: 908/700 (started to binge but stopped myself)

Sunday: 553/700

I'm not gonna weigh myself this week bc only started on Friday but next Sunday I will :)

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Day 4:

My main fear is that I worsen my health. But also that I won't be able to maintain by ugw and start to gain again!

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I just randomly downed 327kcal of chocolate honeycomb and I'm so mad.

My total is still below 1000 but I want it to be like 700 so I'm mad

I've managed to stop myself from continuing to a full binge but I'm worried I may have just undone my progress

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Day 3;

I don't use thinspo but my goals are to have a thigh gap sitting down, thin arms, and for my bra size to go down to at most a b (( I'm currently a g cup))

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Day 2:

I'm 5'0. I kinda hate my height bc I constantly get mistake for being younger than I am :(

It doesn't really matter tho bc I'm sat down constantly lol

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Doin a thing!

Day 1 was in my last post and my bio but:

CW: 220

GW1: 200

Height: 5'

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I'm back!

A metric Fucktonne happened in my life so I disappeared from Tumblr but I have returned and hopefully I'll be staying !

Long story short my entire nervous system got messed up and now I'm paralysed and have seizures. So, safe to say I have reversed all of my progress.

New stats:

CW: 15st10lb/220lbs/99.79kg/49.27bmi

GW1: 14st4lb/200lbs/90.71kg/39.06bmi

- by summer solstice (June 21)

UGW: 7st/98lbs/44.45kg/19.14bmi

- probably gonna go down

Hoping to post my weight once a week alongside my weekly kcal count. Hopefully daily posts with vents or info :)

Bye-Bye

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Morning weigh in :

186 ( 4lbs to go until gw1 )

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Night time weigh in:

187lbs

Side note: my family made me eat one of my fear foods :( but I managed to only eat half so I guess it's ok. Wont be posting a food count but my total is 382kcal.

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Morning weigh in

188lbs

It's going down!

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Night time weigh in:

189 lbs

Finally broke the 190s!

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I got my first comment from a creepy guy.

He asked me to be his sugar baby lol!

Dw I didn't reply

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Food diary day 3:

Breakfast: 0% fat yogurt (1 tsp) - 5kcal

Dinner: cucumber, tomato, boiled egg, apple - 191kcal

Snack - half a chicken nugget - 37kcal ( thanks mom /j )

Total - 233kcal

Not too bad...

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Day 2: 5'0 tall. I'm wayyyyy to short lol

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Day 1: SW: 206lbs, CW: 190lbs, UGW: 70lbs, GW1: 180