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[decayingrealityx]

Easter is coming, I can't afford rent, bills, food and psychiatric meds, all I hear in my head is " I want to die, I want to kms" on repeat, I'm so scared and I don't know what to do if u can help me there is a PayPal in my description, and u have older posts to see my situation.

[decayingrealityx]

I can't stop my voices in my head telling me " I want to die, I want to kill myself" that's what I hear on repeat the moment I wake up. I'm gonna end it I hope this year, I'm sick, no money for rent, meds, food, bills.

[decayingrealityx]

I am in a tough situation, I can t afford rent, utilities, psychiatric meds, my mom is low on money for herself and she can t help me no more, my partner struggles at work and the situation si questionable, I m on a verge of kms, I don t know what to do, if u can help or know someone who can help, I have a PayPal in my description, will be much apreciate, I hate myself for begging for money but I m in a desperate situation and I really don t know how to survive.

[decayingrealityx]

I want to die, I want to kms, I want to die, I want to kms, I want to die, I hope i die suddenly, I can t take this stress for too long, I can t afford food, rent and psychiatric meds, I want to die, I want to kms, I want to die.

[decayingrealityx]

Forced to live. Born to kill myself.

[decayingrealityx]

I started starving myself cause I can't afford food no more, I can't afford my psychiatric meds, my rent, I don't know what I'm gonna do, maybe s@icide is the answer. If u want to help I've got my PayPal in my description.

[decayingrealityx]

Please help me, donate me 10-15 euros/dollars to afford meds Thursday, I have my PayPal in my description, I'm so desperate I don't know what to do I feel so bad for asking this but I don't know what to do I'm broke and I have rent to pay too.

[decayingrealityx]

I feel so horrible, I talked with my mom and she feels sick and I feel so bad cause instead on spending on her own health she is sending me money to live, I hope to die God kill me please, please please please, help me kms I can t do this for too long, I can t afford meds and rent, I m an useless piece of shit who deserves punishment and suffering!

[decayingrealityx]

I m scared and afraid, I can t afford antidepressant and mood stabilizators on my psychiatrist appoiment thursday and I m afraid of side effects after quitting them, what I m gonna do...

[decayingrealityx]

The stress of the fact i can t afford antidepressants and rent this month is eating me up, I think it moves me closer to kms, i don t know if I can do this anymore, I m scared, what I am gonna do, how I m gonna afford rent and meds this month?

[decayingrealityx]

I can't sleep, all I think about is "I want to die, I want to die" on repeat, how I'm gonna pay rent, how I'm gonna afford meds this month? Please give me strength to kms, please.

[decayingrealityx]

I think I will go cold turkey with my psychiatric meds cause I can't afford them this month, can't wait the side effects, I hope I will kill myself.

[decayingrealityx]

I'm worthless. I'm unlovable. I'm a burden. I'm a problem. I doubt I'll ever recover. I just don't want to be alive and in pain anymore.

[decayingrealityx]

I just realized I'm going Thursday on my monthly appointment at the psychiatrist and I don't have money for this month meds, can I kms already?

[decayingrealityx]

I'm in debt to some of my friends, I can't afford to pay rent, my mom struggles really hard cause she has to send me money to live, I think my meds stopped working, I'm a burden to this society and everyone in my life, I'm useless, I can't manage to live normal, I can't find a job, I can't escape my fears and anxiety to live normally, I'm disgusting and I want to die.

[decayingrealityx]

I think the meds stopped working or I'm really stressed with money cause I can't pay rent cause I wake up every morning wishing I will die today, everyday.

[decayingrealityx]

Can someone help me, donate me or give me some websites to make some money I need it for rent, I don't know what to do I'm really desperate, I have my PayPal on my description if u can and want to help. I don't know what to do.