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im 22 and still have an issue eating nuts, or nut heavy flavoured things

im not allergic, but i do have food texture and flavour issues

this isn't the problem with nuts however... no that issue lies with my nana, lovely lady honestly, but she refused to allow me to consume nuts below the age of 8, at least in their pure form, i think she worded it as if it was illegal like how your not allowed booze as a kid, nuts are for adults only

now looking back on this i realise, my nana had me on weekends and as small child in the middle of nowhere northern English countryside i hadn't tried nuts yet, and she knew if i had been allergic the hospital was very far away and that would of been stupid.

So she told me nuts were banned! And i did not question it. But i never got to adapt to the flavour of them as a child, and now as an adult with food issues I suffer.

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Sometimes I draw something, and then I look at it and I'm like no one can ever see this but it's good.

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A personal view of creativity

I am at a constant battle between my body and my mind and I do not know what warning to give you but this is purely venting.

I am unfortunately a person with many ideas, and very little ability to be able to correctly convey those ideas into a consumable format.

Yet at the same time I have no ideas at all and the ability to create the ideas of others when inspired, I live in an endless cycle of creating.

Yet, when I want to create something in the way I view it I fall flat, I have the ideas for a story I wish to create yet when it comes to writing that I become stagnated and frustrated, wanting to see the end product of what I picture yet not having the mental energy to actually create it.

I am punished by my own solitude, I feel as if things would work better if I could just give my ideas to another. Put the story into their head and shape the words they write yet not have to do it myself.

I feel as if I can picture the art I want to create yet I become frustrated, as I know how do it I know what I wish to see and yet for some reason my hands are unable to complete the actions.

But, at the same time I wonder how many of my ideas are my own or have been inspired by others subcontiuoulsy, I make the mistake of throwing away writings and sketches that someone may have loved, I poor time into work no one will see, in a desperate cling to a want to prove that I can do it to myself.

I have distanced myself from the craving for validation I felt in my youth, yet it still sparks joy. I want to be good at something and to let people see the work I do but I hold myself to a high standard that no one set for me but my own perception

I want in a way to create with others yet the dread of anxiety at my ideas falling flat. Of my own mental health ruining me. To not be able to commit to a project for fear that I will burn out and leave others high and dry. To want to and to wish and to speak into the void asking myself why I am unable to simpley create the things I think of. Of my brain running to fast for my body to keep up.

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thank you! For the tag I'm not normally one for this but this looks fun

Go to Pinterest and search [your name] core aesthetic and create a moodboard from the first nine images

I wasn't expecting this to work out so well but I vibe with it, my name is a tree name so I was expecting plants but the vibes are so good.

Uh some no pressure at all tags because I don't think I've ever done one of these before...@happyjackmhafanboy, @crepe-of-wrath, @indieplight-blog

Rules: go to pinterest, search "[your name] core aesthetic" and create a moodboard from the first nine images. no need to mention your name!

Thanks for tagging me @swiftiebvcks !!!

No pressure tags:

@milfrights @dilf-din @retroleia @ivankaramazovsgf @moonchildwildheart @storiesofsvu

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I'm bored so enjoy my doodles

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its okay your not that bad... and i closed a bunch earlier

No but seriously I can’t comprehend… people really keep their browser tabs open all the time? Like more than a few? I literally feel stressed if I have too many open. Which makes me think I might be very strange. Or have something wrong with me lmao

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i love when im trying to render and the files huge and my tablet crashes every 5 minuites

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I give if you progress images because my tablet keeps crashing while I try to render

its doing something I'll finish this but I've been working on it or a while and I can't deal with the crashes right now.

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okay so.. ive been drawing for a number of hours I've made some progress, but I'm stuck in the weird limbo of if i didn't know i was drawing this character i would not know just by looking that it was that character.

ive also decided to throw aizawa in there as well that helps. I'm gonna maybe post the izuku side of the drawing so far we'll see about the full image I'm still a little unsure

i should sleep on this first my eyes are blurry

why now? why at 2am am i suddenly able to do the art.

i hope your ready for some more yakuza vibes mha fanart, imma try and draw izuku this might end badly

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why now? why at 2am am i suddenly able to do the art.

i hope your ready for some more yakuza vibes mha fanart, imma try and draw izuku this might end badly

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me to myself: what if we did inktober this year?

me staring into the void of my own memories: last time I tried it was 2018 and I gave up 6 days in.

my brain: yeah that's because you tried to do them all on the day but if you did it in advance it would be easier.

me: yeah but how is it a challenge then?

the small logical part of myself: it's not supposed to be a challenge it's supposed to be fun.

me: oh.

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Sometimes you’re reading a fic and you can feel the misunderstanding coming and you know it’s going to be bad but you’ve already invested so much time into the fic and it’s all great and now your only choice is to read it and scream

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oh damn do I have some mha time travel fics. bith more recent reads and some of my faves.

Warning some are Explicit and/or have darker themes

Mobius by Foxquills

Accidental Time Travel And The Mayhem That Comes With It by TheFoggyLondonView

Square One by BrittySauce, Tycke

sic semper tyrannis by xaidyl (Niramia)

Janus by jabbadragon

better luck next time by nauticalwarrior

me: I should draw something.

(My 165+ ao3 tabs)

me: nah it can wait.

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me: I should draw something.

(My 165+ ao3 tabs)

me: nah it can wait.

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I imagine this Aizawa is hiding so many tattoos.

If anyone knows any good tattooed Aizawa fics on ao3 send em my way...

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In progress... He's messy

I coloured him...he's pretty now

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I've been going through it with this one