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I am going to recover.

My(15) younger brother (11) is going through it and i feel as though i should be there as much as possible for him and that i should be a great role model for him to have a healthy relationship with food, life, everything. I have been on off struggling with my ed(s) ever since i was 11 and have had body issues ever since i opened my eyes. I never got to a point of hospitalisation or passing out from purposeful starvation or anything, but that is for the better. I will certainly have a hard time gaining a healthy relationship with food without delving back into binging or orthorexia but i will do it. Maybe not in a month. Maybe not in a year. But i will achieve it.

Oh yeah i also wanna succeed in my studies and pursue medicine which would not be possible if i continue down this road.

Before this account i had @clarissaclaire. I have been on ed blr since late 2024. Not that long, but too long all the same.

I will keep this account up but i will be deleting tumblr straight after the first interaction on this post to ensure it actually gets out. It will probably get terminated at some point but oh well. Enjoy my old posts while they last ig.

To anyone considering recovery, no matter how you feel about how you look, or how other people might feel about how you look, it will be worth it. Recovery is not linear. There will be ups and downs. But even so, you will be in a much better place than you are now.

~Clarissa

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and then i go and spoil it all by saying something stupid like “fuck this i wanna eat”

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"Bro im not even disordered like im so totally okay" i say as i scroll on ed tumblr

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I am considering doing the diet where you only eat what is offered to you (apart from some fruit i will pack for lunch) until the next time i shit.

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Day 3 of recommending painters/paintings I like every day till my birthday

Not really a painter this time around but an illustrator. I present you: Virginia Frances Sterrett

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this is my plea for young teen girls to stop tagging their selfies “i <3 older men” “dd/lg princess” “age gap”

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(S)ee? He must have an intense and extreme desire for burgers.

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Guysssssssssss

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Whenever im reading something or watching something fictional and the main character is skinny as a result of malnourishment or overworking themself, i do not feel sorry for them. I envy them.

*cough cough* the hunger games, anne with an e, the stolen heir, the folk of the air

(This does not apply to real life situations that i might possibly read or watch about)

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What pisses me off is that there's no happy ending. There's no stopping once i reach my goals. I either maintain or keep going and die, or attempt a recovery where my attempts at beauty slip away from me and i am left with its mere problematic remnants.

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To be seen as weird or even crazy, but beautiful all the same.

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"Your not hungry your just bored"

You're** im sorryyyyy

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Gonna experiment. For the next week i will only eat when i truly am hungry. Like stomach growling hungry, not a small sensation. If i break this rule then im restarting. I am allowed to drink things such as tea, coffee, or monster. This isnt even ana really. This is just normal people eating but i frequently eat when im not even hungry so im fixing that.

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Guys lets not use “my body my choice” when talking about 3d s.

My body my choice is a saying when people are talk about pro choice (which I am for) but pro lifers say it is harmful to abort a fetus (even though it can save people’s lives)

So when you use it in the context of an 3d (a mental disorder that kĩlls hundreds of people every year) they can use that against afab people. Bad people can say “ ‘ my body my choice’ is being used to justify harming yourself!” (I have seen that be used in anti-choice online spaces.)

My body my choice is a good saying! Just don’t use to when talking about harmful activities. 

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I keep forgetting to make this post

But it’s really important

If you see people claiming to be “Ana coaches” block and report them. It’s really dangerous

These people-mostly men- take advantage of our mental illness. Don’t fall for it

Even if you hate yourself and are so tired of being “fat” don’t get one of these men to help you lose weight

They are disgusting people

And we need to spread awareness about it

Because even myself have come across these people and fallen for it

Pushed in to mutilating myself

Stay safe and if tou need a friend for your ed, message one of your mooties 🩷🩷🩷

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Reblogging despite knowing ill keep using them😱🤑

Hey guys here are some tags that are no longer safe!!! ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ

All Anna tags with🕯️

#ed meme

#ana memes

#ed not sheeren

#tw disordered eating

#ed but not ed sheeran

Re-blog to spread the word plz ♡⁠(⁠>⁠ ⁠ਊ⁠ ⁠<⁠)⁠♡

Want to know how I know they're not safe? I got termed for a third time (⁠눈⁠‸⁠눈⁠)