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So I left bc I starved myself for 3 days and then when I tried to eat, I would vomit everything up ( not on purpose), that went on for DAYS and DAYS And it low key scared me, even though I was doing so well, and so I stopped, it made the holidays much easier but..

what triggered me to start back up with this account is that my Psychiatrist said that the medication I take at night is making me gain an unhealthy amount of weight and that I should probably talk to my primary about getting on a medication that will help me loose a healthy amount of weight…INSTANTLY TRIGGERED.

I talked to my fiancé about going on ozempic and she hated the idea and wanted me to loose it naturally. So she said give her 4 months and me and her will really try to loose the weight and by the end if I’m not happy I can go on ozempic

I took her “loose weight naturally” as “start your Ed account again”….i feel as if it’s the only thing that will be able to concur this weight

So heyyy guysss I’m posting again!!!!!

I actually got the flu a week ago when I wanted to make this post but I took it as a good thing bc I lost 4lbs

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no matter what you weigh, your progress is worth celebrating ❣️

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I wanted to go to the thrift store one day and the pumpkin patch the next (if I don’t do little things like that my depression WILL take over) you wanna know what we did? My gf said that I could go thrifting alone and even through I planned to go with her I was still okay going alone…I woke her up today all excited for the pumpkin patch and you wanna know what she said? “Oh yea I forgot about that, do you still want to go?” And that right there is exactly how you turn a person ballistic…idk if it’s because I forgot to take my med the past few days but that just spiraled me. Like you literally know that Iv wanted to do this since august and the LAST day we have the opportunity to go you want to ask me if I still want to go, even though I exclaimed my excitement before we went to sleep like??? Uuuuu so annoyingggg idec im just going to move on and continue planning out my funeral (I do that when I’m upset) Iv gotta to the invitation cards and I’m excited to design them bc I was in graphic design for like all of hs

ANYWAYS thanks for listening to me rant…bc this has nothing to do with wl I’ll probably delete later…

But speaking of wl the plan was to get breakfast and go to the pumpkin patch so because neither of those are happening I got to skip breakfast 🙂

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When your 2 and a half day trip falls PERFECTLY on your metabolism days <333

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This is a lot so tw

Why can’t ⭐️ving yourself feel just as good as cvtt!ng??? Like this is supposed to be my harm reduction route but all I want to do I stuff my face or cvt till the pain goes away but why can’t I be one of the skinny girls that gets upset and doesn’t eat for a week like WHYYY why does it have to be getting fat and ruining a perfect spot for a tattoo I just don’t get it

I didn’t eat by the way my brain just wants too, I’ll update you guys on my fast tomorrow but so far I think I’m just hangry at the world :/

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Okay my gf ended up being very suspicious of my 48h fast because she said it was “exceeding the normal limitations of the body” which is such an eye roll…like do you see me? My fat is exceeding the normal limitations of the body..let me fast in peace!! But I ended up eating…I measured EVERYTHING and over counted calories like I used to do and it felt so good, I felt like I had all the control in my finger tips..I really want to start doing this more often anyways my totally calorie intake was 402…and I managed to sneak desert in there which I am very proud of myself that I was able to still keep it low

Here’s my fast and what I ate:

I’m going to try and fast all of tomorrow but I’m going to a pumpkin patch so realistically idk if that is possible but I’ll def take pictures of everything I eat and like I said im going to try and calorie count but at the end of the day that sh!t is tough and never exact which drives me nuts.

I’ll update tomorrow…goodnight lovelies 💕

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I heard another creator on here say that they had to stop smoking 🍃 bc when they did partake, it would end up in a binge and I felt really bad when I heard that but did yk that if you excessively smoke for a long period of time it will actually do the opposite? You body gets so used to the 🍃 for hunger that without your regular dose of 🍃 you won’t get hungry….and that is exactly what I’m doing…I used to smoke dabs (basically 🍃 concentrate) like 3 times a day…and now I just smoke a b⭕️ng all day and any cravings the 🍃 would have gave me are gone!

I just thought this was interesting and wanted to share…idc if you smoke 🍃 it honestly helps me sm but please don’t do other drvg$…this account is NOT the space to promote anything other then 🍃 and maybe an occasional nic hit

Thank you for listening 🎀💕🌸

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Good morning everyone!! I woke up did some chores then weighed myself and I lost 4lbs in 3 days!!…Ik it’s probably water weight but weight is weight. Idk why I’m losing so fast when Iv fasted like this before…the only thing different is my willpower, maybe this is just a mental game?? Idk…but I’m currently 35hs into my fast idk how long I can fast for but I will be VERY happy with myself if I can go 3days

That’s all goodbye 👋🏻 I’ll check back in later 💋

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I struggle the most at nights, like the cravings are really bad AND I’m on my period and girl 🤚🏻I don’t even have to explain..so I just have to be extra strong for myself, all that to say I’m going to bed really early tonight to sleep though the cravings…I’ll update you guys tomorrow hopefully I hit 48hs 🕯️🤞🏻🤞🏻

Goodnight 🌙💤

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Don’t even picture food entering your mouth because it’s NOT take the food you want and go give it to someone else right now! It’s not yours you don’t own food you don’t need food now make the skinny person decision and walk away. Yk what? go for a walk..a run actually.

Don’t mind this…I’m probably going to get hungry soon so I’m just going to look back at this for motivation

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I REFUSE to be one of those people that binge their progress away…one binge means nothing, wake up and do better today, you got this…don’t fail yourself

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I did a small to medium binge yesterday but because it was the weekend I’m just going to pretend it was a metabolism day and proceeded with my usual fasts…here’s the fast I did yesterday:

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OH MY FUCKING GOD GUYS I LOST 12.5 lbs even though i let myself eat at the party?!?! I need to start writing the dates down because holy fuck the lbs are flying off rn (yes i thanked the universe before writing this) like you guys don’t understand this is my new lw as an adult (I’m not counting my weight as a child bc I feel that might be an unrealistic expectation) but I am so happy…I told you guys I wouldn’t let this party ruin me and I meant it! Feels so good being validated by the scale <3

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I didn’t track my fast because I was hosting a party, but I fasted 24h before the party…so I could at least try all that my gf was cooking, and I honestly didn’t eat as much at I thought I was going to..obviously I’m trying to replay the night and recount everything I ate but…I was hosting a party and a little drunk…I was honestly worried about other things..but I don’t think it would exceed the normal calories for two days, are you understanding my logic or am I crazy??? Anyways I’m just going to be really good this next week because I’m going on a trip next Saturday and because food has just been giving me the ick lately (prayers are being answered)

Over all party went well and I made everyone take home all the leftover food :) and they happy obliged

That’s all goodnight lovelies 🎀

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Accountability post! (Don’t mind the days…every time you fast more then 24h it gets weird)

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Just made my gf breakfast even though I’m on a two day fast and y’all bitches are RIGHT…cooking does make you less hungry..I feel like a ate a whole meal even though I only cooked one

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I don’t want to get skinny for a boy OR a girl or my parents or my acquaintances or even my cats, I want to get skinny for ME, I want to get skinny girl attention and I want people to ask me how I lost it all, FUCK getting skinny for people, do it for YOU, if your gonna have an ed at least be in a somewhat good headspace…please don’t starve yourself for a boy 🩷