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I love you. I want us both to eat well.

// Christopher Citro

[daughterofchaosstuff]

...she had wild eyes, slightly insane. She also carried an overload of compassion that was real enough and which obviously cost her something.

-Charles Bukowski (Women)

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wrote letters from 13-22😭❤️.....MY HEART🫀🔪

[daughterofchaosstuff]

When Charles Bukowski said,

"I loved you like a man loves a woman he never touches, only writes to, keep little photographs of."

(Love is a dog from Hell)

AND

"I want so much that is not here. And I do not know where to go."

I am headcanoning the two quotes being related to the concept of purest, innocent love; that 'keeping your love's polaroid photos with you everywhere you go' type of love, 'having eyes only for that one person who makes you weak in the knees' type of love, 'no one else catches your attention anymore' type of love, 'writing letters and poetry for them just because they exist' type of love and a whole lot of other sweet gestures that show how much you love them...but all that is not to be found here, not in these times and it makes me feel like I require so much that no one can offer and I do not know where to go and find it...I need me a Bukowski 🩵🥹

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Love is not for those that wanna act cool. Pride and love cannot co-exist in the same body. If you truly want to receive love's gift, you must learn to leave your ego at the door. Else you damn yourself to an eternity of 'almost.'

via-ig@/third_eye_thirst

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Once that hurt turns into disgust, business gets stood on💯

A healing stage is disgust. Yes, disgust.

You will be disgusted by the people whose love you sought. You will be embarrassed about the choices you made and the people who had access to you who didn't deserve it. And this is one of those things that helps you the most to move on because now you know ...like really KNOW... that you need to do better for yourself.

Feel this feeling and let it go. That will never be you again.

[daughterofchaosstuff]

i no longer know what you are up to

i don't know if you tried a new snack

and now it's your favorite thing to eat

when you've had a long day

i don't know what song you have on repeat

or if you put it on on the weekends

just to make everything else go away

i no longer have the right to know how you feel

if there is a possibility of you missing me

and the future we had planned

i do not know a thing about you anymore

but i will hold on to the old you

the one that loved me and at some point in life

said i was their "once upon a time"

- nick <3 (updates)

[daughterofchaosstuff]

studying, fangirling and having 100 side-hobbies because murder is wrong 🎀🩷

[daughterofchaosstuff]

Woman never emerges from a man's ribs, not ever,

it's he who emerges from her womb.

Nizar Qabbani

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Everyone wants something real until they meet someone whose real standards challenge them to be real consistent, real considerate and real committed.

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she dwelled in my heart, and became my rest

she resembles my soul, I call her 'home'

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"all sins are attempts to fill voids"

-the void better never be filled if sins are what it takes to be whole ‧₊˚🩵✩ ₊˚💎

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not anymore:))

“How long have you been holding those words in your head, hoping to use them?”

— John Locke

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You know that feeling you get when you can really sense it in your gut that you're finally leaving behind people, places and things that you thought were impossible to let go of... not just a surface level feeling but an inner knowing; feeling that you're leaving someone(or something) behind and while it still hurts to think that way because it was something you wanted to work out so dearly , all those memories slowly going ghost and you might still have  love for them ...like you could've held it tightly again but this time you don't want to,,,seeing it slip away feels more like a sense of liberation than hurt. And this time you really look forward to what's out there for you in the new...

...you know there's still a part of you left in that old narrative but it just doesn't matter anymore like it used to and you're finally at peace with letting it float away...

whatever you call it,,,it's amazingly peaceful.

So just hang in there🩷,,,you'll get to it too and I am sure you'd be fucking proud of yourself for everything you endured all alone.

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It's just a girl and her Tumblr blog vs the world