a-silent-loverr

[a-silent-loverr]

Incohorent words

incohorent lies, held by,

collapsing

Dancing through

upon my seemingly meaningless

youth

Touch hurts

Fluttering eyes, beckoning under strange

veils

However soft might my promise be

Let it not thwart your shore

For it is only my loneliness that

keeps me keen

Earnest feelings bear no home

To be loved and to love

lost in wrecks

Lower the rejoice my embrace brings

It's not romanticsim that ties

It is the fear of being alone

[a-silent-loverr]

♡

I never really knew what warmth felt like, until you pressed your hands on my chest

Flames carssessing your fingertips, touch grazing my skin

Your name branded on my heart, burns of kisses decorating my neck, heat bringing tears and sweat

And I thought these gestures were faces of love ( l o v e )

Romanticised pain, romanticised possesion. This is what people wrote about it in books

«this--this heat is romance» «this fire is passion»

Poetic, Yes

but, LOVE - NO IT'S NOT ( r u n a w a y )

Your words were smoke, making every inch of my lungs their home

Choking my throat, blurring my lips until i forgot what breathing tasted like.

Your tongue danced with my mouth so fondly, that it never voiced out for help

(s h o u t, s c r e a m, h e l p)

Silence painted a way for fire. Until the only colours left were ash and grey

His embrace grasped my body too hard, chains disguised as memories.

I never wanted to run away, accustomed to the heat, everything else felt cold (lonely) (sad)

But now when I look back and think about it

Maybe I should have

- Toxic relationships ( r u n a w a y)

[a-silent-loverr]

♡

And i found myself

Drowning in her love

Suffocating (exhale)

Sinking in

[a-silent-loverr]

♡

I left my heart on the shore

Buried in dry sand;

remnants of castels gone

Dreary, dizzy, dreaming

Waves -don't stop-

Being stable reminds me

Too much of a home

//i wash my hair with ocean water that tastes like tears//

[a-silent-loverr]

♡

Don't play with mud.

Don't dirty your clothes.

Girls don't play with balls or bats.

Go there, here take your doll.

Sit quietly. Watch them run.

"Mum i tore my tshirt while playing with my friends in the grass"

Boys will be boys, you say /

.

Don't sit like this.

Close your legs.

Hands on your thighs.

Greet. Be polite.

"Mum watch me as I run around in the kitchen in a house with guests"

Ah boys! [ Boys ] You laugh /

.

Girls aren't supposed to wear this.

Pants and shirts are not for you to wear.

You look good, but not good enough.

Tidy your hair. No mess. Comb

'Smile' [ Smile ] ah! There it is

"Mum, Don't I look good with the suit and the tie?"

Perfect, you smile /

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Come home early.

Don't wear a dress at night.

No short skirts or shorts.

Don't take drink.

Never talk to strangers, my dear.

"Mum, I came home at 4 am, alone in the dark"

It's okay [ It is?! ] you pat /

.

Clean the house.

Tidy your room.

This doesn't look good kept like that.

Learn how to cook

Learn how to wash.

This is your house too, afterall

"Mum, my room is a mess, and i won't take care of the house. Cook for me. Will you mum?"

Yeah sure. Boys will be boys. You laugh along /

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You got raped!

Didn't I teach you how to protect yourself?

Don't dress provocatively.

Don't make their eyes linger.

Don't drink. Don't speak [ Don't live ]

Come home! [ Stay at home ]

Now bear the baby

What did you do!

[It's all your fault]

"Mum, I raped a girl in the alley today"

.

Boys will be boys. Won't you say now?

"it's okay, it happens"

[ Boys are boys, right? ]

They won't change. [ You won't change ]

Boys will be boys. Now won't they?

.

They say we're equal

[ Feminism is shit ]

We're free! Are we really?

Last time, I checked, dear society, Freedom doesn't come like this.

[a-silent-loverr]

♡

Thunder barged the window sills

Shouting and threatening to break the glass

But I couldn't let it in

As my heart with a voice so shrill

Broke and shattered and scattered

Avoided to be still

When the sound entered my soul

And shook every emotion that came along

It reminded me of days

That were buried deep in my heart

The memories which turned into scars

A fading hand, a touch so thin

I looked away, and then it was gone

I looked away, and then it was gone -

I don't know what to do except to mourn

I stand still

Let the pain rush in

I don't care anymore,

I have learnt not to

Is there any other way you could have done it for yourself?

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In collaboration with the insanely talented and patient (lol) @words-from-a-lost-soul ❤ love you! And thank you!

