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Yeah no fuck this I'm too fat to recover

I've decided to recover, I don't want to be insane anymore.

I hope you all find peace one day, I'll try to find mine🫶

[anorexicanddontwannarecover]

I've decided to recover, I don't want to be insane anymore.

I hope you all find peace one day, I'll try to find mine🫶

[anorexicanddontwannarecover]

safe foods and some ways to make them better!

rice cakes!! an ana staple of course :-) i love to add either light cream cheese or PB2 to them. it helps when you’re feeling cravings and soooo low cal

most fruits & veggies! PB2 with apples is super good, or if you’re in the mood for citrus, grapefruit with stevia is so delish

hard boiled eggs!! i love these with soy sauce. keeping the egg white in adds calories but the protein will keep you full for longer so it really depends on your hunger level

warm water w/soy sauce- kinda weird but warm water tricks your mind into thinking you ate a big meal. the soy sauce just makes it less gross. be careful tho bc salt water can work as a laxative and uh yk- 😬

pickles are my #1 safe food. they’re so delish and like 5 calories for 4- needless to say they’re the best

dried seaweed 🫶

0 sugar werther’s caramels. i’ve been guilty of eating like the full bag 😭✋ i don’t recommend its really bad for your stomach

gum and iced water 😍 (i feel like this list is getting more and more disordered)

quest bars are actually foul but they keep you full so likeeee????? a wins a win!

i go rabid for fiber one bars. 10/10 will recommend. but they might cause you to binge because they’re genuinely so yum so i don’t recommend breaking your fast with them (been there, done that.)

mmmm halo top

put SUPER hot hot sauce on everything it will make your stomach hurt and make you not wanna eat it

apple sauce and cinnamon :))

there’s so many more but bye for now!

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Guys I found these low rise jeans in my closet and I wore them today, I might just be delulu but I honestly look kinda good in them😭

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Parents finding the bags of chewed up food is the worst.

Fuck them all. I just wanna lose weight, leave me the fuck alone and stop making me so miserable

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I don't want to eat the god damn birthday cake just looking at it makes me want to cry.

But my dad went out of his way to try and make me happy even with financial issues. I can't do that to him.

I'll try to eat as little as possible without being sus

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I'm fasting and eating one small meal a day, how am I back all the way to 52.5 kilos? And I'm living with my force-feeding grandma who thinks I'll die if I don't eat like 5 meals a day and she tells my dad that I don't eat enough, which worries him. Like I'm gaining weight stfu😭😭😭 they suprised me with a huge cake and I was doing hiit to burn some calories... Now I've stopped because I just feel so miserable.

I. Just. Want. To. Be. Thin.

I hate how normal and healthy and average I look. I wanna look sick.

I don't have my cutter but I want to relapse so badly. I wanna relapse tomorrow. On my birthday, aftet 10 days clean. I'll find a way to sh.

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It's my birthday in two days but because of financial issues I can't have a party and no one wants to go out with me either:( I'm a week clean but I might just cut on my bd

Doesn't help that my ex's birthday is tmrw and I really fucking miss her and how if we were together rn we'd go out n have fun😭

AND I'm not losing weight.

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God I'm so miserable

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IT'S RAMADAN anddd I live in an islamic country so I can OMAD and instead of it being suspicious it's the right thing to do😀

Though my dad isn't religious and he'd know I'm trying to lose weight and he'd try to stop me

But also I could go live with my (religious) grandma though she'd force me to wake up n eat for suhoor...

Just stay under 800 cals for now.

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I don't trust myself anymore with restricting. I keep failing. I've gained all the weight back and even cvtting myself doesnt help anymore.

I've done it before, why can't I do it again?

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I'm so uncomfy in my skin it's unbearable

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I've regained all the weight I'd lost.

:(

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I went to a birthday yesterday and god the host had my exact ideal body. Tinyyyy waist with perky boobs and a nice butt but skinny overall. I had cried before the party because I looked fat and ugly in everything I wore. I was no doubt the ugliest person yesterday. I'm fasting until I pass out idc I don't deserve to eat I need to starve, starve, starve

P.s my grandma told me that if I ate enough I'd have boobs. IF I WASN'T EATING ENOUGH I'D BE SMALLER AND PRETTIER!! I'm obvs eating too much and I'll never have a mature womanly body, I will hate myself eternally and I will forever get bullied for my body.

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I’ve lost 10 pounds in 4 days

🌸🍄reblog so it can happen to you too!🍄🌸

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I'm just losing my best years over these disordered thoughts and behaviours at this point. It'd be worth it if I was losing weight but I keep getting stuck in a binge restrict cycle that I can't get out of because I keep telling myself I need to become a real anorexic and then I can finally achieve what I'm doing this for. I don't want to recover and eat normally because it feels wrong and I'm scared, but I know the binge-restict cycle is making me so miserable without any weight loss. I don't know what's wrong with me. I just wanna be a real anorexic and lose the disgusting fat on my body...

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Guys gimme tips how do I fall back into my honeymoon phase I need it so bad😭😭😭