[a-silent-loverr]

♡

A humming bird flew by me

Carrying a letter from you in its beak

Oh! How much have our words traveled

Is your scent like the parched

Paper kept in my drawers

I long the touch of your skin

But i hold your ink in my hands

The love is here, yet

Distance keeps us apart

I want kiss your lips someboday

Dear lover,

And place my home in your heart

[a-silent-loverr]

I got all your asks/ comments. Super cool taste! I love listening to a new kinda music. Every single one♡♡ is awesome. Thank yah!

Guys, girls, nonbinary pals, peopleee!!

Send me your favourite songs. ♡ Tell me about good music and artists!! Pleasee♥ (Also, take care. Love y'all)✨

[a-silent-loverr]

Loved working with you again ❤ @heartofmuse

Deep blue burn

The walls didn’t hear

your tears, but I was sitting

right next to your heart

as it sobbed in burns

and stitched lips

In the deep blue

that shrouds you

I linger,

I burn,

A star you wish upon

I whisper

I twirl

Fingers that stitched dawn

Caress my love

it wants to be held

I wait

I yearn

Kisses that lips of midnight painted

In pale blue moonlight, frozen,

Waiting to be bestowed

This blue, in your heart

I know,

It waits to be drenched.

To ignite

A white-blue flame inside

Waiting to rise

To consume the emptiness

Unfurl love and hope

Eva and e.v.e.

Artistic collab between @a-silent-lover and @heartofmuse . Inspired by The Paper Kites song “Deep Blue Burn”. Odd stanzas hers. Even stanzas mine

[a-silent-loverr]

A wrong step

I stepped on a broken tile

White cracks, but black void

A sound, and I fell into a black

Can't see which way is up now

People walk above me with

Raw rubbed soles telling stories

About having somewhere to be

But I suspect they never get there

nevertheless I write their

unfinished stories on my arms

Wondering where the stones

lead them to fall

Do people watch their step at all

During rush hour when work's

Done? I'm running out of skin

And I still haven't a clue

I tread my lips slowly

wondering, where my words

disappeared in walls and

where my eyes turned blind

I still keep faith that all four sides

won't cave in, tell all my secrets

to the next wanderer who

takes the wrong step

I am clenching my jaws now

Pinching my brows,

every sound the feels

like the beginning of a crack

Maybe, maybe I can live here

if I make this place my own

But I am just waiting, passing time by

Incase this ground swallows

me down too, deserting my attempts

to make another home

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●🥀♡🥀● written in collaboration with a beautiful soul and an amazing writer @interstellar-whispers ♥

[a-silent-loverr]

♡

His screams shatterred down my spine

after slitting words on my tongue

Albhabets, anger piling in my ribcage

Slowly starting to suffocate my lungs

Breaths muffled, my baffling voice

air unable to escape as i cry

Heart whispering same words again and again

"he broke me, my love with his twisted games"

Blood pumps into my veins,

then gushes out of my eyes

Tears taste salty dear, but this cascade

running down my cheek tastes like

his lies..

[a-silent-loverr]

♡

I stayed afloat on unspoken

parchments of my heart

Thoughts forgetting lips to

salvage the thirst of a kiss

My fingers slipped through ink

yet they couldnt grasp prints

on ruled sheets and envelopes.

Darling, I had written how

I lost myself in your love

and here I am writing,

how easily I am losing you.

.

- maybe I should have sent you that letter.

[a-silent-loverr]

I hope this is fine @poeticnightmare89 (on games)😄 I missed your impromp's tusedays btw. Glad you are back from your hiatus 💚💚

[a-silent-loverr]

♡

Shades of your lips kiss me with a blue tint in their touch. You coloured your love with sadness too much. Every time I taste your tears, I am closer to your heart

Is this how bad, fate rendered you deserted in your flesh. I feel your veins but they sound far away. Pulses reminscing of a hurt (you never could wash away)

Underneath the opaque(you pushing me back), I can see your broken heart, with every little piece trying to love and be loved.

Maybe we can never truly heal from some momets..but darling, if I hold your arms tight (like a promise we never made) maybe you can forget about it for a while.

[a-silent-loverr]

♡

Cups fell down from my hands, I couldn't stop shaking because cold felt my heart too much, my veins couldn't stop the blue

And you came rushing to me and cut your toes on shards that should have struck my skin instead. I couldn't touch you while you were bleeding. All I could do was look

Don't worry I heard you say. You bandaged your feet with spit. But I am worrying (please leave) worrying too much

For everyone who ever loved my heart, was hurt with what it did to them

[a-silent-loverr]

one of your favourite quotes?

So maybe nobody loves me / and maybe nobody will ever love me / but maybe it isn't about being loved by somebody else

[a-silent-loverr]

Silence could never

be enough for me

I have always wanted

One word, just one word

from your heart to mine; love

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